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  • čas přidán 2. 10. 2022
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Nate, a fentanyl addict in Los Angeles.
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Komentáře • 927

  • @mandygipson9906
    @mandygipson9906 Před rokem +542

    Nate has always been someone I’ve worried about and adored. Some of my favorite high school memories included him. Always intelligent, kind, and a great conversationalist, he could have done so much with his life. I know there are so many others in Oswego who are rooting for him and hate to see him going through this. Nate, you can make it, I’m going to keep having faith in that. ❤

    • @mandygipson9906
      @mandygipson9906 Před rokem +27

      I hope somehow he sees all the positive comments on this video ❤

    • @joshuagarris2752
      @joshuagarris2752 Před rokem +5

      @Noodle Fringe a shame? How about you go and experience everything that's happened to him and see how your life turns out

    • @joesalsbery2324
      @joesalsbery2324 Před rokem +37

      I'm the brother he's talking about and this is simply embarrassing. 95% of this is a lie. Another scam he's running.

    • @ginacampbell8766
      @ginacampbell8766 Před rokem +2

      @@joesalsbery2324 😳

    • @ginacampbell8766
      @ginacampbell8766 Před rokem +21

      @@joesalsbery2324 i seriously believe that the word out on the streets is to make sure you tell Mark some horrifying story and possibly get more money 💰 out of it.

  • @DukeV00d00
    @DukeV00d00 Před rokem +687

    I went to high school with Nate, and our circles of friends overlapped. We went to punk shows together, went to the same parties, etc. He was always pretty well spoken, but definitely the wild child. Full of crazy stories, and everyone knew who he was in our small-ish, straight-laced town. He was always well-liked though. Can't believe he made it all the way to LA. Really hoping he can turn his life around, he's very bright and charismatic. Good luck, man!

  • @cherrygirl64
    @cherrygirl64 Před rokem +182

    As a 30 year oncology nurse I'm perplexed about his stage 4 liver cancer. He still has muscle mass and can eat among other contradictions. I grew up with a brother with psychiatric problems and history of drug abuse in the 60's, who spent his whole life claiming to have cancer. I'm afraid this guy is self diagnosing and has significant mental health drug addiction psychosis. I hope he can get straightened out and see 41.

    • @nicolelewonkenobi
      @nicolelewonkenobi Před rokem +15

      Absolutely what I was thinking!

    • @joesalsbery2324
      @joesalsbery2324 Před rokem +60

      I'm the brother he's talking about and this is simply embarrassing. 95% of this is a lie. Your correct

    • @greenie75
      @greenie75 Před rokem +5

      @@joesalsbery2324 He doesn't have liver cancer then?

    • @shannonsmith2642
      @shannonsmith2642 Před rokem

      He definitely looks too healthy to have cancer.

    • @mturn444
      @mturn444 Před rokem +17

      Gay denial as well I would say.

  • @power77
    @power77 Před rokem +188

    That you saved ‘your’ son’s life is something to be proud of dude! Stay safe Nate.

  • @ramosyesenia37
    @ramosyesenia37 Před rokem +69

    I want an update on this guy at some point. I feel for him.

  • @deroffi1572
    @deroffi1572 Před rokem +35

    Nate, I usually don't address people directly in the comments, but if you read this, I just want to tell you, that you made quite an impression on me. A positive impression. You seem to be a kind person who deserves better. I've been crying for over half an hour now. You are an absolute hero for saving that infant and caring for him. I wish you all the best, deep down from my heart!

  • @prettynmung
    @prettynmung Před rokem +35

    "graduated 3rd in my class, from the bottom." I was so invested in what he was saying that this couldn't of came furtherer out of left field. had me dying laughing and now tearing up. take care of yourself brother.

  • @mrspricey
    @mrspricey Před rokem +186

    What a life! All what he's been through and not one ounce of bitterness in him. Wish him nothing but the best for the time he has left x

    • @clopper3753
      @clopper3753 Před rokem

      And you believe everything you read and see on the internet. No wonder scammers from Africa are taking americans for fools.

    • @anasun425
      @anasun425 Před rokem +7

      You’re very gullible. Most of what he said are lies. It’s obvious. And his brother confirmed it.

    • @RacingFactions
      @RacingFactions Před rokem +4

      I was wondering what happened to Guile from Capcom's Streetfighter

    • @natalievu4399
      @natalievu4399 Před rokem +1

      Isn't it something!?
      I've met college kids who had a pampered & sheltered life, harboring so much hate, anger & bitterness inside .

    • @camdaman1064
      @camdaman1064 Před rokem +6

      @@anasun425ou believed a comment on the internet that said he was his brother and was lying? What if you’re the one believing the lie? You don’t know the guy. You don’t know if he’s lying or not. Don’t believe everything on the internet. And certainly don’t believe one thing over the other and call it truth when you’re just picking which one you *want* to believe. I’m not saying he’s telling the truth. But I’m also not saying he’s lying.

  • @renatafilipedasilva4677
    @renatafilipedasilva4677 Před rokem +48

    His story breaks my heart,you can tell he as such a gentle soul,unlike most of the people living his lifestyle he doesn't want to rob or to join a gang...I really hope he can recover from addiction and live a good life while he can

  • @ross1327
    @ross1327 Před rokem +343

    Love ya Nathan. Its been a long time-- never thought in my wildest dreams that I'd see you on this channel. I watch this channel regularly-- to both keep up on what's going on out there and also to remind myself of what my life would look like if I were to ever return to active addiction. You know you're not living right brother; you gotta find yourself a bed and clean out. You're up against it; I know. But there's more to life-- and you know it. No matter how much of it you have left. If I can help you find detox, reach out! Love you man 💜
    -Ross Hendricks

    • @helenaneumann1872
      @helenaneumann1872 Před rokem +15

      I think he's already had a few withdrawals and still ended up deeper and deeper into the drug swamp. But it's great that you haven't given up hope for yourself and now want to help others. I hope Nate reads your offer of help and takes action.

    • @kwristal00
      @kwristal00 Před rokem +20

      I love this message to him! Its great to see people in his life actually reaching out and giving positive advice 🙌 Good luck and love to you both

    • @TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet
      @TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet Před rokem +7

      You truly love him then why haven’t you kept in touch with him and try to help him. Leaving a generic message which serves the “hey look at me, I know him” does nothing for him.

    • @TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet
      @TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet Před rokem +2

      @@kwristal00 reach out? How about reaching out where it’s not a generic message in the comment section that serves a “hey look at me, I know him” purpose. You think that dude is gonna read the comments? If he does he’s more than likely gonna be pissed that someone who claims to love him hasn’t reached out except when it’s to give attention to himself.

    • @kwristal00
      @kwristal00 Před rokem +32

      @@TruthHurtsSoGetAHelmet most people are robbed on Skid Row and don't have a phone for anyone to contact them. To me, reaching out through CZcams comments is more than not reaching out at all. Not everyone will agree and that's ok. I hope you have a beautiful day 💗

  • @afterthestorm221
    @afterthestorm221 Před rokem +40

    Fear and intimidation have no place in a childhood, especially from a parent who becomes the first bully.

  • @statusdisarray9598
    @statusdisarray9598 Před rokem +177

    I understand what he means by “I escaped pedophiles” to this day I feel sick and sad for the kids who didn’t speak up with our local guitar teacher.

    • @Reesa23
      @Reesa23 Před rokem +13

      Especially in the early 80s we had Gacy picking up boys around that area in Chicago.

    • @amberadams2935
      @amberadams2935 Před rokem +7

      Seriously wanna have my son learn piano or karate or any cool shit n then alwys think can't trust the instructor how u supposed to keep ur kid safe without hindering them is so hard...

    • @amberadams2935
      @amberadams2935 Před rokem +5

      @@theearthlaughs4251 I was the activities coordinator ata resort so I did arts and crafts with the kids..but the resort was always empty so only one day ever a lady came n left her 2 sons with me for like 45min n it was sooo weird...the kids didn't listen ran all over the room playing with my random props n things while i painted their pictures to show their mom thy did art...omg I was like this shldnt be allowed no one knows me how thy even trust me ahhhhh...those 2 boys took over literally smashing ona piano while I did their work ahahaha

    • @tigerrrrrrrr6586
      @tigerrrrrrrr6586 Před rokem +2

      MACHINE GUN KELLY

    • @Hi-bl8rm
      @Hi-bl8rm Před rokem

      So you knew and didn’t speak up for the kids?

  • @enriquepelenato4956
    @enriquepelenato4956 Před rokem +85

    Wish I could hug this dude man. Don't give up hope at all. You're a survivor and many people in your shoes would've buckled along time ago. You're 10000x stronger than me man I think my life is hard I haven't gone through shit compared to you. Hope your treatment is successful and you find reasons for yourself to try and live sober rest of your life. Recovery isn't easy but it's worth it

  • @zheliak6536
    @zheliak6536 Před rokem +59

    I was diagnosed BPD too, I love this channel because it gives people like me a voice and although I’m just making a comment, it’s not much but for what it’s worth it I feel less alone knowing there are people like me clinging to hope, fighting to make it another day, even if it seems there’s no point it’s good to know I’m not alone.

    • @irinaalexandria46
      @irinaalexandria46 Před rokem +4

      Your comment does mean a lot! Those who have shared similar lived experiences need to not feel alone! I’m proud of you for opening up! It’s definitely all a step in the right direction. You don’t know who really that you’ll be inspiring!

    • @kevinr5501
      @kevinr5501 Před rokem +1

      Hi there, I can relate and I agree entirely. I’m so lucky I’ve been supported through difficulties by my family, friends, and people at work. Peace.

    • @zheliak6536
      @zheliak6536 Před rokem

      @@irinaalexandria46 thank you

    • @zheliak6536
      @zheliak6536 Před rokem

      @@kevinr5501 I hope we have follow up episode of this one, Nate is a real life hero.

  • @abbybutler7784
    @abbybutler7784 Před rokem +75

    Nate if you’re reading this stay strong stay hopeful. I’m praying that you can get out of this nightmare. I have faith in you. You got this❤️❤️🙏🏾

  • @zhinningenge1754
    @zhinningenge1754 Před rokem +18

    When I was a kid in the 80s, the only interviews I saw were of celebrities, and their lives seemed so fascinating.
    SWU has shown me that everyone's life is truly fascinating.
    Great job, Mark

    • @diesto-vg5jz
      @diesto-vg5jz Před rokem +1

      Celebrities are just as drugged up but it's legal for them and they don't get their life ruined over possession...that's just what they do to poor people

  • @evelynsmith7510
    @evelynsmith7510 Před rokem +156

    Mark you stay with the most raw consistent content out of anyone! The interviews are alway on point and give a new look into the crazy world we live in. I have almost 5 years completely sober YOU too can do it! I still need a Patrick update!

  • @sdnoorr
    @sdnoorr Před rokem +106

    I hope he is given the love, support, and resources to change and enhance his life to obtain a life that he truly deserves. He seems like a great and genuine human, I wish him nothing but the best. I’m so sorry for every bad thing he has been through, truly did not deserve all of that pain that he’s endured that started at such a young age for him. Good luck Nate! ❤️

    • @zsazsarose
      @zsazsarose Před rokem +5

      Peace and love to you as well Nate!!!! ❤

    • @adambrocklehurst4211
      @adambrocklehurst4211 Před rokem +1

      Sarah when you're a addict you get the life you deserve, it doesn't get better till you clean yourself up, and this guy is deep in his addiction, so in truth it's difficult to say what's left beneath.

    • @tracykj56
      @tracykj56 Před rokem +4

      @@adambrocklehurst4211 I have to say, I don't think Nate has gotten what he deserves! He's been dealt a really vile hand in life. No one deserves the things he's gone through! I will say that there are consequences that come from addiction, and he's certainly faced those. But he didn't deserve any of it! Don't give up Nate! Start the treatment for your cancer before you don't have that option! You can't afford to stall on that! Keep your options open. Ask for help for your addiction. There is hope! Accept help. Love to you, and prayers for you.

    • @adambrocklehurst4211
      @adambrocklehurst4211 Před rokem

      @@tracykj56 I know you mean well, but the worst thing you can do with someone is addiction is indulge them. Abuse is a reason people (,like myself) used drugs or drank, but that's just part of it, there's our behaviour too, our destructiveness, our impact on others, that's down to us. And without a reality check, sobriety then radical therapy, you won't recover. Addicts want to hear from people like you, it maintains the delusion, continues the cycle. Eventually you need to turn around and say, your experiences don't give you the right to damage others.

    • @upperplaygrounds6913
      @upperplaygrounds6913 Před rokem

      @Adam BrockleHurst have you ever been a addict ? If not I understand your skeptical POV..But its really not hard to see this person still has good in him , I see allot of anxiety and self consciousness tho which is gonna be really hard deal with because it'll get worse than Normal when sober , His age may be a negative too because usually once addicts use past 40yrs they don't stop but he still has a chance 💯

  • @oceanai1924
    @oceanai1924 Před rokem +41

    I love how raw and real and vulnerable Nate's interview is. Despite all his deep trauma, he still has a kind and loving soul. I hope that he can find peace and the strength to keep fighting his demons another day. God bless him🤗

  • @ashx2643
    @ashx2643 Před rokem +58

    What a lovely soul he broke my heart listening to what he’s been through, I wish him all the happiness in the world I hope he finds a safe place to be

  • @joannamendoza2353
    @joannamendoza2353 Před rokem +57

    Truly hope Nate can somehow get better. He seems like a gentle and pained soul 🙏🏼💔❤️

  • @ashtonkarr7154
    @ashtonkarr7154 Před rokem +102

    Not saying he doesn’t have liver cancer but when I worked at a prison there were several inmates who’d tell me they were convinced they had cirrhosis of the liver without being evaluated. I hope he’s seen a doctor to confirm the liver cancer because the fentanyl definitely isn’t keeping you alive. It’s keeping your mind sane because to kick that shit you go through hell. I wish that my tax$ would go to ppl like this man who needs insulin rather than all my tax$ blowing up innocent civilians abroad.

    • @fritzfxx
      @fritzfxx Před rokem +15

      Luckily, fentanyl analogues are not hard on the liver. Most opioids are actually non-toxic. The impurities/cut may be, however.
      Unfortunately, the danger of most drugs is not due to their inherent toxicity, but the lifestyle that comes with them.

    • @robbikarboski6266
      @robbikarboski6266 Před rokem

      And shooting rockets to astroids.How stupid.No Nasa,No.

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před rokem +4

      Anyone who seriously wants off drugs, even fentanyl, can do it without any withdrawal if they're prescribed suboxone. It works and after a while you can slowly wean off. The fentanyl he's using is helping him with his pain.

    • @betsybabf748
      @betsybabf748 Před rokem +5

      @@ashtonkarr7154 He's most likely not taking a dose with acetaminophen like you did. Those are such lose doses of opioids, no one who is addicted to Fentanyl would feel anything from an entire bottle of those. Usually when they prescribe a regular patient Percocet, it's only 5 mg which comes with with acetaminophen. That's like taking nothing for most, but especially a joke for an addict. What he would take wouldn't have any acetaminophen.

    • @upperplaygrounds6913
      @upperplaygrounds6913 Před rokem

      Foreal Im not gonna call him a lair but its also extremely unlikely he abducted and was almost r *ped 2 times in his first 14 days in LA after running from a Pedo in chicago ..That would mean 3 times in a month or so....If thats true he is the Most Lucky & Unlucky person on Earth , But as a ex addict I know things aremt what they seem & allot of addicts including myself when addicted Tell fake story's just like that either to hide the real story's or for attention\ sympathy....💯

  • @Sleepparalysisdemon2
    @Sleepparalysisdemon2 Před rokem +13

    As a RN who has worked oncology and med surg, I am * perplexed* about his liver diagnosis. Most liver cancer patients have a survival rate of 2 to 5% over a year. It involves jaundice , muscle wasting... Drug induced psychosis is a safe bet though. I do hope he can find a way.Its can be ridiculous hard to get into treatment under the best circumstances, ( and by best circumstances I mean stable housing.. A better economic situation) Finding treatment is exceedingly difficult for those without a more stable situation) I have empathy for him; I hope he can find his way.

    • @upperplaygrounds6913
      @upperplaygrounds6913 Před rokem

      True I'm not gonna call him a liar tho but its also extremely unlikely he was running from a R **pist in Chicago and then within his first 14 days in La He gets abducted twice and almost raped both times again ! ? That's like 3 times in a month if that's True he is the most Lucky Unlucky person , But sadly addicts tell fake story's like this IV also done it during addiction and saw allot of others do it for attention \ Sympathy & to hide the real truth

    • @natemorganstandup
      @natemorganstandup Před rokem +2

      After the 5th ultrasound when they admitted that they were circling the anomalies on my liver which covered about 85% of it I quit going to the doctor. I hope it's not cancer but they seem to be certain it was feels like there's a bowling ball falling out of my back when I don't medicate

  • @mydailyreward2090
    @mydailyreward2090 Před rokem +12

    What a beautiful soul. Such a good human, has a good heart....life has hurt him too much.

  • @lilkimmipoo7855
    @lilkimmipoo7855 Před rokem +11

    I watch so many of your interviews, and this one struck me, he seems to have such a kind soul. I hope he can get the support and help he needs to turn things around.

  • @secondhalo
    @secondhalo Před rokem +6

    this guy seems great. saved a childs life and everything. now save your own, the world needs more caring people in it like you

  • @John-th8qt
    @John-th8qt Před rokem +92

    He looks pretty good for a liver cancer patient and I hope he pulls through so he can come back and tell more outrageous stories!!!!

    • @angelategos7217
      @angelategos7217 Před rokem +3

      i agree!! he's both interesting AND articulate!! he definitely stands out among his peers

    • @jitblues
      @jitblues Před rokem +6

      And he's diabetic. Scary.

    • @erindiazmclaughlin
      @erindiazmclaughlin Před rokem +14

      @@jitblues Alot of people with liver issues are diabetics. My sister had a liver transplant due to diabetes and...drinking. But unfortunately alot of it goes hand in hand.
      Either way, he seems like such a kind individual. I hope that he gets his Mr. Rogers lifestyle with his love and his child. God Bless

    • @aaronf1078
      @aaronf1078 Před rokem

      @@mihe6212 yes

    • @betsybabf748
      @betsybabf748 Před rokem

      After suffering 'capital punishment', he also looks terrific for a deceased person. Let's hope he meant corporal punishment.

  • @Ali-Renee
    @Ali-Renee Před rokem +20

    *I think Nate meant CORPORAL PUNISHMENT & not CAPITAL PUNISHMENT 😂*

  • @Donna.M
    @Donna.M Před rokem +24

    Hope he gets better such a beautiful soul sending him love and prayers. ❤️🙏

  • @karinascalzo8074
    @karinascalzo8074 Před rokem +17

    Wow, I have no words for everything this man has been through. I hope he finds the strength to get out of this pit. Clearly he has a purpose here on this earth after that miracle with his son. 💕🙏

  • @evn556
    @evn556 Před rokem +90

    I wish I could take some of his pain away. If you’re reading this Nate please don’t give up, go get that girl of your dreams and your little girl. You deserve to be happy. You’re worthy.❤

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před rokem

      He doesn't want to quit using. Every addict knows they can quit without having any withdrawal by using suboxone and getting away from other users. It's not hard IF they want it. It saved my life when I was at death's door.

    • @diesto-vg5jz
      @diesto-vg5jz Před rokem

      He is in so much pain from cancer that he can't becsuse pain medicine is illegal foe poor people so he's stuck on it from the streets. To stop would mean sever cancer pain that would drive anyone to suicide

    • @natemorganstandup
      @natemorganstandup Před rokem

      @@diesto-vg5jz I'm glad somebody can understand. I'm actually taking what the doctors would be prescribing me anyway. It's keeping me alive

  • @TimjanT
    @TimjanT Před rokem +13

    I send all my love to you, Nate. Thanks for telling us youre story and keep us updated.

  • @jurre9686
    @jurre9686 Před rokem +20

    Best of luck to you Nate, i found some things we have in common.. so your story touched me. Stay strong, you seem like a great guy

  • @chicharon2290
    @chicharon2290 Před rokem +11

    Wow. I appreciate his rawness and honesty especially about the r*pe. That’s sick. Ik it’s even harder for men to open out about sexual assault than it is women

  • @evasvie2699
    @evasvie2699 Před rokem +11

    Incredible story, I'm speechless.

  • @XJonAye
    @XJonAye Před rokem +6

    Man I'm going to pray for this Nate, I hope he beats his addiction and gets the cancer taken care of, for his daughters sake. Everyone deserves love

  • @LuchadorMasque
    @LuchadorMasque Před rokem +12

    How was your childhood?
    "It was really really good, when I was 9 I had to learn how to defend myself from my dad being drunk and beating the shot out of me while raising an infant and drinking liquor"
    When I hear this shit, it makes me realize how I thought my childhood was normal.
    PTSD is a curse or blessing.

  • @lukeperkins8508
    @lukeperkins8508 Před rokem +6

    This breaks my heart so much, seems like a really wonderful person.

  • @connorhough6821
    @connorhough6821 Před rokem +3

    This man has a good heart and a good soul. I can relate to the things he’s done. He’s a strong man for being this open and honest. I began typing this comment before hearing him say he lrostiitutes himself and I have to say that is one of the most heartbreaking things a man can go through on drug addiction if you’re lost and in hell. I just want to wish Nate this guy the best and I want to give him brotherly love from afar and wish my hopes and prayers and for the commenters hopefully to just take a second off your time to pray for this man to take his stand and get in safe with his tribe so he can stay well and stay safe. The world is such a dangerous place and the internet is too. God bless you all.

  • @bestkksser
    @bestkksser Před rokem +36

    If you are reading this there’s a reason……No matter how good or bad you have it,wake up each day thankful for your life.Someone else is desperately fighting for theirs ❤️🇧🇸🤞

  • @jeannine3750
    @jeannine3750 Před rokem +4

    Wow.......this was one of the most intense and disheartening interviews I have watched so far. The world is becoming so evil and twisted that it's almost impossible to stay sane or optimistic. This man is so beautiful inside and out and I can't wrap my head around his forgiving heart. Anyone else in his shoes would be resentful and hateful but he still seems so loving. Please find your way back to your child because you would be an awesome dad. Thanks for telling your truth Nate!

  • @ginny8150
    @ginny8150 Před rokem +7

    He is hopeful even through everything he’s gone through. Wishing him wellness ❤

  • @holmesrealestateteam8327

    Humor! What a great sense of humor you have. What a life you've lived as well. I wish I had words of comfort. You seem to land on your feet and btw...you told your story very well.

  • @brianfromireland
    @brianfromireland Před rokem +23

    Very sad, great guy

  • @Joanna-hq2el
    @Joanna-hq2el Před rokem +5

    It’s sad to know that some people go through so much. I wish him so much love and I hope he can find self love and healing. I can feel his heart breaking.

  • @katz6582
    @katz6582 Před rokem +11

    I want to adopt baby Nate and raise him with kindness, compassion and all the love in the world. This man is a beautiful soul, it breaks my heart to learn the journey he has been on.

    • @VadaVoo
      @VadaVoo Před rokem +2

      I find often times the sweetest, gentlest people are the one's that are most apt to have addiction because they 'feel' so deeply and it's a means of self-protection from memories, etc.
      I'd be happy to co-parent baby Nate 👶 with you. So damn sad. 😭With the right environment and parents...there's no telling who this guy could have been. All hope is not lost...but he's fighting an uphill battle for sure. I'm praying for a miracle! 🙏He physically got smaller and smaller, slouched over, when he talked about being dosed with GHB and assaulted. The men who held him hostage should be punished. 🤬

    • @minawanderer8196
      @minawanderer8196 Před rokem

      Sweet but took a poor cat or dog they will thank you more than every human can!I mean if you have such Mama feelings it's good but Nate is a grown man with his own will maybe the same happened if you raised him up.Some people are hypersensitive they feel everything much stronger the good&the bad&some get into the bad cycles sry.

    • @natemorganstandup
      @natemorganstandup Před rokem

      You can adopt 40-year-old Nate if you want

  • @laurajappinen5307
    @laurajappinen5307 Před rokem +5

    Sending love and hugs to you Nathan . You are a beautiful soul and you are not soiled because of what happened to you . You are still a pure boy with lots of wisdom . I have lots of respect for you . Stay strong , have faith , the tables can turn . Lots of ❤

  • @trikfam
    @trikfam Před 11 měsíci +1

    The fact that he’s got such a positive outlook still… remembering his thumb sucking trauma and saying “I just love spicy food now” rooting for him!
    At the end of the day, addicts are people too. They live and love like anyone else. They just have to battle this sickness while trying to deal with everything else life throws our way. Best of luck!! I hope you get your Mr. Rodgers life!

  • @georgieeve2026
    @georgieeve2026 Před rokem +67

    Marc, it is 100% *not* okay to blame *anyone* for being raped, even if they have an addiction. It's incredibly damaging to tell someone that it's their fault, and to be so dismissive and invalidating after they have just shared very vulnerable information with you. It perpetuates the trauma, drug addiction, mental health and homelessness issues that you are trying to expose for the greater good.
    You have created a wonderful platform and helped many people. Please keep yourself trauma-informed and compassionate going forward ♡

    • @andrewlong5510
      @andrewlong5510 Před rokem +12

      Mark was just keeping it real

    • @RAWDOGG69
      @RAWDOGG69 Před rokem +12

      marks cold sometimes

    • @cgalshir
      @cgalshir Před rokem +13

      agree 100%. "you can blame your drug addiction for this". like saying blame yourself for being an addict and blame yourself for being raped. hursh and judgemental. especially after hearing his background. this guy has cptsd. if you can't show him some empathy better not to say anything. being judgemental on him is the exact opposite of what this channel is trying to achieve.

    • @bidensaidthenwordwithahard4838
      @bidensaidthenwordwithahard4838 Před rokem +7

      I think he said "you can blame the addiction" not himself. I don't think I saw him say "no it's your fault"

    • @therealrobbdee672
      @therealrobbdee672 Před rokem +3

      @@mihe6212 u trippin

  • @rippingjeans7232
    @rippingjeans7232 Před rokem +2

    In spite of all that he went through, he actually saved someone’s life… That in and of itself is incredibly amazing. I hope he gets well and strong enough to do what he wants.

  • @teelaurenmartin3405
    @teelaurenmartin3405 Před rokem +1

    Nate you are a beautiful human inside & deftainly on the outside. I relate to the damage & hurt caused by countless ebbs life and intern life with addiction has thrown at you..watching this brought me to sobs of tears . Nate I just want to send you love, light, hope and a big hug, lastly please know you are not alone ....

  • @MyAlterEgoAngel
    @MyAlterEgoAngel Před rokem +1

    Wow 17 years in the same company is absolutely amazing. He has a lot to be proud of! I pray that he is safe, happy & loved on! Xo

  • @laurecuvillier
    @laurecuvillier Před rokem +3

    I hope you can get clean and back "on your feet" Nate, you seem like an intelligent, unique, sensitive, caring human- you deserve to have a good rest of your life.

  • @mab790
    @mab790 Před rokem +18

    It’s amazing how a person in so much mental and physical pain can participate in an interview 😢. His life still has dignity because he is capable of feeling compassion despite being raised without any.

  • @alejandramoreno6704
    @alejandramoreno6704 Před rokem +1

    Peace and love to you back Nate! Thanks for sharing your story with an open heart. 🥰

  • @adgblue1
    @adgblue1 Před rokem +5

    This is heart breaking. I hope he can get help and make it through the later years of life.

  • @desireev.9173
    @desireev.9173 Před rokem +3

    I've listened to so many stories here but for someone reason this one hit a little harder. Bless his heart. I hope he gets better and can rekindle his relationship with his step
    son.

  • @tinasmith7630
    @tinasmith7630 Před rokem +29

    Hes such a lovely guy, n very sweet, n tenderhearted. He is very clever n bright. Hpe he finds hope n peace n healing Godbless u man!!! U r worth it!!! 💜🙏😇

    • @RottedDollface
      @RottedDollface Před rokem +10

      @@mihe6212 it never fails, everytime someone gives a compliment to someone like this person...there has to be a response saying the exact same thing you said. She simply complimented the dude, she probably sees something in him that you and I do not, nothing wrong with that, has not a damn thing with letting him into her home.

    • @naomiemoore5725
      @naomiemoore5725 Před rokem +4

      @@mihe6212 Not everyone has the capability to do so. Stop criticizing.

    • @ChirpyMike
      @ChirpyMike Před rokem

      He'd rob you blind the first chance he'd get. Stop being delusional.

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před rokem

      What the fuck does n mean??? Grow up!

  • @Crusadermachining
    @Crusadermachining Před rokem +9

    I went to high school wirh Nate and knew him for years. We hung in the same circle- damn he looks different. He used to be jacked and athletic - I feel bad for him. Nate, if you read these comments - this is Luke from Oswego, get off the drugs man - get clean

    • @joesalsbery2324
      @joesalsbery2324 Před rokem

      I'm the brother he's talking about and this is simply embarrassing. 95% of this is a lie. Your correct

    • @candy7048cp
      @candy7048cp Před rokem

      @@joesalsbery2324 Wow, is he lying about his children too? that’s very sad

    • @saftovooey4569
      @saftovooey4569 Před rokem

      @@joesalsbery2324 Can you be specific about what he's lying about?

    • @Crusadermachining
      @Crusadermachining Před rokem

      @@joesalsbery2324 hey Joe - this is Luke. What’s up man. Sorry about Nate man, no bullshit. And if he’s lying about it all, even worse. Sorry man

    • @joesalsbery2324
      @joesalsbery2324 Před rokem +1

      @@Crusadermachining suo man how ya been. Reach out if ya want. Personally.

  • @donaldsass8287
    @donaldsass8287 Před 6 měsíci +1

    Nate is an amazing caring person, I've known Nate for Years and I only wish him the best he deserves so much better ❤
    Grace

  • @Omarmegally
    @Omarmegally Před rokem +3

    Wow, he was an eloquent speaker and I hope he gets the help he needs because you can tell he is smart!

  • @crystalssuch6818
    @crystalssuch6818 Před rokem +3

    All the details. All the horror. It’s too much to wrap my head around. How ironic he feels the drugs are keeping him alive. It’s so incredibly surreal.

  • @dw56644
    @dw56644 Před rokem

    Your honesty is so powerful and compelling. You are truly a beautiful person. X

  • @Hi-bl8rm
    @Hi-bl8rm Před rokem +2

    I hope he finds peace, happiness, and love. Sending you lots of hugs and love Nate❤❤

  • @TheKeltris
    @TheKeltris Před rokem +5

    This guy has such a troubled upbringing! It's tragic! Is it any wonder these traumatized people find their escape in heroin? They're trying so hard to block out all the pain. I'm not making excuses or justifying their choices however they are a product of their environment. Who asks a 9 year old to parent a newborn? My God! This guy is so awesome too! I believe in you Nate!

  • @jessieessex
    @jessieessex Před rokem +16

    I wish he could see that his romanticized version of the early abuse he suffered is contributing to his current self-inflicted abuse and that he can let go of those old stories with the decision to do so. That’s not saying it is easy, but those stories make it more difficult to redesign life and they don’t have to be the running theme.

    • @natemorganstandup
      @natemorganstandup Před rokem +1

      You're right. I am an adult and I have made my own decisions and I am where I am because of the mistakes that I have made

    • @jessieessex
      @jessieessex Před rokem

      @@natemorganstandup I’m so glad that you said this. It took me a long time to understand how it works, but it does.

  • @mariaschuldiner2905
    @mariaschuldiner2905 Před rokem +1

    Please stay strong. Thank you so much for sharing your story Nate.

  • @dazzelingdirtyb
    @dazzelingdirtyb Před rokem +2

    Nate if you ever read this you are loved & I pray that your life turns around for the better❤your story has touched my heart & soul. I wish I could give u a giant hug & tell you everything will be ok

  • @inknfit9420
    @inknfit9420 Před rokem +18

    Seems like a good guy and obviously knows what the problem is. I myself have had a hard life lost everyone by 15 and doctors would tell me a name to the problem, which gives it a sense of ok. I refused to accept it and made it work. Took my loyalty to the streets and put it towards business took addiction to dope change it to the gym. Am 42 myself can't say I fixed it but I can say life is way better. It's to easy to just get a bag or pick up a drink put of the problem but it's so rewarding when you fix it, even if it's doing 1 less bag then yesterday your in the right direction. Knowing your not going to fix 20 years of bad decisions in a month or two, it takes years. I also look at it as a blessing every bad situation that happens I can give you 5 pros for it happing. Good luck to anyone going through anything like this but only one way to fix it

    • @tonyhoffman3309
      @tonyhoffman3309 Před 6 měsíci

      This is real talk here. Especially great advice to recognize how to direct your talents and commitments to something healthy and life fulfilling from something that just takes life from you while you are still alive.

  • @Zzzxxx1
    @Zzzxxx1 Před rokem +29

    What a gentle soul!

  • @ne2952
    @ne2952 Před rokem +1

    What a beautiful kind soul! I hope he finds some real friends bc he seems like such a nice great guy! Wishing him all the best 🫶🏼

  • @myrt1717
    @myrt1717 Před rokem +1

    Wow... Nate, you are special. I'm so sorry about your addiction, I really hope you can find help because you deserve it.

  • @AudibleVisibIe
    @AudibleVisibIe Před rokem +15

    I think he meant corporal punishment lmao but capital punishment sounds way more gnarly

    • @babyinvasion
      @babyinvasion Před rokem +2

      Lmao 🤣🤣 give him some credit, he started drinking at 8. He's doing well considering all things

  • @drewmillz1
    @drewmillz1 Před rokem +7

    Did not expect to hear that story.. I feel for him. I hope he can put in the work he needs to get a mr Rogers lifestyle. It’s way less stressful than what he’s living with now.

  • @brendaleeblais3532
    @brendaleeblais3532 Před rokem +1

    I really wish the best for Nate. He seems like a good soul & has a kind 💙. Stay safe out there!

  • @ferchism
    @ferchism Před rokem +2

    He saved his son's life! He's a hero and a father. ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Lindsay-vj2mp
    @Lindsay-vj2mp Před rokem +3

    You are definitely intelligent, I really appreciate you sharing your story with all of us. Good luck.

  • @pvtv155
    @pvtv155 Před rokem +7

    My Chicago experience is so different. La is fake nice. Chicago when people are nice they're genuinely nice.

  • @rytisbertulis3325
    @rytisbertulis3325 Před rokem +1

    You look like a good-hearted person in a very unfortunate circumstances which lead you to this life. I sincerely wish you to find a way to fight the addiction and get well. You're worth a better life.

  • @OOceaneyess
    @OOceaneyess Před rokem +1

    Don't give up hope Nate. You have made it through all of your trials to be where you are today. Stay strong. Your addiction is not keeping you alive. Your addiction almost got you killed. Remember that. I'm sending you my best wishes from Northern Calif.

  • @Sener
    @Sener Před rokem +26

    I mean, he can just be a model if he wants.

  • @cgalshir
    @cgalshir Před rokem +19

    i really like this dude

  • @mindbody777
    @mindbody777 Před 11 měsíci +1

    He's 100% right when he says it's alarming how no one stops to help. A few years ago, I witnessed two boys bullying another boy, pushing and punching him. I was at the corner store and was watching this happen and people just walked by, and these were kids... like 10 years old. After I paid, I left the store and it was still happening. I was the only one who got involved. And you know what, they stopped. Our world is the way it is because people put on blinders every day they walk out of their homes.

  • @oscarornelas9298
    @oscarornelas9298 Před rokem

    Dude he looks like he’s such a chill dude bro no lies he deadass looks smart bro and I can still see him getting better and the help he needs

  • @luxlifewithmeg2552
    @luxlifewithmeg2552 Před rokem +3

    What a strong person I hope he can have a few good weeks before he passes from cancer

  • @jkc8407
    @jkc8407 Před rokem +3

    Hopefully he gets his life together. Stage 4 liver cancer? No, he would be inthe hospital. I lost my mom to liver cancer and when she hit stage 4 she died 3 weeks later. I'm guessing he has hepatitis C. His mental health definitely needs to be treated. His comments definitely confirm his borderline traits. I sincerely wish him the best. Struggling everyday is no way to live. Maybe a maintenance program with co-occurring treatment would turn his life around. You need to have the desire to change your situation.

  • @RolmaLorenzo
    @RolmaLorenzo Před rokem +1

    Nat, my respects! Glad to have heard your story....you have something.Wishing you the best of luck in finding real support for all the stuff you are going through.

  • @Neonracer1013
    @Neonracer1013 Před rokem +2

    I see in many comments that he has people who know him. He is spoken of as a very good person. I hope he doesn’t have to die alone. God Bless him!❤️💯✝️☮️

  • @froandcara
    @froandcara Před rokem +5

    He seems so sweet. His fear is losing his mind. Rather die first. Probably smart. His ailments must be so hard but I do think he’s right on not doing chemo as that will make it worse. What a soul contract he chose. Man, I feel things hard and always feel I chose too hard of a contract but these interviews show I chose gentle. Sending love to him.

    • @Bone74838
      @Bone74838 Před rokem

      Just stop it!

    • @cannabislife1688
      @cannabislife1688 Před rokem +3

      Probably best to listen to the doctor’s, but it’s his choice and I respect that. Best of luck, to the guy

  • @rittusekhri1209
    @rittusekhri1209 Před rokem +16

    I just wish I could give him a hug so bad. What a soul contract contract he has taken on.

  • @katieann270
    @katieann270 Před rokem +2

    Nate! You’re only 40! You have someone waiting for you, not to mention a child. Please get the help you need and treatment for cancer. Life can be beautiful if you help yourself. I’m also from a Chicago suburb. Though I don’t know you, I love you. You are an amazing and sweet soul. It’s time to fight back. Would love an update on Nate. This is heartbreaking.

  • @ecc1104
    @ecc1104 Před rokem +1

    Such an interesting story and character, one my favorite interviews so far.

  • @beksinski
    @beksinski Před rokem +3

    It's so important to be thankful. Especially if you are a person who didn't experience egregiou child abuse. And to be compassionate because so many people lack the tools to be functional adults because they were broken as children.

  • @endodenise2090
    @endodenise2090 Před rokem +42

    Hep C leads to liver ca and long term alcohol to dm. His stories are believable, and I am very sorry he has had to endure all this. Being high and having a low blood sugar must be a nightmare. 😢

    • @knattttt
      @knattttt Před rokem

      Dm?

    • @helenbartoszek243
      @helenbartoszek243 Před rokem +6

      Hep C is treatable now. One tablet every day for 12 weeks. Apparently the tablets cost around $12000 but as it is picked up by the PBS only costs $6 80 in Australia. America should have something similar.

    • @endodenise2090
      @endodenise2090 Před rokem +4

      @@knattttt diabetes - sorry

    • @knattttt
      @knattttt Před rokem

      @@endodenise2090 ahh gotcha! Thanks.

    • @anthonydelgrosso4818
      @anthonydelgrosso4818 Před rokem

      @@helenbartoszek243 ya it's free with insurance

  • @sumeyyeduran8316
    @sumeyyeduran8316 Před rokem +2

    What a good man. I hope the best for him.

  • @Nico-ef7bt
    @Nico-ef7bt Před rokem +1

    best channel so far. I would really appreciate if you could put subtitle for followers who english is not their first language.

  • @joeythegypsy
    @joeythegypsy Před rokem +7

    I was addicted to heroin. When you're on it you can't imagine getting off. Seems impossible. But i used suboxone. It worked because it blocks the heroin. After a year on suboxone i just got over wanting heroin. Then started weening down on suboxone until eventually i was taking a tiny piece twice a day. Anyways my point is that you can get off the fentynyl. It's nowhere near as impossible as it seems.

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před rokem

      So true. I seem to preach suboxone as though I'm selling it, but it definitely works and with no withdrawal from whatever drug you use. I used it to get off fentanyl which I tried on my own for two years. It was impossible and I was ready to kill myself because I couldn't take another day of being dope sick. Finally, I found an awesome doctor who helped me with suboxone. Now I'm slowly weaning myself off. Addicts have to be ready and want to stop using before they start suboxone. It got my life back.

  • @Qotsarena
    @Qotsarena Před rokem +5

    What a dude . Cleanest, tidiest , trendiest homeless geezer I’ve ever seen ! Great tan too ❤😂 love the Misfits tattoo too !

  • @matthewburgess2674
    @matthewburgess2674 Před 23 hodinami

    Man... poor guy. Seems like a really kind-hearted person. A good soul.

  • @Kylemathews1
    @Kylemathews1 Před rokem +1

    "There's a difference between being stupid & foolish. I'm not stupid, but I've made some very foolish choices." ---i felt that one