Drinking Ayahuasca In South America | Patreon Podcast #1
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- čas přidán 14. 12. 2021
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The start of something new! Thanks for watching and taking a risk on baby's first podcast.
In this episode I talk about why I travel, why I went to Colombia, how I spoofed my location at a bullsh*t remote corporate job, and my experience drinking ayahuasca. Hope you enjoy
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I stumbled onto your channel when I did a search for "India" and subsequently have spent all weekend watching your videos of your travels. You have delighted, inspired and given me food for thought. It is now interesting to go back in time and watch this one because all the darkness you speak of here with the medicine paved the way for the courageous journey you undertook and the remarkable love you demonstrated throughout your travels meeting other people. Having recently done the medicine I understand your words completely. I am a subscribed fan. You are an amazing individual and I choose to also follow the courage you have allowed me to see. I have been entertained, taught, shared with you and laughed out loud at some of your adventures while pondering the humanity of your more serious encounters. Thank you.
Agreed, great comment.
Same and im glad I found him
The most important relationship we will have in this lifetime is the relationship we have with ourselves. We’ve got to love ourselves first , it’s the foundation for all other relationships.
The algorithm suggested your channel a few days ago. I have been bingewatching your trip! Love every minute of your uploads. I have traveled some of the same countries myself back in the 1990's. You have an attitude that I have never seen. Super inspiring, You go all in, letting the camera tell the story. You are one of a kind. You let the camera roll, even in hard times! That's next level of travel vlogging. I have never laughed as hard, as I've done watching you getting around. Especially you getting on that super overcrowded train in India! Hahahaha. You are The Champ!
Now I am listening to this. Really enjoy it. Please, keep doing what you do. We absolutely love the way you deal with stuff. It is entertaining, big time educational and heart warming. Love your channel, Conner. You are the best!
In a really dark period of my life right now, I definitely needed to hear this. Thanks man.
Not many people have the guts or the the ability to do anything close to what you have done. You should really keep making content, the people will be paying you enough to keep going soon. Hopefully it's already happening because thousands of people love your channel.
Word!
you inspired me so much man, as i sit here at my corporate job and binge watch your vids it lets me dream through your POV and shows me there’s so much to life than $ and status.. Thank you man, hopefully by the end of this year i’ll be purchasing my 1 way ticket to Osaka Japan.
Love your channel dude.
I had 25 different jobs in 20 years, could not grasp, corporate reality.
Don't change, you are so refreshing and as they say
Like attracts Like, you attract interesting people and experiences.
Keep up the Great work
Pete from Oz.
mind if i ask, what does "could not grasp corporate reality" means? and, do you think it's a personality quirk, intelligence issue, childhood issue, or..what?
Just the business world that I grew up in, money = success.
Maybe a personality quirk, apparently my IQ is high, but EQ is more important.@@SILVARYDAH
I am new to this channel and I have been binging on all your content but this video hit me. I struggle with severe anxiety and just your story of release and strength gives me some hope. your content is above others. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing man. It’s never easy to keep it real about your trips because of the stigma around them and how hard it is to describe. Keep making stuff!
Thanks for sharing man, that was interesting. Its funny because I actually came to the same conclusions and learned what you learned on this trip through years of therapy. A lot of what you describe of feeling negative states without avoiding/attaching is rooted in mindfulness practice and its cool that you took away such an enlightened perspective from one trip on ayahuasca. Keep it up, really like the travel content!
I have SUCH respect for your honesty ! 😂 I have binged on your content all day ! Please don't ever change your vibe of genuineness !! You have a good heart and fucking great sense of humor. I will def subscribe to your Patreon !
Hey Connor, you are doing great so far. Love how transparent you are with your videos!
Love your channel Connor and couldn’t agree more about struggle. The hardest things in my life have defined who I am and know that without them I would be far less of a person and less capable to tackle new things that ultimately bring more joy to my life. Thank you for saying the difficult truth
great video brother, your whole channel is criminally underrated. much love from australia
Awesome testimony! Thank you for sharing these difficult truths.
Thank you homie ✊
I can relate with everything that you described. Good job at telling the story of your journey. I will continue to follow your channel bro. 👏 🎉
Keep sharing! You are so honest and refreshing and comforting to fellow travelers and people that think modern work life is bs hahaha
Thanks for that, I enjoyed listening with a beer. I haven't tried Ayahuasca but have experienced other hallucinogens, and felt what they can do for your mind, regarding inner growth and revelations. Been binged your videos, love your attitude towards your adventures. Don't change your laidback style of vlogs, they are very moreish! Just subbed
You are an absolute mad man. I'm loving the energy dude.
Thank you man
Thanks man!! I've been thinking about taking that Journey. A old friend goes down to Peru for it. Thank you for sharing your experience and being real.
Of course brotha- it has helped me a ton so I’m happy to share!
Thanks for sharing your experience homie. Those of us with experience in psychoactive chemicals fully understand the depth of the feelings you recounted. Highest of highs, lowest of lows. You never come out the same as you went in. That’s the journey
Dude, thank you so much for this video. That was a great testimony.
Hey brotha you are welcome! Happy to share
man many thanks for your amazing journeys and life journey sharing.
it's verry inspiring and sometimes I can really connect with what you passed through.
I love to travel too also.
keep pushing, keep sharing, keep vibing !
Just found your channel yesterday. And watched several videos in different countries. You’re like the hippie I was in the 60’s. When you look back on these times when you’re an old man you’re gonna realize what a fulfilled life you have lived. Keep it up, traveling the world will make you a wise man. ❣️
Thank you for telling your Ayahuasca-experience❤
You got a Great perspective^^ Stay safe my friend🙏
Wow... What an amazing experience man... and you described it so well, so true.. its on my bucket list now..
I’m still here! Thanks for the honesty and the quality content.
Enjoyed every second of your story. Haven't seen a more honest account of an ayahuasca experience. It came as a surprise to me that you have general anxiety. You seem so laid back and cool. Your vlogging and podcasting are bound to be a success. Best of luck.
Thankyou so much for sharing Brother! I loved your Ayahuasca story. I don't know if there's any more because I'm pretty new to your channel but sending love to you wherever you are. Thankyou! ❤
Genuine sharing. Thank you.
Anytime hermano
Hi Connor - ok explains everything I love about your adventures. You just saved me from another four years of head therapy. A bit of Tara Brach in there ‘Rain of Compassion’. Recognise, Accept, Investigate and Nurture. I’m glad I’ve been in a funk lately because if I hadn’t been in that GAD struggle I would never have found your awesome channel. I adventure as much as I can too. Next stop is Sulewesi. In three days. India is hard work and Vietnam is hilarious. Looking forward to Japan and South America later this year. Keep up the wonderful work Connor. You should be so dammed proud of you being you.
never taken it but totally understand your story great description sounds like it helped you congrats,youre no 1 in my books
Love this video and your channel bro much love 💯
Great vlog man, I have generalised anxiety too and you have motivated me to do Aya.
Sounds like a crazy experience, thank you for keeping it real
Wow! Incredible, thank you for sharing ❤
cant stop watching your stuff. youre def going to blow up bro, you have the it factor
Great 👍 video man...
I admire you an wish you well as we com close to a new year - where ever you are - respect buddy 🤝
Great analogy about suffering/struggle using the tree. Well done!
I took a massive dose of LSD and felt myself die floating in space getting smaller and smaller. When I became a single atom, I woke up surrounded by beautiful beings that felt scared for me and told me they would send me back. As soon as I agreed I wanted to go back, I woke up in my bed still tripping but like a normal dose of acid. It happened and it’s hard to explain to people
Bollox
@@latbeastlmao
@@latbeasttake a big dose
@@Jkapvan I’ve done 6 acid tabs in 1 go which was around 900 micrograms so I know the feeling😂😂 you do it once then leave it alone.
You don’t sleep when your tripping. Lsd lol
Change your dealer
My own experience with aya was very similar and I would'nt trade it for the world. I cant wait to get to my next ceremony. thank you for sharing this.
Listened all the way, you’ve got to do more!
Wow thanks homie! Appreciate that
I like your style! Somehow ofc loco, but at the same time it is sane! Love it! Keep it going!
Without a test there is no testimony! Great video
Its probably a constructive medicine for some. For others like myself, I know I might not win the initial fight with nature due to some rough childhood events that would 100% come up. So people like me choose not to take it. But I respect those who do and like to learn through them. Thanks for teaching.
well what would you consider a loss? just wondering because it will not kill you. You have control of your mind, not the other way around. And thats what people learn after this.
Same here.
@@michaeledwards6890have control of your mind on lsd? Hmmm not my experience
It only brings up painful memories to help you heal and grow
@@michaeledwards6890it gave me a bad tinnitus after an od back in 2012. It's never stopped for a moment ever since. I'm not saying aya is bad (I still take it from time to time), but it can damage things. I kept trying bigger and bigger doses because I thought aya couldn't harm you. Well, it can.
i went to peru and worked with ayahuasca too. She is the best teacher, good job keep going man your awesome
Never stop doing what you do. Love from Germany
Incredible story, I understand your journey 🇯🇵
You described it perfectly, I would not add any more.
Still here. Thanks for this, man.
Im still listening, thank you for sharing : ) it was great. I cant wait to try it myself
Yesterday came across your videos as I'm a Kurt Caz fan.....Your videos made me laugh and you are so fun...so watched many of your videos last night!!!! The ones in Columbia; And OMG India!!!!! and Vietnam.....You do a FANTASTIC podcast! Awesome vids....thanks guy!
i stopped watching kurt after he exposed and sexual abused the Venezuelan woman in dubai he is a ***** and i dont support that kind of people , so i have a new youtuber here to watch vids
Thanks for sharing! 🙏
Amazing, Thank you for sharing
Blessed Atlanta!! I've been there for two years. Such a good nature, every single day sun!!
haha that was good, listened through to the end. Found you via your newest videos. I'm fascinated with people's intimate experiences and openness. It's sort of a privilege to be afforded a window into your soul as it were. What I got from the video 1) Corporate jobs serving higher ups aren't for the shakers and doers 2) Ayahuasca is medicine 3) VPN's are great for location spoofing................ AND finally, doing that which is difficult and meaningful, is always better than doing that which is comfortable, familiar and predictable. P.S appreciate any emotional quality that comes your way............... Loved that than you sir
Thanks sir***
Your honesty is fantastic I got your point you have to go through the pain i lost my dad and sister this year and pain is still there but I know that I will come through
Nice pfp
Your cheese is spot on!!! I've been recently watching your videos and I happened to watch this one just when i flew half way across the world to see my dying mother. What you say is very insightful. I've written two novels about what you are saying....mostly to help myself through the struggle...just starting the third book of my series. I am amazed at the timing of this....I don't know what to say, I woke up at 2:30 am because of jetlag and opened my laptp to the last part of your video ...I really didn't see the first 30 minutes because i was falling asleep with it...sorry for rambling, can't even see in the dark and without my glassess as I write....so I catch the last part of your video and it so resonates...I just saw my mother on her death bed...I don't know, thank you. It's not mere coincidence.
Great video!!
Thank you bro!
Great words!
This some deep shit bro. Love it. Thankyou for sharing your experience.
Thank you very much :( really great video. Youre the first youtuber i actually really like to watch and follow :D
Hey great story, great channel dude
Thank you for this podcast, didn't skip a second. I am suffering since i am 10 or so (am 36 right now), doing therapy for 7 years now and grasping for every straw to face my fears, loneliness and pain. Because i want to get better, because i feel like i'm swimming in the water like a buoy. but i want more with my life. i want to feel happiness and understand everything there is to understand. but i somehow feel like i am not just getting there. there is progress i guess but naturally in life, you lose people you love and i have trouble handling it like everyone else. somehow listening to this podcast made me very emotional and wanting to communicate with people, i think i am on the same wavelenght, so i am typing this down. i heard stories about ayahuasca but i live in germany and i have no fucking clue what so ever how to get to it, because i want to do ANYTHING to get better. and live life. i'm already 36. i feel like i'm stuck since forever. too scared to fly to south america and to the same. keep doing what you're doing, the more people like us heal and live, the better.
Nice man, you are working hard on something you like now
You are super interesting and I love your videos! I really hope you keep doing these
I'm definitely listening. You asked.
I often hear that from different spiritual teachers / Gurus that you have to get to know what bubbles up. This is part of the practice towards pure enlightment.
That was interesting, no doubt about it. No experience with Ayahuasca here, but have had quite a few trips with Psilocybin. With one of them being a tough one, I would rather call it a near death experience. You really appreciate life after. I feel you, Thanks for sharing
love this guy. absolute icon
Non of us can choose where and as who you conna born. But you can train yourself to cope with the situatsion. You do it like a master! Respect!
I needed this video soo bad!!! Been thinking about this for a while I have depression & I think it will help.
Stumbled on your channel through your India videos. You're so fun to watch bro. Love the sense of humor, you should consider stand-up.
thanks for sharing this, and yes I was watching when you wondered if anyone was still watching 😂
I want to hear what yhe second experience was like!!!
Your experience is familiar to me, have never done Ayahuasca but from other amazing molecules.
Would definitely love to hear more
Thank you for sharing. The medicine works.
I do PE shrooms with almost the same therapudic experience. The next day and for about two weeks to a month later after doing them, zero anxiety. The experience tricked my brain in to realizing not to worry about things you have no control over. There are no what if this happens or what if that person does this type of thoughs anymore. It takes me so far out of control, that when I come back, I'm very happy to be hear and it's crystal clear that worrying about things out of your control is useless. I also think it helps big time if you are happy and comfortable before consuming, I've had it go both ways.
Do them regularly though and they’ll mangle your brain and thought process
Amazing !
Sounds like ego death thanks for sharing man love the vids they are inspiring
Ty for your honesty very interesting, I've been thinking of doing some psychedelic therapy in uk but none of what you ingested but think I'd consider it...I took shit loads of acid during the 80,s but not thersputively.keep it up Connor, top man😊
20:43 I been there too brother. Regardless of the beautiful times I had I’m never doing no types of psychedelics again
Great podcast thank you. I have never been so deep, but I have done enough psilocybin that my vision was entirely rainbow fractals as I was walking through a state park and that was enough for me to gain so much... respect for the fact that we have zero idea what life is or who we really are? If that makes sense. It puts life in perspective, which is one of the hardest things for humans to do. Extremely valuable. Thanks again.
Great video, thanks.
your presence here has "set me free" as mental as that sounds, you remind me of ME in the 70s as a teen to adult and 80s and I truly think you BELONG in the 70s, you just fit RIGHT IN to the coolest decade EVER but you've captured my whole depressed being stuck in the moment of 2023 and flown me back to a time when I too was free as a bird where optimistic nomadic awesomeness was a fact of existence and as naff as it sounds I feel so freaking liberated and could listen to you all day, such an uplifting freaking tonic, this is how we all used to be back in the 70s travelling the world live let live, age 16 needed to get away from my father's fists, mum wouldn't take me back in London so i joined the royal navy UK in electronics PURELY to escape the abuse and in the 70s the navy was a 5 year long party around the world twice, NEVER regretted it but when I came out age 21 I was YOU Conner and armed with a fistful of dollars and my outgoing positivity i lived life to the full and had your outgoing personality but about 23 years ago it kinda fell out my heart and soul somewhere down the track but I've freaking found it again and it feels absolutely brilliant. Okay so I'm 69 now with renal crap and oxycodone pain killers for post kidney cancer crap but i feel lucky and you've liberated me, as mental as that sounds. I have PTSD but the GP also says I'm a "high energy person" rah rah but yeah, I'm still here and positivity is infectious, I've found that in the 70s, 80's and part 90s, people who live let live and are positive and outgoing are like freaking pied pipers cos happiness, true happiness is infectious and I attracted all sorts of souls like magnets but i got overloaded with the broken souls and kinda got broken myself but watching this channel for a couple of days has been a true tonic, never mind Prozac, being set free naturally is a feeling you just can't describe properly. Peace Conner 🙏🕊️
Thank you for sharing your feedback about Conner's great videos. He has truly inspired my husband and me as well. We agree, Conner could be a time traveler from the 1970's-a truly cool dude he is. A real storyteller too. Your testimony StephSancia also has inspired us. Let the light and love that is in your heart shine forth and keep on truckin' . All is well and so it is. Check out the Beatle's new song "Now and Then". 🙂
Respect to you for for giving it a try. I did DMT a couple times in college. If you do it right it’s basically a drug induced, simulated NDE. Definitely a bit terrifying when you’re in and out of consciousness, flying around the ether, viewing your entire life in the span of 15 min, but after it’s over you feel like a million bucks. Happy to be alive. Rarely in life do you experience that kind of euphoria
Ayahuasca is the more powerful natural form of the same compound. I would love to try it at some point. There’s a church nearby me that does retreats but the website says they’re currently on pause 😢
Thank you for this interesting feedback.
I had a similar experience with weed. It was almost my first time and I smoked a lot. I couldn't move and my eyes were closed. My brain was in turmoil, searching for a reason for existence. Every time I thought I'd reached a point, a voice told me it wasn't enough and I had to keep going. It was a real torture that made me tend towards the notion of infinity.
Like Mother Nature with you, this voice told me to keep thinking further into notions I could never have conceived with normal thought.
Cannabis can b a powerful teacher but it cannot be compared with NN DMT orally, Ayahuasca, or smoked/c
Vaporized DMT. It's not even remotely comparable. Words don't do anything but skew and bend the reality of the DMT space into something that we as people feel we can understand. It's not even on the same planet as far as comparison.
you have told us a very emotional story
You had a spiritual experience, even if it was drug induced. We are able to go deeper realms and be shown the truth. I have seen the heavens and the hells and it is all real ! What you're saying is the truth. We need to embrace and feel our darkest, deepest fears, sadness, grief, and that's how we grow and develop.
Love your videos man. You remind me of myself 25 years ago.
Love from Australia.
I haven't laughed so much in a long time I used to take a lot of mushrooms and I seen a lot of friends lose it but I haven't tried something that strong and your recalling of it is brilliant and your right it's medicine I used to feel a lot better after mushrooms
One life...live it bro Respect ❤💯👍👍👍👍💥💥💥
Young Wisdom!!!😎😎😎
awesome!
I commend you for taking the Ayahuasca, you are a braver man than I. I've had similar experiences to yours but with LSD. I've really tripped some balls on LSD so I know where from which you come. Good Luck in your Life!
Good stuff America
As someone who is working in corporate America, living the safe life, I find you rather fascinating. I think deep in my soul, somewhere buried long ago, you exist there. It's the child in me that learned at a very young age that you needed to go to school, you needed to get a good job, you needed to save money... so desperately that child just wanted to explore. I used to take my bike and ride for miles just simply excited to see what was around the next turn. I was probably around 10 years old when that stopped, because school started getting very serious.
Anyways I'm sure that sounds like I'm completely envious of your life and your choices, and that simply isn't the case. The truth is I wish we could have it both ways. I enjoy the safety and security that I have built, I enjoy the stable life I've created, but I also do recognize how repressed my sense of exploration and wonder is. It HAD to be repressed, or I could never have sat in a chair and studied for all those years, or climbed the corporate ladder like I have.
Just got travel! I hear you say. Well, it's not that simple. After so many years of living the safe life, I've become rather risk averse. I won't get too into details but suffice it to say, that the anxiety about getting hurt, or getting sick, or even the discomfort of squalid conditions sometimes found in other countries, leaves me unable to enjoy those experiences quite like you do. More power to you, I say. As for me, I'll need to figure something out to try and find some balance in life.
So interesting.
Video from 2021, but the comments are all recent. It just shows how your channel has grown.
I can't support you financially because I'm poor and from a poor country, but I will watch the ads to help you. Hugs from Brazil.
I always do it on an old matrass on the floor. The reason is sometimes I can't get up to pee in a pot so I pee on the matrass. I've sometimes puked on it, too.
please do podcasts on the road and smoke and drink in it. just bring your awesome vibe and whatever guests you want on. could be locals in foreign countries or other travel bros and friends/family. whatever you’re comfortable with. also some episodes of just you talking and going over the craziest stories if your travels in more detail than some of your videos because i know it can be hard to want to ramble about everything in a vlog. maybe you could also turn this into a series of videos as well as live streams. i have a lot of ideas actually but would find it would be better to brainstorm another way. do you happen to have a community discord?
What a story! Haha yes that was probably hard to explain. At least you got Both sides. Probably has a huge sense of overcoming that
Yup I felt amazing and still feel better than before even 7 months later!