I’ve been waiting like 6 months to make a video like this 😌🖤 Socials& links ::: linktr.ee/icky Thank u to the editor of this vid for killing it: www.asheredits.co.uk
all I can say is,at least people are telling you youre cuter.doesnt matter if you think so, you never really thought youd be cute anyways and youre just defeating yourselef even with the effort to change it.
Finn asking if he is trans after he has already started HRT, AND has been on it long enough to notice physical changes is the EPITOME of my own experience too lmao
Total same for me. I had literally experienced months of menopausal hot flushes from a T-blocker before I realised, "oh wait, hang on... am I actually one o' those whacky transsexuals? is that what this is?!?!?"🤣
As a fellow 'genderfluid, autistic ace who's been on HRT for several months but only just came out' (what an oddly niche category to share), I feel like you've been an amazingly supportive partner for F1nn, Ashley. You guys are so good for each other (not that I'm jealous, lol). I think we could all benefit from having an 'Ashley' in our lives.
@bigicky Im currently also at the stage of being on HRT and eating takeout, but just watching how you two are doing already helps me continue on forward. Keep being awesome 😊 (And yes i also wish i had someone like you by my side, ur amazing
also a genderfluid autistic ace just curious to see how many of us there are. because I agree we are niche but I've weirdly seen more than 6 in person so if your also genderfluid autistic and ace like this comment.
also autistic genderfluid nonbinary pansexual whatever xD Just started on 1. February with hrt. Do any of you know when exactly Finn started? Would be so interesting for me because this is sooooo incredibly amazing for me that it happened almost simultaneously :D
Yeah I might really be interested in that myself actually. Like I might take testosterone once or maybe twice and then just half it right there. I wanna deepen my voice a little!
here I am :) amab, nonbinary-masculine. still started hrt now and could not have done this if I had not come to the conclusion that you don't have to be binary trans or 100% committed and can still do it! feel completely valid as a "man" with feminine features incoming and it is so nice :3 (also I am very lucky of a super respectful and supportive work environment and friends) I can also recommend the youtuber Sam Downey who had a very similar journey :)
I'm kind of it in that position. I consider myself genderfluid like F1nn and started HRT 3 months ago. If I'm being honest I have no desire to fully transition. I've done voice work so I can totally do a girl voice, but.. IDK it just doesn't feel right to me. 😕
3 weeks ago on the T4T video I commented, “Finn may not be a trans woman but he _is_ a beautiful, cisgendered male girl 💁🏼♀️” and I had no idea just how _right_ I was
Thiss, I love the idea of just exploring human gender and body mods without a strict traditional-gender-roles gun at the back of the head. Just the joy of exploration.
As a person who's a CIS-Het white guy, I don't know how much my thoughts or opinions would weigh, but I get so much joy seeing Icky and F1nn travel this life road together. Now that they're not just romantic partners, but where Icky is there to help or guide F1nn along the way in his gender discovery journey, it's a beautiful thing. Love to you both.
(Yet another CIS-Het white guy) same, it's just refreshing to see people live how they want to live and be who they want to be. You can see just how happy the two are and it makes me smile :)
It's good to know about especially if you have friends or family on HRT and want to get a better glimpse of their perspective. With the added benefit of having facts to use at the Thanksgiving dinner table when that one uncle starts talking.
I’m at the step where I just have to go to the endo and say “Yes, I’m sure” to get them, and F1nn’s whole coming out and HRT thing is certainly making me more confident about it
7:20 I describe it as "no longer having emotional constipation". Like, I get teary thinking about how much I love my friends... then I'm like "omg, I love my friends!". It's just... so right.
It's so hilarious how Finn actually thought no one knew he was on HRT and thought he looked the exact same. Like girl, it was so damn obvious for months lol
I just looooove how cute and positive the two of you are! Many trans people come from this place where everything is constantly terrible and depressed and they talk about their suffering, and it's always such a downer and makes it seem like all of us are constantly miserable. You two are the picture of trans joy and happiness and I'm just glad that you exist! ❤
So they don't tell you this at the endo, but the changes to your skin's oiliness will also make your *earwax* change. My ears used to be semi-blocked up constantly, and HRT cleared that right up. Shit's wild.
Or any pronouns. His coming out video said he still prefers he/him (for now) but is happy with any. And then they clarified on the stream that it might be possible that she'll start leaning away from he/him in the future. But for now it's a great opportunity to be confusing by mixing and matching within the same sentence 😂
Oh I thought it was just they/them now. But i haven't seen their coming out video yet. I always want to make sure I get the pronouns right! I'm on the 7 month of HRT. Its been quite the journey!
Finn has played a HUGE part in me finding out about my gender identity since i am in a very similar boat to him with it being kind of a 'i dont NEED this to keep living' but more of a 'i would be a LOT happier with myself if life were that way' and that is probably why its taken me so long to really realise that i do want to transition, at least to a degree, because even after/during transitioning i still see myself being very masculine behaviourally a lot of the time, like a lot of trans girls are very much just 'girls' but id still wanna go outside and find things, throw stuff and build some shit. i still see myself as like 'one of the boys' in a sense. I dont see as much changing socially for me as most other MTF trans ppl would since i dont see this as a bianary thing, just something to make me feel like me, of course i will present a lot more feminine but i dont see myself as just a girl and that is what has made finding things out about myself so difficult. but its relieving feeling like i actually do know what i want for myself.
Just such a delight to know they found one another and with such beautiful timing. I've been at this trans business more than a decade now and having those who give you warmth as you open up is kinda the most significant part of the whole process in a lot of ways. Every couple I know who seems this compatible is married or engaged to be married now so it's really fun to see something like this just as it really comes blossom.
So lovely to see you both so happy :) ive been on t for 2 years now and i kinda forgot how exciting it was to start, its so nice to see someone excited about hrt, makes me remember how swag it is that i get to live it every day
Somehow your relationship looks even more wholesome. I didn't think it was possible. I'm so happy F1n is feeling much happier, and I don't know about how you feel, but from the outside it looks as if a massive weight has been lifted from the both of you. You definitly brighten my day with every video
goddamnit now im crying happy tears again, so good to see happy f1nn, hes lucky to have an Icky in his life on this journey, you two are just perfect together... and tiny F1nn was hella fun.
Finn has been a comfort for me, and I've been loving your channel in particular. I took the big step this week, and took the first official step to get on HRT myself. Big love 💕
Yeah Finn is absolutely right, many changes also occur thanks to feeling more comfortable and taking more care of yourself/body or changing your lifestyle.
So glad to see F1nn feel comfortable telling us about this and SO happy that they're doing better and are happier. Thank you so much for being there for them and giving them the help and support they needed. You two look so happy together and I love it
F1nn is right about muscle mass not really changing but the actual strength does. I remember checking my biceps and being like "Oh, the E's not doing anything :(" and then I try to do a pushup (and I could do like ~20 pushups before E, without doing any kind of exercise regularly) and I just fall flat on my face. The weakness sneaks up on you until you try something like that and you're like "oh... I am WEAK weak"
Aw, I love you two so much! 😍 I'm so glad F1nn finally came out. I mean, it was always okay to be trans or not to be trans, and it still is, but I think we've all had a feeling for quite a while now that this video would happen some day... ❤ Also, F1nn is so lucky to have you. You're so kind and supportive. It's such a great example of why T4T relationships work well.
Congrats Finn!!! I'm so happy for you both, good luck on your journey!! It's so heartwarming to see how supportive everyone is being for him, all the encouragement and excitement she's getting is amazing, and I'll absolutely be sticking around to cheer them on ❤❤❤
I watch y'all because I feel you are generally good people. Though I don't fully understand what you are going through, I'll support good people all day long.
I'm she/they genderfluid and when I found out that was technically under the trans umbrella I was like "wait what?", cause I had never really thought about it. So then some friends that I have who are also trans were like "yeah, wait, did you not realize that? Genderfluid is under the same umbrella". It was like an insane lightbulb moment lmao. I think the reason it never clicked at first for me was because I'm AFAB and so the idea of like the transition being inherent was in my mind but now that I'm older and wiser I have learned much lol
I study chemistry. We use cis/trans nomenclature and other things like it in a similar but different way. In chemistry thinking, I probably wouldn't call Finn trans, but maybe an anti rotamer? Nobody is gonna understand that, the overlap between this community and chemistry is just me as far as I'm aware :(
Never really watched this type of content, but good for yall. Seems like quality of life is gonna be way better. Makes me smile to see a really positive outcome for someone that was/has been struggling through no fault of their own. Quality content. Thanks for sharing.
I’m 2 months on E and this video is everything. You are both amazing please stay together forever and keep making content. Educational and funny at the same time ❤️
Yoooo the thing about it being a lot easier to not spiral on negative emotions hits home for me. That was the first thing I noticed from transfem HRT honestly, and I wasn’t really expecting it.
I'm so glad you made this video when you did! I'm starting HRT on April 2nd and IM SO EXCITED! I appreciate the content you make as it has helped me SO MUCH!
On estrogen, EVERY SINGLE SKIN CONTACT feels like a mini-bruise, I've noticed that too! Also, I didn't have massively shitty depression before transitioning, just a kind of meh non-registration of my body. I describe it as trying on glasses for the first time in your life; you thought things were fine, but you didn't know they could be so much better!
Oh my god the emotions part is so real. A few months in I was like "Why do I feel like crying all the time? Why does everything make me feeeeeel?" turns out it's a mix of the E and also just not being super depressed all the time (only mildly depressed some of the time instead!)
......I'm gonna be honest. I thought F1nn5ter would just continue to troll people for a few years or something. I'm actually shocked. But as someone else early on the HRT, Congrats!!!
When I talked to my doc about trying out HRT the same way Finn is now, they said that's not really what it's for. So after debating it for years, now I just lean toward not taking it since it works more with my body than against it (I am a really hairy person lmao I tried laser and it was painful/not worth). In a sense I am lucky, because I don't feel like I NEED it and I have masculine ways of being that are within my preferences. But I think I still feel really similar to how Finn does. How I used to describe it was that I don't feel trans because the changes I'd make were aligned with who I already was. Like....being both/either masc and femme were always under my umbrella so now doing things more femme I am still the same person. There is a sizable group of people that feel like they are nonbinary but not trans that I think I fall into. It might be cool to see a video on it. Since I am also bi I usually just call myself queer.
Finn's coming out video brought me so much joy and I was really looking forward to your first video afterwards, and it's very cute! I've made so much progress these last few months after discovering you two and I feel closer than I've ever been to being the me I want to be. Thank you so much.
I'M SO PROUD OF F1NN 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 And Icky, i entirely believe you played a huge role in the path to your person's self-realization and you're such an awesome lady 😤💖
This is wonderful. Icky your support is so beautiful. F1nnst3r is going through something amazing and scary, and having you with him is so important and great. It reminds me of me and my partner. I think a lot of my recent changes have been so much easier and nicer since she's been with me. Being trans was something that just never occurred for the longest time, and seeing now people being comfortable and happy in public spaces like this makes me so much happier and feel safer in the timeline of my own transition. Love you girls. Xx
The way F1nn switches between or mixes his/their gendered expressions is quite refreshing and wholesome to see. I kinda get his confusion about whether he's trans because *is* he? Just like cis people are never entirely cis, if you take gender serious enough. Like there are no singular points of manliest manliness or most female femininity. Even though I understand why it can be helpful sometimes to you categorise yourself. You lift mask after mask off yourself to unveil your truest self to find the one term that communicates to the ones around you how to deal with you. While this certainly gives some sense of security it can be limiting, too. I think F1nns intuitive approach is much more honest and functional: I do what feels good to me ‒ and that can change and shift over time. Sorry for the babbling, tl;dr: the mainstream believe in gender = essence vs. the theory of gender = performance ‒ F1nn often talks about their gender in ways that remind me of the latter. To close with an edgy Baudrillard quote: "We are all transsexuals, just as we are biological mutants in potentia. This is not a biological issue, however: we are all transsexuals symbolically." (from 1990 excuse the old fashioned words)
I think I’ve been on a similar schedule to F1nn5ter, having started hormones (E pills and spiro) about 6 months ago. I’ve been fascinated by how much variability there is in these changes. Like, I didn’t notice skin changes until at least 3 months in, but I noticed my body hair growth slowing after a couple of weeks. Also, my mood changes have been very subtle, and although I think my face shape has changed, it’s hard for me to see it even when directly comparing to older pictures. Another change I’ve been getting a kick out of is increasing flexibility. I was never very flexible, and it’s not like I’m now a gymnast, but I’m definitely more flexible now than I ever was before. I’ve been getting a lot out of tracking my own body changes and I love hearing about the effects of hormones on others, whether they’ve started before, after, or the same time as me. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for the two of you.
@@williamcampbell9859 no. Jude said in he goes by his given name and Finn, depending on the situation. Also still using he/him while he figures things out.
as a guy who is a big emotional baby and cries more than my emotional gf, I'm afraid what would happen if I were to go on HRT. I'd probably just cry constantly.
When I came out as genderfluid I felt the same as Finn - like I'm a different gender...but like ina cis way lololol It's so easy to feel like if you dont fully do a binar FTM to MTF that you're not "trans enough" but I hope he can continue to educate people on the spectrum of gender. First time watching your channel and subbing now :)
As a cis-woman, this is so interesting. I didn't know this is why guys have less bruises and acne and stuff. And my cheeks, nose and frequency of crying are different from males too. I didn't know it's all because of my eStROgen! Fascinating XD
The frequency of crying is largely a psychological thing tho. The biological factor is time limited (namely by puberty). However there is a social emphasis on emotional women, and a stigma of emotional men, meaning people are more likely to tend to those stereotypes regardless of how unhealthy it is for them. Theres also the fact that most trans people experience depression from gender dysphoria, which almost always is made better by transitioning (if you dont know depression isnt just sadness, its mostly a dullness where emotion just isnt felt much).
@@Ivel1osswhile it’s true that men are expected to be stronger and show less emotion, it’s proven through countless studies that women are generally more emotionally sensitive than men due to hormones and brain chemistry, and thus, cry more. hormones and brain chemistry have more to do with how often/how easily people cry than societal expectations/stigmas do.
@@Ivel1oss birgit derntl 2008, a olsson 2016 km albert 2019, kret and de gelder 2012, barbara montange 2005, h hoffman 2010. and to expand on female hormones, who better to ask than MtF trans people about how female hormones affect not only physicality, but mentality and emotion? if you are unable to ask trans women about the effects of female hormones on emotion, one google search will turn up thousands of trans women describing increased sensitivity, crying easier, and feeling a wider range of emotion after undergoing HRT. women also have higher EQ, score higher in empathy and social awareness, and are better at detecting subtle facial emotions, all pointing to increased sensitivity. observing women through the menstrual cycle shows this as well. don’t conflate emotional sensitivity with general emotion, though, because men and women are equally emotional. also, from a biological perspective, it makes sense that the child rearing sex is naturally more sensitive.
I started MtF HRT 3 days ago and I wanted to thank you since your videos have helped me a lot and you are such a bright beautiful kind girl that you have become one of my inspirations, Icky. Thank you so much.
God I love the two of you and your respective content. I have been following Icky for 2 years and started following finn's journey ~15 months ago. I had been expecting this since about the 3rd video of his I saw. I cried with joy watching this and the coming out vid.
big fan of how your editor's only clean plate available from the video of the empty chair was when he went to the bathroom, so it suddenly reappears for the minecraft death effect at 5:26
The part about getting feelings and the change in emotional state. Thats literally the exact thing that makes me want to try it. I feel like my mental health would be better.
I had the BIGGEST smile on my face watching F1nn's coming out video - it was adorable, if that is the correct word? I am so glad they've got you to support and guide them through all the changes that are happening. All I can say is I wish you both all the best, and give Tank a hug!
As an Intersex Male who has had Hyperestrogenism for the last 4 years, I have literally experienced 100% of these symptoms. That’s why I identify as Trans-Feminine and plan on taking HRT by July 1, one year after coming out as Trans-Feminine.
"I have a queer partner... but that was always the case, and now it's official." The way Ashley said that, like her mission is completed, I am deceased.
ive been on and off about if i should do hrt for years now, and the thing that always pushed me away was that i dont want boobs, ive spend so much time around trans communites and ive never heared raloxifene mentioned even once, ive asked about and all id ever hear was that maybe you can just get them removed after they grow in which always put me off. Thanks so so much, learning that the stuff exists is massive for me, im so mad i didnt hear about this before.
Finn I'm grateful for your representation as a genderfluid person! I'm so glad more people are finally accepting genderfluid as trans, and that gender euphoria is just as much of a reason to transition as dysphoria
Finn: *socially transitions for several years*
Finn: *starts medically transitioning*
Finn: "Am I trans?"
lol
this mixing up of the steps is very gender fluid of him xD
Ain't that the bitchin reality 😢
The harsh reality of being trans often is having a hard time figuring out or accepting you're trans.
Is it that weird not wanting a label?
"You have got more feminine."
"I don't think so."
Universal transfem experience tbh
Can't blame people for trying to make us feel better
Honestly, true.
The Charizard/Dragonite meme captures it perfectly.
*nods in no idea what you're talking about*
@@ms.aelanwyr.ilaicos **nods in know exactly what you're talking about**
all I can say is,at least people are telling you youre cuter.doesnt matter if you think so, you never really thought youd be cute anyways and youre just defeating yourselef even with the effort to change it.
Finally we can be misogynistic towards Finn
long awaited
YIPPEEE
But only half the time, depending on how Finn feels
Trans inclusive radical misogyny ✅
I mean you could, but why bother when the fact that he's from Birmingham is right there?
Finn asking if he is trans after he has already started HRT, AND has been on it long enough to notice physical changes is the EPITOME of my own experience too lmao
Total same for me.
I had literally experienced months of menopausal hot flushes from a T-blocker before I realised, "oh wait, hang on... am I actually one o' those whacky transsexuals? is that what this is?!?!?"🤣
tiny Finn was hilarious
Can we keep him 🥺
💗💗💗 Very Adorable 🎉🎉🎉
@@xlynx9 don't worry about.......
Petition for tiny Finn every video.
As a fellow 'genderfluid, autistic ace who's been on HRT for several months but only just came out' (what an oddly niche category to share), I feel like you've been an amazingly supportive partner for F1nn, Ashley. You guys are so good for each other (not that I'm jealous, lol).
I think we could all benefit from having an 'Ashley' in our lives.
🥲❤️
@bigicky
Im currently also at the stage of being on HRT and eating takeout, but just watching how you two are doing already helps me continue on forward. Keep being awesome 😊
(And yes i also wish i had someone like you by my side, ur amazing
also a genderfluid autistic ace
just curious to see how many of us there are. because I agree we are niche but I've weirdly seen more than 6 in person so if your also genderfluid autistic and ace like this comment.
also autistic genderfluid nonbinary pansexual whatever xD
Just started on 1. February with hrt.
Do any of you know when exactly Finn started? Would be so interesting for me because this is sooooo incredibly amazing for me that it happened almost simultaneously :D
yo i’m also genderfluid, autistic and ace 🤣
"hello world" programmer moment
Yay chasiu 🎉nice to see you here :)
My hello world in Python didn't make my nipples hurt though XD
Fin is gonna pick up coding? No way!?!
@@rose_dddddd6476I'd 100% watch knives+coding streams.
yesss I'm a programmer and I immediately clocked it like :D
I love more representation of people who start HRT but aren't necessarily full transitioning, I'm in the same boat
Yeah I might really be interested in that myself actually. Like I might take testosterone once or maybe twice and then just half it right there. I wanna deepen my voice a little!
here I am :)
amab, nonbinary-masculine. still started hrt now and could not have done this if I had not come to the conclusion that you don't have to be binary trans or 100% committed and can still do it!
feel completely valid as a "man" with feminine features incoming and it is so nice :3
(also I am very lucky of a super respectful and supportive work environment and friends)
I can also recommend the youtuber Sam Downey who had a very similar journey :)
I'm kind of it in that position. I consider myself genderfluid like F1nn and started HRT 3 months ago. If I'm being honest I have no desire to fully transition. I've done voice work so I can totally do a girl voice, but.. IDK it just doesn't feel right to me. 😕
@@user-iv6gy7hb8u but why?
@@user-iv6gy7hb8uas someone who is transmasc who only had top surgery and was on hormones enough for voice changes.
3 weeks ago on the T4T video I commented, “Finn may not be a trans woman but he _is_ a beautiful, cisgendered male girl 💁🏼♀️” and I had no idea just how _right_ I was
Said differently: “her pronouns are he/him”
Finn’s gender-fluid takes on binary trans stuff would be super interesting! Happy for you both, y’all are awesome 💖💘
Thiss, I love the idea of just exploring human gender and body mods without a strict traditional-gender-roles gun at the back of the head. Just the joy of exploration.
As a person who's a CIS-Het white guy, I don't know how much my thoughts or opinions would weigh, but I get so much joy seeing Icky and F1nn travel this life road together. Now that they're not just romantic partners, but where Icky is there to help or guide F1nn along the way in his gender discovery journey, it's a beautiful thing. Love to you both.
(Yet another CIS-Het white guy) same, it's just refreshing to see people live how they want to live and be who they want to be. You can see just how happy the two are and it makes me smile :)
quick tip: "cis" is not an acronym, it's just Latin, so you don't need to write it in all caps
Your thoughts and opinions weigh as much as anyone else's, as long as they're reasonable.
@@waytoobiasedStar Wars would beg to differ
@@depresseddandy438 !!!! RESIST REPUBLIC TYRANNY AND UNEQUAL REPRESENTATION !!!!
im just here to find out more about HRT for cis reasons
Yea, too bad we are cis. The soft skin would be really nice... for cis reasons.
to be a better ally of course, nothing with eggshells involved whatsoever
@@skullplays6928 eggxactly
Same, just being an ally, nothing more to see here 😬@@skullplays6928
It's good to know about especially if you have friends or family on HRT and want to get a better glimpse of their perspective. With the added benefit of having facts to use at the Thanksgiving dinner table when that one uncle starts talking.
A new chapter in f1nnicky content begins!
So happy for the two of you, and congrats again to Finn!
To think, they *opened the box*
the og ones know
And what a context, I can't help but giggle 4:00
the look on Ashley's face at 4:03
I got my HRT prescribed the day F1nn came out :D
Yayy! Congrats!
I’m at the step where I just have to go to the endo and say “Yes, I’m sure” to get them, and F1nn’s whole coming out and HRT thing is certainly making me more confident about it
@@aqua4089 That's great! I kind of feel like I'm sharing a journey with someone slightly ahead of me in F1nn which is super helpful.
That was the day I decided to make the appointment!
@@ArcAngle1117 love that!
Bruh, "can you hear the drums" and "now I am become trans, destroyer of eggs" go hard. Hats off to Ashley, Finn, and the editor for the references
my fav lesbian couple
lol
Dude I just realized they are actually a lesbian couple now😂
Yes but only half of the time. Gender fluid ppl are like 4th dimensional beings
But only sometimes
Schrödinger’s sapphics
Icky proving she is the final boss.
7:20 I describe it as "no longer having emotional constipation".
Like, I get teary thinking about how much I love my friends... then I'm like "omg, I love my friends!". It's just... so right.
It's so hilarious how Finn actually thought no one knew he was on HRT and thought he looked the exact same.
Like girl, it was so damn obvious for months lol
two pretty gfs here 😍
I love/hate how true that is now
Damn sexy...
...part-time lesbians?
everywhere! So jealous.
but only sometimes
@@nibbit0879 yeah lol
He said he still prefers he/him more so I wouldn't say that
I just looooove how cute and positive the two of you are! Many trans people come from this place where everything is constantly terrible and depressed and they talk about their suffering, and it's always such a downer and makes it seem like all of us are constantly miserable. You two are the picture of trans joy and happiness and I'm just glad that you exist! ❤
This is wholesome and you're absolutely right
Yea
Right On ❤
I don't know about others, but I transitions _because_ I was suffering and was miserable. After doing it, I've literally haven't felt better.
Congrats Finn. I'm a mild dysphoria, taking E but "am I trans?" type of trans person myself, so I can totally relate!
Yea
So they don't tell you this at the endo, but the changes to your skin's oiliness will also make your *earwax* change.
My ears used to be semi-blocked up constantly, and HRT cleared that right up. Shit's wild.
Please let that...
Getting sick of ear wax buildup...
ooh, now i’m convinced! i need HRT! 😁
As an audiophile, guess I gotta transitionn
my airpods get constantly blocked so i guess it's time...
Oh wonderful... I'm gonna go deaf😂
So so proud of Finnster!! I found him right after I came out and it's wild to see them going down the same journey 💜
him?
@@RocketDescends Finn Goes By He/They Pronouns ♥
Or any pronouns. His coming out video said he still prefers he/him (for now) but is happy with any. And then they clarified on the stream that it might be possible that she'll start leaning away from he/him in the future. But for now it's a great opportunity to be confusing by mixing and matching within the same sentence 😂
@@RocketDescends they're using any pronouns right now
Oh I thought it was just they/them now. But i haven't seen their coming out video yet. I always want to make sure I get the pronouns right! I'm on the 7 month of HRT. Its been quite the journey!
Yay! I'm early!
Edit: Funny that I can now unironically call these two girlfriends :3
Boyfriendgirlfriend and girlfriend.
@@hammerth1421 and her pronouns are he/him
Yea
@@hammerth1421yep
Noooooo. His pronouns are she/her! /jk@@theoracleprodigy
Asher is such an amazing editor oh my god, the tiny Finn and Oppenheimer edits were hilarious LMAO
The Oppenheimer edit was absolutely hilarious I loved it
I shall now know what to soon expect :) Finn has been an absolute icon for me, and now said icon can tell me what to expect, it's a miracle!! :3
Finn has played a HUGE part in me finding out about my gender identity since i am in a very similar boat to him with it being kind of a 'i dont NEED this to keep living' but more of a 'i would be a LOT happier with myself if life were that way' and that is probably why its taken me so long to really realise that i do want to transition, at least to a degree, because even after/during transitioning i still see myself being very masculine behaviourally a lot of the time, like a lot of trans girls are very much just 'girls' but id still wanna go outside and find things, throw stuff and build some shit. i still see myself as like 'one of the boys' in a sense. I dont see as much changing socially for me as most other MTF trans ppl would since i dont see this as a bianary thing, just something to make me feel like me, of course i will present a lot more feminine but i dont see myself as just a girl and that is what has made finding things out about myself so difficult. but its relieving feeling like i actually do know what i want for myself.
Just such a delight to know they found one another and with such beautiful timing. I've been at this trans business more than a decade now and having those who give you warmth as you open up is kinda the most significant part of the whole process in a lot of ways. Every couple I know who seems this compatible is married or engaged to be married now so it's really fun to see something like this just as it really comes blossom.
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So lovely to see you both so happy :) ive been on t for 2 years now and i kinda forgot how exciting it was to start, its so nice to see someone excited about hrt, makes me remember how swag it is that i get to live it every day
The thing I love is seeing F1nn so much happier and more comfortable. It is so noticable.
Somehow your relationship looks even more wholesome. I didn't think it was possible. I'm so happy F1n is feeling much happier, and I don't know about how you feel, but from the outside it looks as if a massive weight has been lifted from the both of you. You definitly brighten my day with every video
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the girls are NOT fighting!! they are being really nice to eachother!!!!
goddamnit now im crying happy tears again, so good to see happy f1nn, hes lucky to have an Icky in his life on this journey, you two are just perfect together... and tiny F1nn was hella fun.
This is super wholesome and cute 🥺🫶🏾
I didn't think this channel can become even more wholesome but here we are
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Finn has been a comfort for me, and I've been loving your channel in particular.
I took the big step this week, and took the first official step to get on HRT myself. Big love 💕
Yeah Finn is absolutely right, many changes also occur thanks to feeling more comfortable and taking more care of yourself/body or changing your lifestyle.
So glad to see F1nn feel comfortable telling us about this and SO happy that they're doing better and are happier. Thank you so much for being there for them and giving them the help and support they needed. You two look so happy together and I love it
F1nn is right about muscle mass not really changing but the actual strength does. I remember checking my biceps and being like "Oh, the E's not doing anything :(" and then I try to do a pushup (and I could do like ~20 pushups before E, without doing any kind of exercise regularly) and I just fall flat on my face. The weakness sneaks up on you until you try something like that and you're like "oh... I am WEAK weak"
Joke's on the E, I was already weak before it 😎
Aw, I love you two so much! 😍
I'm so glad F1nn finally came out. I mean, it was always okay to be trans or not to be trans, and it still is, but I think we've all had a feeling for quite a while now that this video would happen some day... ❤
Also, F1nn is so lucky to have you. You're so kind and supportive. It's such a great example of why T4T relationships work well.
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Congrats Finn!!! I'm so happy for you both, good luck on your journey!!
It's so heartwarming to see how supportive everyone is being for him, all the encouragement and excitement she's getting is amazing, and I'll absolutely be sticking around to cheer them on ❤❤❤
I watch y'all because I feel you are generally good people. Though I don't fully understand what you are going through, I'll support good people all day long.
I'm she/they genderfluid and when I found out that was technically under the trans umbrella I was like "wait what?", cause I had never really thought about it. So then some friends that I have who are also trans were like "yeah, wait, did you not realize that? Genderfluid is under the same umbrella". It was like an insane lightbulb moment lmao. I think the reason it never clicked at first for me was because I'm AFAB and so the idea of like the transition being inherent was in my mind but now that I'm older and wiser I have learned much lol
the nipple pain is CRAZYYYYYYY I feel yaaa
I study chemistry. We use cis/trans nomenclature and other things like it in a similar but different way. In chemistry thinking, I probably wouldn't call Finn trans, but maybe an anti rotamer? Nobody is gonna understand that, the overlap between this community and chemistry is just me as far as I'm aware :(
*shines uv light at Finn*
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*shined again*
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*shines again*
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*shines again*
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Never really watched this type of content, but good for yall. Seems like quality of life is gonna be way better. Makes me smile to see a really positive outcome for someone that was/has been struggling through no fault of their own. Quality content. Thanks for sharing.
You're so pretty! Congrats on starting hrt Finn! 💜🌸💜🌸💜
I’m 2 months on E and this video is everything. You are both amazing please stay together forever and keep making content. Educational and funny at the same time ❤️
Testosterone poisoning is such a real thing. Not having T in my system has made my mental health so much better
Yoooo the thing about it being a lot easier to not spiral on negative emotions hits home for me. That was the first thing I noticed from transfem HRT honestly, and I wasn’t really expecting it.
I am so happy for both of you! You two are still adorable. So glad you found each other.
I'm so glad you made this video when you did! I'm starting HRT on April 2nd and IM SO EXCITED! I appreciate the content you make as it has helped me SO MUCH!
Congratulations!!! WOOP WOOP!!!!
On estrogen, EVERY SINGLE SKIN CONTACT feels like a mini-bruise, I've noticed that too!
Also, I didn't have massively shitty depression before transitioning, just a kind of meh non-registration of my body. I describe it as trying on glasses for the first time in your life; you thought things were fine, but you didn't know they could be so much better!
Videos with you two just make me smile widely and I really need that right now. Thank you for existing and being happy!!!
Oh my god the emotions part is so real. A few months in I was like "Why do I feel like crying all the time? Why does everything make me feeeeeel?" turns out it's a mix of the E and also just not being super depressed all the time (only mildly depressed some of the time instead!)
......I'm gonna be honest. I thought F1nn5ter would just continue to troll people for a few years or something. I'm actually shocked. But as someone else early on the HRT, Congrats!!!
When I talked to my doc about trying out HRT the same way Finn is now, they said that's not really what it's for. So after debating it for years, now I just lean toward not taking it since it works more with my body than against it (I am a really hairy person lmao I tried laser and it was painful/not worth). In a sense I am lucky, because I don't feel like I NEED it and I have masculine ways of being that are within my preferences. But I think I still feel really similar to how Finn does. How I used to describe it was that I don't feel trans because the changes I'd make were aligned with who I already was. Like....being both/either masc and femme were always under my umbrella so now doing things more femme I am still the same person. There is a sizable group of people that feel like they are nonbinary but not trans that I think I fall into. It might be cool to see a video on it. Since I am also bi I usually just call myself queer.
Finn's coming out video brought me so much joy and I was really looking forward to your first video afterwards, and it's very cute! I've made so much progress these last few months after discovering you two and I feel closer than I've ever been to being the me I want to be. Thank you so much.
7:49 Love the Doctor Who reference
I'M SO PROUD OF F1NN 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖 And Icky, i entirely believe you played a huge role in the path to your person's self-realization and you're such an awesome lady 😤💖
Full disclosure: I am the queerest person I know. And I am proud of that. 🏳🌈🏳🌈🏳🌈
This is wonderful. Icky your support is so beautiful. F1nnst3r is going through something amazing and scary, and having you with him is so important and great. It reminds me of me and my partner. I think a lot of my recent changes have been so much easier and nicer since she's been with me. Being trans was something that just never occurred for the longest time, and seeing now people being comfortable and happy in public spaces like this makes me so much happier and feel safer in the timeline of my own transition. Love you girls. Xx
The way F1nn switches between or mixes his/their gendered expressions is quite refreshing and wholesome to see. I kinda get his confusion about whether he's trans because *is* he? Just like cis people are never entirely cis, if you take gender serious enough. Like there are no singular points of manliest manliness or most female femininity. Even though I understand why it can be helpful sometimes to you categorise yourself.
You lift mask after mask off yourself to unveil your truest self to find the one term that communicates to the ones around you how to deal with you. While this certainly gives some sense of security it can be limiting, too. I think F1nns intuitive approach is much more honest and functional: I do what feels good to me ‒ and that can change and shift over time.
Sorry for the babbling, tl;dr: the mainstream believe in gender = essence vs. the theory of gender = performance ‒ F1nn often talks about their gender in ways that remind me of the latter.
To close with an edgy Baudrillard quote: "We are all transsexuals, just as we are biological mutants in potentia. This is not a biological issue, however: we are all transsexuals symbolically." (from 1990 excuse the old fashioned words)
Baudrillard mentionné 🥖🇫🇷🥸🚬
Can we just take the time to appreciate the wonderful work of the editor
E-less trans girl here, now I can be even more jealous of him! Yay! (All jokes aside, you two are adorable and I am legitimately happy for you!)
I'm so happy to hear HRT makes you fell better and so proud of you for doing it Finn 💖
7:45 that’s painfully relatable 😭😭😭 I’m gonna need E to keep living real soon here. For now I’m chilling though, just till I come out, ig.
I think I’ve been on a similar schedule to F1nn5ter, having started hormones (E pills and spiro) about 6 months ago.
I’ve been fascinated by how much variability there is in these changes. Like, I didn’t notice skin changes until at least 3 months in, but I noticed my body hair growth slowing after a couple of weeks. Also, my mood changes have been very subtle, and although I think my face shape has changed, it’s hard for me to see it even when directly comparing to older pictures.
Another change I’ve been getting a kick out of is increasing flexibility. I was never very flexible, and it’s not like I’m now a gymnast, but I’m definitely more flexible now than I ever was before.
I’ve been getting a lot out of tracking my own body changes and I love hearing about the effects of hormones on others, whether they’ve started before, after, or the same time as me. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for the two of you.
y'all are the preciousest
Loving the growth of you two x and I remember the awkward think fin is doing with their arms where ash is like yeah this is me x
You two are cute and wholesome. I truly enjoy watching both of you interact and just be. Congrats Jude.
So is this deadnaming orrrrr
@@williamcampbell9859 no. Jude said in he goes by his given name and Finn, depending on the situation. Also still using he/him while he figures things out.
as a guy who is a big emotional baby and cries more than my emotional gf, I'm afraid what would happen if I were to go on HRT. I'd probably just cry constantly.
You know how teen girls are really emotional? Its like that. Not usual emotionalless, more just overreaction.
This video made me so happy! you two seem so excited
When I came out as genderfluid I felt the same as Finn - like I'm a different gender...but like ina cis way lololol
It's so easy to feel like if you dont fully do a binar FTM to MTF that you're not "trans enough" but I hope he can continue to educate people on the spectrum of gender. First time watching your channel and subbing now :)
As a cis-woman, this is so interesting. I didn't know this is why guys have less bruises and acne and stuff. And my cheeks, nose and frequency of crying are different from males too. I didn't know it's all because of my eStROgen! Fascinating XD
The frequency of crying is largely a psychological thing tho. The biological factor is time limited (namely by puberty).
However there is a social emphasis on emotional women, and a stigma of emotional men, meaning people are more likely to tend to those stereotypes regardless of how unhealthy it is for them. Theres also the fact that most trans people experience depression from gender dysphoria, which almost always is made better by transitioning (if you dont know depression isnt just sadness, its mostly a dullness where emotion just isnt felt much).
@@Ivel1osswhile it’s true that men are expected to be stronger and show less emotion, it’s proven through countless studies that women are generally more emotionally sensitive than men due to hormones and brain chemistry, and thus, cry more. hormones and brain chemistry have more to do with how often/how easily people cry than societal expectations/stigmas do.
@@Linnetd by all means link the studies.
@@Ivel1oss birgit derntl 2008, a olsson 2016 km albert 2019, kret and de gelder 2012, barbara montange 2005, h hoffman 2010. and to expand on female hormones, who better to ask than MtF trans people about how female hormones affect not only physicality, but mentality and emotion? if you are unable to ask trans women about the effects of female hormones on emotion, one google search will turn up thousands of trans women describing increased sensitivity, crying easier, and feeling a wider range of emotion after undergoing HRT. women also have higher EQ, score higher in empathy and social awareness, and are better at detecting subtle facial emotions, all pointing to increased sensitivity. observing women through the menstrual cycle shows this as well. don’t conflate emotional sensitivity with general emotion, though, because men and women are equally emotional. also, from a biological perspective, it makes sense that the child rearing sex is naturally more sensitive.
I started MtF HRT 3 days ago and I wanted to thank you since your videos have helped me a lot and you are such a bright beautiful kind girl that you have become one of my inspirations, Icky. Thank you so much.
God I love the two of you and your respective content. I have been following Icky for 2 years and started following finn's journey ~15 months ago. I had been expecting this since about the 3rd video of his I saw. I cried with joy watching this and the coming out vid.
Ashley you're so supportive 🥺
big fan of how your editor's only clean plate available from the video of the empty chair was when he went to the bathroom, so it suddenly reappears for the minecraft death effect at 5:26
Genuinely helpful even though I'm not trans and actually the most masculine person I know.
The part about getting feelings and the change in emotional state. Thats literally the exact thing that makes me want to try it. I feel like my mental health would be better.
i love the doctor who edit with the sound of drums referring to the master
I had the BIGGEST smile on my face watching F1nn's coming out video - it was adorable, if that is the correct word? I am so glad they've got you to support and guide them through all the changes that are happening. All I can say is I wish you both all the best, and give Tank a hug!
As an Intersex Male who has had Hyperestrogenism for the last 4 years, I have literally experienced 100% of these symptoms. That’s why I identify as Trans-Feminine and plan on taking HRT by July 1, one year after coming out as Trans-Feminine.
You two are the best. You help me not feel alone in my transition
You are even funnier together and i love it
"I have a queer partner... but that was always the case, and now it's official." The way Ashley said that, like her mission is completed, I am deceased.
So creepy
ive been on and off about if i should do hrt for years now, and the thing that always pushed me away was that i dont want boobs, ive spend so much time around trans communites and ive never heared raloxifene mentioned even once, ive asked about and all id ever hear was that maybe you can just get them removed after they grow in which always put me off. Thanks so so much, learning that the stuff exists is massive for me, im so mad i didnt hear about this before.
This is so cuuuuute 😭💕
Finn I'm grateful for your representation as a genderfluid person!
I'm so glad more people are finally accepting genderfluid as trans, and that gender euphoria is just as much of a reason to transition as dysphoria
The "My nipples hurt!" is just soo true (ouch)
editor-chan is killing it! love the video! :D
Now i am trans the destroyer of egg !
THE BOX HAS BEEN OPENED
It's apparently all dusty and moldy and F1nn is thinking about ritualistically burning it.
I love these two so much
THIS IS SO WHOLESOME aaaa
i cant get enough of the energy you two have together
also woah im early
This comes at a good time, I'm starting HRT next week :D
WOOP WOOP!!!!