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im currently up in the air about my own identity and stuff, but what i do know is that if i do keep going down my current path, i think id like to keep my current voice mostly intact, with only a couple minor adjustments to the pitch movements and intonation of my voice. everything else is great. i have a really in the middle of the road voice, not super masculine, not super feminine, but id like to lean in the feminine direction a little more, just a TEENSY WEENSY bit more.

Indoctrination successful. I've recently come to terms with the fact that all my life I've disassociated with who I was to the point I felt like the camera person in my own life and after coming to terms with who I really am I feel as though things are beginning to feel right again.

Can you convince Finn cut his hair 😊😊

Just starting to accept my non binary ness I’m trying to build outfits based on a good pair of pants and doing a little slutty and modest and the same time lol

I’m gonna have a new waist?

3:38 call me blind, but I _legitimately_ cannot tell the difference between before and after.

I was in denial for so long because I like to wear makeup and have long hair but then I had the epiphany that I actually want to do all those things but it would feel so much better doing them in a boy way. Like I want to wear GUYliner and have long boy hair, it’s not special if I do it in a girl way!

She’s so pretty!!!!

i would commit to practice but hearing my voice recorded is brutal. i will have to commit soon regardless of my cringe...

Love the Icky-back-on-track-button.

Cons : -being a woman -breast growth -muscle mass loss -emotions -infertility -change (I’m scared of change) -losing family support when I am in NO WAY able to be independent in my current state Pros : -I feel a little less horrible about my appearance

💕💕💕💕💕💕very lovely looking outfit.

Estrogen does cause some people to be attracted to men. It affects everybody differently on that particular topic.

Thanks Icky, actually got me thinking...

Tumblr user here, i find the objectification by chasers can often be found in other trans women under the guise of community, i never posted anything lewd or nsfw and yet still get weird dms and stuff and it gives me the ick so much aaaaaaaaaaa

Wait Icky did you get your ears pierced

i keep my hair short and play male characters, im a girl

I'm pan and I was scared that I might be seen as a chaser. In college, there was a trans girl in one of my classes, who I thought was really cute. I just didn't know how to make it known that I'm not transphobic or some creep, so I never made a move.

I tought i might be trans ever since i was about 16 years old, I knew i was trans in my early twenties for various reasons like scared of rejection from friends and family, scared of how my transition would turn out (would i be pretty etc.), scared of how it would affect my workplace environment, scared of learning a lot of new skills, scared of passing, scared of voice training, etc etc .... I never did anything about it I am 31 now If i can give advice to anybody out there no matter how scared you are find a support network and do it - ignoring it will be torment

Can I just say I love the editor's nails

The disassociation in the mirror and not relating to other guys was a big one for me. Also, when I was about 6 and spent the weekends at my grandmother’s house I found some of my aunt and mothers dresses she saved from when they were girls and tried them on every chance I got. I also hated it whenever my parents forced me to get a haircut because they said I was starting to look like a girl. That was especially damaging because I WANTED to look like a girl!

I genuinely think your journey and these videos will referred and respected by future generations 🥹 regardless they are everything to me. Thank youuu

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is it just me or has f1nn's voice gotten higher since this was recorded?

Please love each other overwhelmingly forever!

we love you Icky :) <3

Hi I want your haircut HOW DID YOU DO IT OR WHAT DID YOU ASK PLZZZ

I was never able to transition due to family and a committed relationship with my wife. I have always known I was different as far back as I can remember. Fetish? For a time it entered my sex life, but I matured as I grew older. Just presenting as female, I'm sometimes an "authentic "dressed female.

I have experienced the outer body experience thing while looking in the mirror. But not as a "Thats not me" but "Huh that person is me, cool". I curently feel like i am a flawor of non-binary.

Im.not shur if i am or not but even if i am parents would support me i think😢

❤❤big love to you . Ashley

Your voice is majestic

So I discovered or I guess finally accepted I'm trans a few weeks ago, I'm 28, looking back there were fairly obvious signs from about the age of 14, and more subtle ones going back further. I started to suspect and pretty actively denying it, it terrified me, it still does to an extent, but for different reasons. I came out to my sister the other day, it was emotional, but she is super supportive and I could not be luckier, for the first time in years i feel like things may be OK, so thank you, you helped me find and more importantly, accept who I am

OMG! Your voice mom is my voice mom too! We have so many voice sisters.

Changing gender is not physically possible. Come see me when they actually manage to change an x to a y or a y to an x.

i love tankk

Me sitting here playing as female characters in games because I'm a f&#king pervert that would rather stare at a woman's ass than a dudes ass for hours on end. That said I also get mani pedi's confidently as a Breaking Bad esque Bearded man. That's not to push back or invalidate anything. Just that I believe that certain things traditionally done by one sex doesn't have to be only for one sex in this day and age. I wished more females got into gaming and sports and Lumberjacking and guns and wished more men would explore things that would seem relaxing and fun like make-up mani pedis, fashion, talk about deep feelings, think a little more than "Manning up". I feel out of place when I'm around guys. I get emotional real easily, not in like anger but in anxiety. I've gotten better at stoicism, not from ignoring my emotions but by understanding them better after speaking with women. Luckily times really seems to have changed. People have so much more nuance. Mind you I've had this whole trans dilemma in my head too and while I still definitely need to see a therapist about stuff, a lot of introspection lead me to realizing how hard I am on myself on being the right amount of "man" and too much like a "woman". Why do I have to like sports and beer? I've met plenty of guys who don't care for sports, I know women who like videogames and wrestling and boy stuff, My single mom liked to include me in her nail salon trips. All this to say that I needed to learn to love myself. Stop comparing myself to what I was taught a man should be, and start comparing myself with the type of Man I want to be. Didn't like my face so I tried growing a beard, then a goatee, then just decided growing it all long. Still hated my curly hair, so I shaved it all off. Turns out I really dig the bald beard combo. I also had a Santa Hat motif and figured wow, I look like a Santa in his younger years. Hated how I felt and decided to work out. Felt really good after. Kept doing it. Eventually stopped but that didn't stop how I feel about myself now. There's still somethings I need to figure out, I once was molested in my middle school years and while I've gotten to a point where I don't cower on the topic and learned many things about myself and what it has influenced, there still seems to be an underlying thing relating to my sex drive that I need a therapist to help parse through. Anyway I would say to anyone with this Trans dilemma in your mind, take some time for introspection. Ask yourself questions, answer, then keep asking yourself why. Do it as much as you can and try to develop more depth to your character. Make it so that when you get asked "why?" on an answer that you have more to say than just "I don't know". Take anything you're afraid of talking about and fully grasp why it is you're afraid of it and see if there's connections to how you carry yourself in the world. Become comfortable with uncomfortable topics. Make it so that no one can make you feel weak just by bringing up a topic you don't like, untrigger yourself as much as you can so to speak. Doing so not only makes you more competent, it inspires hope to people who share these experiences which is what people need these days. See if there's things you can actually do as your gender that you've been led to thinking that only that gender can do. See if you can be your own type of man or woman. Work out, just true of everyone. Work out and let yourself feel good. Learn to stop valuing other peoples opinion so high and learn to value your opinion of yourself more, pursue the things you want to engage in ignoring what tradition thinks your gender should be doing. Hold yourself to a standard and see how that relates to your gender. And if even after doing all of that you still feel that you're in the wrong body, then seek out help with transitioning. A pros and cons list is only as effective as what you know and everyone has nuance that hasn't been explored. How do you know if you'll love transitioning if you never tried to really love being who you are now? Because you're putting a lot of effort into transitioning it brings to question what if you applied that same effort before hand on to yourself. I say this because there's very real consequences to transitioning that many trans people face. That question of having a child will come up in your life and having options is always a plus. This is coming from someone who's not interested in having kids, at most would likely adopt. The kid doesn't deserve having to put up with your regrets so settle them now. And Again, I'm not against Trans people. I'm against inner despair. We spend so much time about learning other things we lose sight of learning who we are in the world. I feel theres so many things that a person can do for themselves to remedy that regardless of your sex before doubling down on the most point of no return change to your life. Especially for support AFTER transitioning. We don't get to ask everyone to care about a minority of people in the country only not give a damn a smaller minority from the prior group who regret transitioning because it doesn't fit some narrative. I want inner peace for everybody.

something important clicked for me when she said, “[Be great] at doing the difficult bit at the start to then reap the rewards later”; life lessons!

Very good. Your videos are entertaining. You life makes other hopeful.

year 3 of represion going strong

I’m feeling a little called out. I mean I only played a girl in tennis games, and Pokémon once they offered that, and old republic, but the girls were better to look at and had cooler outfits 😊. Also actively rejecting girly things (I’m still working on), wearing girls clothes when I can, wishing that I could be a girl, and feeling uncomfortable with the boys growing up. Maybe I’m trans 😊.

I was just thinking about starting voice training, great timing

"Liberal brainwashing" 🤣🤣🤣 You have to love the humour of these two

Massive W for the Icky One 😁 Congratulations Miss

Hilarious, MCM! "F1nn5ter is a gaming content creator."

omg... this is sooo relatable (minus making an OF lol)

ICKY!!!!!!! WHY DID YOU CRACK MY EGG OPEN!!!!!!!!!!!!

You and your videos have helped me so much mentally and have really helped me feel comfortable and confident in transitioning!! Thank you so so much I owe you my life and happiness ❤

Maybe I'm half trans? Is that a thing? Cuz there's like 9 things here, and I relate to like 4 of them XP

I was this sweet little kid in love with being immersed in nature, listening to classical music, watching thunder, writing poems. I began getting beaten for it at home and at school both around 2nd grade on. As I went into puberty, I was extremely scared of the changes I was experiencing and begged adults for answers. My feminine qualities began feeling like a separate "guardian angel" that followed me around - like someone looking over my shoulder but not a full-fledged imaginary friend or hallucination, just a presence of a female companion. That's how I rationalized what I was feeling. My anxiety went through the roof as I got older and never got better, that presence became more and more distant. And one day, when I was about 13, I had a dream that we were having a picnic together on these grassy cliffs near waterfalls... and she slipped. I woke up in tears, and I never felt her following me again. It traumatized me, and I wouldn't tell anyone for the longest time. I became very anti-social and focused on my survival. My childhood romanticism was gone. It took me until 30 to realize it was me who fell all along. I began transitioning a year and a half ago. It's like for the first time in 20 years, I feel. I have a soul. I am happy. (legit the ordeal made me go from atheist to agnostic)