Sex Trafficking Victim interview-Clover
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- čas přidán 18. 05. 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Clover, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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I look at my daughters and wonder, how could someone violate such innocence. There are truly demons walking among us.
As a parent, your comment hits home in a very powerful way. I don't understand it either. It's like some people have no conscience.
How do you make peace with this? I feel so alone
@@parisa5014 you’re not alone. I don’t know how to make peace with it because my heart truly aches for these kids. I stay vigilant and if I see something out of place, I check on the child.
Spiritual warfare definitely demons are all over. Even in our governments around the world. They see us no different than dogs imo atleast.
@@annoyingkid1993 I agree it makes me very sad. Especially at the weak/authoritarian personality types that make up the majority and allow this injustice to continue. People like us could scream from the rooftops and we are the ones who get vilified... Why!? It's eerily similar to the teachings of the bible
Imagine being tortured your entire life but still having such a peaceful and kind demeanor. her Strength is truly incredible. God bless her!
Absolutely God bless her
I just want to give her a hug & my # in case anyone tries some b.s. ever again!
Drug addicts love exaggerating stories
She is not in peace, she is traumatized,she creates fantasies to survive
She really does. It just goes to show that people who have been abused have no excuse to abuse others
When I was 11, my Dad had died. A few months later, my Mom would make me drink a liquor after dinner and then she would have men that she had wrangled earlier when I was at school, come into my bedroom and molest me in the evening. She would sit in the kitchen and play solitaire while it was going on. I would get slapped around and such for 'not doing it right' and told-off for not having breasts yet. After the last one was done, they would go out drinking and dancing. I quickly learned not to 'complain'. Her rational was that this needed to go on to 'pay the taxes' on our house. After awhile I was mostly in a fugue state, so she was happy to not have to spend money on the booze anymore to make me compliant. Trying to act normal and go to school was very hard. I had a lot of bladder infections and pelvic pain and STD's. As an adult, I spent many years in therapy. Now I am almost 70 years old and it all still haunts me...the PTSD terrors. I still sleep walk...trying to get away from the terrors of the Past. I have two daughters and six grandsons and two great-granddaughters and it is unimaginable to me to ever consider that horrific abuse as being a way 'to pay the taxes'.
You are so strong and beautiful.
Youre incredible. Im in awe of your strength. Thank you for breaking the cycle and protecting your family .
Thank you for sharing your story! You are a hero! God Bless!
I am so sorry for your experience
Bless your heart
I cant get my head around the fact that there are so many people who are willing to destroy another human being for money or there own sexual gratification. My heart breaks for this lady. It's obvious she was abducted as a baby, and this is how they end up if they survive.
Read The Rape of Nanking
I wonder where that rabbit hole starts. I'd like to expose every one of these traffickers and child molesters. Special place in hell for these evil creatures.
Just the depths of hell 💔💔💔 poor children who never did a thing wrong ever
I am actually horrified at how common it seems that people pay to rape or molest 6 or 7 year old children !!! Like what in the actual f*ck????
My heart breaks for these abuse victims. I can't even fathom. How can people be so cruel. So horrible, to a child. These people shouldn't be allowed to live.
The moment she said they spread her legs too far apart that her tendons broke...that got me...this woman is so strong...I honestly wish her nothing but good for the rest of her existence on earth...felt so bad for her for everything she's been through..people who traffic kids...and hurt them....deplorable...
And people argue that God is too cruel to send people to hell.
Weird that she didn’t mention anything about having to reconstruct that area. 🤔 Ijs.
@@SamanthaP48 true🤔..maybe she never did lmao I dunno lol
@@ilyabykov2437 why bring god into this, as if he isn’t the one who permits all of this. and DO NOT say you can’t live freely without free will, or that god knows what we don’t. i would rather not exist at all, than be apart of this depraved world that is sometimes beautiful
@@ilyabykov2437 I'm "Atheist" but I absolutely wish that hell was real for people like sex traffickers. It's fucking disgusting that sex trafficking even happens to people and that people would want to do that. I have a harder time with a world that doesn't have an afterlife than one that does because there are so many people that deserve to be in hell for abusing other people.
She wasn't sexually open when she was little, or attracted to older men: she was sexualised from early and groomed into behaviour that is not normal for a child. My heart breaks for her. From a fellow survivor : you're so strong. Thank you for speaking up.
I'm wondering was your real name Marian Smith? My sister-in-law's
nickname was Roxie! I know that this is a stretch but thought I'd ask.
I'm so sorry for YOUR pain, as well Roxie. ❤
That question is completely out of line.
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@@karinsmith7613 wtf
@14:11 “have you been in love before?”
Her sheer confusion and surprise to the question is heartbreaking. She’s never been given a chance to experience the feeling.
She's able to love her children only because love requires trust.
Heartbreaking 💔
Heartbreaking to say the least......
So sad.
She should write a book or something. This woman deserves the world and I hope she realizes it at some point.
100% by far my most interested story but so devastated the evil some people endure almost their whole life and don't get the come back story of life giving back for all the horror they face 💔❤️🩹
In her moments of need, everyone let her down. The people making comments that she's lieing after only listening to her experiences for 26 mins, you are all exactly like those employees in the hotel and the taxi driver: Useless. She's pouring out her soul with no inhibitions and you deny her experiences and deafen your ears to the truth. Clover, as you know the world is full of victimizers but there is also a world full of empathic and caring people who listen and help victims to become well. You have the right to a happy and healthy life like the rest of humanity does. You are not exempt. God Bless you, I wish you well and healing.
You're right...
Those are just trolls You're talking about,screw them!
People are kinda dumb for saying she didn't star in the horror movies, she's not saying she was the protagonist, she was probably just an extra, how is this so hard to understand? Besides, not all movies are Hollywood-level..
Exactly! Very well said. It’s sad to see such a lack of compassion in the comment section for the people in these interviews. Usually, most comments aren’t negative but the few that are, it pains me to read them. Even if she is lying, give her the benefit of the doubt. She deserves hope, love and humanity just the same way we do
Amen to you all people make me so sick when they judge people. They wanna deny the truth and doubt what people have been through. I pray for all those that have been wronged in this cruel world.
Could she be one of the missing kids out there ?
🤔
❤🇨🇦
I was relieved to hear that even though Clover was abused as a child, she did not pass on that generational abuse to her own sons. She speaks lovingly of her (now young adult) sons that she raised, and it sounds like she raised them well. They have love for their mom and I hope that she always has them in her life.
Me too. I hate when People use that as an excuse. She knew it was wrong and she loves her kids. Could you imagine what her life would be like if she was born/give to a good family. She might have a husband, house, good job…the American dream. 💔🥺
Right, but she didn’t seem to raise them. She said she did, but then she said she gave their dads custody. What mom who raised her sons would just give them to their dads?
@@mama.ashley I've been sexually abused as a child and was in a support group with several women who experienced the same. One thing that we all had in common was running away. One woman left her cat, her fiance and backpacked the US for 10 years. The other moved two countries until coming to Canada. Another continually travelled. Freedom is very important to those who have experienced that kind of trauma because they were abused in spaces they couldn't escape. That's likely why she needs to be free. She did it responsibly and as long as all are happy in the situation.
The fact that she's able to retell & essentially relive all these awful experiences Isa testament to her resilience
@@mama.ashley The kind that is realistic. She is putting her kids first!!
I wish this lady nothing but peace in her life she deserves the world
I don’t blame this woman for her drug addiction. She was drugged a lot as a child & that, even tho it was sadistic as shit, helped her not be awake for those atrocities. She’s used to using drugs to shut out those memories & emotions. This was rough to listen to but I wish her the absolute best for the rest of her life & I hope that she eventually finds sobriety & stability. What a wonderful woman with a resilient spirit. She should have never endured this absolute nightmare of a childhood
This is so true. These illegal adoptions for sex trafficking were going on a lot in the 70's and 80's. This poor woman has been through hell. There are some evil people in this world.
@@annaxefta587 you’re like 12 chill
@@annaxefta587 biggest imbecile, that you are
@@annaxefta587 you have no idea what you’re talking about.
@@annaxefta587 life is short and your going to answer to God for every willfully ignorant cruel word you speak and think
@@annaxefta587 Anna, your message upset me on a different level. You ignorant, uneducated, for a lack of better term, human.
I was trafficked by my mother starting at age 3. Sometimes I was drugged and sometimes I was not. I often think about the other little kids that where with me and wonder how their lives turned out. The first memory I have was me and 5-6 other little girls sitting on a pool table with money all around us. Now I realize we were being auctioned off. I was 3-4 years old. I lived that live until I was 12 and then got emancipated at 14. I am thankful for my life now and I am so blessed to be able to help women in who are still on the streets or in the adult industry still. I have been out of the adult industry for 7.5 years. I hope she one days finds peace. If people truly knew how often this happens even now they would be floored
Blessings to you, Sweetheart. How right you are...
I am so sorry you had to go through this. You are very strong. I wish you the best 🙏
My heart just breaks for you and the hell you were put through as an innocent baby. I am so sorry.
I appreciate you, your story and your strength. Thank you for helping others♥️
the wicked are everywhere, almost no child escapes childhood without being abused. it's disgusting, I'm very sorry.
30 years a cop . I believe every word this good lady says.
It isnt all true. I'm her sister and I assure you she wasn't bought and wasn't sold for sex and I did not cut my own arm off lmao
@@quates1967 was anything she said true?
@Marlaina Quates why would she make all of this up and how do we know you're her sister.
@@quates1967 I believe you are her sister and have both hands and I do believe She is doing fentanyl. That's about is.
@@quates1967 girl no you are not how unhappy do you have to be to pretend to be someone else ☠️
This story has disturbed me so much. I can't shake the feeling of what it feels like when a sickly repressed memory comes to the surface. Like staring at a foreign object that came out of your body. Nauseating and fascinating at the same time. My heart goes out to you Clover.
If he'll doesn't exist where you can find judge and righteousness to Clover and million of clovers in the world. God bless you Clover. Enjoy the life that can take you now. You are my hero
*Hell
I've repressed memories come back. And it was like my body was screaming no inside as they came back and I tensed up and I felt nauseated and shaky after. And those memories weren't even as bad as the ones I'm still waiting on to heal myself. I didn't know hypnotherapy could help. Thanks to her and her story I'm going to try it
I was trafficked for multiple years and all I can say is her spirit is resilient and that is why we survived. Because our hope couldn't be stolen.
Clover, I see you. I hear you. I believe you.
🤍🤍 sending you white light love
I'm so sorry you endured that horrific experience. I hope you find and enjoy lasting peace, safety, and security.
I’m so sorry you went thru this. Hope you heal. Praying for you
Ignorant people...her pain is real and so is her sad story 😔. Clover, Sweetheart l have no words. I wish with my whole heart that life has beautiful things in store you so deserve.
Cap
I know her. The last time I saw her was about four years ago at a Dead Cross show. I don't know anything regarding her childhood or about the needles in her arms, but she's definitely telling the truth about everything else. Clover/Lori wouldn't harm a fly. Seeing her here breaks my heart. Please do a follow up on her.
I can see she's a gentle, sad soul..
So curious who her famous dad is...she certainly has a story. She seems to have it together as best she can.
She's got good taste in tunes!
I did wonder about the use of hypnosis to access the repressed memories. But it would mean that her recollection of events wouldn't be believed or admissable in court.
Very sad. People are saying it’s not true. Those are the ones who let this stuff happen. That’s the problem we are having. Nobody thinks this stuff happens. Please let her know we are wishing her the very best.
One of the best interviews on this channel. This woman seems like such a kind, intelligent, self-aware person. It’s horrible what she had to go through
This has really opened my eyes to the trafficking that is going on with young children/babies. It’s horrifying
This is the story that hollywood would never dare tell , the true horror stories that these children and young women go thru needs to have a bright light put on it. My heart breaks
!!!!!
Pizza Gate
Hollywood is a big part of this evil.
tHIS IS NOT ONLY WOMEN.....MEN/BOYS/CHILDREN ARE ALSO STOLEN AND SOLD FOR THE SEX TRADE. How anyone can do this to children is beyond me and I just cannot get my head around it. I look at my two children and wonder...what the hell would I do if either of them were ever taken? I know what I WOULD DO TO ANYONE WHO TRIED TO TAKE THEM, HOWEVER. (AND NORMALLY DEATH IS FOREIGN TO ME...other than natural death) This would not be normal, however.
Hollywood is telling the truth in some form. Watch all the movies carefully. Most fiction movies, are not that fiction.
Oh my god this might be one of the strongest women I've ever seen. The amount of complete and utter fucked up shit she's been through yet still manages to be such a beautiful being inside and out is beyond me. I really really hope she'll be okay.
If the one of the "strongest women you've ever seen" is a strung out fentanyl addict, then you don't know the meaning of "strong" !! 😂 Drug addicts, while they are addicted, are the polar opposite of "strong".
Take what you heard with a grain of salt
@@geetalks lmaoo I was referring to the way she carries herself after having lived a fucked up life like that. Leaving your comment coming from another woman, gotta admit I'm kinda disappointed at how you undermined the shit she's been through just because shes a drug addict. Kinda low 🤷🏻♀️
100% full of shit
Other than the drug thing, ib think she's gonna be good♡ she's so wise.
As a man is infuriates me and fills me with disgust the things we do and are capable of doing.This poor soul suffered so much I hope she finds her peace.
My heart aches for Clover so bad. It's so horrific what she's been through, yet she still has this beautiful soul shining through. I hope she's able to get the help that she needs to get and stay clean and deal with all of the terrible trauma she's faced.
Her voice sounds like she's always about to cry.
Its long term side affects of drugs fucking up your body
@@sj9410 Her voice was like that when she was in her 20's. I didn't recognize her in the thumbnail and wasn't paying attention when I first played the video. When I heard her voice, I knew it sounded familiar.
Probably because she does
@@honeybunchesofohs8100 where do you know her from
@@realitycheck1092 She was a cocktail waitress at places I used to hang out. We had mutual acquaintances. She was always 'out there' even without drugs, but is really smart. She was always kind. She was popular and people really liked her.
This was a rough one. I could honestly feel her pain & trauma. Nothing that happened to her as a child is her fault. She’s a survivor. She’s a warrior. She’s proven she’s just going to keep going & all she needs is her cat. I hope she finds someone she can trust & they are good to her. Or she is completely content with being alone. Whatever it may be, I just hope her future doesn’t include anymore pain, suffering & trauma. She’s an amazing woman.
The pain never goes away; it is only as manageable as you are strong and together.
Right. This woman has shown she has a will to make it. I hope she can find some happiness and a life away from fentanyl. Drugs make even the darkest moments darker.
You put exactly what I’m feeling into words
26:00 …. “Pretend like they love you,
Just to get close enough to hurt you…really bad..”
My heart breaks for her…
This woman has been to hell and back and can still see a positive outlook on life. Such a beautiful soul. I hope she can get the help she wants. ❤️
Her whole life has been a nightmare…I feel so bad for her :(
Feel happy for her story to be told, she is formidable.
@@tomkeppler1717 part of me hopes you are right…but there has to be some trauma there for her to be in this place
Yes it's crazy
Clover’s story is actually pretty common... there are soo many people that can recall being woke in the middle of the night and taken to these gatherings in which horrendous things would happen: being trafficked, sexually abused, sacrifices, rituals, etc. These people hurt children and it’s still happening to this day. Where are all the missing children? Who will care for the abandoned? Orphaned? Disabled?
There was a documentary on A&E about this. One was about modern day cults and another about polygamy. I wonder why people don’t believe this stuff is real after all the women coming out and saying it happen to them.
Yeah the scary part about it is due to the fact it's done by people who are most likely rich and off high status. Who can afford these type of things pretty sure it must get pretty expensive trafficking all these innocent people. That's the real scary part you know kinda like that movie eyes wide shut.
I've heard many stories at this point. There's a CZcams channel I believe John Wedger ( we don't see eye to eye on politics so I ignore that). Anyway discusses SRA and you can find a document linked, a list by a UK psychologist who deals with SRA victims and she will only add names to this list that have been verified by two or more independent sources. On that list you'll find 'care homes' (orphanages basically), schools affiliated with the royal family in the UK and Canada, police, lawyers, politicians etc. Makes it much easier to understand how these seemingly impossible things are going on right under people's noses.
@@annoyingkid1993 explain eyes wide shut
I was just referring to the part were tom cruise went to the mansion orgy party. And they had all these women that were clearly bought as prostitutes. Also when they found out who he was they tried to sexually assault him because everyone knew he wasn't suppose to be there. His friend even told him that he was there and saw him, and told him if I told you the people that were attending you wouldn't be able to sleep. Which means these are people of high status maybe even in politics.
"Have you ever been in love?
No, I don't know what that is." Damn, that hurt. She's such a gentle soul and it's clearly natural, not an act. I'm glad she has her sons and I hope they take care of her when they're grown. She deserves peace, love and support.
this is absolutely the most upsetting one I've seen so far. I've seen a lot of these videos but her story is just so terrifying. I cannot even finish watching this in one sitting. This poor baby.
I couldn’t even watch this whole video her story is so traumatizing that I can actually feel her hurt in her voice. I just broke out in prayer. I Pray that GOD bless her with someone that can show her a more loving and peaceful life.
James 2:14-26
How do you stay loving life? Sometimes it feels like the devil is winning... Badly in today's world .. what to do? I feel so disappointed in most of the people around me today. I feel lost.
@@parisa5014 ur not alone. Concentrate on the Good, the True & the beautiful which still exist, mostly in the natural things; & pray without ceasing. We're in a time of great division & judgment. Check ou the
ebiblefellowship channel, here on CZcams.
@@MoonbeamBear61 thank u. I appreciate that. It certainly helps to know I'm not alone. God bless.
@@parisa5014 😊
I also can’t believe people feel so entitled to deny her reality. Nobody asked for your opinion, just listen, you can hear her pain in her voice…
That’s what it’s about. If someone is feeling pain, I’ll listen. Who am I to be the judge and jury?
People can be so cruel and feel no empathy but that’s sad for them to be like that honestly. This woman although maybe doesn’t remember things exactly as they were knows how bad her childhood was and I think that’s enough to feel for her. Those people saying horrible things have no soul so it’s best to ignore them. I don’t understand why it’s so important for her story to be 💯 accurate like tf I don’t even remember what I did last week exactly but I can retell important parts about my week. Sheesh , this woman is talking about her trauma and people are mad? It’s behind my comprehension
She said that a guy trying to kill her had black eyes and when she convinced him to stop killing her his eyes changed color.
@@Hcfungfuikbgdhhh she was obviously on drugs so , possible her experience was heightened by whatever she was on but still traumatic nonetheless.
@@Hcfungfuikbgdhhh many who have had traumatic experiences with narcissists have seen paranormal things happen. I've heard the black eyes things many times. There are a lot of strange things in this reality that people don't want to acknowledge. Perhaps her ability to see is better than that of others. That's true of many survivors.
I find that strangers are even kinder to me... I almost cried when i heard that, I really feel for her. She's unbelievably strong.
😢 this hits me in the chest like a truck doing 100. Out of all your interviews mark this is the one that broke me.
I hope this woman gets the love she truly deserves. I’m speechless.
Her soul comes out in her voice. It feels like she is swallowing all her tears all the time.
If you see this, you are super strong and brave. I wish you all the best to better you and your situation. I am sorry you have had to deal and live such hurt and abuse.
I sensed that as well, the pain that sounds as though she’s swallowing it.
May you find peace and truly learn how beautiful you are to YHWH. He loves you so.
She has a little girl there who still wishes to be truly loved...
Right
This is so true I'm an Irish Catholic and they absolutely adopted babies out this way. This wad standard procedure. To the highest bidder and especially Americans. She's a lovely lady who went through so much.
@Meow🐈 no actually it was all about how much the Catholic church could make off selling each child. Please do your research there are documentaries or newspaper articles into catholic mother and babies homes and what the women and children suffered.
@Meow🐈 dumb ass
I have heard adoption stories similar to this.
@@KCee-lm3jd You seem like such a lovely, caring person.
@@truthteller1908 Absolutely. The church lies.
She has a light in her, she has a good hearth, and I wish her the best forever. She went through a lot, and she is still a good person. I hope she stays safe and happy with her cat.
She did mention how she loves her cat and her 2 boys. She said hard to trust anyone.
@@pjrichards3974 Yeah, she is a kind woman!
Actually speechless 🥺. There’s some evil people out there. I’m glad she’s got herself an RV and cat and prefers to keep to herself, so protecting herself from this cruel world. I think she needs to reach out to her biological family. This is where her healing could begin but I can quite understand her not wanting to risk being hurt by them also. I wish her peace and love and most of all protection ♥️
The human species has the capacity to be the cruellest imaginable....we are truly despicable at times. I work with dogs for a living and they don't treat each other as barbarically as we choose to. I really appreciate these interviews and send warmest of thoughts to Clover. How are you doing Clover?
There are other animals that do these types of things(obviously not for money or gain), humans are not the only species who even rape to death or kill just to kill.
@@chel9064 True. We are indeed just another species of animal, the only difference is that we wear clothes. We are also the most dangerous by a long shot.
It makes me glad I don't have children.
Humans have the choice not to do it.
@@maznyo True and that's what makes it so awful. Peace & best wishes to you.
This happens every day. Trafficking is a multi BILLION DOLLAR industry. Some who are trafficked are gifted and used for special "operations". Operations used to force silence on those in positions of power. Power given to them by those on the highest level. Human trafficking must be spoken about more and more by women like Clover. I admire her courage and struggle.
YES this does happen but people are to lazy and just ignore it due to their comfortable life style...look at epstien once the media stopped talking about it people just forget
@@WondurLand64s ... yes you are right !!!!
Yes you are right , I know all about it... I’ve made it a point to read and research everything there is to know about these things... MK Ultra and such
True I feel everyone should spread awareness about this
@@kylieeeramirez7838 holy shit we have the same last name! And for me digging really deep into these things about a decade ago made me so mentally anguished I couldn't sleep and often felt lethargic but I couldn't help but dig dig dig! It's truly awful what happens to people particularly children in this world and I think the most depressing thing for me was the total lack of awareness everyone seemed to have about it all. A couple years back right before the big C it seemed like people were actually starting to talk about things and it looked like there might even be hope for change but now I don't hear anything and I know there's tons of children that need to be rescued so what's up!!
I know someone who was trafficked by her dad who was a high upper in navel intelligence. These things really happen. Some are so destroyed they never get out or speak about it. Clover is a beautiful soul and the dark evil attempted to snuff her out. I wish you well Clover. You are amazingly strong. It's awesome you did this interview. If everyone does something then the secret of human trafficking will be no more. It's only a matter of time
I am a victim of sexual abuse as a child. I am not going to lie when I say, it ruiined me. I would be a better person if that never happened to me. I will never ever be normal. I will always be haunted by nightmares and scared for the rest of my life. A lot of people tell me what happened to me makes me really strong and that I am a survivor because a lot of people would have ended their life if they were in my shoes. I do not want to be the strong person from my experience. I just wish they never happened. I will never get my childhood back. I will never get to experience what happy families have experienced. The only thing I can do now is make sure my daughter never EVER goes through what I went through and give her the life I never got.
((Infinite Hugs))
I'm so sorry darlin'. So so so sorry.
I’ve been studying this kind of crime for years. It happens so often and everything she is saying is unfortunately -absolutely true. She is a survivor of some of the most horrific things imaginable. I’m so sorry you went thru so much Clover. You were robbed of your childhood and I believe you, I know this is real. You are worthy of a brighter future than what you were given as a child and I wish you all the peace in the world!!
It astounds me how social service professionals see this abuse habitation so commonly. Bless you
The amount of men that participate in sex trafficking, even worse child sex trafficking, is terrifying
I watched the Tyler Henry show on Netflix and it talked about his mom being taken by a lady. And she was heavily in the church and used the church to get foster kids that she totally abused and neglected
I agree, many of the things she talked about I've heard before with children being born for the sole purpose of trafficking them and using MkUltra and SRA as mind control. She strongly reminds me of someone famous, perhaps it's Winona Ryder?
@@annyirish6106 1. Famous women's kids don't end up like this. 2. She literally said it was her dad who was famous.
Two of my earliest memories: My very first pelvic exam (due to SA) when I was roughly 2yrs old. The other one is me running around a cheap motel room initially in my underwear and quickly I became fully nude thanks to my mom. She was laughing and playing with me while a man was taking pictures of me with an old Polaroid camera. My mom kept some of the pictures. I have no idea why. She was paid by that man to take nude photos of me at 2-3yr old. These are some of the memories I carry. I believe everything she’s saying. It happens every day.
I'm so sorry. Speechless
I am so sorry. I hope you find peace from that horrific experience and that you get justice against your abusers. You deserve so much better.
God Bless you. My heart breaks for you and all of the women/girls that had and have to go through this.
I hope you’ve been able to have a beautiful life despite this horrible memories you have. I am so sorry. I have terrible memories but no SA that I can remember
I'm so sorry Hailey 😞
This interview was 2 years ago and I would like to know how she is doing. Regardless, I have prayed for a hedge of protection around her and will continue to pray for Clover daily as she deserves it! Bless her sweet soul! Clover is a very intelligent woman and I understand why she is happiest being alone! Blessings to you sweet woman!
The amount of trauma and pain this woman has endured is beyond imaginable. I hope she has some kind of consistent joy.
Of course she's scared of people ; from birth, every adult has abused her! God, this is heartbreaking. I think we sometimes forget how fortunate we are.
Her speaking on depression being "empty" is spot on. I do the same thing, where I try to find the source, but true depression doesn't have a source. It's just this big, heavy cloud that exists for no good reason.
Exactly.
profound
I felt that too. She can't pin point the depression. Can't tell where it's coming from. So true.
Dissociation? I try to chase my anxiety although paranoid it usually leads me to something I can be aware of to improve or be more careful efficient and more conscious
The cure for that is to fill that void with whatever makes you happy or inspired, if you don’t have anything you have to find it. It’s hard for many to find passion.
I’ve been watching this channel for a while now and this really puts into perspective what happens and makes me cry. This could have happened to me to anyone. God bless her❤
How Do You Not Cry When Interviewing Them .. I Can't Stop 😢
when he asked her have she ever been in love. she couldn’t even process it. so sad 😭
Oh she can process it... but it was extremely bad timing for that question.
This part absolutely broke me.
That makes me cry, how sad, but she is resilient ❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏
I wonder where the adoptive “mother” is…I hope she met her karma and gets hurt the way she hurt clover and probably other children. I hope clover can get help…she seems very spiritual and wants a life of peace.
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These types of people are why I support the death penalty.
She did.
Interesting remark. I believe in past lifes and maybe clovers story is the karma. Maybe she had to go through this because she was the one that hurt this woman in a past life. Hopefully the score is settled now.
Her mom and dad both died. Lori and I were best friends as kids and this stuff just didn't happen.
I honestly never knew this kind of thing happened. It’s just so heartbreaking. Ive learned a lot from these interviews. It’s crazy to think that such evil walks among us.
Wow I really hope there is an update to Clover (and Cujo's) story. She has held on to a great heart despite the trauma she has experienced. Wishing her the best.
Thanks again Mark and Soft White Underbelly
We didn't go to Disney World... Ugggg my breaking heart. Bless this beautiful soul.
seriously traumatizing....i have small kids and playing on their innocence and vulnerability like this makes me feel physically ill...
Her shoulders up to her ears, shows how scared and on guard shes had to be her entire life. She’s brilliant! Such a beautiful soul, I hope she can let it all go and find genuine relief and true happiness!! 💛
The shoulders. Oh man.
Poor woman has been through so much horrific stuff in her life and despite this she seems like such a lovely, down to earth kind natured person. Just shows how strong and beautiful a soul she really is. I wish nothing but the best for her future
To study our emotions is the most therapeutic thing we can do for ourselves, it's where our lessons are.
I ran from mine for almost 40 years (my childhood wasn't THIS tragic but still had plenty of trauma) & once I stopped & started paying attention, things got easier.
It’s horrifying how children are abused. The spirit is shattered after going through such abuse. Clover is special that she’s come through functioning. Praying for her❤️
None of this happened
@@lilmule9576 do you know her?
@@lilmule9576 Tell us what you know.
Why do you assume that Lil Mule.
@@lilmule9576 Nobody Is Gonna G.A.F. About A Single Thing You Spout About In Attempts To Undermine Another's Integrity & Character If All You Have To Say Is "None Of This Happened"...Come Correct & Represent The Initial "Facts" (If You Even Possess Them In The First Place) & State The Reasoning & Validity Behind Your Claim, Along With Evidentiary Support To Back Said Claim. Otherwise You Just Look Like A Presumptuous Tool With Low Self-Esteem/No Sense Of Self That Externalizes/Projects That Lack Into Ad-Hominem & Character Attacks Rather Than Internalizing/Introspecting & Doing The Self-Work Necessary To Be A Better Version Of Self & Moving Up In The World To Meet Other's Who Have Achieved A High Level Mentality/ Frequency Of Being As Opposed To Trying To Drag Others Down To Be At Ground Level With You So You Could Have Them Accompany You To Dwell In Misery Because You'd Rather Be Intellectually Lazy Than To Apply Yourself In An Effort To Better/Benefit Your Surroundings,The Lives Of Those Around You & Most Noteworthy; To Better/Benefit Yourself & Achieve A State Of Growth Adverse To Operating In Stagnancy & Bitterness.
I really didn’t want this interview to end, I love her so much, you could tell that she’s a lovely person through this interview, there’s just something about her........I wish you the best clover I love you ❤️
Exactly how I felt. Something so genuine about her. So honest that you cannot help but love her. Crushing to hear her life. I wish we could replace that feeling with our love.
@XANIQUE I felt exactly the same way.....u just feel GOOD coming from her
Also how I felt. My love and blessings for you, Clover 💚🍀 💚
I love her too 😩❤️ so sweet❣️
Aww clover may you be blessed and experience real true love in a way that is best expressed for you
The way she reacted to the question about ever being in love. Wow. She said the closest was her kids. These people Mark interviews never had a chance. She was blessed with the decisions about how she raised her sons. She is amazing in my eyes.
It's visible how even tho she's one of the wisest and most life-experienced people any of us will ever meet - the little child within her just wants to break free. Her lost childhood left her in a sort of innocent state. The shy smile, the way she's able to discuss such horrifying experiences while staying so calm and sane - as if she still doesn't fully acknowledge the things she's went through. I want to hug her so bad. She needs to be wrapped in affection and care. Such a sweetheart, how do such kind people end up in such fucked up situations??
These illegal adoptions were so common place in the 50's and 60's. Anyone who wanted a newborn infant and could pay for it easily got a baby. The biological parents were told their baby died during childbirth. Many doctors were the ones selling these babies. So very sad:(
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Jesus Christ 😔
Holy cow I never knew that. I'm gonna look into it
Absolutely true, terrifying and disgusting!!! Shame on all those “doctors/nurses” and I feel for those parents/children 😔😔😔
Yes they had twighlight births back then
Also the babies of unwed mothers some who believed their babies were going to loving homes, either through an organization or brokered solo. I don't know how people are doubting this. Look at what happens even today with state approved foster homes, group homes and reform camps.
A very intelligent woman. She may be the most resilient person that you've interviewed. Her stories had a ring of truth to them- I don't think she was making anything up. She has been through mortal hell her entire life but is still hanging in there, very cognizant even though addicted to fentanyl. She could have done great things if given half a chance. Clover you're a beautiful survivor!
She might believe her story but that doesn't make it true. It's terrifying how gullible people are. Qanon was completely made up by trolls on 4Chan and people eat that shit up for some reason.
@@SB-uw3fe you sound like one of the assholes that's doing this shit to these women, why would you even think about saying some shit like that. You need fukn help, i bet you let your dog lick peanut butter off your feet dont you. Think about what you say and how it effects other ppl bfor you say some dumb shit like that again,
My impression is that some of it is delusional thinking. Like the last guy "for 7 years" was drugging her and sticking needles deep into her body. She's mentally ill on some levels.
@@mallorymcguire833 who gives a fuck if she’s lying about some of it. that fact that ANY of this shit happened to her is unfucking-believable. id love for you and this other prick in the comments to deal with 2% of this shit she’s talking about smh.
We live in such a depraved world. Be careful how you treat others. You never know another person’s story. Commit to leaving this earth and it’s inhabitants a better place, not a worse place. Much love and healing to you, Clover!
She looks like the girl who went missing in 1985 from Cabot, Pennsylvania named Cherie Ann Mahan.
The author of this site should look into it.
This is the third video in a row when the most important lesson they've learned in life is to never trust anyone, and I can't blame any of these people for feeling that way. Dang.
This is my favorite story of the ones I’ve watched so far. Everything she’s been through in life has been horrific, but she’s extremely resilient and has a kind, gentle soul. I admire you so much Clover.
I just wanted to hug her !!! Bless her kind bruised heart. Bring her back and hug her
Thank you for your testimony. May you find peace and contentment and love. You are a strong soul.
I was left speechless to hear what she went through. How is it possible people could be so cruel and egomaniac to do such things to her, as a child as well as an adult.
She keeps trying to laugh her pain off which shows how much PTSD she truly has. I had to pause this a few times because it was too much to stomach... What an incredible woman. I wish her so much peace and happiness and I hope she has resources for her trauma...
Probably one of the most eye-opening interviews. I can’t believe such horrendous things have happened to her and she’s still here with such a kind demeanor. I wish her all the best and that she can get those needles out. I hope that those who have hurt her rot for their actions.
EDIT: The amount of people denying her story is appalling. I am so happy for everyone that won’t believe her because your life has been so good and full of love that you can’t even comprehend the evil that is in this world. Maybe her story is not true. Maybe her story is exaggerated. But this woman has been hurt, and that’s all that matters. Stop thinking that apathy is an admirable trait to possess.
@@annaxefta587 shut up
@@annaxefta587 block your hole
@@tomkeppler1717 You must be an absolute pleasure to be around.
@@tomkeppler1717 You’re very welcome. But no one is talking about that part of her. No one is denying that she has probably done some bad things. You have probably done some less than desirable stuff. We all have. She is a human that deserves compassion. Just like you. There is no need for me to be cordial with you, yet I have been nothing but kind. You, on the other hand, are calling me crazy and delusional. So I will stop being kind. I think what’s funnier than the needles is you thinking anyone wants to hear what you have to say. Goodbye!
I truly believe everything clover is saying.. this woman has been through hell and back time and time again. She is a warrior and I wish her all the best in this world and beyond. She deserves happiness
i keep coming back to these interviews. they make me so emotional. all i can think of after hearing stories like this one is that truly, life *is* unfair.
This is my 3rd time listening to your story Clover over the past weekend.
Truely heartbreaking and I don't have words enough to say how sorry l am to hear of your experience.
You are remarkably brave and courageous to share here and you may have no idea how many other survivors of abuse and trafficking you are touching.
You have touched me and your story has reminded me of children l met as a child and to this day,l have no idea what happened to them.
I remember what happened to some who l gave names to because I never knew their real names and none of them survived and on my healing journey,l needed to give them names.
Some of the children l met and babies l believe we're from these homes that were supposed to care and protect but sadly easily accessible for trafficking and for child pornography and the snuff industry which some people want to believe doesn't exist,it absolutely does.
I wish you all the very best Clover and l hope you do a follow up interview.Sending you lots of love.❤
I've been exploited sexually many times in my life and it hurts my soul that she had to go through this on such a systemic level. She's so fucking strong. I hope she's doing ok and that she'll find a way to quit drugs or at least the most harmful ones.
im so sorry. youre just as strong as she is. i hope you're doing alright
I wished she become clean and a Yoga Teacher again. I would come to every Yoga Class of hers. This is the Teacher I am searching for, not those cute Instagram-Girls having nothing to say and zero life experience. Such an impressive woman, she seems so strong! Feels like a sister although I am on the other side of the world. Good Luck to her and as many beautiful experiences as possible.
yoga is demonic...your opening yourself up to spirits. if you dont believe me do some studying on what the yoga masters from india have said. its called a kundalini spirit and its no good
@@WondurLand64s I agree. At time stamp 20:26 - 20:46, she said she stopped doing drugs & taught yoga a few yrs & it's like being on drugs. An hr after she'd do yoga, she'd see things.
Very interesting that was her yoga experience & she described it in that way. For her to have not been on drugs when she taught yoga & was seeing things, that means yoga opens a door to dark spiritual realms giving demonic spirits access to you. The kundalini spirit which people speak of regarding yoga. Kundalini is an ancient meditation & "awakening" practice that awakens darkness & negative energy; not light.
@superman with no superpowers do some research its the cure for ignorance
Yoga means yoke or unite with the spirit. This spirit is supposed to be the spirit of the universe but it is an anonymous one, and even though yoga is marketed to attract every kind of people specially non religious the deeper or more advanced you go the clearer it gets that it is actually quite religious. It is quite ancient not as ancient as Genesis of the Bible but quite ancient and it has ties with worship to sex and fertility and the sun and everything nature. If you do deep research you will even go as far down the rabbit hole and see that sex and fertility were worshipped with baby sacrifices and orgies. That is why many of those civilizations were at one point wiped out because of the evilness of their worship.
comment for those comments, as this gets a little too silly. this woman is taking fentanyl, which might kill her and you see yoga as the big problem here... so you recommend that she will NOT get clean and instead leave the superevil yoga alone...
evil powers or not: i have never heard of someone dying of a yoga-overdose...
i practice yoga everyday for 10 years, it makes me feel good and healthy and changed my life for the better, as for most people. and looking at the desease of drug addiction and THEN reading your comments, man... just a lot of mad ones out there... over and out
A very sad and harrowing account of a truly tragic story... My heart goes out to this brave and courageous lady whose burden of trauma has been carried throughout her life and cultivated in the most heart-breaking and abhorrent way💔 I resonant with her need for solitude and wish Clover a great deal of healing, compassion and loving kindness❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤍 May your future be filled with hope, prosperity and many happy RV adventures🌈
Aw Clover, I hope you find your happiness, your contentment. Your story is heartbreaking and I am sorry you are left with the pieces. You deserve to love and be loved unconditionally, you deserve to be cared for, you deserve trust, loyalty and safety. I hope where ever you are now, you are safe and/or in good company. Underneath all the trauma there is a beacon of light untouched by trauma, just know that even if you cant see it or feel it, it manifests itself in how you express yourself. Sending so much love your way, thank you for sharing your story. Xxx
I appreciate how you've titled this Mark. Well done.
"Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow." - T Real
Be a firefighter. Love your children unconditionally. 🔥
Excellent comment
Those words speak volumes to me. I am a firefighter. ❤️🤟
@@cindygoodman5053 keep fighting. On all fronts. 🔥💪❤️
@@lilaworley8935 I will forever! Thank you for your uplifting words and personal reply. ❤️🙏🏻
That’s a great quote. Thanks for sharing
The pain in my heart I feel for this poor girl. The moment I heard they pulled her legs so far apart that her tendons broke, I just busted out in tears. I hope she can find healing.
Im so glad I watched this episode. I wasnt sure if itd be too triggering for me but Im so impressed and in awe of this woman. Shes living proof that the people who suffer the most end up being the kindest people...they never want to make other people feel the way they felt so they go above and beyond but sometimes they unfortunately sacrifice parts of themselves they cant get back in the process, whether by choice or unknowingly. She is calm, intelligent, well spoken and still has a bright light in her eyes that becomes extra apparent when she talks about her boys. She has protected, nurtured and loved her boys the way she deserved to be loved. Bless her. She deserved so much better.
Wow. How impactful. This woman is incredible. From all that she has been through. Her energy shines strong. All my love to her. Could you possibly do an update video on her???
I can’t imagine the strength of will it takes to endure what she has.
Of course not. If you can’t look at that woman and tell she’s had a very tough life then maybe you’re the naive one eh?
Ah. No reason to feel any compassion then. Maybe stop being an asshole just for the sake of being an asshole.
@@Jetsetfastfood dont be so willfully ignorant its people like you who deny evil that just allow it to go on. go back to stuffing your face with food and staring into a tv screen
@@Jetsetfastfood ah. Ignorance is bliss ain't it
@@Jetsetfastfood You are ignorant of how insidious human traficking is.
Amanda's death effected me so much I had to talk to my therapist and told her story, and as we are in video session he looked Mark up on here and is looking at Amanda's and others stories, and told him how awesome Mark is, Thank you Mark, I wish you could hear my story, Hugs to everyone,
Hi Sasha, Amanda is an amazing example that anything is possible!
If you feel comfy you can share your history with our SWU family!
Much love to you 💗
I don’t know what you’re going through or what you’ve been through but what I do know is YOU’VE GOT THIS.
Sending you bear hugs through the ether ♥️
I hope your therapist is teaching you effective ways to cope with your empathy- stories like these can impact me greatly, too, and it’s been useful to talk about what empathy can mean- how it can be a positive, and sometimes tricky thing.
Wait, Amanda died???
@@Jessiemess85 Here’s the video about her death you must have missed: czcams.com/video/Jdy9l4nk764/video.html
Clover I'm so sorry for your pain and everything that hurt you. This interview really touched my soul. It seems you are so faithful and kind despite everything you have been through. I truly hope you find some peace.❤❤❤
Truly heartbreaking. That you still are a gentle, articulate person is unbelievable.
This one really hurt my heart and soul to hear. Honestly I’m left speechless.
I'm so amazed by the decisions she took in her sons lives. Keeping them shielded from the parts she knew she was struggling with in life and did'nt want to pass on to her sons. To me it shows amazing discipline, and love for her children. I hope she will find what she wants in life and hopefully she gets to enjoy the love her sons must have for her
The fact she is still alive from all she been thru is truely a miracle...I feel so bad for her..Dont rely on men anymore lady...rely on yourself..
Yeah… a miracle… or maybe a story that got confabulated over a sham hypnosis session shouldn’t be 100% trusted? She’s a victim alright but not that kind
God bless you Mark for posting these videos. I agree with you that the world needs to what's going on with people that are considered "different and homeless." I often try to help people on the street and it breaks my heart to see or hear of anyone who suffers or is in pain. I am so glad that you are doing this project. I have prayed for some of the people on here and I have written down their names to remember them better. If I can do anything to make your project better, please , please let me know. God bless you in all your efforts Mark.
the fact she reached a point of hallucination while doing Yoga is kind of crazy because sh's not aware of it being a power so many of us never reach because we're mentally and spiritually trapped in the bullsht of our perceived realities. Clover you are stronger and more special than you know
An idle mind (or totally relaxed) is the devils workshop. Doesn’t surprise me at all what she experienced.
You might want to rethink that. Yoga is a spiritual practice that opens you up to the demonic spiritual realm.
Clover is so intelligent as a person. Her mind is absolutely fascinating. If things were different, she would have been so academically powerful, she probably would have dominated her career path. To recognize and talk so confidently about what happened to her and analyze what was going on, as well as, make concrete right choices with her children and her life, speaks volumes on how great this woman's mind is. She shows high emotional Intelligence.
I know this is 2 years old but I hope her sons saw this and gained another understanding of their mom and what a great person she is!
I had a very traumatic childhood. I have PTSD as well. And like Clover, I do not like sex. I got married at 16 so I could get away from my parents, to a man who was emotionally, verbally, and sometimes physically abusive, a cheater who gave me all kinds of venereal diseases, and an alcoholic. After 20 years I left. He thought I would never do it. My children tell me every time they get a chance that I "broke" their dad.
And so, they feel very sorry for him, and I'm evil.
I love my children
I cannot bear to be touched, I will never be in a relationship again either.
This is the first time I say this to anyone
@@isabelhernandez9861 I’m sorry that you went through that and are still struggling with it every day. Thank you for being courageous and strong enough to share a sliver of a very painful past. I truly hope you can one day find serenity and peace in life, you are a good person that terrible things happened to, and don’t ever let anyone tell you that you aren’t a good person or that you deserved the abuse. No one deserves that, and unfortunately this twisted world we live in targets those among us that are genuinely great people like yourself. Sending hugs to you, hang in there and keep up the fight to find peace.
You can tell what a good soul Clover has, even through everything. The wry smile in her portrait Mark took- he captured her bright eyes and her smile, even if it was just for a moment.
She seems tough as nails, but I will sincerely hope for her safety and for her darling cat. I often go looking for four leaf clovers, and I’ll be sending some luck her way.
I am an adult male with kids and my heart breaks for this woman and anyone that has had to deal with this horror. In an age where so many profess to be warriors for justice; I don't think we could ever do enough to protect our children.
You can tell she went through hell but still she’s such a kind soul! I wish her all the best I hope she’ll overcome her addiction one day bc she seems to have a lot of potential to do better.
There is an innocence about her that is beautiful, but terrifying. I feel for her - and hope she gets everything SHE deserves - peace, comfort, safety, happiness, fun...and to feel (if she chooses) loved by someone she knows loves her absolutely.
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