Meant to edit this but ran into some software issues and said "Screw it!" Anyway, here's me rambling about how it felt to transition socially before I got on hormones.
I can relate with almost everything you say. The only difference is that I was so terrified of “looking like a guy in a dress” that I had to start hormones first. Anyway, I really enjoy your videos so please keep making them 😊
You're beautiful, girl! And, as an older adult who is just now finding their path in this... I am grateful for you sharing your experience. Only wish I had come to this decades ago. 👊🔥. Keep up the great work!
At times I wish I realised I was trans earlier on in life. There were glaring signs ever since I was 9, and I never really realised it until now when I'm 20. Although I wasn't made aware being trans was actually a thing you could do until I was 16, but still it's been a good while since then. But then again, I'm also partly glad I didn't go through school with dysphoria because I didn't need another reason for kids to bully me.
You do an amazingly good job of expressing your process/journey for anyone seeking answers to/for their own gender expression and transition... You are articulate, bright, and beautiful ! Thank you ! - Farley A.
From the first time I watched your videos you always looking beautiful and felt that you were some what uncomfortable but you have come so far hoping you don't let go keep climbing until you are who you want
Informative video thank you and found it interesting as i am at 6 months in stage of Hrt M2F, at that awkward stage where my body is really starting show feminine changes though still a fair bit male features in face really trying to grow out here more or more styled at least, facial hair still nightmare, i totally agree about the mindset changes, did you find youtself doing more new "feminine things" that perhaps once you wouldnt of it or learning how the mind adjusts to doing things a bit difference sometimes i get totally confused as suddenly im doing things different to the way ive learnt since i was born, think you've really worked on your voice as sounding feminine, great video again and look forward to seeing more videos from you and all the best with everything ❤
Thanks so much for sharing your experiences! That's a good question. I have found myself become a little bit more expressive in the way I present myself. When I was closeted, I hated the way I looked and sounded so much, that I would rarely talk and would sort of just sit in place and be quiet. Feeling more confident in my femininity has helped me learn to express myself in aspects from the way that I walk to the way I speak with people. It's really interesting to look at all the subtler differences that have come since starting HRT. Thank you for asking! I wish you the best as well
This video was sooo helpful being someone without any emotional or financial support to start transitioning I've been holding this in since my childhood and lately it's driven me into such a depression because I'm playing this role to fit in society and I'm almost 34 not getting any younger and I am just so sick of the emotional void I feel any time I look in the mirror. Btw you look absolutely amazing!
I am SO glad this video was helpful for you. I'm so sorry that you've gone through so many obstacles, but I am so happy that you are feeling ready to move forward. You've got this. You are wonderful, and I am very happy for you ❤️
@@boonewilliams5338 omg actually just today I decided to come out to my ex who is also a close friend of mine and it couldn't have went any better. She said how she always thought I acted feminine at times and wondered if maybe I was bi (which I am but mostly into women) I explained how I've just been doing this role that society wants me to be and she said if I want she will be there with me to tell my mom or even take her to lunch and tell her for me now keep in mind this is the first person I have come out to and honestly it's because I've been binge watching your videos and videos of other people I just knew I'd rather risk being alone and made fun of forever then keep living a lie I mean I've known I wanted this for probably over 20 years since I was a child! I know this is totally just the beginning but telling those close to me is a huge step there's alot of neighborhoods in South Jersey where it's straight up dangerous to be Trans. It felt like a huge weight off my shoulder to know I have someone on my side of course now I don't know what to do next lol because I want to completely transition all the way and hopefully look half as good as you do lol. I definitely feel anxious to get started cause it's it's LONG over due I mean years ago I would cross dress in private in hotel rooms it felt pathetic. I know that all the information in these videos definitely helped me finally take that leap cause it answered alot of questions I would have and it only further confirmed that I want a life like that. So you definitely helped at least 1 person in the world!!
@@mysouthjerseylife I feel so incredibly privileged, grateful, and joyful to have been a small part of what led you to this moment, and I am so incredibly happy for you. You can absolutely come out and take all the steps that you want to take as gradually as you like and whenever you feel you're ready and it's safe. I've never met anyone who wasn't nervous in the beginning. I'm really excited for you, and I wish you all the absolute best going into the future. 💛💛💛
@@boonewilliams5338 ohhhh yea nervous is probably an understatement lol but after all these years holding these feelings in if I could afford it I'd transition as fast as possible cause I feel like I've already waited long enough like your dad said in that one video if someone is brave enough to come out they are definitely sure what they want. You seem like you come from a great family great background I think it would be impossible to do things right without a support system that's why I was so excited to tell 1 person close to me and when she offered to help tell my mom it made me so freakin happy! I definitely wouldn't have been able to do it without watching these videos seeing how others feel exactly how I do and you can literally see how happy and natural you feel I just feel like omg I need a life like that because the life I'm living now is just constant depression. As happy as I am I am still just beyond nervous about the extremely long road ahead you're lucky you started out as young as you did for sure!
@@mysouthjerseylife I am incredibly grateful and fortunate to have been able to transition as early as I did and to have had incredible support throughout that process. I know your circumstances are not my own, and I won't claim to know them, but I believe that this really is only the beginning for you. I can tell you are a genuine soul with a strong understanding of what is important to you, and I know that this process, though it may have major ups and downs (as all processes do), will be incredibly positive and progressive for you. I am so happy for you, and I wish you all the love and support I can, moving forward. ❤️ Thank you so much for your candid message. I am incredibly grateful that my videos have meant something to you
Totally understand you! Love you and your content, (nothing sus (I hope)). It would be great to see more videos from you more often, but I love to rewatch them sometimes. This one is pretty old, but very useful. Stay as wonderful as you are☺️ Peace✌️
Wow that's so incredibly kind of you. Thank you so much for watching and taking the time to write such a lovely message. 💛 I've been really preoccupied with other life things recently, so unfortunately this channel has been sort of on the back burner
Boone Williams, that's fine, just stay safe and I'll see a new video when I see it, no pressure. Just know that you do an important content and you're really comfortable to watch to, that's it🐥
It's actually a pretty different process for everyone, I started wondering when I was 15 because at that age I could, before that I used to wear dresses and girly clothing since I was a kid but I just didn't know I was a transgender person, now I'm 29 and I just spoke out 3 months ago but after years of asking myself just by being able to speak out I got to the conclusion that I want this, it's something super strange, so started socially transitioning 2 months ago and it's so ackward haha, I've been pretty positive about it and, sometimes some doubts but I wanna move forward, I feel so happy, I'm having an appointment with a doctor next month so I'll be around! Thank you. By the way, you're right, the idea od suddenly transitioning it's only a fantasy
Aw this is such a sweet story, and I'm so so happy that things are evolving so positively for you. I'm very excited!!! I hope all goes as smoothly as possible, and thank you so much for sharing a bit of your journey :) 💛💛
@@boonewilliams5338 thanks also for speaking! Because you may be younger but you open doors for people like me, I swear I wanted to go to the grave with this "secret"
Well spoken, and editing wasn't necessary as noted by Xena Spears below. I have a limited knowledge of gender dysphoria but I have no doubt about it's being a recognizable i that needs to be resolved. Stay strong, find purpose in your life and know that you deserve a life of fulfillment, love and acceptance.
My self I do not push the she/her pronouns because like you said about your self I don't feel I am passing enough. I prefer to let it come naturaly. When I hit the point I am passing enough that people who do not know me use she/her then I will asking those who do know to use she/her for me. I know there are those who will fight it but It is a sad fact that it is going to happen. I am figuring it will be after I get a ways in to My electrolysis witch I have not started yet. I have had money issues recently. I will be getting that undwer way soon hopfully. I have had many people tell me even before HRT I was feminin naturally aside from the facial hair. With out any voice practice when I am upset if I call some one Exe; if I call the electric company to avoid my power being cut off luckely that hasen't happened in a couple years but they would tell me calm down mam so I know for me I should be able to achieve the voice with minimale work on there.
I’m a trans girl, I’m 13 and my parents arent allowing me blockers and I’m so scared that I’m gonna look as you said like a guy in a dress the rest of my life, I feel so trapped and alone..
I am so so sorry you're going through that. Have they given you a chance to explain that blockers pose no medical risk and only serve to pause puberty? There are a lot of resources on the WPATH website that may be helpful. If you feel comfortable doing so, I would strongly encourage you to ask your parents if they would be opening to simply learning more about what blockers are and how they have helped so many people. I wish had the links on hand, but there are a lot of data on the life-saving effects as well as the safety of blockers. I obviously don't know your parents, and I don't want to assume anything about them, but I want to believe that if they can get more exposure on trans people and their experiences as well as the medical science of this, they may be willing to open their minds to this more. Whatever happens, I support you 100%, and I KNOW that things WILL get easier. It takes time, and I'm so sorry you're parents aren't offering you the support to make things easier sooner, but you will get there. I know many, many beautiful trans women who went through testosterone-based puberty and transitioned after. They live wonderful lives, have amazing friends and partners, and are able to do the things that make them happy and feel comfortable in their skin. I believe in you and I am rooting for you. I wish I could do more. I'm wishing you every bit of luck and wellness that I have 💛
@@boonewilliams5338 thats very sweet, they don’t even believe I’m trans, and I sent an article about blockers and that just caused a huge argument which ended in me hearing some of the most hurtful things anyone has ever said to me
@@theleagueofrandom8066 I am so so sorry. I really hope they can shift views with time. I know that may seem impossible, but I've witnessed it in people who once had extremely narrow views of trans people.
@@theleagueofrandom8066 yes! That is true. I had a number of effects from testosterone. My voice became MUCH deeper and thus I developed a pronounced Adam's apple (which many cis women have as well). I also just got sharper facial features and maybe some other minor changes. All of these things can be changed in some way, either through HRT, surgery, vocal training, makeup, etc. :)
I look at you & see a young woman. The truth is you were never male. You just reverted to what you should have been all along. I have met many others & it is quite obvious to me that the idea of "changing sex" is wrongly defined.....if you "changed sex" you would be a man...
You nailed it. I've known some trans women who refer to themselves as having once been male, and I have no issue with that of course, but I have never considered myself to have ever been male. It just took steps to get everyone on the same page as me :)
Sincere apology for the lack in editing! Had software issues and was too lazy to investigate.
I can relate with almost everything you say. The only difference is that I was so terrified of “looking like a guy in a dress” that I had to start hormones first. Anyway, I really enjoy your videos so please keep making them 😊
I totally get that!! That fear actually kept me from socially transitioning for a year or two
And thank you so much!! I will hopefully some more coming
This has been my biggest fear. I’ve been worried no matter what I do I’ll never escape it
You're beautiful, girl! And, as an older adult who is just now finding their path in this... I am grateful for you sharing your experience. Only wish I had come to this decades ago. 👊🔥. Keep up the great work!
Thank you so so much!! That means so much to me. I wish you the absolute best of luck on your journey 💛
@@boonewilliams5338 😍. Thank you!
At times I wish I realised I was trans earlier on in life. There were glaring signs ever since I was 9, and I never really realised it until now when I'm 20. Although I wasn't made aware being trans was actually a thing you could do until I was 16, but still it's been a good while since then. But then again, I'm also partly glad I didn't go through school with dysphoria because I didn't need another reason for kids to bully me.
Girl I'm 25 and realized it there's nothing to be scared of
It's better without the editing it's more natural
I appreciate that!
Your story is a beautiful one. Thank you for being so vulnerable 👏🏾
Thank you so much. It is my great pleasure 💛
You do an amazingly good job of expressing your process/journey for anyone seeking answers to/for their own gender expression and transition... You are articulate, bright, and beautiful ! Thank you ! - Farley A.
Thank you so much, Farley!! That means a whole lot to me 💖
This video is perfect, It really helps a lot! Thank you Boone, you're awesome!
Aw wow! That's so nice of you. I'm really glad it's helpful. Thank you so much!! 😊
From the first time I watched your videos you always looking beautiful and felt that you were some what uncomfortable but you have come so far hoping you don't let go keep climbing until you are who you want
Thank you so much. That means so much to me 🥺❤
Informative video thank you and found it interesting as i am at 6 months in stage of Hrt M2F, at that awkward stage where my body is really starting show feminine changes though still a fair bit male features in face really trying to grow out here more or more styled at least, facial hair still nightmare, i totally agree about the mindset changes, did you find youtself doing more new "feminine things" that perhaps once you wouldnt of it or learning how the mind adjusts to doing things a bit difference sometimes i get totally confused as suddenly im doing things different to the way ive learnt since i was born, think you've really worked on your voice as sounding feminine, great video again and look forward to seeing more videos from you and all the best with everything ❤
Thanks so much for sharing your experiences! That's a good question. I have found myself become a little bit more expressive in the way I present myself. When I was closeted, I hated the way I looked and sounded so much, that I would rarely talk and would sort of just sit in place and be quiet. Feeling more confident in my femininity has helped me learn to express myself in aspects from the way that I walk to the way I speak with people. It's really interesting to look at all the subtler differences that have come since starting HRT. Thank you for asking! I wish you the best as well
Great video, thank you for making this! I needed to hear a lot of this.
I'm so glad it was helpful. Thank you so much!!! :)
Very recognizable. Well said and explained. Be authentic and beautiful, as you are, awesome.
Thank you so much 💞💞
you give me such gender envy, you’re so pretty 😭 i love your videos, you’ve been such an inspiration for me
Aw oh my goodness thank you so much that means so much to me 🥺❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I admire your courage. I'm trying to find mine ..
Courage doesn't always happen in an instant. Allow yourself time. Things will be okay 💛
This video was sooo helpful being someone without any emotional or financial support to start transitioning I've been holding this in since my childhood and lately it's driven me into such a depression because I'm playing this role to fit in society and I'm almost 34 not getting any younger and I am just so sick of the emotional void I feel any time I look in the mirror. Btw you look absolutely amazing!
I am SO glad this video was helpful for you. I'm so sorry that you've gone through so many obstacles, but I am so happy that you are feeling ready to move forward. You've got this. You are wonderful, and I am very happy for you ❤️
@@boonewilliams5338 omg actually just today I decided to come out to my ex who is also a close friend of mine and it couldn't have went any better. She said how she always thought I acted feminine at times and wondered if maybe I was bi (which I am but mostly into women) I explained how I've just been doing this role that society wants me to be and she said if I want she will be there with me to tell my mom or even take her to lunch and tell her for me now keep in mind this is the first person I have come out to and honestly it's because I've been binge watching your videos and videos of other people I just knew I'd rather risk being alone and made fun of forever then keep living a lie I mean I've known I wanted this for probably over 20 years since I was a child! I know this is totally just the beginning but telling those close to me is a huge step there's alot of neighborhoods in South Jersey where it's straight up dangerous to be Trans. It felt like a huge weight off my shoulder to know I have someone on my side of course now I don't know what to do next lol because I want to completely transition all the way and hopefully look half as good as you do lol. I definitely feel anxious to get started cause it's it's LONG over due I mean years ago I would cross dress in private in hotel rooms it felt pathetic. I know that all the information in these videos definitely helped me finally take that leap cause it answered alot of questions I would have and it only further confirmed that I want a life like that. So you definitely helped at least 1 person in the world!!
@@mysouthjerseylife I feel so incredibly privileged, grateful, and joyful to have been a small part of what led you to this moment, and I am so incredibly happy for you. You can absolutely come out and take all the steps that you want to take as gradually as you like and whenever you feel you're ready and it's safe. I've never met anyone who wasn't nervous in the beginning. I'm really excited for you, and I wish you all the absolute best going into the future. 💛💛💛
@@boonewilliams5338 ohhhh yea nervous is probably an understatement lol but after all these years holding these feelings in if I could afford it I'd transition as fast as possible cause I feel like I've already waited long enough like your dad said in that one video if someone is brave enough to come out they are definitely sure what they want. You seem like you come from a great family great background I think it would be impossible to do things right without a support system that's why I was so excited to tell 1 person close to me and when she offered to help tell my mom it made me so freakin happy! I definitely wouldn't have been able to do it without watching these videos seeing how others feel exactly how I do and you can literally see how happy and natural you feel I just feel like omg I need a life like that because the life I'm living now is just constant depression. As happy as I am I am still just beyond nervous about the extremely long road ahead you're lucky you started out as young as you did for sure!
@@mysouthjerseylife I am incredibly grateful and fortunate to have been able to transition as early as I did and to have had incredible support throughout that process. I know your circumstances are not my own, and I won't claim to know them, but I believe that this really is only the beginning for you. I can tell you are a genuine soul with a strong understanding of what is important to you, and I know that this process, though it may have major ups and downs (as all processes do), will be incredibly positive and progressive for you. I am so happy for you, and I wish you all the love and support I can, moving forward. ❤️ Thank you so much for your candid message. I am incredibly grateful that my videos have meant something to you
Totally understand you! Love you and your content, (nothing sus (I hope)). It would be great to see more videos from you more often, but I love to rewatch them sometimes. This one is pretty old, but very useful. Stay as wonderful as you are☺️ Peace✌️
Wow that's so incredibly kind of you. Thank you so much for watching and taking the time to write such a lovely message. 💛 I've been really preoccupied with other life things recently, so unfortunately this channel has been sort of on the back burner
Boone Williams, that's fine, just stay safe and I'll see a new video when I see it, no pressure. Just know that you do an important content and you're really comfortable to watch to, that's it🐥
@@lightdreamer4933 That means so much to me. Thank you so much 💛
It's actually a pretty different process for everyone, I started wondering when I was 15 because at that age I could, before that I used to wear dresses and girly clothing since I was a kid but I just didn't know I was a transgender person, now I'm 29 and I just spoke out 3 months ago but after years of asking myself just by being able to speak out I got to the conclusion that I want this, it's something super strange, so started socially transitioning 2 months ago and it's so ackward haha, I've been pretty positive about it and, sometimes some doubts but I wanna move forward, I feel so happy, I'm having an appointment with a doctor next month so I'll be around! Thank you.
By the way, you're right, the idea od suddenly transitioning it's only a fantasy
Aw this is such a sweet story, and I'm so so happy that things are evolving so positively for you. I'm very excited!!! I hope all goes as smoothly as possible, and thank you so much for sharing a bit of your journey :) 💛💛
@@boonewilliams5338 thanks also for speaking! Because you may be younger but you open doors for people like me, I swear I wanted to go to the grave with this "secret"
@@AdrictoTDT-Twitch I'm so honored to be able to help in any way, and I'm so incredibly glad that you're getting to be who you really are 💛
Lovely, Boone. Maybe you could do a video about dating as a trans person?
Ya know? I've totally been thinking about that, but truth be told, I don't have much experience haha
8:03 - Yes.
XOX
Very well done
Why thank you!!!
Well spoken, and editing wasn't necessary as noted by Xena Spears below. I have a limited knowledge of gender dysphoria but I have no doubt about it's being a recognizable i that needs to be resolved. Stay strong, find purpose in your life and know that you deserve a life of fulfillment, love and acceptance.
This is so so sweet of you to say. Thank you so much!!
All the best,
~B
Those things do seem to come gradually don't they. Interesting.
What would u say to those that say that u should be ashamed of yourself
What should be the first outfit I wear with 3 brothers 2 sisters and mother and father around
Whatever feels most comfortable for you 💛 look around and see what excites you!
@@boonewilliams5338 thank you so much I mean I want to wear like really feminine clothing but haven't had the sex reassignment surgery yet
@@tylerlee1445 I remember being in that stage and feeling unsure. Just wear what makes you feel comfortable ❤️
Btw you're really beautiful
@@tylerlee1445 aw thank you so much!
If gender is fluid *then I shall drink it*
Still hearting comments after a year. 👑Dropped this Queen
Plzz and do you like tomboy girls 😊
My self I do not push the she/her pronouns because like you said about your self I don't feel I am passing enough. I prefer to let it come naturaly. When I hit the point I am passing enough that people who do not know me use she/her then I will asking those who do know to use she/her for me. I know there are those who will fight it but It is a sad fact that it is going to happen. I am figuring it will be after I get a ways in to My electrolysis witch I have not started yet. I have had money issues recently. I will be getting that undwer way soon hopfully. I have had many people tell me even before HRT I was feminin naturally aside from the facial hair. With out any voice practice when I am upset if I call some one Exe; if I call the electric company to avoid my power being cut off luckely that hasen't happened in a couple years but they would tell me calm down mam so I know for me I should be able to achieve the voice with minimale work on there.
I’m a trans girl, I’m 13 and my parents arent allowing me blockers and I’m so scared that I’m gonna look as you said like a guy in a dress the rest of my life, I feel so trapped and alone..
I am so so sorry you're going through that. Have they given you a chance to explain that blockers pose no medical risk and only serve to pause puberty? There are a lot of resources on the WPATH website that may be helpful. If you feel comfortable doing so, I would strongly encourage you to ask your parents if they would be opening to simply learning more about what blockers are and how they have helped so many people. I wish had the links on hand, but there are a lot of data on the life-saving effects as well as the safety of blockers. I obviously don't know your parents, and I don't want to assume anything about them, but I want to believe that if they can get more exposure on trans people and their experiences as well as the medical science of this, they may be willing to open their minds to this more. Whatever happens, I support you 100%, and I KNOW that things WILL get easier. It takes time, and I'm so sorry you're parents aren't offering you the support to make things easier sooner, but you will get there. I know many, many beautiful trans women who went through testosterone-based puberty and transitioned after. They live wonderful lives, have amazing friends and partners, and are able to do the things that make them happy and feel comfortable in their skin.
I believe in you and I am rooting for you. I wish I could do more.
I'm wishing you every bit of luck and wellness that I have 💛
@@boonewilliams5338 thats very sweet, they don’t even believe I’m trans, and I sent an article about blockers and that just caused a huge argument which ended in me hearing some of the most hurtful things anyone has ever said to me
@@theleagueofrandom8066 I am so so sorry. I really hope they can shift views with time. I know that may seem impossible, but I've witnessed it in people who once had extremely narrow views of trans people.
@@boonewilliams5338 yeahh, and I mean, didn’t you go through a bit if t based puberty? You started blockers at 15 right? You pass very well
@@theleagueofrandom8066 yes! That is true. I had a number of effects from testosterone. My voice became MUCH deeper and thus I developed a pronounced Adam's apple (which many cis women have as well). I also just got sharper facial features and maybe some other minor changes. All of these things can be changed in some way, either through HRT, surgery, vocal training, makeup, etc. :)
You look cute girl
Aw thank you! :)
I look at you & see a young woman. The truth is you were never male. You just reverted to what you should have been all along. I have met many others & it is quite obvious to me that the idea of "changing sex" is wrongly defined.....if you "changed sex" you would be a man...
You nailed it. I've known some trans women who refer to themselves as having once been male, and I have no issue with that of course, but I have never considered myself to have ever been male. It just took steps to get everyone on the same page as me :)