The Weirdest Post-Chemo Symptoms
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Hank realizing and explaining that he's still alive despite accidentally implying otherwise is the most Green brothers reaction I've ever seen
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I just imagine Hank tweeting (or whatever it is now) after the video is posted saying "I'm sorry if this is how you found out."
reminds me of how john green had to change the title of his esther day video cause it was originally just "I love you, Hank" and that freaked people out
While editing this video, it has come to my attention that... I'm not dead. I know what it sounded like, but, I'm not. You are stuck with me.
Why does Hank kinda look like Anthony Fantano??
Hank being O negative is just so funny, because the universe said "you are going to be the most giving person in the world from your blood to your socks to your coffee to your soap"
From the windows... to the wall!
The Universe knew.
And finally the universe is like, "OK, you can have a break."
@@vlogbrothers "a break" is a weird way to describe cancer, but you've earned the right.
@@vlogbrothers You deserve it, whether you'll let yourself or not!
The sheer number of camera angles implies quite the workout from moving the tripod around
"I've spent half my life rolling up this 30ft microphone cord, and the other half I've wasted." -The TB one
CJtheX moves their camera every new sentence. And the videos are usually an hour long
my guess is a few cameras set up static, and he edits em, seems the few backgrounds stay consistent, so hes just moving around a bunch i think
I do love the unhinged effect it adds.
I was just talking about this with one of the other patients at the cancer center I go to. My hair grew back in curly. She went through chemo twice. The first time her hair grew back in darker. The second time her hair grew back in red and curly. Another patient had never had freckles before and developed freckles after chemo. It’s crazy how much it affects every small part of your body.
Seriously though. My grandmother had chemo about a decade ago and her hair is now super curly.
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Not a doctor of any sort, but I think chemo having this effect might be it slightly damaging your cells??
I know that we’ve got 2 copies of every gene, and sometimes they don’t match, and every cell is constantly dying and creating replacements, and mistakes accumulate in this process over time. That why hair goes grey as we age, the hair color making genes make too many mistakes and stop working.
So maybe all the hair growing cells or genes or whatever being killed all at once increases the mistakes in the replacement cells? So if you had a recessive trait in your hair color the new hair shows it better or something.
This is all just a guess though.
@@chloepainter4064 that's pretty much how my doctor explained it.
it's weird how it seems to almost reset your system. Maybe some day the scientists will discover that killing so many cells isn't just killing the cancer, but shoving our bodies into using different unexpressed parts of our DNA in order to survive the onslaught of poison pushing us to the edges of life to survive. I wonder if anyone has ever considered doing a little DNA check post and prior, just to see if being 'cured' is exclusively due to the poison, or if the body shifts to a different gene to keep it from reoccurring.
I didn't realise "asking teen questions as a 43 year old" was something cancer patients and trans people had in common
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I was thinking the same thing!
relatable🏳️⚧️
lol fr
yooooo true
Hank just beginning to learn that anxiety is a stacking debuff is so funny to me considering John’s relationship with anxiety.
There are two anxious wolves inside of you.... Why are they there? What do you need with wolves?!
That’s what I was thinking!!!!!
What if the newfound intimacy with anxiety and the new hair combine and result in Hank getting poof levels of his own??
@@josiah42 what's that sound? oh god, is that a third wolf?? OH GOD
Heh yeah, stacking debuff is a good way of putting it.
At that moment in the video, I was thinking in terms of interference. As in, Hank was expecting his sources of anxiety to destructively interfere and cancel each other out, only to learn, to his horror, that it interferes constructively instead! D:
I relate a lot to the "I don’t have it bad enough to deserve help, compassion, attention" guilt. For me, it's extremely related to my OCD subtypes. You probably don’t have OCD, but health anxiety and severe guilt can easily become OCD. So please be careful and nip it in the bud if you start to develop OCD symptoms
Especially since John has OCD, Hank could be predisposed to it
lost my mom five years ago from cancer and it still hurts like hell, but watching you go into remission and have such an interesting perspective on it all has been really nice. yes, there's a lot of grief in these things, but there's also a lot of love, no matter if you lose someone or not, and i think that's really powerful.
My sincere condolences, and I'm glad that these videos have been nice for you.
sending love. it's been five months for me and it is the worst.
@@victoriaz14 im so sorry, wishing you and your loved ones all the time and space that you need. remember her with the love and the pain, and know there's nowhere to go but through. please take care of yourself.
Condolences. My dad died in January 2022 (a week after my 24th birthday) after fighting treatment-resistant prostate cancer for more than 10 years. He was 2 months shy of turning 70.
The re-rolling hair thing is *fascinating*. Like turning them on and off randomizes the initial state/balance the system struck when you were first growing hair.
Also in my experience, anxiety is like gravity. It can only be additive. Health anxiety just makes work anxiety worse and vice versa. Glad you're feeling better and enjoying your new beard!
I suppose now we should be expecting a video about 10 years from now about hair regrowth huh?
Im not familiar enough with biology but i was thinking more along the lines of DNA mutation due to chemo somehow manifesting in hair in a non harmful way, though i could be totally wrong lol.
I expect you to come up with a cure to male pattern baldness in that lab of yours.....
Honestly, anxiety feels much more exponential than additive; like a runaway feedback loop that only stops once you stop *_all_* of it.
this is so real
While I agree with the anxiety being like gravity theory... I'm also concerned that one of the world's few genuine, Mad Scientists has had a brainwave for the project after he's done making a fish out of fruit and making it play DOOM
Love that Hank’s dipping in again on The Format™️
Everyone seems to forget that I INVENTED THE FORMAT!
@@vlogbrothersI FORGOT AND JOHN MADE A VIDEO CALLED “INTRODUCING THE FORMAT” IM SORRY 😭 /lh
@@vlogbrothersdon't worry hank you'll always be the format inventor
@@vlogbrothersyou also kinda invented the Anthropcene Reviewed but it's still very much John's thing 😂
@@vlogbrothersJohn is the Apple of The Format™
This video truly felt like stepping into someone else’s brain for 7 minutes and 4 seconds and it was absolutely fascinating- I think the editing and camera shots really created quite the atmosphere to fit the rambling and contemplating. I enjoyed living in your brain for a bit Hank, even if it’s not always the most fun place for you to be it’s certainly relatable because my brain isn’t always fun either.
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Love this style of filming. Perfectly reflects the feeling of having a scattered brain while rambling to myself. Much love, Hank. :)
oh, hell. THAT's why this video feels entirely natural to watch... :D
chemo brain. I know how it feels.
I remember a lady growing up saying that she’d always wanted to have curly hair and after she got cancer it grew back curly, so for her it was like “Wish granted! But at what cost?”
Monkeys Paw slowly curls 1 finger lmao
My hair was completely gray when I had chemo. When it grew back it cane in auburn.
@@techpriestessmicaela8441one of my sisters started off with white-blonde hair and then became a brunette after puberty. Biology is weird.
Turns out beauty is indeed pain
This is strangely wholesome.
Okay, both John and Hank doing these wandering-around hold-the-mic stream of consciousness what-4-minute-rule videos is giving me SO MUCH LIFE
Long live The Format
John's last video was 3:58 and I was sure Hank would follow his lead at least for the next video but Hank said yeah but what about no
Thanks Hank for putting words out and being vulnerable before us...because you gave legitimacy to those of us who have felt those very same things as we have gone through the struggles of living and dying. Well done.
Same, the format is just fantastic
Long live the format!
Hi Hank, Hank here. I don't comment that often but your thoughts on survivor's guilt struck me. I truly hope that the survivor's guilt fades away for you. Your enthusiasm and consistency over the past few months dealing with this has been a rollercoaster for all of us. You're good people. I really wanna thank you both for your candor and love. THANK YOU
I loved dropping the guilt from not donating all the time. I am also O- and an added guilt bonus from having "baby blood". Since I never had a specific virus that is dangerous for babies and immuno compromised, they would always call me for a donation in emergency situations. I always did my best and am so relieved to no longer feel that guilt.
Yes! A boss I had made it through cancer three times while we worked together, and her hair grew back different each time. It seemed scientifically impossible to me so thank you for validating that she was just rolling a different number each time. 😂
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Holy crap three times?!
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3 TIMES?! WHAT?!
I dont know if id keep working at a place where the boss man hit the tripple cancer.
This reminds me of something that Terry Pratchett wrote, “No one is finally dead until the ripples they cause in the world die away, until the clock wound up winds down, until the wine she made has finished its ferment, until the crop they planted is harvested. The span of someone’s life is only the core of their actual existence.”
GNU Terry Pretchett
Wow, that's beautiful.
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In that case I doubt Terry, or Hank, will ever be fully gone. So many ripples!
Well, if that's true, the poor bastards who discovered fire and invented the wheel ain't never gonna die! ;o)
"The things we make aren't really about us." Wow, this video hit me hard. A dear relative of mine lost his battle with mental illness just two weeks ago now, and he was a prolific maker of videos and music that he shared via TikTok, CZcams, and other places. I keep going back to watch and listen to his creations because it's a part of him that I can take with me into the future. I see others who enjoyed what he created doing the same. It's become very clear to me that what we put out into the world matters, even when we're no longer here.
Thank you, Hank, for continuing to share this process with us. Wishing you continued good health news and for an exciting new chapter of facial hair growth :)
Hi, what was his channel? I would like to check out some of his creations as well, thanks~
My aunt had bowel cancer 20 years ago, always had very curly blonde hair. It grew back grey and straight. She definitely struggled with that because on top of everything that she'd dealt with, she had to change the person she identified as. Being blonde was a huge part of identity.
I had strawberry blond straight hair before, gray curly hair after. the curls grew out, the gray stayed. I looked 10 years older within a year. but at least I was alive.
@@evastapaard2462 absolutely. Unfortunately for Jan, she developed early onset dementia almost immediately after recovery so didn't have any time to really enjoy recovery. She's just recently passed.
Im so sorry for your loss.@@sunsetfamilytravels
@@evastapaard2462 thank you, it's appreciated
Honestly, the “teen boy questions” and checking out other dudes’ beards is sooo relatable as a trans guy in his 20s 😂
I was just thinking the same thing! Haha
Second puberty always hits different lol
Half the battle is believing in yourself (and beard).
The other half is recognizing a losing fight so you may retreat and regroup. (So like, at first it'll be a whispy mess and you won't want to let it go but TRUST ME, just shave those baby hairs off and wait for the tensile-strength-of-copper-wire manly-man hairs to replace them. Have faith, stay the course, me and my monster beard believe in you brother)
@@tonycampbell1424 I appreciate the encouragement haha I'm like eight years on T and can nearly grow a full beard now, though. I really resonated with Hank's experience of asking those questions and checking out other dudes' facial hair, just the general insecurity and excitement, at an unusual age relative to our peers. It opens some interesting reflection about masculinity, aging, gender expression, rites of passage, genetics, and a whole host of tangents from there.
Beard tips if you decide to grow it out (which I recommend; if you grow a lot of facial hair, shaving your whole face is a nightmare):
- use beard oil; softens the hairs and makes them look nicer
- two fingers above your adam's apple is a good beard line
- use specific beard wash and beard conditioner
Beard balm is GOOD if your beard is; you know "stiff/unbendable": Start with beard oil tho... eases you into the habit of oil first than wax. Best of luck and good recovery🙂
Yes to all of the above! Except for the beard line. Once it gets long enough, you never have to shave again. ;)
VlogBrothers beard wash and conditioner, coming soon!
And I’ve noticed with mine that if I keep it short enough (I use one of those buzzers with the plastic length-sector clips you see at hair dressers’) it doesn’t itch at all and overall feels more comfortable
Interesting advice! My dad never had a chance to teach me all that...he's fine, I just can't grow ANY facial hair. Dad had a porn stache, his brothers both do, my mom's brothers have beards, me and my 2 brothers have nothing! We save a lot of time and money but it IS weird!! So thanks for teaching me, maybe one day...😅
Also there is no such thing as not getting hurt enough by cancer. Having known people who died and are dying of it, I am so grateful you are here with us and so sorry for the pain and anxiety you went through.
I'm 7 years out from chemo ending and this was still really helpful for me to hear. The road ahead might be bumpy, and you may get blindsided by things you didn't expect; for me it was PTSD around major life changes because I was diagnosed in the summer after high school graduation and before college, but I digress.
Please keep narrating your journey through this and keep on posting (even after you're dead) 😊
welcome to the full beard club. let it grow, let it grow.
Holy shit!
HOLY BEARD GANG
"let it grow, let it grow."
Don't shave it off anymore.
Omg you're here too!
I agonised over joining that club. I went back and forth. I don't like my facial hair but also don't like shaving, and thought I might like it more if I let it get beyond stubble. Then I tried and it turns out it doesn't really grow long enough to be called a beard. I get a lot of it, all over my face and neck, but it just sprouts to the perfect worst balance between scratchily short and long enough to clog up my razor, and then stops. F-ck you, my hair.
Jesse, we have to make a Vlogbrothers video
I was waiting for this
MAGNETS!
Walter Green
Yes this was my first thought!!!!
Both my parents passed due to cancer when I was in my mid 20s. Since then, I've been battling PTSD.
Cancer not only affects the patient him of herself, but all of the folks who love you. I'm glad the treatment has been successful in your case.
The new look suits you
Hank, you'll never know the impact you've had on my life; but thank you. I'm glad you're a survivor.
The CHAOS. The FORMAT. THE HANK GREEN IN REMISSION?!
I love it.
i was gonna say 'i'll have whatever he had' but then i realized that might not be such a good idea after all...
You don't need to feel bad about surviving cancer bud, my mom died of it and I was genuinely excited and happy that you went into remission and wish you the best. I can't wait to see how your possible new beard comes along with all your new vids on science and D&D
Sorry for your loss
Same. Everyone I’ve loved who has had cancer in the past has died from it. (Four people, four different cancers, two repeat cancer diagnoses.)
My husband’s Nana is going through cancer again and just started treatment last week. I’m so happy to see Hank recover, and to hear him talk about it.
Chemo being absolutely disastrous for my Mom, or really effective but eventually not enough for my mentor does not change Hank’s experience, emotions, or right to talk about them. And it doesn’t lessen my appreciation of him sharing his story and my relief that he is in remission.
I agree with this. I lost my grandpa to cancer, and I don't hate anyone for being able to survive it, I in fact hope for it. I want more people to survive, than have more that are lost
@@7RadioactivePotatoes so sorry for your loss, may your grandfather rest in peace
@@AmaraJordanMusic sorry for your losses, sending my best wishes to your husband’s nana
The complete filterless honesty is nothing less than wonderful! I didn’t knew the thing about hair types and colors able to change after chemo, but it makes sense with the gene-reset. I know you turned all existential in the end of the video, but as another John (Mayer) learned me in a song “the heart of life is good”. And you guys do so much good in so many ways. So yeah, as always thank you guys so much for all the inspiration! 🙏✨ Stay weird and nerdy please! 🫶
I had no idea he had cancer. You are an amazing human. I am so happy that you pulled through.
For what its worth Hank. I was diagnosed with classical Hodgkins also in May and it was very convenient that an extremely knowledgeable person had the same variety of cancer at the same time. Your videos have helped my experience. I got 40 something more days until my last chemo when ill be joining you as a cancer survivor.
(My oncologist is pretty confident that I'm going to make a full recovery if i follow through based on my labs. Im saying this with pretty good confidence with my own reasearch as well)
Tldr: Hank you are remembering to be awesome!
I hate that you and Hank (and anyone) got cancer, but if you were to get it anyways, having someone to look to seems pretty cool. Good luck on the rest of chemo!
Great job peeing out all that cancer!!
Best of luck!
Let us know how it goes! Wishing you the best.
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This video is so unhinged and weird and honest and I love it. The cuts, the lighting, the ranting, the weird and vulnerable thoughts. Love it
We're seeing a new blog/vlog genre start before our very eyes. I know every camera angle kinda says "f-it, let's try this, that's good enough", but it came together into a style that is just kind of raw and honest.
It's true. The cuts are razor sharp in this one. Maybe not 5-blade sharp, but definitely at least 3-blade sharp
It reminds me of the girl on tiktok who goes for hikes and asks mildly unhinged interview questions at the camera. This is my favorite Hank video of all time.
I think this is gonna be one of the ones I come back to often. Hank just processing, in what appears a very honest manner, for like 7min and then just such a wonderful ending.
Thank you for sharing what you have of your journey through cancer with us. I know that we don't have any right to know all of it and I'm grateful to have learned as much as I have through your process.
This video feels like an existential crisis
Hang in there Hank, we love ya
"I thought the work anxiety would distract me from the health anxiety." Oh, Hank, you are the most relatable. Anxiety doesn't work like that for me, either.
if it makes you feel less alone, me too! any anxiety triggers the health anxiety lol
I feel the "Oh Hank" in my bones.
I lost my little sister to cancer about a year and a half ago, and when I saw your videos, I initially felt like avoiding the hell out of them to avoid that trauma... But I've watched them anyways every time somehow, and I really think this is part of why. A lot of this is stuff I feel she would have expressed if she got the chance, and I do think that, in a small way, this helps to channel her voice. Don't feel guilty for surviving; survive for other cancer patients (and yourself) and be real about your experiences, because a lot of others didn't get the chance... And they're important experiences. You're so valid, and I deeply appreciate you talking about cancer. It's rough, and it feels almost taboo to bring it up because of the discomfort it causes.... But it's important, and life happens during cancer, after cancer, thoughts are born because of cancer... But they need to be shared, they need to be heard. Thank you
I'm sorry for your loss. Your comment is so beautiful and touching.
I'm so sorry that your sister lost her life. I'm glad you're finding comfort. Don't YOU forget to keep living as well ❤
I'm sorry for your loss, and I'm thankful you shared your thoughts. i lost my dad to cancer in 2021, and initially i also didn't want to be *in* too much on Hank's diagnosis and treatment. but you're right. those who survive cancer both the patient and those who supported the person who passed away because of cancer, should live and survive for those who didn't. i needed to read this, and it made me sob. thank you for sharing.
Thank you for sharing this. Stay strong friend we're here for you
This is beautiful and I’m so sorry for your loss ❤️
Laughed at the “nerdy Jason Statham part”. As a fellow O negative that reminded me of getting back to blood donations. And thank you Hank for the content - a dear friend of mine is mourning a loss of his father to cancer and your videos help me be a more companionate friend
As John has said, Hank really is on a journey of meaning.
This joke really got so much more real than anyone ever thought it would. Like, that Dear Hank and John episode when they knew about Hank's cancer but we didn't went so so deep I was like, huh, and when I found out about Hank's cancer and I was like ooohhh
Yes! Hair changes were the most unexpected post chemo effect for me. After 43 years with stick straight hair, it grew back curly. Poodle curly. But as I was getting used to ringlets, my hair changed again, to slightly wavy with extra gray. Sigh. And I too enjoy the lack of blood donation guilt - although I'm AB+, so almost no one needs my blood. That was 20 years ago, btw. Chemo and surgery did their jobs, and I've been completely cancer free. Rooting for you!
Glad to hear it, heck yeah!
They need your plasma!!!
AB+ is the universal plasma donor (without the blood cells), and it's an even rarer blood type then O-, so blood banks would absolutely want plasma donations from anyone with this blood type who is eligible and willing to donate.
I am a fan of hearing the random thoughts of someone who is working through a major life change. I think we all have these minds of thoughts and to know you arent thinking them alone even when youre alone has got to be incredibly comforting. Healthy emotional managing and healthy masculinity ftw.
Videos like these are what make Hank such an important human and a treasure.
Hanks existentialism scoping down from the insane scope of the universe to the intimate relationship we all have with mortality has been quite the change.
And the intimate relationship we all have with facial hair
A past colleague once told a story about their hair after cancer. They got cancer in school around the start of winter break and had it pretty easy all things considered, they were done with treatment and their hair was growing back by the time they were back in school. Some girl he knew noticed his hair was different and touched it and found that it was incredibly soft. She asked him what he put in his hair to make it so soft and he had the privilege of getting to see her face when he told her "oh, just a little bit of cancer". He had a good laugh about it.
My hair came back so soft I couldn't stop touching it. I'm still using baby shampoo on it. It's cool.
Yeah, that can happen. I had a more distant friend, that did not know about my treatment and met him at a birthday party. When we talked he asked me how I manage to cut my hair that smooth, without any stubbles visible. He was quite shocked and most likely embarrassed he had asked afterwards ^^
I think I need to spend some time offline because after reading that story and having a chuckle I immediately thought of one of those clickbait ads with "Hairstylists HATE this one WEIRD trick!"
My mother got her hair back with no gray hair. At 73 she had less gray hair than I did at 50.
As a hairdresser for 12 years, a client of mine who had battled cancer on and off 3 (or more times) over the course of the 8 years I knew her went through so many changes to her hair. It was crazy seeing her go from soft "average "fine flat grey hair" to "bart simpson" style thick straight hair that stood straight up out of her scalp all the way too curly fine hair in the end. Blew my mind as to how much on a genetic level chemo changes the body.
I haven't been in that salon for 5 years now, and I hope she is still alive and well.
my mom used to say.... As long as someone remembers you, you are really never dead. i think a great deal of what we are is striving to somehow be remembered. even if it is just by being in a remote place and putting one small rock on a large rock that will be there for an eternity.
Hank being a universal donor is the most on-brand thing I’ve ever seen 😂❤
And feeling guilty for not donating enough🥹 Hank, you're already doing wayyyyyyyy more than the average person to decrease world suck. Be kind to yourself!
I DID think "Hank looks like a nerdier Jason Statham" from the thumbnail! 😂 Literally the first reaction.
I'm done. I did it!
I knew someone would!! Love that
2:20 i was absolutely thinking that.
Hank is low key turning into Heisenberg
ngl when I told my husband about your chemo beard, he knew this was a bad reaction and would never do it, but his first thought was that he wanted to try.....as someone who has always struggled with facial hair haha. sooo your fears are not unfounded 😬
I'm a trans man and I had the same reaction lmao. My hair is still changing from the hormones so I don't know where I'm gonna end up when it's all said and done, but right now I'd kill for some of this neckbeard to start creeping higher up my chin 😂
@@Avendesora Welcome to the beard club, new guy. Nothing wrong with being a work in progress.
Man, I'm in the same boat. Not quite on a first name basis with my facial hair (except tom on my left cheek and jerry on my right) but as a Mexican male the inability to grow a goatee hurts a lot.
I recently heard about a kind of chemo that essentially makes your blood toxic and, as a side effect, instantly kills mosquitos, and my immediate thought was "ooh, I gotta get some of THAT".
(Obviously, I wouldn't try to get on chemo just to wipe out the local mosquito population, but it's been a very buggy summer and I'm not surprised that my mind went there.)
@@Avendesora When I first started getting facial hair I had the same problem, but I don't take HRT so hopefully that doesn't make much of a difference. Love ya, and stay strong.
As a beard-grower who also didn't start until well into adulthood, I empathize with the "I'm asking questions that a teenager would ask" feeling. I can pass on what I learned, and hopefully it helps anyone reading this:
-first: folks with beards tend to be more open to talking about and complementing each other on their beards. I did not expect to receive compliments from strangers, but I opened up to it and learned a lot from other beard-havers that just wanted to share care tips.
-once you know what texture your beard will have: look for someone with similar texture to get recommendations for care tips (see advice #1). Mine is medium-curly with relatively thin follicles, and my care techniques may not help someone with dense/thick curls, or light/straight hair.
-for some beards: beard oil is NOT a luxury product. I didn't want this to be true for me, and my hubris led to lots of itching and painful tangles that weren't necessary. If find your new beard to be really itchy and easily tangled, try oiling it and combing it after a shower. Side tip: scent-preference is important. You will have to smell it all the time.
Yup, another option is to not wash your beard with shampoo all the time, you can just wash it really well with just water and optionally add conditioner to keep it nicely oiled which protects it and keeps it from itching
Yes, I was wondering if head hair conditioner would be good on a beard?
@@BinxyBrown
I find that nice oil scented soap bars play nicely with my beard, they seem to moisturise the hairs about as well as oil does and is an avenue into floral and fruity scents rather than the traditional wood scents you usually get.
Obviously this is something to test as it seems every beard is different.
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This video is an entire vibe really and I love it. As someone who has lived a life surrounded by and inadvertently experiencing a variety of disabilities and illnesses, I think it's really valuable to hear these kind of experiences from others who are newly working through these things because like, heck, we all experience a lot of similar things and just hearing other people process it makes you feel a lot less alone.
Light travels at 186,000 miles per second. There are some stars that are light years away in the night skies yet they carry on shining even tho they are long gone. These videos are the lights in the sky for a ton of people. You will forever inspire us Hank 🥹
Anxiety doesn't usually block out other anxiety. It usually stacks. You may have a primary anxiety, but the secondary (tertiary, etc) is always there, lurking.
Was going to say just that. There seems to be 2 explanations that I've heard a lot. One is that the body recognize the feeling of anxiety, which triggers anxious thoughs (as that is the usual cycle, either thoughts - >body or the other way around, according to cognitive psychology).
The other explanation seems to be that the amygdala is working way too hard and just basically overactive. Doing stuff that calms the amygdala down does seem to work for a lot of people. Hence the 'you should go for a run when you have anxiety or depression' advise. Less can do it, like yoga, laughing, or doing any kind of exercise.
I relate to the note about survivor's guilt as someone who had non-life-threatening cancer as a kid. Even though it had a huge impact on my life at the time and I know survivor's guilt is irrational, I sometimes feel a little unqualified to speak on cancer. Btw if anyone's wondering, it has never come back in 15 years, and these days I'm doing great health-wise!
wishing you many more years of health matthew.
But, but isn't all cancer life threatening
@@just.8797some are more than others, funny to see him down play his cancer though
i feel this so hard right now. I’m just about to finish treatment for my seemingly very chilled and harmless thyroid cancer and I feel so much survivors guilt when i’m in my wards with others having a much worse time of life :(
@@just.8797 I'm sure mine would have been if I never ever had treatment, but it was Stage 1 so it wasn't very concerning in that way
Beard tips! If you’re planning on growing it out and are annoyed by how itchy it is it’s cause you’re not oiling or conditioning the hair! Also for trimming, shave just above the Adam’s apple, makes it look a lot neater and leaves it looking a lot more natural and less chin strappy! So glad you’re doing better. ❤
That's a tall empty bottle of existential crisis in your hand there Hank. You may have had a bit too much to think. ; D Great to see you! I'm glad you're still alive. Thanks for sharing your honest thoughts and experiences. Love you man!
I had the opposite reaction about finding out I couldn't donate blood. I started donating when my dad had a cancer where he regularly needed transfusions, so hearing that I had to be cancer-free for 5 years was a huge blow.
"I think that we all kinda get to keep posting after we're gone." Now there's a line that make me wonder which Green brother I'm hearing from.
Thanks for clarifying that you're not dead.
I think he was sarcastic when he said it. That he doesn't actually think it's good.
@@naturesfinest2408yeah he wants to but he feels less bad that he isn't doing it consistently because he actually had a reason now
My mom was a redhead before chemo and ended up having the same auburn brown hair that I do once she entered remission. It also went from straight to wavy. She loved her red hair, so it was incredibly difficult for her to process, but we also all found it super interesting. She's been in remission since 2006, and it's still auburn and wavy to this day! But she's also in her 60s, so at this point, we're more in awe that she still hasn't had a grey hair yet. Genetics, a weird side effect, or both? Time will tell!
My dad is the same way w the late greying! It’s almost like when his hair grew back it was baby hair again and the timer restarted
As some one that got grey hairs in my early 20's late teens, that is so cool.
I don't know exactly how gray hair work, my mom and 2 of her sisters have gray hair, and one of her sister, the third one, can count her gray hair, and all of them are 70+ years old
I do hope and pray that you will be able to work through "survivor guilt". I am so grateful for your beating cancer. I am thankful and grateful for your vlog, you and your life!
Im so thankful for you posting your journey.
My mom had cancer 5 times and she is still kicking.
Im currently going through my first cancer scare, go in later this week for an ultrasound and mentally I’m all over the place…but seeing your videos is so calming.
Thank you for being awesome
Hope you got a positive outcome zoly.
The major 7 days, but no one ever talks about the 6 minor ones.
my favorite is captain Picard day..... "it's for the children"
The sharps and flats of the week.
Leap day is a minor one probably
And it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor falls and the major lifts
Tuesnesday
That was delightfully random, hilarious and deep. I love this format. :-) -Daven
I also enjoyed the introspection.
oh
Ditto
Oh heck! I didn't expect to see TIFO here! Love your content and amazing team of writers, editors and of course Fact Boy.
It's THE format (I guess this one had a much shorter mic cable)
the editing and pacing in this video is actually so interesting and beautiful and feels so inherently youtube but also updated somehow to be more educational and consistent? just fantastic work all around
I really appreciate and enjoying watching you process these things out loud AND choosing to share them with the world.
The format of this video really adds to the experience for me, it feels a little more raw, certainly more existential, and the novel camera angles and shots add to a certain.... uncertainty.
Its an uncertainty that I won't know what's coming next or how it might feel, but I'm on the journey, and that feels like an apt metaphor here.
The new office WORKS for the format
My Dad died on this day.
One thing I learnt in his absence is that I can reach out to him in the form of the influence he has had in how he has lived and how he has raised me and my siblings.
His headstone has the inscription "To live in hearts we leave behind is not to die."
You share so much, in so many ways, so generously that you are in very many hearts and will continue to be so.
All the best for your recovery and remission and thank you for everything you do ❤
*hugs*
Hank, tripping out on his own thoughts. Yup, that sounds like a Green Brother!
Know that I and my son think you are awesome. I am glad that you feel comfortable enough to work through processing all of what you have gone through and are going through in video format, because I know it is helping me feel less alone and I am quite sure it is helping others too. I am so glad that you were able to stick around and keep being your awesome self.🥰🥰
very happy to hear you’re doing as well as you can be with everything 💛
I think you would find this interesting, but when people have gastric bypass, they sometimes also re-roll their head and get completely different hair!
the hair loss begins bc their nutrient intake dips so significantly in the first few months but once they’re back to normal nutrient intake it grows back completely differently.
my friend had thin, straight, fine hair her entire life, but it grew back thick and curly
ISTFG Hank is the most wholesome human. This incredibly genuine public display of emotional processing after an incredibly difficult situation is something we all need more of.
I see this face grow? I shit through flubby goobers? In society time favours Greens?
I thought it's DFTBA Hank
My brother and I lost Mom to cancer. She was a really sweet person you would have liked--everyone who met her liked her a lot--and she'd have wanted you to live and not feel guilty about it. I'm glad you're here.
Condolences.
Thank you very much. Have a nice day. @@barefootalien
Lots of us get it. I lost my dad the first week of July. Everybody loved him, too. And I know he loved us. Remember that about your mom, rudetuesday.
As a teacher, I love your work and your joy, Hank. Feel joy as often as you can. We all deserve to do that.
I'm so sorry for your loss. That's so hard and I hope you can relive so many good memories with her *sending support*
I'm so sorry for your loss. She was obviously a great Mom though, Because you are a beautiful person.
❤ to you and your brother.
Thanks for talking us through this with you. I’ve never had cancer but I do have a relapse/remission autoimmune disorder that’s put me in the hospital a few times and the bit where you get your life back when you’re ‘better’ has always felt harder to me than the bit where you’re just trying to be well again. You will come back to yourself, it will just take a little time.
❤ this video gives me a lot of comfort, I have had a lot of health concerns recently and it’s been hard for me , I’m feeling better , but facing your mortality and your physical limits sucks and it’s nice to hear others go through those thoughts in real time. So mundane but so hard to wrap your mind around, 🙏 Thanks
I remember having a teacher who had multiple rounds of chemo across several different experiences with cancer. Each time she lost her hair, it grew back thicker and darker. It was so strange to watch it happen over time. She taught multiple grades, so I was her student from the age of about 10 until I was 18. She also had children during this time, so I remember her very clearly as this super petite, thin blonde haired soroity-looking woman when I was a child to a dark brunette with coarse hair and a filled-out body when I was an adult myself. It was surreal to experience that transformative period in my life along with *her* incredibly transformative period of her life.
It’s like her character got replaced with a different actor haha.
@@Franklin2OO7 oh yeah. She got married during this time too so her name even changed. It was like they full on swapped out the wife in a sitcom and pretended like it never happened
Even without cancer, it's surprising how much our bodies continue to change over time. As a kid I thought you grew up, and then once grown up you were done with all that. But rerolling hair style is wild. I wonder if they can trigger that without the chemo.
@@gelfling Yeah, I'm friends with her on Facebook and she loves to share her memories on her TL because of how radically different she looks. If you focus on the face, it's the same lady with a few extra wrinkles but she doesn't even look like she's *related* to her old self.
Edited to add: She does look a lot happier now, a lot less anxious and she's been going strong with over 5 years in remission! Just checked her page and figured it was worth mentioning.
"I am growing stronger everyday"
"I know it's irrational, but so are a lot of my thoughts these days, so we're just working through them," is the thing I needed to hear someone else say so I could say it myself, you know, using the thoughts and words of the people we don't know who influence us. Thank you for posting, as always.
we need these words when we least expect to ever hear or need then
Oh damn. I’m sorry for your migraine. I’ve got ocular migraines too. (Not just aura, but the real deal) it gets better. At least for me. The visuals stay but the jet engine in your head won’t come out as much. Love your videos, you gave me strength for my illness and me and my lil bro will both study medicine to be something like you both cool science bros
I'm so happy you're still here, making videos, and talking about your experience. Thank you.
The hair thing happened to my cousin! It curled into these beautiful tendrils and was so glossy and healthy! It’s been a few years and it’s pretty much returned to normal. Might be the same for you! Enjoy having different hair for a while!
Yes! My mom's hair changed from brown and curly to black and straight - was odd! Also returned to normal after a few years.
Mine was curly when it grew back until it got past my shoulders
@@ShaynaButlerthat's fascinating. So, your hair has to have been partially curly and also straight at one point, right? Like curly at the end and straight at the root?
Hank has entered Disney villain arc and im all here for it
Your profile pic is giving Hank
HEISENHANK
I think hank could accomplish world domination if he really wanted to. Especially with nerdfighteria on his side... lol
It cracks me up that I see you on almost all the same channels I watch! DFTBA fam!
Your chats about such mortal topics are great
I bloody love this channel and community. Stay well man
I dont want to speak for anyone else, but as someone who's lost a loved one to cancer, I need to see and hear stories like yours, Hank. I don't know how to share or explain it properly, but after it was all "done", I felt like I'd lost all ability to hope, and I was filled with so much cynicism and bitterness at times.
This is why I wish with all my heart for your survivor's guilt to pass. You shared your story, and I was able to see someone winning the fight, sharing their fears and hope and even just intellectual curiosity. Your fight with cancer reminded me that we *can* win, and that every "soldier" in this war on cancer saves more lives down the line. So let me say it one more time.
Thank you, Hank Green.
Thank you for sharing your fight.
Thank you for sharing your fear and anxiety.
And most of all, thank you for being Hank.
Thank you for this. As a cancer "survivor" for going on eight years now, I still struggle with survivor's guilt and impostor syndrome of being a survivor (to the point that I feel like I don't deserve the term and use quotation marks when talking to people). Others have had cancers far worse than mine, and despite going through mastectomy, chemo, radiation, and long term medication, it felt like I had the cheat code as my cancer mutation was of a low grade, and thus, not as aggressive.
I've shared my experience with others going through chemo/radiation/surgery because I remembered how much I *didn't know* going into treatment, and how much learning from someone else's journey helped me. And yet I could not shake the feeling that I'm an impostor for sharing my experience, as if I don't deserve to share it.
You have no idea how much I needed to hear your perspective. It was healing.
Thank you.
THIS!!! A milllion times this! I need to know someone else can survive and thrive having cancer. Partly because I feel like another person with cancer is an extension of my loved one and in some weird way they get to live on in another way. The other part is to remind me that a person can heal from this. I feel like I'm allowed to hope and pray for others. This isn't to pressure survivors. It's just really nice for those that have lost someone to see that you're here.
God I love The Format. So laid back, comfortable, but full of serious and complex thoughts and questions! Who would have thought a video of Hank trying something new in a hotel would become the best new thing?
The Format* in this particular video is stellar: Giant paint cans, the artistic use of the mannequin... The visual representation of "many of my thoughts are irrational these days...and we're just, working through them". 🎉
This was single handedly the most honest entertaining, informative just human video I think I've ever seen on youtube. Thank you for everything you do, and hopefully will continue doing. You're awesome man and you have this.
One of my good childhood friends passed away unexpectedly two days before my son was born. Just a few weeks ago, my son got hiccups right before bed and was very concerned that they would never go away. This friend got hiccups at 16 that she had for the rest of her life. And I was able to comfort my son by telling him about my friend and how she lived with her hiccups and it was all okay. I never thought of it in that way before, but it is like she’s still posting even though she’s been gone for five years. Thank you for sharing that. ❤
I'm glad you're alive. I grew a beard after starting on testosterone. Took ages to come in but it's kind of wild and woolly now. My brother, on the other hand, had always found it hard to grow a beard. Turned out he has Klinefelter syndrome - the mosaic XY/XXY form. Now he's on testosterone injections too. He came to me with all sorts of questions. It's been so fascinating! Me, a transguy, answering questions from my cisgender brother about testosterone therapy. How weird and kind of cool is that?
this is so cool! :]
This is the kind of story that more people need to know. Gender Affirming care, Of Any Kind, is Human Care. Thank you for sharing this!
@@Me3stRNot only that, but as this poster demonstrates, it's care that can treat cis folks as well as trans folks.
Im glad you have a healthy relationship with your brother.
@@GiantPetRatIt's true. As a post-menopausal cis woman, my natural testosterone levels started rising so now I take spironolactone to make it have less effect on me. As I understand it, this is the same med given to many trans women. Gender affirming care is for everyone.
I have lupus, and the "treatment ", is chemo. My hair didn't fall out, but grew in curly. The curly 80's hair, I always wanted, I suddenly have. I mean it is falling out in clumps, but it is still that lovely curly hair.
How often do you have to get chemo, and is this a long-term thing? Sounds so awful, but so does lupus. ❤
My wife has lupus and had to get chemo when she was in college....gatta kill that immune system thats killin her I guess? One thing though is that she still is able to donate blood, is that just specific state by state?
@@elainebelzDetroit if its anything like my wife, its only when the lupus flares up so bad that its a danger to you and your organs. Its a mitigation game as much as possible until you HAVE to act.
@@Goblin1986pthe blood thing is because of the cancer, not the chemo so that's probably why she can still donate blood
@@Goblin1986pI would assume the blood donation issue is because Hank had lymphoma, which affects the person's blood cells, not because of the chemo. Most cancer patients are allowed to give blood a year after treatment ends
You're right, Hank, I wasn't thinking nerdy Jason Statham, I was thinking friendly Walter White. You know, like, screaming "Jesse we have to cook" but it's a tray of cookies for the bake sale
Love you buddy, thanks for being open and sharing your experience.
Papillary thyroid cancer gal here! I really appreciate your cancer content because it helps me not feel so alone. Thank you Hank ❤
Agreed. I found out about my DLBL just before Hank found out about his cancer, so I feel like we went through it together!
Yep, I was diagnosed in Jan and then seeing Hank's diagnosis and others like me showing up in the comments has really helped.
I just found out my cancer is back for the second time, and it's most likely i will need chemo. For someone who has inspired my whole career journey, it's been a huge aide to be able to hear your experiences and know there's a way & a hope.
Good luck with chemo. Rest as much as you need and don't feel guilty about it. I've slept for 12 hrs after chemo cause I was really tired. Oh and if you get constipated, take a laxative loke restoralax before bed so you can have a bowel movement.
When you say your cancer is back for the second time do you mean you’ve been in remission twice? If so I can’t imagine that, my feelings would be so constantly mixed up. Either way, I hope you go into remission again and it doesn’t come back this time!
thats terrible knowing its come back, but i know you can beat the shit out of cancer a second time bro hang in there
You’ve got this.
Hope all goes well.... its nice when someone we idolize has a shared experience
Thank you for sharing the realism in your experience and your existential thoughts. They have given me another way to look at life without having to live through your experience and I am glad you are still alive to share them.
Thanks for sharing your feelings and thoughts so openly. You always seem like such a confident person, so for you to directly mentioning anxiety and other things is incredibly eye-opening.
When my sister "rerolled" she got the a full head of her natural color, no grays. Mid to late 30s (did chemo late 20s) and not a single gray, when gray comes early in our family. All the rest of us siblings started graying in our early to mid 20s. She also had some grays before the chemo made it fall out.
HOT TIP: I also had ocular migrains until I stopped drinking tea. So in the very slight off-chance that you are like me Hank: Try dropping tea and coffee for a few weeks and see if that helps. I basically never get any ocular migraines now, but if I even drink 1 cup of tea I get it. No idea why that is.
I got diagnosed with Celiac. Mine stopped almost completely when I stopped eating gluten. I have no idea why.
tannins! they’re in tea and coffee and a proven trigger for headaches and migraines. it might also happen if you were to drink red wine.
Perhaps try white or green tea, which have lower tannin concentrations. Some people also report that having lemon in their tea reduces the effects of tannins.
Honestly Hank, even if you ramble about cancer for a few months or years you always make it so interesting. Take this video for example, I had no idea about any of these symptoms. Also it's okay to just exist and do things because you want to, you are human like the rest of us and I guess if I knew I would be dead I'd still be creative cause I want to. 😅
I first became aware of your content through school, watching it in class with my old friends. My mum died of cancer early this april. Take advantage of your life and I wish you the absolute best in your recovery hank! You've influenced far more lives than you can ever know
You and your brother have made *A lot* of content. Content that has been and will continue to be archived. A fault in our stars will be sitting on the shelf of a library collection for generations to come, and scishow is not only useful as a science education aid today, but also a yardstick for future science educators to come. I am extremely certain, decades after we're all gone, someone will load some media into a machine and from it's speakers will say "Good morning John!"
that is really amazing to think about actually. just imagine us being some of the ones that were alive to experience the vlog brothers when they were still alive. something some people in the future might yearn for. I often get this feeling with bands that I like which arent around anymore, like imagine being in the crowd in one of the beatles concerts, it's just mind blowing to think that we are part of something similar, all the time without realizing how special it might be in the future for future people