What A Day As A Cocaine Alcoholic Addict Was Like

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  • What A Day As A Cocaine Alcoholic Addict Was Like, If you are struggling and looking for resources www.aa.org and www.na.org are great resources to help.
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Komentáře • 130

  • @frankmurphy5
    @frankmurphy5 Před 2 měsíci +33

    Yeah, one day of that at work would be a blast. Everyday, it becomes a nightmare. But the addiction latches on to that one day and makes you chase it until you quit or die.

    • @Jeff-sp7bg
      @Jeff-sp7bg Před měsícem +3

      I first used coke in the early 90s for a couple years then it got tough to get around 93-94 like very hard so I quit . The second sting was 2009 -2010. The first thing I noticed was the quality of the stuff was never as good as when I got it in the early 90s. I'm not sure if it was in my head or what but even the very best stuff smelled like gas or paint thinner I assume it was made differently by then. The main reason I stopped was because my heart rhythm was off and it scared the crap out of me. Finished. Done.

    • @ddesimone9912
      @ddesimone9912 Před měsícem +1

      They beat it to nothing now. Stretching the profits. And pablo is long gone.

    • @faceoffshorty
      @faceoffshorty Před 17 dny

      Spot onn

    • @baldersn4474
      @baldersn4474 Před dnem

      It's not a blast though, that one day f--is you up for days..

    • @baldersn4474
      @baldersn4474 Před dnem

      @ddesimone9912 Well in the UK cocaine purity has risen to 30 too 40 percent now from about 4 percent a few years ago..Would have thought you guys in the States would have way higher but app its not ?

  • @chasetackett5605
    @chasetackett5605 Před měsícem +11

    Hey man I just want you to know that your videos let me get through a lot of stuff. I'm a recovering cocaine, opiate addict and suffer severe depression. It's nice to know I'm not alone and I love relating to you through your videos

  • @AJ-id6if
    @AJ-id6if Před měsícem +25

    Holy shit. Where the hell was this dude working??

    • @tuckerj456
      @tuckerj456 Před měsícem +1

      😂

    • @batmasterson7506
      @batmasterson7506 Před měsícem +5

      I used to work on high rise doing formwork with my own compagny while high on fentanyl for 3 yrs 😬 now clean for 3 years

    • @Crypto82738
      @Crypto82738 Před 26 dny

      ​@batmasterson7506 I used to be a route driver for a refuse company when I was a oxy addict lol

  • @steelearmstrong9616
    @steelearmstrong9616 Před měsícem +4

    Channel is growing nicely. Messages are good. Good job

  • @moonkitty555
    @moonkitty555 Před měsícem +5

    These videos are very informative. Glad this channel showed up. Helps me with some insight on what my clients may be experiencing.

  • @MissUnderstoodasAlways
    @MissUnderstoodasAlways Před 2 měsíci +1

    Thank you for sharing 🙏🏽

    • @coreywold669
      @coreywold669 Před měsícem

      He regurgitates the same shit in every video lol

  • @aznr0llerx
    @aznr0llerx Před měsícem +14

    It’s amazing u never got a DUI

  • @rockdeth13
    @rockdeth13 Před 26 dny +2

    Hey Eric. I've watched your channel for a while now and this is actually my first time commenting. Honestly man, I'm still currently struggling with both alcohol and cocaine addiction and from watching your videos I did exactly what you and everyone else says, admit to yourself that you're an addict, and let everyone know you need help. Unfortunately in my case when I started to open up to my friends, family, anyone, it feels like I got the opposite reaction that I was looking for. I've only been judged and labeled as a junkie, my peers began to look at me differently, almost to a negative effect. I want to be like you man and fight through it. I'm tired of the things I've lost and the relationships I've destroyed. It's almost like I'm just watching everything crumble around me and sometimes it feels like there is no way out. I don't know, I just felt like it was finally time to just put this stuff out there. Either way, I love your content and the impact you make on peoples lives is huge, I appreciate and respect you a lot man, thank you.

  • @mateuszmrowiec
    @mateuszmrowiec Před 2 dny

    Thanks for your story. Part of what you said is almost as you were talking about me some time ago. Keep going.

  • @Ajax9774
    @Ajax9774 Před 5 dny +1

    This may seem crazy and outrageous, but I have known very many people throughout my life who have been this deep into drugs and alcohol and most of them didn't make it out of their prime years alive. The very few who did still struggle to this day trying to stay sober, but I commend anyone and everyone who get up everyday and fight the good fight to stay sober and alive. Unfortunately Life doesn't get easier, but all Life is worth fighting for because time alive is far too short to throw away on drug and alcohol addictions.

  • @kimlewter
    @kimlewter Před měsícem +10

    Question : Did you ever manage to get any work done during your cocaine and alcohol binges during the day while you were doing the receptionist?

  • @JittyLaRoot
    @JittyLaRoot Před měsícem

    Hey bro, how many years exactly did you do this for and was it everyday for this time? Glad your doing well now bro ❤

  • @HUGGYDRABITS
    @HUGGYDRABITS Před 15 dny +3

    How did the company he worked at stay in business for more than a day? Imagine walking in to buy an RV and the staff is yolked out of their mind. I’d walk out.

  • @samgott8689
    @samgott8689 Před 17 dny +2

    Yo, you’re description of the drip reminded me of starting my day off crushing and snorting about 250-300mg of 15mg OC first thing in the morning. There’s few things more fucked up than having one of your first experiences in the morning being looking up at yourself in the mirror (I used in the bathroom) and having your nose and sinus just PACKED with crushed pills. Anyway, 10 years clean on Cinco de Mayo this year.

  • @atsra659
    @atsra659 Před měsícem +4

    Sober at 36 is a good run, im 33 and i cant eve drink 5 beers without feeling like complete shit and doing nothing for like a whole day after. If i got really fucked up like pouded a 12 pack of 8% mikes harder or something ill be stuck in bed for fucking days. Not tired because i passed out for so long but feel like too much shit to get up and do anything for literally 2 or 3 days straight cant even eat. I use to be able to party non stop but now the hangovers are too much man. Ill workout a day after drinking 5 beers and be drenched in sweat like its just ridiculous dude..it sucks. I use to be like others get fucked up drunk then the next day be out and about dont even know how people can do that past the age of 30 its nuts

  • @eltwilli
    @eltwilli Před 24 dny +2

    Im confused as he said he did alcohol and cocaine to cope with his wife's suicide but then he talks about his wife filming him crawling around naked and how he would have to ask her how his night had been. Huh?

  • @jonesmorales-tu6kq
    @jonesmorales-tu6kq Před 13 dny +2

    Ive been sober for 90 days and im craving a couple beers ! But if i drink i cant stop and if i drink i will be snorting cocaine

  • @jtorres04
    @jtorres04 Před měsícem +5

    I thought at the beginning of the video you said you started with the addiction to cope with her loss?

    • @lemostjoyousrenegade
      @lemostjoyousrenegade Před měsícem

      He did indeed say that. …but she always told him how he’d behaved when under the influence…describing his behavior to him…telling him that he crawled around on the floor. 🤔 Incredible.

  • @pcptaker45
    @pcptaker45 Před 4 dny

    I can relate. If I told you the industry I worked in you’d say no…can’t be. Yes it can be

  • @user-vb5vb3em6r
    @user-vb5vb3em6r Před měsícem +8

    this guy is full of it

    • @user-vj6qc6om9f
      @user-vj6qc6om9f Před 18 dny

      How

    • @Mark-eg2yd
      @Mark-eg2yd Před 6 dny

      I tend to agree. Addicts are bullshitters and takes one to know one and all that..
      I guess there's some truth in what he is saying but he goes into way too much detail and contradicts himself frequently.. in the space of a few minutes.

  • @beus7585
    @beus7585 Před 15 dny

    Um BTW what did you do for a living back then or are you still doing it? Just curious again. I'm struggling to find a job let alone a career

  • @BrainBurg-bq2si
    @BrainBurg-bq2si Před měsícem +5

    The manager of an RV lot makes 50k a month?
    WTF.

  • @adammocaby2636
    @adammocaby2636 Před 23 dny +1

    I dont care how far into recovery you are....talking about this absolutely brings back that amazing feeling.

  • @ohnoga_4082
    @ohnoga_4082 Před měsícem +3

    fck thats some real stuff

  • @dettep4816
    @dettep4816 Před 26 dny +2

    I am an functioning addict I lost my marriage of 22 years i miscarriage 3 babies then I stared dating addicts but I was the bad guy these guys would abuse me and yet cops come and get me cause I was loud and too high!
    I mean I had money loads of it and. Lost my job and at 48 I’m living with my parents. With nothing I lost all my house my belongings to these addict men I met. From Sydney Australia

  • @michalmoczulski7728
    @michalmoczulski7728 Před měsícem +2

    Sounds like a fun guy

  • @ronaldosanchez3292
    @ronaldosanchez3292 Před 7 dny

    I was an addict from age 21 to 27. 3 years clean now, only a couple of the people i used to smoke with are still alive. Coke and meth can have very similar effects

  • @JaimeGarcia-pe7bj
    @JaimeGarcia-pe7bj Před měsícem

    Wow!

  • @colinmusic3878
    @colinmusic3878 Před měsícem +2

    ya I was off and on coke and alcohol pretty hard for 5 years from year 20-25 and those were the worst years of my life
    every night I would go to bed drunk and extremely high on cocaine ... saying " I won't do this again tomorrow , I won't do this , do not do this again " ...
    I would wake up, shower & shake the hangover ... and by noon or so the next day I would be planning on how to do cocaine again
    dark times
    quality cocaine is extremely addictive especially for someone who has addictive tendencies ... it ruined me when I was on coke and regularly using it .
    I also have really bad ptsd which doesn't mix well with cocaine. I never liked doing cocaine with people , I preferred to do as much of it as possible at home alone
    totally disgusting
    its a slippery slope when you start skiing coke

  • @joe....
    @joe.... Před měsícem +3

    I'm going through alcohol withdrawal now.

    • @mikelsales3599
      @mikelsales3599 Před měsícem +3

      I’m struggling with alcohol myself over the years I’ve developed a bad relationship with it , its gonna get better tho bro 💯

  • @gilly9281
    @gilly9281 Před měsícem +5

    Slammin lines while slammin your coworkers while making 50 grand in a month. Don't sound tooo bad 😅😅

    • @colleenstilwell1409
      @colleenstilwell1409 Před 8 dny

      This guy reminds me of The Wolf of Wallstreet but with R.V's 😂😂

  • @thomasconnell1556
    @thomasconnell1556 Před 4 dny

    A little bit of exaggeration here but I’m glad you’re sober. A 5th before work even with some rail roads of the good stuff isn’t possible. Andre the giant would struggle with that.

  • @OTOSoundsandVisuals
    @OTOSoundsandVisuals Před měsícem +2

    man, I called those lines fat caterpiller lines

  • @MattMuoru
    @MattMuoru Před měsícem +1

    2-3 fifths a day? Impossible

  • @petergriffin680
    @petergriffin680 Před měsícem +5

    How do people have sex with others so easily? To me, being able to have sex with someone seems impossible. I guess the drugs play a part? Confidence probably isn’t an issue for someone who’s drunk and on coke

    • @DavidJensen-nm5sf
      @DavidJensen-nm5sf Před měsícem +2

      I used to pay. I live in Las Vegas. That's a vice as well. I did that and Video Poker. Then, I got "sober"!

    • @petergriffin680
      @petergriffin680 Před měsícem

      @@DavidJensen-nm5sf congrats man. I’m only 20 and have got my dick sucked twice and that’s it. It’s a shitty word to be in with social anxiety. I feel like I can’t comfortably talk to women I like, and every time I have in the past (like 10 or so women) they were all not interested. I’ve considered paying but I try not to let myself go down that path.

    • @Imhereforfun-jz2lu
      @Imhereforfun-jz2lu Před měsícem +2

      Huh?? I don't understand. You an incel or something. You hook up by engaging in bs convo then make it clear then make a move. If you get a response happy valentines. If not move on and assume she's not into bros.

    • @petergriffin680
      @petergriffin680 Před měsícem +1

      @@Imhereforfun-jz2lu I guess women just aren’t interested in me, I wouldn’t say I’m an incel because I have no hate for women. I just seem to have a hard time getting laid 😂

    • @Imhereforfun-jz2lu
      @Imhereforfun-jz2lu Před měsícem +2

      @@petergriffin680 Putting that P on a pedestal brah. My buddy had the same problem. All the best. Just ask 50 broads on a date. 49 no's and yes....is a yes. No hard feelings about the other 49(pun intended).

  • @sirbaronvoncount4147
    @sirbaronvoncount4147 Před 2 měsíci +3

    Love your content man. I have OCD with grammar and diction and want to put the power of my condition to work for you. You may tell me to pound sand and i will remain a faithful sub. One of your tag lines is "cocaine and alcoholic addict". I find this awkward and suggest: " I suffer from a dual addiction to cocaine and alcohol they were my drugs of choice"
    i speak from the heart i have no motive other than being a sub to the channel.
    peace and props to all those just trying to get through today clean.

  • @kylebroflovski8155
    @kylebroflovski8155 Před měsícem

    Guess what I felt like my stomach was digesting itself last night

  • @jacobwilliams5271
    @jacobwilliams5271 Před 6 hodinami

    sounds like a great life to me

  • @madison7911
    @madison7911 Před 9 dny

    That's actually funny about the support thing. New research has shown that some of these Addiction issues could be linked to loneliness.

    • @Alice-dq6dh
      @Alice-dq6dh Před 8 dny

      my experience on psychedelic has been a great benefit while breaking through one ought to take the right dosage, below usually where l get mine

    • @Alice-dq6dh
      @Alice-dq6dh Před 8 dny

      [@novatripps]

    • @Alice-dq6dh
      @Alice-dq6dh Před 8 dny

      They're also accessible through Instagram

  • @renaelynn6376
    @renaelynn6376 Před měsícem +1

    Diet ...I care about my health. 😊

  • @Nope769
    @Nope769 Před měsícem

    30 what at as a Jerry Rig camper Salesman

  • @DavidJensen-nm5sf
    @DavidJensen-nm5sf Před měsícem

    I always thought that drugs were like a social, culture thing. You talk mostly as an individual, But, you did speak about changing your friends and environment. I also didn't think people did coke in Orange County. Maybe I'm naive....

  • @shadowsun4055
    @shadowsun4055 Před 6 dny

    Damn, I wish I earned all that money every month, I would be an addict also.

  • @thomasyost4959
    @thomasyost4959 Před měsícem +2

    Sounds amazing

  • @dan0769
    @dan0769 Před 6 dny

    Any tips for someone looking to get into this lifestyle?

  • @youtubeuser5683
    @youtubeuser5683 Před měsícem

    Mike Lindell is not looking too good.

  • @thomasemanualichim
    @thomasemanualichim Před měsícem +1

    the 99 bananas.....ouch i get a headache just thinking about them

  • @Jaapst
    @Jaapst Před měsícem

    Don’t see it as a fight. This does not work for me. I believe you should not FIGHT your addiction. Sounds exhausting to be fighting constantly for me though. I don’t want to drink anymore because of the consequences it had in my life. I look at alcohol as a poison now. You should be done with it. Seeing that the long term road does not look good. And that substance use is to fix a problem which makes the problem even bigger. It’s insanity. What works for me is not this “fight” mode. No. I don’t want this. It’s bad learned behavior and you have to find other ways to cope for me it’s going religiously to the gym. And making wheelies on my motorcycle. Work making money.

  • @johnlukach4091
    @johnlukach4091 Před měsícem +2

    Sad thing is that pile of red bulls are the deadliest in the thumbnail

    • @Jeff-sp7bg
      @Jeff-sp7bg Před měsícem +2

      Exactly. I see people come into the ER with heart problems by drinking energy drinks.

    • @baldersn4474
      @baldersn4474 Před měsícem

      Alchchol way worse then all of them abd totally legal..

  • @s.w9935
    @s.w9935 Před 2 měsíci

    ✌️

  • @markvandoesselaar6884
    @markvandoesselaar6884 Před měsícem

    Stand up comedy!

  • @freetates7407
    @freetates7407 Před měsícem

    🧢

  • @Random-hn1nw
    @Random-hn1nw Před 6 dny

    Is he auditioning for the show euphoria? What is this 😵‍💫

  • @victoriaanderson863
    @victoriaanderson863 Před měsícem +1

    He does a bunch of swinger videos, too... It's weird...

  • @baldersn4474
    @baldersn4474 Před měsícem

    Your wife was ok with all that ? Or was she on it too ? Or is she an enabler ?

    • @christiandenton2174
      @christiandenton2174 Před dnem

      What do you care

    • @baldersn4474
      @baldersn4474 Před dnem

      @christiandenton2174 If its on my you tube feed and it's on social media and I'm watching it then I'm allowed to post a question about the video...Whats it too you ? Do you know his wife or something? Why have you even bothered replying to mg comment for ?

  • @coreywold669
    @coreywold669 Před měsícem +6

    I think uploading the same videos of you regurgitating the same information is getting a bit weird and unhealthy bro at this point it just looks like you’re chasing subscribers and clout and the way you talk and obsess about what you did makes it seem like you’re trying to make it sound impressive in some weird way

    • @voutolliC22
      @voutolliC22 Před měsícem +3

      hes wylin but cant stop now lol we're watching

    • @michaelmcw111
      @michaelmcw111 Před měsícem +1

      He needs those CZcams $$$

    • @mikemccoy5558
      @mikemccoy5558 Před měsícem +1

      @@michaelmcw111 Why do you have to shit on this man that recovered?
      You leave comments like that on a recovery channel? You have no clue the hell that addiction is ....This man is sharing to help others recover, as well as his own.

    • @michaelmcw111
      @michaelmcw111 Před měsícem

      @@mikemccoy5558 hahaha...his recovery isn't strong enough for some TRUTH... STFU

    • @christiandenton2174
      @christiandenton2174 Před dnem

      Grow up, no one is making you click.

  • @Thunderpussy1234
    @Thunderpussy1234 Před měsícem +4

    $40-$50K a month.. that's "walk into the Porsche dealer and choose anything you want" followed by retire at 50 money.

    • @phizzhead53
      @phizzhead53 Před měsícem +2

      Imagine that invested lol

    • @frostyfingers8611
      @frostyfingers8611 Před měsícem +3

      How does a cocaine Alcohol addict who snorts at work even get a job like that.

    • @Jeff-sp7bg
      @Jeff-sp7bg Před měsícem +1

      Well you don't start off that way it creeps up on you. Imagine ivy slowly growing around you choking out every part of your life. Addiction is that way many times it creeps up on you without you even realizing it. Before you know it you're driving to work drunk, snorting coke, sleeping around and just being creepy in general 24/7.

  • @YOURMOM-mu2yv
    @YOURMOM-mu2yv Před 15 dny

    *or “alcoholic cocaine addict”