Perils of a Pedestrian. One driver slow rolled, the next behind him almost hit me.

Crossing the "What Matters" Street When It Gets Here!
Too slow, or too fast, is not what's going to kill pedestrians. Try driving legally. Try driving intelligently. Try looking at what's in front of you on the road. Try following the rules. Okay, this guy is turning left way too slowly. He's rolling illegally. His tires are turned. He's turning slowly. I'm walking legally with a walking light. This angry guy behind him almost hits me. He's looking angry. I yell at both of them. Both of you! Both of you! F-word! And, like, the one guy moving too slow looks stupid and silly, "Ha! Sorry!" And the guy angry is, like, angry he almost killed me because the other guy was driving illegally, so he drove illegally. Too slow, too fast. Drive intelligently. Don't hurt people.
Imagine you're on a path from point Q to point A. How fast do you go? How slow do you go? Well, imagine you hit the gas, then you hit the brake, then you hit the gas, then you hit the brake, then you hit the gas, then you hit the brick, and you've only come on two blocks; or, you could drive slowly. Anticipate that any of the lights could turn red or be green. It's like people are planning five green lights ahead getting through this yellow light. Where is your mind? I'm schizophrenic, and not paying attention to what's important? And people are driving like they do? Haha, haha! The thing about a rule: "Hit the gas to get there faster. If you don't hit the gas enough, you won't get there as fast." This kind of very singular on the path / clear path alone / straight path / No deviation, no obstacle, no opportunity for thought / You can carry on. Keep going. Just go... But, in a metro area with hundreds of thousands of drivers, actually, system theory approaches show us that "just hit the gas" isn't how the whole highway grid works. That's all.
I totally had another idea for another video, and I was thinking about it. I was going to ponder the plan and then come back and try to record something, but then I had to survive crossing the street. The guy moving too slow. He was like, still crawling around the corner in like a freeze frame of slow motion and, like, seeming to react so slowly, whereas the guy who slammed to the brake, slammed on the brake, was like, suddenly aware of me, only suddenly aware of me, slam the brakes. He had seen the guy moving slow, was mad at him, mad. Angry, when I was expressing "Both of you, F-word!" that I was trying to survive. He was angry and the other guy was like confused, slow mo.
When I entered the crosswalk, I saw slow mo detached from reality guy.. notice me! Because he didn't just turn, he was really crawling.. that illegal turn, which is illegal, because hasty mofo's in the back don't know what's up, and they might try rushing the yellow light, which is what the guy did when the thing was still flicking and it was still not a green or yellow light. There was no rush. He was just; the guy behind was like so fast that he didn't see anything but this narrow scope of what he wanted to see. So at this final moment, when the narrow scope of the immediate path in front of him could have killed someone, he was angry at the obstacle that caused that error. Whoa, whoa!
Oh, gee, I am told to keep things micro, not talk global. Not say how the weird two drivers I was talking about in my other videos are somehow part of the global conspiracy to run schizophrenics off the road. Hah ha! No, no, it's nothing global conspiracy like that. It's just how the nervous system works and society operates. Those things are much more simple than strange conspiracies! To survive crossing the street, observing these kinds of nervous systems, the slow mo turners and the aggressive accelerator-brake-like combiners or other. Like just like, oh, I'm just trying to get home!!
The last thing I'll say about this incident, trying to survive walking home from the store, the person who might not have stopped slowly turning, and the person who only slammed on the brakes for a second, like.. in this world, there's no chance of stopping to talk to these two people. For me to express: "JFC, let it go. What's on your mind? Can't you just give up what's going on?" Or something like that? The way people talk about, like, you know, abdicating responsibility, not calling out accountability, but like, what am I to do? Walking around not able to trans-mutate these errors..
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[@MichelleM-vw9qe]

Love it!! So true!

[@tracielottig8283]

I’m glad you’re okay. I often feel invisible, but when I go run 🏃🏻‍♀️ on the road I act like i’m invisible. I have no faith or trust in any driver to see me or act accordingly for my safety.

[@nednednerb]

Thank you. Yes, I was watching carefully. It is sad to expect the spontaneous surprise of grave error.. My waving and yelling loudly and suddenly might have been my ticket across the street.