I completely relate, I started off as an alcoholic but got tired of passing out in the middle of the afternoon and I developed a cocaine addiction, wasted tons of money, couldn’t sleep or eat and was constantly grinding my teeth. Eightballs week in and week out was burning a hole in my pocket, I was truly addicted to this drug, licking my fingers and sticking them in empty baggies to rub the residue on my gums. I only cared about chasing that next high. Thankfully I’ve been clean for 6 months and I can’t imagine going back down that dark path. Glad you’re doing well!!
😢😢😢I’m going through the same shit it’s hard to quit and people don’t believe you when you say you truly are an addict of this stuff they think your lying
You’re telling my story man. You do such a great job at describing the small details and nuances of what life as a cocaine addict is. I can relate to EVERYTHING you said. Great work bud. Thanks for doing what you do.
I appreciate that you had it in you to post your story on here sir. You have a way with words that people (addicts) like myself can understand and truly think things over. Im very sorry to hear about the passing of your partner and father… however im very happy that you managed to break the vicious cycle. Im sure many people would agree with me when i say “we are here for you just as much as you have been here for us”. Take care of yourself buddy, and i for one will try and take example of the road you chose to switch to.
When I was in high school I was addicted to cocaine for a few months or more. It is a crazy drug. The highs and lows are insane. To me I did share with friends though. I do not remember too much trouble stopping. Opiates, suboxone, and now kratom were what grabbed me and made me an addict. Best of luck to everyone in recovery, I am trying to kick this kratom right now once and for all.
I’m someone that will do cocaine occasionally on a Saturday night leading into morning Sunday. Every now and then and it’s only when I’m drinking. Until I recently went on my first ever long binge. It started Saturday night with lots of drinking into Sunday morning, afternoon, and night. I was still drinking. Hasn’t eaten in two days. I started doing it early morning Monday am 3am. Still on no sleep and drinking. Until finally my body and brain couldn’t handle it and the last line I did I had a terrifying massive panic attack. I legitimately thought I was dying. I went to the hospital and everything. I was fine. My heart was fine. Never again. I’m staying sober from all substance.
Good for you, I think I'm just approaching this stage so gonna cut it early. Got rid of my last bits deleted all contacts, can see how it could easily get a proper grip on me
Man, I had a very similar experience. I recently overcame a 3 year addiction, but one particular night. I landed this gig drumming for my homie and bandmates other band on a tour. Well, amongst my bad breakup, crippling alcoholism, depression and raging coke addiction, let alone playing in a party ty0e thrash band..I thought I'd be fine. Well I was wrong. About a week before I left for tour, we had one last rehearsal as a band before we caught our flights. The night before I left town ( I live 2.5 hours south of where the band is based) I stood up all night drinking whiskey, beer, and railing fat caterpillar lines into the morning hours. I usually left town in the late afternoon. But at this moment, it was about 6 or 7 am. I was polishing off the last bit of my bag, fat proud line as usual, and then I'd make love to myself and try to rest for my trip. Well I took that and waited a few, when I realized my vision started getting weird, my heart felt like it was pounding through my chest, sweating, high pitch ringing in my ears, shallow breathing. I thought, oh fuck. This is it. Surrounded in filth, shame, empty bottles and cans, and OD right before a tour in my basement, where my family probably wouldn't have found me for some time. I gathered what strength and balance I had and rushed up stairs and woke my family. They called my mom, and I was trying to stay calm, I was pale, and felt on the verge. Was telling them I love them, my sister was already pissed at me about my addiction, so naturally she was ready to beat my ass, all while crying hysterically. Rushed me to the ER, and they gave me something to calm my nerves, and turned out to just be a massive panic attack. I missed that practice, and was pretty rusty on my parts for that tour. I also got fired from that tour for blacking out and doing coke to the point where I was running around in the neighborhood streets of Houston Texas, thinking I was being set up to be snuffed out by these people I was with. They were some Crew people associated with the band I was filling in for, and handled some dirty work if needed, and I was like 1 of maybe 3 that didn't subscribe to that lifestyle. So I lost my shit. Eventually flew back home. Still abused coke for another half a year or so. But now I'm finally clean and back to grinding and ready to tour again. Sorry for the novel. Much love!
You’re videos are great. So far I’m still struggling but it’s a just great drug so it’s hard to give it up. I know I’m going down a bad hole. I will literally panic when the supply runs low till I can restock. I’ve been dealing with depression from a marriage that isn’t working out so that’s been the only way I have the happiness do anything right now.
I hate to brake it to you, but it's not a great drug. I did it for years and it was fun while it lasted but the comedown was f@cking awful. For days afterwards I felt like absolute crap. Not worth it. Do mushrooms instead! Absoulutely amazing! 🥰. No disgusting comedown and I feel amazing 2 weeks after consumtion! Go find a beautiful place in nature and bring music, warm clothes, a litte mushrooms and a little weed. Perfect! 🍄🏕🌺🌻🌲🌳🥳 🌅
Geez!! A quad of coke a day. Man, your lucky your ticker, is still ticking. Not to mention, I bet your nose was always raw and clogged up. I’m glad you are still with us and thriving. Thank you for shedding light, on such a dark subject.
@@EricBZink i still struggle. How did u cope with the thoughts u mention with i cant do any of this without it. Its funny tho. Its not the coke that gives energy but the thought of getting it
Thank you, you are truly an Angel and beautiful spirit. I just tried coke recently and although it has SOOOO many helpful benefits specific to where I am in life right now and what I need to take care of and my needs, I am so mindful and even partially scared with using the drug. I still feel I may use it occasionally at this time in life to meet my needs, but watching content like is SO grounding for me to not get caught up in the ideations of the mind and keep myself centered in mindful use. Thank you so much
5:23 I can’t tell you how many times I have smoked potato chip crumbs and other food I picked off the floor because I thought it might have been crack I dropped. It’s a very sad existence!
Recently had a cocaine induced seizure after 3.5 grams got 6 between me and my friend and luckily enough i was with her and she technically saved my life. I got up to do a line, 20 minutes late, became conscious, was confused, dazed, unaware of my surroundings, or what had happened. Id had a fully imduced seizure for 3 minutes apparently. Id had no sleep for 24 hours, went strsight to A and E as i felt like i was suffering from a stroke or about to have a heart attack. The hospital cleared me to go and i will never touch this shit again. It will destory everything you care about and can kill you so quickly. Im lucky to be alive i believe ive been given a wake up call in my life as to what this drug can really do. Stay away from it. Live your life. Stay healthy. Save your money, save your life. Only you can change and it was this experience that was the kick in the nads i needed to stop binging.
Content is always great like so many others but your heart is the special sauce. Dostovoesky exposed and helped me better understand myself with more grace.
I related to basically every single aspect of your story. Are you a sponsor? I’m not quite 1 year yet and I’m holding strong but I’ve been feeling triggered more and more lately.
@@captaincusto5857 I can’t with that since I haven’t struggled with it but can with sex, electronic and alcohol addiction. Addiction is a struggle and a half
When I met my hubby he was using alcohol and coke. He attributed it to the bad breakup he'd had with his first wife. I've never used drugs, however I drank alcoholicly for many years. When I met hubby I had been sober at that time for about 4 years. I've maintained that sobriety, about 15 years now. Anyway Hubby quit drugs an alcohol when we became an item and he stayed clean and abstained completely for 8 years. Then he picked up again. It was a nightmare of alcohol and cocaine...it has been..it is...a nightmare..the fights, financial ruin, cheating, job loss, all of it. This has been going on for a few years now. He hit rock bottom in September. He's gotten clean again (I guess)...how do I trust him... And how long before he does this again? Looking at his history before me, and during our longterm relationship, it looks like he does this about every 8 years. Is this how it's going to be?
I am 19 and doing yayo I’ve been up all night spent 230 on that and mushrooms I’ve done most of my yayo been having heart pain sense prob 2 am it’s currently 6 am and I have work at 5 pm I need to go to bed I wouldn’t say addicted what would other people say ?
What will destroy entirely your life is crack addiction, iwas doing 10grams per day isolating myself in my room. Never getting out unless the dealer got me my next 10 or 5 atleast if i couldnt convince my family to afford another 10 i havent had any obstacle like financially so i would feel my chest and heart in pain and still smoking until one day crack induced depersonalisation and derealisation which were a nightmare, im now back to snorting abke to socialize and getting off of it soon
See im the opposite i started drinking to mellow the cocaine comedown, i used to not take shots or drink liqour until i realized it made the coke comedown much better. I used to never mix them then i started mixing them and it just made my head hurt and made me suicidal by the end of the night. Im a month clean now
Is it unethical to have a drink with someone who use to be a cocain addict and possibly an alcoholic? I have a minor fling with this guy…. (We aren’t in a serious relationship. Once and awhile we cuddle and watch a movie. We have a bit of chemistry and feelings for each other. It’s a fling but we care about each other. Not a disrespectful fling). I don’t do any drugs (including weed) and I rarely drink. I want to have a drink or two with this guy while I’m cuddling with him and watching movies with him. A couple beers just helps me let go of my anxiety and inhibitions and relax and get all cuddly. But he has a history of cocain addiction and he may of had a problem with alcohol as well (I don’t really know his history). I don’t know much about his addictions. I want to have a couple beers with him and snuggle with him but I’m worried that it might be wrong for me to offer him beer because it might trigger his addictions and I don’t want to temp him. Do you think it would be a big deal to invite him over for a couple drinks and cuddle and watch movies? Or does being a good person mean that I can’t offer him alcohol? I don’t know if alcohol could trigger his addictions. I know alcohol disinhibits your frontal lobes, which gives you less self control. My conscience doesn’t like to think about that cause I really wanna have a couple beers with him or a glass of wine and snuggle. But if it’s EVIL to offer him alcohol then I won’t. That’s why I’m wondering what other people think.
that path has made me feel very shameful because i would do things that i would regret the next day, and the way it gets you horny is scary smh better off without period.
My son just opened up and told me He’s an addicted of cocaine ( I knew something was wrong) but he did open up I quess it’s His first step!!! But he wants to do it by himself to get off the drug!!!!!!
Hey I'll refer you to the specialist who helped me treat my depression,ADHD and anxiety,he got shrooms ,LSD, DMT,MDMA,ket and more also helps in exploration of your human psych
Good for you mate I get what ur on bout I personally think coke is a good drug besides the bad health benefits and people judging u for it who don’t do it but still them lines are more important then anyone or anything in the world when ur on them init they run ur life and even when u stop doing u no one can deny if someone snorted a line infront of u when ur sober and offerd u one u may not take it but for the rest of the night you’ll be thinking what if I just have one surely it can’t hurt 😂 man it’s a bad addiction
@@MichaelMandez-cv6xi sounds like a mental mix mate I bet if u took all he’s medicine then you definitely would cure ur depression and any other issues you have but also probably forget things u need to know like what’s ur name and where do u live im guessing if u took all that you’d probs be like I live in the forests and the land and I don’t have a name there’s no such thing as names coz we’re all one and united to eachother 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 as for sober u be like my names mic mate and I live in London boi 😂😂😂 but yh yo for it bruva do some mad concoctions sounds like away to celebrate Christmas for sure 👍🏼😂😂😂
I completely relate, I started off as an alcoholic but got tired of passing out in the middle of the afternoon and I developed a cocaine addiction, wasted tons of money, couldn’t sleep or eat and was constantly grinding my teeth. Eightballs week in and week out was burning a hole in my pocket, I was truly addicted to this drug, licking my fingers and sticking them in empty baggies to rub the residue on my gums. I only cared about chasing that next high. Thankfully I’ve been clean for 6 months and I can’t imagine going back down that dark path. Glad you’re doing well!!
😢😢😢I’m going through the same shit it’s hard to quit and people don’t believe you when you say you truly are an addict of this stuff they think your lying
You’re telling my story man. You do such a great job at describing the small details and nuances of what life as a cocaine addict is. I can relate to EVERYTHING you said. Great work bud. Thanks for doing what you do.
Thank you for sharing. Keep going mate you’re a true inspiration! 💪
I appreciate that you had it in you to post your story on here sir. You have a way with words that people (addicts) like myself can understand and truly think things over. Im very sorry to hear about the passing of your partner and father… however im very happy that you managed to break the vicious cycle. Im sure many people would agree with me when i say “we are here for you just as much as you have been here for us”. Take care of yourself buddy, and i for one will try and take example of the road you chose to switch to.
Ik wil je echt bedanken voor de eerlijkheid en ik ga proberen mensen aan te spreken voor hulp.
wow, thank you for being so raw and real. i feel so seen.
When I was in high school I was addicted to cocaine for a few months or more. It is a crazy drug. The highs and lows are insane. To me I did share with friends though. I do not remember too much trouble stopping. Opiates, suboxone, and now kratom were what grabbed me and made me an addict. Best of luck to everyone in recovery, I am trying to kick this kratom right now once and for all.
Yeah man! 100% on point. Thank you!
I’m someone that will do cocaine occasionally on a Saturday night leading into morning Sunday. Every now and then and it’s only when I’m drinking. Until I recently went on my first ever long binge. It started Saturday night with lots of drinking into Sunday morning, afternoon, and night. I was still drinking. Hasn’t eaten in two days. I started doing it early morning Monday am 3am. Still on no sleep and drinking. Until finally my body and brain couldn’t handle it and the last line I did I had a terrifying massive panic attack. I legitimately thought I was dying. I went to the hospital and everything. I was fine. My heart was fine. Never again. I’m staying sober from all substance.
Good for you, I think I'm just approaching this stage so gonna cut it early. Got rid of my last bits deleted all contacts, can see how it could easily get a proper grip on me
Man, I had a very similar experience. I recently overcame a 3 year addiction, but one particular night. I landed this gig drumming for my homie and bandmates other band on a tour. Well, amongst my bad breakup, crippling alcoholism, depression and raging coke addiction, let alone playing in a party ty0e thrash band..I thought I'd be fine. Well I was wrong. About a week before I left for tour, we had one last rehearsal as a band before we caught our flights. The night before I left town ( I live 2.5 hours south of where the band is based) I stood up all night drinking whiskey, beer, and railing fat caterpillar lines into the morning hours. I usually left town in the late afternoon. But at this moment, it was about 6 or 7 am. I was polishing off the last bit of my bag, fat proud line as usual, and then I'd make love to myself and try to rest for my trip. Well I took that and waited a few, when I realized my vision started getting weird, my heart felt like it was pounding through my chest, sweating, high pitch ringing in my ears, shallow breathing. I thought, oh fuck. This is it. Surrounded in filth, shame, empty bottles and cans, and OD right before a tour in my basement, where my family probably wouldn't have found me for some time. I gathered what strength and balance I had and rushed up stairs and woke my family. They called my mom, and I was trying to stay calm, I was pale, and felt on the verge. Was telling them I love them, my sister was already pissed at me about my addiction, so naturally she was ready to beat my ass, all while crying hysterically. Rushed me to the ER, and they gave me something to calm my nerves, and turned out to just be a massive panic attack. I missed that practice, and was pretty rusty on my parts for that tour. I also got fired from that tour for blacking out and doing coke to the point where I was running around in the neighborhood streets of Houston Texas, thinking I was being set up to be snuffed out by these people I was with. They were some Crew people associated with the band I was filling in for, and handled some dirty work if needed, and I was like 1 of maybe 3 that didn't subscribe to that lifestyle. So I lost my shit. Eventually flew back home. Still abused coke for another half a year or so. But now I'm finally clean and back to grinding and ready to tour again. Sorry for the novel. Much love!
You’re videos are great. So far I’m still struggling but it’s a just great drug so it’s hard to give it up. I know I’m going down a bad hole. I will literally panic when the supply runs low till I can restock. I’ve been dealing with depression from a marriage that isn’t working out so that’s been the only way I have the happiness do anything right now.
I hate to brake it to you, but it's not a great drug.
I did it for years and it was fun while it lasted but the comedown was f@cking awful. For days afterwards I felt like absolute crap.
Not worth it.
Do mushrooms instead! Absoulutely amazing! 🥰.
No disgusting comedown and I feel amazing 2 weeks after consumtion!
Go find a beautiful place in nature and bring music, warm clothes, a litte mushrooms and a little weed.
Perfect! 🍄🏕🌺🌻🌲🌳🥳 🌅
Geez!! A quad of coke a day. Man, your lucky your ticker, is still ticking. Not to mention, I bet your nose was always raw and clogged up. I’m glad you are still with us and thriving. Thank you for shedding light, on such a dark subject.
Nice video. Share more stories please.
thank you for sharing
Helps to know we are not alone
Love your videos man. Ur a legend x
All of this is so true. Makes u shake ur head when u realise what ur doing. Snorting dust lol
Appreciate that helps to know we are not alone
@@EricBZink i still struggle. How did u cope with the thoughts u mention with i cant do any of this without it. Its funny tho. Its not the coke that gives energy but the thought of getting it
@@thecoyotespeaks9649 I totally get that
Thank you, you are truly an Angel and beautiful spirit. I just tried coke recently and although it has SOOOO many helpful benefits specific to where I am in life right now and what I need to take care of and my needs, I am so mindful and even partially scared with using the drug.
I still feel I may use it occasionally at this time in life to meet my needs, but watching content like is SO grounding for me to not get caught up in the ideations of the mind and keep myself centered in mindful use. Thank you so much
5:23 I can’t tell you how many times I have smoked potato chip crumbs and other food I picked off the floor because I thought it might have been crack I dropped. It’s a very sad existence!
Recently had a cocaine induced seizure after 3.5 grams got 6 between me and my friend and luckily enough i was with her and she technically saved my life. I got up to do a line, 20 minutes late, became conscious, was confused, dazed, unaware of my surroundings, or what had happened. Id had a fully imduced seizure for 3 minutes apparently. Id had no sleep for 24 hours, went strsight to A and E as i felt like i was suffering from a stroke or about to have a heart attack. The hospital cleared me to go and i will never touch this shit again. It will destory everything you care about and can kill you so quickly. Im lucky to be alive i believe ive been given a wake up call in my life as to what this drug can really do. Stay away from it. Live your life. Stay healthy. Save your money, save your life. Only you can change and it was this experience that was the kick in the nads i needed to stop binging.
Content is always great like so many others but your heart is the special sauce.
Dostovoesky exposed and helped me better understand myself with more grace.
❤️
I couldn't explain it any better.
The struggle is definitely real
I related to basically every single aspect of your story.
Are you a sponsor? I’m not quite 1 year yet and I’m holding strong but I’ve been feeling triggered more and more lately.
That's how it works on you true facts bro glad you stopped hate to see another one bites the dust
Absolutely
I've tried it it's definitely not my choice of fun buds all you need to party with 🙂
While you speak, I really understand how fucked up this drug is.
Worst struggle it’s horrible the obsession
@@EricBZink can u compare with gambling addiction?
@@captaincusto5857 I can’t with that since I haven’t struggled with it but can with sex, electronic and alcohol addiction. Addiction is a struggle and a half
When I met my hubby he was using alcohol and coke. He attributed it to the bad breakup he'd had with his first wife. I've never used drugs, however I drank alcoholicly for many years. When I met hubby I had been sober at that time for about 4 years. I've maintained that sobriety, about 15 years now. Anyway Hubby quit drugs an alcohol when we became an item and he stayed clean and abstained completely for 8 years. Then he picked up again. It was a nightmare of alcohol and cocaine...it has been..it is...a nightmare..the fights, financial ruin, cheating, job loss, all of it. This has been going on for a few years now. He hit rock bottom in September. He's gotten clean again (I guess)...how do I trust him... And how long before he does this again? Looking at his history before me, and during our longterm relationship, it looks like he does this about every 8 years. Is this how it's going to be?
Bro I'm 22 and your telling my story other then the fact I'm unemployed
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I know how you feeling been trying too kick this drug for so long so hard just want too stop doing it but I can't
😔😔😔😔😔
I was hooked on heroin and painkillers for a few years and it broke me. How did you afford that much daily?
Scary..❤
I am 19 and doing yayo I’ve been up all night spent 230 on that and mushrooms I’ve done most of my yayo been having heart pain sense prob 2 am it’s currently 6 am and I have work at 5 pm I need to go to bed I wouldn’t say addicted what would other people say ?
Do u still have urges and how did u stop
Unicorn landing behind you 😂
What will destroy entirely your life is crack addiction, iwas doing 10grams per day isolating myself in my room. Never getting out unless the dealer got me my next 10 or 5 atleast if i couldnt convince my family to afford another 10 i havent had any obstacle like financially so i would feel my chest and heart in pain and still smoking until one day crack induced depersonalisation and derealisation which were a nightmare, im now back to snorting abke to socialize and getting off of it soon
You okay?
We all have our vices
So true!
This is real shit
See im the opposite i started drinking to mellow the cocaine comedown, i used to not take shots or drink liqour until i realized it made the coke comedown much better. I used to never mix them then i started mixing them and it just made my head hurt and made me suicidal by the end of the night. Im a month clean now
How did you afford a 2 x 8 ball a day habit!? Thats what $300 a day?
I have a question. I do cocaine only when i am on vacation so basically every 3 months is that considered addiction?
Nah.
That’s how it starts
I'm on Once a week now, just a gram. But can feel myself wanting to do it more often. Your thing sounds fine
How do you still have a nose
Is it unethical to have a drink with someone who use to be a cocain addict and possibly an alcoholic? I have a minor fling with this guy…. (We aren’t in a serious relationship. Once and awhile we cuddle and watch a movie. We have a bit of chemistry and feelings for each other. It’s a fling but we care about each other. Not a disrespectful fling). I don’t do any drugs (including weed) and I rarely drink. I want to have a drink or two with this guy while I’m cuddling with him and watching movies with him. A couple beers just helps me let go of my anxiety and inhibitions and relax and get all cuddly. But he has a history of cocain addiction and he may of had a problem with alcohol as well (I don’t really know his history). I don’t know much about his addictions. I want to have a couple beers with him and snuggle with him but I’m worried that it might be wrong for me to offer him beer because it might trigger his addictions and I don’t want to temp him. Do you think it would be a big deal to invite him over for a couple drinks and cuddle and watch movies? Or does being a good person mean that I can’t offer him alcohol? I don’t know if alcohol could trigger his addictions. I know alcohol disinhibits your frontal lobes, which gives you less self control. My conscience doesn’t like to think about that cause I really wanna have a couple beers with him or a glass of wine and snuggle. But if it’s EVIL to offer him alcohol then I won’t. That’s why I’m wondering what other people think.
We should talk.
Good powder turned me into Godzilla
How can you help someone with the addiction?
Hmu I can help
Go to a meeting with them
8 ball a day is damn near fatal right ? Bro lucky
Depends on tolerance. It's possible but the long term effects on the heart is insane.
that path has made me feel very shameful because i would do things that i would regret the next day, and the way it gets you horny is scary smh better off without period.
My son just opened up and told me He’s an addicted of cocaine ( I knew something was wrong) but he did open up I quess it’s His first step!!!
But he wants to do it by himself to get off the drug!!!!!!
Hey I'll refer you to the specialist who helped me treat my depression,ADHD and anxiety,he got shrooms ,LSD, DMT,MDMA,ket and more also helps in exploration of your human psych
He is on Instagram and telegram as.....
mycosinclair...
Good thing you did not go down the meth pathway.
What would be the difference? Not being snarky. Just what.. teeth, psychosis?
I take less than an 8 ball bro
How much did you spend on each of those eight-balls?
150-220
Bruuuh carpet surfing, i was there 😂😂😂
licking your shirt too 😂
I finally smoked a gram of parmesan cheese after carpet surfing for 6 hours straight
I don’t know how to stop I’m doing anywhere from 250gs to 500gs a week no joke now seriously
Good for you mate I get what ur on bout I personally think coke is a good drug besides the bad health benefits and people judging u for it who don’t do it but still them lines are more important then anyone or anything in the world when ur on them init they run ur life and even when u stop doing u no one can deny if someone snorted a line infront of u when ur sober and offerd u one u may not take it but for the rest of the night you’ll be thinking what if I just have one surely it can’t hurt 😂 man it’s a bad addiction
@@MichaelMandez-cv6xi 😂😂😂😂😂 gotta love ur cousins mate init 👌🏼
@@MichaelMandez-cv6xi sounds like a mental mix mate I bet if u took all he’s medicine then you definitely would cure ur depression and any other issues you have but also probably forget things u need to know like what’s ur name and where do u live im guessing if u took all that you’d probs be like I live in the forests and the land and I don’t have a name there’s no such thing as names coz we’re all one and united to eachother 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 as for sober u be like my names mic mate and I live in London boi 😂😂😂 but yh yo for it bruva do some mad concoctions sounds like away to celebrate Christmas for sure 👍🏼😂😂😂
I love cocaine man it’s been two months
How to contact you