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illneas
Greece
Registrace 19. 10. 2010
I'm basically a kid with a camera.
My Last Poem
Probably I haven't seen further than anyone else, but I was the one deciding where to look and I didn't stand on the shoulders of anyone.
Special thanks to the participants and organizers of the EIT Urban Mobility Summer School
🔰Support me on Patreon: www.patreon.com/illneas
🔰Find me here 🔗 _illneas
🔗 illneas/
🔗 illneas
🔗open.spotify.com/artist/6RXfBqGg0YwfM7jVCTq79W?si=DChjB-1cT7qYDXH6psbOaA
Second channel
🔗czcams.com/channels/3urbsMSDr9XmgtnFdWZe_Q.html
🔰Communities
-discord.gg/kfxthmS3F4
- groups/2314655172176122/
-www.reddit.com/r/searchingformeaning/
🔰References
-The narrator is Iness
Her email.
🔗ijprojects.side@gmail.com
-The music was created by IOF
🔰My equipment:
I film handheld with a Panasonic Lumix
G80
amzn.to/2uGqmQZ
GX80
amzn.to/33e5Tye
📷Olympus M.Zuiko Digital 45mm F1.8 Lens
amzn.to/2vr9P3N
🔰The Poet's Lullaby by illneas
I promise that one day I will understand myself
We boarded a train and I was stressed as usual
I was distracted by a stranger's conversation before hearing your question
If you could relive your life what would you do differently?
People on their deathbeds say they wouldn't change a thing
But I think I would change everything,
like a kid trying the limits of a game
I immediately started thinking about my poems
I think this is the only timeline that I write poetry
I think this is the only timeline that we meet
However, I would miss a few things
My leg shaking
And losing track of time
Taking train rides and conversations like this
If I could hold on to a memory from this place
It would be me not being able to keep eye contact while watching my work
I always wanted to go to places that I wasn't supposed to
And when I arrived I departed for something new
The odyssey of my life could be more than an oscillation
If I remember to enjoy the moments in-between
The moments I try to escape from the inertia of who I'm supposed to be
Realizing the meaning of life is an empty question
Filled solely with my decisions
The anxiety of choice and freedom at the crossroads of my journey
The beauty of living isn't hiding in the places we are trying to reach
It's the moments of stillness that we choose who we want to be
Special thanks to the participants and organizers of the EIT Urban Mobility Summer School
🔰Support me on Patreon: www.patreon.com/illneas
🔰Find me here 🔗 _illneas
🔗 illneas/
🔗 illneas
🔗open.spotify.com/artist/6RXfBqGg0YwfM7jVCTq79W?si=DChjB-1cT7qYDXH6psbOaA
Second channel
🔗czcams.com/channels/3urbsMSDr9XmgtnFdWZe_Q.html
🔰Communities
-discord.gg/kfxthmS3F4
- groups/2314655172176122/
-www.reddit.com/r/searchingformeaning/
🔰References
-The narrator is Iness
Her email.
🔗ijprojects.side@gmail.com
-The music was created by IOF
🔰My equipment:
I film handheld with a Panasonic Lumix
G80
amzn.to/2uGqmQZ
GX80
amzn.to/33e5Tye
📷Olympus M.Zuiko Digital 45mm F1.8 Lens
amzn.to/2vr9P3N
🔰The Poet's Lullaby by illneas
I promise that one day I will understand myself
We boarded a train and I was stressed as usual
I was distracted by a stranger's conversation before hearing your question
If you could relive your life what would you do differently?
People on their deathbeds say they wouldn't change a thing
But I think I would change everything,
like a kid trying the limits of a game
I immediately started thinking about my poems
I think this is the only timeline that I write poetry
I think this is the only timeline that we meet
However, I would miss a few things
My leg shaking
And losing track of time
Taking train rides and conversations like this
If I could hold on to a memory from this place
It would be me not being able to keep eye contact while watching my work
I always wanted to go to places that I wasn't supposed to
And when I arrived I departed for something new
The odyssey of my life could be more than an oscillation
If I remember to enjoy the moments in-between
The moments I try to escape from the inertia of who I'm supposed to be
Realizing the meaning of life is an empty question
Filled solely with my decisions
The anxiety of choice and freedom at the crossroads of my journey
The beauty of living isn't hiding in the places we are trying to reach
It's the moments of stillness that we choose who we want to be
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thanks man someone precious saved by this
I wanna say goodbye so bad
Dying is an easy way out, so I should live by coz living will make me suffer more, which I think I totally deserve.
This poem is probably the reason I am alive. Last year I found it when my depression was really bad, and it made me rethink everything. That was not the first time that I had come very close to ending things, and it wasn’t the last, but it became something to look back on during the bad moments. I am at a good place right now. I’m still dealing with depression but it’s much less than it was then. I am glad that I’m alive. At times I still wish that I could end it all but it’s worth fighting through them.
I lost 2 cousins to suicide and they were siblings to each other. I heard the shot of another person i knew and the sirens not knowing the person i knew killed himself. And then my good friend josh so sweet and so kind oh just an innocent soul he couldnt take this life anymore so he too took his own. 😢
I needed this, 3 years later, and I was one of probably many others who needed this. Thank you <3
I wish I could ring in some bravery - it's a lousy fix, but the tree outside doesn't know Holy shit I've heard this many times and that finally registered
Seems like whenever that bluebird finally shakes the whisky off it’s wings, some hunter is busy shooting bullets at it.
Often those who love completely are told they do not love at all because they so often try to hide it.
Teenage problems, family and school pressure... there was a time, I always thought abt dying. Like, almost everyday. I even h4rm myself. I thought this world is boring and ugly, with everybode staring at me and judging me for all the thing I do. But I think, last year, I realize this world is pretty, is gorgeous. I look everywhere and I found everything is so nice to capture. I want to paint, want to take some pictures. I read books and I also see meanings that I had never seen before. Life is beautiful. It has always been beautiful. It just depends on how you look at it.
I loved the video. It was poignant....spiritual and thought provoking. I loved it
People say people who commit suicide are cowards but taking your own life is probably the most difficult choice to make
I feel like ending my life. I just don't want to put my family through grief. I remember starting to have suicidal thoughts when I was in 4-5th grade. I held my nose so I couldn't breathe. Of course that didn't work out after several attempts. Those thoughts never left me. If I could stop existing without bothering anyone, I'd have done it long time ago. I think that's why I seek purpose that serve people. It's for my survival.
I don't know if you know this already. Your poem has kept most of us going on in worst of times. These poems means a lot for me. Thank you very much.
I'm on the internet, I don't see the reaction to my work. This comment means a lot to me
@@illneas 🖤
This hit me in a deep level. This is exactly what’s going on with my friend
"Suicide seals ones misery in eternity"
The stoics would be delighted ❤
If someone here please say me where is the best way to kill myself without any pain 😢 please say I want to die
What's the background music?
This would be a great deterant if there where people who would notice i am gone forget miss me
this saved me
u saved u, take care
And so today , I am like wait illneas hasn't posted anything in a while, or for so long, got back to your videos, the last poem on your page is indeed named as the last poem, hope you get time from your duty and post more videos, since we miss your videos😢
I have not anymore point to live anymore
The thoughts don’t go away. Wherever I am. That second consciousness planning out some clever way to eradicate myself in the moment. Whether it’s in the car or in nature.
i just cried uncontrollably. thank you. i needed that
I always come back here when I'm having a rough time. I'm dealing with a shit ton of thoughts and I honestly can't believe I've been alive for this long (I'm gonna be 29 in a few days, May 31st) and it just doesn't seem like I should of made it this far because I have no friends and my family barley tolerates me and I'm single. I always feel like a burden and this is really the only place I can vent atp so pls forgive me.
Thank you…-that’s coming from a very depressed person
I tried once, with like......7 ibuprofen😂
Can't deny it takes something strong to be able to take yourself away from life. I know too many and you never know they will till they do.
Crazy how I end up here every time I'm on my last straw
I mean cool, but why did CZcams recommend me this video
I've thought about suicide on and off my whole life. I'm 41, married, good job, kids, money in the bank, house, etc.. Yet I still contemplate sliding off into oblivion. I won't. I have WAY too much that depends on me breathing to do that on purpose. Or at least all at once. I'm falling apart. I'm a severely overweight alcoholic. I doubt I'll make it through my 50's. And as I get older I'm actually getting comfortable with that fact, which is scary.
I think I just found inspo and seeing your channel post random clips is so refreshing
I remember last year, I was in a really dark place near the end of it. It got to the point where as I drove home from work I’d almost start drifting into oncoming traffic, just so I could stop feeling the way I did, I even began to think that I wouldn’t make it to Christmas Now five months later I still have on and off days, but I’m doing much better This poem hits close man, I really love it but god damn
I'm glad you are doing better, wishing you the best
Suicide is never an option. It is the voice of the enemy. Be encouraged, God is with you ❤
I used to think a lot about death. but I realized, one day, my life and everything in this world was always gorgeous. it's just depends on how I see it.
although the weep, they beg others for their tears. beware those who wallow in sadness and do not accept it, your joy will be their hatred.
I wish Gid would givee cardiac arrest to die ❤🎉 Instead of me dying from body wide masses and cancers. If God loves me so much he wil give me a damn cardiac arrest. Si k of cabcer pain
Is there a reason you almost got me to tear up with that?
This hits so hard.
I’m a 22-year-old lesbian who has never even been kissed and the first part of the video is so relatable. Not the second one, though, as I’m mentally ill and neurodivergent person who stutters, who doesn’t even have friends, so I’m in peace with the prospects of living a peaceful life in solitude 🌸
Life gets better friend, take care
Astonishing work on music and sounds
Apparently the chances of you being you and actually existing is 3 trillion to one. Stay strong
Any one struggling with this please seek help you deserve a good happy life 😢
try playing league of legends
After i tried to kill myself and it didn't worked, i wanted to do it again. im not strong enough
See: The Genius of The Crowd by Charles Bukowski.
This is the greatest CZcams channel I think to ever exist
What a beautiful poem. I hope you are happy wherever you are and I hope you know that what you have done here has changed people's lives.