well done to you, very proud of you for your courage to speak out. Just be mindful that is does come back from time to time and you will have the skillsets to tackle it head on.
Absolutely 💯. It's come back and left for me more times than I could ever count. Sometimes it will be an episode that will last a few weeks, but my worst episode was almost 6 months! Absolutely was my worst point
When I was a kid the overcast days used to give me the blues. One day I got tired of this response to the overcast days. It ended. It's that simple. Life is about mental control over the things you can't change. I now like dreary days and the rain. Air is cleaner. Everything is a choice.
When you identify with emotions, you will stay in them. (Depression) When you overcome, you free yourself. Remember, you are not your thoughts. Don’t allow yourself to convince you they are. Congratulations to overcoming. A successful life is full of obstacles overcome. I wish you well.
How genuine and authentic you are compared to most of the modern generation is beautiful to see. It's amazing how you managed to get to where you are today from 10 months ago. A lot of love from here and may God bless you brother
Cancer messed me up. Body dysmorphia I found something in looking after fish. The hobby got me through depression. Fish of all things. Good to hear man. I say hello to everybody I get ignored all the time. But it makes some people happy. totally worth it. take care man
Glad you got lucky to experience all these things. Im still struggling, Bad stuff keeps happening that ruins any progress I try to make. Good to know its possible.
Wonderful news, Mari! It is a process, and waves of depression/anxiety can return, but you're so right in finding the key-connecting to the things you love (nature, art, etc). Will continue praying for you, keep up the great work
It’s a cycle. End it. Watch after it & never go back. You’re strong enough. Did you know that you can generate love within yourself? Try meditating & going within your heart space. Think about who you love, feel it, and grow that. Go to a place of love. And go there often
I’m so happy for you you’re so brave for being vulnerable and opening up to the world and sharing some of your story there will always be highs and lows in life but when you do feel those lows and you feel hopeless look back at you’re videos sometimes you just need a reminder as to why you keep going
I am glad for you. I got a video of yours from 10 months ago and you were really down so I went looking to see if you posted something recently. Much relieved to see you are doing better now. It was very brave of you to bare your soul like this. Pat yourself on the back and know you have helped many others. Hugs hon.
What a difference it shows through on your face so much! You're kinda lit up inside. I feel like I had just that same kind of turning point helped me overcome so many things. My 4 years in Mexico transformed me - fully living. Knowing what that feels like was so liberating. It still gets me through low times. Also, healing from trauma isn't the same as "depression", a label which didn't describe me for long, but cptsd took longer to work through. Remember, no matter what others say, you know yourself. If I'd only known when I was young.... It turns out I was right all along about things. I'm just confident now. You're a compelling person. So glad you got to see your people in Peru. Languages are amazing too. & Music. Biggest part of my life all the time! Dengue Dengue Dengue is one group I listen to alot. ❤
Thank you so much for the kind words.. Im in tears thinking of the hard times i had. Glad you are doing better... I hope i also find purpose in life and start changing my life as im so low broken rn...
I hope you really are well. In my experience my depression sneaks up on me when I thought I was well. I kept lying to myself. I want to be well, and I want others to be well. It’s hard and I need to keep pushing, just like you are. Well done on being so honest and sharing this with us. I kept things buried in myself and there is still a lot of trauma I keep buried. I hope I will one day feel really calm and content with my life. I can keep trying and failing, and getting up and trying again. May I have strength to do that, and I hope you do too.
Something that’s helped me is no longer eating gluten containing food such as wheat. Stopping eating such as wheat bread. And you should also see a naturopath and do multiple tests such as stool, urine, hair and blood. I also appreciate this video because it gave me the courage to put my thoughts out there.
I used to do 7-14 days of water fast at least 1ce a year. I love it. It's like skydiving at least the first time. Eating healthy is definitely something everyone can appreciate. Especially your body & mind. All religions promote fasting. And every dentist & doctor knows that bread/sugar is bad. All the dental issues are related to diet. We have to pull out the wisdom teeth, b/c of our diet.... All the health & mental issues are often relates to the diet. "You are what you eat".
Wise beyond your years. Retain that intuition, sensitivity & emotion: it will be your guiding light. Wishing you the very best for a good life of self-fulfilment ahead.
BRAVO KID!!!! BRAVO!!! I AM PROUD OF YOU!!! REALLY!!! AND YET, WE ARE STRANGERS. RIGHT? WELL, I GUESS NOT... YOU SEE, I WAS YOU, ABOUT 22 YEARS AGO, IN A DIFFERENT AGE, WHEN CZcams WAS A FOREIGN CONCEPT, WHEN A DIGITAL WORLD WAS ONLY AT ITS BEGINNINGS... NO WHERE TO RUN OR TO DO AND TELL... AND HERE I AM, WRITING TO YOU, STILL ALIVE... :) I WROTE TO YOU ON YOUR "LIFE IS BS" VIDEO, BUT I SEE NOW, THAT IT HAS GONE WELL FOR YOU. I AM GLAD! REALLY! WITH REGARDS, ND
I watched your life is bs video on a loop literally crying to it because I related a lot to what u said. I really don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it and I’m still in that state u described jobless, friendless and hopeless but I’m taking steps to improve even though I’ll probably fail. I’m glad you’re better though
Same I’m 19 jobless, no friends at all, and hopeless I tried everyday but the cycle don’t change its the same cycle everyday I tried making a change but I can’t. I’m not use to being alone Ima be straight up but sadly if you don’t try coming up to people and communicating then theirs a small chance you will make friends unless someone comes up to you but that’s rare. And the reason why I don’t got friends its cause Im just scared of being left out cause I felt like that when I had people but it’s just worser if you don’t got nobody. In college I see most people with friends just laughing and talking to each other and I’m like next to one of the benches just sitting alone thinking if I should just jump off a building already that’s how miserable my life is everyday is the same loop.
Hey my guy, uhm, i had depression and a major anxiety disorder for almost 10 years. I tried to commit suicide twice. I almost did but decided to just live life for its lusts because i was afraid of death, but which only made me worse. I wasnt liked by my peers and wasnt very connected with my family as a result of being depressed. I had no friends. Because of depression i was unproductive and lazy which made me fall into a deeper depression. I had a best friend die. I THEN ended up getting a heart sickness as a reaction after covid. Had lots of toxic ppl in my life, etc. I was the definition of a "loser" or a miserable person. Then, all of it changed the night i was gonna give up everything. My mom, who was a Christian, told me everything was gonna be ok. She told me to not give up. I wouldn't of payed anyone else any mind.....except her. Shes always been anti social and wasnt always really close with me. (until now :) ) So i prayed to Jesus and those next few weeks i was HEALED!! After 4 long years of pain and misery, years worth of baggage and being a terrible person at my worst, God and Jesus Christ His son fixed me to where i am such a different person today. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. And especially Spiritually speaking! My relationships with my family and friends are so amazing now. I have real Christian friends and people i care about sm. I am happy and love making people smile and laugh at my corny jokes and puns lol. I have God everyday to talk to, and He is my Best Friend and greatest blessing. I now know i have a purpose and goals in life. Im going to be a missionary for Japan and a foster mom!!! Praise God!! I get to help ppl with depression and anxiety to know there is a Creator who made them with a purpose and gave them a beautiful life to enjoy. I love going out into nature and bike riding. Life is worth living just because He lives. Because you know why your here and that you are so loved and appreciated, and that He has given you great dreams to accomplish someday! I hope yall find Him too before you die. God bless. ✨️💖✌️
I was nobody in the kickoff of the 1980s, with no friends, no job, no girlfriend, no experience in life. Like you, Mari, I may have experienced the demon depression, and it's not to say I still haven't failed to tear down the goalpost at times, but I HAVE come a far distance from 1981, I think.
I lost my parents young and really thought something was wrong with me when I was a young adult.. Looking back I was searching for an adult/therapist/psychologist to tell me what was wrong with me. Now all I needed was them to tell me how I was feeling was totally normal given all the loss I had experienced. I had to tell myself though and finally realized I was going to be the only person there for me.. Remember this too shall pass.❤❤
I went to peru like 25 years ago, messed up childhood, no money is huge disadvantage starting out. Feel like big loser as get walked all over, at least you have thousands of people who feel the same :(
I am alone to now i am 47 sometimes its ok to be alone u see and feelnthings correct. And we change all the time we make life ourselfs God shows US the ways their is allways a reason. We only live 1 so make things do things whats good for you and laugh every morning even if you dont feel like laughing its good for the brain health
For folks struggling- Here are some other things to try- Heavy metal and mold detox, psychedelics like psilocybin and ayahuasca. Brain retraining. Very inspiring video. 🌿
It comes and goes, just like our mood. What I found was some anti depressants can be very helpful. But yeah it is what it is, life is unfair for most people.
halleluYah ik how it feels to through a transformation. for me really reading the bible developing a close relationship with the creator is beautiful change my life. accept Yahusha into ur life n watch as change continues to occur.
my depression comes from a problem i had with the woman of my dreams, she lied to me and that lie made me behave in a way i annoyed her and she blames it all on me and since then barely talks to me and been soft ghosting me but replying to me out of feeling bad here and there i dont know how to have a honest talk with her, whenever i ask her why the lack of talking she says excuses of all kind, typical soft ghosting
bro, two years ago you were just young, dumb and full of come. Did you think you were going to remain in that "depressed" state the rest of your life? of course not? You just lacked life experience. You took life too serious, thus you didn't find meaning in it. Every day is a blessing. You can talk to 10 strangers in one day and have little bonds with each one. And the next day if you want, you can decide not to speak to anyone and just, have a coffee and a good read. That's it, on to the next day. Do you even know how lucky you were to visit Peru and receive that feeling. That was special in itself. Stay blessed, live with gratitude and also try to find God.
I left you a comment on your life is bs video btchng in the car, I stand by it but glad youre doing better but read the comment youll see it applies to this video too! #liveingratitude
Nah man, you didn't. You are in stage that you are now sick of your sickness. Then you will have another stage that you will sick of your being sick of your sickness. Then again and again. It's a cycle. It's not the worst thing, being in realization much better than living like a plant. I'm fine with where I am and how I am. Of course we prefer being in better situation. As a nihilist for a long time, I live my life like an agnostic and most of the time it helps me to move on.
I can relate to your story and my depression never goes away but I would rather enhance my depression to support my life goals. When I hit depression I smile and say adventure time. I meet people I go out places and make friends because I like going against my depression. Healthy eating and some Jesus in my life does help. But not false church Jesus. Bible Jesus read 2nd Timothy 3:16. Sorry I say false churches because I been to 9 churches and all of them preach money and sell books outside the gospels evil adulterous people. And very few will find Jesus. Healthy foods like vegetables and fruits go along way. Produce aren’t that expensive now days compare to fast food prices. Try it 😀 I never got over my depression but I like finding ways to overcome it without drugs
Depression is a constant rainstorm ,you can get cover and get dry but the rain is still out there😮
well done to you, very proud of you for your courage to speak out. Just be mindful that is does come back from time to time and you will have the skillsets to tackle it head on.
Absolutely 💯. It's come back and left for me more times than I could ever count. Sometimes it will be an episode that will last a few weeks, but my worst episode was almost 6 months! Absolutely was my worst point
When I was a kid the overcast days used to give me the blues. One day I got tired of this response to the overcast days. It ended. It's that simple. Life is about mental control over the things you can't change. I now like dreary days and the rain. Air is cleaner. Everything is a choice.
When you identify with emotions, you will stay in them. (Depression) When you overcome, you free yourself. Remember, you are not your thoughts. Don’t allow yourself to convince you they are. Congratulations to overcoming. A successful life is full of obstacles overcome. I wish you well.
How genuine and authentic you are compared to most of the modern generation is beautiful to see. It's amazing how you managed to get to where you are today from 10 months ago. A lot of love from here and may God bless you brother
Much Respect My Guy, Life Is Trippy
Your stronger now , that old saying ," that which doesn't kill you makes you stronger , forge on young warrior your a fucking legend , 🤩
Well Done man! Thanks for telling the world. We need more people like you, to tell those deep in the hole that there’s a way out.
Good for you buddy. You'll still come across difficulties, but they are outside of you ,and they do not define you. best wishes...
Cancer messed me up. Body dysmorphia
I found something in looking after fish.
The hobby got me through depression. Fish of all things.
Good to hear man.
I say hello to everybody
I get ignored all the time.
But it makes some people happy.
totally worth it. take care man
bless you, wish you all the best!
Glad you got lucky to experience all these things. Im still struggling, Bad stuff keeps happening that ruins any progress I try to make. Good to know its possible.
Well done I’m so happy about this update. Ps, you are so beautiful 🙂
Wonderful news, Mari! It is a process, and waves of depression/anxiety can return, but you're so right in finding the key-connecting to the things you love (nature, art, etc). Will continue praying for you, keep up the great work
Good for you buddy.. i'm still stuck at fighting but it's so nice seeing some people dealing the same sh*t as you do. Makes me feel less lonely.
So proud of you !❤thanks for helping so many people GOD bless you !
I’m so happy for you bro 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽
I love how raw and honest this is. Thanks for sharing your journey. We need more real people on social media and less obnoxious influencers.
The happiness of pursuit.
That's great you overcame it.
I'm so happy for you, I'm sending you so much love💖❤️🙏🏻
So glad you are feeling better. Much love ❤️ 🙏
So glad to see you doing better! Many people care about you.
Love your videos mate. Thank you for sharing your story. From one lone wolf to another, it's the path we chose
Bravo Mari! You can keep growing and in the process you are helping others. Blessings to you, proud of your honesty and openness.
You should be VERY proud of yourself ❤ thank you for being so open and real its helped so many people xxx BIG hugs youre fantastic young man
It’s a cycle. End it. Watch after it & never go back. You’re strong enough. Did you know that you can generate love within yourself?
Try meditating & going within your heart space. Think about who you love, feel it, and grow that. Go to a place of love. And go there often
Hi, Mari, im glad youre doing better and you look happy! Thank you for being so honest and sharing with us!
I’m so happy for you you’re so brave for being vulnerable and opening up to the world and sharing some of your story there will always be highs and lows in life but when you do feel those lows and you feel hopeless look back at you’re videos sometimes you just need a reminder as to why you keep going
You are a pure soul!! Thank you for this.
Well, I LOVE you ❤️ you got a big heart with a lot less holes. Keep up the good work I hope my son is watching bc he too can overcome this 🙏
Yesssss! I am so happy to see you again and hear you are doing better !
❤❤❤❤❤❤
I am glad for you. I got a video of yours from 10 months ago and you were really down so I went looking to see if you posted something recently. Much relieved to see you are doing better now. It was very brave of you to bare your soul like this. Pat yourself on the back and know you have helped many others. Hugs hon.
I'm so proud of you! Thank you LORD! You're awesome! Much love and success for the rest of your life!
Im very glad for you.
I was thinking about how you are today.
Found out you are good!
Keep going.
What a difference it shows through on your face so much! You're kinda lit up inside.
I feel like I had just that same kind of turning point helped me overcome so many things.
My 4 years in Mexico transformed me - fully living. Knowing what that feels like was so liberating. It still gets me through low times.
Also, healing from trauma isn't the same as "depression", a label which didn't describe me for long, but cptsd took longer to work through.
Remember, no matter what others say, you know yourself. If I'd only known when I was young....
It turns out I was right all along about things. I'm just confident now.
You're a compelling person. So glad you got to see your people in Peru. Languages are amazing too.
& Music. Biggest part of my life all the time!
Dengue Dengue Dengue is one group I listen to alot.
❤
Thank you so much for the kind words.. Im in tears thinking of the hard times i had. Glad you are doing better... I hope i also find purpose in life and start changing my life as im so low broken rn...
I hope you really are well. In my experience my depression sneaks up on me when I thought I was well. I kept lying to myself. I want to be well, and I want others to be well. It’s hard and I need to keep pushing, just like you are. Well done on being so honest and sharing this with us. I kept things buried in myself and there is still a lot of trauma I keep buried. I hope I will one day feel really calm and content with my life. I can keep trying and failing, and getting up and trying again. May I have strength to do that, and I hope you do too.
Something that’s helped me is no longer eating gluten containing food such as wheat. Stopping eating such as wheat bread. And you should also see a naturopath and do multiple tests such as stool, urine, hair and blood. I also appreciate this video because it gave me the courage to put my thoughts out there.
I used to do 7-14 days of water fast at least 1ce a year.
I love it. It's like skydiving at least the first time.
Eating healthy is definitely something everyone can appreciate. Especially your body & mind.
All religions promote fasting.
And every dentist & doctor knows that bread/sugar is bad.
All the dental issues are related to diet.
We have to pull out the wisdom teeth, b/c of our diet....
All the health & mental issues are often relates to the diet.
"You are what you eat".
Man when everything is in chaos, go back to to the manual… THE BIBLE!
Wise beyond your years. Retain that intuition, sensitivity & emotion: it will be your guiding light. Wishing you the very best for a good life of self-fulfilment ahead.
I’m proud of you, brother! Much love!
Stay strong bro and all of you here ! Remember this Deep-Rest ,not de-press God bless ya 😊❤
I love you.
Thank you for existing🙏❤️
I love you all too. My family doesn’t say it either
Thank you so much i needed that
Even the life is BS video was inspiring, your message is consistent- keep going, thx👏❤️
BRAVO KID!!!! BRAVO!!! I AM PROUD OF YOU!!! REALLY!!! AND YET, WE ARE STRANGERS. RIGHT? WELL, I GUESS NOT... YOU SEE, I WAS YOU, ABOUT 22 YEARS AGO, IN A DIFFERENT AGE, WHEN CZcams WAS A FOREIGN CONCEPT, WHEN A DIGITAL WORLD WAS ONLY AT ITS BEGINNINGS... NO WHERE TO RUN OR TO DO AND TELL... AND HERE I AM, WRITING TO YOU, STILL ALIVE... :) I WROTE TO YOU ON YOUR "LIFE IS BS" VIDEO, BUT I SEE NOW, THAT IT HAS GONE WELL FOR YOU. I AM GLAD! REALLY! WITH REGARDS, ND
Great you actually overcame it! Hopefully it get even better and better
Youre a good person. Focus on yourself. Keep up the good fight. Im the same as you buddy. I find life hard. Every day.but Im motivated now at last. :)
I watched your life is bs video on a loop literally crying to it because I related a lot to what u said. I really don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it and I’m still in that state u described jobless, friendless and hopeless but I’m taking steps to improve even though I’ll probably fail. I’m glad you’re better though
Same I’m 19 jobless, no friends at all, and hopeless I tried everyday but the cycle don’t change its the same cycle everyday I tried making a change but I can’t. I’m not use to being alone Ima be straight up but sadly if you don’t try coming up to people and communicating then theirs a small chance you will make friends unless someone comes up to you but that’s rare. And the reason why I don’t got friends its cause Im just scared of being left out cause I felt like that when I had people but it’s just worser if you don’t got nobody. In college I see most people with friends just laughing and talking to each other and I’m like next to one of the benches just sitting alone thinking if I should just jump off a building already that’s how miserable my life is everyday is the same loop.
Congratulations bro, that’s a great achievement. I think I have moderate or severe depression and I just want to overcome it
I think you’ve found your calling..You should be in schools, TedX talks, sharing your story..Do motivational speaking. You have a gift..
Im really happy for you !😘
Good for you cuz the light is heading your way!
Beautiful share keep going more blessings are on the way!! Praise God for all your hard work!
thanks for giving me hope
Keep going strong!!!
Good for you Mari.😊
Hey my guy, uhm, i had depression and a major anxiety disorder for almost 10 years. I tried to commit suicide twice. I almost did but decided to just live life for its lusts because i was afraid of death, but which only made me worse. I wasnt liked by my peers and wasnt very connected with my family as a result of being depressed. I had no friends. Because of depression i was unproductive and lazy which made me fall into a deeper depression. I had a best friend die. I THEN ended up getting a heart sickness as a reaction after covid. Had lots of toxic ppl in my life, etc. I was the definition of a "loser" or a miserable person. Then, all of it changed the night i was gonna give up everything. My mom, who was a Christian, told me everything was gonna be ok. She told me to not give up. I wouldn't of payed anyone else any mind.....except her. Shes always been anti social and wasnt always really close with me. (until now :) ) So i prayed to Jesus and those next few weeks i was HEALED!! After 4 long years of pain and misery, years worth of baggage and being a terrible person at my worst, God and Jesus Christ His son fixed me to where i am such a different person today. Emotionally. Physically. Mentally. And especially Spiritually speaking! My relationships with my family and friends are so amazing now. I have real Christian friends and people i care about sm. I am happy and love making people smile and laugh at my corny jokes and puns lol. I have God everyday to talk to, and He is my Best Friend and greatest blessing. I now know i have a purpose and goals in life. Im going to be a missionary for Japan and a foster mom!!! Praise God!! I get to help ppl with depression and anxiety to know there is a Creator who made them with a purpose and gave them a beautiful life to enjoy. I love going out into nature and bike riding. Life is worth living just because He lives. Because you know why your here and that you are so loved and appreciated, and that He has given you great dreams to accomplish someday! I hope yall find Him too before you die. God bless. ✨️💖✌️
You deserve it hun! And it’s YOU that did it….💛
I was nobody in the kickoff of the 1980s, with no friends, no job, no girlfriend, no experience in life. Like you, Mari, I may have experienced the demon depression, and it's not to say I still haven't failed to tear down the goalpost at times, but I HAVE come a far distance from 1981, I think.
Correction; I had meant to say there are times I still fail to tear down the old goalpost in life.
I lost my parents young and really thought something was wrong with me when I was a young adult.. Looking back I was searching for an adult/therapist/psychologist to tell me what was wrong with me. Now all I needed was them to tell me how I was feeling was totally normal given all the loss I had experienced. I had to tell myself though and finally realized I was going to be the only person there for me.. Remember this too shall pass.❤❤
Its OK to be lonely it's OK to feel not OK I hope you find the strength to win this battle
You are inspiring❤❤
I went to peru like 25 years ago, messed up childhood, no money is huge disadvantage starting out. Feel like big loser as get walked all over, at least you have thousands of people who feel the same :(
Try your best to help others in every way it helps lessen depression.. we live day by day
Beautiful share!!
A wandering mind is an unhappy mind
I am alone to now i am 47 sometimes its ok to be alone u see and feelnthings correct. And we change all the time we make life ourselfs God shows US the ways their is allways a reason. We only live 1 so make things do things whats good for you and laugh every morning even if you dont feel like laughing its good for the brain health
Haven’t watched the video yet stuck in ads but from the title FUCK YEAH!
Good job bud.
Good thing is you have youth on your side. You have plenty of time to blossom.
Sorry man, it doesn't last
Thank you for sharing
I always suffered from depression always been like this .
Amen n amen, be set free from the shackles of depression permanently in Jesus name. The devil was defeated, he has no control over you
For folks struggling-
Here are some other things to try-
Heavy metal and mold detox, psychedelics like psilocybin and ayahuasca. Brain retraining.
Very inspiring video. 🌿
I overcame depression too! Congrats!
i think i'm addicted to the depression at this point...
Yess you did it
It comes and goes, just like our mood. What I found was some anti depressants can be very helpful. But yeah it is what it is, life is unfair for most people.
Tms therapy helped my depression and anxiety
Glad you overcame your depression 💙
halleluYah ik how it feels to through a transformation. for me really reading the bible developing a close relationship with the creator is beautiful change my life. accept Yahusha into ur life n watch as change continues to occur.
Yes, Amen to that
I feel the same way
watching this made me depressed
Nice progress
my depression comes from a problem i had with the woman of my dreams, she lied to me and that lie made me behave in a way i annoyed her and she blames it all on me and since then barely talks to me and been soft ghosting me but replying to me out of feeling bad here and there
i dont know how to have a honest talk with her, whenever i ask her why the lack of talking she says excuses of all kind, typical soft ghosting
It didn't get easier you just got stronger that's what pain does to you
As behave of all men in the world i say dont lose hope - a indian brother
Earth is a weird place. Individualized perspective and experience is really strange.
You knew this before you came here.
Meditate and remember.
can u share more about your self employment 🥺
bro, two years ago you were just young, dumb and full of come. Did you think you were going to remain in that "depressed" state the rest of your life? of course not? You just lacked life experience. You took life too serious, thus you didn't find meaning in it. Every day is a blessing. You can talk to 10 strangers in one day and have little bonds with each one. And the next day if you want, you can decide not to speak to anyone and just, have a coffee and a good read. That's it, on to the next day. Do you even know how lucky you were to visit Peru and receive that feeling. That was special in itself. Stay blessed, live with gratitude and also try to find God.
I left you a comment on your life is bs video btchng in the car, I stand by it but glad youre doing better but read the comment youll see it applies to this video too! #liveingratitude
It gets better for some people But not for fucking everyone
Nah man, you didn't. You are in stage that you are now sick of your sickness. Then you will have another stage that you will sick of your being sick of your sickness. Then again and again. It's a cycle. It's not the worst thing, being in realization much better than living like a plant. I'm fine with where I am and how I am. Of course we prefer being in better situation. As a nihilist for a long time, I live my life like an agnostic and most of the time it helps me to move on.
I can relate to your story and my depression never goes away but I would rather enhance my depression to support my life goals. When I hit depression I smile and say adventure time. I meet people I go out places and make friends because I like going against my depression. Healthy eating and some Jesus in my life does help. But not false church Jesus. Bible Jesus read 2nd Timothy 3:16. Sorry I say false churches because I been to 9 churches and all of them preach money and sell books outside the gospels evil adulterous people. And very few will find Jesus. Healthy foods like vegetables and fruits go along way. Produce aren’t that expensive now days compare to fast food prices. Try it 😀 I never got over my depression but I like finding ways to overcome it without drugs
Now find life eternal!!
Bro you are not "depressed" the world really is this bad and you are responding normally to a fucked up world.
Ending soon
it's always possible with Jesus Christ✝💕❤
Cool....