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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Tony, a heroin addict living on Skid Row. Photographed on March 25, 2020.
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  • @lockness1980
    @lockness1980 Před 4 lety +893

    Tony what you did for your sister makes you a hero in my eyes. So many children get molested and no one does anything. I wish you luck in your future.

    • @outsideinoregon
      @outsideinoregon Před 4 lety +34

      What Tony did was not the way to solve the problem. He went to jail and ruined the relationship with his sister. The perv wasn’t worth it.

    • @YKWTFG0
      @YKWTFG0 Před 4 lety +49

      @@outsideinoregon maybe not but I bet nothing on earth could have possibly been more satisfying than obliterating that disgusting filth's jaw the way it was done.

    • @jackmsbg7157
      @jackmsbg7157 Před 4 lety +25

      @@outsideinoregon He act on his emotions, he did it. Can't change the past, it is what it is. I hope he will find himself and have a wonderfull life! I hope you understand, English is not my native language.

    • @ellarose8462
      @ellarose8462 Před 4 lety +23

      I see both sides of the story. I’m not saying what he did was right but what if that had been your 13 year old daughter or niece or sister with some Predator 35 year old praying on her. Think about that.

    • @MJ_Solo
      @MJ_Solo Před 4 lety +16

      I disagree. He ruined his life, his marriage, and potentially his relationship with his sister in the process. He had more than enough evidence to get that guy put away for longer then the time he himself did, and the other prisoners would of taken care of that guy in prison. His relationship with his sister would have possibly been better, and he would certainly probably still be married and had a few kids and a good job

  • @christinadominguez8833
    @christinadominguez8833 Před 4 lety +551

    I hope this guy can get cleaned up and make a better life for himself.

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 Před 4 lety +4

      Christina Dominguez Yes, my dad stayed away “for me” as a young teenager, because he was using, and it backfired. I ended up looking to older men for attention, and ended up getting turned out. At the same time I know people who have smoked crack or meth with their parents since they were 13, so I can see why people think they should stay away, too.

    • @alisonlaing5626
      @alisonlaing5626 Před 4 lety +2

      He,s "so" young..............times on his side.........so far........hope it goes good for him. x x x x

  • @michaelporter4497
    @michaelporter4497 Před 4 lety +590

    This heroin addict has better life advice than most career coaches... you can tell he’s a good dude.

    • @aussiemma8426
      @aussiemma8426 Před 4 lety +14

      Michael Porter not sure you’d be saying that when he would steal every cent he has from you haha. All Heroin addicts steal and hurt from the ones they love

    • @michaelporter4497
      @michaelporter4497 Před 4 lety +30

      @@aussiemma8426 I hope you're still young with a polarized and uneducated mindset like that. You know what's the difference between you and a heroin addict? nothing but a couple bad choices. Being a drug addict doesn't make someone a bad person. Everyone has bad times in their life, for some its more visible than others. Pick up a book and learn something before you cast judgment

    • @aussiemma8426
      @aussiemma8426 Před 4 lety +9

      Michael Porter I was addicted to Heroin for nearly 10 years. I am 4 months clean and currently on Methadone.

    • @aussiemma8426
      @aussiemma8426 Před 4 lety +9

      Michael Porter how can you exactly tell this guy is a good dude ? I’ve been around junkies for years and I was one. I’m not talking shit- you are and you don’t even know it. You know nothing about this guy, but I can guarantee he has hurt his family very badly from the choices he has made.

    • @aussiemma8426
      @aussiemma8426 Před 4 lety +8

      Michael Porter being a drug addict is the exact thing that makes you a bad person. It’s what made me a bad person. I stole from friends and family, then when all hope was lost I would burrow my way in and steal again. I was never like this before I started using heroin and have not been the moment I stopped using. Being a drug addict made me a terrible person.

  • @christinadominguez8833
    @christinadominguez8833 Před 4 lety +555

    Can't believe his sister doesn't talk to him after he saved he from a predator.

    • @swtflower1967
      @swtflower1967 Před 4 lety +61

      His sister was in love so she thought. But I'm sure there's more to the story. Who really knows..🤷🏽🤷🏽🤷🏽🤷🏽🤔🤔🤔🤔 jmo

    • @swtflower1967
      @swtflower1967 Před 4 lety +60

      @Jack Squat like they say. There's 3 sides to a story. Yours, mine and the Truth.

    • @dewilew2137
      @dewilew2137 Před 4 lety +6

      Christina Dominguez that shit never happened.

    • @internetvide0
      @internetvide0 Před 4 lety +6

      dont believe these guys

    • @dramanot
      @dramanot Před 4 lety +20

      Thats probably not the reason she doesn't talk to him. Maybe it's his lifestyle and choices

  • @Jdot_1132
    @Jdot_1132 Před 3 lety +26

    When this man said his younger sister doesn’t talk to him anymore broke me down. This man put his life on the line to protect his sister from the devil, now he battles demons everyday. I hope this man is doing well, true warrior for his love ones.

  • @ahmedkamran330
    @ahmedkamran330 Před 3 lety +72

    I have never watched someone speak to a large audience and give me the sensation they were speaking specifically to me. It was truly a life-changing experience to have someone so different from myself speak directly to the deepest parts of my consciousness. I have also never felt this level of compassion for a person convicted of a violent crime, he has opened my eyes to the grey areas of my moral compass.

    • @davidmerlin6787
      @davidmerlin6787 Před 3 lety +5

      The killer in him is also the killer in you

    • @lidias.3805
      @lidias.3805 Před 2 lety +2

      This comment has to be a joke … you believe this guy ?? Your just as big a moron as him

    • @christinadavidkyrkos8645
      @christinadavidkyrkos8645 Před 2 lety

      @@davidmerlin6787 o

    • @HiGlowie
      @HiGlowie Před rokem

      “Sometimes is also kind of fun participating in it”
      While talking about the three stabbings he did in prison.

  • @gregorysanchez1184
    @gregorysanchez1184 Před 4 lety +201

    This guy is going to beat this! He has amazing things to do!

    • @rubymorris44
      @rubymorris44 Před 2 lety +2

      Hopefully not beat the crap out of people

  • @kashiskash
    @kashiskash Před 4 lety +106

    Don't think heroin is out of his life just yet but I have 100% respect for him and wish him all the luck in the world.

    • @deedeedurazo5245
      @deedeedurazo5245 Před 4 lety +5

      I think the same. He was definitely on something. There was foam coming out of the sides of his mouth.

    • @thetruth2509
      @thetruth2509 Před 4 lety +2

      Lol. You have respect for him? 😂😂😂😂 He’s a manipulative lying scumbag.

    • @vanessacastro332
      @vanessacastro332 Před 4 lety +5

      The Truth wow...that’s so unnecessary.

    • @briancarter5412
      @briancarter5412 Před 4 lety +6

      @@thetruth2509 he is absolutely most definitely still on herion, you could hear it in is voice, herion somehow relaxes the voice box & all herion users have it but only when their high where the voice has that same husky drawen out sound to it, you probably know what I mean.. And the stories he told about the kilo of herion, I don't believe it !
      Keep well in these times we're having🌷
      Lisa Marie Australia

    • @burlhorse61
      @burlhorse61 Před 4 lety

      @@briancarter5412 why dont you believe the heroin bit??

  • @DaddyzGirl89
    @DaddyzGirl89 Před 4 lety +204

    Your brother spent 15 years in prison trying to protect you and you have the nerve not to speak to him

    • @michellemartinez6363
      @michellemartinez6363 Před 4 lety +2

      Seriously. 😐

    • @nottill_4
      @nottill_4 Před 4 lety +11

      I mean, manipulation fucks people up. People in cults cant always see what's right immediately and immediately switch from cult perspective to normal, its difficult. She should talk to her brother, I agree, but there could be a part of her that still believes that the POS is a half decent person.

    • @c98tx27
      @c98tx27 Před 4 lety +17

      I’m thinking maybe it wasn’t the initial situation, but maybe unrelated things he did as an addict that might’ve caused her to stop

    • @DaddyzGirl89
      @DaddyzGirl89 Před 4 lety

      Elysia Villalobos yea i agree, that may very well be possible.

    • @herricd8763
      @herricd8763 Před 4 lety +6

      U don't know the story. There may not even be a sister. How about just shut up and listen to the wack tale.

  • @kimmygibler760
    @kimmygibler760 Před 4 lety +343

    I respect anyone that takes matters into thier own hands when it comes to pedophiles. I hope his recovery was long and painful.

    • @xalnilam2739
      @xalnilam2739 Před 4 lety +8

      Matthew Rogers i thought he said that the paedophile died?

    • @GrassPossum
      @GrassPossum Před 4 lety +6

      He died.

    • @robintaylor8450
      @robintaylor8450 Před 4 lety +1

      Well said mate 👍

    • @lidias.3805
      @lidias.3805 Před 2 lety +1

      He’s a liar I can’t believe how many people believe him in these comments… first he said the dude died … then immediately after he laughed n then said “sorry all I can do is pray he makes better decisions in life” hmmm so is he dead or not… this dude watched too many movies he’s high as fuck and I can tell he’s lying

    • @RobinJohnson
      @RobinJohnson Před 2 lety

      @@lidias.3805 You might be right. I found that strange as well.

  • @tmoney3198
    @tmoney3198 Před 4 lety +32

    I appreciate the testimony from this intelligent man. TD Jakes states that your past does not have to dictate the future. Sending prayers for healing, self forgiveness, and a fulfilling new chapter of life 🙏🏻

  • @cinsationalcinema1776
    @cinsationalcinema1776 Před 4 lety +203

    Don’t cheat on your future with your past

    • @cinsationalcinema1776
      @cinsationalcinema1776 Před 4 lety +9

      Cannabis is way better to be on then heroin. He made the right move there.

    • @herricd8763
      @herricd8763 Před 4 lety +1

      🙄

    • @GrassPossum
      @GrassPossum Před 4 lety +1

      @@cinsationalcinema1776 Except he isn't doing that. He is still using it. He doesn't seem at all like a pot user emotionally, mentally, or physically. he does seem like a heroin addict during the cruisy stages of the day. the answer to the question about using is so familiar he has practised answers he gives. Often cops, judges, councilors etc. Says the right things to be convincing. He tries harder to answer that than when he just narrates history. Tries too hard.

    • @topspot4834
      @topspot4834 Před 3 lety

      Good quote ... I also like "It's not about what you accomplish, but what you overcome that makes you who you are."

    • @topspot4834
      @topspot4834 Před 3 lety +1

      @@cinsationalcinema1776 different ... When you're getting high, then yeah just a matter of opinion. I smoke pretty much daily, but if I go a day or two it's not gonna kill me.
      Opiates though, totally different story ... When you're addicted, you don't "get high" anymore. You're just constantly looking to "get well" and feel normal. The fear of withdrawal controls every aspect of your life.
      Picture if you had an oxygen tank, and that was the only way you could breath. You'd be completely consumed with keeping air in the tank 24/7, and you'd sell your soul to get it if you had to.
      Opiates pretty much the same thing.

  • @eyeswideopen5582
    @eyeswideopen5582 Před 3 lety +9

    I love that he protected his sister and fixed that sick bastard. I like him, he’s a good guy and I hope he gets his life together.

  • @CloBaskin
    @CloBaskin Před 4 lety +45

    These documentaries are incredible so raw and so real they need to show these in schools .

  • @cindyfitzgerald4500
    @cindyfitzgerald4500 Před 4 lety +277

    Tony you’re truly a great big brother, you saved your sister’s life. It’s a shame you’re sister isn’t in your life she should be thanking you! That molester messed up both of your life’s and I can’t imagine the pain you’re mom has had to go through bc of that monster! I so hope that you can eventually have the great life that you deserve. I know what you did in others eyes is wrong but what he was doing to your sister he had it coming. Tony I wish I would have had a big brother like you when I was being molested as a child. I totally get why you did what you did.

    • @cindyfitzgerald4500
      @cindyfitzgerald4500 Před 4 lety +18

      If I ever had the chance to meet you I would give you the biggest hug and tell you that I think you’re a hero for saving your sister. And I would tell your sister be thankful that she had you as her brother.

    • @liveNletlive0691
      @liveNletlive0691 Před 4 lety +11

      That's soo sweet and I agree %100..almost made me tear up..I'm so so sorry for what you had to go through, nobody deserves that 💜💜 and that guy definitely had it coming...a minor cannot consent,the brain is not fully developed no matter if she was texting him back or whatever it's preditorial for the adult to do or say anything like that. I believe he saved her from something that would later on be traumatizing for her :(

    • @cindyfitzgerald4500
      @cindyfitzgerald4500 Před 4 lety +4

      BEASTofBURDEN; Thank You sweetie! It took me many years of therapy to get over it. I finally dealt with it and now I have a good life. That’s why I have so much respect for Tony he was truly her hero and she needs to get ahold of her brother and tell him thank you and that she loves him 😊❤️

    • @aussiemma8426
      @aussiemma8426 Před 4 lety +4

      Cindy Fitzgerald don’t judge this guy based solely on that story. I guarantee this guy has stolen from his family over and over again and hurt them badly emotionally.

    • @dontbelongherefromanotherp9807
      @dontbelongherefromanotherp9807 Před 4 lety +7

      Beautiful! No one else protected his sister, and they should have

  • @MrChristianbowman82
    @MrChristianbowman82 Před 4 lety +268

    Everyone should hope to marry a woman that will grab the bleach and rubber gloves if it ever came time!

  • @Novel._.
    @Novel._. Před 4 lety +43

    I feel like he’s hit so many good points. Living in the past has always been a weakness for me. I’ve been through so much. Sometimes I just feel like that scared little girl all over again. The anxiety gets to be too much sometimes and sometimes it’s daily. I’ve just done the best that I can to make sure that my kids don’t have a traumatic childhood. I would hate for them to ever have to relive the moments that I have.

  • @KatieT441
    @KatieT441 Před 4 lety +57

    This guy is still young and has a lot of potential, prayers to him and everyone else 🙏

    • @syrusbark
      @syrusbark Před 4 lety +3

      Prayers? How can you still believe in a God when you listen to some of the stories on this channel?

  • @ef8493
    @ef8493 Před 4 lety +70

    Interesting interview, likeable lad! Hope he reaches out to his daughter and gives her the choice whether to know him or not.

  • @SaulTeebolz
    @SaulTeebolz Před 4 lety +295

    Coming from a former heroin addict.... he’s 10000000% not clean. If you have ever been there, you can tell just from someone’s voice if they’re on opiates. He’s probably on methadone or something

    • @dp6970
      @dp6970 Před 4 lety +5

      Agreed.

    • @Alyssabacq
      @Alyssabacq Před 4 lety +18

      I'm dealing with a partner who addicted to heroin and now shooting up I dont know what to do anymore how did you get clean please answer me please

    • @Alyssabacq
      @Alyssabacq Před 4 lety +9

      Please

    • @local602
      @local602 Před 4 lety +16

      northCALIFA it’s that slur and rasp

    • @monicdavis6150
      @monicdavis6150 Před 4 lety +63

      Brittany Cadena
      Unfortunately I had the same problem with my husband. I tried everything for 11 years. It just got worse despite his empty promises.
      You just have to choose you. I had leave to save the rest of my life, and possibly my sons life. We broke up and get back together many times.
      I still love him......from 3,000 miles away.
      When your tired you will leave.

  • @SS-ps6mg
    @SS-ps6mg Před 3 lety +8

    Every saint has a past, and every sinner has a future, Tony. Take all your pain to The One you know can turn your situation around. God bless, you.

  • @brittanywhite9442
    @brittanywhite9442 Před 4 lety +170

    Just be honest with your daughter, tell her your story; so no one else does. My father passed away when I was thirteen, and now at thirty, I’m finding out that everything I thought my father was, he is not. It may not all be true, but i will never know. Talk to her, she may shut you out, but keep trying. You can’t rewrite your past,; However, you can make an amazing conclusion. Tell her the bad, the good, the ugly and the pretty. I found myself with a man just like my father; smh, or at least what I thought he was. I didn’t know the warnings; but if he had been honest with me, even at thirteen, maybe life would be different. I am now in a great career, and life is good from what it was. Talk to her, this is coming from a daughter to a father. Drugs, jail, and all the messed up things in between, my dad did that, and you know what? I still love him; I just wish he was honest with me, no matter how much it hurt him, because now I’m the one lost,hurt , and left to pick up the pieces of his past; so that I can understand my present.

    • @brittanywhite9442
      @brittanywhite9442 Před 4 lety

      mak 10, trust me, she will find out, wether you want her to or not. Be honest, because if you don’t tell her someone else will... trust me I know from experience with my sister. It can go either way, if you talk to her or not. She loves you, she trust you

    • @sweetblack1216
      @sweetblack1216 Před 4 lety +2

      Just reading your story put such a major impact on me every sentence touched me deeply and I poured out tears your words were so profound when you said you cannot rewrite your past but you can make an amazing conclusion. And you are so right people should never be afraid to tell you who they were no matter how much it hurts them those that love you will stay and those that don't will go away

    • @brittanywhite9442
      @brittanywhite9442 Před 4 lety +1

      sweet black thank you so much, it took a lot for me to put my feelings out in that way but if I can help a child it is worth it.

    • @jamiedallas6968
      @jamiedallas6968 Před 4 lety +1

      I agree. My father was wonderful to me with a few hiccups. I knew I was loved by him though. He lived with so many demons yet only told me half truths of his past. Later after he passed I put two and two together about a story of his and asked my aunt...my father in a fit of rage beat his pregnant wife before my mother and killed his unborn child. It messed him up for the rest of his life. He never could forgive himself enough to live a healthy life and he missed so much with me because he was afraid to hurt me.

    • @joshjames8389
      @joshjames8389 Před 4 lety

      Too long of a comment. No one gonna read this ishhh

  • @justinjus5061
    @justinjus5061 Před 4 lety +88

    This my favorite channel love hearing these life stories especially because I’m young helps me guide my self to a better life me being 16 my life hasn’t really even started so just see these routes people have gone makes me want to make the right decisions.

    • @hwb-zalpach
      @hwb-zalpach Před 4 lety +6

      yeah, don't kill, don't steel.. just the usual. stay with marijuana. do sports..

    • @tinawindham6958
      @tinawindham6958 Před 4 lety +4

      That’s fucking beautiful. I’m glad you told these addicts they helped u. When you come to that fork in the road...leave the knife alone.

    • @margieavila6864
      @margieavila6864 Před 3 lety

      My name is Margie I am an alcoholic like u I decided to start drinking at 50 I’ve been sober for a year and a month please give him my email much love

    • @rudyrivas7889
      @rudyrivas7889 Před 3 lety +1

      Jems n knowledge with each interview. respect

  • @booksboardsbich
    @booksboardsbich Před 4 lety +10

    " Stop wasting your todays on yesterdays." I felt that. Thank you Tony❤ You're the brother i never had :)

  • @Niketa21
    @Niketa21 Před 4 lety +82

    I like this guy. He’s honest and smart. His Crime was brutal but hey, he was trying to protect his sister. She should be lucky she has a protective brother. But, he could have gone about it a different way but he did his time.

    • @shustyrackleford_710
      @shustyrackleford_710 Před 4 lety +1

      Look at his triceps too! This boy would be jacked if he got off the dope and on the weights

    • @aussiemma8426
      @aussiemma8426 Před 4 lety +5

      Arshanie Niketa he’s not honest at all. I guarantee you this guy has stolen many times from his family over and over again and emotionally abused them too

    • @WildRebelx87
      @WildRebelx87 Před 4 lety +3

      Arshanie Niketa honest? This dudes high on something in the interview.

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 Před 4 lety +1

      WildRebelx76 987 He could be on the weed he’s talking about, or on medication management. Sometimes methadone patients used to come to treatment like that.

    • @richardherreraherrera6965
      @richardherreraherrera6965 Před 4 lety

      Very true

  • @Buzz_15900
    @Buzz_15900 Před 4 lety +69

    This dude is the man you want by your side on the streets

    • @midevil2829
      @midevil2829 Před 4 lety

      Yeah......Until u trigger him into breaking yo jaw😂

    • @rcknrdnk
      @rcknrdnk Před 4 lety +5

      @@midevil2829 no. No triggers there. Where do you let someone molest your sister and then if you caught the guy would you not have done worse than he did? I can promise you I know I would have

    • @omaisgee123
      @omaisgee123 Před rokem

      @Face SMASHER no, he's very loyal

  • @jakedesjardins8076
    @jakedesjardins8076 Před 4 lety +19

    went
    from an interview to a incredible story

  • @alysiagould8986
    @alysiagould8986 Před 2 lety +2

    Whoa!!! I have never wanted a video to keep going so bad…out of all of Mark’s videos that I have watched, this one had my heart racing. Hanging on every word.

  • @khodge9705
    @khodge9705 Před 4 lety +5

    He seems to have a real sweet spirit despite what he’s been through, I’m glad he’s able to kick the heroin habit. I wish him nothing but the best

  • @Netta-Jo
    @Netta-Jo Před 2 lety +3

    It always baffles me how the ppl say how a parent wasn’t a part of their life and then they turn around and repeat the cycle. My parents wasn’t great but it just makes me want to be a better parent. Go see your daughter! She deserves to know who her father is! Give a chance to accept you for who you are!

  • @johnnycaralta
    @johnnycaralta Před 4 lety +1

    I usually just listen to these stories while I'm at work, so the longer the better. People are interesting and I appreciate you giving them a place to share.

  • @shortpotato26
    @shortpotato26 Před 3 lety +1

    These interviews are an incredible view into peoples lives, laying out all the broken pieces for us to see. I'm deeply humbled.

  • @pamelabeaudoin8206
    @pamelabeaudoin8206 Před 4 lety +6

    I Love his Story ....I am a Prison Nurse...so I hear these types of stories all the time....His is so Honest!!!

  • @XWoodbineX
    @XWoodbineX Před 4 lety +17

    Man he was young when he fathered his first kid. 16.
    He’s still young. I’m 32 in a couple of days, 33 is nothing. As he said. Hopefully he can put all this behind him, and start bettering himself
    He’s got a good head on his shoulders.

  • @amina314
    @amina314 Před 4 lety +17

    If Tony can see this message... I want him to know that he should reach out to his daughter. I grew up with my dad coming in and out of my life. There have been times where I didn't talk to my dad years at a time and the only thing I wished for was for my dad to call or come see me. I chose not to call him because I didn't want to interfere with his new life with his wife but all I wanted was for my dad to be around. His daughter can be feeling the same way and there's probably confused as to why he's not around. I wish Tony all the best and hope his relationship with his daughters work out.

  • @Lilly-he4py
    @Lilly-he4py Před 4 lety +4

    Oh Tony, my heart goes out to you! You can change your life around! Even though u feel like u are at the lowest on the totem poll i still have respect for you and you deserve a new start/perspective in life.

  • @aimeehampton3302
    @aimeehampton3302 Před 3 lety +3

    Very awesome guy you are Tony. That man deserved to be treated the way u treated him. Your sister is very blessed to have a brother who loves her the way you do. Your daughter will be super proud of you someday. I am understand the trials and tribulations of the drug world. You keep giving your testamony. You are helping so many people.

  • @MsTcup
    @MsTcup Před 3 lety +20

    Tony is one of my favorite people on this channel. I’ve watched his video several times. I hope he’s doing ok. He’s been thru some stuff!

    • @HiGlowie
      @HiGlowie Před rokem +1

      You got some low standards.

  • @Nat0528
    @Nat0528 Před 4 lety +2

    I like tony! This guy is the most insightful and introspective participant I’ve listened to! He knows what he has to do, he’s just got to do it! I wish him the best! And I hope he can turn his life around! ❤️🙏🏾

  • @imani_malik_L7777
    @imani_malik_L7777 Před rokem

    What a life you have lived through and only 33, goes to show how integrity and a positive outlook can carry us through some profoundly difficult circumstances. Thank you for sharing your amazing story and I hope you reunite with your daughter and have success in general.

  • @robinjones9452
    @robinjones9452 Před 4 lety +63

    Tony did a lot of drugs. He has that permanent high talk.

    • @uptownscenery9175
      @uptownscenery9175 Před 4 lety +17

      Because he's still using

    • @duck4271
      @duck4271 Před 4 lety +7

      he is obviously high in this video just like most of the people, theyre hard core addicts

    • @Keshia.means.GreatJoy
      @Keshia.means.GreatJoy Před 4 lety +3

      But he said he's 2 years clean

    • @duck4271
      @duck4271 Před 4 lety +5

      @@Keshia.means.GreatJoy addicts often lie on this channel about being clean im not sure why, but he is clearly high..

    • @killplayz1000
      @killplayz1000 Před 3 lety +2

      @@duck4271 he doesn't have to be high to sound like that, he could have got hit in the head. Or you could talk like that from doing too many drugs over the years. I was in rehab with a lady that talks slower than him, bc The drugs affected her brain.

  • @Gaun-wo-pi-shi
    @Gaun-wo-pi-shi Před 4 lety +170

    He's still using. No way he's been off heroine for 2 years.

    • @gingerbreadmannnn
      @gingerbreadmannnn Před 4 lety +4

      Why not?

    • @MarkGelderland
      @MarkGelderland Před 4 lety +41

      @@gingerbreadmannnn Because he's high as a kite

    • @JessicaMarie5184
      @JessicaMarie5184 Před 4 lety +29

      High as a kite would be nodding. He's just not dope sick, you get to a point not long into heroin where it's not a high but just enough to get thru the day and not withdraw. I wish he could kick it and go to weed but heroin is the devil for a reason. Takes your soul. AND why methadone or another lesser opioid step down, hell get there.

    • @brandik4180
      @brandik4180 Před 4 lety +14

      It was a straight forward question and I don't blame him for lying (if he did lie). The fact that he doesn't want to reach out to his daughter makes me believe he still might be using but it's not really anyone's business I guess.

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 Před 4 lety +6

      gummybear34142 could be methadone

  • @vad3742
    @vad3742 Před 4 lety +2

    One of my favorite interviews. I really think this man has the strength to do better and create a great life for himself and to be a good father to his daughters 🤍 praying for you Tony

  • @JessicaMarie5184
    @JessicaMarie5184 Před 4 lety +6

    I watch all of these. I've been with someone in this life, I am a nurse for this population, I get it, I've heard it as a woman to her man and nurse to patient- his story is one to share, learn, listen. No doubt he gets it, he had it, he has the understanding to change. I will def look for updates in a few months and hope he keeps on, you got this Tony.

  • @sunnydays2314
    @sunnydays2314 Před 4 lety +60

    My favorite interview so far. Honest guy.

    • @laneyfisher7476
      @laneyfisher7476 Před 4 lety +4

      True. He could be great mentor to others. Prayers he will take a better path.

    • @jackierosado1777
      @jackierosado1777 Před 4 lety

      Totally agree!!

    • @readmore4178
      @readmore4178 Před 4 lety

      Sunny Navar Right. Real honest.
      An honest, savage psychopath.

  • @ohemgeexoxo
    @ohemgeexoxo Před 4 lety +6

    Proud of you for being a good brother and protecting your sister! You are saying all the right things I pray that you can continue to better yourself . I think you should talk to your daughter! She will appreciate the honesty and vulnerability. Just gotta explain this is what I’m going through baby girl and I’m doing my best to better myself.

  • @alipie4821
    @alipie4821 Před 4 lety +4

    tony seems like such a down to earth, genuine guy. he seems to be a super smart guy and be almost “enlightened’ in some aspects. I do hope he reaches out to his daughter, even if it’s been forever and even if he feels like he’ll mess her up he should like write her a letter yanno? to tell her he loves her and he supports her and he just wants to do what’s best for her. back to the point good luck Tony! i wish happiness and success to you ❤️

  • @natashajadekinsey3673
    @natashajadekinsey3673 Před 4 lety +26

    This guy has so much potential. If nothing else, I hope he gets the chance to be part of his daughters life.

  • @forgetfulfunctor1
    @forgetfulfunctor1 Před 4 lety +6

    What I've gleaned from this channel in general+this guy in specific as well:
    If we saw in ourselves what others see we are capable of, addiction would be trivialized for ~>90% of addicts.

  • @romerivera4504
    @romerivera4504 Před 4 lety +7

    Best interview so far!

  • @Jess2b_fit
    @Jess2b_fit Před rokem +2

    Tony is a hero. This story is so important because of how many prisoners with stories similar to his we have never or will never hear about. He did what many claim to be willing to do for their loved ones.

  • @88squirlz24
    @88squirlz24 Před 4 lety +2

    Tony if you ever read this, you helped me today. Thank you. You have a gift for inspiring people. I wish you all the best. God bless you bro

  • @shadane18
    @shadane18 Před 4 lety +5

    I really like him. I don't know why. I could have listened to him all day. if you ever bump into him again tell him he has my support all the way from the UK ❤

  • @darrenmclean2069
    @darrenmclean2069 Před 4 lety +4

    Sounds like a cool guy at heart I hope he gets back on track I wish him all the best.

  • @briannascott9504
    @briannascott9504 Před 3 lety

    This is my favorite interview. The honesty and realness..

  • @LizLoStyle
    @LizLoStyle Před 4 lety +1

    So many lost individuals and so smart! I pray for everyone that comes on your channel.

  • @morgangreen8327
    @morgangreen8327 Před 4 lety +3

    He has what it takes ! I’m praying for your strength 🙏🏾🙏🏾

  • @pamelabeaudoin8206
    @pamelabeaudoin8206 Před 4 lety +4

    He is such a smart, intelligent, good looking guy...protecting his sister...his whole life changed....WOW.

  • @leelakleemann5382
    @leelakleemann5382 Před 4 lety +1

    I didn´t know.........THAT I NEEDED THIS - THANK YOU TONY! Thank you God for taking care of this man - so his story helps others too

  • @KELLYKH
    @KELLYKH Před 2 lety +2

    honestly this is one of my favorite videos. I love his views on life. I really hope the best for him.

  • @bebaali2572
    @bebaali2572 Před 4 lety +243

    Yes more longer videos i love it 💙

    • @SoftWhiteUnderbelly
      @SoftWhiteUnderbelly  Před 4 lety +132

      LoCca Canee Really? I try to keep them as short as I can. Please let me know if others like the longer talks. Thanks, M

    • @bebaali2572
      @bebaali2572 Před 4 lety +10

      Soft White Underbelly i will most definitely let you know 💙 keep up the great work 💪🏽

    • @brittanywhite9442
      @brittanywhite9442 Před 4 lety +24

      Love the longer talks!!!!

    • @annn9917
      @annn9917 Před 4 lety +10

      Also a fan. Keep em coming. A lot of inside time rn.

    • @shellizalek7155
      @shellizalek7155 Před 4 lety +14

      @@SoftWhiteUnderbelly I love the longer ones. I can sit and watch them all night. You're doing an awesome job. Thanks!

  • @noelledelarosa9301
    @noelledelarosa9301 Před 4 lety +25

    Wow I loved this interview wish I could find him on social media to keep up with his story! 🙏🏻❤️

    • @eligonzalez3234
      @eligonzalez3234 Před 3 lety +2

      He says his name in video, its tony micheals, I looked for him but cant find anything?

  • @sampritchard9480
    @sampritchard9480 Před 4 lety +1

    Wow, this guy has the right mind set. He has a good head on his shoulders. Yes he made some mistakes but he knows right from wrong. This guys is amazing and I hope we get an update on him one day. He is inspiring. I wish the best for him, truly

  • @sarahbear343
    @sarahbear343 Před 4 lety +2

    It’s unfortunate that his sister won’t talk to him, he’s the real hero here and she needs to see that! He has a good heart he is a man of faith, and there’s nothing wrong with smoking weed!!! I wish you the best man

  • @dannykelly7159
    @dannykelly7159 Před 4 lety +13

    Hope he gets better. I like him. Seems a good guy. Love from Ireland

  • @michellemartinez6363
    @michellemartinez6363 Před 4 lety +3

    Get to know your daughter. Be there for her. Be present. Let her watch you grow as an individual. You are the only dad she has and the only dad she will ever have. She will judge you. She will be mad. In the end she will appreciate your effort more than your mistakes. Goodluck Tony. We all deserve a second chance. I hated my dad. Met him at 19, I’m now 24 years old and can’t picture my life w out him.

  • @boydclark7549
    @boydclark7549 Před 4 lety +1

    Enjoyed this story it has stuck with me. Thanks to Mark for uploading and Tony for telling it.

  • @nancynicholson7815
    @nancynicholson7815 Před 4 lety +2

    I’m so hopeful for Tony’s future!! Like quite a few of the people your spent time with!
    Tony keep Kobe’s speech in your head, man!!

  • @steph4454
    @steph4454 Před 4 lety +4

    Wow! I hope he finds his way back! I for sure will be having him in my thoughts 🙏🏽

  • @kourtnilackes7442
    @kourtnilackes7442 Před 4 lety +4

    He's got the knowledge. He's got to USE it. He can lead. Tony made me feel better. May God bless him.

    • @Hey___you
      @Hey___you Před 3 lety

      It's so sad that he got used to it. I hate to see a wasted life.

  • @dianalindsay6325
    @dianalindsay6325 Před 4 lety +1

    Tony, there is a lot of wisdom in your story. Your voice could be a lightening rod to guide young people in the right direction. Life is hard for most. Good luck to you and your family!

  • @tinaarroyo4663
    @tinaarroyo4663 Před 4 lety +2

    Tony you are amazing! You took justice into your own hands and unfortunately had to and continue to pay for. You are extremely intelligent and I hope your road to recovery is not half the battle you have already endured. You have your whole life ahead of you! Do it for you! So your daughter's can meet Tony. Bless

  • @LucindaSchumann
    @LucindaSchumann Před 4 lety +78

    But still got the perfect fade hair cut.

    • @cindyfitzgerald4500
      @cindyfitzgerald4500 Před 4 lety +3

      Lu Taylor Beauty my grandson has his hair cut every week and it looks great like Tonys. He’s half Hispanic and it’s crazy how fast it grows out.

    • @avp1728
      @avp1728 Před 4 lety +1

      @Cindy Fitzgerald you know what else grows out fast

    • @JessicaMarie5184
      @JessicaMarie5184 Před 4 lety +3

      Good sign. True dope sick are not keeping up the weekly barber, skid row? Hes on his way. 💪

    • @LucindaSchumann
      @LucindaSchumann Před 4 lety +5

      @@JessicaMarie5184 unfortunately there is no way this guy is clean. I used for 20 years I'm 48 now and it definitely takes one to know one but when you are you definitely know.

    • @gavin3598
      @gavin3598 Před 3 lety +1

      He's cute. Love the body art.

  • @ryan8430
    @ryan8430 Před 4 lety +4

    Man I remember being on the streets and strung out hopeless wished death daily, jail and weights saved my mind, body, and spirit. There is a way out I wish this guy finds his way back

  • @jani775
    @jani775 Před 2 lety

    This interview is something else. Tony you are a person who can help a lot of people with your painful story. I hope you get help, get clean, get closer to your sister. Your past does not define who you are. God has a plan for you and your testimony can help so many people out there make better decisions.
    YOU CAN DO IT

  • @melissawycough34
    @melissawycough34 Před 4 lety +2

    Another amazing testimony, Mark.

  • @madhatter5847
    @madhatter5847 Před 3 lety +7

    If you notice when Mark asks these interviewees about their Parents, a lot of them will describe the age in which their family was dismantled and you can hear in their voice and the tales they tell that their life and intellect stopped at that point 😢

  • @denisejobeck853
    @denisejobeck853 Před 4 lety +8

    I love this man. A true man, a warrior misguided by the system.

  • @jamescordova1796
    @jamescordova1796 Před rokem

    I love these people you bring to the worlds awareness. I'm always amazed at how different you feel after hearing their story.

  • @kathleenmccown3066
    @kathleenmccown3066 Před rokem +1

    I have faith you can turn it around and help others that might be going down the wrong road !! Your words are very powerful. God Bless you 🙏🙏🙏

  • @beautiful_9ightmare704
    @beautiful_9ightmare704 Před 3 lety +4

    Tony you seem to be a stand up dude. Thank you for standing up for your sister..I hope you bounce back and get some sobriety. You can do it kid!! The prison will take your soul!! You made it out alive... take advantage! Best wishes!

  • @theprovoked321
    @theprovoked321 Před 4 lety +23

    Wise beyond his years. Im 39 and still trying to find my place fighting addiction and anger. I wouldn't substitute one addiction for another but if it works for you... When your sick and tired and ready to give up. GET UP!

    • @ZazVocals
      @ZazVocals Před 4 lety

      Beyond his years?! He was old enough to be married before serving 15 years in prison, I think he’s old enough.

    • @cencoast_7.340
      @cencoast_7.340 Před 4 lety

      @@ZazVocals You're missing the point

    • @cencoast_7.340
      @cencoast_7.340 Před 4 lety +1

      Same here man, 37yrs old and still fighting this bullshit. On subs now and doing better but damn, shit gets old.

    • @ZazVocals
      @ZazVocals Před 4 lety

      SoCali7three the point here was his ‘years’ - his age. I think you’re the one pissing the point.

  • @rowenoaks9656
    @rowenoaks9656 Před 4 lety +1

    What a genuine guy. I think he will end up really helping people.

  • @mgoumma9925
    @mgoumma9925 Před 4 lety +2

    Love you both, man. This is brilliant. You’re doing incredible work Mark. Keep it up

  • @alik843
    @alik843 Před 4 lety +5

    Wow this young man has a heck of a story. Much love to him

  • @danletras
    @danletras Před 4 lety +8

    Guy shared some good ideas, beyond the scary, violent stuff. I thank him.

  • @be-kind-to-the-earth8364
    @be-kind-to-the-earth8364 Před 4 lety +2

    He seems to have such a kind heart..remember it’s never to late for change!

    • @DopamjneRush
      @DopamjneRush Před 2 lety

      If only it was this easy I’m on and off for years

  • @theeonlyway9582
    @theeonlyway9582 Před 4 lety +1

    Amen brother! I hope your life changes for the better. Don't give up as you said. Your story is amazing. Hopefully it keeps people out of prison.

  • @tyracubanqueen5496
    @tyracubanqueen5496 Před 4 lety +41

    So sad. It's not to late to get it right.

    • @mariebernier3076
      @mariebernier3076 Před 3 lety

      That's so true. But you got to commit, you can't play both sides of the fence. He's still trying to do both. I can tell he's not convinced yet.

  • @moni1404
    @moni1404 Před 4 lety +3

    I wish you the best of luck. You will over come, Tony. God bless. Stay strong.

  • @juliethomas8748
    @juliethomas8748 Před 4 lety +2

    Thank you Tony for sharing your story!! I am sure that one day your daughters will be very proud of you.

  • @LuvOnHigh
    @LuvOnHigh Před 4 lety +1

    You did what my brother would have done. Thank GOD she had you. Mark I love your interviews keep them coming. 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

  • @SnoizYDubstep
    @SnoizYDubstep Před 4 lety +12

    "Stop wasting your todays, with the problems of yesterday." It's so hard to not feel shit though...

    • @maximwilson1482
      @maximwilson1482 Před 3 lety

      Easier said then done..so many of us are prisoners of our past.

  • @RosieWilliamOlivia
    @RosieWilliamOlivia Před 3 lety +12

    This felt like a 5 minute interview. He's captivating. I would tell him to be in his daughter's lives, it's better to be there and have her make the choice to have a relationship with him, or not, than for him to hide because he's ashamed of himself.

  • @Paula14609
    @Paula14609 Před 11 měsíci

    These stories never cease to amaze me

  • @texhotwings7521
    @texhotwings7521 Před 3 lety +1

    Yes very good testimony.
    It encouraged me.
    Amen
    He can help people even more now cause he’s been there.

  • @jasminei.922
    @jasminei.922 Před 4 lety +18

    He says “can I get one more of these” in the end. Not “where’s my money”. Good interview. I’ve google him and nothing comes up. Hope he can straighten up a little for the sake of his daughters.

    • @JoEbY-X
      @JoEbY-X Před 4 lety +1

      As a fellow speaker of his Southern California dialect, I can confirm he said, "Can I get one more of these?"

    • @thekaerichtexas
      @thekaerichtexas Před 3 lety +2

      Me too I can't find this story....id love to see the real news story on this

  • @_kimiadventures
    @_kimiadventures Před 4 lety +74

    This guy Tony get clean my man I could listen to your stories all day. You could make a killing on CZcams. Life eventually is easier off drugs. I promise & speak from experience.

    • @brittaolson6550
      @brittaolson6550 Před 4 lety +2

      Ochre Clay He’d be great on YT!

    • @steph.belt96
      @steph.belt96 Před 3 lety

      Its hard, man. I'm trying. I dont even get a sense of euphoria when I do drugs, the guilt overwhelms me so much that I just end up sad and dissapointed for letting my loved ones down, but most importantly myself.

    • @_kimiadventures
      @_kimiadventures Před 3 lety +1

      Stephanie Beltran I feel u. It becomes so not fun

    • @steph.belt96
      @steph.belt96 Před 3 lety +1

      Yeah which you'd think it would make it easier to stay clean but no. Bad habits are hard to kick to the curve. I know I'll be okay one day, I know I'm stronger than I was yesterday. I have hope.

    • @bucketstuck7137
      @bucketstuck7137 Před 3 lety +2

      Life *absolutely* gets easier once you get past a certain point in sobriety.

  • @secondspring5244
    @secondspring5244 Před 4 lety +1

    An intelligent man. I pray that he gets his life together. Bless him!!

  • @sherryparker3970
    @sherryparker3970 Před 4 lety +1

    Tony is a intelligent Brother
    And he’s aware of success and accomplishments My prays are with him and his family
    Many Blessings to the Brother