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Oh wow! I did Animal Management too 😊 Then I got into teaching it myself but couldn't cope (pre-autism diagnosis) ❤

Really appreciate your videos ❤ I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression aged 19, then BPD aged 32 and finally Autism and ADHD aged 40! My entire life now makes sense 💡 I'm thinking about sharing on CZcams too- especially coping with everyday life stuff like setting up home, finances, and what support is on offer etc. Keep doing what you're doing! It's so good to have relatable content 😊xxx

I believed I was a BP for 20 years. The symptoms and my past-narcissistic abuse by my parents and sa by my mother's second husband seemed tp have caused it. everyone thought ans told me I was crazy, but I never felt that was true. At 35 I was with an autistic man for 5 years and did many tests which made me realise I'm autistic, but I dismissed it due to the typical myths and prejudices. At 42 I learned I am an HSP and I felt that my introversion and insecurities came from my trauma. At 47, after leaving an abusive relationship I learned about covert Narcissism, which my mother and ex have. I realised I had CPTSD. At 49 I chose my first healthy partner ever and litterally all of my previous issues were gone by 99%- the supposed "jealousy", my violent outbursts, my depression and suicidality. About four months ago I had a surgery and was on a sick leave for several weeks. My "outbursts" started again and I tried finding out what was happening. And one evening, I just stood in front of my now husband and told him that I think I'm autistic. Why? I had no regular schedule and couldn't work, which seems to be stimming for me- I clean houses for families. About four weeks ago I was pre-diagnosed ADHD and highly intelligent, the Autism isn't confirmed yet, but there is absolutely no doubt, my whole life and childhood, everything people, especially my family, blamed and shamed me for, point at this one diagnosis. The last time I ever tried making friends was at about 15, when I desperately tried to fit in. Since then, I'm a total loner and I love it. Due to the changes in my life and my own personality changes coming with them, I was finally able to distinguish between BPD and AUTISM

I think bpd is like a real diagnosis. Because it s possible that someone does not meet the criteria for autism/adhd but has bpd. But i do think that being autistic/adhd possibly increases your risk for getting bpd.

I think your theory just might be right. I was diagnosed with ADHD at the age of 21, BPD at 40, and have recently been realizing I'm most likely also autistic. Yes, I do have a significant history of abuse and trauma that started when I was still in utero. (My bio father beat my mom regularly and almost killed her once while she was pregnant with me.) The trauma and abuse continued up until I was 40 years old. The more I learn about myself and all of my diagnoses, the more I think your theory just might be more right than any of the researchers' theories. Keep looking into it and see what you find. I know I'm going to. I wish you the best in your journey on figuring out who you are. I just want to throw one question at you. Purely for you to contemplate. Have you considered your identity crisis has a lot to do with all of the disassociation rather than all of your diagnoses? The abuse and the autism may have been the reasons why you disassociated, but I think finally came to the conclusion (for myself) that I had an identity crisis more because my mind and body were not always grounded in each other (dissassociation) so how in the hell can I know who I am?

My fella of 6 1/2 years never ever split for our first 3 yrs together. In the last 3 years he splits on me once a year. He goes no contact for weeks or months. I adore him I love him completely. He HATES me when he’s splits. He LOVES me when he isn’t. It’s been 2 weeks since this last split. I moved out all of my things this time. Because last time he damaged some stuff. I have not abandoned him I want to reassure him. But HOW??

This helped me today.

Same but when it's so hard like in it nothing else is known but the facts no other feeling exists

You're so confident to share your experience and I'm glad you do well despite the bpd responses. I'm envious 🥹. Social networking is extremely hard for me and I don't create bpd content. But the agoraphobia is a real struggle I wish people knew more about in relation to bpd. I rarely leave my house and if I end up having to it's so hard to keep from having random crying fits. Your content is low key inspiring to me cause I can relate so well to it. Knowing I'm not the only one in bpd recovery that hasn't figured it all out and the cycles can still hit so low it's hard to feel like you can ever feel happy confident or capable again. 🫣 just know I relate to like 98% of everything you said and if you continue to share I'll continue to feel less alone

I can't take meds for the bpd but i relate to how horrible the experience of getting off of them can be

i got diagnosed with borderline personality disorder when I was sent to an impatient facility and finally went to at 22 therapy after 21 years of not doing anything other than a little bit of therapy with an unprofessional therapist. but I'm in dbt group and individual therapy I'm trying my best day by day

I think some people can have both bpd and autism and/or adhd. But i think it s also possible to have bpd without autism/adhd. Because if you don t meet one criteria of autism you don t have it. But in terms of misinterpreting something than being dysregulated is sort of similar (also no misinterpretation can happen that causes dysregulation)

I have bpd, I'm trying to understand what i'm going through and what the terms are for what's happening. Could someone explain splitting to me? As in, what the term means?

I was on mirtazapine but i stopped because they made me anxiety so much worse, panic attacks every day plus the weight gain and constant drowsiness. I feel so much more alive without, but i do wish there was something that worked because im still depressed

Aspergers is still a diagnosis in America as far as I know

Darn tough socks have no (noticeable) toe seam! They are $25-30 US per pair, BUT, they are merino wool so you can wear the same pair for multiple days in the row. AND, they have a lifetime warranty so you'll never need to buy new socks again!

I am sorry you have to go through this, please don't be hard on yourself ❤, so you stopped 10 mg escitalopram cold turkey?

I refuse meds these days. They’re all just bandaids. I’d consider them if I had a chemical imbalance but I have BPD which is not an imbalance. I do also have GAD, C-PTSD, OCD, etc. I’m currently in a DBt program and it’s been more beneficial for BPD than any med I’ve never been on. Other therapies haven’t worked. Only DBT in a group setting.

I stopped taking my meds for about 6 months and was in complete denial about how bad I was getting.. I started back up on the lowest dose, and also use medical cannabis daily. It's been a life saver.

I needed this ❤ thank you! I have bipolar 2 and bpd along with depression and I stopped taking my meds 1.5 weeks ago and I do feel horrible so thank you I’ll start taking them again

Hi Glo what medication do you take? Antidepressants dont work on me, have tried over 10 of them all diff types, and docs wont put me on mood stabilisers or anti pysc meds so just stuck with nothing x

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I am BPD and I don't get this explanation. I don't even realize I am splitting until afterwards. It truly feels real and genuine at the time the split occur, so I am unaware I am acting irrationally. Been in therapy for almost 4 years for BPD and I still am unaware when I split until afterwards, sometimes long afterwards. The progress I have made though is I don't split as often as I used to split. I am working on keeping my expectations realistic and stick to facts and not allow myself to fantasize or be deluded about situations. I think I am extremely good at imagining an alternate reality that I use to fool myself and when that alternate reality is shattered by real reality, I then split to cope.

i know this is an old video, but im looking into rhe overlap of autism and bpd rn so.. dont mind me. i do want to say, bpd IS a personality disorder. but its also a traumagenic + genetic disorder, all the cluster b personality disorders Are traumagenic for the most part, but still personality disorders. also, if you are autistic, you will have a higher chance of being traumatized, so the overlap of ppl who are autistic and have traumagenic disorders is more than high

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I've never felt so heard in my life

Do you take any medications?

Thank you for making this video. It's concise and easy to comprehend. I would, however, question the research about low empathy and BPD/ASD. I've studied both in depth and have never observed that in the literature I've examined as a psych nurse. Low empathy is often associated with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I agree and have experienced all of the other information you presented.

Hello! I just found you recently & it's so wonderful to listen to you talk. All the directions your brain goes in & all the connections it makes just shows how amazingly hyperaware you are & that is your superpower. I'm almost 60 & have only just found out that I'm autistic (although I've always known it I just didn't have a label for it). I definitely have agoraphobia & thanks to you I can now recognise that I probably also have BPD (thank you Childhood Trauma!) I too have a past that I'd like to bury under a rock for the rest of eternity & even though the shame is decades old I still live in fear of it coming back to haunt me. Although I have really bad days, where I don't have the strength to stand up & defend myself, surviving my past has allowed me to get to this point in life & I'm proud of myself for having made it this far. It has granted me a lot of wisdom (quite a lot of it I sometimes wish I could've done without!) & perhaps that's the reason highly perceptive people like yourself exist: to become wise & pass that knowledge onto others who are lost, feeling alone & seeking guidance. You are amazingly brave to bare you soul to others in this way & even if you feel as though you've done enough & want to stop posting online I'm sure that those you've helped will always be grateful to you, as am I. Thank you for being on this Planet & I wish you all the best.

Im 12 and I think I have ASD but idk if I can get an assesment

Thank you so much for this video!! I am recently tentatively diagnosed and have started DBT and attachment work. This is so relatable.

I relate so much to your video!

Mental health is a minefield and not at all fun to try to walk through. Something that helps one person might not help another etc. I really hope that you find small steps that help you progress. Anxiety drives me crazy, and I am just starting to get out of the house again after self isolating to avoid people. I went for a walk down a road, away from where I live with an occupational therapist the other day. Felt terrible on the build up and after the 45 min walk, where there was only other 2 people, it took me 3 days to recover from the stress. What I really struggle with, and I do not know if you find the same thing, is that one mental health problem can affect another. For example, because my anxiety is sky high, so I am not self harming even though I really want too, as I do not want to go to hospital again. A lot of people do not truly understand how seemingly normal things can be so hard. Anyway, wishing you the best. You can do it.

I got diagnosed with BPD when I was 19 or 20 and I just got diagnosed with ASD today and I unfortunately trans and have many other physical and mental issues. I have arthritis in my 20s and it sucks ass. I feel like a walking bill board for extremely poor mental health. I also have addiction issues, marijuana has destroyed my life and my lungs as I also have asthma. I hate how normalised it is nowadays and how people say it's not addictive. I've been addicted for 4 years but I need to quit for health reasons and it's effecting my psychosis and partial schizophrenia.

I would say a great many with BPD are likely neurodivergent with disorganized attachment that has experienced trauma, hidden or otherwise.

Glo, do your thing ❤ you have permission to be your imperfectly perfect self. We are all here because we want your true story. Now, I speak for myself when I say that I’ve been following you for months now, and you’re the first person I came across with both BPD and autism before my own autism diagnosis. I feel so less broken knowing there are other autistic people out there with BPD. You carry so much as a person, you’re doing the best you can. There are thousands of unapologetic people on YT that own themselves with no apologies. You deserve the same. You’re beautiful, well spoken and I’m here because I want to hear what YOU have got to say. Thanks again for another great video.

It is important for all persons to truthfully be genuine "real" and express their life experience. You are AMAZING in that you have the STRENGTH and HONESTY to talk openly about what you are thinking/feeling/experiencing. WOW! Don't ever discount your positive impact on others that need help, but are very afraid to speak out about their life situation. Your videos have greatly helped me UNDERSTAND. A great piece of wisdom that is so true: "You can help yourself by helping others!" Together, all can move forward and HEAL. There is a balance in all things. Doing less is not a option when you have so much to offer! 🫀🙏

Hi Glo Can I have your email address please?

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing. Much <3

It's ok I completely understand, drastic swings in emotion and thought all expressed out loud.

Also, I haven’t been diagnosed but I’m pretty sure I have BPD, ASD, and ADHD as well. But it is hard to know because all three do overlap so much

Totally agree crisis teams no empathy sympathy understanding, its a non cushy job,, fkin job thats it, talk to you for 5 min then off,

My therapist refers to this as absolutes. I didn't know it had a name. She just referred to it as having absolutes one way or another on something during an episode

Yeah, you collect those illnesses, girl~ Get paid!~

BPD = Psychopathy with a side of anti-male paranoia.

I'm very sorry to have to say this, but welcome to my world Glo! It's like you're either banging your head against a brick wall; wondering if you're speaking Swahili; or just plain talking to yourself! 😢 Hoping you're ok and in a better head space now though and sending much love to you x ❤ x

Which mic are you using?