Crystal Meth Addict interview-Chris
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- čas přidán 14. 02. 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Chris, a crystal meth addict in Hollywood, California.
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Listening to Chris’s story reminds me of this quote...
“The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.”
- Lacey L
That’s deep
Wise saying. I was told by a therapist that my addictions saved my life by helping me cope with the neglect and abuse during childhood.
Wowwww, beautiful quote here ❤ It!!!
@@jadedmonk7001 Same here..
@@ravenblue7805 💖
"No matter where I go, I bring myself." This is a wonderful, deep insight. I wish Chris the best as he recovers. He seems ready for the next stage of his journey.
Dear Mark, your videos have helped me to look at people in a different perspective, knowing that everyone has a different story behind who they are! Thank you
Very very well said. It's hard to put your finger on it ay.
Every human has a story,and history.We never know what another person is going through or how they've been traumatized throughout their lives.
Compulsive liar irekon
Same here
You so right!💯💞
You been stabbed , shot , survived the high seas , survived multiple ODs, survived poly drug use , got clean from heroin , survived oxy , survived getting hit by a car ... That takes a lot of strength man.
You ment to live brother , for better things , keep your head up .. you stronger than most people i know.. I'm rooting for you man
Right?!? I think guy needs some introspection…. He clearly has a guardian angel or something…. Not everyone is so lucky, better pay attention and learn to appreciate the second, third, fourth, fifth, and sixth chances that god has given you. Obviously you are still here for a purpose so quit spitting in gods eye and maybe put the pipe down and figure what the fuck that purpose is…..
“No matter where I go, I bring me. I can’t run from myself.” Such a powerful statement. I relate to this so much. Thank you for sharing your story. ❤️
There are only two ways to get away from yourself. Psychedelics and natures shortcut. The issue is that psychedelics are temporary and the shortcut hurts everyone around you.
really sweet guy. There is something childlike about his eyes. All I can see is an abused boy who, as he says, had no where else to go but the streets. And this is what you get. That's it. Period. Those childhood wounds and rejection run deep. Wish it could have been different for him.
Man
As a recovering addict going on 13 years I totally understand the cycle Chris is on. You can clearly tell he has some recovery tools. The hardest and, most important part is to apply them to your daily life.
The lifestyle is as addicting as the drug itself because, they go hand and, hand. It took me giving up the lifestyle on order to finally give up the drugs.
Getting off drugs is abstinence and, recovery is a whole lifestyle change. Took awhile for me to connect the dots.
Keep trying Chris and, don’t give up 5 minutes before the miracle happens
You’re worth it🙏🏿
Thanks for sharing Troy! I’m rooting for you! 🙏🏼
Congratulations Troy!
Very insightful! I’m glad you are in recovery thank you for honesty
Thirteen years. Thats what I'm talking about Troy! Good job my Man.
Its amazing... That as a hurt human myself... Just how much it means to have someone say to you...'tell me how "YOU" genuinely feel right now bcz I am truly listening' And let you really share your story! We all need to make more of an effort to hear each other!!! Great job guys!!!
Hope your doing well and good vibes your way
The people in Mark's videos probably feel invisible most of the time to have someone to sit them down and ask them how they are makes their day
Hey Dawn hope youre well!
@@turdfurgeson517 Thank you Randell! U as well my friend! ~~
@@ediephillipsthemobtownhust8596 I knkw Edie, right? I live on a rough street and addicts walking up&down all hrs of the day&nite [my own daughters incld]...I try to at least say Hi how r u and take a moment to hear them. Even if it doesn't make a lick of sense! LOL But we all need to just be kind to each other AAANNDDD ourselves! Much luv 💞
Thank you for giving the hurt and abused a voice.
Absolutely agree with you beautiful stranger.
@@sandiebroomfield6245 Beautiful Stranger. That's far out. Yes there is some beautiful strangers out there. That would be a good title for a song to.
Beautiful Stranger
Mark, I don't know how you deal with all of this heavy stuff. I watch these, and get frustrated that I personally can't do anything to help them. I know you try to do what you can, but bearing witness to so many people's trauma, cannot be easy to carry around. I hope that you are taking care of your own mental health, so that you are better able to deal with all of this.
Thank you for all that you do. Thank you for listening to them, and giving them a platform. And thank you for exposing the reality of the unseen side of the world to whomever comes across your channel...including me...🙏🏻
Take care of yourself, and try to be safe out there...🤞
I’m a heroin addict on the streets in NYC. Something that helps more than u think is just making eye contact with us. Or stop n offer a cup of coffee, more so for conversation. Stop and talk with a homeless person for 5 minutes. It’s weird to feel like ur invisible, like ur not part of society. People that show some respect n humanity helps. It may seem like nothing, but it’s not.
@@myeyeswentdeaf6213
Hi there...💜
When I worked in the city, I'd make care-packages to give out to people at night, on my way home from work. It wasn't often enough, but I did it when I could. I didn't have conversations, unless I brought something to give, because I didn't want to invade people's space otherwise, because it felt disrespectful to just approach someone, when they probably just wanted to be left alone. Even when I gave something, I realized that some people didn't want to talk, and I would respect that. I spoke with those who wanted to speak...
I don't work in the city, nor go there anymore, since the pandemic started.
I want to wish you well, but I feel like my words are empty now. I know that you are in a tough/bad/hard situation, but I truly wish that you could make your way to the other side addiction, and to a better life...🙏🏻🤞
@Mia Cerro what makes you feel thos about Mark?? Serious question 🤔 I'm really confused and intrigued at the same time....this channel really helps a lot of us
@Mia Cerro what the heck?! That's some heavy stuff to say about someone, yet here you are, watching his videos.
I'm shocked. I've seen Mark connect with many people, regardless of their sex, race or how they look.
@Mia Cerro What are you doing to help? You must be new here. Watch his vid on why he does these and stop trolling those making a difference.
"I bring myself whereever I go" truest statement and most realistic statement I have heard.
Peace
Xoxox
Chris man you can get clean. You can be the dad you want to be. You can make something out of your life. The only person that is stopping you from making that choice is you. I’m a recovered 15+ year poly substance addict. I’ve been addicted to every drug under the sun and a few that probably aren’t. We are talking oxy, fentanyl, meth, coke, crack, I’ve smoke black tar, I’ve mixed and matched cocktails of prescription medication (opiates and benzo with booze and speed and coke), to put it plainly I was just about as bad a addict as you could be. I still am. The only difference is I’ve learned to respect myself and want better for myself, and I’ve refuse to accept that I cannot improve my situation. I’ve been clean since 2016. I have a job, I’ve mended all the relationships with my family, I own my vehicle out right, and I’m currently planning on opening my first legitimate business. I’m not special. If I can do it then so can you Chris. Anyone can. You just have to quit giving excuses and do it. Take that step, make that call, fill out that application…. Just do it man. ✌️💚🙏
what a great story you have i feel so proud of you and feel so moved by your journey i wish much love and success for you now and in the future - happy life from australia !! x
how didn’t you get OD from fentanyl?
@@menace2societies I was lucky and I had a insane tolerance to OxyContin. My friends weren’t so fortunate.
Good for you !!!!! Can't imagine - have a friend right now... on /off meth every other week... binges getting longer... almost at rock bottom, but his mom keeps taking him in... afraid... things aren't gong to end well for him. Its hard to be involved when work /family takes so much time... wish could give more, but he somehow has to help himself...
@@timothyj1966 they probably won’t if she continues to enable him like what you are describing. Codependency is a special kind of evil, kills people through misguided attempts at compassion and twisted perspectives of love. I hope your friend gets better, don’t lose faith in him but set firm boundaries otherwise the addiction will manifest and he will try to manipulate you I’m afraid. Hope I’m wrong and I hope he gets better. 🙏💚✌️
We see you... We feel your pain... We love you... After all you have been through, you are still here! You have a purpose!
100 % agree 👍
I feel such compassion for all these lost souls . Everybody has something to offer this world but just don't stand a chance. Hoping your work can change societies attitude Mark. These people need you. With gratitude and respect Sir :)
They do have a chance though Sandie. I know people who have come back from worse.
At 22 I got addicted to meth and heroin, I dealt with so much pain and battling with trying to live like a normal person, and running from myself. Even now in recovery I still have a hard time processing the past and changing the way I think, and coming out of this hole of thinking I can never change. I really feel for this man, my heart aches for him. God bless his soul and I hope this man finds peace in his life, and finds the success he deserves
God bless and guide you. May you also find the peace you deserve.
You can do it, one day at a time....it's awfully hard, but you can do it, you've already made the 1st and hardest step and that is into recovery. Thank you so much for sharing ❤
I can see Chris in a movie about the mafia. Carlos, prayers for your continued recovery!
Mark if you ever come to Stockton California I'd love to tell you a story about how a meth addict with a history of abusing pain meds changed her life by becoming active in her community and, at 46, The sport BMX stunt riding. Some of us make it out and have a story of hope. Anything is possible when you find something to live for BMX has given me not only a reason to live but something to strive for.
I'm learning how to ride wheelies on a mountain bike at 49. I can get up for a few seconds but i can keep it going yet. I have to have some excitement and fun in recovery. Best wishes!
REALEST INTERVIEW
*TRUEST BEING.
We Hear U Chris!
U GOT this 🤙🏽
@@michaelmorris2623 yes
Enough of the shouting please fool.
Wow. He tells his story so honestly. He's very intelligent to his issues, very aware of his struggles. I'm praying he can recover. He has it in him. Sending you prayers and hope Chris. 🙏❤️
I couldn't imagine having a evil step father, I am surprised more of these people don't get revenge on their abusers
yeah, then your the one doing 25- life
It hits so close to home when I hear stories about people who are from the same town as me. Fall river, new bedford, Brockton are all HUGE Hotspots for drugs. It's a serious epidemic there and so hard to avoid that lifestyle. God bless you Chris, I hope you're able to overcome this 🙏🏼
“No matter where I go, I bring myself” that one hit deep
It never fails to amaze me how open and honest people are in these interviews. This dude has a deep sadness that's etched into his whole being. I'd love to see you get clean and find happiness Chris. It won't be easy but it's possible. 'Wherever you go, there you are'.
Listening to Chris really brings light to how self destruction is an addiction. Most of the people out there know exactly how to get them selves away from that life but end up slipping into self destruction again
Thank you Chris for sharing your story. Hoping someday to see an update on you where you are clean and doing well. Best wishes.
To hear a new story from a new face is what I love. Take it in and wear the shoes they did when they went into their battles. Great video once again!
This seems to have been a cathartic and super therapeutic talk for Chris. Because that's what it was - a talk between 2 men - with one telling his story to the other. It's a true gift that Mark has: the ability to put people at their ease. Feel safe. Heard. Recognized.
He seems so passionate about everything he talks about. He tells an amazing story here, but he also does it in a way that doesn't need an interviewer - he just keeps on talking and we keep on listening. That's a talent.
also, with his looks he could be an actor, a model.
He seems passionate because he's high on crystal meth. One thing people forget is that a lot of openess these people have is because of the drug they're on. I know because I lived it
At least he has some self recognition. A lot of people these days don’t. Admitting to yourself your problems & just acknowledging you need help is the step in the right direction. There’s always hope. I hope he changes his direction in life sooner than later🤞🏼 he’ll never regret it 💯
This guy has the most unnerving stare - his whole face is immovable just sits there staring and talking but looking totally numb
I adored this interview, nothing but the cold hard truths. Chris, if you see this my son has lived a lot of your life. Fished out of Stonington, ME, Oxys, rehabs, arrests. Please, please ask Mark for help getting into a LONG program for duel diagnosis, the Addiction, but also mental health! You are still alive against all odds. You have the inner strength to create a wonderful life for your next 40 years. It is hard no doubt, no doubt, wicked hard…. But you CAN do it!!!! You stated one of most true things I ever heard anyone say on that stool: “Wherever you go, whatever you do …. you bring you.” That is so true. There is the troubled you but there is ALSO the good in you. Every human has good and bad. Time to focus on and feed the good side of you and let the bad fade away. Please keep trying!!!
I can’t believe people just drove around him. 🤯 Can’t imagine how that made him feel. I’m so sorry.
Love this dude!! He's a Loyal Warrior just waiting to have someone walk into his life that he could Trust!
Dude has survived alot of shit which does nothing but make you stronger and wiser! He still here so he must have a purpose!
He just needs a Hand up not a Hand out! Hopefully from this video that happens so can enjoy the next half of his life!
You got this Chris!!
Damn I see a broken and defeated man and also still there’s a cautious light inside. A beautiful tormented soul just wish he may find the healing path
I was Chris's drug counselor 5 years ago in Orange County.... I also took him threw the steps of AA once... Please reach out to me privately if you can get ahold of him. I'd like to help him🙏🏾
Chris, we have a lot in common. I don't know how to live either, only how to die. I keep trying to learn how to live though. Hang In There Chris and keep trying. You are worth it!
💔
The sins of the parents, follow the children...😢
This was just beyond depressing to watch, so I can only imagine what he's living with in his head...
"No matter where I go, I bring myself. I gotta realize that. Wherever I go, *I'm* gonna always be there. I can't run from me. It's taken me all these years to realize that."
This poor guy needs mental health counseling so badly! Everything that goes wrong in his life, stems from the childhood trauma of abuse by his stepdad, then those adults who used him for crime...and every situation kept adding more trauma to mess with his head. The fact that he told his story, shows he wants to talk, and is hoping for help...but because he's tried so many times, and it did not work out, he's expecting to fail/scared of failing again...
Chris, if you read this, hang in there...
I hope that you can get counseling. You really need to start with that. Too many layers of a hard life is blocking your progress. You have to start unblocking that with help, so that you can get better.
I hope that you are able to find the support you need to help you through this process, and that you see your way to a better and happy life...🤞🙏🏻
You CAN DO IT!💜
@Shush I thank you for writing this because you said everything that I wanted to say. I have a heart that wants to help everyone and He(chris) really needs help with his mental illness. I pray for all the people involved in this situation. I really pray for all the people in Hollywood in the under world too.
@@ucmsrogreen6925
I hope that he sees your words too, and knows that there are people who would like him to getter better, and have a happy life, and we're rooting him on...😊🙏🏻
Hi Chris! You are worthy of a better life. Sending love ,light and healing !
I remember when I was addicted to Viagra. It was the hardest time of my life
Glad to hear you have over-cum your addiction.
Wow gentle soul deserves all this world has to offer
My heart hurts for him.. What a handsome guy..
It’s broke my heart when he said he doesn’t know how to just live. I’m sorry life has been hard for you man. The common denominator in your problems is substance abuse man. Give rehab another go and get off meth. You’re never going to make the right choices on hard drugs like that. I think you can over come it. Put in the work. Honestly, you have a lot of life left to live at 40. It’s not too late to completely change your situation and live the second half of your life in a better place mentally and physically. Do it for you! You deserve it man.
I can hear a sincere heart. I hope he finds what he really wanted. God bless.
I've been watching your videos on and off for a while now Mark. But after watching this one I subscribed. Thankyou for what you do.
Definitely one of the most honest and coherent interviews on here
"I bring myself wherever I go" wow profound. The fact that he can take responsibility for himself, and be that self-aware. tells me that he's going to be one of the ones that pulls himself out of street life. God bless!
Bless all of the people that he interview on his channel. Most high bless them too get clean.
This is all truths, you know Chris I’m always here. Change is up to you❤️❤️
That's an amazing story & life this man has had. He is full of wisdom & he could help so many people if he crawled out of that shit hole
Thank you Chris for sharing your life experiences, wishing you the best, what can I say, except I hope you can find away though it.❤️
💜💜💜 Such a sad life he's had. Never had guidance or someone he could depend on. He'd do well to get into a dual diagnostic center. I hope he doesn't give up on himself. He deserves so much more. 😪
The judicial system will land you in a state of homelessness. You're pretty much fucked after getting out of prison. I feel sorry for this guy.
Excellent interview Mark
Same thing with me my stepdad was a bully i ended up on heroin at 15 i ended up on it for over 33 years glad to say im now 2 years clean all the best criss
Don't feel horrible Chris... What's past is gone. The present moment is what counts and you are worth it. I believe you can make it and am routing for you. Be the best you can be from this moment. Live from Italy
Glad to see Va on this channel
Thanks for the upload:)
this guy's pretty good at not dying. respect.
his expression is very sad, afraid, and also tender in a way. sending love ❤️🩹
gettin off a boat with a pocket full of cash...100% relate my friend and strip clubs and meth such a lethal combo. My first time back after a 119 day trip on the M/V Green Bay and I blew thru little over $43,000.00 in cash and ended up in a rehab in detroit where the doc told me "first thing u do is stop going to sea" lol. we all have different paths but our problems are never that unique, whats worked for me this time (incase someone out their is in a similar boat and looking for answers) is amitryptaline (especially the new p2p meth fucks ur sleep up so bad) to get my sleep back in sync, vivitrol monthly (not for opiates but bc i always link drinking w uppers, reduces the craving) injections, full stint in IOP (Inpatient would have been safer), removing myself away from the places i used, and meetings but not the ones i could hide inside of. last part was real important. and also these interviews mark does, watching them has helped alot too. Thanks Mark.
Hope this guy pulls through- so many like him end up out here in LA. As a 3rd gen angeleno- this is a world of temptation out here. A lot of people end up on the streets here like this after moving here, its a black hole like kensington PA. Not the spot, stay home. Prayers to chris here
Omg I feel for this man so bad 😭 I’m sorry life is like this brother stay up ❤️
Right off at the start before he begins speaking u can see the sadness in his eyes
These videos have truly changed my life and the way I look at people. Being the mother of a meth addict is so hard. I’ve finally had to cut ties with him for now. But I know he is struggling and there is nothing I can do till he wants the help. The cops have been called to my house so many times now I know them by name! All because of meth rage and my son threatening to hurt one of us, or actually choking his sister! I just can’t do it anymore! So sad because my son had so much potential! He had a job working for Trane air conditioning! Making good money, he had his own place, a girlfriend, his own truck! And he threw it all away to start shooting meth! His excuse for shooting it was that he didn’t want to mess up his teeth! 🤦🏼♀️ he wrecked his truck, his girlfriend left him and he got kicked out of his house. Meth addiction is horrible! It tears families apart!
I feel so bad for this man! It’s like he didn’t have a chance in hell with his mom, and step dad! Mothers like his don’t deserve children! That’s my opinion! Because with a good mother his life could have went in a totally different direction! But can’t blame it all on parents either, because my husband and I have never fought in front of our kids, we’ve been married for 35 years, high school sweethearts! We did everything we could! Sometimes they just choose the wrong path! I’m praying for him! 🙏🏼 God bless him and I hope he finds his way to sobriety! And a chance to be with his son again!
God bless
Prayers 🙏🏽
I hope your son gets the help he needs god bless
Fall River is a harsh place. Thanks for your story.
I can relate so much to how this guy feels 😔
Those East coast shoreline towns are no joke. The tourists are completely unaware of the struggle of living in one year round. Very sad.
So sad to hear and see this..hopefully he will find his way. He's here for a reason..hopefully the reason turns out good...
I totally relate to him I myself am a fisherman and my life is very similar to his in everything he just said
I didn't know fishermen were living that wild
your videos on the sea look nice though!
You have a big amount of cash when you get on land and a lot of guys like to live it up before they head back out to sea
When these people open up to you...It's probably the first time in their lives or at least in quite a while where they really are able to self-reflect and be real. Sometimes people like this have absolutely no one to talk to, no one to trust, no one to open up with. I feel like after these intimate conversations when you say "Thanks for sharing your story" these people are left thinking.. OK whats next. I just opened up my heart to this person and I reflected on my life and my faults and I want to change but whats next? And than the self doubt, low self esteem, and guilt return immediately and say "Look at the stuff you just said, you are a horrible person who will never recover"...and than that self reflection was all for nothing. I wish that you could (with professional help) develop a gameplan/timeline for some of these people to follow. I'm not saying to send them to rehab or give them money or condone further drug use. Sure some if not many will fail to change their lives at all... But for those who self reflect and do want change, at least there would be a path they could take. (I understand you have said many times most say things but don't act...but in my heart i believe there has to be a way)
just some thoughts
Chris has a chance if he allows the right person to take his hand. He doesn’t deny that he has addictions but he describes the mind struggles when he attempts to make a conscious choice to abstain.
You got this Chris!
I want to give this man a hug
I’m sorry to say. This interview depressed the ish out of me. I definitely hope he talks to a therapist.
Bipolar Intermittent explosive disorder is what my older brother was diagnosed with.
He reminds me of him.
I feel sorry and I hope he’s better each day.
Just do something positive every day please. You’re honest so your path is ahead of you not behind you.
Stories like this are very touching to me. They should remind us all of how quick it can go bad for one and of how good out lives actually are. And most of all we should listen to what one of the smartest men who ever walked this planet, called "Viper", had to say about addiction: "You'll cowards don't even smoke crack"
This is the guy that, if he could connect with some old school AA Big Book thumpers and get through the work quickly, and stay in the circle - could really turn things around. He would find an answer to the regret and shame. Go for it man.
It's not for everyone
@@melancholymartialarts7095 yeah, it’s only for the ones that do the work. Guarantee you one thing it damn sure wouldn’t hurt this guys chances.
Good luck to you with housing and school. School can be a good stabilizer. You seem like a good guy who was dealt bad break after bad break. You deserve so much more.
I feel like he really could get sober especially him being able to quit herion and not do it for 3 years he said I mean he did trade one addiction to another which is meth.:( but I really think he can do it he’s just gonna have to want to 100 percent !! Trust me I know I’m still not sober I’m still doing opiates and I’ve been to 2 rehabs now but my parents made me go I didn’t want to so of course it hadn’t worked for me you gotta wanna change for yourself and I think he does and can start changing he’ll just need some help!! You can do this man you seem like a very strong great man with a strong will! All love
Wow I am from Fall River as well ! So crazy to hear someone's story from where I'm from. Totally unexpected !
I love Eastern accents. you have struggled so much Chris. keep happy no matter what you do, you matter
@10:30 When Chris talks about the suicide of his childhood friend at the tender age of 14: I can see that this event was pivotal and that one of Chris's primary demons is guilt. He feels guilty for not being able to save his friend somehow. That he should've prevented it from happening and why didn't his buddy let him know how much pain he was in or why didn't he recognize that his friend was so troubled? At 14, your brain doesn't have the capacity or capability to reason out a traumatic event like suicide. (Just like kids blaming themselves for their parents divorce). I also think Chris is addicted to Chaos more than anything. I'm really hoping he gets his life together.
Dont forget my friend that wherever you go, God is also with you. Call on Him for help. I believe in you.
Okay kelly, just call on God. 😉😆
Your correct God will help you. keep praying and trying to help yourself and things will get better ,god bless you!!
Yes. Call fake sky daddy. That always helps.
@@GRyanBee i expected comments like yours. I don’t mind. Everyone entitled to their own opinion and I respect yours.
@@bobbowen9349 I expected comments like yours. Its all good. Everyone entitled to their own opinion and I respect yours.
I spent time in Fall River, MA myself. The city economy ran on heroin, crack, and food stamps. And I took part in all of it. It's a tough place to try to be sober.
@@AuroraOctaneJ611 no I'm not. Born and raised in Massachusetts.
Chris you can have a great life. You know what you have to do.
Where there's breathe, there's hope. 🙏
youve still got a lot of yourself left mate, and you have common sense. thats a damm lot better than most addicts mate, you CAN do it!
I’m so sorry he experienced such a horrible childhood & adolescence. 💔
I relate Chris❤️ hope you’re doing well
💔in his eyes he still looks like a broken boy. People have such hard starts there’s very little hope for the rest of their life 🥺
"I've always just wanted to live like a human being and have a chance, but I was never given the opportunity."
17:57 - 18:14 another way to describe "wherever you go there you are" Jon Kabat-Zinn - sometimes different words structured in a certain way unlocks the power of the phrase
I come on here and watch every video that goes up and I have to admit that all these human beings have one thing in common. They did not have parents who fucking cared for them. It’s so sad it all roots down to that. Parents really need to be there for their kids early on in life and be present as much as they can. It’s sad to see these smart people on here who are ruining their lives because of their messed up childhood.
He has such sad eyes 😞 i hope he gets the help he needs
This guy looks like Jeffrey Epstein
You’re right, he does!
"What are you afraid of?" "...living..."
God Bless you Chris.
Sounds like such a nice guy. Another Boston guy, it makes me sad. I hope the best for him. He didn’t deserve this start to his life
I'm also addicted to phentanyl, sum body help me.
It’s all a process of learning to live in your own skin. Your an amazing human and don’t forget that
Me too. Don't give up.
God bless you have you tried rehab?
Heroin addict here, in NYC. Good morning everybody. Chris, my story’s somewhat similar to yours. I’ve been stabbed 3 different times. I let out a laugh during ur stabbing story cuz it was the same thing for me. I was standing in the street covered in blood asking for help, and I couldn’t get eye contact for nothin. Everybody, cars n people went around me. One a**hole was nice enough to roll down his window to tell me I need to go to the hospital. As if I was asking him to give me a surgery. Idiot. ‘I know I need a F’n hospital’. It’s amazing the kinda people who look down on us. I’ve met some of the best people in life on the street. The one’s that didn’t stab me anyway. Well, good luck in life. I hope u find what ur looking for. God Bless!
Regardless of what's happening in your life,I wish you the best out there, and hope you have a good day,considering 🤟✌
@Wesley alan Thank you, u too man.
What’s crazy is your a H addict living on the streets who’s been stabbed 3 times but somehow has a smart phone with enough time to watch other addicts on CZcams an feel strongly enough to tell your story…..🤔2022 is a strange time
That interaction with the motorist and you is probably the most NYC interaction I've heard in years.
@dormie basne Haha
Childhood can be wounding in unhealthy environments and some people never come to enough of an understanding to overcome it. But they need to come to the realization that they were innocent victims & it had nothing to do with them & everything was wrong with the people who did it. Those people are the ones with low worth, not the sweet children they tried to destroy. Also remember that the people that did it were most likely victims too that couldn’t stop the cycle. But you can. Awareness is the 1st step. It has to be left in the past since the past can’t be changed. Then they have to forgive themselves for all the suffering they made themselves endure because they were trying to understand what happened to them still. Then they need to start making good choices every day to love that child within them, that innocent child that wasn’t given a chance. But they can give themselves a chance & as adults, they can begin to love & nurture themselves. Healing takes patience & time but everyone has a reason for being here. There are some people even worse off that can use your experiences & copy how you healed yourself. It’s worth it to put in the work & every child is worth it & pain can be healed. Maybe not all of it but time passing also makes it easier. The alternative is to throw your life away. But that wasn’t what you were born for so realize those people were like demons trying to squash your amazing life. Don’t let them. Realize it’s them not you, nourish yourself to take every step you can to get where you want to be, have patience with yourself, make your way out. Because you didn’t deserve that start & you can choose your life now that they’re not in it. Be your own advocate now.
very relatable story !
So weird. I grew up 15-20 minutes from Fall River, and when I moved at 23 it was to Virginia, literally 10 minutes from Portsmouth. I was actually a bartender on High Street in P town.