Navigating a Breakup (Stage 01): Trying to stay afloat

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  • 🌿✹IG @leahsfieldnotes ✹🍋 a day of trying to cheer myself up... apparently crying & feeling the pain is a stage 2 thing for me: ‱ Navigating a Breakup: ... 
 (p.s. sorry I haven't been answering your questions on our relationship status, was very much still processing/coming to terms with it & I still am but we're in a place where we can talk about it openly without being avoidant - if u have any additional question you can leave them below, Andrew & I will answer them to the best of our abilities once I'm back in montrĂ©al. thank you for your love & support this past year, we love you guys so much, thank you for being a part of our lives & the journey ahead ❀ )
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Komentáƙe • 866

  • @dumplingglin
    @dumplingglin Pƙed 2 lety +5055

    Silently knew that something was up but I couldn’t imagine them without each other. I love them so much and their videos have inspired me.

    • @pastelsnickel1165
      @pastelsnickel1165 Pƙed 2 lety +474

      i know right? i felt something was off too but i respect her boundaries! this feels really upsetting for some reason maybe because i have watched them grow and navigate their relationship. i respect their decision and love her for taking such an important decision. i just feel really empty :(

    • @dumplingglin
      @dumplingglin Pƙed 2 lety +77

      @@pastelsnickel1165 yeah and i kinda related to her because i did the same thing with my ex lol. It must have been refreshing to start new from a new city.

    • @mvuyiso_buyana
      @mvuyiso_buyana Pƙed 2 lety +5

      Same

    • @wang_xian
      @wang_xian Pƙed 2 lety +15

      Yeah
 i guessed too. wishing them the best on their journeys :)

    • @davinarobertson47
      @davinarobertson47 Pƙed 2 lety +4

      does he have a youtube channel?

  • @KaitiYoo
    @KaitiYoo Pƙed 2 lety +2138

    i wish i could reach through the screen and give you the tightest hug. just like you probably learned SO much through this closing chapter of your life, this next era is going to challenge and catapult you into even bigger, brighter, and better things that you can't even fathom right now. the world is NOT ready!! rooting for you during this period of healing, leah. xo

    • @leahsfieldnotes
      @leahsfieldnotes  Pƙed 2 lety +89

      ilysm T-T thank you kaiti đŸ„ș💐💓

  • @zuhairahhh6555
    @zuhairahhh6555 Pƙed 2 lety +1857

    never really prepared myself bout the fact you guys would break up. you guys always radiate such a positive vibe together and have helped look thru the world the nature in a more beautiful and meaningful way but i guess you can't never really believe what you see on cam right? influencers like you are still normal human being who go thru hard time and do have bad days where you feel sad. everything happen for a reason. so i'm sure there are something amazing waiting for you leah. thank you for being honest and transparent with us especially bout your personal life

  • @fmorley368
    @fmorley368 Pƙed 2 lety +1208

    This is the only couple I've seen break up on CZcams that actually makes me feel some type of way, I'm going to miss Andrew but I you need to stay true to yourself and your path, sending love to both of you💜

  • @kaziapacia4272
    @kaziapacia4272 Pƙed 2 lety +1073

    This is really sad news but I know this decision must have been very hard. I wish you and Andrew healing and great opportunities to grow as you move forward in life. 🌾

  • @amyblaine7624
    @amyblaine7624 Pƙed 2 lety +842

    I broke up with a partner of 5 years around 3 months ago. We were in the same position as you where nobody did anything wrong, we just were at such different phases of personal growth and we just kind of outgrew each other. It’s really hard to end the relationship when nothing is obviously wrong. Because we still care about each other a lot and the love is still there.
    Like you, I’m also a serial monogamist and out of nowhere I ended up meeting this gorgeous guy at the bus stop at our university. I ended up having the most spontaneous, deepest conversation that I have ever had with a stranger. We are dating now. I probably needed more time to myself to just be single and collect my thoughts, but I guess life had other plans for me. Love is so strange and unpredictable, but there is so much to learn from it.

    • @claire4212
      @claire4212 Pƙed 2 lety +15

      I’m just curious but what do you mean by “outgrew each other”?

    • @littlemissyyy
      @littlemissyyy Pƙed 2 lety +10

      @@claire4212 my ex broke up with me a month ago saying this as well. I wasn’t brave enough to ask for what it meant. Do u mean u guys have lost the romantic feelings for each other? I’m still currently healing because i never once stopped loving him and I longed to grow with him. But I guess he has forced me to be by myself

    • @amyblaine7624
      @amyblaine7624 Pƙed 2 lety +52

      @@littlemissyyy I’m so sorry love💗 When I broke up with him, it was for many different reasons. It wasn’t necessarily that I didn’t love him. I still love him. He’s a beautiful soul. There just comes a time in some relationships where both partners need vastly different things to continue growing, and sometimes the relationship slows that growth down or gets people in a rut. For me, I was far too reliant on my partner for everything (which was absolutely not his fault). Especially in terms of my social life, I just clung to his friend group when in reality I didn’t actually like his friend group that much. I really needed to forge my own path and make my own friends and build my own life to achieve the growth I needed. And when we broke up, that’s exactly what happened. Did I get into a new relationship shortly after breaking up with my ex? Yes, but through that process I indeed branched out and made new friends (ones that I actually connect with). Relationships don’t have to end because somebody is cheating or the couple fights all the time. Relationships can end because it simply feels like it’s time to explore the world on your own now. It can really hurt initially, but if things are meant to be, they’re meant to be. Most of the time in those situations, it’s nothing personal. And if there is anything I have learned, it’s that life will really surprise you, and when you least expect it, the person and things you’ve been searching for tend to find you.

    • @littlemissyyy
      @littlemissyyy Pƙed 2 lety +19

      @@amyblaine7624 hi, I really appreciate the long explanation and I guess what my ex is experiencing now is like what u said, u needed to branch out and yes, it hurts so bad to think that the other partner "doesn't want" to grow with me. I never wanted a breakup and I didn't feel the way he felt, and I guess that means I have to grow up now. Without him is a whole new world and I guess I have to learn. People growing apart is the most scary thing, especially both weren't on the same page.. I'm not sure about your situation at that time but I'm hurting so bad even though its been almost 2 months. I wish I can recover quick from this.
      May I ask,, what was the whole thought process in getting into a new relationship quite fast afterwards? Thought I might .. need to be mentally prepared if my partner did the same; no offense really I'm just really curious and .. I want to know more..

    • @relaxcalmly1742
      @relaxcalmly1742 Pƙed 2 lety +7

      @@amyblaine7624 Ngl, and I do not mean this in any way to offend you but everything you wanted can still be done with your original partner unless that was not an option. It only needed to be communicated, understood, respected, and planned for. There’s boundaries that can be set. With anyone, you will eventually get to the point of a different stage of the relationship where some new sets of values and reorganizing or planning needs to be set.

  • @corcormo
    @corcormo Pƙed 2 lety +1269

    thank u for showing me what a healthy relationship looks like.
    i will forever hope to find a love as pure as yours but i'll forevermore wish u guys nothing but joy and love.
    good luck to u both, on ur new beginnings!

  • @eriswinterr
    @eriswinterr Pƙed 2 lety +934

    I just never realized that there are various factors that can result in break-ups, and I have never thought so much reasons aside from ethical causes(cheating) but more just separation/distance/grown attach, and it is such a undermined reason to discuss or talk about.(Don't know if my point is made, english is not my first language😅) I think watching your video, it brought a shift in perspective, I have no relationship experience at all and I am glad that you are okay and coping and you have a good support system! Stay healthy, Leah! I love your videos as usual :)

  • @Leni-xu2qi
    @Leni-xu2qi Pƙed 2 lety +567

    the mom of a friend of mine is a color coach and artist - my friend is also going through heartbreak, she told her to wear pink and green as they are supposed to be soothing and healing for your heaartttt

    • @leahsfieldnotes
      @leahsfieldnotes  Pƙed 2 lety +101

      Awww thank u for the hot tip I will be sure to implement that hehe

    • @lemurianfaerie1044
      @lemurianfaerie1044 Pƙed 2 lety +9

      Yes, the colours of the heart chakra 💚💖

  • @moyamawhinney
    @moyamawhinney Pƙed 2 lety +1717

    sending lots and lots of love leah 💞 you are such a pure soul and truly wishing you both the best for the future. hope you take all the time to heal and we'll always be here to support and love u from afar xx

  • @chesvalen7418
    @chesvalen7418 Pƙed 2 lety +1568

    This is probably the saddest I’ve been for someone else’s breakup. Your approach on dating was really healthy, despite parting ways I still believe it really was even if I’m aware that these videos are just relatively small fragments of something bigger. I never met a guy who respected a women’s interest even those who are actually dating one, so watching how Andrew learned about your interests and tried to get into them felt surreal. None of us has the right to speak about your relationship because a relationship should always be about the people who are involved and there’s only two who knows it more than anyone else.
    Honestly knowing Andrew through this platform you created and gladly shared to us made me alter my intoxicated and generalized idea of what men are. And I feel bad that you thought this community would be disappointed at you, this is your life Leah, always remember that we are only watching what you love to share. Hope you both stay in good terms and meet again at some point because hey you drew Andrew on your vision board remember? The one in a cafe with chickens 🐓

    • @leahsfieldnotes
      @leahsfieldnotes  Pƙed 2 lety +379

      Haha awww that’s right I did draw that đŸ„ș😭💓 I know he’ll always be in my heart, thank u for the sweet reminder. And I’m so glad that Andrew could be a role model in that. He’s the best

    • @chesvalen7418
      @chesvalen7418 Pƙed 2 lety +17

      @@leahsfieldnotes đŸ„ČđŸ„ș😭 I love youâŁïž

    • @NiceGameInc
      @NiceGameInc Pƙed rokem +2

      @@chesvalen7418 The fact of the matter is she is lesbian inside and therefore can't have a true relationship with a guy even if it was the best guy on the planet. Things like this happen again and again until one really finds out what they like. However, in case you really know what you like at an early stage, a lot of sadness can be prevented.

    • @elle7503
      @elle7503 Pƙed rokem

      @@NiceGameInc i thought she's atleast bi?

    • @elle7503
      @elle7503 Pƙed rokem +3

      I swear he's the only man i've seen, online and offline, that made me realize how good men can be, but where's the rest of him??
      And i know what they shared, what she felt for him was genuine mutual care and love, even if im not sure its romantic love.

  • @khalilahd.
    @khalilahd. Pƙed 2 lety +224

    My grandma always says the price of love is grief whether that means they passed away or moved on. It may not be something that heals over night but you will smile again. I wish everyone the best ❀

    • @gabrielaalves15
      @gabrielaalves15 Pƙed 2 lety +6

      i agree!!! jamie anderson, andew garfield and adrienne maree brown have said some really beautiful things about grief that are worth looking up

    • @gabimaza780
      @gabimaza780 Pƙed 2 lety +2

      Wow. I’ve never heard that before. Thank you for sharing.

    • @momonomay3011
      @momonomay3011 Pƙed 2 lety

      yes, love is beautiful but it can also be painful no matter what. we stick through though since hatred and isolation can hurt even more

  • @nadine4227
    @nadine4227 Pƙed 2 lety +479

    I hope everything is fine with the both of you, I'm gonna miss this duo. : (

  • @zoeunlimited
    @zoeunlimited Pƙed 2 lety +791

    I understand that it’s much harder than it looks and am SO PROUD of your mindset and attitude toward this new chapter. Sending you the best wishes for healing, love, and self discovery, Leah.đŸ€đŸŒ±âœš

  • @madixxoo
    @madixxoo Pƙed 2 lety +635

    Oh Leah :( I wondered how things were going when you dropped the NYC vlog but I didn’t want to disrespect your boundaries by pressing. I’m actually so incredibly proud of you for the mindset you’ve managed to have in relation to the breakup: not holding on solely because you’ve been together for a while, recognizing that it was time to end things even though love is still there, acknowledging that neither of you are bad people for being ready to move on and away from the relationship, etc. It took me six years in a relationship before I figured out the things you’ve managed to and I love that for you. Being alone doesn’t mean you have to be lonely! You’re so right. Romantic relationships are only one type of love and partnership we have in our lives. I’m glad you’re finding that balance and embracing the other loves in your life. Finding where you fit in the world and focusing on growing and nurturing yourself is the best thing you can do, honestly. Romantic relationships are not everything. Sorry for the long message lol, I just hope you’re doing well despite this and I can say, from experience, you will come out of this and into the next chapter of your life stronger and happier and more balanced and more mature emotionally and it will all be okay 💛 Sending you so so so much love and good energy and
 yeah! Take your time and be gentle with yourself and embrace all the feelings.

    • @TilikaVispute
      @TilikaVispute Pƙed 2 lety +12

      THIISSS!! Omg you put it into words so beautifully!!! đŸ‘đŸ»đŸ‘đŸ»đŸ‘đŸ» Sending love and light to everyone here đŸ˜­â™„ïžđŸ„°âœš

    • @777q
      @777q Pƙed 2 lety +8

      same. i was very surprised when she dropped the nyc vlog and honestly i was wondering why andrew wasn’t really mentioned. now i know the reason why
i’ve loved them so much but it’s the best for them!

  • @Chris-je5yz
    @Chris-je5yz Pƙed 2 lety +342

    I went through a breakup this Fall after 3+ years, and it was similar/identical reasons to you. Nothing “inherently wrong,” but respecting the growing in different ways and realizing each other’s happiness may be best not together. Sending hugs 💛

    • @ivonnerangel5324
      @ivonnerangel5324 Pƙed 2 lety +6

      me too. It was in April but I hope we all get thru this 💛

    • @ItsJustBleu
      @ItsJustBleu Pƙed 2 lety +10

      Same here, 5 years. it's such a hard decision, but it makes you feel such love choosing to honour yourself that way. Sending love and care to us all 💚

    • @jazminaguilar3468
      @jazminaguilar3468 Pƙed 2 lety +3

      me too, three years and engaged to be married spring 2022. You're not alone.

  • @yoongis.tangerine
    @yoongis.tangerine Pƙed 2 lety +461

    This made me tear up a little, i have learned a lot on being a better partner through you guys,and honestly this channel has been a big part on my relationship's growth. but i am sure this is for the best. proud of you, leah. wishing you happiness and peace everyday ☀

  • @najwakarina8126
    @najwakarina8126 Pƙed 2 lety +171

    i never realized i am so attached to youtubers and their relationships until now. i feel like im a part of leah's life and leah's a part of mine. seeing her go through this saddens me. but i am so proud of you leaaahhh

  • @rigzinlhamo9566
    @rigzinlhamo9566 Pƙed 2 lety +242

    That really took me aback. Like I was attached to being them a couple. But also trying to respect their decision to move ahead and concentrate and improve the individuality in them. Best of luck guys. Love you.

  • @raquelluz6585
    @raquelluz6585 Pƙed 2 lety +206

    Break-ups aren't easy at all. One thing I try to remember, and this goes for any sort of hardship or pain, is that the feeling of peace and relief will come eventually, and it will feel so nice and cozy and make you a lot kinder and more compassionate with yourself. That thought really keeps me going. Sending lots of love and wishes of a kind healing process your way

  • @yeobo
    @yeobo Pƙed 2 lety +235

    I think we all had a little feeling and it’s a bit upsetting but it’s still so honourable seeing this transition in your life be documented, I am the worst at goodbyes but we will miss andrew so much !

  • @haleyhunter9232
    @haleyhunter9232 Pƙed 2 lety +46

    I just ended an 8 year relationship at the end of november. neither of us did anything wrong but we realized we had just grown into very different people and we needed to grow on our own. i relate to this video so much. all i’ve done is surround myself with my friends and my hobbies since the breakup and this video just made me feel so understood and connected to you and i’m looking forward to both of our futures ♄

  • @christinaflutter5411
    @christinaflutter5411 Pƙed 2 lety +88

    I learned a lot about the beauty that can come through a relationship from you two, but that doesn't mean you have to be together forever. Just because something is good doesn't mean it has to stay. Sometimes you need a change, and also we don't know your whole relationship. I also completely appreciate your reflection on wanting to share more love with friends and build those relationships up in new ways. Having hitomi share things about her sacred sisterhood really makes someone reflect. And sometimes when you move or have larger changes you recognize things you didn't know you needed or you forgot was a part of you or something you wanted to grow. Please take this breakup at your own pace and don't feel pressure to share things you don't want or aren't ready too. Glad to hear you have support in your life and that you and Andrew are on good terms ❀❀. Also sending love to you Andrew, this comment applies to you as well. Your reflections on growth and school and development really meant something to me when you and Leah did chatty videos. You have a lot of wisdom and I wish you the best ☀

  • @magdeliarnstrom2237
    @magdeliarnstrom2237 Pƙed 2 lety +27

    almost a year since I broke up with my ex and it was seriously the best desicion I ever made. it is so hard to really connect with yourself and fully allow yourself to grow and meet your full potential when you have a significant other. A sad truth (for me at least) but when you get to know yourself again it makes it all worth it. sending love and support

  • @adeline4043
    @adeline4043 Pƙed rokem +7

    ended a relationship a week ago, and throughout the whole week i felt lost and stagnant, and i had no idea how to process everything. and of course, i’ve been thinking about him more lately. 90% of the time, my thoughts ended with me deciding to hate him, and dwell on what he’s done wrong in the relationship. but watching your video leah, gave me a realisation. seeing you wishing andrew well and choosing to continue your love for him feels surreal and a slap in the face. i didn’t know people can end a relationship but still remain loving for the other, and that made me further realised how i had completely missed the whole point of loving someone. ending a relationship doesn’t mean ending your love for someone, and choosing to still loving someone isn’t a sign of weakness, rather it means how powerful your love is. i’ve always been infused with the idea that breakups should end badly, and with lots of resentment, but you proved it wrong; you showed me a different version of love that prolongs your relationship with the person and contribute to your own personal growth. it’s something simple that’s presented in the video, but has opened a new door for me to move forward. thank you.

  • @AlliVera
    @AlliVera Pƙed 2 lety +281

    Love u sooo much! I’m excited for this next chapter for you, you truly did the right thing & what’s meant to be yours always will be 💗

  • @pastelsnickel1165
    @pastelsnickel1165 Pƙed 2 lety +180

    hey leah! as someone who's watched your videos since a very long time i'd like to tell you that i am proud of how much you've grown as a person and i respect you so much! i am always there for you! take care and i hope things get better soon :) going to miss andrew a lot too!!
    sending love and hugs from the other side of the world!

  • @pakhiparashar9377
    @pakhiparashar9377 Pƙed 2 lety +100

    I have always rooted for you and Andrew and this video left me teary. We haven’t met but even watching your videos makes me feel like you’re my friend. I know for a fact that you are the more encouraging, affectionate partner in a relationship, but you also ensure your self growth which is amazing. Breaking up doesn’t have to mean that everything’s over, in fact i’m sure the two of you had sooo much to learn from one another. Time will heal everything, eat well, sleep well :) love u 💗💗

  • @fashionteaparty
    @fashionteaparty Pƙed 2 lety +26

    heartbreak is hard, so sending you both love, peace and growth! it will all be good in the right time! xx

  • @s3rendip1ty_
    @s3rendip1ty_ Pƙed 2 lety +150

    Leah I've sensed this coming for a hot second now and I want you to know that you're loved and appreciated and welcomed and felt and respected and wonderful and everything else imaginable. You're making a difference, you're making an impact, you're powerful and amazing and so so human :)) Thank you for being here lovely, thank you for showing up and thank you for being you

  • @hibayakkaoui2107
    @hibayakkaoui2107 Pƙed 2 lety +16

    you don't know how much i needed this , i feel like im not alone ,not the only one going through hard times thanks leah !

  • @deliatran224
    @deliatran224 Pƙed 2 lety +15

    My brilliant friend has got to be my favorite book ever....it details really well the complexities of female friendship and love and family and growing up and changing. I love the internal dialogue of all the characters. Sending you so much love on this new journey Leah

  • @ioanapetrescu1823
    @ioanapetrescu1823 Pƙed 2 lety +25

    so sorry to hear this Leah, hope you are doing okay!!! we love you and Andrew :)

  • @saradc4863
    @saradc4863 Pƙed 2 lety +80

    This breaks my heart but
 you are your own priority and I can’t wait what the universe is holding for you. Sending love❀

  • @cherrypie4486
    @cherrypie4486 Pƙed 2 lety +23

    You won't believe me but I cried four times after watching this video. I feel so sad. Your relationship was beautiful and inspiring and you guys are my comfort duo during my mental roller-coaster days. But we will never know how things are going off-screens so I do respect your decision and note that I love you as always. Big hug and kisses. Always be happy Leah! YOU HAVE US♡

  • @thatstrueblue
    @thatstrueblue Pƙed 2 lety +65

    I can see in the comments we all felt something's off. Not with Andrew or Leah but she had so many changes with her hair (cliché, but at first I was like eh), and then finding a separate space for work, which I can relate to but it still felt like she wanted more freedom even though this isn't Andrew's or anyone's fault, really.
    I'm also sad bc breakups can be hard even if you were on good terms, but I hope both Leah and Andrew will be okay bc they both were so funny together and supportive of each other. I'll miss that energy in a sense Andrew had very good advice as well and the comedic duo was awesome and giving me some hope hahah. But yeah, thanks for telling us and I hope Andrew navigates through this okay, as well 💙 I'm glad you're surrounded with great ppl

  • @audreyh1411
    @audreyh1411 Pƙed 2 lety +4

    I love you Leah. Thank you for always sharing how you’re feeling and what’s going on. Although breakups are very difficult, I think you’ve made the right decision to take more time for yourself and find who you are! You are such a role model for me and I hope this brings a new chapter of your life! Love you💞

  • @nadiarambles
    @nadiarambles Pƙed 2 lety +7

    Parting ways (even momentarily) with someone you deeply care for is hard and requires a lot of strength. Thank you for being vulnerable about this chapter of your life Leah, I’m wishing you all the self discovery, friend connection and adventure that you desire. 💜✹ rooting for you, always!!

  • @erintennant3966
    @erintennant3966 Pƙed 2 lety +6

    we love both you & andrew !! glad yous have done what’s best for both of yall, the duo will be missed xx

  • @hakhdo
    @hakhdo Pƙed 2 lety +48

    no matter what, I hope that you and Andrew both stay well

  • @helle9075
    @helle9075 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    I hope you are both doing well ❀ It is okay to let go and choose to focus on yourself. You are young and you have a lot of time to figure out what is right for you, and taking time to focus on yourself and your own space is so valid! ❀ It also sounds like you have a healthy mindset about the situation, but remember it is okay to feel what you need to feel, and spend time with your emotions so you can properly heal and move on đŸ™â€ïž you got this!

  • @kloodledoodle
    @kloodledoodle Pƙed 2 lety +25

    haven't finished through the whole video yet but i just wanna say i love you, leah!! :) it's definitely hard to let go and we've seen you guys grow together in your videos and how great of a match you and andrew are (even i am sad). but that's life and there are things that you really need to do by yourself and for yourself firsr. wishing you all the best as you navigate through this phase. you are always loved and loved so much, leah.

  • @finnfawnn
    @finnfawnn Pƙed 2 lety +18

    I recently ended a 3 year relationship as well it’s hard but ultimately we’ll be better people at the end💗 manifesting love n happiness for your days ahead Leah! I hope u receive all the good vibes u continuously put out for us💗💗

  • @mooncowboy333
    @mooncowboy333 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    girl!!! this was so beautiful and the amount of strength you have to show such vulnerability and maturity leaves me in awe. sending you soooo much of love ❀❀

  • @nurtbmtv
    @nurtbmtv Pƙed 2 lety +599

    :( im gonna miss Andrew. Hope all is well.

  • @proudveggie
    @proudveggie Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I found your videos during a very rocky period in my own relationship and my mental health, and your soothing content and healthy perspective on a lot of things were massively helpful to keeping me afloat.
    I'm still not up to date with all the content (been watching the videos from the beginning and I'm somewhere in the end of last year at the moment!) so I was hesitant to watch this and break my own heart while I'm still watching this relationship blossom in the older videos, but the healthy habits and communication I've been learning from you won't go anywhere. Thank you for your strength and your beautiful content, you'll never know how helpful they are 💖

  • @caszmos
    @caszmos Pƙed 2 lety +61

    edit: i can feel this is going to be a bittersweet vlog

  • @jessicashropshire7740
    @jessicashropshire7740 Pƙed 2 lety +26

    Also navigating a really difficult break up. This has been especially hard for me during the holiday season and all the pressure I feel to make this time extra joyful and special.
    Thank you for your vulnerability and allowing us access to this part of your life. And for all the wisdom you provide in this video. I love knowing I’m not alone and seeing you have the strength to put yourself first and practice radical self care inspires me to continue on my journey too ❀❀. Sending love and support. Yay for sacred sisterhood

  • @shannayaanayak7063
    @shannayaanayak7063 Pƙed 2 lety +5

    rather than disappointed I am grateful for you. you practice and promote a very healthy way to deal with the ups and downs of life, showing the real struggles, letting emotions pass instead of resisting them, listening to yourself and following your true calling, and spreading love and light. thank you. take care leah I love you

  • @hannah-bc4bc
    @hannah-bc4bc Pƙed rokem +5

    coming back to this series after an unexpected four year breakup. leah, thank you so much for putting this on the internet. your mindset is so inspiring and beautiful.

  • @raquelsg13
    @raquelsg13 Pƙed 2 lety +8

    I saw this coming and yes, people change, some grow, some don’t. Time to go on. You both are really and genuinely nice people, wish you the best.

  • @zero_vanity2306
    @zero_vanity2306 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Sending you so so much love and support, I really know how it feels to break away from a chapter in your life and to be reminiscent of everything good about it. You're very strong and mature and loving and such a good natured person and it's good to see someone want to take the loving path and to show how much they care about the other person while being in the healing process. You're appreciated and I'm happy that you have Hitomi and other people in your life that love you ♄

  • @justforfun-kp9lc
    @justforfun-kp9lc Pƙed 2 lety +3

    I'm so grateful to found this channel last year, because I think it really has such a positive vibes, the way you both manage relationship is so inspirational for me and it feels so warm. I hope everything just going fine for you guys💜 Always happy and find peace in life, love you💜💜💜

  • @erina.arenaa
    @erina.arenaa Pƙed 2 lety +41

    I also want to mention that these videos really do help others going through the same situation, not knowing how to deal with it and the fact that you shared this means you want to help others and aren’t afraid to hide anything as it is a healthy situation. (ps: never feel pressure to post things too personal)

    • @leahsfieldnotes
      @leahsfieldnotes  Pƙed 2 lety +3

      Thank you đŸ„ș💓

    • @erina.arenaa
      @erina.arenaa Pƙed 2 lety +1

      @@leahsfieldnotes OMG YOU REPLIED OMG THANK YOU SM YOU MADE MY DAY!!! đŸ€đŸ€đŸ˜­đŸ˜­

  • @yasminamartin5318
    @yasminamartin5318 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    sending you love and care. your emotional maturity is unparalleled, Leah!!!

  • @annayamazaki3218
    @annayamazaki3218 Pƙed 2 lety +5

    Sending so much love to you and Andrew

  • @cheeesetoast
    @cheeesetoast Pƙed 2 lety +3

    There’s a huge part of you that is so excited for the future and life in the present. It’s amazing to see where your relationship has catapulted you! Honour it, thank it, continue the gratitude and move forward with the light you carry

  • @superfr3akk
    @superfr3akk Pƙed 2 lety +1

    i’m also transitioning into a new phase of my life and seeing this video was just what i needed. your thoughts and insights really inspire me. thank you for sharing a slice of your existence with us the way you do. sending so much love your way ♡

  • @hannahhillman3593
    @hannahhillman3593 Pƙed 2 lety

    Leah, your videos always give me comfort and clarity when I am feeling anxious or sad. I'm sending that energy back into the universe for you during this difficult time. Wishing you peace and healing.

  • @caycici
    @caycici Pƙed 2 lety

    sending love and peace -- thank u for being so generous with your emotions and processes, it is so healing to see someone acknowledge the everyday and normal wounds 💛

  • @chickpea8131
    @chickpea8131 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    Hi Leah, I just wanted to say that I've been a supporter of yours for a long time now and your videos has always been my comfort zone. I've recently been going through a lot of changes in my life in terms of school environment and social-wise. However, seeing that you acknowledged change can very different, but may not be a bad thing has made me feel very much comforted in a different way. I feel as if we're going through this together, but in a very accepting and humble nature. I would like to say thank you so much Leah for always seeing the positive in things, and that I hope you will continue to grow in the future. Love u Leah

  • @claja_
    @claja_ Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I’m sending all my love to the both of you. Change is a catalyst for growth and since y’all are already great people I can’t even imagine all of the good you’ll be able to put out into the world through whatever paths you chose💕

  • @claireelisebeauty
    @claireelisebeauty Pƙed 2 lety +3

    hii leah❀ I’m grateful that you’re being so open about this. I learn so much from your experiences and how you process your emotions. actually, when I saw you were in New York for a while without Andrew I was inspired by your independence and ability to be alone for such a long time. It made me begin to think that my boyfriend and I should also try to grow independently while being together, so we’re trying to incorporate that into our relationship now.
    I think you’re aware of how powerful your presence is online, but I just wanted to thank you again for your vulnerability and willingness to share. wishing you strength and lots of growth in this new chapter!

  • @blueberrymuffin113
    @blueberrymuffin113 Pƙed 2 lety

    Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable with us, Leah! From this video it seems that you are navigating things very gracefully. Wish you all the best!

  • @sophia5849
    @sophia5849 Pƙed 2 lety +49

    so proud of you leah !! i wish my past self chose herself and broke up without feeling so much guilt about it. my ex didn't take it well so the break up was extra hard for me and so after 2 years i still feel like a bad person & can't move on, although it was the best decision i have ever made in my life. if anyone else is struggling with this as well, choosing yourself will never be a wrong choice. only good things will come from it. sending you so much love leah

    • @ItsJustBleu
      @ItsJustBleu Pƙed 2 lety +1

      Thank you for this! Going thru a brake up similar rn and appreciate your perspective

    • @sophia5849
      @sophia5849 Pƙed 2 lety

      @@ItsJustBleu you’ve got this

  • @ssejnosnikrap
    @ssejnosnikrap Pƙed 2 lety +2

    here for you leah! take time to heal. sending my love

  • @idcidk4700
    @idcidk4700 Pƙed 2 lety +5

    Hey, just got broken up with today and my heart is completely shattered, I'll watch this in the hopes of staying afloat as well. Thank you for sharingđŸŒ»đŸ’š

  • @emelineavignon1891
    @emelineavignon1891 Pƙed rokem +1

    watched this when you first released it and rewatching it now going through my own experience of this similar situation. feeling alone and heavy and sad, thank you for sharing this space.

  • @victoriatzung9573
    @victoriatzung9573 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    I relate so much to you, I also invest a lot in my relationships and went through a breakup this year, a 4 year long relationship, but don't see it as a END, it's just a part of your life that helped you grow, it was a experience that helped you evolve :) and it was fitting during a part of you life, but now it isn't. Looking foward to see you grow with other influences and focusing your energy on yourself 💜 hope you and andrew are doing well and wish you both the best

  • @laurence44444
    @laurence44444 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    my heart is crushed, my favorite couple ever. you two inspired me so much, i'm sending you all my love xxx

  • @deekshabhat
    @deekshabhat Pƙed 2 lety

    teared up at multiple points during this video. thank you for being so honest and vulnerable and brave and for sharing yourself with us. sending you love.

  • @edieplatt3534
    @edieplatt3534 Pƙed 2 lety

    you are so wildly strong Leah, and the way in which you are processing this breakup is so healthy, pure and wonderful. I am in awe. your are amazing and I wish you all the goodness and warmth for your future. thank you for sharing something so raw and fresh, it is so brave.

  • @elohelhehe4502
    @elohelhehe4502 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    love you both. you have our support from around the world ! proud of you for being brave to be open about this

  • @genesisg8403
    @genesisg8403 Pƙed 2 lety +6

    Leah, I’ve been dealing with possible undiagnosed ADHD and diagnosed major depressive disorder. My life always feels so bleak and hopeless. I constantly feel incredibly down. But your videos are so helpful at making me realize there are ways I can improve my life and change my irrational behavior and thoughts. It has been extremely therapeutic to watch your videos, they have helped me in so many ways you couldn’t imagine. It’s like actually having a friend since I don’t have the support of friendship. I know you will continue to grow even through this hardship and come out the other end even stronger. Thank you for your videos and your ability to be so open. It honestly is mind changing for me and puts me in such a better place.

  • @soupafleye
    @soupafleye Pƙed 2 lety +1

    💕✹ here’s to your new stages and eras! it’s ok to grow and part ways. people in our lives serve us in ways they can’t in others and that’s okay. it’s a blessing to have all our different moments. i hope both of you live it up

  • @shausanabria9369
    @shausanabria9369 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Leah, you have no idea how much i needed a video like this, you make me feel less alone:’) tysm

  • @nazilik1786
    @nazilik1786 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I hope you have a wondeful journey and please know that this community is always here to support. I am also so happy to see so many lovely people around you

  • @tanniasembiring1226
    @tanniasembiring1226 Pƙed 2 lety +119

    I feel the hurt o m g I feel like I'm the one having the break up!!!!
    Leah and Andrew I hope the very best for u both good, loving people!!

    • @user-xi3nd5gz3d
      @user-xi3nd5gz3d Pƙed 2 lety

      You needn't feel the hurt. It's the natural consequence of their devious ways. Besides it is very " empowering " , and it is one of the most common vidioes on YT.

  • @deborazinha23
    @deborazinha23 Pƙed 2 lety +5

    I had figured that out but been hoping I was wrong... Well, I'm glad you guys were able to end things in a good and loving note. Wishing the best on you two! Leah, I really hope you can enjoy this new chapter of your life and learn and grow into an even more beautiful and kind human being. Keep up the awesome work, and as we like to say in portuguese: vocĂȘ Ă© luz! â€đŸ’«

  • @YunaMoon_93
    @YunaMoon_93 Pƙed 2 lety +6

    Dear Leah,
    We all know that pain and can feel with you. Take your time to heal. We all love you and will support you.
    I of course like Andrew too, he is such a nice guy.
    Wish you two just the best!
    Much Love

  • @jazminaguilar3468
    @jazminaguilar3468 Pƙed 2 lety +8

    literally going through the same thing right now. Just broke up with my partner of three years. We were engaged and were supposed to get married in spring of next year. I realized that I really wasnt ready and really need to grow. He felt the same. We both decided that it was best to end things completely, in order to have a new start individually. The hardest part was walking away when I still love him (and neither of us did anything wrong). I also was someone who jumped from relationship to relationship and never allowed myself to live as a single person. This is my first time single as an adult. It's also the first time I've just sat with my feelings over a break up, instead of move on extremely quick like I use to. I miss him and our relationship, but this really is a time for me to learn to truly be comfortable on my own and be happy with. where I am, who I am, and those I have around me. It's only been two months, yet it's also somehow already been two months. Sorry for oversharing on the internet unprovoked hahah, but I just felt so seen and related to with this video. Know that you're not the only one going through this Leah (or if you're another random person on the internet reading this too (: ).

  • @georginathegiraffe
    @georginathegiraffe Pƙed 2 lety +5

    I think there's something so beautiful about you both knowing yourselves so deeply that you know this is what's best for you. separating is always so hard but I'm proud of you both and can't wait to see where you go next

  • @taysvante
    @taysvante Pƙed 2 lety

    i feel so grateful to be (somewhat) a part of ur journey as i watch ur videos for the past few years. parting is never easy, especially when u have difficulty dealing with changes (i’m one who has never been good at it). thank u for sharing ur beautiful relationship with andrew! much of ur content together has taught me more about life, love & learning. i only hope for the both of u to find peace in the process of healing. sending hugs all the way from the philippines đŸ€

  • @sweetsoulgem
    @sweetsoulgem Pƙed 2 lety

    wishing the best for both you and andrew 💕 i love you both and i hope you can both grow to your fullest potential. definitely left me teary but i’m happy to hear it was a mutual and mature decision between both of you, the amount of respect you have for each other has always warmed my heart. thank you for sharing your process with us and please don’t feel like you need to share too much of yourself as you’re healing too đŸ«‚đŸ’•

  • @innere_raeume
    @innere_raeume Pƙed 2 lety +30

    I wish you all the energy and support you need going through that transition!
    I had a dream last night which included you Leah.. I dreamt you were in Germany in the town where my boyfriend lives, ordering food from a vegan street food struck he lives nearby. And I was so excited to see you, and of all places in that dull and grey city! But I didn't dare to come up and say Hi..
    I'm actually fantasizing sometimes about going to the US and just travelling, meeting all my favorite youtubers. That probably won't happen, but that's okay :)

  • @Fgurs
    @Fgurs Pƙed 2 lety +2

    i'm appreciative of your vulnerability with all of us to share this, thank you

  • @yuif8742
    @yuif8742 Pƙed 2 lety +2

    I send so much love to you and Andriew, I hope you learn a lot from this and remain friends if possible. I almost broke up with my boyfriend in march of this year and it is heartbreaking, more even if you have abandonment issues that you struggle with (I do), but it is at is core an act of self love and love for the other person when It's necessary. Love you Lea

  • @katharine1287
    @katharine1287 Pƙed 2 lety

    you are so inspiring and positive!! spend time with your friends and know youre never alone!!

  • @nataliac7863
    @nataliac7863 Pƙed 2 lety +3

    sending love to the both of you

  • @kalliniki_
    @kalliniki_ Pƙed 2 lety +1099

    i’m sure this was what was best for both of you.. the end of an era is the start of a new one đŸ„șđŸ€

  • @sarahb.m.5730
    @sarahb.m.5730 Pƙed 2 lety

    Sending love from London ❀ I hope you absorb strength and comfort from your friends during this transition. Thank you for sharing - I’m sure this video will be incredibly helpful to those going through the same thing x

  • @Bubblesnmushrooms
    @Bubblesnmushrooms Pƙed 2 lety +1

    Leah, you always taught me how to grow up as an adult and deal w/ relationship by sharing your life& true feelings. Im very grateful for all that videos. Thank you for sharing your story which could be a really personal thing, and I know youll gonna be get back to your own balance soon :)

  • @Jessica-wt2sm
    @Jessica-wt2sm Pƙed 2 lety

    I haven't had the chance to watch your newer videos but from what I've seen on your IG, it seems like you're surrounded by such a great support system đŸ„ș It's so nice to see you out and about because I know that's something you struggled with when you were living in Montreal. Living in a new city post-breakup can be so freeing; excited for this new chapter of your life and the person that you grow into because of it. Proud of you for making this difficult decision 💕

  • @laurinewbu4080
    @laurinewbu4080 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    you're not disappointing or bothering anyone !! we love you and support you no matter what

  • @dionyseokie3670
    @dionyseokie3670 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    I litteraly cried, you are definitely not alone in this, your(you and Andrew) relationship taught me so much from beginning to the very end, and I'll forever be thankful for that 💗I hope you're both happy and healthy.

  • @anastaziahkeziah5873
    @anastaziahkeziah5873 Pƙed 2 lety

    Thank you for having the courage to speak so candidly about your situation

  • @hyaacinthus
    @hyaacinthus Pƙed 2 lety

    Leah thank you so much for being vulnerable enough to post this, I’ve recently also ended my long term relationship and it’s so refreshing seeing someone be so vulnerable on the internet. Sending you the most positive and healing vibes your way✹💕

  • @Jessica-wt2sm
    @Jessica-wt2sm Pƙed 2 lety +2

    Break-ups are hard but there's comfort in knowing it's a human condition and something almost everyone goes through at least once in their lifetime. Know that you're not alone and you're gonna get through this just like you've gotten through everything else in your life. You got this Leah, take it one day at a time. Sending lots of love, acceptance, and healing energy your way đŸ’›âœšđŸ’«

  • @elle-jy3uc
    @elle-jy3uc Pƙed 2 lety

    sending u lots of love, leah! u will be okay and time really heals almost everything. excited for u and ur journey!! đŸŒ·đŸ’—âœš

  • @taneshnaorlova2797
    @taneshnaorlova2797 Pƙed 2 lety +1

    LĐ”ah, you're a huge good girl. the fact that you feel respect and gratitude for your relationship with a young man is an excellent indicator of a healthy attitude to life. this stage is time-consuming, but gives a great impetus to the development of yourself as a person. Thank you, I also recently experienced similar feelings and therefore thank you for sharing your experience with us.đŸ„ș💓