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Telling my aunt about my suic*dal thoughts and SH ps im 10 lets see how this goes…

I had a seizure and it went for a long time, one of my friends got a teacher and it turned out she was trained in first aid and had done a course on seizures, except she moved me( i was not in danger so this was not necessaary) also she was like ill call your parents but we cant call an ambulance because there has already been a call for an ambulance today, which doesnr make any sense.

The fact that i want to go back to the hospital to get away from home.

Do your parents see you in there? (Should I be honest to my therapist...?)

Has anyone ever heard of del amore hospital 🏥 it is the worst hospital I've been in ever

The audio💀: oh hell no the audio

pov you might be going here soon bc the cops got called on you 😛 🤭 😧

the food is not too bad in the psych ward i can have my phone here but they keep your charger and charge it in the closest and the ice cream sandwiches are really good at the counter

i am a orphaned adoptee orphaned at birth i lived i was adopted at birth abandoned at age 3 lived on the streets from age 3 to age 7 then grew up in the system abused the whole way through abused in every way i was abused by former adopted families and by every woman i've ever been with been raped drugged hit with things stabbed cigarettes put out on me i went from group home to group home to foster home to foster home im a professional boxer i train 7 days a week and workout in the gym 7 days a week and on a design your own program on a strict structured program and hide mental and emotional pain all the time and SH im currently in rehab right now also in mental health counseling at lifeworksnw im in psychology and psychiatry and at ideal option my been an addict since i was 9 years old i am 36 now my DOS is 11/13/21 i clean off of alcohol and prescription meds narcotic pain meds mixing stuff with alcohol also clean off of crack cocaine Opioids benzos meth heroin and fentanyl with OD's im on naltrexone for cravings but now also on suboxone i have to get the vivitrol shot also for my cravings i go too NA & AA and dual diagnosis program and smart recovery and celebrate recovery i am at lifeworksnw Monday Tuesday Wednesday Friday 4:30pm to 7:30pm in group and 1 on 1 and at ideal option twice a week level 1 is two days a week in iop intensive outpatient level 2 is 5 days a week in iop intensive outpatient level 3 is in residential inpatient in a small facility level 4 is still residential inpatient just in the bigger facility the main facility level 5 is hospitalization... i am level 2.1 i have long term thorough after planning but going into inpatient residential dual diagnosis program after an OD i was passed out unconscious totally unresponsive with my eyes in the back of my head i had to be narcaned several times withdrawing right now off alcohol weed opioids and benzo's i lost my first and second wife and 3 kids and all 5 of my childhood best friends currently detoxing in the hospital🏥 currently in the hospital🏥 9th floor 9 west room 958 for severe abdominal pain vomiting blood and blood in stool and bleeding ulcers having withdrawals and nausea had a spinal tap they were supposed to lay me flat for several hours but only laid me flat for 45 minutes caused a raging migraine and neck pain had three falls so i am a fall risk passed out unconscious and unresponsive during a ct scan also fell in the bathroom after getting sick got dizzy light headed fell over was able to pull the emergency cord hit my head on the railing in the bathroom fell on my legs injuring them can't walk or stand unassisted hit my head on the floor passed out unconscious and unresponsive they called code purple which is a fall on the floor also got dizzy and light headed on fell off the toilet hit my head on the wall my night nurse got me back into bed also fell out of bed and hit my head on the floor also here for severe asthma and chest pains and a deadly high temp can't hold anything down at all also in the adult eating disorder center for exspelling everything also here for mental health and going into inpatient for my eating disorder that started in the system still struggling with it today i have multiple concussions on top of eachother that arent healing tbi traumatic brain injury and cte and second impact syndrome in intensive physical therapy rehabilitation and concussion therapy, speech therapy, occupational therapy, vision therapy on Librium and lithium vitamins Bently sucralfate oxycodone Dilaudid trazodone Ativan prosaic prazosin on iv fluids also have a camera in my room watching me at all times checked on every 5 to 15 minutes been admitted for 4 months all be here into may idk when they will let me out the doctor seys im not fit for discharge being away from home is so hard

That person with the pink hair, their earrings were CRAZY

3:15 wait off topic, but she's stunning 😭

Can you most more of theses?

2:18 hahahahahau

I recently told my mom about my sh and she got me these arm sleeves for soccer to cover my scars up and she got me this medicine that make them go away ❤️ thank you mom

I’m probably going to be in one soon bc my mental health ain’t good so yeah these give me comfort thank you ❤️

7:34 i’m not HoH but i benefit from closed captions, dunno what her teachers were on about

So I'm super depressed and have OCD, but I have symptoms of bipolar or yk. I never told anyone and faked everything but when I did show it a little bit they'd all worried so. I thought about maybe sense myself to the Psych ward after watch the movie girl interrupted because that movie really made me reflect on myself. I tried to kill myself a bunch of times but now ill be happy, then depression hits and then anger. Which its overwhelming so then I get anxiety. I don't ho to therapy or anything because I have trust issues so. And I have trauma I can't stop thinking abkut , its something that happened to me as a kid. So that also causes anxiety. So thank you for reading this! Have a good night/day!!!❤

im 36 and have been in and out of psych wards since i was a little kid im ancient history and they all know me by name and memorized all my information security also knows me by name😂🤣

i am a orphaned adoptee orphaned at birth i lived i was adopted at birth abandoned at age 3 lived on the streets from age 3 to age 7 then grew up in the system abused the whole way through abused in every way i was abused by former adopted families and by every woman i've ever been with been raped drugged hit with things stabbed cigarettes put out on me i went from group home to group home to foster home to foster home im a professional boxer i train 7 days a week and workout in the gym 7 days a week and on a design your own program on a strict structured program and hide mental and emotional pain all the time and SH im currently in rehab right now also in mental health counseling at lifeworksnw im in psychology and psychiatry and at ideal option my been an addict since i was 9 years old i am 36 now my DOS is 11/13/21 i clean off of alcohol and prescription meds narcotic pain meds mixing stuff with alcohol also clean off of crack cocaine Opioids benzos meth heroin and fentanyl with OD's im on naltrexone for cravings but now also on suboxone i have to get the vivitrol shot also for my cravings i go too NA & AA and dual diagnosis program and smart recovery and celebrate recovery i am at lifeworksnw Monday Tuesday Wednesday Friday 4:30pm to 7:30pm in group and 1 on 1 and at ideal option twice a week level 1 is two days a week in iop intensive outpatient level 2 is 5 days a week in iop intensive outpatient level 3 is in residential inpatient in a small facility level 4 is still residential inpatient just in the bigger facility the main facility level 5 is hospitalization... i am level 2.1 i have long term thorough after planning but going into inpatient residential dual diagnosis program after an OD i was passed out unconscious totally unresponsive with my eyes in the back of my head i had to be narcaned several times withdrawing right now off alcohol weed opioids and benzo's i lost my first and second wife and 3 kids and all 5 of my childhood best friends currently detoxing in the hospital🏥 currently in the hospital🏥 9th floor 9 west room 958 for severe abdominal pain vomiting blood and blood in stool and bleeding ulcers having withdrawals and nausea had a spinal tap they were supposed to lay me flat for several hours but only laid me flat for 45 minutes caused a raging migraine and neck pain had three falls so i am a fall risk passed out unconscious and unresponsive during a ct scan also fell in the bathroom after getting sick got dizzy light headed fell over was able to pull the emergency cord hit my head on the railing in the bathroom fell on my legs injuring them can't walk or stand unassisted hit my head on the floor passed out unconscious and unresponsive they called code purple which is a fall on the floor also got dizzy and light headed on fell off the toilet hit my head on the wall my night nurse got me back into bed also fell out of bed and hit my head on the floor also here for severe asthma and chest pains and a deadly high temp can't hold anything down at all also in the adult eating disorder center for exspelling everything also here for mental health and going into inpatient for my eating disorder that started in the system still struggling with it today i have multiple concussions on top of eachother that arent healing tbi traumatic brain injury and cte and second impact syndrome in intensive physical therapy rehabilitation and concussion therapy, speech therapy, occupational therapy, vision therapy on Librium and lithium vitamins Bently sucralfate oxycodone Dilaudid trazodone Ativan prosaic prazosin on iv fluids also have a camera in my room watching me at all times checked on every 5 to 15 minutes been admitted for 4 months all be here into may idk when they will let me out the doctor seys im not fit for discharge being away from home is so hard

💉16:06 FUNNY THAT YOU SHOULD ASK😂🤣 💉 your gonna be put on green...

The trazedone jokes are funny to me bc that’s just my insomnia medication 😭

Thanks for posting this. The comments these folks have gotten are insane.

im 36 and have been in and out of psych wards since i was a little kid im ancient history and they all know me by name and memorized all my information security also knows me by name😂🤣

im 36 and have been in and out of psych wards since i was a little kid im ancient history and they all know me by name and memorized all my information security also knows me by name😂🤣

1:11 i love her attitude aint no snitch respect👊 3:14 little bitch syndrome🖕 14:35 wooah damnn i got a big problem this boys on steriods he's got a head like berry buns idk what the hell your feeding him but he is too damn big 16:11 this dude is funny af😂 19:28 i feel you comrade👊

Hey so this may not worck in sum hospitals but when I went when I was 14 we would steal a wash cloths put tissue in the middle of it and use a hair tie to tie it together and draw on a face

15:18 I have many disabilities and couldn’t participate in p.e most of the time. I could participate sometimes but wouldn’t be able to get changed because of dysphoria. My p.e teacher would get all angry and say something along the lines of “you not wearing your p.e uniform is distracting and hindering my ability to teach” which just discouraged me more. Then he would get pissed off to how I was not participating but when I would participate he’d send me to a “correction room” for not changing uniform

16:05 "well funny you should ask.."

I feel like I need to go to one (almost 18 now, but I've had bad depression since I was 13 and I've been having really bad suicidal thoughts, self-harming, and not eating enough), but I'm scared of going to one because I've heard of them being horrible and traumatizing, but I'm scared of not going and something bad happening to me. I've heard some mixed things about them but idk what to do. What do y'all think??

If I opened up to anybody I’d probably not get send to a psych ward, but an actual asylum lol

Anyone else here from 2024 looking desperately for comfort and feeling alone half wishing it was 2020 again so at least everyone was going through the same thing as you… jst me?

8:19 this person looks incredibly slay

I wanna go to a psych ward so baddddd, I have so many problems and I’m only 11 so I’m gonna talk to my school counsel so I can go to one. I wanna meet other people like me and I wanna see drama

5:56 Im sorry but could someone help explain what this means? It probably went over my head-

Growing up, all of the teachers loved me. But I couldn’t help but feel that they, at the same time, secretly all hated me. Middle school was fine, but during elementary school, my 5th grade teacher didn’t believe I had autism and treated me very bad. She would hold me down whenever I had outbursts, and made me stay back when there was a field trip. In high school, all of the teachers dismissed my dreams of becoming a show producer and essentially told me that the only thing I was good for was being a cashier at our local grocery chain. One teacher said I shouldn’t even be allowed to graduate because of all the times I stayed home because of anxiety. They all made me feel so small.

as someone both physically and mentally disabled (pots, gastroparesis, vcd, etc. and anxiety, depression, ocd, autism, etc) the amount of ableism is insane. like, why are there kids in school calling people slurs? why are horrible things like that so normalized and made to be jokes, and when it offends someone, theyre made out to be the problem. ableism is so stupid and how normal it is, is insane.

✨I have the variety pack of ocd bipolar adhd and autism✨

Do they check your vitals or take your blood if you’re 13-14? I might have to go there one day so just asking

Around the seven fifteen mark. Totally felt that one, I got a special PE exclusion for a severe now but then simply developing physical impairment and my high school PE people to the point it's not even with any of my present day records. Like I've pulled hair out over thinking I'd imagined that stuff at one point... it's not cool and it's seriously holding up my GED Efforts in the present...

HELLO I AM IN A FUCKING PSYCH WARD FOR ✨DEPRESSION✨AND PHONE TIME IS ALMOST OVER 💅💅💅(and trying to kms)

This is one of the only psych ward things that didn't scare me that the people would treat me badly. I know I will either end up dead, or at a psych ward if things continue as they are, and it's hard to tell what would be better. I know some are great, I just don't want to go to a place that would make me worse.

i got SO excited when i got my clothes while i was in hyland it was so comfortable i was so happy i also got to read my warriors books and have some ocs i made there!!

1:46 December 20th is my birthday! It’s also tommowow :DD

And people wonder why I don't like teachers.

The mental hospitals are better when you're under 18 👌 (Just in case anyone needed a little reassurance)

💚 😔

As someone who works in the mental health field, yea they open gifts, they will let parents rewrap them but all items should be carefully inspected and inventoried upon arrival

Omg I wish I could explain the actual experience, btw no property is aloud

7:36 ok just say you think you’re better than neurotypicals. Im nd and even i know that neurotypicals don’t just wanna think about the social hierarchy and themselves

NAH IM SORRY HOW DO YOU ACCIDENTALLY GIVE SOMEONE 1800 MG INSTAD OF 20 OMFG