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Because You First Loved Me | Worship Set | 4.9.23
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- čas přidán 16. 04. 2023
- prod. Jason Song
Hi guys ◡̈ Long time no see, I hope all of you are doing well~ Also sorry my video cuts out early on this video too :(
I found myself singing the lyrics "I know you love me" over and over again during this set, and didn't realize until I finished filming, but I actually had such a hard time believing this truth until a couple of months ago! Up until recently, I remember myself telling my spiritual mentors and community all the time about how I knew that God loved me, but had a hard time truly believing that He did. It's written in the bible (John 3:16), I hear it all the time at church and from the pastor, but yet this simple truth was one of the hardest things for me to believe and it affected so many different aspects of my relationship with God, negatively.
The reason why I had such a hard time believing this, was because I grew up believing that I was inherently unlovable. This was due to a lot of traumatic and recurring life experiences that displayed to me conditional love, abandonment, and rejection. I was severely bullied when I was younger and so I grew up being told and believing that who I am, just as I am, was defective, unlovable, ugly, gross, too much, etc. I only knew love in a conditional/transactional way and that in that equation, I had nothing of value to offer.
I honestly don’t know when the turning point exactly happened when I came to believe in the depths of my heart that God loves me. But I think it happened last year where a lot of my unbelief, brokennesses, fears, doubts, hurts were being dug up and processed with the Lord. Honestly I can only attribute the change in my heart to the Holy Spirit healing me from the inside out. I was struggling to believe the fundamental character of God. That He is love, that He will never abandon me, never get tired of me, never pick on me just because He wants to torment me, always stays by my side, chooses me, doesn't treat me worse than others, knows me, wants me, and chases after me. I couldn’t believe it because I couldn’t even begin to understand what that looks like, and I couldn’t comprehend that this love was available for me even when I had nothing to offer in return. It felt too good to be true. But as I began to ask the Lord to reveal His love for me so that I can really learn and understand, to know his character rightly, (because not knowing God’s love means I’m missing out on knowing like a giant aspect of who God is), I think He began to journey with me and step by step, the Lord, in His kindness, began patiently showing me, speaking over me, and covering me with His love. It would look like being able to see & understand more of His faithfulness to me, healing my past traumas so that I can renew my mind and receive, surrounding me with deeper sisters and community that would stick with me and love me through my mistakes and my ugliest moments, seeing more of His forgiveness and grace, His consistency, and etc.
The phrase that actually got me saved was when a pastor said “It’s not God who forgets that He loves you, it’s you who forgets that God loves you”. Remembering that phrase, I realized how much it must hurt God’s heart for me to deny His love for me when He has done nothing but proved it over and over again. He’s never hurt me or failed me, has been the only one who really is by my side every step of the way, never thinks my problems are too much or that I need to become something else in order to finally be loved. He saw me, as I am, and loved me. Sent His one and only son to die on that cross for me WHILE I WAS STILL A SINNER. The truth that God chases after me much more than I ever could Him and that the security of my relationship with God is not dependent on my effort and mistakes but on His love and grace alone... is JUST LIKE WHAT HOW?!?!?!! How can I deny the love of the one person who truly loved me since the beginning of time?
I did nothing to deserve God’s love and yet nothing can separate me from it (Romans 8:39). I only attribute having this confidence to God! I think a part of receiving, is surrendering what we think and know is true, to fully in faith, submit and believe the truth that God is who He says He is. Of course this takes time and lots of processing and healing, but how kind is God that He is so patient with us and desires for us to know Him rightly. When I look at the cross, the ultimate act of love, I’m so overwhelmed and all I want to do is worship and praise Him, exalt and adore Him, be with Him in His presence and never leave. So thank you for loving me, God. Thank you for healing me and being so kind, there is none like You. I love you, Jesus :)
I feel like I didn't word this well, but I hope you guys get the gist haha ◡̈
Pslams 139 - A truth that He knows everything about us and yet still chose to and chooses to love us.
Genesis 50:20
Songs:
At the Cross - Matt Redman
I Will Worship You - Carl Tuttle
Beautiful Savior - Planetshakers
So beautiful and anointed, I could listen all day long.
Ive struggled almost my entire 2.4 years walking with the Lord that He loves. He sang over me one time ... I heard His voice singing to me😭😭😭😭😭. Another time I heard Him soooo clearly tell me " Im good enough" and I had asked Him a question laying in bed if I even pleased Him ,that night I dreamed I was standing in a empty room & walls were covered in red large roses yet Ive still doubted😞 I believe now He loves me but I struggle with performance & striving. I desire child like faith & love with Abba. I never had a father & my stepdad was awful. Husband very abusive. Much pain in my heart still. But He is healing me & rdvealng Himself as a tender gracious patient Father👨👦💞
Wow, I relate so deeply with wondering if I'm loved, good enough, and working to earn His love, but it's SO beautiful seeing the way He loves you so deeply and intimately, always showing you His heart for you time and time again.. So encouraged by this!
so beautiful ❤
that first clap just banished my whole problem for a second. need to hear it more i guess
I've been listening to it for 2 weeks in a row while I'm working. I come here every single day since then. You have no idea how impactating what you do is. God bless you ❤🙌
Betto, I'm so blessed to hear that this space has been a place for you to enter into worship with the Lord and rest in Him. Thank you so much for the encouragement, I'm so in awe of our God! Thankful you're here!
Jesus just led me to you right after asking him what he's like, I wanted to know his character and he communicated it through you.
Thank you for making this video
wow... I don't have words, this is so special. Thank you, Kyddoh and thank you, Jesus. I am so encouraged and blessed by this comment, praise the Lord!
I can feel the purity of worship through your Worship Set videos.. Thanks, keep worshiping & keep going to be blessings, sister!
Thank you so much for your kind words, Kevin :'''( So grateful that I get to worship the Lord with you all :(
I always look forward to your worship set. It draws you to Jesus.
Praise God!
wow, what a blessing to come across this video
I'm blessed that you're here!
Awesome session with Holy Spirit 🙏🏻
Thank you, amen!
I just read your comments and it brought tears to my eyes. I was at that point once. But I have known now that God loves me.
Just know continually that God loves you more than you even realise now. I love you too as a brother in Christ. You are a blessing.
Thank you, Ernie. Feeling unloveable is a hard unbelief to heal, but God's love is so overwhelming and pure, it breaks down all my unbelief. I'm so glad that you've also come to know that God loves you. You are a blessing as well, God bless!
Thank you for reminding about God's love for us. May you continue to do the will of the father in your life. You are a blessing!
You are a blessing! So thankful you're here and I hope to stay in the shadow of His wings :''')
wow your voice instantly ushers in the Holy Spirit😭♥️ my baby has been fighting his nap for an hour but this put him to sleep instantly 🥹
WOW that is crazzyyy Praise the Lord!! Thank you for your kind wordss :''')
Thank you for loving me first Jesus 🤲🏻🤍
Amen, He loves you so much!
Oh Jesus, my heart cries Holy.
Holy, holy, holy!
I can’t believe I missed this update, thank you for sharing this! Many blessings to you!
Appreciate you, Ryan! Blessings~
Beautiful voice! ♥️
Thank you for your kind encouragement ◡̈
I just saw this today; thank you so much for sharing! I have told the Lord many times to give me a voice to worship Him the way He deserves and to teach me how to play the keyboard (I have no musical ability although I Looove love love music). I guess He gave me you to listen to until then 😉
I will be listening to the rest of your videos. Thank you again 😊💜💜
Aweh, Trina this is so sweet and encouraging, thank you. But I know that God delights in YOUR worship and YOUR voice too whenever you bring your true and pure worship to Him ◡̈ Jesus loves you, God bless !
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Praise God ^_^
Amen!
Really peaceful. God bless you.
Amen, God bless you!