The Cost to Be Close | Worship Set | 7.4.23
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- čas přidán 3. 07. 2023
- Prod. Josh Lee
Hi friends :) Long time no see~ Summer has been crazy busy for me :( but I missed you all and I hope you’re all safe and well, resting in the arms of the father !
I have two little announcements before I start.. Firstly, I’m sure you notice the change in scenery! pls ignore the frame.. I've been in the works getting a studio space put together to create more worship content for you guys, filling this channel with more content I’ve been dreaming about with the Lord :) I’m so excited! Additionally, I’ve created an official worship Instagram page to connect with you guys and to share updates with you guys on what the Lord has been doing in my life in the realm of worship! The account is @jeeyedeb ~ So excited to chat with you guys there!
In terms of my season, I feel like God has been calling me deeper and working on pruning, healing, crushing, and molding me. My character, the inner me. During this process, He’s been bringing to the surface my deepest brokennesses. My weakest places. The things I don’t want to address or see. And in order for God to work in me, He’s been asking me to surrender everything and empty myself to be near to only Him and seek only Him. To make the hard choices. He’s been asking me to give up my desires, the things that bring me comfort and distract me from having to be alone.
But to deny myself and live a life that is pleasing to the Lord. Man, that is hard. So hard. Walking with Jesus was never promised to be easy. But I press on with the hope that it will all be worth it. That I would find all of my satisfaction at the foot of the cross. That soon, God will reveal all of His goodness to me. To live a hidden life, where I minister to the Lord in the secret place. Where I bring what He loves. Where He is my everything. To know Him more.. How freaking hard. But I’ll do it all for you, Jesus. Even though it hurts, and I don’t want to let go of the things I think are best for me, even though it’s scary, I really.. really.. at the end of the day, love you the most. So help me God. I need your guidance, your grace, your help to make it to the end.
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Here’s a little excerpt from a deeper point in this season for me, just in case it resonates with anyone (6.16.23)
I’ve always struggled with deep insecurity, self hatred, people pleasing, pride, jealousy, self pity, etc. These strongholds developed in me because of my desire to want to be loved, to be wanted, because growing up I was told and convinced that I am worthless. These days God has been highlighting these deeper roots in me as I find myself being triggered or offended by situations in my life that strike a cord deep into my hurts. I’ve been recognizing sins beneath the sins, hurts beneath hurts, the thing beneath the thing. And I’m exhausted. As God is refining and disciplining me, in order to make me holy, He needs to uproot all the dirty in me and bring it to the surface, to the light. So all I see are my flaws, my failures, my nastiness all arising and evident. But this is the grace of God, to skim off everything that’s not of Him so I can be washed clean with His blood and His unconditional love. Set free from sin and my past hurts.
I found myself exhausted from being me. I was so exhausted of myself, all my effort to please man, all my stupid choices in life, all my sin, all my pride, all that I am not… I hated myself. But in this place, I hear the Lord asking me to lay it all down before the Lord and gave it all to Him. Not because I’m holy, or even a good surrendered Christian, but because I truly have no other way but Jesus. I can’t heal myself, I need His power and presence and Holy Spirit. I’m trying to surrender because I know I can’t do this in my control and on my own. I’m sick of living captive to my pain and I don’t want anything that is not of God. I don’t want anything apart from God. I gave up my pain to the One who truly heals because I’m a sinner, and only Christ can set me free. I am also hurt, and only God’s love, Christ’s sacrifice on the cross can fill me with the love I need to know I’m loved and valued. I want my identity to be rooted only in Jesus and who God says I am. I only want His validation and acceptance. I’m tired of being afraid of people.
I’ll find everything in His presence, close to Him. Just Him.
This is a journey and a long road. But if you ever struggle with deep self hatred just know I may not fully understand you personally but I get it. You were told lies that you were never meant to hear about your identity growing up. But Christ is not one who does not understand our temptations and lives. But He is One who loved us even when we had nothing to offer Him at all. He loves us just for us. I don’t get it much either but it's true!
You’re not alone, and you’re so loved by the One whom it matters the most.
Philippians 3: 13-14
Philippians 3: 7-10
1 John 4:10
Songs:
You Gave - Meredith Mauldin
Draw Me Close to You - Michael W. Smith
Move Your Heart - Upperroom
It’s honestly crazy to see the timing of this. I’m too currently in a similar season. Dealing with the wrestlessness of my sin. God has really been highlighting the lack of confidence, self preservation, pride, and unwillingness I have in my heart. It’s like I have become tired on my own body either the amount of stress I avoid dealing with these things, needing to let go of all of time in order to become fully who I have been created to be. It’s messy, I’m in training, and right now it feels like more failure then success. However, I have come too far to return to stay in what’s familiar and to allow the lies that bring me comfort stop me from stepping into the unknown of what God has called me to be. Thank you for your transparency and reminding me today I’m not alone in this.
Praying for you sis!
It’s okay to let it out! I know he seems so far away from you right now but I promise you he’s still there, he’s still right beside you to cry on, and lean on! It’s going to be okay, I promise! Hang on tightly
Hey Natalie :) I'm so thankful and happy that you're here, you're a reminder that I'm not alone either
I feel the same way 😢❤ I pray that God meets us all where we are and draws us closer to Him every day, even when He feels far. I pray that none of us would give up on seeking Him 🙏🏾 Give us strength Lord. Sanctify us, change us, and help us, by your Holy Spirit. We cease striving right now, and lean in You, in Jesus’ Name ❤ Amen
I’ve been really struggling with intrusive thoughts and feel exhausted really. I want to be close to God but feel very far away, exhausted, and spiritually broken, but I know in my heart that I’m not beyond repair. Could anyone pray for me, it would be much appreciated? Glory to God in the highest ❤
Hi Jeremy, I will never fully understand how personally hard it is for your fight with your intrusive thoughts, it must be so tiring :( But I can relate with feeling exhausted with my overthinking, millions of thoughts, and feeling so broken and hurt that all I can do is come before the Lord face flat on the floor, exhausted. But you're right, the Lord is so powerful and kind to heal and redeem us, and I know He loves you dearly! Praying for you!
Your channel showed up on my feed.
I read your description it describes me. Its been almost 2 years in a season of refinement, pruning, brokeness, nothing going my way, one trial after another, warfare, alot of change where I MUST depend on God. Looking at mountains only God can move. From the outside it looks like God abandon me but I know He is with me. He has become so much real to me and my all in all!!! I have to face all my yuckies that come to the surface. Its painful & humbling but its been some of the times where He tenderly loves on me🥹❤️ What a all powerful yet loving tender Father😭💞
wow wow WOW, i am so grateful to be running this race alongside you sista
BEAUTIFUL WORSHIP! 💙
This is very pure worship unto the LORD ❤🔥 Thank you for being vulnerable to share your heart so that others may join you at His throne. This is real, raw, authentic oil spilled out at the beautiful feet of Jesus 🙌🏻 Keep pouring out to Him, for Him ♥️
This is very beautiful pure worship unto the LORD ❤🔥 Thank you for being vulnerable to share your heart so that others may join you at His throne. This is real, raw, authentic oil spilled out at the beautiful feet of Jesus 🙌🏻
Keep pouring out to Him, for Him
Thank you for your kind words, Elicia
Thank you so much for these worship sessions, they are such a blessing!
Hi Olivia, it's honestly my joy and pleasure ◡̈ Blessed that you're here!
Wow the Lord spoke to me while I was playing this. May God bless your obedience to Him
NEW ROOM/SET UP LOOKS AMAZING
THANK YOU
Your purity in heart is a gift to the Body & to Christ Himself!!! What a sweet fragrance
Praise God! Thank you Mia ;,,,( This is my greatest desire.. God bless!
I love hearing about the seasons you’re in. I always find myself relating to them in some way
Amen, Daniel ◡̈ I'm so glad that my seasons resonate with you! Thankful to run this race with you!
Jesus is alive Amen, thank you Lord you have always been here🙌🏻❤️
HE IS ALIVEEEEEEE~ PTL
So grateful to find your channel and kindred heart! Keep pressing in and worshipping Him in the midst of people and life!
Thank you for your kind encouragement :''''( This is my desire to always have Jesus at the center and priority of everything ◡̈ God bless you!
I really enjoy your worship melodies. I use them for studying focusing on god and sleeping. Really soothing I have a lot of stress I work full time at a hospital going school full time to try to be a nurse goal is to be a peds or nicu nurse. I also take care of my brother he’s grew up with issues so everything is on me and sometimes I know if it wasn’t for god there’s no way I could do everything so I trust in him and thank you for sharing these.
So so so thankful that these sets allow you to dwell in the peaceful presence of God, gazing up on Him ◡̈ God bless you!
today at the church the shepherd said: you want to obey the Lord because you have seen that on your own way it's not working. and man... that was so real! I just need to be close, because my own desires and ways and hard work are just not working. they are not filling me. I need to be filled by Him, because it's so hard to obey and not to put my will first. but I really want to change and live all that the Lord has for me.
it doesn´t even make 1 hour that i met you, already watched 2 videos, and i see that your voice is marvelous and i'm thankfull that it´s been usen to the glory of the One and Only! don´t stop!
Thank you, Julia! So grateful you're here to join us & it's truly an honor that I get to worship Him here with you all ◡̈ Blessings!
Love your heart for the Lord. Thank you for sharing this and being so vulnerable! I'm excited for the dreams you've been dreaming with God
Thank you, Jemimah! I'm so excited to share those dreams with you guys too~! Thank you for being here :)
Laying on my back the tears kept getting into my earbuds. It’s been way too long since I’ve worshipped him with my tears. Crying now just thinking about it. 😂😂😂. I am praying the busyness of life doesn’t pull you away from him like it did for me.❤
God is just so kind to touch our hearts :'''''''''( I am def fighting alongside you to not get caught up in other distractions and to keep my eyes fixed on the Lord. Thankful to be running this race with you, Daniel! God bless~
太爱了 太棒了，喜欢这种自由的投入的敬拜
Dude, thank you so much for your honesty and vulnerability in your entires. Self hatred has been something I’ve been wresting w more than ever lately and it’s so painfully draining to go through. If you think about it, it’s more of a perverse version of denial of self, a way God never intended for us to follow. I’ve probably already said this on another video but I really admire your heart for the Lord. It is truly like a hidden treasure, so rare and so precious. You have a brave heart for Him. I pray the Lord does all He desires through you (even though it’ll hurt) so that you might come out refined as gold, glorifying our dear Father. Praying for you sis.
Amen, Angel :,,( Self hatred is so hard but I'm so thankful that the Lord turns everything the enemy intended to be evil into good. We're running this race together! Your words are seriously so encouraging more than you can understand and I'm praying the same thing that He'd refine my life into a sacrifice that's pleasing to Him. God bless you and so thankful that you're here and for your kind encouraging words!
I totally thought this was a different video and realized it was you. Thank you for sharing, as always bless you and all you do. May the a lord bless you 100 fold 🥰
Thank you, Ryan! As always, God bless~
I've listened to so many of these and this is the one I always come back to! My Absolute favorite cry of worship.
Amen ;''''') The Lord is so near to us
You go girl! You are a beautiful soul, a beautiful person. Let God arise and His enemies be scattered. You are truly a blessing and watching you grow is wonderful. God bless you richly in the secret place and in everything you do.
Thank you, Ernie :,,,( I quite literally teared up a bit reading this... Thankful for your encouraging words and thankful you're here in this journey! God bless you!
@@imagodeiworship Aww, I’m honored to have been an encouragement. I meant every word. Stand strong. Know who you are in Christ. God thinks highly of you and wants to be close to you more than you want to be close to Him. Never, ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Receive what He has for you by faith and walk in it.
@@ernieplumley2600 Amen :,,,,) Thank you, Ernie! I receive this so deeply in my heart and am so encouraged, thank you! God bless you~
Awesome 🎉 love it 🇧🇹
Thank you, God bless!
Thanks :)
Thank you!
Thank you! Your ministry is a blessing
Thank you, I'm so blessed you're here as well :)
So encouraged by His faithfulness over your life..
You’re so awesome girl!!!
Rooting for you!
Thank you, Jess :( This is so sweet, rooting for you too!!
this is so beautiful
Thank you, Jinju
Thank you so much for this beautiful encouragement, as you were worshiping, I heard the Lord wants an undivided heart from us.❤
Amen, Mary!! This is exactly what I've been feeling from the Lord in my life and during this set as well. Thank you for this confirmation
@@imagodeiworship He’s such a beautiful God, so loving and patient with us. thank you so much for inviting us into your beautiful worship to the Lord our God 🥰
@@faithinwhatChristdidonthecross Truly He is :,,,) Thankful you're here !
Right on Deborah!
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wowwwww commoonnnnnn🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
LOVE U SERAN
beautiful
:'')
please, keep doing it 🥺❤
That is my hope!! Thank you for being here!
I would love to see a video on your setup it looks great!
Hi Abi~ THANK YOU honestly this is such a cool idea! Thank you for the suggestion, I'll see if it's something I can do! But I'm still organizing and putting things together so maybe when I'm more settled in? LOL but thank you nonetheless~
I love you’re voice! So beautiful, and heartwarming🥹❤️
Thank you, Rachel :) God bless!
God bless you!
What exact Yamaha model is that? I’m trying to buy one for my church ☺️
Hi! This is the Yamaha P-125 88 Keys Weighted Keyboard ◡̈ Hope this helps!!
You're beautiful ❤️
Thank you, Mary~ You are so beautiful and beloved as well :)
Beautiful. Can I ask why you clap at the beginning and end?
Hi, yes of course! I do it to align my video with my audio when I edit. I did it in the beginning stages of this channel and it's just become a signature thing I do now hahah!
@@imagodeiworship Oh I see! I am always live so I did not know. I love your worship sessions. I pray the Lord would increase you here and everywhere. Blessings.
@@veronica.armstrong Thank you so much for your kind words :)
Hey I have a couple questions about some of the stuff your doing, do you have communication preferences ?
Hi! The best way to reach me right now would be through my worship instagram page :) You can find me at @jeeyedeb ! God bless ~
@@imagodeiworship sad I don't have Instagram... 😶. I just wanted to see about some of the settings for your vocal chain on whatever DAW you are using
can i get a hello deb
hello :D