Navigating Love, S*x & Healing with
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- Äas pĆidĂĄn 10. 07. 2024
- đ·@leahsfieldnotes đżJuicy & candid conversations with âȘ@HitomiMochizuki222⏠đâšThank you to BetterHelp for sponsoring this video! To get 10% off your first month of therapy, go to betterhelp.com/leahsfieldnotes to sign up today
C H A P T E R S
00:00 welcome to a new series!
00:45 sponsor
01:42 some sisterly love to start the night
02:06 TW: self-harm & how Hitomi stopped
05:30 baking a midnight snack
06:00 have you hooked up w/ any girls?
06:20 re-examining sexuality and attraction
13:20 drunk experiences
15:35 getting in touch w/ your masculine energy
16:30 the energetics of penetrative s*x
18:41 cutting karmic ties
20:30 I forget how to kiss
22:06 forts are just the coolest places to hangout
22:40 how do you know when ur ready to be in a relationship
23:47 what animal represents you
25:01 how do u know when its the right time to engage w/someone intimately
27:31 celibacy??
29:01 reflecting on growth
31:40 friends who brush their teeth together..
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A big thank you to Hitomi for being so supportive of my sleepover series idea! And thank you for spending time to watch this creationđ€ What topics or guests would you like to see in the future?
Maybe some meal ideas? Love u:)
Honesty the same guest. This is the perfect video genre and content we all need esp. this year
would be awesome to see cup of jasmien and you together !!
Hiromi was wonderful and very insightful. I would love Rowena as a guest in the future too.
ashley aka bestdressed đ
yall don't understand how much we all needed this đ thank you leah & hitomiiiiii !!!
omg moya i love your videos too- what a crossover hahaha
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Literally!! Im so thankful to be able to have found their videos
Omgggg gurl I love your videos too.
I wish you were there in this video too
i love your vids moya! hopefully you and hitomi connect in paris xx
the longing for soft, intense and pure sisterhood is REAL âšđ„ș
Me too girl
i feel you
Ditto
seriouslyy!! the LONGING
Same
this video is so beautiful & comforting đ„ș i canât wait to see future guests in this series!!
Well I do have this really cute n cool n smrt friend called Amanda đ©
@@leahsfieldnotes pls i would be honoured
this aged like fine wine!!
this makes me have hope in finding like minded people, i crave having translucent conversations on degrees like this with someone whoâs open and allows themselves to be vulnerable around me, itâs truly a form of intimacy, i love how both of you made it feel so safe to share anything and everything
i feel you sm and i'm sure those people will come into our lives
I love you so much and Iâm so happy we met Leah â„ïžđ„șâšđđ You are truly such a pure reflection of tenderness and I canât wait to c uuuu and squeeze uuu again in the future
P.S. this editing is soooo goood
I LOVE YOU BOTH SO MUCH AND IM SO HAPPY YOU GUYS ARE FRIENDS
So so grateful for you & the universe for bringing us together đđđ«đżâš
My favorite youtubers!!
i just flippin love you SO much, it's unreal!!!!!
Ur both such angels
You can really see how physically loving Hitomi is in this. She's constantly moving closer to you and trying to connect w you and exist in a space w you. So lovely!
I love that about her too
this video really made me reexamine how I approach relationships. If I ever had someone like Hitomi in my life, I would read her energy as more romantic than platonic. But having a platonic friend that treats you like that is so beautiful. I once had a friend tell me that I give myself to easily to other people and I think that's true. Boundaries are so important. Thank you Leah and Hitomi for helping me come to this conclusion. My love is sacred and I should see myself as such.
do you mean âsacredâ ??
i donât mean this in a spelling freak sort of way, but your comment is so nice and i just want you to get the message across to everyone :â)))
ăăą - m i a Yes! thank you so much
@@katetheworld4053 no problem!
Iâve had conversations about love and exchanging sexual energy with some of my partners before. The look of confusion on their faces.. I believe they saw it as some kinky thing I was into. In reality, I wanted it to be more sacred and feel in-tune with their soul/energy but they didnât speak my language.
A lot of people don't believe in these concepts or haven't even heared of them. Imo their reaction shouldn't be too surprising
I relate to this so much
people think you're so over-invested when you talk like this but it's just the most logical thing to me!
you're very brave for doing that, truly hope you can bond with someone the way you wish to
i couldn't stop smiling TT also hitomi's answer about knowing when ur ready to be in a relationship is also a good way to understand if you should carry on in a relationship. i feel like once we start a relationship we just keep going because of inertia but dont stop to think would i choose to enter in the relationship again, does it continue to meet my initial criteria? does it continue to add to my life and make me feel more free and authentic?
Same I was smiling the WHOLE time
leah is my safe space, i feel so much better just watching her videos, i love them smđ
same!
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I feel you on the difficulty of knowing your sexuality with all the external influences and pressures. I was sure that I must be straight even though a lot of things didnât add up and it took being in a relationship for a year and my boyfriend suggesting it for me to realise that I was asexual. Even though people are becoming more open, I think the world still doesnât really consider the lack of sexual attraction to be a valid thing.
Same here! I never really understood why none of my relationships surpassed a few months (Iâm almost 21), but it was because that is typically when sex is suggested in relationships. I finally found out that I am asexual once I was talking to one of my friends and said, âIâm not sure if I want to have sex because I genuinely want to, or if I feel like I want to because society wants me to.â Usually when I tell people Iâm asexual, they look at me with pity or will hint at abuse because the concept of not wanting sex is so foreign, which I can understand but the questions asked are still highly inappropriate.
I always felt like there were more influences towards the opposite of heterosexuality, to be honest (more a marker of modern times imo). I also think there is a lot of pull towards things being more sexual in nature, when that is not always necessary or right. I am probably more asexual like you, but that doesnât mean that that is wrong. It doesnât mean you canât or donât want to have children or are avoidant of and not able to be attracted to other human beings, or that you will be less likely to seek out a relationship. I used to think asexual people were like that (maybe there are different types of asexual people... probably... but I guess I just donât want to paint it or even those individuals I disagree with, with a bad brushstroke anymore... maybe thatâs what their aim is, too). Companionship really is important, and I value hugs and snuggles. Just because I value that though, doesnât mean that there isnât a time and place for more sexual things.
Eh, idk. We can say whatever we want, but it doesnât necessarily mean we will go through life in that way. I prefer not to think so deeply about it. Just have to try your best to go through life and figure it out as you go. Both things that we want and things that we donât want (doesnât necessarily mean those things are even bad... and sometimes even if they are they can build character) will happen. Thatâs my philosophy I think.
Maybe I just donât like painting things in a sexual or asexual light. I just donât want to think about it that much. I just want to be left alone.
@@winterfall4028 I think itâs more because you feel pressure from the other person, and that it doesnât necessarily boil down to society (at least not in full or even majority... I do think that individuals are more important in comparison). It is natural to feel those things and it isnât necessarily wrong on their part, though I kinda wish waiting till marriage was more of a thing still myself. But itâs cool that you were able to navigate your relationships in that way if you didnât feel comfortable doing that. A lot of people regret not opting out like that I think. I wish you the best of luck in your future. Just keep at it and eventually you should get closer to something that you want. :) I donât think long, drawn out relationships are necessary most of the time, and that people tend to steer towards them more out of convenience. Itâs better to meet more people. You have a greater chance of finding the right person that way. So yeah, keep at it! Sounds like you are doing the right thing (do what feels right to you though) :)
@@winterfall4028 I feel the same way! But if it's any consolation, I've read some reddit posts and comments where people stated they believed they were fully asexual for years....until one person changed their concept of "love" and "attraction". For some people, it just takes the right person to be sexually (or physically) attracted to; the right person to click with. And it doesn't mean that it's only narrowed down to one person. Call it connecting of souls, mind, energy- whatever you would like to call it. I think sexual attraction and the reasons behind one's desire to have sex differs for everyone. You just may discover yours :)) (And if not then that's okay too! Just saying this because I know plenty of people who kept their sexualities open/open for interpretation. We're here to explore, might as well make the most of it ^~^)
You had me at âI thought my tongue was going to fall offâ đđThe duo I didnât know I needed. You guys are so funny đâ€ïž
I had to stop watching this halfway through because of my longterm inability to make and maintain friendships of any kind, especially like this. I don't know why I constantly retreat into such chronic self-isolation and so it hurts so deeply seeing others build platonic connections so effortlessly. This sort of bond and conversation feels completely unattainable for me.
Thank you for sharing this. I relate so much. But I know itâs not unattainable for you or for me, because things change and our hearts can heal. Sending you so much tenderness and love đ
I too feel like you and honestly at this level I don't know what to do. I feel kind of lost
this is so true
i love how we women have such a big potential of sisterhood i could sit with my girlfriends and talk with hours like this i hope i can experience more of this kind of thing trough my life!!!!
your discussion was so nice to listen to, it felt like i was with friends tbh and reminded me a lot of conversations i would have with my own friends esp being queer. i found some of the convo about "being the man" when being with women to be too reliant on gender norms that can be a reductive way of viewing wlw relations as still heteronormative in a way, being forward and more dominant in a sexual relationship can be feminine energy too. i know you two were just speaking candidly and from experience, but i figured i wanted to contribute to this space too from my experiences! thank you for opening up this dialogue and being so open and vulnerable
Thank you so much for this reflection, I feel like there is so much heteronormativity as well as gender norms in our society and much as I try not to perpetuate those paradigms, they can still come out in internalized ways. I think Iâm still learning new language to explain how it feels to be in my power when dating other femmes. Grateful to keep learning, I take full accountability that still I donât get things 100% right all the time. Sending love to your sweet heart â„ïž
@@HitomiMochizuki222 Love the original comment, and love your classy response! Thanks for being open to listening and learning.
I am so glad you mentioned this. As a lesbian it made me uneasy hearing that framing of sapphic dynamics and hearing penetrative sex being called more intimate and vulnerable. But I appreciate the conversation and Hitomi's response :)
dear leah, i really appreciate the honesty and the pureness I can feel in this video. It made me really emotional and I am grateful for being part of your feelings. I would really appreciate a trigger warning next time, especially during parts regarding self-harm. It was a bit overwhelming, since I wasnât really prepared. đđ„șđ
ahhhh Iâm sorry about that! I put one before we started reading the poem but Iâll work on making it more visible next time & audible! Thank you for letting me know đ
at 4:30 i sobbed with you guys. iâve been struggling with self harm and iâve never really heard anyone talk about their self harming in any way before and this really hit deep for me. â€ïž
leah is such a good listener while hitomi is a wonderful storyteller/teacher
and you can tell they have such a mature and powerful relationship :)
when i saw that you two did a video I was so excited !!
who wouldve thought that a 33-min video would still feel so short!! Gosh, never knew we needed this sleepover with you guys until you did it!! Hope to see more!! Love you leah and hitomi đâš
Omg I didnât even realize it was that long!!
Thought I was the only one feeling this way ⊠it really felt short lol
What a synergy of female energy, loved this đ
the ending scene of you two brushing your teeth together made me feel so nostalgic and safe for some reason. I have an identical twin sister and we always brush our teeth together/sing together and Banana Pancakes is one of the songs we have sung. your friendship is so authentic and pure. i love you both so muchâ€đ„ș
I'm not even halfway through this and it's just so comforting and soothing. đđ€âš
What a refreshing collab! I literally felt like I was listening to you gals in the room. Female friendships are so powerful
I truly wish my late teen-early/twenty year old self had more opportunities to have time like this with people who listen & share ideas.
this video came to me at the perfect time. cherishing female friendships above all right now when iâm 20 has proved to me to be the next step in my life. i am claiming this video as a sign to follow that calling. I LOVE FRIENDSHIPS! WOW! THANK YOU FOR THE BEAUTIFUL DEPICTION!!!!
Ughhh, this video brought me so much joy. My husband walked in and asked me why Iâm smiling so much. It brought tears to my eyes because I could feel the love through the screen. I hope to find a connection with friends like this one dayđ
god this was so nice to witness, there are so many things I relate to regarding relationships and sexuality which I was feeling kinda guilty for, but knowing that other people experience the same things makes me feel so safe
the vulnerability and candidness and love and space being held in this is a work of art, you're both poetry in motion and i thank you for sharing this with us
It's so hard to find people who truly understand you and who can really be a safe place. To feel comfortable enough and trust someone enough to be able to be your most authentic self is a blessing. I feel gratitude for my relationships but I also tend to feel a longing for deep love, compassion, growth and sisterhood.
i just can't believe my 2 favorite women in yt where i find comfort in their videos are united and having such a great conversation. i also want to be surrounded with people who are just so open and supportive to each other. i love you both so much đ
I absolutely loved this! You should definitely go on with the sleepovers series, this video felt so real and it really does feel like weâre there while watching. I really appreciated listening to such authentic conversation about real life things
Loved every second of it Leah! keep shining ~
Thank you leah for sharing with us this precious moment and making us feel like we're all at the sleepover đ„°
im speechless im so so so so so so so so so happy your channels are my safe place im so grateful
this was such a delight to watch
oh my gooooood you two are the sweetest people đ„ș just watching you feels like the warmest hug ever
iâve watched you and hitomi separately for years. both of you guys really helped me navigate growing up and healing and seeing u guys together literally brings tears to my eyes. forever inspired by you bothđ€
i love both of your channels sm. i already know this video is going to be so healing. đ„ș
finally had the time to see this video and it's so wonderful being able to see the two of you create such a loving, accepting, and warm space together!
this is the series we needed!! Feels like a whole girl talk session so comforting
I am so excited for this series! this was really amazing, thank you so much for this video
Both of you are my comfort space on the internet. Thank you for sharing your lives and energies with us. So grateful. Sending love and light!
that's soooo sweet
i've never gone to a sleepover, thank you for invating all of us!! it surely thought me a lot and made my heart warm
This is actually so real. I thought this video was going to be more casual but I loved the realness. Thank you to both of you!!
i'm crying and so happy, their energy and conversations are literally healing me on so many ways. thank you thank you thank you. lots and lots of love for you two
thank you both for being so openly vulnerable
my HEARTT aahhh this video is everything i needed and more, like hanging out with my 2 big sisters, been watching hitomi for years and you guys together are so comforting! i adore you both
THANK YOU SO MUCHHHH! I'm crying so much just because I'm so happy to live on this earth while you two also exist there. Two beautiful gentle and powerful souls
Living for these consistent videos! Leah i can tell youâre putting so much effort into these, and I appreciate itâ€ïž
I didn't want this video to end!! So fun and revealing, sending lots of love
felt a bit like I was an actual part of this sleepover! So amazing how honest and deep you talked and let us be a part of it!
Ohhh girls. This video gave me so much, it provoked so many realisations about my own life. I truly thank you for opening up from the bottom of my heart
I am so excited for this series to continue
When Leah spoke about the thought of kissing girls being really nerve racking and not initiating things, I could totally relate! I think it's more intimidating because girls are so soft and pretty and usually men in general from my experience are more bold about initiating and whether or not they are into you. I remember knowing my fiancee was going to kiss me for the first time and I was so, so nervous. When we actually kissed it was one of the best kisses, if not the best kiss of my life. I only used to be able to hook up with girls when I was drunk because of this but now I've been with a woman for a long time, it's the most natural and just amazing thing in the world, I still get butterflies and nerves all the time but more in an excited way. I also agree with what Hitomi was saying about being more in touch with her masculine side when with a woman. I think I also take on a way more caring role like I wanna run my girl a bath and spoil her rotten whereas with guys I never felt like that
this sleepover series idea is the best!! cant wait to see more!
This may be one of my favorite videos of yours. I really needed to hear both of your relatable takes on sexuality and relationships. Itâs great to see vulnerable content creators like yâall
i just started watching and i already love this series >.
I am so happy you guys finally met and had the chance to have these wonderful talks
i haven't finished the vid yet but i just want to say thank you so much for putting this out for us! the editing in this is amazing, it really feels like a close and personal sleepover which is super comforting and much needed right now đ„ș thank you for this and for everything you do, you continue to inspire me everyday
you two are such a power duo đâ€ïžâ€ïž thank u for sharing these moments with us
Hitomi x Leah duo is the best!!! Would love to see more videos featuring you both hanging out đ
Thank you so much for letting me be a part of this! Itâs like Iâm sitting with you guys and chatting! Your videos mean a lot to me đđŒđ
You don't know you need to hear something until it's said. Feeling all sorts of ways after this, this is already such a beautiful series â€
Wow the first part of that video hit home, love seeing strong women overcoming the struggles it gives me hope
related so much to Hitomi's perspective on masculine energy, hearing you both talk about this was so eye opening to my own feelings that i didn't really understand.
This is so good. I watch you and Hitomi individually and seeing you both grow your friendship together is so healing and such a beautiful thing to watch! Also this feels like a podcast and I love it.
seeing you and hitomi show up so raw and vulnerably with each other is so so inspiringđ„șđ„ș Im in a season of my life where I donât have any friends and this video made me really look forward to when I can one day share such raw and vulnerable love and kindness with another soul againđ„șđđ
definitely enjoyed every second of this and i was really laughing through and learning as well. didn't even realize it was 33 minutes long!
so blessed to be able to watch your amazing videos! loving all the content and can't wait for more! you're doing amazing
it's the first day of my cycle and this was the most beautiful thing to witness on this day of all days to deeper connect myself with the divine feminine energies of this world
Seeing my favorite CZcamsrs together made my week, thank you so much!!!
This video is so insanely comforting on so many levels
gosh this content is so pure and inspiring and it just reminds me of what is possible to experience with friends awwwww đ„ș thank you both!!
I love you so much, Leah. You've been in my mind lately and praying that the next coming days will feel better and lighter for you. You inspire me a lot to heal and be a better person. â€ïž
Thank you both to Leah and Hiromi. It felt like I was a part of the sleepover too. And all the discussion were so enlightening. It helped me learn a bit about myself as well. All the best to both of you for your future life journey.
thanks for filming this absolutely beautiful, intimate video. made me realize it's been way too long since i've had a sleepover and also to see it as a ritual in nourishing sacred sisterhood love. my heart is all kinds of mush now
Honestly, this video was Soo healing to me! I realise now that it is because no ego was involved. No one trying to overtalk the other, no one trying to cut off the other one as you were speaking. Both listening deeply to the other one, sharing hearts and being totally open and vulnerable with each other. Wow! That is what friendship should look like. Thank you for showing the way and for the deep healing. I can feel it in my chest!!đđđ
i love this so much cause its like a sleepover but using no social energy just chilling stoned drinking tea listening to them
ahhhh this was so comforting to watch I needed thisTT! didn't want this to end TT
I just love this woman energy and the sisterhood! So beautiful!
wow Hitomi's experiences were so insightful, thank you
are you kidding me?! i love and found you both seperately, so to see you have found your way to each other is beautiful.
it's been so long since i've been able to have a heart to hear / deep convo with my girlfriends and this was such a nice reminder and at the same time made me miss my besties! thank you for being open and allowing us to watch! what a great idea :)
Seeing you two find each other has made me sooo happy đ„° I really feel like I'm growing with you guys, I've recently really gone through some low moments and feeling so lost, and I cannot express how grateful I am for having you two as a sort of guidance (no pressure) but also just as a sort of comfort. I really love your energy and maybe feel like if we'd be in another timeline and I didn't live in Belgium we'd maybe could've been friends. I am also doing a lot better now and am really looking forward to grow and learn and be happy and really learn to put up boundaries. Sorry if this was lengthy, I know you get a lot of these. But thank you both for being here for all of us and for spreading the good vibes! much love â„â„
my god im literally crying i swear HITOMI AND LEAH I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH.
This one had me bawling!!! I relate to the self harm healing journey, and to see you embody love rather than continue the cycle of cutting is really powerful. đ thank you for being so vulnerableđđŒ
thank u for being so vulnerable on the internet. i cherish this video deeply so thank u for sharing
one of my fav video eveeeeer
Wow seriously thank you for this . As a woman in her early 20s I am constantly trying to figure out myself and my relationships and all the topics you touched in this video were so valid and relatable. And the advises you and Hitomi gave , were all so nice even though it didn't felt like advise it was like listening to friends talking about their experiences and learning from them . So thank you so much â€â€
omg??? The collab I didnt know I needed?
i love how you are sharing your experiences and trauma and sharing this with us.. all throughout the video i felt like i was there with you..
Omg I already love this video!! It's so soothing thank you so much for such heartfelt content Leah! I feel like I've learned so much listening to you two ! I hope you have a nice day đ big hugs đ
ok this is really my comfort video of the month
Aweee oml I both love and truly needed this video, thank youâš
Truly the best video ive watched on the internet!!! Thank you so much Leah and Hitomi đ
this is so wonderful! oh oh ohhhh I hope to manifest this type of friendship and sisterhood. I'm so thankful for you two
The energy you guys are radiating is just so wholesome, healing, loving, supporting and I just LOVE it! Definitely going to be my go to comfort video,, also I love how you guys are open to discovering different sexualities and exploring these topics with your friends!! Keep up the good work on your videos and sending hugs, kisses and love to u
i love this video so much. probably one of my favorites ever. it just felt so raw and fun. thank you!!
Literally my two faveourite people coming together to open their hearts to one another is the most beautiful thing. The willingness you both have to listen to one another, actively support and lift each other up is so inspiring. It reminds me how lucky I am to have female friendships and also how I want to be more open about sexuality and liberate myself and others. Thank you both for bringing such wholesome safe content to the internet, fricken lurve u guys