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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Christian, a heroin addict living on Skid Row.
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Komentáře • 939

  • @latashaevans9095
    @latashaevans9095 Před 2 lety +196

    It absolutely sickens me. What gives these perverts a right to take these kids innocence. As adults, it really screws up their life mentally and emotionally. I hope this man finds peace.

    • @fifilamoore1718
      @fifilamoore1718 Před 2 lety +11

      I’m right with you , the fact it can be ANYONE ! Man or Woman but the creepy way they go about grooming is just so calculated and I can’t no matter how many times , I hear it , wrap my head around it , it’s shocking! 🙏❤️fifi

    • @BURSRKR
      @BURSRKR Před 2 lety +2

      @SAGEBYDESIGN 99.9% of firefighters are very kind, compassionate and brave family men who risk their lives to rescue and save us. It’s a shame how easy it is for just ONE bad apple to cause us all to never fully trust a certain group of people again. Like the church who protected the wicked fireman. Shame on that disgusting pastor and I will never trust my children with a clergyman. You just can’t trust anyone. Even your own family members sometimes. Just sad and makes me sick and angry!

    • @keithmalewicz3487
      @keithmalewicz3487 Před 2 lety +1

      So true

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety +1

      @@BURSRKR Child abusers have put a stain on many professions and programs of value to people. It’s a shame!

    • @adammiller9179
      @adammiller9179 Před rokem +1

      Yes, it's so disgusting. It enrages me more than anything.

  • @quinny6920
    @quinny6920 Před 2 lety +241

    So many addicts are smart and talented. My son was clean 10 years and very successful, he relapsed and I lost him BUT he was so so talented like this guy. PLS PLS go home and get clean! You deserve it dude. I wish you luck 🍀

    • @fifilamoore1718
      @fifilamoore1718 Před 2 lety +7

      I’m so sorry to hear about your son, blessings too you for taking the time to believe in this lovely man. 🙏❤️fifi

    • @breigemurphy1305
      @breigemurphy1305 Před 2 lety +7

      So sorry for your loss x💕🇮🇪

    • @CashanovaXTREME
      @CashanovaXTREME Před 2 lety +2

      So sorry to hear that, was it fentanyl that killed him? When was this?

    • @user-randi1987
      @user-randi1987 Před 2 lety +3

      I am so sorry for your loss of your son

    • @jillmartin232
      @jillmartin232 Před 2 lety +3

      🙏❤️🙏

  • @danielles2265
    @danielles2265 Před 2 lety +264

    I could’ve listened for hours… articulate, smart and kind. I hope you find your purpose in life that makes you happy. ❤️

    • @honestlynate7922
      @honestlynate7922 Před 2 lety +5

      I know you have great intentions saying this but, he did find something that makes him happy and he did find a purpose in life and it's heroin. However, the problem is that we are going to treat him like a scumbag instead of like somebody who really needs help

    • @maizegod6840
      @maizegod6840 Před 2 lety +1

      Heroin is his purpose

    • @user-lp2bl9fb8d
      @user-lp2bl9fb8d Před 2 lety

      About 2 years ago me and my crew saw a heroin addict walking by extremely happy across the street... as you may know the H rule (if a junkie is happy , he has heroin money on him).
      Long story short we jump him , knock him down and rob him cold. He got 220 euros.
      About 6 months later he commit suicide.
      The point is I still laugh about it like it was yesterday. I mean I felt sorry for who ? A junkie?
      We saw her sister about a week ago.... I try to smash her but she said no... I told her about her brother plus I say "if he was here 30 times I would smash him again 30 times, nobody even like him" and she cry a lot and started shaking.
      The point is some of us are the bad guys of the stories and WE DONT GIVE A FLYING F*CK ABOUT IT , WE STIL LAUGH ABOUT THE INJURIES WE DONE.

    • @carlataylor5573
      @carlataylor5573 Před 2 lety +2

      @@user-lp2bl9fb8d Awwww are you trying to get some attention? You poor little thing. With that attitude I bet a “junkie” could beat the shit out of you.

    • @Mark-gn5rw
      @Mark-gn5rw Před 2 lety

      @@user-lp2bl9fb8d Kharma get you
      Good luck 🤞

  • @bulletsxdame
    @bulletsxdame Před 2 lety +63

    This guy has the ability to go out and teach others about his life. He's got a brilliant way of speaking thoroughly. I'd love to see him do a part two.

  • @jessecoates1562
    @jessecoates1562 Před 2 lety +433

    Christian, your 'call to be great' moment might be teaching high school kids. Hear me out: you'll get a free degree and you WILL change many lives who need direction. I'm an artist w ADHD, you described my mind, too. I did this at 40. Go into the many alternative teaching programs (Teach for America, NYC Teaching fellows, etc) for the free college and placement. You WILL have a mission - you'll see yourself in these kids- a reason to be clean and you will never be bored, I guarantee. High school kids need you, they're about to go out and make lasting life decisions, often without a caring adult like you had with your mom. Think about it. It is a position where you would be great, you're exactly the kind of man we need desperately.

    • @jessicalund5190
      @jessicalund5190 Před 2 lety +17

      This is so cool and I never knew of such a thing. 👏 Christian could def do this and he's an incredible speaker.

    • @coweenuh453
      @coweenuh453 Před 2 lety +16

      I just commented he sounds like he has ADHD as well!!! I was recently diagnosed and if he could be on the appropriate meds- he may feel better and not as if he’s battling his own mind and self daily.
      This is great advice!!!! This comment made me tear up💕💕

    • @LorenBlackwood
      @LorenBlackwood Před 2 lety +21

      Great advice Jesse, I got sober and knew focusing on a substantial goal was the key to keep me in the game of life. After finishing an Associates Degree w/ a 4.0 and honor classes I was accepted into the University of
      California, Irvine with a full scholarship and earned a Bachelor's, decades older than the other students. You have so much to offer, kids want to learn from you, don't let this moment pass. The rest of your life will be filled with opportunities.

    • @arlaabrell8658
      @arlaabrell8658 Před 2 lety +7

      I agree, what I said toward the end was - You're a teacher Christian, I'm a born teacher and I see a bit of myself in you - kids would love you, and they all could relate to you, most especially the ones who need someone positive to relate to. I could also see him as a motivational type speaker, but I far more see him teaching, if he's into any sports I could also see him as an amazing coach.

    • @lilaworley8935
      @lilaworley8935 Před 2 lety +14

      All of the beautiful ADHD minds that I know and love have this gift... This energy and creativity.
      Jack of all trades and complex strong emotions.
      All that when managed and supported... Can be absolutely amazing.
      Those that are not diagnosed or untreated... Struggle just like this.
      Knowledge is power and we can't change what we won't acknowledge.
      Early intervention and management is key. But anyone can benefit at any age if given the right tools and support.
      Thank you for making this comment. 💜
      I can absolutely see Christian thriving in something like this.

  • @Nanner823
    @Nanner823 Před 2 lety +132

    Well. I love Christian. He has a beautiful soul. I'm 45 and still have no idea what my purpose is. I have my 5 children to focus on for now though. I vote you do what makes your heart feel good Christian. My heart feels best when I paint, or when I fix things. I love fixing things people throw away. I think that's a silver lining from my trauma filled first 30 years of life. I love my children with every ounce of my soul, I broke the cycle, and I see beauty in the broken. I see your beauty too Christian. Just do something even if its a bunch of different things. No one says you have to have a 9-5 to be happy. Write the stuff, fix the things, be kind, like a traveling writer/handyman who isn't a jerk. You're super cute, and young looking too. Which threw me off, because you don't "look" like other addicts. So run, run away from the drugs while you still have your strength. I know you're meant for something better.

    • @lvnprntlc
      @lvnprntlc Před 2 lety +6

      Very well said!

    • @juliettezea9507
      @juliettezea9507 Před 2 lety +2

      Most people I’ve met who have kids say their kids are their life purpose

    • @Nanner823
      @Nanner823 Před 2 lety +8

      @@juliettezea9507 I've heard the same. Is it part of the plan for me to raise wonderful humans, yes, of course. That's probably not "why" I'm here though. My eldest is already 23, I wouldn't think I've done my part and be done with life once they have all reached adulthood. I'm sure there is something more, which may be something as simple as giving other people hope. I don't think the only thing I can do is be a mom. I actually feel kind of bad when a woman feels that's all she is here for, because there is always more, even if its something she can't see herself. Just being the change to break a cycle I suppose could be part of the plan, but I'm sure we are here for something else too. Like I said, haven't quite figured that part out yet. Are my children my world, my heart, my soul, 100 percent without a doubt. I just don't see it as being all I am meant to do. Who knows though, perhaps it is. Still trying to figure out life like the majority of people.

    • @SharonBenson2674
      @SharonBenson2674 Před 2 lety +5

      Very well stated!

    • @Nanner823
      @Nanner823 Před 2 lety +3

      @@lvnprntlc thank you.

  • @skyking228
    @skyking228 Před 2 lety +156

    "I kind of wonder who I am sometimes." Some folks say the greatest mystery in life is who we truly are. Always interesting, thanks!

  • @subiedude101
    @subiedude101 Před 2 lety +122

    Sounds like he's suffering from paralysis by analysis yet has a go with the flow aura. Very interesting. Loved the video

    • @bashmeesh
      @bashmeesh Před 2 lety +5

      Great summary!

    • @ItsKonFiDentZMan
      @ItsKonFiDentZMan Před 2 lety +9

      That just spoke to my soul... that describes me more than any other words ever could..thank you

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety +2

      Paralysis by analysis…I’ve so been there! I still get stuck in my head, if I don’t make a point to focus outside myself.

    • @whitefang112
      @whitefang112 Před 7 měsíci

      all you morons are mesmerized because of this amazing poetry . I was I was like you...easily amused. @@sciencenotstigma9534

  • @parisa5014
    @parisa5014 Před 2 lety +75

    Takes some balls to run out of that house, knock on a stranger's door, and call the cops at 13. Props to him, he saved a lot of other people.

    • @christianphillips7788
      @christianphillips7788 Před 2 lety +9

      Several children came forward and a string of abuse at a church was uncovered and stopped which makes it, to me anyway, worth it having happened to me

    • @parisa5014
      @parisa5014 Před 2 lety

      @@christianphillips7788 well you have a lot bigger balls than me, I'll prob take mine to the grave... It was a family member so makes it a little different, or I'm just making excuses for being a wimp ha. You're right, you saved a lot of people, what a champ! How r u doing today? I can relate a lot to u, my mind is a chaotic mess, but strangely I have found stability in my life (I own a home, have a stable job, and am married). I hope you can find peace and stability... You can do it and you deserve it.

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety

      @@christianphillips7788 Wow, that’s quite an accomplishment, to your credit. I know what you mean. Everything I’ve gone through will be worth it, if I can help others in a significant way, because of it. You’re a very compassionate person. That’s a huge strength, as long as we don’t let others walk on us, but you didn’t just fall off the turnip truck.

  • @janeyeagle7302
    @janeyeagle7302 Před 2 lety +45

    He is very articulate and self aware. I love his vibes, keep pushing, find your thing Christian.

  • @octaviobarajas3980
    @octaviobarajas3980 Před 2 lety +72

    I thought I was just doing drugs and alcohol for fun and I could take it or leave it and get sober when ever I wanted. When I tried to get sober is was impossible and a million times harder then I could have ever imagined! Now coming up on 2 years 8 months it’s worth the struggle. Hope and miracles is what I live for! Hope you get it soon Christian!

  • @Kay-xt9dg
    @Kay-xt9dg Před 2 lety +85

    He’s smart, he’s going to get out if he just goes for it. Wish you the best of luck Christian!

    • @earlenehutchins8726
      @earlenehutchins8726 Před 2 lety +1

      He is very very smart, but I think he is wrong about some people are meant to be homeless. We all make a choice to do things.

    • @shanecollinson995
      @shanecollinson995 Před 2 lety +3

      @@earlenehutchins8726 Thats how opiates speak to u eventually, kind of eat at all your self worth.

  • @patrickdabson3650
    @patrickdabson3650 Před 2 lety +47

    My brother just overdosed today. Luckily he is fine, since his fiancé found him before anything terrible happened. She called off the wedding and I am pretty sure he is going to go right back to using because of this.
    I have been clean personally for just under two years. I work out now, have two kids with my beautiful wife. I wish I could just shake him and tell him to snap out of it but it is not that easy. I pray for anyone going through addiction. It takes a lot out of you. Mentally, physically, and especially spiritually. Love you all.

    • @cindyfitzgerald4500
      @cindyfitzgerald4500 Před 2 lety +3

      We love you too and I’m praying for your brother

    • @Day-ZDuke
      @Day-ZDuke Před 2 lety +2

      Man it’s so tough, really hope your brother can beat the demon somehow. My brother is in a very similar situation, and I just don’t know what to do to help him anymore, he has to want it for himself. It’s just impossibly hard to watch people destruct their lives when you love them

    • @patrickdabson3650
      @patrickdabson3650 Před 2 lety +2

      @@Day-ZDuke I agree with an addict will with when they truly want to quit. I guess just be there for him, but don't enable his addiction like giving him money or rides to get something.
      Also ask him or tell him about kratom. I use it daily and it curbs my addiction to heroin amazingly. Has been a life saver for me.

    • @666blindrider
      @666blindrider Před 2 lety

      🧐 ☺️🥲

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety

      @@patrickdabson3650 Kratom has really helped me, also!

  • @superkool7
    @superkool7 Před 2 lety +33

    Christian bro you’re a strong guy. Keep pushing, don’t give up. You have so much more to offer man. You can do it. Don’t ever give up my friend

  • @TheEricj1337
    @TheEricj1337 Před 2 lety +146

    He is smart. Hope the fent doesn't accidentally get him if his H is not 100% H. We need an update video in a couple weeks or months.

    • @meeronda6595
      @meeronda6595 Před 2 lety +6

      Was just thinking... Sure hope he does actually get outta that whirlpool before the choices aren't available anymore! You STILL got a LIFE and purpose here man!!! 😬🙏🙏🍀💌

    • @vikicarts1772
      @vikicarts1772 Před 2 lety +8

      If he’s buying off the street in the US it’s all fent analogous.

    • @meeronda6595
      @meeronda6595 Před 2 lety +4

      @@vikicarts1772 I don't know much about that type of lifestyle...but I know enough to understand fent. is a seriously deadly problem and it's mixed in all kinds of hard drugs... If I'm going to take a chance with anything, it's going to be in the naturally God given herbs actually put on this Earth for all to consume. I don't trust anything man has had his hand in making😬😐 Lol...noooo thanks.

    • @gurumayne8684
      @gurumayne8684 Před 2 lety +4

      @@vikicarts1772 true yo. Brown dope usually is lighter brown these days. Sometimes white specks

    • @vikicarts1772
      @vikicarts1772 Před 2 lety +1

      @@gurumayne8684 thank god fetty doesn’t seem to have made its way to the U.K. yet. If anyone is going to dabble get on the onions. However if someone is living on the street it’s highly unlikely they will have access and funds to get the pure brown. Yet another kick in the teeth for people who live in poverty.

  • @jackiesoulitude5002
    @jackiesoulitude5002 Před 2 lety +79

    I wonder if the reason he hasn’t found what he’s supposed to do in life is because life wants to see him sober first???

    • @dcshortwave
      @dcshortwave Před 2 lety +11

      On target. Wise. We all need to read this comment amd take it to heart. Peace!

    • @juliettezea9507
      @juliettezea9507 Před 2 lety +5

      I think some people never find it sober or not

    • @christianphillips7788
      @christianphillips7788 Před 2 lety +3

      Love this idea...you may be the key to the lock I've yet been able to open, thank you so much for your wonderful insight. You are truly a blessing to those you encounter on a daily basis, and we should all be so lucky as to recieve your clear, concise, and to the point wit. And no, I'm not being a smartass...I'm as serious as I've ever been. And when I get what I feel is a good idea, watch out, because I take it to the extreme and finish strong, and now I have a rock solid reason to give the other side it's fair shake. Know of the good you've done here, ( and a million other places I'm sure).I know I know...my punctuation is terrible and I'm seriously reckless with commas and run ons

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety

      @@christianphillips7788 It worked for me. The brain isn’t motivation toward long term goals during addiction, no matter what kind of person you are. The part of the brain involved in planning and decision making is seriously damaged by addictive use & comes back only with abstinence. True story. Read “Understanding Addiction: Know Science, No Stigma,” by Dr. Chuck Smith and Dr. Jason Hunt. You will see that your inability to “find yourself” during addiction is not your fault. The addiction is not your fault. And your brain will go back to how it was, if you abstain long enough, maybe better!

  • @BuddhatheRockstar
    @BuddhatheRockstar Před 2 lety +30

    I really like this guy...he has a positive attitude. He could do anything with that outlook. Unfortunate he is still looking for his PURPOSE.

    • @NC-ck5oj
      @NC-ck5oj Před 2 lety +1

      I hope he finds it soon or the H will take every ounce of positivity from him.

  • @kpeezyforsheezy
    @kpeezyforsheezy Před 2 lety +189

    From two minutes in I was completely captivated. This dude reminds me so much of myself. Too smart for our own good, excellent relationship with our parents, brains on overdrive that H helped level out, interest in everything, rich life stories, we’re writers, we’re story tellers, similar outlook on life that there’s no regrets - just lessons learned, living a buck wild life… I’m sure there’s more.
    As much as that intrigues me it terrifies me at the same time. I identify with not knowing where I belong or what I’m supposed to be doing with my life because I’m so deeply entranced with everything. Mark was right though, you just have to pick something and do it. Luckily I figured that out.
    Hopefully this gentleman also does before he wakes up at 50 in the same spot.
    If I were him, I’d be keeping a journal every day of life out there and after a few years try to get that published. Clearly everybody is fascinated with these types of stories, that’s why we’re here on this channel, so there’s definitely a market for it.
    Christian if you’re reading this - DO IT DUDE! I’ll help edit it. The saddest thing in life is wasted potential. Please don’t let that be you.
    ♥️

    • @Nobodyshoes
      @Nobodyshoes Před 2 lety +8

      Real humble and modest aren't you? 🙄

    • @carltonthepug
      @carltonthepug Před 2 lety +5

      H doesn’t ‘level’ out lol

    • @fifilamoore1718
      @fifilamoore1718 Před 2 lety +13

      I enjoyed reading your comment and well said , I appreciate your words and hope it hits home for christian as it’s always nice too hear a similar story with you saying he can too and don’t leave it till to late . I 100% agree and wish the same for him 2 🙏❤️ fifi

    • @rideorfly13
      @rideorfly13 Před 2 lety +8

      I think maybe you need to just be🤷‍♂️ although I enjoyed and appreciated your comment, I wonder if you might find some solace in moving your focuses away from yourself. All the best to you

    • @camquarters8416
      @camquarters8416 Před 2 lety

      parent** or mom***

  • @specialk5579
    @specialk5579 Před 2 lety +121

    As a child he was put into too many situations that caused predators to violate him PARENTS watch your kids like life depends on it CAUSE IT DOES😔

    • @cashusclay69able
      @cashusclay69able Před 2 lety +2

      You need to watch the boogeyman is real. Soft white underbelly. That's the title of the video. Older black dude. Watch it

    • @specialk5579
      @specialk5579 Před 2 lety +1

      @@cashusclay69able yes I have and commented on both his videos I’ve been with SWU since I first saw Jerry’s first video RIP Jerry😔

    • @user-lp2bl9fb8d
      @user-lp2bl9fb8d Před 2 lety

      About 2 years ago me and my crew saw a heroin addict walking by extremely happy across the street... as you may know the H rule (if a junkie is happy , he has heroin money on him).
      Long story short we jump him , knock him down and rob him cold. He got 220 euros.
      About 6 months later he commit suicide.
      The point is I still laugh about it like it was yesterday. I mean I felt sorry for who ? A junkie?
      We saw her sister about a week ago.... I try to smash her but she said no... I told her about her brother plus I say "if he was here 30 times I would smash him again 30 times, nobody even like him" and she cry a lot and started shaking.
      The point is some of us are the bad guys of the stories and WE DONT GIVE A FLYING F*CK ABOUT IT , WE STIL LAUGH ABOUT THE INJURIES WE DONE.

    • @lindaphillips5768
      @lindaphillips5768 Před 2 lety

      I bet your mom is proud of you. What a horrible philosophy of life you have, I will definitely pray for you.

    • @user-lp2bl9fb8d
      @user-lp2bl9fb8d Před 2 lety

      @@lindaphillips5768 are you talking about me ? Linda pray for yourself I don't need NOONE to pray for me... hold your stupid prayers for yourself

  • @Ashleyiza
    @Ashleyiza Před 2 lety +56

    You're thinking too hard Christian. You know in your heart what you need to do. 💖 If you wait for the right moment youll be waiting forever

  • @emgee9194
    @emgee9194 Před 2 lety +52

    Doing nothing is a common trait with some geniuses. If he is telling the truth it makes alot a sense.

  • @Iloveyusomuch
    @Iloveyusomuch Před 2 lety +30

    What an emotionaly strong person

    • @MarkGelderland
      @MarkGelderland Před 2 lety

      High as a kite on H, yes, one is.

    • @1110karin
      @1110karin Před 2 lety

      Not really, he needs hard drugs to make it through the day.

  • @TheScaryTruthCatalyst
    @TheScaryTruthCatalyst Před 2 lety +16

    I instantly like this guy! He seems smart and very expressive. I hope you can get his life together and get out of Skid Row.

  • @annieseaside
    @annieseaside Před 2 lety +10

    Christian, if you were to take a poll by asking a question on here, I believe very few people ever got that clear sign: THIS is what your Career needs to be. I am 60 this year and have had 2 companies, 3 careers not which I would have guessed at 21. But I get you too because I also believe in signs.
    So here is YOUR SIGN! Get sober. Make a leap and if necessary build wings on the way down. You can succeed!!! Go for it!!!!

  • @YardaFreeman
    @YardaFreeman Před 2 lety +17

    I know, Mark, that you do not have time to read comments, but in case you see this: you inspire people.

  • @mrsaleksandra2481
    @mrsaleksandra2481 Před 2 lety +18

    He said "I don't want to put my heart and soul into something that is not what I'm supposed to be doing"... But doing drugs is 100% not something that you are supposed to be doing, but still you have wasted so many years on doing it...
    If you ever get to read my comment:
    You are extremely intelligent, interesting, self aware and good looking guy. It's not too late for you, so stop lying to yourself and get some help. The longer you keep doing what you are doing, the smaller is the chance to see the "exit" that you are looking for.
    You know that. You are not a guy who doesn't understand how it works, you don't need or have to figure it out because you know the answer.
    Think about your mother and about yourself and take a chance to see how it feels to be on the other, sober side.
    You got this.. !
    I would love to see some update on his story and I hope he will try to get sober.
    Crossing my fingers and praying for him!

  • @lilaworley8935
    @lilaworley8935 Před 2 lety +11

    I hear you.
    You are genuinely a beautiful man. You're so intelligent. Insightful. You're handsome and well spoken. You're so strong. You have SO MUCH potential. You deserve more than living on the streets of skid row.
    Please leave that place before it swallows your soul.
    You're self medicating. You don't need to luv.
    You have so much more to offer the world. Your mother needs a hug. Break the cycle.

  • @myron6305
    @myron6305 Před 2 lety +32

    Damn. I feel like this dude can do great things if he set his mind to it. He’s super intelligent, ambitious, and self motivated. He could either be homeless and at the mercy of other individuals giving, or he could be a millionaire. It’s literally just up to him make those things happen

  • @lifesavercandy3239
    @lifesavercandy3239 Před 2 lety +7

    He has so much potential. If he is this intelligent high then sober he is a genius. I would love to hear him sober. Excited for that day with another interview update.

  • @motorcycleadventuresperu5979

    Wow dude tbh with you I think you do have a gift either writing or talking to people there is something about you that really captivates the audience! I was hooked on this one from the start!!! I believe you've experienced so many things that you have so much to share!!! Great video guys!!!

  • @kimmuncy7460
    @kimmuncy7460 Před 2 lety +3

    Treat people with kindness…made me burst into tears.
    Also Mark I think this is the most advice I’ve ever heard you give someone. This is one of your most intriguing videos.

  • @ebeneezerscrooge2942
    @ebeneezerscrooge2942 Před 2 lety +7

    This gentleman’s story is touching. So sorry to hear about those early memories, how horrible.

  • @blueeyes6852
    @blueeyes6852 Před 2 lety +66

    What a wonderful guy!
    Wish he'd see his value!
    Prayers out to LA skid row.

    • @AngryHateMusic
      @AngryHateMusic Před 2 lety +1

      How is stealing everything you have "wonderful?" You probably think governments are wonderful too.

    • @AngryHateMusic
      @AngryHateMusic Před 2 lety

      @@JetSkiSuper7 "Dealt with accordingly" is a Blanket term. If "dealt with accordingly" means by political ends; that part to which we lend ourselves is far worse than any form of individual irresponsibility that we've seen here.

    • @AngryHateMusic
      @AngryHateMusic Před 2 lety

      @@JetSkiSuper7 Try to think of yourself as an individual rather than just part of the collective. It is that collective thinking that created the "fucking scum" you hate.

    • @AngryHateMusic
      @AngryHateMusic Před 2 lety

      @@JetSkiSuper7 Do you think Christian would practice his trade (electrician) if there were no laws against him doing so acting as an individual? I know he would have, but YOUR laws, YOUR police have convinced him he should not, that it is "illegal" and therefore he is bad to even think he could do such a thing without permission... You have lost your individuality and assisted in taking his in the process.

    • @AngryHateMusic
      @AngryHateMusic Před 2 lety

      @@JetSkiSuper7 You still example no comprehension of cause and effect.

  • @bella5011
    @bella5011 Před 2 lety +9

    He's a very intelligent guy. I feel an unusual amount of fondness for him-- probably because he reminds me of my sister a bit. Wish you the best Christian !

  • @copperlapislazuli4156
    @copperlapislazuli4156 Před 2 lety +6

    He’s one of the smartest guys you have interviewed so far. Hope he finds his purpose in life and fulfill his goals. I would love to see you make a follow up with him.

  • @p420dogg
    @p420dogg Před 2 lety +5

    So this is tough but I am Christians brother. I grew up in the same shitty trailer park and lived with the same bullies and jerkoffs that he had to deal with as a kid. I was almost sexually abused like he was but I got out of there because it didn’t seem ok to me but being so young I wasn’t sure why and I wish I knew better to help him out at that age. We started doing drugs near the same age and we hung in a lot of the same circles. I can vouch for him and tell you all that these stories are all true. The thing that’s super tough for me is in the entire interview he didn’t mention the family he disappointed and left behind in Virginia. He has two wonderful, smart, and extremely loving nephews that he doesn’t call, he doesn’t write especially since that’s his thing, and worst of all being from a single parent home doesn’t want to know because “he didn’t ask us to have kids.” His biggest regret is not doing something with his life! It’s laughable. He had so much potential but his work ethic sucked and he would have no issue fucking you over in a heart beat. I tried to get him clean and he ran off to LA to live in a tent because it makes him happy. So that bullshit about him wanting to be shot if he is still there in five years is either true because it’s a horrible existence and waste of a lifetime or he is lying to us and himself and can’t come to terms with the things he’s done to people that love him and tried to help. I’m not sure what else to say other than Christian I love you but you are 41 and while there might not be a relationship for us in the future you need to get off the dope and put your work boots on and make something of yourself. This video makes me so angry knowing your out there continuing this lifestyle of drugs and stealing in the same breath that your telling people to be kind to each other. Your literally stealing from people and causing trouble. How hypocritical of a statement is that. Do better!

    • @Progenitor1979
      @Progenitor1979 Před 2 lety

      Don't know if you're for real but your story fits with his

  • @alyssamary7132
    @alyssamary7132 Před 2 lety +38

    I feel like he has ADHD I’m not sure if it’s just in my head because I was recently diagnosed at the age of 30. Feel like I can relate so much to him it’s like your brain is always on overdrive you can never relax it’s overwhelming. People with ADHD also have a hard time thinking about the Consequences, here now in the moment kind of people. Whatever is going on I wish you the best of luck you can get sober and live a life Beyond what are you even imagine.

    • @sp123
      @sp123 Před 2 lety +1

      😢

    • @whitefang112
      @whitefang112 Před 7 měsíci

      very possible. He could be also Bipolar. but he's pretty hyper .

    • @OuterSpaceTarot
      @OuterSpaceTarot Před 6 měsíci

      I agree with this having adhd myself.

  • @bearcub1811
    @bearcub1811 Před 2 lety +21

    I totally feel you when you say that you feel "stuck" because you don't know which way to take your life or which passion to follow. I find that I get so overwhelmed by the thought of making the wrong decision that I get frozen and end up not choosing anything. I was waiting for the longest time for the "perfect" thing to come along I would just know that was my thing, but it didn't happen. Instead I've decided to pick something and just roll with it. I'm hoping that somewhere along the way ill figure it out or ill be able to apply my skill to something I didn't realize was my passion. I think its easy for people to say "just do it" but I think it comes down to having a good support system and having people that encourage you and help you along the way. I could see you doing something with social justice or politics. I too believe we should do things for the greater good and I could see you applying that passion to making the world a better place. I have been sober from alcohol and pills for 8 years and I understand how hard it is to deal with the emotions you have been repressing with the drugs. Waking up everyday sober and with a purpose in life is everything. I hope you are able to break the cycle and find your purpose, you deserve it :)

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety

      “Not making a decision is making a decision.”
      -Some wise person

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 Před 2 lety

      I think you’ve got a good plan! I hope you find it. I finally have, and it took a long, long time, but now, if G_d or the universe is willing, I have a plan. 🤩

  • @MrIrishTech
    @MrIrishTech Před 2 lety +2

    Such a unique guy. How he speaks, nothing phases him and he so clear in his speech.

  • @undrtow0515
    @undrtow0515 Před 2 lety +7

    Christian, thank you for one of the most fascinating stories I’ve ever heard on this channel, you do you dude.

  • @tifKh
    @tifKh Před 2 lety +8

    “It didn’t make you gay or anything like that?”
    “Interesting”
    Mark, come on now, what was that

  • @annelisabenazzi4857
    @annelisabenazzi4857 Před 2 lety +12

    Look at his eyes.
    You can see the deep sadness inside.😓

  • @PuraVida5446
    @PuraVida5446 Před 2 lety

    This is one of my most favorite interviews. Christian, you have something special. You are special. Sending love and light your way, brother. -Candice in Idaho

  • @michelleflack-webb8442
    @michelleflack-webb8442 Před 2 lety +4

    I think ur sleeping hours are similar to mine, Mark. Day started 3 hrs ago!!!
    Thank you for another great interview. All the best to Christian! … side note, had the whole gang listening to Appalachian interviews on our way home from Rehoboth🙌🏼👏🏼

  • @burymeinakobebryantnumber8598

    Very honest humble dude , respect to this man hope
    He gets thru this rollercoaster we call life god bless brother

  • @jadOreMEii
    @jadOreMEii Před 2 lety +4

    I hope we can have a update on christian soon. And i hope the best for him, he truly deserves it.

  • @fandangoyo
    @fandangoyo Před 2 lety +1

    I love this guy. I really hope he finds help for his addiction and finds his purpose in life because it seems like he has a lot to offer. Thank you Mark for the myriad faces of addiction and homelessness that you capture. People need to know how diverse, and so very human, this population really is.

  • @minaribena1539
    @minaribena1539 Před 2 lety +1

    This is one of my favourites so far! He hasn't lost the light in his heart through the drug use and that's beautiful

  • @ashleypatel5461
    @ashleypatel5461 Před 2 lety +6

    I would love to see an update on Christian several months down the road. He is fascinating!

  • @mariesandiego5291
    @mariesandiego5291 Před 2 lety +10

    What a HOOT! Christian, please please go get sober and make your dreams come true!! You are a genius!!! Make it happen !!! I hope Mark follows you!! Good luck to you..…. You can do this!!!

  • @xomelxo1435
    @xomelxo1435 Před 2 lety +1

    Why do I like Christian so much? He's funny, articulate, and could amount to really great things! Christian!! If you're reading this, I'm rooting for you in Georgia!

  • @mikebucur8461
    @mikebucur8461 Před 2 lety +1

    I admire this guy's honesty. Also very intelligent dude. Great interview!! Wish more people were so straightforward and genuine.

  • @fifilamoore1718
    @fifilamoore1718 Před 2 lety +8

    Thanks for sharing your story, bless your mum for leaving your dad to protect you, Sorry to hear at 6 how your “ grooming was just so calculated “ parents need too talk to their kids super early unfortunately as these low life’s just are so cunning at how they go about it !! I wish you all the best , your just a beautiful soul . I love how you embrace the good, bad and ugly 🙏❤️Fifi

  • @bagelman10
    @bagelman10 Před 2 lety +7

    What a bright man. Get well soon, Christian; your heart was clearly always in the right place but the circumstances were totally unfair.

  • @Renee1207
    @Renee1207 Před 2 lety +1

    Christian, if you ever get to read this.. I think you are completely right when you said that you are richer than most because of your life experiences and memories... the road to a different life and a new job starts by just taking that one step forward. You have a kind heart. I believe you will not only change your own life one day, but help others do the same. So many people here support you. Thank you for your courage in sharing your personal life story..

  • @littlems.tries-to-fix-it6270

    I could listen to Christian for hours. Interesting guy!

  • @everettlindell7230
    @everettlindell7230 Před 2 lety +4

    Deff need to get a checkup interview on this guy in a few months.

  • @beckymatthewd3819
    @beckymatthewd3819 Před 2 lety +40

    Mark, ‘make you gay’ Dude you know better than that… I still love you….

    • @DinkyPixie
      @DinkyPixie Před 2 lety +12

      I heard him say that and shook my head...such an ignorant thing to say, Mark 🙄😒

    • @AngelaShiflet
      @AngelaShiflet Před 2 lety +2

      He asked a legitimate question.

    • @kvato3069
      @kvato3069 Před 2 lety +6

      Anyone coming down on Mark for this needs to understand that not all gay people were completely born that way. There have been countless examples of people being molested and traumatized into a life of sexual confusion and continued immortality until they heal and realize they aren’t simply gay and suppressed.

    • @BimBop83
      @BimBop83 Před 2 lety +1

      K Vato so in other words, you’re talking about people who aren’t actually gay….

    • @AnarchoCatBoyEthan
      @AnarchoCatBoyEthan Před 2 lety +1

      Agreed, pretty weird thing to say. I guess maybe he meant more by that and didn't go into it, like others have mentioned maybe mentioning the specific trauma could have made him question his sexuality more than he would have without it. But "made you gay" just sounds ignorant of the way these things actually work.

  • @technolemonade
    @technolemonade Před 2 lety +2

    what a sweet, gentle soul. so much gratitude for an existence that hasn't always been easy.

  • @laurenmikles6605
    @laurenmikles6605 Před 2 lety +2

    Thank you for working so hard to share the truth! I am training to be a Salvation Army officer, and these are the people we help. Your videos help me to understand the people I might help in the future.

  • @LimoneneDaddy
    @LimoneneDaddy Před 2 lety +3

    This interview always had an impact on me ever since I watched it when it first came out I was still in active addiction.. My intelligence worked out against me with addiction and my mental issues!

  • @victoriak5027
    @victoriak5027 Před 2 lety +12

    Someday hopefully before I leave this Earth, I hope to see better protection for children from all abuse, especially sexual, that steals the innocence that children deserve to have. Why abusers never consider the life long pain and psychological challenges they cause. I think I know the answer: if you don’t consider anyone but yourself, you just simply don’t care what you do. We are all connected. The pain you cause another gets placed on them, then they place it on someone else, then society and this is the ills collectively we suffer. It is like a pebble in the water that causes so many ripples.Bless you all and stay in a higher vibe, for you and others that you share the world with 🤍☮️🙏🌎⭐️

  • @justliss1640
    @justliss1640 Před 2 lety +2

    Christian we're the same age and my heart goes out to you ...speak what you know ...people need to hear what you have to say... much love ...great as always Mark ❤

  • @mark_osborne
    @mark_osborne Před 2 lety +1

    What a smart articulate man, I so enjoyed this interview ! and wish him all the best

  • @flarethecharizard648
    @flarethecharizard648 Před 2 lety +4

    Hi Mark! I’ve never related to someone more in my life; it’s like we share a brain, Christian! Please just try something; you have so much to give & you’re such a role model whether you can see it already or not! I know you’re undoubtedly going to be amazing at a career soon!! You rock! Amazing vid.

  • @AtlantaGirl2012
    @AtlantaGirl2012 Před 2 lety +10

    Christian, hi 😊 I totally jump from one subject to another just like that!!! It's my norm! You're awesome and I hope you get better soon! You're an awesome person and I can't wait to see you when you find what your purpose is, I know you'll figure it out! 😊

  • @christineepperson9241
    @christineepperson9241 Před 2 lety

    What an inspiration!! Christian I hope you find your purpose that you need for yourself!! YOU are an amazing guy and could definitely help others out who maybe dealt with some of the same things you unfortunately had to endure. Best of luck to you, really hoping to see an update in the near future of you on the path you know you are meant to be on.

  • @yellowsubmarine7073
    @yellowsubmarine7073 Před rokem +1

    This guy reminds me so much of my husband. He’s so smart and I could listen to him all day long. My husband was the same way in school because he didn’t want to be one of the smart kids.

  • @arryvul
    @arryvul Před 2 lety +19

    People who don't want to recover always speak of it so simply... his grace period all depends on if he gets that heavily fentynal laced product that's taking everyone out

  • @jodiwienkes6115
    @jodiwienkes6115 Před 2 lety +7

    This guy is so engaging and interesting. It seems as though he could probably do anything he wanted to if he could just stay focused. Adderall would undoubtedly another addiction but he seems like there's just one thing that needs to be tweaked in that big brain to let him have the life he deserves. I'm going to pray for Christian, that he comes in contact with what he needs to be sober and get his brain to be calm.
    Updates would be welcomed, Mark.

  • @rdelida
    @rdelida Před 2 lety +2

    This is one of my favorite interviews. I would love a follow up!

  • @rosebip1261
    @rosebip1261 Před 2 lety +2

    I really enjoyed this one. Coming from someone who also experiences mania, it’s always so interesting to hear it on the other side. I also understand what he means by just knowing you are meant for a greater purpose, but not quite knowing what. I finally picked a path and just finished nursing school. I also do everything 100%, which can be exhausting.

  • @connissia
    @connissia Před 2 lety +12

    This guy reminds me so much of a former friend of mine. I'm no psychologist but the way this guy acts I'd be willing to bet he's Bipolar type 1 like my former friend. I wish I could say current friend as he's a good person and is one of the most interesting people I've ever known but at a certain point the obvious lies and stealing got to a point that was unbearable. I wish Christian and my former friend all the best and I hope they find their paths to happiness and health.

    • @kristenkincak8884
      @kristenkincak8884 Před 2 lety +1

      Totally agree! I used to self medicate then found out I was bipolar when I got sober and felt worse! Now I’m medicated and feel for him because I remember that whole spinning head shit. It still happens but nowhere as bad now. I hope ur friend is well ♥️

  • @whitneylicano8207
    @whitneylicano8207 Před 2 lety +3

    What he says about heroin is totally true. Took 6 years of my life and it takes such amazing people. Hope the best for this guy. It’s possible to get clean off heroin 🖤 and it’s possible to live a healthy life

  • @peaceeeeees_
    @peaceeeeees_ Před 2 lety

    Loved his take on being kind to others and his take on love. He seems like a really good person and I just hope he’s doing well

  • @mvtthew8394
    @mvtthew8394 Před 2 lety

    i wish this was longer! i was so interested in him talking and his outlook on life... i hope he finds his path 🤍

  • @carolynrupard2699
    @carolynrupard2699 Před 2 lety +3

    How powerful, treat people with kindness!

  • @uuuuuuuuiiiiiii
    @uuuuuuuuiiiiiii Před 2 lety +5

    What an intriguing beautiful person. God I want him to get well

  • @sw9830
    @sw9830 Před 2 lety +1

    Hello from your hometown, Christian. I wish you all the best and I am so thankful to have seen this video. It’s beautiful here today! I’ll wave to the Atlantic for you.

  • @tinamarie1111
    @tinamarie1111 Před rokem +2

    I like this dude he is so transparent and so relatable.
    I hope he gets his life together

  • @vikicarts1772
    @vikicarts1772 Před 2 lety +15

    Seems like another person self-medicating purely to get through this type of world in which we all live. I hope he makes it out alive and finds what it ever it is he was supposed to be.

  • @y-yyy
    @y-yyy Před 2 lety +7

    "I've wasted 40 years trying to figure out what to do" - I'm so afraid of this being me 14 years down the line. Sobering stuff.

    • @AngryHateMusic
      @AngryHateMusic Před 2 lety +2

      Hence the entire point of this channel... examples of what NOT to do.

  • @lialacombe71
    @lialacombe71 Před 6 měsíci +2

    We need a follow up, Christian is brilliant

  • @screamdreamer9085
    @screamdreamer9085 Před 2 lety +2

    I’ve never come across someone who i relate too so much. So many things we have in common and are the same. Glad I got clean off heroin 7 years ago, I hope he finds what he needs

  • @well_i_liked_it
    @well_i_liked_it Před 2 lety +24

    Guy is a Genius. Should be a vlogger and write a book on his life.

    • @donpeace894
      @donpeace894 Před 2 lety +4

      Where do you see genius ? Because he said he was ? If that's being a genius I'd rather be dumb

    • @well_i_liked_it
      @well_i_liked_it Před 2 lety +2

      @@donpeace894 Well, if you thumbs up your own comment...

    • @donpeace894
      @donpeace894 Před 2 lety

      @@well_i_liked_it it was by mistake lol

  • @markoembarko9045
    @markoembarko9045 Před 2 lety +11

    I was sexually abused by my father growing up and I can relate to you 💯 percent about being sexually awkward. You said that and I was like "Ding, ding, ding!" Right on the money... It sucks man!

  • @Oceans11.11
    @Oceans11.11 Před 2 lety

    I’ve totally forgotten that I was listening to an interview of a homeless man with a drug addiction. Christian, you have a much higher calling. Please get sober. There is a whole, wonderful life out there for you. I’m praying for you. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 You are strong, you are intelligent, you’re handsome, you’re a great speaker. You can be anything you want to be, just choose. It won’t be easy but you can do it!!! One day at a time.

  • @beckycrose2045
    @beckycrose2045 Před 2 lety

    i loved listening to you christian you have a way of making negative things into a postive perspective i see so much potential in you as a person. i pray you can find your purpose in life i feel like you could touch so many peoples lives

  • @tmusa2002
    @tmusa2002 Před 2 lety +8

    I see so often when people have nothing to lose, they pull skills out they didn’t realize they have and make great progress to improve their lives and relationships. Christian has the tools to do the same.

    • @jessecoates1562
      @jessecoates1562 Před 2 lety

      I so relate. This happened to me when suddenly unemployed after 911. But I know others for whom it isn't possible.

  • @Moselxasvp
    @Moselxasvp Před 2 lety +4

    Drugs turn you into a monster… too much of anything isn’t good for you. Truly inspiring.

  • @boardbrown
    @boardbrown Před 2 lety +1

    LOVE Christian's outlook on life! His passion for kindness, and his optimism that this "phase" in his life is just that. I hope to God he's right. Keep at it, good sir!

  • @juliehaslam9619
    @juliehaslam9619 Před 2 lety

    Remarkable video. You will not know what you want to do until your head is clear. The world needs someone like you; use your potential and change people's lives.

  • @apuapustaja6294
    @apuapustaja6294 Před 2 lety +8

    'I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked...'
    i see a genius gone astray. i hope the lost brother find the righteous path. sending my brotherly love from sri lanka..

  • @kimmigirl2968
    @kimmigirl2968 Před 2 lety +15

    First of all he looks like he could be your cousin, Mark 😂
    To me he is speaking his truth and I truely believe he can get through this. Would love to see what happens in the near future with him. Try and manifest your talents and watch for the signs, sometimes it's right infront of us.
    I wish you all the best. ✌️

  • @Blackcatsaregoodluck11
    @Blackcatsaregoodluck11 Před 2 lety +1

    This interview felt like 5 mins I could listen to him for hours 💜

  • @dannienewt
    @dannienewt Před 2 lety +2

    He reminds me of the Kelly Clarkson’s song “beautiful disaster” He’s so much more than his demons, so intelligent and well spoken. He understands his disease more than any addict I’ve ever heard before. Really hope he finds his way out because he could be a powerful story of redemption. I can totally see him giving seminars and motivational speeches

    • @christianphillips7788
      @christianphillips7788 Před rokem +1

      Amazing...I can also most definitely see him doing those things, and I'm sure he's more than thankful for your kind words, and if given the opportunity he would tell you himself how much your well placed act of love through these words of encouragement, along with the plethora of other positive affirmations have given him the strength to suck it up and somehow live through rehab after detox and ready to start the next chapter in a life frought with nothing less than organized chaos managed with an almost reckless disregard for personal safety and survived by the skin of my, woops, I mean his teeth, and what will surely be a wonderfully exciting, and noteworthy sober life ahead speaking in front of many lost young people hopefully saving a few of them from at least a few of the mishaps he could've done without. So again thanks, and I wish you nothing but the best

  • @030367100
    @030367100 Před 2 lety +30

    I fear he will waste his life if he doesn't do something soon.

  • @jadzkakapa2032
    @jadzkakapa2032 Před 2 lety +3

    If you don’t know 100% what you should do, help others to fulfill their purpose, take care of others. It is a great waitingroom.

  • @eleanorrose1133
    @eleanorrose1133 Před 2 lety

    Love this dude!! Keep your head up, uplift others and Godspeed on your journey 💓

  • @RyanCmetal
    @RyanCmetal Před 2 lety +2

    Treat people with kindness! This beautiful soul can solve all world problems. Stay strong brother