Navigating a Breakup: Lonely but Okay (Stage 03)
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- čas přidán 25. 07. 2024
- lonely but not alone - video diary (jan/feb 2022)
~ it takes me a while to go back and revisit these moments to edit but it's nice to remind myself how i felt a few months ago compared to how i feel now. the intensity of the loneliness has subsided but there are still days where i feel unsure, days where i replay fond memories, but also days that i remind myself i can still enjoy the company of others and feel excited for whatever journey lies ahead!
what do you do when you feel alone?
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00:00 intro/update
01:00 gradually being social
01:48 letting out my inner child
02:33 im not alone but i feel lonely??
03:56 on perfectionism & reality of being an artist ft. @holly.m.chang
06:51 an insightful + emotional call
07:43 DIY natural dye technique!
08:35 making goat friends!!
09:48 ice meditation ~
10:34 DIY creations revealed
11:06 gemini + libra chaos
12:48 this is the only baby i find cute...
13:13 confession booth w/ a happy ending :)
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ft. the talented and kind @holly.m.chang
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(march 11 - april 9)
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It’s crazy that i have been a viewer since when you and seb were together. I really saw all your ups and downs throughout the years and i have really seriously seen you grown. While physically you remain beautiful and healthy, I saw you transform for the better each time. You always stay true to yourself and share that rawness with the world. I really hope that you have been doing great and I truly wish you all the best!!
😭🫂 thank you for being here through it all 🤍
I love how vulnerable and honest you have been in this series. Spending time with family or loved ones is always so healing. You will always have my support. Stay strong!! 🤍🤍🤍
Honestly this whole series makes me feel like my soul is getting a hug, it's just so relatable even if you aren't in a relationship(you'll feel something) and it shows how real you are as a person towards your community and audience
Thanks leah
it’s been 2 weeks+ since my first break up with my first bf ever and i feel better every time i watch your video about how you navigate your break up. it makes me feel that i’m not alone. even though my break up was mutual and we’re still in good terms, i feel like it’s harder to move on when it’s a mutual break up. i definitely miss him and he’s definitely a great guy (and he was my first love ever). i don’t know if i can properly move on from him. i just have been feeling super empty since the break up and i get what you said when you said you couldn’t be in the 100% present when you’re with your friends/family. i couldn’t too. i couldn’t focus when i’m at work too which really sucks. but i hope it gets better and i hope i’ll feel better.
i can relate to this sm :( my first bf, first relationship, first love, ended things with me 3 weeks back and it has been so lonely and empty since then. even though we did decide to be friends it still isn't easier, knowing i cannot be with him, cannot hold him, text him all the time, use petnames for him, tell him insignificant details about my day makes me so empty :( god i miss him so bad, everything about it, and it doesn't seem like it'll be easier anytime soon. i know i have to move on, but i dont want to knowing i still do love him with my entire heart.
i feel you.., first bf and first breakup back in recent december :( you’ll find clarity slowly
i feel you so much, my first boyfriend broke up with me 3 day ago, after a long and beautiful 4 year relationship, i don't think i can ever move on from him but i hope this message makes you feel that you're not alone, because reading your comment made me feel that way.
We’re all in the same boat over here, aren’t we? The first breakup of my life, that’s scary shit. My ex and I also ended things amicably after 2 and a half years and we would like to become friends again at some point, but at the moment we both need distance. The whole thing feels really… surreal, mostly? I don’t think I’ve quite understood the repercussions of this yet. Tomorrow is the first time I’m seeing him since we broke up, dropping off some stuff. I have no idea how that will make me feel.
I also can relate to this. He was my first bf,love my first break up. We were together for 2 years and broke up on the day after my bday. It sucks. I pretend to act it doesn't affect me much infront of my family and friends though it mentally bothers me so much. He suggested that we should stay as friends but it's hard for me. I still do love him so it's hard being a friend. It's been 30 days and I still haven't move on. I hope I'll get my energy back.
watching this series is like coming home to an old friend 🤍 parted ways with one of the most important people in my life but watching your videos makes it feel like someone is holding my hand along the way - thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. sending you strength, love and light 💫
This is one of the most in depth breakup series I’ve ever watched. You’ve been so vulnerable and honest through this whole process and I’m sure this has been incredibly helpful for those going through something similar. Wishing you the best 💙💙
I think when i was going through my first breakup i would try to find solace watching other peoples but most were just right after the breakup or a skit of people’s breakup stages like hooking up with ppl/partying/anger etc and i didnt really relate so I guess this is me making what i wish i could see :’)
i think this is crazy how you two were so cool, and then a break up
And you can still keep going, this is how a healthy relationship has to be, and strong as you
You are a very good role model for young girls 🍃
I've been still feeling lonely 2+ years after a breakup, but (this will sound so lame), I'm less alone. First year was rough, but I had to turn inwards, and then I have to reconnect to myself and to others in some new ways (my friendships didn't suffer because of my relationship but in general I had to reevaluate everything). So, it's a process but it's nice to know you can always find comfort in most random things, places and people.
Hearing someone feeling this even 2+ years after is soo validating
Same here... I can relate with the endless reel scrolling Leah mentioned, to distract my mind from overthinking and trying to figure everything out. The funny thing is that was during one of those moments that I can across this random video (czcams.com/video/nJavXrXeKK4/video.html) that is part of a series on emotional health, and it has really been helping me heal. Thank you all for sharing your pain. We are never truly alone 🌟
You have no idea how this series is helping me. Also going through the same journey, and moved back to my family after living with my ex for 4 years.. makes me feel less alone 🥺
Leah I’m so proud of you for having the courage to be so vulnerable with us. Being able to talk about such big and honest feelings can’t be easy so thank you for doing so. I wish you nothing but continued healing and happiness 💜
I adore this series... it feels so human and real
absolutely in love with these series
I'm easily twice your age, and just went through the end of a 22 year marriage. And you really helped me here, so I do appreciate you. I appreciate your honesty, your time, and your willingness to share your own pain, for the good of others. It's kind, and your grace helps so many. Thank you.
Being around people and getting along with them great but still feeling lonely is so relatable, been feeling like this for the longest time
I got broken up with on Friday and the cosmic timing of seeing your healing has been super beautiful and important for me
this series is so raw and real!!! absolutely love this! take care leah!!! 💌
✨Yes✨ I am really loving this series of honesty and healing its so refreshing to see, thank you for sharing this with us leah.❤ I really loved what your friend said about getting rejected, I once worked in sales where I got rejected at least 50 times a day. I am so thankful for the experience though because it gave me a new perspective on the word 'no'. Sometimes no can be "I'm not sure", "I've never seen this before", "I'm too busy to make time to prioritize this right now" or straight up "NO". And all of this makes me value Yes even more.
I am literally so grateful I found you, it's been almost 1 month watching you I am sorry I was not there earlier. I hope something good will happen in your life in your coming days I will be soo happy for you!!💜I wish you happiness always.
you were always one of my comfiest youtubers (watching u always brings me comfort), but specially now that you're showing yourself in this special moment of your life, it's like therapeutic i swear 🥺🥺💌💌 i love u Leah, in all your phases ❤️
thank you for being so open Leah, I have been feeling so similar myself. Im graduating in a few months and everything is so uncertain so it's been hard to cope with but seeing you stick out these tough times is very inspiring! Sending lots of love
Thank you for sharing all this. Breaking up with someone you truly love is a process that very few actually talk about and don’t brush off to a better time and version of themselves. Thank you truly , I needed your video, it gave me perspective and reassurance that I’ll be okay❤️
This video really helped me come to terms with my emotions. I just recently broke up with someone too, but not because either of us wanted to. Culture and religious differences aren't welcomed into either of our families so it really felt like everyone and everything was against us. It really hit home when you said you feel a sort of emptiness and guilt since you feel like you can't be as present with your friends and family as you used to be. During the beginning stages, I was trying so hard to move on that I forgot to truly feel my feelings. Being without someone who you grew so accustomed to, and who became a part of your everyday routine really does leave a sort of emptiness when you go separate ways. Almost as if you're constantly longing for that person because their presence is no longer there to fill that void. As much as we all know that time heals and that one day you won't long for that person, it is still a challenge when you feel like nothing can fully satisfy you anymore.
With all this being said, Leah, I love you with my whole heart and to everyone navigating a breakup... we got this
your videos help me to feel less lonely, it's so comforting, thank you for doing that ♡
Thank you so much for sharing and opening this side of you. These series are so pure and your honesty not just to us but also to yourself inspire me and your videos constantly make me feel better. I’m sending the little positive energy I have to wherever you are right now and I hope you are doing well. Stay strong and don’t forget you are loved. 🤍🤍🤍
I recently had someone very significant in my life leave and seeing you be so vulnerable and not stuffing it all down, admitting that sometimes Grieving someone you care deeply for can make you feel empty and not posting another “post breakup glow-up” video where your encouraged to just stuff it all down and put on a fake smile means a lot🤍 I’m so grateful to have found your channel in this little pocket of the internet, thank you leah💗🌱💟✨
Im so grateful you choose to share this journey with us. It means the world to see you be yiur honest self
I love your vids, just know that we’re happy to be there for you with your journey💗
you are so loved by many people, Leah! I have been looking up to you for years now, you inspire me so much. I hope the universe rewards you with so much happiness!
thank you for existing and making these videos. it's crazy how i care about you even though we've never met and probably never will, internet is crazy tbh haha. i'm glad you're feeling better now. when i feel lonely i go on discord and interact with random people, or listen to a podcast or call my mom or watch a series or read a story with people interacting. since i don't really have friends to interact with, i watch people interacting. if i can't have a thing, i watch people having it and enjoying it.
I do the same thing where if I feel alone, I watch another group of friends and it feels like I am there with them, but just as an observer. Can't tell if it's a good coping mechanism or not, but it makes me feel better for the short term.
I'm just so happy you uploaded, I guess I really needed some happiness in my life. I love how you are so honest and you really inspire me (and probably many others). You are such a pure and loving person thank you for being you 💕🌸
Leah, thanks for being real and vulnerable. Wish I could give you a Big Hug!😍 The scenery is just beautiful, like you. Thanks for posting. Hugs 🥰
Thank you for sharing this, Leah. Right now I'm also trying to navigate through a breakup and It really feels like you take my hand and go this path with me. I feel less lonely and more understood by someone I haven't even met yet. I wish you much healing and lots of love in your life. 🧡
Wishing you all the best 🥺❤️❤️
Thank you for making me feel less lonely in a way! I really hope you feel a bit better each day, know you will
Leah you're so strong, and the way both of you guys handle the break up, was very mature, I know it's hurt, it's weird to not have that person by your side, you feel strange, but at the end, you will heal and feel complete again. I think a alone time it's the best thing we can do to process what have been happening to us, it's a way to catch up with your feelings and understand that everything it's going to be alright.
Love you Leah, wish I could be your friend, and be with you, to support you in your new journey. Lots of love❤️
thank you Leah, your emotional honesty makes me feel less alone!! We are going 2 get through this!!
thank you for being open/sharing what emotions and troubles you're working through leah, this series has been a breath of fresh air whilst I've been navigating a similar situation! sending good vibes from Australia!
Sending positive vibes your way too from USA 🤍
I would say enjoy these times of uncertainty and freedom. It’s so exciting when you finally realize what’s coming next :)
Stumbled upon this video on my feed at 2:24 am. Im super grateful I pressed play, who you decided to go out in nature it inspired me to take a walk and let my mind wonder away from my room. I feel like the heavy air in my room kept me in a funky mood today so it was nice to get fresh air. I also really liked how you explained the feeling of emptiness, its so hard to explain ad the way you talked about not being fully present finally gave me a definition or way to tell people how I'm feeling. Thank you
leah! thank you for always open up to us
The conversation around feeling guilt around having that heaviness in your heart while spending time with your friends and family. As someone who puts a lot of value in my (familial and platonic) relationships with people, feeling like you cannot show up as your total self is so draining and frustrating. I am just grateful to have someone put my thoughts into words
we are going through the same breakup timeline and these have been really comforting to watch. makes me feel less alone 🥺❤️ thank u.
Ever so often I go back to your recent videos to calm myself and cheer me up. I'm going through life changes that puts me in bouts of loneliness sometimes, and your videos make it a bit easier for me. 🙂🙂
You are such an incredible person and creator. Thank you so much for being vulnerable with us while trying to navigate this stage of your life. We all love you so much and are lucky to have someone like you to look up to ❤️
so many of the things you shared in this video i've been going throuh as well. thank you for your vulnerability, made me feel less alone!
I’m so grateful for your vulnerability, creativity, and beautiful reflections as you process thru this hard time!!
Sending love. Jan and Feb are really hard months for me always, so I get a bit of what you’re saying. I hope March has been kinder to you so far and that you’re starting to feel more awake and full of love. Thank you for being so honest and real with us 🧡🧡
This is so raw and realistic and makes me feel like I'm not alone or stupid for having these emotions even if we're not going through the exact same things♥️ Thank you for sharing this!
Hi Leah!!! So happy to see you here again. Your videos are such a light to me. I’ve never seen Canadian farm land before, that was fun!! Hope the weather is getting warmer and the sun is shining in Canada. I’m doing well personally and learning a lot about myself these days. Trying to live in the present and enjoy life. Hope you continue to heal and grow during these hard times. Sending lots of love 🤍🤍
Always so thankful that I managed to stumble upon your videos when I needed them. Watching you heal and be vulnerable makes me feel less lonely and hopeful that maybe I can overcome my own struggles too! So I wish you all the best while I do my best as well haha love youuuuu
Leah you’re so special! thank you for sharing this experience with us and showing your emotions and letting us to be free to show ours too, it’s very important in those times where everyone is being so individual and competitive about everything, knowing that someone like you exist is really heartwarming
hi leah, me too, i havent been feeling well this past weeks and i too have been around ppl and still feel absolutely lonely. Your videos have made me felt that my feelings are valid and should be validate 🥺 hope ur feeling better and i wish you the best
Thank you. I needed this.
Hey Leah. I’m feeling for you. I also feel lonely even through I’m surrounded by loving people. I think meditation and those good memories are key
It was so therapeutic to watch how you deal with such complicated emotion. Because it is a very personal journey that you are sharing I feel less lonely. Me myself going through very complex tiring period of my life, not knowing what to do and how to feel, so many things and thoughts that I try to shut down and hang on a little bit. Wish I had more people with whom I can talk to. But even writing here and observing you calming for a little bit. Thank you
thank u for ur honest video! Ican really resonate with ur mental state and it kind of feels good seeing that a lot of people go through such phases and it’s okay to feel down anxious and overwhelmed. I’m here with u! lots of love 💛✨
Love your outfit and your family. It will take time but will make it. Thanks for sharing your lovely journey girl.
Love you Leah, love how genuine you are, you inspire me so much! I want to let myself be a full human being as much as you do, embracing all emotions and my inner child to. Such nice content, thank u ♥
You always make me feel better whenever I watch a video for you..thank u sm I'm so grateful
Your videos are so comforting to watch and it feels like a virtual hug. 🐻 I'm also going through a breakup, and watching your videos makes me feel a little better. 🥺 I really admire that you have such a big heart, and I truly believe that the love you give to the universe will always come back multifold. ✨ Stay strong and I hope you feel better soon! Sending you lots of love Leah! 🌻💙💜
Feel better sending big hugs. Remember nothing is permanent and this will pass. Let yourself feel it and take extra care of yourself. Your gonna be ok! 💛
your honesty towards yourself is whats going to help you come out of this season stronger than ever
l'honnêteté et l'authenticité dégagé dans tes vidéos donne un grand réconfort! Merci pour ces partages chaleureux, même dans des moments difficiles!
Regarder tes vidéos fait grandemenr de bien!
I'm really proud of u you're so strong and precious thank u for sharing those moments with us..I hope you become happier and happier by each day 💙
love you leah! It's natural to take time to adjust to a change like this. honestly haven't figured out a way to deal with loneliness myself aside from distractions and maybe a little crying session. hope you know we're rooting for you and your happiness
Healing with you! really enjoy this series.💗
Definitely feeling the highs and lows at this weird time on this wild Earth.. Having a big ol' cry lately has been helpful. And hugs, lots of hugs. I enjoyed you making things with no expectations - I'm trying to get out of a creative rut.. so focussing on the doing more and the outcome less this year. Soo yas, you are not alone! Lots of love from NZ!! 🐐
I feel so understood and peaceful now, thank you so much. Its 5 weeks now after my breakup and it still feels so vulnerable and fresh and so so sad..I feel very empty and lonely sometimes like you- this video really catched my situation. But we will be fine Leah, I trust in you and in me. Thanks for opening yourself to souls like me! Much warm love and thoughts ❤
the visuals in this video are insane!! the shades of blue, sooo beautiful 💙
Thanks for this video, I'm also in this stage right now and it was so nice you said you were in a stage where you were feeling very anxious and groggy and empty and suddenly thinking about your life choices a lot... I'm in the same stage and I've been really hard on myself because of it. So it"s nice to hear other people have been feeling the same in this stage :)
lovely video, as always. I absolutely love and adore those shots you take outside - like by the water in that icy scenery, they look amazing. sending you tons of love and warm hugs
Not gonna lie, the simplicity of the video, scenery, music, and your calming energy just gave me the most cathartic cry I’ve ever had
i just got out a very toxic relationship a few days ago and i just find myself still longing for him. i understand i’m not gonna get over him super duper fast but i just hope i am strong enough to just move on without hurting myself. i get moments where i feel so empty, days where i wish i got to talk to him about the good things that happened today but i’m just learning to accept the fact that he’s gone and will never come back. i hope as time passes i will be able to grow and learn from this like you :) thank you for posting something so vulnerable that people like i can relate to
I'm not in the same situation as you but feeling empty has been something I've been struggling with a lot these few months as a result I've started doing like mini videos for my own eyes and looking back and seeing clips of when I really felt joy has helped slowly come out of this feeling.
This video was therapeutic for me, it reminded me to spend more time with my mom. Thankfully, she is alive and I am trying to accomplish one of my goals for her. Thank you for giving me more energy to keep going. Keep staying strong, we all are with you as well.
thank you so much Leah 🤍 your video always brings calm, love, and strength in every difficult time.
this video feels like a hug, i am so proud of you for being so honest. i love you, sending love and hugs! have a good day
I'm also going through a break up right now and your videos are so helpful and make me feel less alone in this. I definitely get the feelings of emptiness and anxiety. Especially after being in a long term, supportive and intimate relationship. It takes time to find yourself again, to see yourself in new situations and to gradually move further outside your comfort zone.
But in time we will feel better and stronger and appreciate this time of growth with all its difficulties.
we love you too!!! This is so meaningful video girl and the scenery is so beautiful ❤️
leah you're such a treasure! thank you for sticking around and sharing your thoughts with us ♡
this was a beautiful video leah! thank you for being so vulnerable with us. sending you lots of love ❤️
thank you for being honest with your feeling ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっand the effort to make this video. i hope everything gonna be better soon. ilysm leah, you are so strong. i wish the best wishes🥺 i wanna hug u so bad🤍😣
You’re so beautiful Leah and you’re style is soooo gorgeous aesthetically omg🙏🤲❤️
thank you for this, i really need it thanks again. stay strong
relatable content. going through a breakup myself, I'm also going through all these weird stages. It's a lonely time. Thanks for sharing Leah xx
Love you’re sharing your experience with this, breakups are so tough I can only imagine how vulnerable it must feel to share. Also have to mention, you were on the beach right in front of my family’s cottage lol, such a small world! I’m glad you got to spend some time in that magical place ✨
This really warms my soul tysm Leah
aah! exactly what i needed to make my sunday bright
Everything you said towards the end of this video (around 13:15 to 14:28), you somehow put exactly what I’m feeling lately into words. I definitely relate so hard and the thing is I’m here watching this video, because I kinda rediscovered your videos through that ‘a new life in the English countryside’ video that was posted about 2 weeks ago🤍 (even tho I’ve been subscribed for quite a long time). But I’m so glad I’m getting back into watching your content because I really love it and I remember how much I really relate/feel comforted + inspired by you🤍 so thank you, I’ll keep watching and I wish you all the best🤍🤍🌟
thanks for being so real
Thank you for this video but also for your videos in general I discovered you today and I already love your content I also leave in Paris and I really like following the life of a woman living alone building her own life and self love sharing her habits and experiences it feels like we are less alone 🤍 so ty and keep going!
For years I’ve been wondering if the relationship situation Im in is right for me it’s been very toxic from the start but since we started so young I never realized the damage this would do. I’ve realized I changed myself to please them and lost myself in the process. Although you and your ex have a healthier situation, this series has given me so much confidence on being able to start a new chapter of life alone. In videos like these I rarely see people be as consistently vulnerable as you have been and embrace emotions as you do. This has reassured me that even if it gets hard everything will be okay. Thank you so much for helping me and others like me. You’re truly an inspiration and honestly you feel like a best friend. So thank you for being a friend to me and so many others in these life changing lonely moments 💕
i hope your heart will be at ease at time goes on. but for the moment practice the things that you love and remind yourself that this feeling of not being whole will pass. i cried in this video, your really brave in showing your true self and your moment of “weakness”. hoping you’ll feel better
i love you so much leah. i’ve been going through a breakup alongside you and i’d say i’m also in this stage. you make me feel so seen n safe. aghhhh the things i’d do to give u a hug
Leah, I appreciate this series so much. My bf and I broke up about two weeks ago and we were also living together. We still respect and love each other but know that it’s time to move on. It’s such a weird experience losing someone you love even when you know it’s for the best. I don’t know where I’ll go after this but I feel excited and nervous and happy and sad and lonely and yet so connected. Much love to you and anyone else who is going through a breakup 💓
I love the nature shots especially the lake, with the waves it looks like the ice is breathing!
I am so lucky to be with your journey! Always support you Leah
Youre doing so well Leah, I'm proud of you❤
Thank you so much I’ve been struggling a lot lately and not seeing a perfect ideal blog of someone’s life is so much more meaningful 💛💛💛
T-T sending u big hugs
Currently healing from my break up, it’s been 3weeks now. We dated for nearly 4years.
Your video has made me feel less alone in how I’m feeling but still doesn’t quiet the loud indecisive mind chatter I experience at night. I’m relived/excited about this new change in my life as an adult 21yr old but I’m also holding a lot of fear about my future. Just here to trust that everything is going to be okay, and I’ll find my focus soon. Practice of meditation and asana has been getting me up and moving everyday (currently on day 26 of consistent yoga) and clean local home cooked food, so I’m grateful for that 💛 everyday has been a practice of realizing when I’m not being completely present with the people I’m around, but I’m catching myself out in it more and more, so that’s good. Sometimes change and healing is slow, but I guess that’s what makes it so beautiful x
I love this series because it helps me accept my own weird feelings about things.
I feel kind of down even if I have no appearing reason to be so, I feel kind of going one a rollercoaster every f** ing day.
I have a lot of good things going on but the only that make me feel okay are getting better at cooking, showing up to yoga with Adrien 30 day challenge I am on day 13 !!!
I am so sure something good is coming your way. If you want to visit Nizza, I would love to be your guide!!
Thank you again for being here