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Thank you, you're welcome. Yes, you presume correctly. The writing occurred over a span of 2 years or so.

What part of it are you thinking about if something stood out more? I haven't rewatched this older video in a while but I've recently been learning more about catatonic states and stupor and other symptoms. Catatonic syndromes turn out to be more common as a whole outside of schizophrenia and psychosis, and another very sad reality is that a lot of black and indigenous people, forced to not have homes by history we don't need to explain here but is just a fact. When seeing people suffering in some corner somewhere and not very responsive, not very aware, but somehow carrying on, I would suspect this is something catatonic now but that's my guess. I definitely did recently read that black people, indigenous, poor people, people without stable homes, and the unhoused with nowhere at all to go, on the street somewhere in a North American or an African city, are overflowing hospital and emergency facilities.

Thank you. Yes, I was watching carefully. It is sad to expect the spontaneous surprise of grave error.. My waving and yelling loudly and suddenly might have been my ticket across the street.

I think that's something to do with the interpreter in use!!

The history I know.. most! Lol 😅

Strangely enough we may have stood beside one another for some time unawares... I did wander into a camp at some point, that your comment triggers a memory about.... The Wizard of Oz and Dark Side of the Moon, I know it's been synched outside of Burning Man.... but that's so familiar hahaha. That BM 2002 was my only year visiting, and Howdy Heck it was a strange messed up time. Strangely the actual week AT Burning Man was somehow a strange holiday from what was happening for a couple years up to that point of getting there. In early September that year, when I was supposed to be in my first days of university courses in Canada, instead I was riding by ambulance back to Canada to go straight to a psych ward. Oh MY, the disorganization.. I don't ever tell the full story of what was socially occurring to me in that time; it's just too weird and hurtful to recall and describe, but yes, the green lasers, staying out all night, the happy people.. that Black Rock Desert is quite the place.

That is a good idea! It's like, obviously there is an order of ability and experience that an adult has which the child does not. And then, I could put it that we ought to still respect the parts that have equality, the same footing we have, the same curiosity and openness we >should have. Thanks for your comment.

I cannot understand your sentences. Too many loops around in my brain, I stopped trying after the second look at your words. Cannot proceed from A to B then to C. This is for sure a CZcams video where I am using words to explore a subject deeply. It may be effectively impossible to read too deeply into something from certain open minded, talkative perspectives. It may always be possible for some people to not want to be prompted to think. I generally avoid idioms except to point out something of the idiomatic perspective, because something like "Ignorance is Bliss."

I started laughing so hard at the metaphor I made out of my brain a few days ago experimenting with audio to MIDI. Know how audio feedback works? Sound out of a speaker into an audio input, and a "constructive loop" that gets loud enough to fry the system with so much vibration. Instead of THAT, after I was done playing some music via audio to MIDI, I put my microphone down, and my speakers started quieting.... But they didn't stop! There was "cross format" feedback!! Sound from speakers was still travelling into the mic, but the computer was processing it in a way that there could be no runaway feedback. But there was a "droning oisy\pleasant chaos"! The way it occurred to me like my very own mind on some personal continuous loop of sound and idea..... I burst out laughing and it was hard for my partner to even understand why I was laughing! Hah!

In my case I have experienced periods like my brain is flashing repeatedly and scanning fast and spotting them fast. It's like surfaces become surreal, abstract patterns that turn into faces morphing between varied expressions. The emotions seen in the faces can but don't need to match the feelings I have, negative, positive, wanted, or unwanted, etc...

@@nednednerb when you experience it are you ever terrified?

@bacchushollywood2021 just seeing faces never bothered It happened as long as I ever looked at patterns, like clouds, trees, fabric... Emotions unexamined, therapy not undergone, and human experiences of violence are what I find terrifying. Truly, pareidolia is just seeing faces in things, to me. Terrifying things are what's terrifying to me. Maybe just seeing faces would be enough for some people, but for me by itself it's neutral. I would say it might be more activated when stress is exaggerating symptoms, sometimes. There is so much overlap with experience and impact with symptoms and things just happening. I sometimes wish I didn't see faces in things sometimes, but that's more on a level of annoyance and distraction.

@@nednednerb have you ever felt like you're on the brink of insanity when in one of these states as you experience it? Or is it just a casual passing observation in all things you see??

@bacchushollywood2021 I am absolutely sure I have been in states of unwelcome distress and instability that feel like "the sense of impending doom" which is a term used for some "anxiety" symptoms, or fear and stress due to social and relational crisis, and I have seen faces appear in my perception of a non living object. At times like that, it was unwelcome, while in my memory the (sense of or reality of) distress or crisis was the melding factor of concern. I have usually experienced many symptoms and they change over time. The individual symptoms for me can sometimes persist constantly, but the stress and distress are what really halt and disrupt living activity.

Probably depends on where they are emotionally and receptively. Some things are undeniably good to talk about and reflect on, I think, but there is a time and place for conversations. When someone is distressed, there is more immediate concern and emotional support that might be "smarter". But if someone is talking openly, calmly, and you ask if they want to watch something, that could be a better approach. If someone is rejecting the ideas being presented, forcing the idea to be taken in is probably counterproductive, and has been in my own experience of running into stressful ideas or triggers in conversation.

Stress is real. You sound real, not crazy, to me.. I do not know you, but I still have a sense about your loss. Emotions being complex and actually hard is probably the number one reason for my thoughts ever being 'weird' or 'disordered'. Understanding that real life is complex and hard to sort through, when accepted, is what will keep us sane. All power to you. All peace to you.

Yup! Hah, I normally don't do such a shoutout but my latest unpaid promotional music satire, about "Deniatol", might get a laugh! 😂 Rather than jeer and rage I like to laugh and cry.

Thanks for saying that. I am well as I can be, I think. I hope you are, too. My brain flashes through a great amount of my memories often.. so I thought about you 'the other day' also!

You are welcome! Thanks for watching. Yes, this kind of material is very personal. It can be challenging just to look at this old stuff.

too bad you didn't have to pass an iq test to make such a useless comment.

Happy new year! Thank for watching in 2024 🤓

People who have schizophrenia & Tourettes usually both are human, have brains, have Broca speech zones in their brains, and develop a language to speak and comprehend. The symptom name I know most for "mental outburst" is actually _thought broadcasting_ where in my experience, the subject matter and the felt meaning of the subject matter, the emotional terror, anxiety, or frustration of a schizophrenia is all wound up in the experience. In fact, I have heard Tourettes described in a way kind of like you did. Some relevant differences are that the 'outburst' language can also coincide with bodily "tics" and that the 'verbal tics' you speak of very generally do not mean anything at all to the person with Tourettes. Your idea is not not totally off, I'm just aware of some thoughts, questions, and possible answers to the ideas that I got elsewhere before reading your comment! Thanks for watching and leaving your comment. I'm not making videos these days, so I'm glad people are still getting something from this content.

I once learned that the form of tobacco, like a strain or related species, originally smoked and used many ways in the Turtle Island would have been probably less addictive and pose less health risk than toxic tobacco agriculture. However, there is no feasible way for a mainstream culture in 2023 to reconnect to that older tobacco without appropriation or exploitation. I never tried it. I am speculating from my own reading. Who knows what I read... Otherwise, in some capacity, "nicotine" might "potentially" do "something" helpful. I don't think it's worth trying anything. It's a "stimulant" right? Need a "boost"? Walking briskly for 5 minutes might be better boosting than a smoke and not hurt your lungs cumulatively. Simply put, comparing the risk of one cigarette with the benefit of one 5 minute walk is more relevant and significant than considering a fringe benefit of nicotine to schizophrenics. Tobacco Industry already argued in the 70s and 80s that tobacco was helpful (probably where you got the idea, ultimately). In 2010s in Canada, the last psych wards were the only places on hospital grounds were people were allowed to smoke. It was considered "more harmful" to stop the smoking which was compulsive. It was actually just very cruel math. The risk of suicide makes having schizophrenia so much worse statistically dangerous than smoking, they said "let him smoke, it's not that bad" --- pure cruelty.

@@nednednerb yes of course but I'm not talking about cigarettes we all know how terrible they are I am more meaning nicotine in another form has been shown supposedly to help schizophrenia I just don't understand why other drugs that are used to help these conditions are considered okay but when it comes to nicotine it doesn't seem to be okay I don't get why other chemical treatments are normal but nicotine extracted from the tobacco plant is not okay ..it's all confusion

@@joeyalfano7800 whatever benefit in improved concentration or memory is outweighed by excessive dependency related anxiety. Small doses don't work. The idea of the interaction of the same cellular and nervous receptors are applicable in the drugs you mention (those considered safe). That's all.

The brain can see literally anything. Dreams, hallucinations, "televisions", but they aren't the physical world, they aren't the way the land can stay generative if technology does not destroy everything. But yes, the brain can see anything especially it wants to.