Crack Addict interview-Donald
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- čas přidán 5. 04. 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Donald, a crack addict on Skid Row.
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Give him that 1 year of rehab in Florida for this man instead of Rebecca. I love her but she clearly doesn’t want it or wouldn’t make it count if she did go. This man says he is ready right now to make a change in his life, he deserves and is ready for rehab. This man deserves to live the rest of his life with more happiness.
I thought the same thing. Wish the best for Rebecca, truly, but this man seems to be in a better mindset for recovery. I can see him doing wonderful things and really turning his life around.
@@rocio4evr8 he has the desire for it. I can tell he’s asking for help, he wants life to be different. He trusted his friend and his friend put him on this awful path. ): I can’t imagine how Donald feels all the time
@Broskisnowski he’s bought Rebecca countless of phones): I really wish she could get it together and take the help offered.
@Broskisnowski I’m also sure that he said he has a phone actually!
I think Rebecca needs more help than just rehab. I'm 11 months off meth now after several fuck ups and redos, I never experienced meth induced psychosis bc I was never awake for longer than 3 or 4 days during my everyday 2.5 year run, but I feel like she has other things going on with psychosis. But she definitely needs the help but she has to really want it and I messed up many times bc I didn't think I had a problem. But my problem is me and I'm trying now. I hope Donald gets better, he has a lot of pain and sadness in his voice...
His speech is poetry. I truly can "feel" his life's pain through his words.
DEFINITELY 😢❤
To me this is more touching than those who are out of their mind... he is so self aware... he has managed to keep some level of dignity after so many years of addiction. God bless Donald
😢😢😢😢❤ YES
This man carries a strong presence, he could change lives with his words.Get better Donald!
At that age. I say go for it. You deserve to do the drugs you want.
Holy shit. What an interview.. This man poured his heart out for all of us. Damn I wish so bad to help someone like this. I was an addict to heroin and opiates for 20 years and now have 7 years clean. Getting sober is different for each of us. There's no one way to get clean
I feel for this man and being a fellow addict of Heroin myself, my gutt aches for this man. Your so right the honesty and pain I felt animating from this human was palpable. I wish I could take credit for helping him, but I pray and plea the blood of Jesus over this man. They only thing I know to do... I believe and have faith he can still bind this addiction in the name of Jesus.
@@acgray1972 Very well said. Congratulations on your sobriety as well.
Yes! And you know? The Risen God does already feel all the same pain.
how'd you start?
Heroin was my Hero in life just got out of detox 2 weeks ago hardest certificate I ever earned in life
This is my Uncle Donald, I love you & we are searching for you ❤️
You could try emailing Mark and inquire where he found Donald. Mark’s email can be found in the “About” section of the Soft White Underbelly channel page. Just fyi.
AMEN😢❤
I never comment on these videos but as a current college student in Cleveland studying social work this truly touched me. Mark please get Donald the help he needs, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so strong about an interviewee before. I’m truly rooting for him. More importantly make sure he sees these comments, he needs to know how much support he has and how many people genuinely want to see him succeed. Lastly Donald if you’re reading this just do it bro. Do it for your mom, do it for your family, your kids, your grandkids, do it for yourself. You deserve happiness and most importantly PEACE and you won’t find it through continuing down this path.
Srry off topic but Are you in a psychology program? I’m looking into going into taking up psychology and social working is an option for me. Best wishes 🙏🏾
He is so detailed in his memories...he needs to write a book...I also lost my dad 40 yrs ago suddenly after he had aggressive cancer...you have been through so much....like me....take care ...tears in my eyes ...
“I don't want to face the reality that I'm in dirty clothes” fuck that hit hard. that fear of facing your path of destruction even when everyone is telling you it's okay IS SO REAL
I’ve watched tons and tons of Mark’s interviews but this one was truly one of a kind … he is so self aware which in turn is eating him alive of guilt .. Donald I am truly rooting for you and I hope you release yourself of that shame .. we all deserve a second chance at life .. Mark can you show him these comments and let him know that he has a community of people behind him ❤
Amen
You can see the kind hearted gentleman he is. His pride is understandable. Hoping for help and light for this wonderful man.
7 minutes in and I’m already in tears. This poor, sweet man 😢
Yep. I started crying right around 7 mins
The saddest part of this to me is how intelligent this man is, and how it is all lost to whirlwind of addiction. I truly hope he is able to pull himself out of it, because he could help so many people out of the same hole that he has found himself in.
This is the first story in about 3 months I'm fully engaged and listening in. Their are few interviews I really listen to, but they change my life.
Wow this interview is powerful. My heart hurts for Donald, he’s struggling with his addiction and emotions.
So well spoken and intelligent. Please help him. ❤
I'm two months into therapy. Sober and learning to forgive myself. I've been attending Rise City Mental health treatment. Have the gentleman give them a call. They really do have a great staff that listens and use techniques to help you understand your mental state. Carlos.
That's awesome! Wishing you the best on your journey!
Mark, you spoke of not believing but your words of hope & forgiveness show of a higher power living within you. Let's call it love, but what ever it is, you are golden. Thank you for sharing.
Jesus
@@Jesusfreedmefully No, it's Mark himself!!
I thought the same exact thing …
One can compassionate without being religious.
Indeed, for me it proves you don’t need religion to be this good. Mark has bucket loads of empathy, he is not afraid to take on someone else’s beliefs to support them. A true empath who uses it as a supper power ❤
Praying for this guy, im 55 yrs old, come right up in thet era of crack, sent me to prison also, the whole 9, Donald, you can do it, ive seen many turn it around, of course it ain't easy but youre at the age right now were you have to do it or die in the streets. 🙏🙏
Only a few minutes in but this guy is amazing. The best interviews are when Mark doesn't need to probe. What a powerful testimony. I wish this man had led another life.
I am genuinely balling my eyes out right now, this is so sad.
Sir, please go home, be with your mother.
I've been in similar situations, and I'm currently caring for my mother who is in her late 80s, - my brothers gave this task, as they knew it would limit my drug use, and give me a responsibility, something I've never had my whole entire life, and I'm well into my 50s.
I was once told something at a therapy session, I believe it might be Buddhist, it can sound a little brutal, but it's not meant that way,
- "What cannot be changed, MUST be accepted."
You're only so reliant on the cocaine, because you keep dwelling on the past, and the negative, but that is just a futile game of self torture.
Please sir, you have the words, wisdom, empathy and the knowledge, you're better than you think, much better, I assure you.
Please, go home, be with your mother, for your mother, and most importantly for yourself.
love to ALL, feel no hate
Amen
This is beautiful 🥺🖤🖤
Love this, thank you
The sad part is that just like the other 99.9% of addicts that are out there they have chosen the drugs and lifestyle that goes with that over all family members and friends. I am not trying to judge this man nor am I trying to judge his circumstances. I’m fully aware that there are some who are homeless and addicted to something and they got there through no fault of their own. I’m not saying this is a bad person and yes addiction is hell for the addicts and the addicts families. I’m simply pointing out the obvious and that is the choices we make effects so many others than we understand. So we just quit trying to understand and focus on what is needed to be able to feed our habits. God bless this man and his family
He may not be welcome home with his mother. I haven't used drugs in 6 or 7 months and my mother still won't speak to me. Only about me still trying to get everyone to turn their backs on me and calls every now and then screaming about what a piece of shit I am. I do try to reach out and let her know I still love her etc from time to time. That's my blood mother atleast. Even before that I hadn't gone near her if I was using at the time for years I'd only come around sober, even if I had to be sick to do so. I do have someone I call Mom that is supportive and wants the very best for me and I'm very thankful for that.
I hope he and his mother can reunite before she or he passes as I do with my own mother aswell though.
It sounds like you have a great family Ian Tanner and I wish you the best.
Go Donald🌟you got this. Thank you Mark for your compassion, patience and encouragement.
Mark please don’t stop doing these. Please. I know it’s rough on you man. Take some time for yourself we will understand. But man you and all these guests being so honest and open. It’s saving so many lives. Keep going
One of the best interviews! I’m praying for him. I pray he recovers.
Donald, my father suddenly died when I was 9. There were 3 children and I was the middle child. Due to how difficult this was, and cultural factors, we almost never talked about Dad after that. After Dad died , and we moved back to our home, (after staying with my grandmother (his mother) for a couple of weeks), and I have almost no memories from that point until I became a teenager.
Amazing how that drug in particular, effects folks so differently. It's the 'want more' dope. I smoked it once, for 2 years. I lived in total stress while losing everything. God saved me when I was unable to see my own worth. Thank you for sharing your story. Peace and blessings Brother.
I love that. I “smoked it once for 2 years”. 😌 poignant 👍
Donald Keep the hope alive .here is a hand 🤝hold on . I am a addict been clean and sober 40 years. There is a light in the darkness . Sending you Prayers 🙏🙏🙏 and Strength 💪💜
Addiction is a definite sickness that grips a man like no other. I give him all the credit for pouring his heart out. I'm friends with his brother Lennie since we both started selling shirts at concerts in the early 80's. All prayers Donald that you can break the cycle of Addiction 🙏
His addiction is his escape - his coping mechanism. So sad for those who suffer with addiction - I would not want to be in his shoes....such an enormous struggle! Very intelligent man who clearly understands his addiction!
The death of his father was devastating and have affected him through his entire life. 😢
This hurts me to my soul. He will never feel the same if he gets high after this. He is bigger than his addiction! ❤❤
Just by looking at the pictures in black and white, you never know which interview you'd watch on soft white underbelly that will get you emotional or be an eye opener.
What a life story. Man @Soft White Underbelly, your interviews are 2nd To None
The amount of guilt he feels in his heart keeps him wanting to get drugs and hide his true emotions.
This was one of the most heartfelt interviews I've ever watched on this channel. I felt his scencerity, pain and readiness to breakout of the cycle of his addiction. I hope, strongly for this mans FULL recovery and peace.
Donald, addiction is a disease like any other. It needs treatment. It’s not your fault. Go home and get treatment so you can be with your family 💜
That made me feel the feels when he said he’s waiting for someone from his family to come get him , I am a daughter of a addict mother I know how hard it can be to have to constantly care for and support a addicted family member but I always ask myself what’s the other option to lose them permanently? I encourage his family and friends to find him and let him know how much they care 😊 wishing you sobriety and happiness Donald☀️
I am the daughter of an addict father and I had to let him go. I could not have that around my family. It was so toxic. I love my dad. But I can't make him change and I can't accept him for how he is. I picked my family, I am a mom now. I have to protect my daughter.
It’s a super fine line to walk so you don’t expose your kids to it , your 100% right
@@skyborso4158 same!
Well I’m blown away I really am, this man deserves a second chance 😢his story is warming, sad, joyful, I really hope he turns a corner, somebody please grab this gentle giants hand and help him he needs it, greetings from Ireland Donald you can do this. 🙏🙏🇮🇪
Thank you for the interview Donald and SWU
very touching interview. He seems to be such a gentle soul who’s just been through so much suffering, and probably still is. Wish he can turn his life around for good.
The Jim Jones story broke me. I have never heard of a survivor. This man is broken with grief. Lord help him heal from all the hurts and help him to be at peace with God. It was not punishment sir. I don’t know why you suffered so much as you did in your young life but I still believe God has something for you. Praying for you to heal sir
MARK: THIS IS THE BEST INTERVIEW YOU'VE DONE BY FAR. PERIOD. This guest has such a heartbreaking story but it also is moving BEYOND WORDS to hear Donald open up. I wish nothing but the best for Donald + I'm sorry for his suffering. I hope he can forgive himself TRULY like you said Mark
Donald you are a special man. It’s never too late to love yourself unconditionally, i’m wishing you the very best ❤
This interview will help enlighten some one to change...I can feel it. Good work. ❤️
I definitely want to see the follow up when he is clean. Best wishes and stay strong.
Finally! SWU is back in its primary wonderful form! I cried my eyes out at work watching this. I hope he is strong enough to go home when he's truly ready to do so.
A minute at a time. An hour at a time. A day at time. We can do this Donald. You appear to have sooooo much to offer to this world. Addict in recovery here for over 8 years. Same DOC. It’s a mind effer, but it can be done once the pain and desperation are great enough. And then the days can pile up my friend. That’s what people who wanted to help me told me when the obsession raged and it held true. Much love and respect.
This man is so close and so far from overcoming. May Grace fall upon him.
Regardless of your beliefs. His story and what this human being went through is very sad. We are all driving down a different path. Which is why I say never judge anyone, everyone’s story is very different and sad with whatever one decides to believe in.
Nice to see some empathy
Agreed!!!!We all have different paths. I used to work with addicts and everyone had different paths.
That says everything about humanity (society), he reflects it!
Pat you all on the shoulder, you are the system!
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Eddie Ceniceros, but what they write is right and correct!
Every word that this man said was so powerful 😭
Absolutely heart wrenching. This was me! FULL of guilt and shame, wanted to numb all of that pain. Until I went to a good treatment place, and learned so much about mental health, began to forgive myself, asked God to remove my shame and guilt, and declare today that it HAS been removed! I’m on the right mental health meds finally, and after 20 years of hell, feel like I’m living. I pray for this precious man. I feel his pain. But I would tell this man, don’t just sit there and “wait on God”, God has given you the tools to start making changes, you also have to do the footwork!
Thank you Mark for encouraging him.
Mark, you have the sweetest calmest voice, and always giving the best advice
I'm rooting for you, Donald ❤. You still have the rest of your life to live 🙏🏾 Go be with your mum & the rest of your family.
Amen
1 is too many
1000 is never enough
I learned that the hard way, and I hope Donald can eventually realise that one day.
God Bless him. I hope he finds the help wants and needs! Thank you for sharing his story 🤍
This man is a specimen. Good genes, very well spoken, self aware
A specimen? Good genes? Sounds like what they'd say at a slave auction.
@@UCanHaveHim my exact thoughts, is that all white people ever think about? Good genes well spoken…that’s nothing compared to what’s happening here
@@UCanHaveHim 💀
and a looser as he is still an active addict n livin in the gutter at his age PMSL. like come on mate 'get it to f'n getha Ya..
Why am I not so convinced that Donald is truly authentic?... seems like lots of self-pity and no accountability.
Maybe he just loves getting high. Who knows.
You deserve better for yourself bro, nothing but respect to you, the struggle is real
Thank you for sharing your story. So many of us are rooting for you.
Donald, RESPECT AND SUPPORT to you on your journey!!! You have touched me all the way here in 🇧🇧. I am rooting for!!! You are a powerful house!!!❤
“If I don't find that entity to believe in I might never recover” the entity is YOU!!!!
Rare brutal honesty. Thank you Donald and Mark.
Therapy. Finding a solid therapist can lead to extraordinary breakthroughs. You're in so much pain. I hope you heal brother. You're a good man.
This man is so amazing his story is so touching. He is aware of reality and what he did and he’s so open about it. I believe he can change the world
Great interview as always. I hope this man takes your encouragement to heart. All of us need to learn to forgive ourselves. It’s easier said than done, but we need to learn to do it.
this one hit hard, i really wish him the best, i hope he's gonna get better, he's an honest man
Brilliant, fascinating story, Donald. No matter where you are in life, I think everyone can gain something from this interview. Love you, man. I'm someone who has struggled with what to do in life and turned to uppers to fix my feelings.
I enjoy watching these interviews. They are more interesting than a lot of stuff on TV, real talk 💯
I see my father in this man, rest in peace Papa Bob
Donald I’m in Germany. I’ve been listening to your story 40 minutes straight! You’ve been so hard on yourself and I somehow can resonate but please give your heart PEACE. Your mother needs you. As a caretaker for my father I can tell you that our time with our parents is limited and best believe if your mother is no more that pain will eat you alive. Go and spend some time with her. FORGET about EVERYONE who wants to judge you! We are all sinners no one has the right to judge another. You’re so self aware! You said you need help MARC this is YOUR sign!! This man is ready to get help. His voice, stature and everything he said is pure poetry. Give this man the arm he was talking about please.
Wow. My heart is broken..for the first time in regards to this channel. I genuinely pray all of his Angels will continue to cover him & give him the strength he needs to lead him into the life that he truly, genuinely wants to live, deep down. Whatever that looks like for him! This is the first time I will be donating $ to the gofundme in someones name.
He's not stopping his addiction that's the truth of it
This Story is a vibe that goes thru and reverberates to the Core omg it can shatter the very soul may God bless my brother to see a brighter day 😮👍
God bless you. I’m praying for your strength to defeat this disease.
This interview was riveting!! One of the best interviews I’ve seen on soft white underbelly!! Donald, YOU CAN DO IT. I believe in you. ❣️ give yourself a chance. You are worth it!!! You are an incredible human being 💯✅‼️
One huge reason why many refuse to attend or stay in AA is because they insist that you surrender to a higher power (god). It's ridiculous and a big turn-off shoved down the members' throats. It's was a big reason why I stopped going to Al-Anon.
Same. I hate that shit. I went through the 12 steps with a sponsor and i never had a spiritual experience
Thanks for everything
I can't believe
this one has so few views, what an amazing interview! We're rooting for you, Donald!
I absolutely love this man my heart breaks listening to him God bless you honey I pray you find your peace
God, I am in tears. Bless this man. I hope he’s safe and feels loved today. I hope he’s warm and fed.
Your words are so strong! I have never believed anyone more. I hope that one day you can clean up and use your words to help youth or younger people in their lives to overcome their obstacles.
This is one of my favourite interviews. My heart hurts to see this man feel so broken. I hope that he finds a way out.
I believe you gave this man some hope. Him getting this stuff off his chest will hopefully change his next decision to get loaded.
Damn, this man is wise and deep. He’s gonna get his closure and happiness.
I can totally hear that pain in his voice. I hope he heals from his pain and trauma
Someone get this man with his family
Thanks for sharing your story Donald.❤
Beautifully well spoken man 🥺
He sounds like he has sat around alot of 12 step meetings telling his story.
This man is soooo relatable. I really hope he can get help, he's such an intelligent and beautiful person, I wish he could see that.❤
Another polarizing interview.
I'm rooting for you, Donald! I know you'll be back to share your story of recovery and I am excited already. Create your ideal higher power and name he/she/it what you want. Live the life you so deserve. ❤🙏🏾
Ok so this made me cry. Wow what a powerful story. Bless him 🙏🏾🙏🏾
What a sweetheart. So honest. So in pain. I just wanna give him a hug ❤
This is a gentleman you’d want to break bread with 💕👍🏼
A Buddhist Prayer for Forgiveness ~ If I have harmed anyone in any way either knowingly or unknowingly through my own confusions, I ask their forgiveness. If anyone has harmed me in any way either knowingly or unknowingly through their own confusions, I forgive them. And if there is a situation I am not ready to forgive, I forgive myself for that. For all the ways that I harm myself, negate, doubt, belittle myself, judge or be unkind to myself, judge or be unkind to myself through my own confusions, I forgive myself. Donald you are worth it!!!
Thank you for saying this. I needed to hear it today
Were rooting for you Donald!! Love and light man!!
Thank you Donald ❤, for sharing your story. God Bless you 🙏🏾
This channel is full of wisdom from the least expected people ❤❤ Anyone who introduces you to Crack is Not your friend!😮😢
I’m so emotional for Donald 🙏🏾 even with all the hurt & pain his soul is so deeply beautiful
I grew up in the 80s and 90s I did my share of drugs every kind, I love to get high especially psychedelics and cocaine but I realized no matter how much I liked it I could always put it down able to use recreationally but I lost many friends along the way that couldn’t stop and it became everything to them everyday so tragic and hell to watch helplessly