Preacher's Daughter interview-Elizabeth
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- čas přidán 28. 08. 2021
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Elizabeth, the daughter of a Baptist preacher.
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Every child deserves a parent. Not every parent deserves a child
That's awesome!
Well said!
Religious beliefs and rage. Man what a recipe!
Well said indeed. Tragic.
Very, very true 🥰
This 'reading energy' aspect of trauma survival is called hyper vigilance. You almost become psychic in an attempt to stay safe..to stay out of trouble...so stressful and exhausting
Yes, but i do treasure it too in a way. My intuition is very well developed from certain trauma.
Hyper vigilance is ptsd, i think.
@@thematriarchy2075 I understand + respect xx we can learn to embrace the wisdoms gained through trauma...(we may also want to be aware of this ability to 'cold read' others...it IS a skill but can become manipulative if we haven't also addressed the anger/pain/narcissism)
@@aliwright1016 That goes for everything in life. If we do not feel centered, we might abuse others, even if we do not want to.
EXACTLY you have to be extremely sensitive to everyone's energy. Humans can be monsters; the mass majority of them.
Walkin point baby!
I married a girl that shared a similar background. It only lasted 6 years. It was hard to let her go. But she had so much trauma from her past she couldn’t feel or love. I think about her all the time. I miss her dearly. All I can do is pray for her.
Wow,,,,,,that statement really hit home..
I hope you’re alright ❤
I'm sure she thinks of you as well. Those of us that are that broken that we can't love or feel, actually do feel & love deep down behind the walls we've built. We never allow anyone to see this part as to NEVER be truly vulnerable. Thank you for loving her.
Thank you for understanding her. I had a mentally abusive child hood relationship are hard and the stress of it can trigger you. I have the similar feelings as this lady and a lot of people who go through this have to do it alone
Prayers are always subservient to actions.
I am 72 y.o. Hearing Elizabeth speak *almost* gave me courage to tell my story. Once again fear has me parakyzed. It's a vicious cycle.My abuser died this past summer having never apologized. Typical shit in my family ~ take no responsability, and carry on as if nothing ever happened. I think I watch these videos for the comfort they give me knowing other people have been through what I have. I can't change what happened, but, I can and do LOVE these *sucess* stories . . . they give me hope, and help me identify what I am feeling. Thank you Elizabeth for articulating what I can't ~ you touched my protected heart. I wish you well.
And you just told your story!! Bravo!
@@eileenoconnell8416 HaH, *that* was easy! :-) Thank you for that insight !!!!!
@@GretchenlKlein you're a brave soul 💕
This may be a message sent in the wind yet felt led to say that Jesus loves you so much. No religion, simple truth. I would like to recommend a person whom it is not about the person but the message he puts out which if you give a chance, I believe will help greatly....the messages given and in simple truth. Yankee Arnold, please look him up and give the message a chance and you will be blessed spiritually. 💙
God bless you, these vids certainly provide a larger perspective to even when it looks good it isn't
Went to high school with Liz. Hung out with her little brother a little bit. Had a slight inkling from him that things weren’t great at home, but had no idea it was that bad. I’m glad to hear you’re doing well now Liz
I went to TG schoo,l until maybe 2nd grade,and her Dad's church until I was maybe 11? I would have never thought this about him,so you just never know?!! I also had a crush on Liz when I was young!
@@ryanbruner8928 I am also from Texas, what was the pastors name and what church was it?
@@matthewson1000 it was in California,her Dad was from Texas originally, but I don't know where?
@@ryanbruner8928 her dad's name was Tom I never met her, but wish I could lol
I had a similar start minus sex abuse & religion. Me and my siblings were all punching bags. My disgusting dad was shocked when I didn’t go to his deathbed. Instead of going to his funeral, I enjoyed a peaceful day being grateful he was gone. Mom is an idiot who enjoys a comfortable retirement that she earned by looking the other way or shopped as our childhood was robbed. Today I am a nurse and happy after overcoming alcoholism. I have claimed my adulthood and my rough beginnings have become compassion and understanding for the hurt people I encounter. Unfortunately, my siblings have absorbed my dad’s narcissism and turned on me when I called our childhoods & dad what they were. Today, truth is my friend & I like my life.
“I was fully aware of my brokenness, and I didn’t want to put another human being through that.” THIS!!! 💯
If more people thought like this before having kids, the world would be a better place!
I have watched a lot of these but not all. Has any other woman that Mark has interviewed ever said this?
@@jamiecrawford8133 yes! Several have 😊
Beautifully written . . . . peace on earth starts at home !!!
Yep! Many people in the channel say it
You are so right. Only in a much more sane world. Who knows where its all going.
"When people are really good to you and you never had much of that, you never forget those people." I absolutely understand that statement!
“Loved me back to life”
Thank goodness for people that show true love of other people.
AMEN!
When she said she learned to have no needs, my heart literally broke for her.
I've been there. You learn to do everything yourself to protect yourself.
I could totally related to that "... no needs... " thing, too
Relatable until I had children. I need my children , they saved my life.
You really do learn to do that. I shoved down all my feelings and anger because everything you say and do is held against you. You just learn to survive. I still have difficulty expressing my feelings and anger. Anger also scares me so much. I had to learn how to set boundaries as an adult because I was never allowed to have my own as a child.
@@AH-ov1pe I feel you that how I am now I don't think I've ever expressed my feelings to someone which is actually very bad but I've learned to deal with it, I noticed it makes my anxiety 2 times worse but I just always have to tell myself there's always someone who's dealing with worse situations
Her understanding that her brokenness was no place to be married and have kids is actually so genuine and I wish more people could understand that for themselves instead of breading their trauma.
Agreed. I wish very much that I was proper mother material, but the trauma has led me to choose otherwise.
Wow that's an incredibly insulting comment.
@@lunarballoonistxo why is that?
@@betruriddle I can relate with what this lady was saying. I often had the same kinds of emotions as a child and felt isolated and alone in my emotions. But as an adult I've been doing the most to manage for myself and decode my trauma so to speak. I waited a long time to become a mom and did so this year, it's made me so happy and I'm reliving the happiest parts of my childhood and I find solice in being a mother to a daughter so I can try again and do better. I just believe every generation has an opportunity to do just that, be better than where you came from no matter where your family started.
She has her own experiences and is valid to her opinions and desires for her personal life and what fulfills her. I just don't appreciate the comment, it felt a bit judgmental for people who do their best to recover mentally and move on. I work on it every day, fearing depression or panic attacks. But I am still so motivated to live a long and happy life so I am determined to do what it takes and challenge myself constantly to maintain that! Please don't speak for everyone, people are more resilient and hearty than we make them out to be all the time.
@@lunarballoonistxo I am happy for you that you are working on yourself and challenging yourself. You understand your struggles and work with them, you became a mom, that is wonderful.
I didn't mean any disrespect with my comment, it was geared to the people who don't do the work, the people who end up having children when they didn't want them and then they keep them and push their trauma onto the children, toward the people who continue their childhood abuse onto their children, the people who have children and then hand them to the grandparents to raise because they aren't mentally, finanically or emotionally capable of raising that child which leads to a lot of issues for those children. It isn't always that this is the case, but there are too many people in this world that do these kinds of things and they never better their lives so in turn it hurts their children. Again this wasn't geared toward you personally, my words were not meant to effect you specifically. I hope you continue to grow stronger and always fight for yourself. Keep it up.
“I was fully aware of my brokenness and I didn’t want to put another human being thorough that.” What a beautifully aware statement. What an amazingly self aware soul. There are very few people who take their ability to rear a healthy child into consideration. Most people have kids so that they have someone to love them and take care of them… they rarely consider the fact that children are about individuation not about their parents.
Eloquently put.
And agree completely. There were 5 kids in our family and only 2 decided to have kids for the same reason. Mom is bipolar, dad was MIA.
Kids today are selfish and all about themselves.
Children reflect the environment that they are raised in
I probably shouldn’t have had a kid either. I was responsible, but not mature enough to do a really good job. I did ok with the ones I mentored, better, actually.
I am the sheriff's daughter and I just relate to this woman so incredibly much. Bawling my eyes out. Thank you Elizabeth. Just thank you for sharing your story and for doing some much beautiful healing. You're a huge inspiration.
I'm also a sheriff's daughter and was horribly abused by him; all three of us kids. It was horrible because he put on this kind, caring face to the public and was respected but was a monster behind closed doors. I'm sorry you had to suffer as well. I pray you receive healing.
@@stacielara9856 thank you. I wish the same for you. My sheriff father was absent because he was always “traveling for work”. Which was only partially true. He had so many affairs, no one knows the extent. I met many of them and they’d tell me they were going to be “my new mommy”. After abusing, constantly cheating on and divorcing my mom, he eventually married my moms so called best friend and left my 2 older brothers and I in her care 3,000 miles away from my mom while he travelled all over the world working for the fed after he lost his last election. So my stepmother was my abuser. And she did it in every way imaginable. I’m almost 40 and I’ve done a great deal of work. I can say that I’m happy and have been for the last few years. Healing comes in stages. At least for me, it did. Once I learned to start working through and facing my feelings and stop self medicating, I found a healing journey. I can say that I feel healed but I can’t say I am healed because I think it is something that happens over time and in ways maybe we aren’t even aware of until we’re there. In other words, we may not even know we need healing in some areas. I would not change a single thing that happened to me. Even though aspects of it still have the ability to make me sad, it made me exactly who I am. And I’m actually kinda awesome. I work hard and I dream big and I don’t undervalue myself much anymore. Stories like this one help to solidify that I am worthy.
@@stacielara9856 My father. The office Santa. But people saw through him bit by bit. Karma got him.
@@stacielara9856what does it mean “sheriff” daughter. Is that literal sense or like are sheriffs / cops abusive to family
@@stacielara9856 Most shot callers are secret wackos. Cops usually are power trippers. The job drives them crazy, because they are control freaks...and crime never stops, especially with zero tolerance, chickenshit charges.
“If you give up being a martyr and victim you have to take responsibility.” This hit HARD. I will be thinking of this statement for awhile . I just realized how honest this statement is in my life
YES, what a statement! Very potent.
Great relatable story.
i dunno, the mother should protect the kids at all costs, I know my mother would.
Not only but responsibility that word means: YOU gotta dO something. That changes everything cause the thing is on yOu then. It's all on you. Cant lean in2 or cringe in2 that daily nightly victim thing. You paralyze in2 that role. Until it almost kills you. Either way it's not easy
Still trying to do this🙏🏼 powerful story
She is brilliant, and her story reminds me how important it is not to judge people who fail at school or jobs, do drugs, are promiscuous, get in toxic relationships, etc. These behaviours are often unconscious response to trauma.
no it isnt
I agree 🙏🏿
You are 💯% right
@@MrMuaythai84 phon be gone.
@@mstanton2916 i can do that i have the shape shifting power
Elizabeth is delightful, self aware, humble and insanely articulate. When she talked about feeling unloveable, unworthy, she showed a deep understanding. I can see Elizabeth as a professional psychologist. Fascinating interview!
"There's nothing shameful about going to AA." I'm so grateful for AA, what it's done for so many of my friends.
I totally relate to this, I was raisied in a very religious house full of sexual abuse, when I went to the police as a teenager I was kicked out of my family, Best thing that ever happened and Ive gone on to make a really good life for myself xo
Wow - that's incredibly impressive. I grew up in a fantastic loving household and still have a brilliant relationship with my folks to this day and yet even with all their support I've really struggled in life in terms of my metal health. I've done well I guess career wise and financially but have always struggled with depression. So you being able to do what you've managed to in spite of having such an abusive childhoods is truly incredible to me. You should be very proud of yourself.
I'm so glad you had the strength to report them and get away and save yourself.
Sorry u had to go through that. U are a warrior.
Oh that is so sad about your brother. Makes me cry.
extreme religious behavior in the home is linked to sexual abuse
I am a 71 year old man and Elizabeth told my story. She is a very healing presence and I wish her blessings always.
Wow I'm so sorry. Also so happy to see old wise ones on the internet.
I've listened to this twice now. I thought to myself, she is telling me my life right now.
🍀♥️🍀
Same here. Being a preacher's kid isn't all it's cracked up to be. Dark days and deep emotional scarring that I'm still in therapy over.
Metoo jon,I'm 65,well we made it,stopped the bleeding.
Oh my god this is the definition of my father, minus the sexual abuse. wow this is so weird to hear someone else say all that out loud. My mom was worse though. The whole “learned not to have needs cause there wasn’t room for that.” I just grew up locked in my room to hide from them. I’m glad we both turned out okay, Elizabeth is so good at articulating how she feels. She’s extremely smart. If you see this Elizabeth, im so glad you turned out okay, babe. You deserve the world.
That bit when she said about her drug and alcohol counsellor who was the first guy in her life who wanted to love her without wanting to touch her or anything...that's when my eyes filled up because that's such a rare thing to people who've suffered and it's something I've felt while watching a number of these interviews with different people and with friends I've made in the past who have told me of their traumas, like I just wanna support their healing. People don't deserve to suffer at the hands of others and it just sucks that we live in a world with so much suffering. 😔
As a Female she shouldn't have a male counselor !! I am a retired Counselor, and damn near ever make counselor I've worked with don't follow the First Ethic of the Helping Professions !! Do No Harm !l! Yet they have a hard time with barriers ! They think it's okay to get into relationships with their client's !! That is a Big No !l
@@ms.martiegallego8834- That is absolutely correct…except, in this case, the result seems to have provided some actual healing ❤️🩹
@@ms.martiegallego8834 maybe he was gay?
I had sex with my beautiful therapist and it was one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. She helped me get over an abusive cheating girlfriend. Best sex I ever had.
It was of course consensual and mutual attraction.
We both orgasmed a lot, so…
The key is it has to be non coerced and consensual….
Her councilor crossed a serious line.
Her dad is literally sick. Any man that can put his hands on his daughter in a sexual way is disgusting. She is a very forgiving person.
Forgiveness is necessary for growth.
Yes a forgiving person, abused people are forgivers, I wont do it again daddy. Why are you touching me daddy? I am sorry daughter! It's okay daddy I know you didn't mean to abuse me in my child hood and screw up my entire life..So yeah she is a forgiving person....not.. If you kick a dog it will always come back to you, is it forgiving you? no it wants to try to Not get kicked again...
If my dad touched me he would be dead
This is Steve Bridges sister
And don't forget the up there preaching part while she watched 🙄
When she said she had to learn to sense her abusive fathers energy it knocked the breath out of me, because I had to do the same at a young age with my abusive mother and over my lifetime I’ve used it to sense people’s intentions, energy, attitude as a safety mechanism… I’ve always been an extremely sensitive empath since childhood which is a curse and a blessing
This! I had an abusive dad. Omg this statement
@@glamv2291 I understand that pain all too well 😩 many blessings and healing to you dear 🙏🏼💜
Same here! I read rooms or people I love and care for and it is honestly draining at times
Same. Alcoholic father
Same. Alcoholic mother.
The first 5 minutes of the interview I was seriously thinking of turning it off. I’ve had some pretty serious trauma in my life. This story is off the charts when it comes to abuse. I had to keep watching in the hopes she powered through it all. What a strong person. I’m a 54 year old male and her story really gave me hope for a full recovery. I put on my best smile every day for all in my circle while never sharing with a soul my story. Never wanted to burden anyone and never wanted anyone to know the pain I’ve experienced. It’s so incredibly difficult to understand why things happen to people the way they do and why people do the things they do to others.
God bless.
I think you will feel better if you talk about that with someone. Keep safe 🤍
@@tatic3106 I did.
@@johnbagewll2321 Some of us feel so shamed they just try to learn how to live with it. 🕊🇦🇺
@@johnbagewll2321 Talking to 'someone' might help. Talking to the 'right person' might be great. Hope you found the 'Right person', and if you didn't, maybe keep looking x
The first step in healing is to speak about what you experienced. Find someone you trust and tell your story. It can be extremely liberating. All the best to you and God bless you as well.
I am a 70 year old listening to this story and admire so much, the courage it takes to share her story.
I agree with Eliazabeth that we all just want to be seen and heard: and loved, with no strings attached. For starters:)🧡
"I'm a child of God and nobody can take that away from me. No amount of abuse or drugs. Nobody can take that away from me." Amen.
Amen. And Jesus LOVES me.
Amen 🙏
Yes I felt that. Amen 🙏🏾
Amen 🙏🏾!!
Amen! This interview was so special to me.
Damn. I just got a Psychology lesson from this interview. Her ability to express the trauma of her childhood through a subjective and objective lense is honorable.
Absolutely agree!!! She articulates very well
Lens
@@SHOW_ME Thank you, I didn't realize that was the wrong spelling.
yeah humans are weird and a lot of things they can do are hard to explain if you look at animals and their mothers like i see a lot of raccoons and deer near me lol the mothers always look out for their young but humans can go against nature basically
@@leahflower9924 I’ve seen mother animals leave their young in danger. We are animals and I think it’s dangerous to think otherwise
there are so many eye-opening and thought-provoking interviews on this channel but this one resonated really deeply with me. thanks for doing these amazing interviews!
I think this is one of the ones he recommended. I can see why.
Amazing story, may Liz continue and grow. I can feel your pain as I suffered trauma as a child, not my parents fault, but in the 1950s and 60s, therapy was not available. But starting my journey at 25.5 yrs of age, and at 72, I can say that dealing with past pain is an ongoing journey, but its worth the fight. May you continue in your walk in life !!!
She's a beautiful soul. Honest, articulate, perceptive. Living is no picnic.
What nonsense there's no evidence of a soul.
@@matimus100 XD
@@matimus100 Damn sorry to hear that's your experience. Im anything but religious but if you ever try meditating you may learn some important new things
Not at all. People look at you funny as though something is wrong with you. Like, sorry I got abused. What you want me to do? Shut up and sweep it under a rug so you don’t get all melancholy?🤔
@@katinlove there's a soul, there is a God Jesus is real and He is coming again. Soon you won't believe what you're seeing. Yet it will be real and so too is the biblical account of His return. You have a soul. You are known by God.
It is sad to wonder just how many children had their "spirits broken" by their parents....as a parent you are suppose to lift your child up in any way you can and help them through life. Not break them down at every turn.
It really hit me hard when she said that.
@@saraglickman5889 me 2!!!!
@Bran I can tell that you definitely DO NOT have children
Exactly so when we grow up to have children we have to teach ourselves how to be a normal parent ..according to “positive” things we saw on tv or read on Google etc..
@@seldom_seen8713 So from one comment you can tell i don't have children...interesting. First off I do have a child whom I love very much. I try to follow the rule of not beating my child until they have no ability to function as an adult from the trauma. I teach her to respect others and know right from wrong. I don't screw her up so much that later in life she has no ability to love or be loved. So please don't comment on things you know nothing about. You DON'T know me so I suggest you think twice before commenting something like this on someone's post.
I’m so grateful for this interview and her willingness to share. There are a lot of parallels in our lives and she’s so introspective, strong, astute and mentally healthy now. I needed to see that that’s possible. Wow💗
I connect with her on so many levels despite us having different upbringings, fears and happiness. This interview really impacted me. Thank you SWU for bringing this type of content to the world. Really has opened my mind to so much. These videos just bring my inspiration in my own life and hope and also inspires me to find my creativity and reality to my writing!
She is such a force of nature, incredibly strong. And she IS a mom, a great mom to her juvenile self who only grew out of childhood late in life with the patient and powerful motherly love that she afforded herself.
Beautiful, insightful comment...took my breath away. She is a rare 💎 jewel.
She is a healer, a starseed, she ist Higher consciousness in human Form and Went through all this, to heal Others, Lots of other Humans ... Thanks for her ❤️ Well done Liz 😀🥰
Yes
I’m 37. I’ve never read a comment on CZcams, anywhere, like this. It’s so beautiful and I felt it so deep. It made me just stop and cry, it was a beautifully worded comment. Thank you 🙏 you too, are surely without a doubt a beautiful person. 💜
@@Hobistrawberryberry ❤️❤️❤️❤️🐞
"My little brother was beautiful and I watched my dad break his spirit" The father sounds as close to a demonic presence possible.
I truly cannot even imagine what it entailed
"Hurt people HURT people", demonic is a stretch, I believe he was simply doing to his children what was probably done to him as a child, family curses and trauma being passed down from generation to generation is real....
This line was tough, poor little boy xxx
@@KingKumari this,
My parents… possessed.
I appreciate her honesty. Her story is powerful. The fact that she recognized her own brokenness and decided not have kids takes courage. I wish so many people understood this. Peace and blessings Elizabeth!
These interviews are diverse and so moving. So many different stories. So many different horrors. So many different ways to cope. So many strong survivors. It's all so heavy. And it all gives me some relief, and hope, knowing I'm not alone in my life's pain. Much love, yall. Peace
The part where she said her mother left when the beatings were going on. That hit home for me. My mom left while dad abused me and while a boyfriend abused me I believe my mom was just scared - but as a mother myself I would have knocked their head off with a skillet if I saw that happening to my child.
Yup- my parents scoffed at me when I told them about abuse going on,they just didn’t want to upset their preset beliefs about authority figures.
I completely agree. As many of us would I would die protecting my child.
My mother joined in once when her boyfriend was beating me up…
Those women are fundamentally weak and don’t deserve to be mothers. I don’t even have kids but I cannot even begin to imagine being that kind of parent. A mother should be ready to die for her child. To suffer to endure anything for their child. It’s just unacceptable to abandon them like so many do. I cannot respect those people. I wish you all the luck with healing
@@mallyw5585💔😢
This was probably the best video Mark has put out. It’s sad that people might not watch this due to it not having an initial shock value or the usual stripper/prostitute headline.
55k views in 12 hrs.
I dunno, there's a LOT of people out there with religious trauma. Myself included!
@@prawncreative yes! Soooo many! 🙌
@@prawncreative I apologize for that happening to you.
@@MindlessSwagz thank you, but no need for yourself to apologize. The Indigenous people of North America are actively working so that history is not repeated. The church will pay their dues!
That is an amazing story and very inspiring. My grandpa was a Souther Baptist minister and ruled that house w the belt to the level of insanity. What she says at 16:45 is so on point there and it really is at the root of it all. Amazing story Liz stay strong sister!
Why do you think there have been Southern Baptist ministers that have that violent streak? Why do they become ministers? Just curious of your thoughts
@@juliecolemannelson6849 maybe because the whole Christian church is a violent club, and here you can live out your inclinations wonderfully?
@@buddhafragt9619 i'm not even a religious person, but abuse is bad enough....abuse when you are supposed to be serving god is a whole other thing....and i don't even believe in god
@@juliecolemannelson6849 being a Preacher or Minister is a form of power. You are responsible for ppl who listen to you and follow you. A lot of Christians are abusive and manipulative. Ppl have been using religion to manipulate for centuries. Religion was even used to control slaves. You can also hide who you really are as a Preacher. Ppl look up to you and are afraid to bad mouth you and report you. So they basically do what they want and they get whatever perks that come along with being a preacher. It's a power trip just like being a policeman, lawyer, politician, etc. Some ppl use drugs to feel high and powerful others use jobs and ppl
Depends to what religion.
Our child hood is everything. I'm glad she was able to overcome the obstacles in life. No one walking this perfect
As a psychologist, this story shows the power of the therapeutic relationship - we all need someone to listen, have empathy, and someone who does not judge. Then the rest is up to the person. So proud of Elizabeth’s journey. Her spiritual story is so beautiful.
Very,very beautifully and succinctly put Theoni!
The psychology of normality is only for the rich or upper class.
The reality is that empathy is for the weak, judging someone correctly could save your life, and spiritualism is a waste of time.
Shove your $120 an hour after insurance up your over-educated self-righteous ass.
@@Wayzor_ this is a comment from someone who could probably benefit from having someone to talk to :(
@@Wayzor_ lol, u went all the way bro 🌝
@@idamay4590 talking is for morons...
Elizabeth - I’m waiting for your tedtalk, your novel, your books, whatever work you put out there... the insight you have on your life’s story is captivating. I’m beyond inspired by your continuing to choose yourself again and again
100%!
Agree
Agree too! You are a survivor, strong and inspirational!
Agree too! You are a survivor, strong and inspirational!
People need to let the world know what preachers and Sunday school teachers are really like!! You should do a Ted talk and warn everyone!!!!
I grew up in the 80's. My father was a pentecostal preacher. Very difficult childhood. Sleep paralysis is what she was explaining. I had it from as early as I could remember till a few years ago. Grew up afraid of God, the rapture, and getting my head cut off. Running home from school to make sure my parents weren't taken away from me. It has affected everything in my life.
Hi
Similar but way different.... My mom said when I was in grade school that she was divorcing my dad. This is after I saw my dad's car at my grandma's, it wasn't supposed to be there. They didn't divorce. Yet, for the rest of his life, I shook every time I went past my grandma's house. Wondering, afraid that today was the day she decided to follow through with ... I'm going to divorce your dad.
Just wanted to share.
I can only try to imagine your pain.
@@loriboufford6342
As a kid it sounds to me like you were having a trauma response.
When you started shaking the Adrenaline would dump into your system. I know because this is happened to me also.
I’m sorry to hear that you had to go through that.
Every kid deserves a sound foundation they can call home.
What they don’t need is to have the rug ripped out from under them and to have their world as they know it collapse on top of them when their parents do stupid, selfish, and destabilizing things to their innocent kids.
❤
This is the best I've listened to. The intelligence and strength of this lady is phenomenonal. You can't stop listening all the way through.
My abuser was very “religious” and it definitely skewed my personal views on religion till this day. I’m very spiritual but cannot stand behind religion, it was always a crutch to pacify some of the worst people I knew.
This is deep but I love this comment a lot 🥺💕
We shouldn't blame someone's evil actions on the religion tho...
@@baileemiller9862 I never blamed the religion, I just don’t like how people use it to absolve their guilt. My perspective on religion is tainted but I never said it was religions fault ^
A lot of very sick, awful people use religion as a mask to hide behind. Look up the BTK killer. Almost all serial killers use religion or know of its utility to do the awful things they do.
@@baileemiller9862 "We?" How dare you dictate what she can or cannot blame for HER personal religious trauma! You have not a clue what she suffered! How arrogant and presumptive on your part! Leave the suggestions to a trained therapist.
"giving up the victim and martyr role is taking up responsibility"
What a lesson to be learn
@hyzerponix What are you referring to?
@@tdb517 probably the support of government welfare that disincentives responsibility and community. Or the Marxist view of oppressors and oppressed
So wise.. Here's a thought, if you don't know how to take responsibility, challenge your victim mentality. Maybe thats the path to responsibility is understanding you're not a victim. I'm going to try to use that in my own life because I haven't really understood what responsibility means. Maybe I have a victim mentality I have to reevaluate
Politicians weaponize people's jealousy and laziness by calling them "victims" and using it against the productive members of society through more and more wealth re-distribution.
Those exact words have really resonated with me. My husband was abused by his father and places alot of blame with this mother who "never did anything to stop it". I will be sharing this with him.
I have been binge watching Mark's videos for the entire evening. This has to be my favorite interview thus far.
She is extremely insightful. Her experiences as terrible as they are have brought her a lot of awareness. She's very intelligent and expresses herself very well. I just want the best things to happen for this woman from here on out. She deserves all the best things
She is not raw rage, anger or resentment, nor flat, defeated. - She resonates. Thank you for sharing her story.
Resilient!
Exemplary comment. Thanks.
She shines!
This
Excuse me. Her fathers rage was raw. His resentment and anger was THE driving force for his abusive and horrific actions. No comment for the parents and the poor role models they were.
Yet there is a need to 'applaud' Elizabeth for her eloquently delivered testimonial so that she can be 'liked' by others. Who gives a damn if you like her OR her story.
She deserves to be as RAW and as
ANGRY as she sees fit. Truly disappointed and repulsed by your statement!
What an incredibly captivating story. You can feel how true she is to herself and how much inner healing work she has done.
Maybe but she admitted she's back on the wagon so there's little 'success' in that.
@@jasonblack6059 You mean "off the wagon". Don't judge her success on that. She has been through a lot
and been able to heal, after some very bad experiences.
she lying only to be on youtube
@@MrMuaythai84 Just like you!
@@jasonblack6059 Soooo self-righteous and not very well-informed. May you be blessed with compassion and greater wisdom. More importantly, may Elizabeth be blessed with boundless healing.
So very moving to listen to what people have endured. Very powerful. Bowing to this woman's courage and resiliance. I can relate strongly to what she shared. Wishing her so much love and thank you for sharing some of your story.
She went through so much. She was able to forgive and not all have the strength to do that. God bless her 🙏🏽
Wow, such a powerful, truthful testimony of an abusive broken childhood.
...as a former teacher I'm a little bit appalled that this persons teacher saw a totally blank exam paper and didn't question what on earth was going on in that students mind.
That’s what I was thinking! Actually, This happened to me in school many times. Teachers stopped acknowledging me after a while as well. It’s really sad. I feel bad for other kids
I thought the exact same thing. Teachers should absolutely know the signs of something being off.
Typical for the period
I'm actually not sure she was 100 with that, in my exp it's not how dissociation happens...
@@imagreatguy1250 ...well I'm not sure about the psychology of it. But I do know that's not how good teaching and learning happens.
She is so fucking right! We need to STOP shaming people who are asking and looking for help!!! It's nothing to be ashamed of!! It takes real strength to admit you need help and then ask for it. It feels extremely vulnerable and shaming people for help just makes people not want to ask for it or they say no when the opportunity arises.
Every now and then I come and watch this video and relate so hard . Being addicted to someone and the horrible way they treat me but something about it is comforting….. but I want to be free.
wow I am a recovering preacher's kid with two physically abusive and angry parents. Hugs to her. I relate to the constant gaslighting and the reading energy.
F them make your life beautiful.
yes preachers etc many are narcissistic disgusting sexual murderers !!! look at the native indigenous history !! and really that religion is what people want after all the demonic murders !!!
Pcamp,
Moving forward, YOU can define your life ANY away you want.
You can build a life completely opposite of the way you were raised and do things differently than your parents.
That’s what I did and it worked -
I broke the cycle of abuse and raised my kids in the most loving environment I could muster. And I made sure I listened to them and they felt heard.
I wasn’t a perfect parent, but my kids didn’t suffer any of the abuse / neglect that my siblings and I have.
You can create a whole, new life apart from your parents!
You can have a beautiful legacy in SPITE of what they did to you.
💕
💕
when she said her adrenals were exhausted when she was a kid, i could relate. I told my mom many times that one of us kid's problems were that they gave us such a hard time growing up that we were tired and exhausted before we even had to deal with the adult world.
I still live life pressed to the redline until I drop. So hard to be still when you grew up in a small tank with two sharks.
I can relate too.
So much drama and adrenaline growing up, affects our body.
Making us feel exhausted and hopeless as adults...😢
I'm 39 and I still feel like a child some days or a really old tired worn out lady.
@@meljc2823 I didn't think I could last til thirty but I'm still here at 53 thank God.
@@maebandy I know, I just had to separate from the world to a degree just to last. It seems like everyone wants to humble and humiliate you and don't realize that you've already been through that.
@@meljc2823 I feel this. I’m 39 years old. Today, my psychologist told me: “You don’t look well. You look very tired and worn down.” I also told her about 5 times in our session that I felt like a little girl who is still trying to be loved and protected and approved of. Terrible feeling in middle age.
This was such a beautiful and sad share....I live in Clayton and this made me feel even more traumatized bcuz I often picture these stories in skid row or NY not my home....I absolutely love the part where she said David loved her back to life. I was bawling at work listening on my Bluetooth. You are a beautiful soul Elizabeth. You are so strong thank you for sharing your story!!!!!!
I was orphaned at a young age, then dumped at an orphanage by the family I did have. I relate to feeling unworthy. When your family doesn't want you that screws with your mind. You see everything through being unwanted, unloved, rejected, abandoned...
how true.
I can relate
When she said she watched her father break her brother's spirit, I felt this. 😔
Edit: Coming from generational curse of abuse, this whole video resonates with me.
That killed me.
I hated hearing this. Poor little guy.
Sad.
Me too it resonates so much 😭
That hit pretty hard as well.
I think that comment pulled many heartstrings.
I’m a preachers daughter. My mental health sucks. Lots of addictions. I’m now a comedian bc it’s the only thing that kept me alive. I purposefully didn’t have kids. I married a 50 yr old man at 21. Daddy issues to the max.
I understand this woman so much. Much love to u both 🖤
I’m so sorry you were hurt by religious deception. Jesus is real you do not have to know him by attending the American systematic church. Read his word it’s alive. God bless you Priscilla!!
“And the Word was made flesh, and dwelt among us, (and we beheld his glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father,) full of grace and truth.”
John 1:14 KJV
Preacher's daughter here, too. My dad was a Spiritualist Medium. He found over 330 missing people for the police, but all dead. I didn't have the abuse so many others did, but the stress of living in a home half in one world and half in another had a major impact on my youth. Friends would maybe visit twice then never come back into the house. Spirits appearing, speaking out, moving furniture, was just a regular occurrence. I finally had no friends, their families didn't want them to associate with any of us, unless they had. a need for my dad's service.
Me too. Histrionic mom, alcoholic dad. I learned to work a room to survive. Raised by a heckler made me tough.
@@eckankar7756 wow that is so heartbreaking ❤️🩹 I’m so sorry u had that hellish life. We should start a club for children of religious/spiritual leaders just to feel validated and comforted. And to also talk shit lol.
@@dieguismama2330 oh wow I can tell ur a natural comedian. It’s unfortunate that you had that upbringing and my heart breaks for u. Hugs!
The power that this testimony embodies needs to be heard! So, so, powerful! Ty
I want give thanks and appreciation for you giving this space for people to share their lives and for so many to connect on a REAL ASS level! Also much love to Elizabeth; thanks and appreciation for sharing your life and emotion, girl you really told my story. All the best🤗
As a father with two young children this served as a reminder to not lose my cool when a toddler isn’t listening.
Your children will remember your kindness.
For me too🙏🏿
@@1909Ghost they definitely will
It's not easy. A child depends on you for everything. It's up to you to show them life!
Very important!!!!!
Wow, She walked us beautifully through the story of her life so far in thirty eight minutes and fifty four seconds.
That’s an incredible talent. A very good storyteller.
So much told, and more than ever could be put into words unsaid
Powerful message of hope from an incredible woman.
I love how her story just poured out in all of its raw reality.
The producer of this channel deserves reward and recognition for bringing a platform to all of these stories…
What a beautiful soul and human. Jesus is my Lord and Saviour and her talking about being a child of God really touched me. I feel the same way and pray for her continued healing and restoration. Her story really speaks to me even though I did not go through the same things. Without God I know I would not be where I am today.
AMEN
After 10+ years of abuse I agree 100%!!!
She’s a flawless storyteller. High IQ.
She’s brilliant!
Emphasis on storytelling
It's because she lived it 1st person 🤣
Thank God I wasn't addicted to crack but yet thank God I was addicted to Meth🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣you can't make this sh!t up
& really fucked up (even now).
My Grandpa was the child of a preacher & got beaten nearly to death by his father. The abuse was so bad, my Grandpa tried hanging himself at age 10. His brother saved him. My Grandpa wound up being schizophrenic in his early 20s, until he died at 57, of a heart attack, 21 years ago. I hate people who hide behind God to get away with being monsters.
I wept throughout this. There was a release when she spoke to her father. She found forgiveness through spirit. And she listened. So many profound things and events that changed her life. So powerful. This is wisdom. She has so much awareness. Of energy and what truly makes a parent. That made me so happy to hear her say that. Having a baby should be something that requires a Masters degree.
Wow. Honestly she's a kind soul. I don't think I could have forgiven my parents, especially my father if I went through that shit.
Damn this lady is in tune with herself.
That is the best investment ever. in self
Didnt come overnight
Yes, I respect her honesty as well.
She sure is!
Super ! I can’t wait for a follow up interview , if it comes !
"He loved me back to life" -- this is the kind of love I want to spread. SO OFTEN that is all people need. Someone who is PRESENT, talking, caring about them and their lives and their stories. Showing the unconditional love that we ALL DESERVE and need.
I'm in tears, I've walked majority of your walk, no one should have to go through this big hugs xxxx
This woman is so intelligent and so self aware,
I was elated as she displayed a higher and higher level of understanding of not only her own pain but the human condition in general as the video went on,
Fantastic interview
I enjoyed every moment she shared. She’s incredibly well-spoken, self-aware, open, and I feel she’s got a bright future. I encourage her to consider writing a memoir or whatever her heart leads her to write.
Yas...a book from her would be amazing, I´d would read it in a heartbit!...great idea :)
Hearing her story moved me to tears. Would absolutely love to read anything she wrote. Really hope she does
Fell exactly the same.
You totally said that amazingly..as she did.Ty.And I totally agree.Wishing her all the best in the future 🌟
She sounds like she had lot of therapy or 12 step programs because she understands many aspects of what happened to her.
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Agreed. She would be a poster child for AA if she was still abstinent. Very clearly she understands the message of AA and the 12 steps. It is throughout her story. Acceptance is the answer to all my problems today…
She's naturally highly intelligent and gifted. No 12 step can give her a brain and spirit like that.
@@a.w.3772 No She is naturally intelligent but 12 step programs can give her coping tools.
i dont understand what happen to her and i still dont after i watch it
This chick is a professional at not making the story all about her while at the same time making the story all about her.
She is such a darling, such a good soul, wonderful that you find her and sie told us the story of her life with great honesty - Thank you for your work, I love the podcasts and videos🙏❤
Her story really resonates with me.
Her self awareness is inspiring, she's a very strong woman , and blessed.
Yes grate testimony of Deliverance
36:48 -- "Feeling good naturally with nothing in your body is the best feel-good ever!"
So happy for Liz! You go, girl! 🥳🥳🙏
except for wine...
Yes, it is. But when you have to face your many enemies blind and unprotected...
It can be but sometimes drugs just help you in ways people or nature can't and stereotypes negative stigmas won't change that. Some people have self control and can resist abusing like micro dropping acid or Ayahuasca
I relate to Liz. Impossible childhood with losses. And long journeys of recovery. She explains about going down a hard path. Then surviving long enough to see what it did to you. Then surviving that too. She explained it so well. Thank you Liz for sharing these things. You have blessed me today.
Wow, what a powerful interview!!! Everytime she needed to process something that was heavy, she took a big breath and blew out. I do the same thing. I learned it from one of the Drs I follow for my anxiety and extreme panic response. I can't remember the mechanism exactly, but it triggers the vagus nerve in some way or the parasympathetic response to kick in and take over. It's very calming for the body and not once did any of the Drs i went to for my anxiety and overactive panic response, told me about this. I had to learn it online from professionals teaching ppl about breathing exercises and the affects they have on the nervous system. I'm so glad I watched this one. I tend to not click on stories that don't seem so bad, and looking at her, like she said, u wouldn't know she had it messed up so much growing up. She looks "normal" on the outside, but everytime she took one of those deep breaths and blew out, I knew she was battling major heavy stuff internally.
She’s a great story teller. Very coherent and literate. I feel for her and want to hug her! ❤️
Me too.
The coke is irresistible
@@anthonypetercoleman3575 coke is irritable its pure hell u haven't been doing it to long it will take u down in a heart beat stop now while u have achance
@@bobbythompson5435 dude I’m talking about the soft drink, but whatever, drink your RC Cola
I know!! The story of her brother breaks my heart. I've watched a child's spirit get broken and it lays heavy
Most of the SWU interviews are really depressing, hopeless and terribly sad. This one is truly inspiring. Elizabeth is proof there is always hope if you persevere. Bless her soul.
Because she has Jesus. End of story.
@@melissap9416 I have seen it be done without any deity several times. You can love God as much as you want, but give credit where credit is due.
@@Martin-kl7xk Oh i give 100% credit to Jesus Christ. I was in a similar situation as Elizabeth as a child. Broken, hurt, abused, ashamed and no self-esteem. NONE. Turned to drugs and alcohol to cope. OD'd, died with a tracheotomy in my throat twice, shouldn't have lived. Ever had the surgeon in the ER tell you to "thank whatever God you worship cause it's medically impossible for you to be alive?" Trust me that got my attention. I heard of Jesus, so being a natural doubter I just asked Him if He was real, and if He was to show me. I said it out loud. My life was turned upside down 100%, for the better. He fixed me, cleansed me and made me new. It's truly a miracle, so yes i believe her, and concur from my own personal experience. I heard him audibly and He's never left. Only reason im still here. Have you ever asked Jesus to show you if He's real? He will. Most people are too prideful to even ask.
@@melissap9416 read the book of Thomas...Jesus told his disciples that they were already divine...to seek our own godliness as it exists IN us ..not as an outside authority.
@@christineloz1686 you interpreted that wrong my friend.
What I think she is describing at 27:11 is sleep paralysis. I have experienced this several times. You can't move, can't yell out, you can only move your eyes and think. If you concentrate on just moving a finger or a toe and succeed then the paralysis leaves you. And yes it is frightening as you feel a presence in the room along with internal noise in your head. I remember feeling afraid an evil being was trying to take me thinking I was going to die in that paralyzed state.
What a smart down to earth and intelligent woman a beautiful soul... thank u for sharing Elizabeth ur story is helping many!
The same thing happened to me as a prepubescent girl I was being molested in the dark. My father’s secrets (and many men in church) are still protected by my entire family and I have been disowned for speaking about it now as an adult. Still it’s the best thing to happen for me to get away from it all and focus on my mental
I am sorry this happened to you. Gad you are free now. Sending you lots of hugs.
I’m so sorry this happened to you, I wish you all the best❤️💋
My heart absolutely breaks for you. This is so prevalent in our communities, it's ridiculous.
"We're only as sick as our secrets"
I'm sure you've heard this
said but the first time I heard it, it rocked me.
May God hold you in the hollow of his hand 💕
And God wept.....
That is AWFUL! I CAN’T UNDERSTAND HOW THEY GET AWAY WITH IT? HOW MANY CHILDREN HAVE TO BE RIPPED APART BY THESE PERVERTED MONSTERS? GOD BLESS YOU TRULY!
Elizabeth’s wisdom is gobsmacking. I can’t get over her perspective and evolution. What a woman. I’m always so struck by the courage and power of the people interviewed on here.
Yes!!
Truth!
Wow she really put her life's story out there.I hope she can put this childhood behind her and have a good future out there.Mark didn't even have to ask hardly any questions.She is so open.Wish her the best.
I needed to see this interview right now, badly. Thank you for sharing your story Elizabeth 💖
I see this woman as a psychologist/ psychiatrist. So full of wisdom. You definitely are a survivor.
🤣
Long shot as she has knowledge but college costs money. Masters degree costs more.
me too I was thinking the same
Yes
Um, a big fat 'NO' to that, she's back on the wagon!
Growing up a pastor's son, this is some raw truth. Much of this is far more common than most know. Some, if not all of this never really goes away.
I was going to ask about this. I've seen so many stories over the last few years like this one; and yours.
Is it really this common?!
@@janellejulianajoy Wow! This is so terrifying. My husband was a pastor. He was the real deal and I and my children loved him so much. He lived what he preached. He died of an illness in his seventies. I'm so sorry that this woman went through all this.. The hypocrisy of some people is unbelievable. And they affect so many people in a negative way. That is not a true gospel message.
Most of them suffer from grandiose/malignant npd, check out Sam vaknins video Narcissists & their relation with God
Same
@@rebeccagutierrez1960 sure it is, stop kidding yourself. Child sacrifice and crucifixion is good news to the chosen ones of the bloody oath cults.
When she was talking about the part of her father breaking her brothers spirit. I remember a story my grandma told me a story about her father beating her deaf brother in the barn and her mom finally having enough of it walked out in the in the middle of one of the beatings and hit him over the head with a cast iron frying Pan and knocked him out cold. When he came to she met him at the door and said you hit that boy like that again I’ll bury you. He never hit him like that again from that point on my grandma said.
That girl had nerves of steel to confront her dad like that!
They don’t make them like that anymore !!
Her honesty is flooring and riveting at the same time!! It sets you free. It really sets you free. If you think about trauma this way; when you have something awesome in your life, you talk about it ALL THE TIME. For some reason, when we have trauma, we wanna clam up, keep it secret, and makes our souls sick with it. The more you express and talk about your traumas the more free you'll be. It just works!!!
This is the BEST interview I have seen on your channel. What a difficult life Elizabeth has lived. Everytime she fell down, she got back up and moved forward. She is an inspiration!
I love how she takes the time to take deep breaths. It shows the person who is truly trying to heal from their trauma and tell the story without resentment. God Bless you Elizabeth.
Please explain why you think, or feel that she is trying to tell her story without resentment.
I felt the same thing about her breath as she reached deep into her soul 🙏
I can understand how she feels, been down that road myself. Lived in a violent Christian home. Got to the point don't know if you're coming or going. You waste most of your life trying to figure it out. There's nothing that can erase the data bank of your brain. You learn to deal with it through time an it's also a lonely road to walk. May Yahuah Bless You.....
Psychedelics can help reset your brain under the right circumstances
czcams.com/video/U4kpr-UJha4/video.html I had similar things where my mother was the religious extremist and there were times where if one of us was not wearing our slippers my mom would hit my brother with an electric chord that would leave scabs while other times it didn’t matter, we would walk in with our shoes. I do not understand why religion causes such crazy mood swings and your story reflects mine.
Garry, I can say you did not grow up in a Christian home, maybe religious, but not Christian. Many people go to church and claim to be Christians but are not.
My best friend went to college with your brother, Steve. He was the best! But I need to tell you that you are my hero now. Thank you for so many words of truth in this video. Press on!