Fentanyl Addict interview-Platinum
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- čas přidán 26. 05. 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Platinum, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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sometimes the most admirable part of the story is Mark’s ability to sit through it and let them keep going
It's truly amazing how he doesn't say much & just lets them tell their stories.
lol facts
@@mistidiane788 Except when he kicks someone off after 15 min... so ya, about that...
He's a saint. Between the reality / heartbreaking stories to the absolute bull... I don't know how he does this over and over
@jhony 3tears dear person, thank you for you for being concerned for my soul. I will not be so bold as to say I'm perfect or that I have the strongest bond with the Lord. But I am God fearing, baptized in Jesus name and filled with the holy ghost. Anything I am that is good is because he has placed it or developed in me. I am aware that every breath I breath is because of his mercy. I'm thankful for the blood he shed in Calvary so that one day, I can see his glorious face and lay prostate before him on his throne.
Childhood trauma is the real gateway drug
“You never *really* leave your kids.”
I assure you, abandoned children disagree completely.
Right!
I agree. And what's with the father shooting himself twice in the head with a shit gun? Wtf. And dumping the poor dead baby at the Hospital and running?
What's with not being high and giving birth? And the baby not being in withdrawals? Far out. Love the minimalsation of such horrid lifestyle habits.
No fear no brain
Is she trying to be a hard ass bickie chick?
She doesn’t have any regrets but spends the entire interview on the verge of tears.
We don't just cry from regret. We cry from sadness, reflection. Regret is not the only sad emotion. What a simpleton you are
My thoughts too. I pray she is able to beat this addiction as she is a very spiritual lady. Blessings for strength and healing! You got this! Prayers from Canada. 🇨🇦 🙏🏻💯
my favorite part of these videos is the comments saying how people have recovered from addictions and encourage the people to do the same. i’ve never been addicted to anything besides cigs but man i love seeing that! stay strong everyone you’re doing amazing! don’t let anything or anyone pull you back into that life style! you’re all doing amazing
I love your comment. I’m one of the ones who made it out of a meth, heroin and alcohol addiction. God willing Im sober just for today. That “day” has turned into 26 months.
@@Onelightoftheworld i love to see it!! keep up the killer work! i’m sure it can be hard but when other people see that you and so many other people have kicked those addictions it could really give them courage to do so too! like i said keep up the good work (:
💯 the odds are against you but those comments just let addicts know that there is hope, there is recovery, it's just a matter of how bad do you want it!!!
God bless you
@@whocares4464 it is a matter of you doing the work. People feel alone, and think "if I just had a little bit of help I'd be better". But what people need to see is that they're never alone, we always have Jesus Christ and our Holy Father. They will help you. When God came to me one night, thats when I became a believer bc I saw him. Talked to him. I'm drug free and even crazier, depression free! I was for sure that I am depression, that its just the way I am. He completely changed not only my life, but, me. Praise be to God. I wish this for everyone.
This one is tough to watch/finish. Not because I feel for her, but because I don’t believe anything she is saying. After reading through the comments, I realize I’m not the only one thinking this.
Explain some, please. Which part is bullshit. I haven't gone to the end yet.
First thing I thought too.
you obviously know fuck-all about people
@@jacobus57 Wait, so you think she's still getting high or you think she's a wanna be, thinking this is all cool?
Same
so glad i am not the only one who was relatively unmoved by this particular interview.
Everything she says and does is so intense, everyone around her is a larger than life character, she describes people around her with such intensity I wonder if it’s how she wishes the relationship with them was, or it’s how she really sees them in her minds eye x
I think it’s natural to idealize your parents and, to an extent, your love interests. That’s the nature of childhood, and of falling in love.
What a beautiful interpretation. I agree. She articulates her love for her relationships in a very loving way.
Grandiose and I don't say that as judgment it's one of the tricks addiction plays on us....
To me that just shows how relational she is, and that she values human relations over most things
@@heyhihellook9494 yes it’s genuine love, the emotion is definitely there xxxx
Maybe it's just me, but it's hard for me to believe what's the truth and what's delusions or stuff just made up.
Unfortunately addiction leads people to spin such a web of stories and lies that it is impossible to know what is truth or fabrication. Often times those struggling with addiction speak with such conviction that they appear to believe their own false truths. It is a vicious cycle and the system is unfortunately not set up in a manner that appropriately helps these people find their true self beneath the problems that led them down such a dark path.
@@iykyk-bl6ix It’s California. I bet if you googled it, you’d find a way to be a certified dominatrix, too! Clearly not a credential recognized by everyone, but it’s universal to clients seeking pain.
@@zap4264 I don’t even think it has anything to do with addiction. I’m in recovery and never made up stories like this and I don’t know anyone else that has either. However, I know plenty of people who aren’t addicts that are pathological liars including my sons father who is not an addict. He would make up the dumbest lies and I truly think he believed them. The worst lie I think he told me was that he was a twin and that his twin died. What made it so bad is that I ended up being pregnant with twins and losing one of them. He told me this lie before I even got pregnant and another lie was that his mom was a crack head that tried to drown him and kill him. His mom is literally the nicest lady ever and absolutely not a crack head. Some people are just liars.
I was thinking yje same thing/ The scar on her leg looks like a hip replacement scar... I have the exact same scar. They either go through the front or the side like what she and I have
@@iykyk-bl6ix it’s laughable right lol all bullshit !!!!!!
My brother died from a fentanyl OD a little over 2.5 years ago. He could never get over early childhood trauma. My grandma raised us and she died a few weeks ago. She couldn't get over the guilt she felt about my brother. 💔
My deepest sympathy, im sure that your grandmother was a wonderful woman . Good people take care of their loved ones and when something happens they take responsibility, probably more than what is fair, but there's not always a way to fix another person try as we might. Love and peace to you
I'm so sorry for these losses
It can take several lifetimes to get over such hurts....
I am so sorry for what you have been through!
Thank you so much for the replies ❤️
She has quite a romantic way of recounting her past. I wonder how much of it she actually believes. Sad and maddening.
La réalité est trop difficile à raconter,on réécris tous un peu notre histoire.
@@lou4053 So true..
I agree...I get notes of exaggeration but nevertheless I wish her well w/o judgment.
Everything that comes before addiction seems like a joy we’ll never know again. But, with the right help, we can!
Hahahahaha a jewish raised this creature to be like this.
Wrong
I feel so sorry for her adoptive parents
ME TOO ESPECIALLY HER KIDS
I walked with the devil for many years and have seen life through those eyes with almost 5 years clean now I relate to so much of what shes saying through the rollercoaster of ups and downs..stay strong I pray the light reaches you and keeps you..Its so much better on this side..🙏🙏
AMEN and AMEN why go hell if we don't have to?, seek the GOD while HE may be found,life is like a vapor were here for a little while and We are not.
The most beautiful words I have ever read. Christ, bravo !👏
why do u ppl always copy wat others say 'sorry but cant u think of something intelligent to say from your own brain. come on as we all hear wat the interviewees say so no need to always repeat it.
@@davechristian7543 peace, brother.
Congratulations! God is good! God bless you
Ain't nothing like another morning watching another episode of Soft White Underbelly.
Right here with you.
Nothing like it
The real ones know you comment this everywhere lol I see you man 😂
I have a small cottage to clean even in 24 hours I can pig it out, but I enjoy listening while cleaning it up, it sometimes feels like a metaphoric internal cleanse. Because I believe we all share some of these traits and features in one way or another past and present, real or distorted. Her stories for me come from her own unique internal truth and understanding as she knows it to be much like many of the others, we like hearing for that very reason!
for me a after work relaxer ...makes me wanna keep on keepin' on..especially after seeing those scars...scary stuff out there...
She’s definitely from Hollywood cause she’s very good at telling stories..
Heavy trust fund kid vibes
Yeah rocket scientist dad , nurse practitioner mother c'mon , i hate when they come on and tell stupid stories...it cheapens all the other interviewees who come on and truly bare their hearts
@@tommyconancoates7097 The stories may all be her experience or thoughts on what her experience is/ was. I just have a harder time empathizing TBH. All choices, unfortunately made because of hard feelings, but the support is still there IM SURE. So many other interviewees on here come from real hell they had no choices and have no help then or now…
@@Seajunkie I see where you’re coming with that, being from that kind of inner city, deep poverty hell. At the same time, addiction can take anybody to the depths of hell. Fortunes have been lost to addiction. It’s tempting to say, “cry me a river,” but the more I hear from addicted people from all backgrounds, the more I see commonalities, rather than differences.
@@brittaolson6550 Not disagreeing.
“my daughters in my heart and I’m in hers, you never really leave your kids”. Yes you left your daughter. Maybe a better way to say it is you never stop loving your kids but you certainly unequivocally left your daughter for the drug life.
Yours is the type of comments that doesn't hesitate to kick a drowning person further down her death. Yet still, her daughter is in her heart and she is in her daughter's heart, beyond anyone's judgement.
@@ArdentePatience they’re just telling it how it is it’s true. I am the child of drug addicts and irl tell someone the same shit any day. Die then. She’s not even a part of her life so what’s it matter
@@ArdentePatience Except perhaps the judgment of the daughter she left.I don't think flowery sentiments will make up for that.All they do is minimize the situation.
@@debbiemohekey1509 Deal with your cynicism, there is nothing flowery about my comment. The point of these videos is to listen and try to understand people who have had traumatic starts in life and I thank God the people are not real judges because it is so easy for them to act holier than thou and pretend they would be a better person under the same circumstances. I am not here to judge but to allow healing for these victims and the collective. That woman is not minimizing anything, and she is hurting bad enough that I don't need to kick her in the face, morally. No one abandons their child willingly, ever. No one ever really heals from it. Have some compassion.
@@ArdentePatience All the compassion in the world will not change what has happened or make her or all the other broken-hearted mothers just like her feel any better. Realizing that actions have consequences, unfortunately, came too late, if at all. It wasn't bad luck. Yes, we are sorry for her and all the others. Still doesn't help. Prevention by making better decisions in the first place would..I'm sure they realized their lifestyles and behavior were risky.
You can get better, trust! I was lost to that world for decades. I've been clean nearly 7 years, it's been a lot of work but totally worth it. Cognitive behavioral therapy was what finally reached me. Changing the way you think and behave by realizing you alone have the ability and responsibility of choice.
So very proud of you for all your hard work you're worth it
good comment. stay great. 3.5 years clean here. it's such a better life u know thmx
Good for you! So many side effects which manifest within our society. Love this channel and how Marc brings to light real people and their struggles. I feel it brings us closer even seeing how we all are the same and we all have a story. Keep up the good work.
So proud of you!!
@@Mark-gn5rw congrats!!
This lady is so disturbing and clearly a liar.
No idea what she’s talking about half the time. Didn’t get much from this interview. Thinks she’s lying about most of it.
I couldn’t make heads or tails about what she was talking about. I’m having a hard time feeling anything for her. She seems to enjoy telling her war stories.
I think that’s a release to everyone who is fighting a war.
My feelings exactly.
She's not all who she says. To much drama, and loving the story telling . Selfish and reckless. Her poor Daughter must be totally embarrassed
I think she may be bipolar.
I AM TRYING TO PUT HER STORY TOGETHER TOO MY BROTHER BUT NIT REALLY MY BROTHER ...GOOD LUCK TO HER
Just plain weird. And I don't believe half of what she said
You don't want to believe her. This is what's going on in America. The people on drugs on the street are from every socio economic background from the top to the bottom. The emptiness of a society based solely on $$$ leaves people hollow. Drugs is a symptom of a society that has an empty value system. The culture is sick
Owns all this shit and property but rents a car. "Trying to own an air strip....." I've known people this fucked on drugs. The delusions of grandeur are real.
@@lf1496 great comment👍
@@lf1496 That may be true but that does not mean Platinum is telling the truth here.
@@The_Land_Of_Farts Don't sweat the small stuff.
Many of us are falling in love with a woman we can never know. She lost herself and now collects shards of moments that don't belong to her; piecing them together in an attempt to create a convincing mosaic that she could describe as "beautifully broken". Beautiful as a go to filler word that means nothing and everything to her all at once. It is sad to see a human struggling to make sense of unspeakable events as a child that are so inhuman that it forces your brain to detach from your mind.
I kinda want to see her tits
Beautifully written 😊
@@larae6885ha! "Beautiful" indeed
There’s a lot of pain in this interview. I can’t imagine losing a child or my husband. I would be lost. Praying she finds peace. Thank you, Mark!
She’s lying
@@HandbagDiva how do you know that she is lying? by the way, who do you mean is lying? the girl in the interview or stacy bennett?
You can’t believe everything you hear on Facebook or CZcams
@@HandbagDiva I didn’t see your comment before I wrote mine LOL yeah how long did it take her to memorize the script come on these people are so vulnerable and they believe everything
@@HandbagDiva It is possible to research the statements of the people Mark interviews. If someone has the time to do it and show proof that this site is "fabricated" you'd think someone would have already. Just a thought.
Take a shot every time she says “beautiful”
Lol
It seems like she is saying everyone is beautiful except her. Oh, this hurt my heart.
I find it so interesting that she repeats all the questions asked immediately before answering🐦
I read
somewhere that ppl
do that to give themselves time to frame/compose their response.
Great interview Mark. Another heartbreaking human condition. I hope Platinum gets better. She truly loves her family. She should find love for herself too.
Proof it doesn’t matter how you were raised: drugs don’t discriminate
Exactly. I've had a pretty normal life, but alcohol and prescription drugs didn't care. I'm still struggling.
Some of the most fucked up people have had some of the most potential. Nepotism can go two ways.
The absolute pain in some of these interview are nothing short of heart wrenching. Im not an emotional person and they just always bring me to tears. Mark you are an amazing person for giving these people a platform to share. Im calling my mother and telling her thank you and I love you
I am usually very sympathetic to the people on this channel, but this woman spins such wild stories that are definitely not true. She started out by saying she came from a long line of very good looking people and had to glamorize every messed up situation she was ever in. I also caught her mixing up her children being taken away or her deciding to put them up for adoption and which person they were even from. She has lost touch with reality and can't keep the stories straight.
I heard beautiful people, not good-looking people. Maybe I missed something. The addiction puts its own spin on things, to perpetuate itself. She is addicted, but she is not her addiction.
@@brittaolson6550 i have a feeling with this individual her addiction stems from her distance from reality/lying/story telling, not that her stories stem form her addiction. The drugs make it easier to believe her own crap. She is someone that I don’t believe will get clean until she comes to terms with her fabrications and the reality of her life and events.
@@rachelbullies2131 In my experience, it’s hard to say what’s causative for whom, unless you take away the drugs and see what you’ve got. That’s why most psychiatrists don’t diagnose people in early recovery. It’s a chicken or the egg thing. Some people with Antisocial or Narcissistic Personality Disorders, FAS, brain injury, and ADHD are more prone to addiction because of impulse control issues and difficulty anticipating consequences. Or (more often?) symptoms of drug addiction can mimic any of those disorders. Some people, psychologically, hide from reality in drugs, like you said. Addiction make it hard to see reality, because of tunnel vision, and feeds denial and justification. If someone is running from reality on drugs, they get trapped in a distorted reality. In any case, getting off the drugs is the obvious answer, but if your brain is hijacked, how do you find it? It’s a catch 22, of the worst kind.
Ppl are sick to say someone is lying how the FUCK would you Know that smh what the fUCk smh
@@TH2023_3 The only person who is sick is the person who can't hold a civil discussion. It's not a matter of question if she is lying, she is. She mixes up her stories multiple times in this interview because she cannot remember what it is she said. You can attempt to even look up some of the situations she is talking about, which would have been big news and nothing comes up. We are all welcome to our own opinions. I have watched every single interview on this channel and stand by my thoughts on this. Thanks for your vulgar reply.
This woman is living in her own planet...a storyteller.
Just like most opiate addicts
She's a typical californian addict. Its a whole other world out there. Alot of ugly things happen
110% correct
Why am I thinking the whole time she's telling a story she's writing in real time in her head.
The beautiful people put her up for adoption. The beautiful people adopted her. Everything is beautiful. She is a mess
So Beautiful to believe 😅
right out the gate and she was crying. my heart hurts for these people and how deeply they feel. i wish her peace.
I’m always so amazed at these interviews. A common thread is the amazing ability to be very specific about dates. It makes me wonder if they are addicted to the painful moments vs just the drugs.
Hmm that's interesting because I was a opiate addict for close to 10 years and I remember everything I can remember specific days in high school still and I'm close to 40 I wonder if it's something in the brain where those two intertwine somehow.
It’s easy when you’re making it up
That is a really super interesting question!!
It's because experiences that contain heighten emotions download more completely into memory. Whether they are positive or negative... It's also why most people don't recall the banal times of life but can easily recount experiences that were exciting, happy, or traumatic. The emotional content provides fuel, which can be addictive. Combine that with an identity formed by experience, and it all gets entrenched.
trauma bonds. many of these people are bpd and npd - its prevalent within those realms
Personality feels very contrived, ego driven.
We get those every now and then I guess…
I just commented saying the same.
Her ego seemed to be dominating her story, she is very immature, and clearly should not have had children
That was my first impression. Contrived. Couldn't follow any of it.
@@traceysanna1535 think she’s there for the exposure…
This keeps me sober, idk what id do without the comments with clean time. One day at a time 🙏 only 2 weeks sober but I can do this
Hope you made it this far. These helped me stay clean too. I'm 200+ days and expecting my first child.
You've got this! You matter!!!
Be good to yourself!
@@texasktea Good 4 u!!! All the best!!!
Great for you Sara! ❤️
Sending you positive thoughts & positive energy way !!!
Love and prayers
I’m not sure if you’ll see this but this is one of my favorite channels because I watch how patient you are with people that others just consider trash and don’t truly grasp what’s happened. So many of these people are just sick of are mentally I’ll and just need help. I love that you don’t trash them, your spreading awareness but also letting others know that they are people to. Thank you so much for your patience and everything that you do..it’s remarkable. ❤
110% agree with you. Mark is a remarkable human being.
Mark out here interviewing the NPCs from from the original filming of "The Fifth Element."
She's way too delighted with her badness.
No one can be this dramatic for real!! Everything is OVER DRAMATIZED
Hey baby died. I’d be dramatic too.
This is the first interview I’ve watched on SWU where I struggle with any sympathy. She did nothing but play the victim, give fake tears and told a really good yarn. There are real victims on this channel who have had unbelievably horrible childhoods and yet they never blame anyone else even though they’d have the right. In fact most of those real sufferers still find away to defend their abusive parents. Not this one though, she’s a storyteller and is not accountable for any of it
Skepticism is always valuable when hearing stories like this. One of my friends turned to this kind of life and the way he describes his childhood is vastly different from what i saw growing up with him. There was real suffering, but the truth has grown fuzzy, even to him. (I miss you Sam. I hope to see you ok one day)
why do you speak as if you knew exactly how those victims felt about their parents, a lot of these people on the channel had horrible upbringings and disgusting parents. I haven’t really heard one of them defend their rapist or abusive parent. Why would they? And why would this person lie? We don’t know their situations.
I’ll end this how it should be ended
*Stop being a Karen*
How can you say something like that about someone you don’t even know or never even been around?? Oh, let me guess, 28 almost 30 minutes of listening and watching her you know her and her whole life story and struggles right?? Everyone expresses their feelings and emotions differently. How dare you judge this person like you’re some kind of saint. I don’t see you having any sympathy for anyone with the way you’re judging this poor lady. FOH!!!!
Denial is a symptom
I agree
I love your videos, BUT this one is so full of shit. Homegirl needs help.
I'm in recovery and seeing her reminds me of who I was in active and I was ugly.
I really hope she reaches out for help .
Her level of disjointed chaos makes my heart hurt so badly for her.
Full of shit how??
Why is there 2 replies to is but when I click them they're not there? I keep getting this on yt
@@firecarrier1 I responded
@@coldblooded568 I can see this now but nothing else! Weird...
@@firecarrier1 I left a comment before yours, saying "Full of shit how??" You don't see it?
As a recovering addict, who spent years around other addicts listening to their high ramblings recounting tall tales, I have to say I agree with quite a portion of the comments calling bs here.
Her child wouldn't have been taken if it hadn't had drugs in her system. That's not how that works.
Regardless, as I do for all on SWU, I pray for her recovery, well being and stability.
What do you think it does for her well-being and stability, when you call bs? What good does it do? I am curious ❤
@@welovedogsbyroxymoley1867 Good question. what does it matter if the story that she tells is not factually correct? What does it change?
I so second this
Hard truth, but needed.
@@welovedogsbyroxymoley1867 1. She really believes the yarns she spins in which case, it changes nothing.
2. She sees these and it stirs something in her to want to change herself for the better. Recovering from addiction means getting real firstly with yourself.
Getting Fentanyl in LA must be as easy as getting a cup of water. Sooooooo many Fentanyl addicts in LA it’s mind blowing.
Canada easy af too
Government sanctioned fentanyl
The main source of fentanyl isn't just from China anymore, they've learned to make it in Mexico, that's why there's so much of it in LA.
If you’ve ever done it, it’s easy to get anywhere.
Cartels buy the compounds to make it from China, and I imagine other areas, have it shipped to em and they do the simple kitchen chemistry to make it into fent. There are videos here on CZcams (at least there used to be) of them cooking it. And yes, it's mind blowing. I wander how much is due to the supply and demand complex, or narco terrorism. Most likely both.
70% fiction, 20% truth, 10% psychosis
Lol maybe 10% truth, 20% psychosis
Was on Heroin for 7 years in the 90s, been clean for 22 years now. My father was a biker, drag racer, USMC veteran, my mother was also a surgical nurse. Never ended up on skid row, and here in Vancouver, we have the worst in NAmerica. I put myself through University( journalism film degree) but because I had Rheumatoid Arthritis as a teen, opiates were only a natural addiction.
My mother died prematurely and suddenly when I was 3 years clean, and my life was restarting. Never went back. I see this individual as the person I got out in time for to not become. My husband has never indulged I real drugs, the occasional puff of pot is the most he will do.
I feel a into her, as I always wanted to have a bairn and name him Caleb. I have literally forgotten what it was like to be junk sick, and squirm getting blood taken today; you would never know I used to dig for veins every damn day.
I never did fentanyl, all we had was good ol China white ( or 999/ 666 pure off the boats here in Vancouver ). I know it is more powerful, and yet less effective. There is help, programs and people that care. I hope she can find it. Cheers Mark.
Stories of grandure.. drugs can not only take your money, wife, life.. but clearly they take your sound mind and the ability to distinguish fantasy from reality..poor soul..may you be free soon
@Claire E B often it starts with menthal issues like depression but the drugs can causes them olso or made them worser!Drug-Psychoses...
Yeah this all seems very much like delusions mixed with the truth. Sad.
@@minawanderer8196 💯
Most of these people he interviews are this way, when you live a life of crime and drug addiction your mind gets way out there.
Trust me I have a 44 year old meth addicted brother who started using at 14, he tells me things I know absolutely aren’t true, he even tries to convince me that I was with him when these “memories” took place.
These drugs destroy you………… stay away at all cost.
Stories of grandeur often come from bipolar disorder.
So, 3 children, 2 dead and 1 taken away and ‘no regrets’…I call BS. This train wreck of a life and the only responsibility that she takes is she is ‘too honest’. And, her life was ‘pre-planned’ so…again, no responsibility. The self-delusion is strong in this one. This young lady had so much to offer….
Keep in mind your not perfect one bit or anything at all special at all who are you to sit here and judge you must have everything figured out that’s why you come to CZcams to judge people to make yourself feel better
@@kingjamesthespartan4010 I calls’em as I sees’em.
@@sherimciver yeah I bet because your perfect and got everything figured out and never made a mistake and so everything right huh lol your not shit just like anyone else so good thing no one give a fuck about what you call or see
God, you are a bitter bitch. I felt very sorry for the girl in this interview but now I feel even more sorry for you. You must have really miserable life to write comments like that. And 48 people who liked you comment - fuck you too. I would say fuck you to hell but you are already there.
@@kingjamesthespartan4010 When and where does Sheri Shea say she's perfect? Why is it negative to name reality? Self-destruction is part of the clinical picture of drug addiction.
Aside from the fact that I think storytelling is important and pay little attention here to whether those stories are true due to the inconsistency of most of the stories told here, it seems that this woman is sitting there to end her desolate condition and raise money for the next shot. The way in which totally broken people are jazzed up by many people to become beautiful souls is ridiculous and no less self-deception or a way of keeping the misery at bay.
So much pain and sadness in her life. She has lived thru so much trauma and is so incredibly strong to have made it this far. I hope that she realizes how strong she is and if she makes the choice to enter a program to start her sobriety journey she can do it and will be successful she can learn to cope with life and he feelings.
I pray she does. She just seems so broken 🥺😣
God help her!
Stop it, you people come on here to virtue signal about how compassionate you are. You believe this stuff ? They always have a story, it’s always someone else’s fault, whatever. This is an elaborate collection of lies and exaggerations surrounding a tiny grain of truth. Don’t be naive .
@@davidj8658 you seem fun.
@@davidj8658 The fact that you know that fancy-sounding rhetoric doesn’t mean it’s true that nobody cares. Some people have empathy that is not only real, but can’t be stopped. Those of us who have it generally live by what it tells us to do (help others in real life, whenever possible) and, hopefully, some common sense. I can’t imagine being so devoid of empathy that you go around trying to debunk the notion of it. It sounds empty and sad. I’m not trying to insult you by saying that. The joy of helping others is deep, and idk what I’d do without it. I know that I’ve really needed help in the past. and have lived closely with people who do, and I could see it. If you don’t know it’s not always a scam, I guess you wouldn’t have an instinct to help. Keep that feedback loop going, and there will always be a need for people like me and OP.
Thank you for these interviews
Feel like she's leaving a lot of key pieces to her story out.
It’s hard to be clear on what all the key pieces are when it’s your own life, especially when under the influence. It took me some time off drugs to be able to find them and pull them together. Still, we all perceive our lives differently than others do, because our emotions are in the mix.
Thank you for sharing these stories.
I’m sure it’s just me, and I don’t mean to not be sympathetic, but her son most likely went through hell. My heart breaks for her children
You're right. I wish I knew what happened. 🤍🌈
I used to be an addict myself, my wife wasn't a user and I kept my use away from the house (but my eldest knew I was on something. Breaks my heart) But I knew plenty of couples and single parents that lost their children due to their addictions. Its heart wrenching on both sides but has to be incredible damaging to the children and their future. The majority of mothers attempted suicide after and this still drives their use today. I got clean several years back and today I full custody of my son and regular contact with my two daughters. My use was a large part of my marriage breakdown. But being in the grip of addiction, especially Heroin/Opiate with its physical as well as psychological addiction, its incredible difficult to keep your humanity, your principles, your children. Everything. The drug literally rules your life, everything you do being dependant on your access to the drug. So many stupid decisions, so many completely irrational actions and so many risks and mistakes. The only ones that can understand is a fellow addict. But children will often be helpless right in the middle of all this chaos. Some addicts will keep hold of their principles, many just give in to it.
Dave please could you ask your wife for advice for me on how she coped in her difficult position? It would be very valuable information for me and others..
I come from working FC/CPS and I did though see some parents do the hard hard work and get clean/sober. One mom keeps in touch and her transformation is amazing.
Her rights were terminated on her one infant, the Foster Parents told her if she could get clean, she would be welcomed into their family.
She did. She regained custody of her 12 year old, started a daycare with the previous Fosters, and “their daughter” knows whose tummy she came from and who her mommy and daddy are. The mom has rebuilt a life has a husband and child with him. Her story is redemption. I keep telling her she is going to change the FCW.
Too many children end up in a system that many times does more harm than good.
The families need places that provide shelter and 24/7 therapeutic care. These places exist, just not enough impetus for the States to put the tax money into building a new mouse trap.
Overall, using a holistic approach, person/family centered would save money and lives. Breaking a family history/cycle=priceless.
@@hanz090 let's just say that we are no longer on the best of terms. She had an affair (with her friends husband) and dragged the kids through the kind of nightmare you see on a daytime soap opera and think is unrealistic. I understand that I deserved a certain amount of this for my years of addiction that she had to put up with. But she damaged our family and her friends (one of their children is now in care) She didn't spare a thought to the damage this was causing our completely innocent children. So she is certainly not a person to give anyone advice sadly. So are you in a relationship with an addict?
To see the pain when she talks about her parents just breaks my heart.
Maybe I am wrong but she comes across as a compulsive liar to me, she may not be but that's my 2 cents.
She’s told this story many many times before
I agree. Seems like a liar.
I agree
Yeah it all seems very non chronological and jumbled and way too ‘good’ to be true.
I’m not buying her story either.
Ty for making her voice be Heard. I will pray for peace in her heart and mind. She is a beautiful woman inside and out. I hope she can beat this addiction.
This poor lady has gone through a lot of love and loss. Sweet heart, hope she gets it together...she deserves better.
She’s lying, mostly to herself.
Yes lol
I thought this too, not even a min in
LOL I came here to see what would be in the comments .. she’s gone from one thing to the next. Can’t piece these stories together. It’s really confusing. I do feel she’s filled with a lot of pain . I hope she can get clean . Maybe then her life will turn around and make some sense .
Same here
That’s what the dope help with best
Who else at first glance thought that was Tom MacDonald when you saw the thumbnail
I lost my 24 year old daughter 7-5-20 there's nothing more excruciating absolutely nothing
🙏🏾💙 sending you love!
What happened to her?
She bled out in a Applebee's parking lot in Houston Texas
Head trauma
@@shannonhuddleston4980 sorry to hear :(
She says she has “no fear and no regrets” yet she was crying the WHOLE time… especially about her family and kids….
She puts on a tough exterior, but she seems very sad and tired 😪 She’s no dummy and I hope she makes it….
She has all that money, why not rent a room for starters?
Really sad and I feel for her .. thank you for sharing Mark
She’s off her head.. what is real? In this interview?
She is definitely one of the worst liars ever on the channel
Great story but she's ALL OVER THE PLACE! 3/4 of that story is fiction especially since she doesn't know what controversy means. I like that she feels the need to live that life story 🤷🏾♂️ she's the lady Forrest Gump
Drug use causes problems with word recall. She’s articulate enough that I would bet she does know what controversy means, but was having trouble recalling definitions.
She reminds me a bit of my schizophrenic sister, although I can't understand anything my sister says. I'm thinking this lady is mentally ill and has an addiction problem too. I'm going to listen again as I find her very difficult to follow.
I agree. She is proud of her choices. Even bragging about her larger than life story. I don't doubt the trauma but the rest......not so much. Liars always put too much detail in their stories.
she’s adddicted to fentanyl.. you don’t think that shit fucks with your ability to ration and reason???
@@jessicacejalinares8026 absolutely, I was a fentanyl user and you WILL lie 🤥 but to make up a whole (what seems to be) scripted story? I dunno lol
Ok, sis can weave a tale. Platinum and Steffi would keep each other entertained for days.
This is like watching the punk sister of Amber Heard.
yes!
Underrated comment
This woman is beautiful. Inside and out, she has a beautiful fucking soul and I don’t care what anyone else could tell me. You can see it in her, she’s a beautiful person so deep down and it just shows. I don’t know her but I love her and full heartedly pray she finds her way because she could do a lot of good. She is worthy. I wish she fully knew it.
OMG!!! What the heck was that? I’m sure this woman has been through hell in her life, whether she is embellishing or not. But this was crazy!
Platinum really brought me to the time in my life when, like she's experiencing, everything hurt. The pain of having lived through so much trauma is a darkness that can be muted from time to time, which is why drugs work as well as they do. But being a female on the streets is the hardest "job" on the planet. 24/7 survival mode.
What a beautiful human being. Thank you for sharing her story.
I agree with you 100%. I’ve been there.
Lord you don’t believe her fantasies?
@@HandbagDiva I believe her pain. I don't need to have a personal relationship with her to understand she's hurting.
@Tarziu Armando-Liviu I feel sorry for people who have defined their whole existence by some dogma that other men created, in their quest to achieve dominance over certain ethnicities, gender, religions, etc ... Free yourself from that prison & just do good in the world. You don't need a crucifix or symbology or words others have uttered to be saved. All you need is LOVE.
The money she threw on the floor, could be used for her daughter support, or her rehab.... I really can't feel sorry for her
If you will, most likely, use it to buy poison, you’re better off with it on the ground.
So heartbreaking. I feel her love for her family and how much it hurts and how hard it is talking about these deep things. God bless you mama 🙏❤️
Stop buying the bullshit addicts say. One example, what do you think the chances are that her daughter wasn’t born addicted ? That her “beautiful “ child won’t have to deal with lifelong problems as a result. Grow up folks, quit patting yourselves on the back for how caring you are. These people, like all of us, are responsible for their lives and the devastation they bring to our society.
I think she is correct with her assessment of the drug warfare.
China's long game to undermine U.S. society perhaps.
100% - shipped to Mexico from China and comes right on over the border to kill our children. Cartels are orgasmic over the border now.
I agree
Me too, 100%!
I do too!
I find this hard to watch
And hard to know what to believe
I'm sorry
Love you Mark 🙏
Nz 🌵
She has an amazing brain, she is really talented. These days after seeing so many documentaries on the fentanyl crisis I was seriously thinking of how it could perfectly be a Chinese conspiracy. And now she brings that up, it makes perfect sense.
I can't follow the story.... Jumping back and forth. All I understand is lots of emotion and drama
That's a pathological liar. She weaves a semi entertaining yarn anyway, even if she did rip most of it off from Sons of Anarchy. 😂
Any one who talks about "my" drummer or "my" guitarists is too controlling and when they talk in terms of a poem the pathological lying
Exactly true. People here who think she’s some deep profound soul have clearly never dealt with addicts who all speak that way
Misery aboslutley loves its company!
These are the stories that I don't understand because I don't know that life but they're the ones I listen to all ears. We never know why people are hurt and stay in constant cycles that won't let them heel. That said she's smart, beautiful inside and out and with everything she still has a chance to turn it around. Which is why we must always be kind to one another.
That’s the 🔑
The no drugs in her daughters system and the story she made up about the child being able to determine this is a lie. "She would be able to tell you that." She doesn't care I'm guessing... she is beyond that hopefully. Just tell the truth.
Beautiful lady with A LOT of potential- she can be and do whatever she wants - I hope she realizes that soon!
This person will never change I’ve know her since laurel Canyon
This is an extraordinarily tearful interviewee.
I pray for this lady she finds peace and strength can get her through.. you seem like you got a good heart ❤
Ideas of grandeur….drug fueled. Hard one to grasp. Parents, children strewn by the wayside.
WoW! Stories all over the place almost hard to follow. I can honestly say that she had a very colorful life that’s for sure.
So much pain. So much heartbreak. You are a beautiful soul, and your heart, even though shattered, still beats strong and your love courses all through your body. Do what you must to get by, to numb the pain, and perhaps, there are no normals in some peoples' lives, but simply getting by. God bless you.
Dominatrix on skid row sounds sooooo gross
I can't find any empathy. Ruining childrens lives.... while being handed opportunities and privilege? All I hear is excuses for poor choices and selfish decisions. Time to grow up.
How edgy.
Yeah, 'no fear' is the sign of a psychopath but hard to say because they wouldn't usually cry unless it were to manipulate.
Her ego was running loose.
I have definitely seen Mark interview people who were way more humble than she was
@@traceysanna1535 she has no regrets.
Ugh
@@a.wanderer5006 I'm usually a pretty good read on someone's sincerity or honesty. I hear a lot of manipulation and excuses in her words.
I didn't get honesty or sincerity from this person.
She chooses this. And has poisoned babies in her wake. And has no regrets. I'd love to hear her families or her child's father's version of events.
@@a.wanderer5006 It’s also just a throwaway phrase, to a lot of people.
Poor soul, it breaks my heart to hear her story! I just love the fact that Mike listens, without any interruptions and let's everyone on that chair, speak their mind. I hope she's well today!
Who is Mike?
@@teresarn1965 Are you conducting a Mike hunt?
Human wreckage....saw it often as a cop in my younger years...some folks shouldn't be allowed to have kids...
True
Praying for you Platinum. You’re beautiful. You can make it through. ❤️
There is something so tender and delicate in her speech. She’s very layered. Hope she learns to alchemize her pain into purpose.
Tender😅
I love how people who have spent their life on the light side of the tracks always assume these people are exaggerating or lying. If you've lived it, you know. Horrible shit happens daily, just below the surface
PEOPLE WITH 'WHITE PICKET FENCES' CAN'T IMAGINE WHAT ADDICTS GO THROUGH. . .TOO EASY TO JUDGE/CONDEMN . . .YOU HATERS NEED TO 'GET A LIFE' . . .
I agree. I am close to a few people that had very neglectful and at times abusive and traumatic childhood. They have all struggled as adults in some form or fashion. Some did better than others. My husband being one of them. He grew up on the Pine Ridge Indian Reservation. Rough life.
I've lived it. Still living it. She is inauthentic.
Please find her again, i would dearly lovr an update on her. I really hope she is doing ok. She reminds me of myself in a way. Very intense relationships with people, loves, family ect. I havent been through even half of what she has. This woman is strong, i couldnt handle what she's been through. The fact that she is still standing is incredible. If shes this strong she can get sober if she wants it. I just want her to want it. She needs to get out of there. Shes gotta get to a safe place to stay and get into rehab. Platinum, i know u can do it. Stay strong, girl! U r beautiful inside and out.
It sounds like she has combined movies and made a life in her head! When she said “riding with my great white wolf named White Thorn” 🤦🏻♀️
lol. she bred wolves actually for 7 years in Humboldt county.she had white thorn since he was a day old. I've seen so many pictures and heard so many stories of their time together. we are here in Los Angeles visiting our son. contact us if you receive this message on the Grapevine.! Ellie and I pray for you everyday dear platinum! get better soon!
@@cesaramaya6888 everything she’s said is true! People are talking shit bc she calls everyone beautiful?! As if that’s a bad outlook! God bless this beautiful woman and I hope she gets the heck outta skid row, and into a womens home for sober sisters where I know she’ll thrive, and heal some old wounds.
She’s got a beautiful soul I hope she’s good now
She needs to learn to use that misery as her fuel for better. She isn't like the others, she has tonnes of remorse, I'd use that remorse to my advantage big time. She has a better chance than most. Use dark energy to create light, sister.
Easier said than done.
@@garibaldi54 that’s what I was gonna write.
Alchemy requires sacrifice and patience. You sacrifice time and effort of trial and error. Lead to Gold isn't that simple. Patience to toil and study. Alchemists stay hidden from societal/secular based norms.
@@krmitt5 she is addicted to fentanyl. Alchemy has nothing to do with this.
@@krmitt5 what did you smoke this morning ?
platinum’s interview illustrates so succinctly how badly these wounded souls desperately needed to be SEEN and KNOWN. epic fail on all parties parts. thank you both for sharing. peace
I feel that!
If only she was speaking truth 🌞