Talking with Kaceytron | Dr. K Interviews

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    Please go check Kaceytron out and thank her for coming on! / kaceytron
    00:00 Introduction/Situation
    24:00 Grateful no matter what
    46:10 Coping, Trauma, Anxiety?
    1:02:14 Selfish for having needs
    1:49:00 Meditation
    2:07:20 Outro
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Komentáře • 540

  • @ljubomirjuraj9658
    @ljubomirjuraj9658 Před 4 lety +790

    Never would have suspected that Kacey had such a hard life, what a trooper. The girl has balls of steal and my respect.

    • @nasigoring1525
      @nasigoring1525 Před 4 lety +30

      Yea, i remember her saying something about how she had to stop going to conventions with her brother because they'd be walking around and people would be yelling abuse at her, so it was really hard on her bro. Gets treated pretty poorly.

    • @kuzoyaro3912
      @kuzoyaro3912 Před 4 lety +24

      dude shes fucking stong as hell. i never would havee fucing guessed

    • @ChairmanMeow1
      @ChairmanMeow1 Před 4 lety +28

      example 5000 of someone having so much going on that people dont know about :\
      we gotta be nicer to each other.

    • @jim123bcbhd9
      @jim123bcbhd9 Před 4 lety +4

      @@ChairmanMeow1 agreed, I love the positive energy we are giving in this comment section

    • @ChairmanMeow1
      @ChairmanMeow1 Před 4 lety +3

      @@jim123bcbhd9 hopefully it's the start of a sea change in this community for the better 🙏

  • @pepperpool
    @pepperpool Před 4 lety +583

    Kaceytron really played life on super insane hard mode.

    • @gijane2cantwaittoseeyou203
      @gijane2cantwaittoseeyou203 Před 3 lety +11

      How do you call life for those people born in the midle of civil war or within Isis? She has it easier than many

    • @LetGoNoControl
      @LetGoNoControl Před 3 lety +77

      @@gijane2cantwaittoseeyou203 totally agree but also has it harder than many

    • @addisonpilliard4668
      @addisonpilliard4668 Před 3 lety +142

      @@gijane2cantwaittoseeyou203 what a bad take

    • @CrazyLikeChris
      @CrazyLikeChris Před 3 lety +66

      @@gijane2cantwaittoseeyou203 if you are happy, well you shouldn't be because there are happier people out there.
      😑

    • @zzephyr6391
      @zzephyr6391 Před 3 lety +42

      @@gijane2cantwaittoseeyou203 It's all relative, you can't tell someone in a mental situation that they just simply "have it good compare to X" Think broader

  • @leningaibor9555
    @leningaibor9555 Před 4 lety +83

    "What is like listening to me talk?" Is such a diplomatic way of gauging whether her inner dialogue was too loud for her to hear what he was saying. He gets where shes at and lets her get everything on her mind out, very intelligent and thoughtful guy.

  • @spaghettigal
    @spaghettigal Před 3 lety +76

    Breaks my heart that kacey thought people would think lesser of her after this when in reality I've gained a huge amount of respect for her

  • @Nazrega
    @Nazrega Před 4 lety +67

    I always thought Kacey was a legend, but holy shit. I can't believe what she's accomplished in the face of everything that she went through. What a fucking god.

  • @chc2650
    @chc2650 Před 3 lety +306

    Never understood why there was so much hate for this girl, shes very cool actually

    • @skechyassmofo
      @skechyassmofo Před 3 lety +47

      The hate is for the Character. Kaceytron is a troll to show up narrow minded misogyny and similar stuff in gaming and streaming, and as long as there are guys out there that either are narrow minded or can't recognize a joke or satire, characters (Kaceytron isn't 100% the same as Kacey which some forget) like this will always be needed to show how ridiculous people can be, even when its thrown back in their face.
      And those people often hate looking at themselves and lash out and go to dumb lengths, spending hours watching her content and even paying her bills by subbing her just to essentially reeeeeee at her. Forgetting she is more than capable at defending herself and putting their flawed opinions on display

    • @olehaugan9555
      @olehaugan9555 Před 2 lety +11

      I remember thinking she handled trolls and haters in a way that made it worse for her

    • @_Nekonaut
      @_Nekonaut Před 2 lety +1

      also the destiny/ bob thing. so that community

  • @VeryBadPlayerTV
    @VeryBadPlayerTV Před 3 lety +123

    man seeing kaceytron back in the day was like why won't this troll go away? but seeing her like this it just changes everything man like wow.... that whole time back then when she was trolling in league and blowing up it was almost like the world was giving her an opportunity to deal with all this shit.

  • @eevvaann11
    @eevvaann11 Před 4 lety +301

    Its really nice to see Kacey getting her emotions out. Crying should never be looked down upon. Its perfectly normal to cry and anyone that says otherwise has the emotional range of a potato chip.

    • @brodymercer8166
      @brodymercer8166 Před 4 lety +7

      Ur trying to tell people to accept more emotional ranges but at the same time dissing certain emotional ranges and shaming them in the same sentence. Kinda hypocritical my guy.

    • @MysticleMonster
      @MysticleMonster Před 4 lety +9

      @@brodymercer8166 No, he says that everyone that says that it is not normal is wrong. Doesn't mean that you have to be someone that cries..

    • @brodymercer8166
      @brodymercer8166 Před 4 lety

      "crying shouldn't be looked down upon, but also not crying means U have no emotional range"

    • @bryannguyen5633
      @bryannguyen5633 Před 4 lety +24

      @@brodymercer8166 no you got it wrong man. it's okay if you don't cry either, but to make fun of crying is wrong and ignorant

  • @AverageTypicalMale
    @AverageTypicalMale Před 4 lety +761

    I really like how Dr. K has a wide range of people on the stream. Theres always something you can learn from a different perspective. Rip Reckful, i learned a lot from him.

    • @sanders.3376
      @sanders.3376 Před 4 lety +7

      I agree

    • @eltyo340
      @eltyo340 Před 4 lety +20

      For anybody who doesn't know, Reckful took his own life a day ago :'(

    • @Proger-sj8cj
      @Proger-sj8cj Před 4 lety +10

      Eltyo
      *First it was Etika and now Reckful , like come on Reckful was so innocent*

    • @bbeckford90
      @bbeckford90 Před 4 lety +4

      @@eltyo340 wait, WHAT!??

    • @sanders.3376
      @sanders.3376 Před 4 lety +1

      Love you Doc

  • @PinemartenMusic
    @PinemartenMusic Před 4 lety +930

    Weird seeing Kaceytron so vulnerable like this.

    • @flipnshifty
      @flipnshifty Před 4 lety +18

      being a streamer is very vulnerable. but i see what you mean.

    • @fenneltron9483
      @fenneltron9483 Před 4 lety +138

      It's disturbing when you think about all the abusive shit she's put up with over the years as part of her streaming persona. I always thought it was amazing she was able to just ignore all that or be combative in a comedic way to bait out more "insult" donations. Now I think it was actually affecting her the entire time and she endured it because she had to. What the fuck are we doing to each other?

    • @alaskanstrat6618
      @alaskanstrat6618 Před 4 lety +7

      It's like she almost has a soul ... almost .

    • @redjakOfficial
      @redjakOfficial Před 4 lety +27

      Yeah. And how come the funniest people are always those who seem to suffer the most ?

    • @manny3059
      @manny3059 Před 4 lety +4

      fr this was kinda hard to watch

  • @shaperka
    @shaperka Před 4 lety +187

    I watched this live and I just want to say, thank you to Kacey for letting other people of similar background listen to your story and feel more 'normal' and also to Dr K and his crew for all the hard work they've put into HealthyGamerGG

  • @gregwilson5765
    @gregwilson5765 Před 4 lety +228

    imagine if people took all the hate they gave kacey for being a "boobie streamer' and sent that towards the guy who beat and stabbed her mom and ruined her family.

  • @benjaminvdvyt
    @benjaminvdvyt Před 4 lety +33

    Was quite beautiful to see this. Back when I was a lot on Twitch, I watched her a bunch of times. I always knew she was hiding a lot of pain, but seeing the amount of it, and her being so open about it now, that's true beauty.

  • @helliant2369
    @helliant2369 Před 4 lety +116

    WOW. 14 minutes in and I feel horrible. I remember a point where everywhere I looked people hated on Kaceytron, RUTHLESSLY. Nothing but shit-talk and terrible insults. It's quite unbelievable to hear what was truely going on in her life. My stomach was twisted listening to that story, I can't begin to imagine going through something that horrible. Bravo for making it through. Dr. K, you make such a huge difference to many people in their lives and thoughts. I thank you sir.

    • @JoeyTen
      @JoeyTen Před 4 lety +13

      I don't know who Kaceytron is (I'm on the edge of transitioning into a boomer), but I think this is a good observation.
      Life has taught me that a lot of people who are easy to hate, usually have legit reasons for being so hatable. Some people's lives are tougher than we can imagine.

    • @helliant2369
      @helliant2369 Před 4 lety +5

      I agree, and I think it's an important lesson for anyone online, where hatred is easily and constantly applied to others. As a people, we need to be more thoughtful and less judgemental.

    • @wowandrss
      @wowandrss Před 4 lety +2

      I feel like it would be fair to say that she really did bring it down on herself, it was her twitch persona she acted out that got all the hate. Something she was in control over and did willingly. But besides that, yeah. No one deserves that.

    • @JoeyTen
      @JoeyTen Před 4 lety +2

      @@wowandrss sure, but some for some people, being toxic is all they know.
      I grew up in poverty, but fortunately, my parents were pretty decent people.
      Some people aren't so fortunate. Some people, despite living in a first-world country, live in sort of a third-world lifestyle. It's hard for most Americans to imagine, but it's surprisingly true. Some peoples' upbringings are so barbaric, it makes them savage af

    • @anaxmalakas
      @anaxmalakas Před 4 lety +3

      @@JoeyTen interesting, it sounds like you are saying that people that are hated on deserve to be hated? I think it's the other way around... usually the people that are being hateful are projecting their own hate for themselves on to other people.

  • @jamends1220
    @jamends1220 Před 4 lety +443

    Strange seeing her out of character. She seems like a sweet girl.

    • @jimmyolsenblues
      @jimmyolsenblues Před 4 lety +5

      i have never watched her stream, what is her character like.

    • @neetfreek9921
      @neetfreek9921 Před 4 lety +102

      jimmyolsenblues She acts super sarcastic, witty, and passive aggressive, but it’s in like a meme non toxic way. I find it funny but she gets a lot of hate on the internet. Probably better to just watch some clips lol.

    • @Matt-br4td
      @Matt-br4td Před 4 lety +10

      She plays more of a character on stream, it's dialed back a big from the good old days but she's still somewhat in character.

    • @bramt2000
      @bramt2000 Před 4 lety +3

      I love it when she is talking to Sodapoppin those two make a great duo.

    • @DuBstep115
      @DuBstep115 Před 4 lety +2

      @@neetfreek9921 Isn't she the same girl who said "the world would be a better place without old and poor people" ?

  • @sagefloop
    @sagefloop Před 4 lety +280

    This interview was so helpful for me

    • @paulweddingbox7148
      @paulweddingbox7148 Před 4 lety +1

      sage boop

    • @solidtank7957
      @solidtank7957 Před 4 lety +25

      As someone who previous to this interview only thought of Kacey as a talented troll, this was eye opening.

    • @leonox7313
      @leonox7313 Před 4 lety +2

      ohwh bless you dude

    • @sagefloop
      @sagefloop Před 4 lety +27

      @Jeff B I related on the levels of always telling myself what I went through wasn't that bad, because other people had it worse, but I experienced trauma and I've never been able to actually come to terms with being angry at my parents so I've never been able to forgive them. Also the ideas of trauma being the cause of some of the anxiety/depression, maybe I do have those things but until I actually process and heal from the trauma I'll never know. Also the since of not wanting to get help unless it was perfect, because I wasnt good enough to just try something for for. And finally the meditation, I always watch these afterwards but I caught this one live and I was answering the questions as he asked Kacey and the ability to recognize thoughts as thoughts and separate them from me now is a lot. Basically before I was just in the dark, now I think I'm in a tunnel and I'm pretty sure what I've been seeing recently is the light at the end. I'm almost free. I'm almost me.

    • @SuperLotus
      @SuperLotus Před 4 lety +4

      @@sagefloop Yeah. I'm kind of the same regarding my parents, but I still live with them due to disability so I can't really forgive them since they're still causing me issues.

  • @MVPUnlucky
    @MVPUnlucky Před 4 lety +292

    I always wondered why Kacey smoked as much as she did. Now I see why. She's the pot smoker equivalent of an alcoholic who's been through a lot of shit and is trying to drink the pain away. I honestly think this is the best channel on Twitch just for the fact it has shown that every major streamer on this platform has mental demons they deal with all the time, and some times the best way to handle it is letting it all out. I hope things get better for Kacey.

    • @AXharoth
      @AXharoth Před 4 lety +5

      except that weed doesnt destroyy your health like drinking

    • @adamanti
      @adamanti Před 4 lety +31

      @@AXharoth you sure about that ? Its not the same substance so for sure it does not in the same way as drinking. Still has lot of negative effects on your body and brain.

    • @MVPUnlucky
      @MVPUnlucky Před 4 lety +12

      GongsunXin it can just not in the same way. Where alcohol destroys your liver slowly over time pot does damage to your lungs and brain. While pot doesn’t has as drastic an effect on the lungs compared to your average tobacco death stick or your pneumonia causing juul it does have a pretty drastic long term effect on the synapses of your nervous system. Pot essentially does damage to them when smoked. This is how you get the hallucinogenic effects of smoking pot. Over time the temporary effects become permanent with constant use and it’s shown to cause early onset dementia and Alzheimers. While it’s no lung cancer or liver failure I think getting dementia when you get old is it’s own fresh hell in of itself.

    • @KanecoV
      @KanecoV Před 4 lety +9

      @@AXharoth Weed is equally as bad if abused. I had my first panic attack because of weed, after that I was never the same, I started having constant anxiety and panic attacks where I would end up in the ER thinking I was gonna die. Several studies have linked marijuana use to increased risk for psychiatric disorders, research also suggests that smoking high-potency marijuana every day could increase the chances of developing psychosis by nearly five times compared to people who have never used marijuana. So no, weed is not a be all and end all of drugs, personally it's probably the drug that had the most negative effect on me and that completely got me addicted, I never felt it with any other substances, and trust me, I've had my fair share of drug experiences.

    • @sativadva
      @sativadva Před 4 lety +15

      @@AXharoth I've smoked for years and it absolutely does have negative health effects. It recalibrates your brain chemistry, so being high is the new normal. Your sleep, your appetite, your mood, your energy levels, and especially your memory, focus, learning etc it's all seriously impacted if you smoke daily. Drinking is much worse for sure because it's actually poisonous and can lead to death, but with marijuana your body treats it sort of like it's a waste. On top of the lung damage, your body's gotta overproduce mucous to clear your lungs and airway from all the smoking, and your brain will become foggy over time from all the psychoactive chemicals (at least on my experience).
      Yeeeeah.. Pot to me will always feel like an abusive ex ill never be able to get over.

  • @tylerstronk
    @tylerstronk Před 4 lety +204

    I always saw kaceytron as a strong woman but seeing her upset was really tough to watch. But I'm glad she's able to get more support and alongside getting help she's helping others as well.

    • @jlann8243
      @jlann8243 Před 4 lety +28

      She is a strong woman still... i know what you meant just saying .

    • @mikec2845
      @mikec2845 Před 4 lety +5

      Yeah, I think I know what you mean, but this is some pretty tough shit to talk about if anything.

    • @LLSniper
      @LLSniper Před 4 lety +10

      Kaceytron is a strong woman. Especially for putting herself out there like this

    • @mrloboto
      @mrloboto Před 4 lety +8

      It's definitely weird how we view strong people as immune or extra resilient to pain. Like seeing them be vulnerable is hard for us because we see them as so different. Strong people are fighting to be that way but they're just as vulnerable as anyone.

    • @hockeyfan145
      @hockeyfan145 Před 4 lety

      "Strong woman" LUL

  • @thegrimyeaper
    @thegrimyeaper Před 4 lety +81

    Always thought Kaceytron was badass for taking care of her family, but man. Respect.

    • @Wisdawms
      @Wisdawms Před 4 lety +11

      I always thought kacey was the releast girl out there, people are just too shallow and dumb to realize it.

    • @bramt2000
      @bramt2000 Před 4 lety

      @@Wisdawms I would love it when she and Soda would stream together. They make a good duo with them both being "real".

  • @ProZenGamers
    @ProZenGamers Před 4 lety +87

    There is so much more behind the face we usually see. I really love how these interviews go so much deeper and show so much emotions

  • @mynxlunartrix
    @mynxlunartrix Před 3 lety +50

    the ones with the best humour are often times the ones who suffers the most. she's my favourite e-girl reject ♡ i truly adore and admire her strength. thank you kacey for opening up, thank you for your amazing sense of humour which would instantly light up my day and finally thank you for being here with us. lots of love to you kacey!

  • @liviyyuh
    @liviyyuh Před 3 lety +12

    she is a big inspiration. i have so much respect for her and i admire her strength so much.

  • @Vayhef
    @Vayhef Před 4 lety +92

    Watched this live.
    This'll be a good occasion for some people to realize making assumptions without knowning the person beforehand is ultimately a flaw in their own behavior.

  • @lovelysonico
    @lovelysonico Před 3 lety +20

    i love kacey sm, i want to give her a hug so bad :(

  • @FroggyJumps747
    @FroggyJumps747 Před 3 lety +14

    note to self:
    1:22:10 Changing your brain does not require intention. It requires attention.

  • @daniel-oc6pp
    @daniel-oc6pp Před 4 lety +41

    This week has been a lot for Dr K.

  • @SimManiac383
    @SimManiac383 Před 4 lety +21

    This was one of the heaviest ones yet. Kacey is strong, always loved her

  • @double-Flex8002
    @double-Flex8002 Před 4 lety +20

    I saw my mom and my sister being beat as a young child and the trauma of not being able to do anything to stop it from happening lives with you for the rest of your life. I understand the pain she is expressing 100%. It's not really something you get over. You blame yourself and you feel personally responsible for the way things and you find ways to distract yourself from the childhood trauma but it still remains no matter what and it's just there and it lives with you. The feelings of doing her best and taking personal responsibility over the family while having severe PTSD & struggling with poverty... it's so hard.

  • @m0dern
    @m0dern Před 4 lety +34

    she's so strong :(

  • @TheFlameHG
    @TheFlameHG Před 4 lety +4

    This story really resonates with me. Thank you Kacey for sharing it, I know it's hard to do

  • @lovingmydior
    @lovingmydior Před 4 lety +3

    Great video! I always loved kacey. I never knew what she went thru. Bless her.

  • @ForceRapid
    @ForceRapid Před 4 lety +25

    even if youre a cryer, its ok to cry, trust me. just reach out to someone

    • @davianserrano5233
      @davianserrano5233 Před 3 lety

      This helped me a lot I feel like I can relate a lot to her

  • @way2muchNFO
    @way2muchNFO Před 4 lety +30

    im 51 a gamer and going through hard shit mentally /phyiscally.. thank you i learned about you yesterday through the death of Rektful, I had never folowed any streamers either but im crying and cant stop thank you for your very unique stream painfuly good

  • @oofx2698
    @oofx2698 Před 3 lety +9

    Shoutout to Kacey for coming on and being so vulnerable

  • @metalgamerjonny6410
    @metalgamerjonny6410 Před 4 lety +74

    God....i want to give this girl the biggest most wholesome hug i can ever give her...

  • @SimplyChloe_
    @SimplyChloe_ Před 4 lety +120

    "what worries me is when people are given a great hand in life and they end up in a bad place"
    😬 uh oh

  • @ReFleash
    @ReFleash Před 3 lety

    Wow. I can relate to her so much, i am so sorry that you have gone through this.
    You did went through it worse than i did, but i can definitly relate to all of those feelings that you are describing.
    Thank you for telling your story, i dont feel completely alone with theese feelings i have anymore.
    This helped me alot, thank you Dr. K and Kaceytron!

  • @ArcticWolfOfficial
    @ArcticWolfOfficial Před 4 lety +51

    Damn, I remember clowning in her chat when i was a kid yearrrrrs ago back when she played League. I feel bad :(

    • @oake5869
      @oake5869 Před 4 lety +8

      Well I mean, her entire character built on baiting kids into believing she was being serious
      soooooooooooooo

    • @MisterKabukiMask
      @MisterKabukiMask Před 3 lety +9

      Fuck, I think I remember doing the same shit in early high school...I feel like I should take away from this that you never really know what someone is going through, and you should treat them accordingly

  • @drewstaples9648
    @drewstaples9648 Před 3 lety +1

    I dont always really catch her on stream but she always is super cool and seems really freaking sweet and I hope Dr. K doing what he is doing and brining this to Twitch shows more people its ok to get help and/or go talk to people. Speaking from experience it helps tremendously to get ANYTHING "off your chest"

  • @Karltonx
    @Karltonx Před 3 lety +1

    Omg I was totally seeing what he was saying w/the meditation and I felt like she was not grasping it, I hope she sticks with it bc it was a comforting realization to see that there is nothing inherently wrong with you

  • @Andre-mg9pn
    @Andre-mg9pn Před 3 lety +2

    I just recently found this guy, and I must say I'm really, really impressed of what he is doing for this community. There's an unbelievable amount of people out there within the gamer community who turns to their games to process shit. I think this shows a lot of people a different way to handle hard issues.

    • @jonaskoelker
      @jonaskoelker Před rokem +1

      > turns to their games to process shit
      I think a lot of people play games because it's the best way they have of dealing with their negative emotions, but the nature of the dealing is not exactly processing: Dr. K has said in some other videos that games tend to suppress feelings, in particular negative ones. Suppressing != Processing.

    • @VioletEmerald
      @VioletEmerald Před rokem

      Yeah it's not to process their shit. It's to escape from their shit.

    • @Andre-mg9pn
      @Andre-mg9pn Před rokem

      @@VioletEmerald Maybe, I think you'd be able to find both types of personalities in this group of people :) We are all more or less well adjusted, and have different means of handling hardships, many might stick their head into the sand, but not tries to escape it. Peace and love

  • @houserspeed
    @houserspeed Před 4 lety +5

    2:02:37 This is such a great way of explaining how to meditate! I'm totally going to steal this when I explain it to other people!

  • @ScardiMard
    @ScardiMard Před 4 lety +4

    thanks for being strong for us kacey, we love you

  • @Vugen18
    @Vugen18 Před 4 lety

    Kacey ur amazing and so strong and ur an idol for so many! Use ur experinces to help others, as u do when u stream!

  • @jzqnkhr
    @jzqnkhr Před 4 lety +164

    Until this I thought of kacey as a wash-up stoner. Now - I have nothing but respect for this woman

    • @barildan
      @barildan Před 4 lety +4

      Firstable - thats a lesson then people act weird, they probably have issues. Seconable - respect for what?! She speak up, its good but respect. U just want a likes speaking like this.

    • @Jax42955
      @Jax42955 Před 4 lety +111

      Jorody Ambre I had a stroke trying to read your comment

    • @alanraymundo
      @alanraymundo Před 4 lety +40

      This goes to show how you can't really judge someone from isolated evidence, we don't ever really know how hard they've had it in life. This is why I try to give the benefit of the doubt. Life is unfair.

    • @TheTheawesomeguy35
      @TheTheawesomeguy35 Před 4 lety +26

      thats what happens when you make assumptions about people you don't know

    • @broaz885
      @broaz885 Před 4 lety +50

      @@barildan How about respect for taking care of kid with cancer, taking care of her mom in an badly abusive relationship, holding herself together with the tough life she has, speaking on the internet about it with the risk of coming of as ''white trash'' because it might help someone and make a person feel less alone as she did... I'm probably forgetting some things, but there is enough to pick here.

  • @MA1S0
    @MA1S0 Před 2 lety +3

    big hugs to kacey i feel so bad for this girl in addition to how mean twitch chat has been to her in the past. love you kacey, you are an inspiration

  • @kuonumberone
    @kuonumberone Před 4 lety +9

    this interview helped me realize a lot of things about myself i didn't even consider existed. thank you so much

    • @RmX.
      @RmX. Před 4 lety +1

      This whole channel is like gold mine

  • @leoyoman
    @leoyoman Před 4 lety +9

    Kacey is a 40k Primarch stranded on a cut-off colony holding down the fort all her life.
    But now her Legion is getting close.

  • @AlonescapeRS
    @AlonescapeRS Před 4 lety

    Never watched much of kaceytron , of course knew who she was in broad terms, but damn she went through a lot, surprised even how she can manage to do anything in life while going through all of it. Becoming successful meanwhile all that going on, what an amazing accomplishment from an amazingly strong human.

  • @LawderOfficial
    @LawderOfficial Před 3 lety

    you are a blessing for the gaming community dr k. AMAZING work

  • @mendicant1981
    @mendicant1981 Před 4 lety +24

    As a father of two this is a horrific watch. Always knew she used a persona but had no idea what was going on her real life which just makes her all the more incredible and strong. I hope the trolls that watch/watched her stream and see this, will perhaps reflect and even offer her an apology

    • @lovelysonico
      @lovelysonico Před 3 lety +5

      i’m really happy to see that some trolls did apologize, it looks like they’ve matured but they realized a little too late

    • @skechyassmofo
      @skechyassmofo Před 3 lety +3

      I wouldn't be surprised if her character of being a troll was actually a form of catharsis. Get out anger in some way.

    • @beastmasterbg
      @beastmasterbg Před 3 lety +1

      @@skechyassmofo for sure it was a release from stress

  • @VioletEmerald
    @VioletEmerald Před rokem +2

    Kacey, I relate so freaking much despite the details of my life story being SO different. What she's first describing is a deep disenfranchised grief over the horrible death of a child who wasn't her own son, so the supports aren't there for people beyond the parents in our society, even if you were traumatized by his death and loved him and held his hand when he died. Disenfranchised grief is an important term, look it up. There are so many difficult ways that disenfranchised grief can show up for people, I've had a few examples in my life - I witnessed my favorite uncle's suicide, I wasn't treated the way a child is when a parent dies when my grandmother who helped raise me as a 3rd parent died, and then my close friend and colleague perpetrated a murder-suicide, he murdered his wife, and I'd never met his wife but I cared deeply for, even loved platonically, my friend, and grieving a murderer is very disenfranchised.
    You then discuss the horrific situation of being powerless to save your mother from substance abuse and addiction, combined with not being able to save her from extremely ongoing domestic violence and physical abuse. My story instead involved growing up being quite horrifically psychologically abused directly by my mother, and feeling quite powerless to escape my mother's abuse because it was so mostly psychological. She wasn't doing enough "Wrong" in the eyes of the law or whatever, it's hard to explain but there was so much torture and pain for so many years on end, truly. And it's hard not to blame adults around me for not doing more to save me when they KNEW, when they witnessed it, my dad was a victim of her abuse too, and she did end up getting physically violent at the end. My younger brother who I cared deeply about also had a serious alcohol addiction problem and I missed big warning signs and he almost ended up in a deadly DUI situation before he ended up getting sober.
    People look at my history of traumas, all happening throughout my childhood into my twenties, and think I've lived a very rough life compared to the average person, and maybe I have. Maybe most people don't have to go through quite so many or quite so extreme of traumas. But people like Kacey are more common than a lot of people think, and people like me are too. A lot of people have been through a lot of shit but you wouldn't know it unless you got to know us quite well.

  • @kristofkovacsRisy
    @kristofkovacsRisy Před 3 lety +4

    Sad story, I can also relate to some of these.
    Some really good advices were said here.
    My father has alcohol problems. I do blame him and want him to stop, but telling him to stop doesn't fix the problem. I can't even fix his problem anyway, but support him.

  • @askingANGELS
    @askingANGELS Před 3 lety +4

    I just wanna give you a hug, Kacey. Good interview, Dr. K. (:

  • @YouTakeNoCandle
    @YouTakeNoCandle Před 3 lety

    We all encase ourselves in a huge barrier. Good to know that there are people like Dr.K that can help people sort out their feelings :)

  • @piloco4232
    @piloco4232 Před 4 lety +2

    Been watching Kaceytron clips a lot these last few days so this is perfect

  • @oyster_wow5357
    @oyster_wow5357 Před 4 lety

    thx dr k. I’m healing. I hope you and we as a community can heal too

  • @Duffpunk
    @Duffpunk Před 4 lety +15

    I felt so sorry for Kaceytron, when I saw how much hate she hade to handle from the community. Now hearing all the private issues she had, makes it even worse. I wish Kacey all the best and all love of the world. Stay strong girl!

  • @TheKristis1
    @TheKristis1 Před 4 lety +5

    Love you 🥺

  • @emanymstahw
    @emanymstahw Před 4 lety +13

    Only 15 min in and i feel like giving her a hug 😢

  • @hollanderson
    @hollanderson Před 4 lety +50

    Buncha notes:
    2012 - 2016
    Boyfriends younger brother (a child) dies from cancer; she held his hand as he died.
    Mother started abusing meth at the same time.
    Stepfather started to abuse her mother while she was high really badly to the point of bruises and stitches and stabs. As well as attempted kidnapping.
    Grandfather dies.
    Stepfather also abuses his own autistic biological son verbally.
    Grandmother also died somewhere along here?
    Really cares about not looking like white trash.
    Feels like she had to take care of everyone, and take on the responsibility.
    Feels like she didn't have a horrible life because she thinks in comparison to the young kid who died from cancer, she wasn't suffering "as much".
    She has problem playing video games because she feels guilty enjoying a game that the kid would have enjoyed, that he is missing out on something he shouldn't have.
    She has been suppressing the emotional toll until recently, as in the past it wasn't appropriate to be an emotional wreck and now it's spiraling out of control.
    Feels very selfish, feels like she doesn't deserve things.
    Feels very emotional for other people, especially her own family.
    She required some parental guidance at times where she couldn't get any, and she's honestly just looking for someone to talk to, understand, and give some suggestions as to how she could proceed. She really needs to know where to start. (imagine a 3 year old never got taught language, and now at 25 the same kid wonders why they don't understand language)
    Believes "Her mother did the best that she could." while understanding that she didn't do a good job, and that she deserved to be taken care of better.
    Probably whole family (her, brother, and mother) have ptsd from the abuse.
    Mother also has paranoia.
    Comes from a low income family, which makes it very difficult to find proper mental health treatment.
    As a child, always felt like she was inconveniencing other people, bothering other people.
    Worried that she can't support her own family.
    Doubts her own emotions.
    She is used to a lot of things.
    Thinks she uses a lot of marijuana.
    Needs to learn how to put herself in her priority.

    • @1996Pinocchio
      @1996Pinocchio Před 4 lety +2

      That's pretty creepy

    • @hollanderson
      @hollanderson Před 4 lety +10

      @@1996Pinocchio guess I'm creepy then.

    • @27prosperity
      @27prosperity Před 4 lety +18

      Creepy for paying attention to someone's experience of life struggles?

    • @meltinini7920
      @meltinini7920 Před 3 lety +10

      As someone who's having a shitty internet connection right now, this helped. I'm being genuine here. All the more I'm looking forward for the video to buffer because I got more curious about what you listed in detail.

    • @1996Pinocchio
      @1996Pinocchio Před 3 lety +2

      @@hollanderson I'm sorry, I don't see what I found to be creepy.

  • @alexgear959
    @alexgear959 Před 4 lety +9

    This is honestly very hard to stomach. I've watched some shit & I'm usually unaffected but seeing Kacey in this state is hard. Damn.

  • @ellusivegman
    @ellusivegman Před 4 lety +93

    Why are there so many comments about Reckful? He's not in this video. Stop trying to wedge his suicide into every comments section. It's obvious you're just doing it for easy upvotes. I think it's pretty disrespectful to Kacy to try to force this deeply personal look into HER world to somehow relate back to someone else who isn't even mentioned here.
    It's disgusting.

  • @guytn5701
    @guytn5701 Před 4 lety +128

    Yesterday, I couldn't sleep because of the news. Chills went down my spine as I saw the news. He was my beacon of light. I felt related to him since I have chronic depression and seeing him getting better when he talked with Dr.K I decided to better my life.
    Byron, I hope with the bottom of my heart that you're in a better place now, unlike this cruel world. I promise you that I will become a better person even if it's like lifting a mountain just walking out of my bed everyday. I promise that I'll be the best at what I do just like you were the best at being rogue. I promise that I would treat my friends with love just like you did.
    We, the people that struggled but had you become our beacon, now have a duty to honor you. We have to survive for his sake.

    • @dillonv5345
      @dillonv5345 Před 4 lety +5

      no sleep gang. love out to you. bipolar here. gonna deep dive dr k today probably. i need to fucking figure my shit out. the odds are stacked against us. weiufiwejfiwef

    • @redlion3569
      @redlion3569 Před 4 lety +2

      I have been depressed for a while, Reckfuls death is dragging me into an even deeper hole. I hate this world

    • @zuraanika389
      @zuraanika389 Před 4 lety +8

      When a champion falls you pick up his weapon and continue fighting - Dr.K

    • @guytn5701
      @guytn5701 Před 4 lety +1

      @@redlion3569 I felt the same, It's like losing someone who you thought that cracked the code to get out of this hell hole in these past few months. Like Andy said, we of all people appreciate what happiness really is. So strive for it like he did. Instead of one champion to fight it for us and make us happy by his streams and positive vibes, It's our turn now. We can't let him down no matter how hard and heavy it is.

    • @xcalium9346
      @xcalium9346 Před 4 lety

      Wait what happened?

  • @acidpop97
    @acidpop97 Před 4 lety +45

    I got introduced to Dr K via Reckful. RIP Byron. He inspired me to try and follow in Dr K's footsteps and to help as many people as possible.

  • @sayuas4293
    @sayuas4293 Před 3 lety +8

    Wow its so refreshing to see her being real and not a character.

  • @coco65548
    @coco65548 Před 3 lety

    I liked this video, the meditation part at the end is timestamped for future use.

  • @garsto9718
    @garsto9718 Před 4 lety +6

    You're not alone, Kaceytron

  • @fortehbirds
    @fortehbirds Před 4 lety +1

    Kaceyyyy 🥺 You’re so strong dude 💜💜💜

  • @noahmatsuyama8592
    @noahmatsuyama8592 Před 4 lety +2

    Here's to help Dr.K in the algorithm...Cheers❤️

  • @xZigeRx
    @xZigeRx Před 4 lety +10

    I always knew kc was hiding from something, i mean watch her on the raj show, that dating twitch thing, but im not mocking or anything intentionally negative, ive gone through a lot of the same, but in different ways, but kc if you manage to c this, just know... youre an amazing human, seriously never give up, because the reaction you gave in moments where people would be selfish, you still gave, and that i believe holds tremendous volume, much love all

  • @Williljam
    @Williljam Před 4 lety +6

    It takes courage to come out and talk about stuff like this, especially with tens of thousands of people watching. It breaks my heart, but I'm also inspired by her strength.

  • @ivanahumpalot6364
    @ivanahumpalot6364 Před 4 lety +1

    our queen

  • @JC-zs9jo
    @JC-zs9jo Před 3 lety +4

    SHE’S SO STRONG
    WHAT A STRONG WOMAN

  • @cu7695
    @cu7695 Před 3 lety +26

    She should absolutely press charges on her stepfather. He shouldn't get away with this

    • @beastmasterbg
      @beastmasterbg Před 3 lety +23

      As a person who has been abused. What you just commented sounds good it's really not. She and her mother at this point are glad they have nothing to do with him. They are relieved. Going into further problems would be an emotional cunami for them to go against.

    • @user-pm7mt7ho9w
      @user-pm7mt7ho9w Před 3 lety +6

      @@beastmasterbg Yes, I agree. As someone who went through abuse as well, the idea of having to see him again, or even just knowing about his life, makes me shake already. It's much easier to pretend he and the things he did never happened. Obviously, I know I probably should face the past eventually, but I can live my life normally without many nightmares and panic attacks if I don't think about him too much and pretend he never existed.

  • @austint1151
    @austint1151 Před 4 lety +5

    Destiny: I hate kaceytron, she's always playing a character
    Destiny 10 minutes in: oh shit

  • @PascalGarneau
    @PascalGarneau Před 4 lety

    Don't know who that streamer was but again great work man!
    You own at your work!

  • @Felice_Enellen
    @Felice_Enellen Před 4 lety +3

    Dr. K's streams do _so_ much to humanize streamers for the rest of us. When streamers need to be "on" all the time, basically playing a persona as part of their job, as part of what puts food on their table, as something they generally _have_ to do to provide for themselves and their families, it keeps us from seeing them as multi-faceted human beings with really, _really_ complex lives that they have a hard time understanding and dealing with.

    • @Felice_Enellen
      @Felice_Enellen Před 4 lety +1

      Side note: While I think Dr. K is right about her major problem being trauma, I don't think he should discount that she may _also_ have Generalized Anxiety Disorder that may have pre-existed the trauma in a less oppressive way, but got horrendously exacerbated by it.

  • @joed9789
    @joed9789 Před 4 lety +2

    damn i relate to her in a lot of ways.

  • @slackstation
    @slackstation Před 4 lety +2

    I gotta say, Kaceytron was brave and wise to do this. It took me a decade later to come to the conclusion that I needed therapy enough to seek it out and spawn point wasn't nearly as bad to use Dr. K's analogy.

  • @morelove619
    @morelove619 Před 4 lety

    FUCK. Listening to this right now.. really hard. Hope she gets better❤️

  • @ammarraslan1479
    @ammarraslan1479 Před 3 lety +3

    when he said "high five!" I felt that

  • @kloudrebirth
    @kloudrebirth Před 4 lety +7

    Imagine if she has a good coop partner aka player 2 for support help, not once u heard of a best friend or anything

  • @ReddRewka
    @ReddRewka Před 4 lety +2

  • @meganjohnson9540
    @meganjohnson9540 Před 10 měsíci

    Thanks, kacey! 💕

  • @BattieGames
    @BattieGames Před 4 lety +1

    So much respect for kacey. Hard to believe that when given a hand this terrible she managed to overcome it. Whereas i was handed everything and ill probbaly end up more like her mother

  • @Yucko000
    @Yucko000 Před 4 lety +29

    Our queen is finally here

    • @spiritualviking8094
      @spiritualviking8094 Před 4 lety +2

      #simpalert

    • @UnordinaryCarl
      @UnordinaryCarl Před 4 lety +3

      SIMPING

    • @Proger-sj8cj
      @Proger-sj8cj Před 4 lety

      *My brain hurts from reading this comment and reading your profile name*

    • @CSTEnjoyer
      @CSTEnjoyer Před 4 lety +2

      4150 subscribers with coronavirus simping kaceytron is nothing to be ashamed of

    • @Yucko000
      @Yucko000 Před 4 lety +3

      @@spiritualviking8094 Did you really need to edit #simpalert? OMEGALUL

  • @piloco4232
    @piloco4232 Před 4 lety +1

    I cant express my respect for her holy shit

  • @Momfasa
    @Momfasa Před 4 lety +1

    Kaceytron

  • @ThunderSen
    @ThunderSen Před 5 měsíci

    She feels so much shame and terror, that she cannot even feel it, she dissociated a lot, but she is amazing.

  • @devoura7921
    @devoura7921 Před 4 lety +2

    Oh Kacey is so badass.

  • @truthtimetv4575
    @truthtimetv4575 Před 4 lety +4

    Wow I remember watching her as a joke in like 2014ish when she was full on meme stream. Even that as it may I saw her so strong and shit this is a side I’m actually amazing and refreshed to see

  • @matheusminto
    @matheusminto Před 4 lety +5

    I never would thought that she passed through out all this stuff and thinks her life is good compared to other people

  • @deecupine
    @deecupine Před 4 lety +14

    Kaceytron is an icon.

  • @cybercat8551
    @cybercat8551 Před 4 lety +1

    ily KC

  • @rom10bvt
    @rom10bvt Před 4 lety +2

    Never watched a single of your streams Kacey but the human being I discovered through this video helped me relate on some topics.
    I think it's safe to assume that you unconsciously helped some people by opening up with Doctor K on this session.
    All the best to you, you'll get through this 👊🏼 Discover and be yourself

  • @zoobrik
    @zoobrik Před 4 lety +1

    i love kaceytron

  • @thearbitar123
    @thearbitar123 Před 4 lety +1

    i relate hard with kaceys story

  • @thatrandomguy3113
    @thatrandomguy3113 Před 4 lety +3

    the queen shes so funny

  • @MAXIMUMv
    @MAXIMUMv Před 4 lety +2

    I Love kaceytron