Fentanyl Addict interview-Colin

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  • čas přidán 26. 07. 2024
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Colin, a fentanyl addict living on Skid Row.
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Komentáře • 963

  • @sierramcalister4094
    @sierramcalister4094 Před 2 lety +953

    Colin is now officially home with his family.

  • @MikaelaMorgan459
    @MikaelaMorgan459 Před 2 lety +402

    Colin has been missing for months. I can't believe this is how we found him.
    Colin, please come home.
    Your life is worth living.

    • @erickiyoshiphillips2323
      @erickiyoshiphillips2323 Před rokem +5

      I'm glad he has people who care for him enough to contact him on CZcams. Alot of people's family don't care anymore or the individual did to much damage to then that they cut ties

  • @jay1k466
    @jay1k466 Před 2 lety +375

    This is my friend’s older brother. He’s been missing for months now, so I’m glad he’s not dead. I hope we can get him back home here. We miss you Colin just please come home bro

    • @blackeagle6268
      @blackeagle6268 Před 2 lety +6

      🙏❤️🙏

    • @gisselmontero2304
      @gisselmontero2304 Před 2 lety +11

      He seems like a nice guy... take him back home please away from the devil

    • @BadBoybBubby
      @BadBoybBubby Před 2 lety +11

      He needs to be whilling to help him self. He seems his on the right track his just on the wrong road.

    • @gisselmontero2304
      @gisselmontero2304 Před 2 lety +2

      @@BadBoybBubby indeed

    • @gerardacey5124
      @gerardacey5124 Před 2 lety +9

      Damn... its a small world isn't it.. my prayers go out to him and his family

  • @CaroleMora22
    @CaroleMora22 Před rokem +54

    It is amazing to come across this video and learn that this young man was found through this video and is now home with his family. This is proof that this channel is having a huge impact, even if one person's life and health are recovered, this is huge. And, no doubt, many more of them have benefitted from these interviews.

  • @LaurenFaulkner
    @LaurenFaulkner Před 2 lety +287

    I used to work with Colin.. I remember him leaving to go back to Louisiana to see his son. He's been a missing person for some time now. His family has utilized every last resource in an attempt to find him. It's hard to see him like this but I'm so incredibly happy he's still on this earth with us. Stay with us Colin ❤️

    • @meghanwaterman9173
      @meghanwaterman9173 Před 2 lety +7

      Please contact his family right away!

    • @LaurenFaulkner
      @LaurenFaulkner Před 2 lety +16

      @@meghanwaterman9173 they are aware! They found this video before I did.

    • @kingcame3777
      @kingcame3777 Před 2 lety +1

      Way to break confidentiality

    • @LaurenFaulkner
      @LaurenFaulkner Před 2 lety +2

      @@kingcame3777 who?

    • @James-ck4bg
      @James-ck4bg Před 2 lety +2

      With all respect, but I don't think it's your task to share what Colin's family is going through or whether he was missing or not. It's a very personal matter and Colin should share what he wants to share. Even if you know more than you should, it's the loyalty which makes you not share it with the whole world without Colin's permission.
      Now it feels like some sort of privacy violation or snitching.
      I hope you can understand what I mean here. Colin comes off as pretty shame sensitive. Let him share the chapters he wants to share. The rest is none of our business.

  • @MizugamezaSempai
    @MizugamezaSempai Před 2 lety +30

    Update! Colin has made contact with a friend and Colin’s brother is planning to pick him up, bring him back to his home, and get him help!

  • @cdroberts5890
    @cdroberts5890 Před 2 lety +68

    This is my brother in law!! We have been looking everywhere for him for months! Colin, please call Chase, Dana, Caroline, Cat, Matt, Casey, Casey, Cameron, me, anyone! We love you so much and have been worried sick for months!!!! Please, can anyone help us?!?!? This is a miracle, Colin!!!

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +6

      @soft white underbelly...

    • @jessd7281
      @jessd7281 Před 2 lety +5

      @SoftWhiteUnderbelly anyway that Colin can get reconnected with his family?

    • @reedermh
      @reedermh Před 2 lety +18

      @@jessd7281 He is being reconnected. There was a post on TigerDroppings (an LSU fan site) on the O-T Lounge (a miscellaneous type board) from his brother. Another poster saw this video and contacted him.

    • @bourdeaux35
      @bourdeaux35 Před 2 lety +3

      He left for a reason, unless somethings changed during the months of him being gone, then you’re just re introducing him to the abuse he was running from.

  • @suntzu9037
    @suntzu9037 Před 2 lety +56

    I was homeless and on heroin and i kicked it. You can do it bro. I did, you can too. I used suboxone. Bought them on the street instead of dope and stayed on them until i didn't care about heroin anymore. Then weened down off the subs until eventually i stopped them too. This was a couple years ago and i have zero interest in ever touching heroin again. The longer you go without it, the less you care about it. At this point I can't even believe i was ever on heroin.

  • @prestachio9601
    @prestachio9601 Před 2 lety +165

    Fuck abusive parents man, I feel so awful for people who are brought up this way because it’s not their choice. It’s luck of the draw really. Praying for this man, hope he finds his way and has a brighter future.

    • @janicejacome
      @janicejacome Před 2 lety +4

      Mark should get an award. THIS is what we should show in school! .. Yes,it is hurts that draws us in. and 👌 FUCK ABUSIVE PARENTS 👌

    • @petakucas7389
      @petakucas7389 Před 2 lety +5

      Abusive and neglecting parents are the root of all adult choices you make later in life weather it be good or bad. Parents SHIT ME!
      I always wanted to be that bird that grew and flew the nest! never to return to see there faces again. !!!

    • @megan807
      @megan807 Před 2 lety +7

      Legit can’t stand them. I have no idea why they have kids and they usually have multiple kids and just abuse all of them. Ugh, they are the worst kind of people 😡

    • @niazqayyum1828
      @niazqayyum1828 Před 2 lety +1

      @@petakucas7389 you can heal with spiritual healing start with chajras and aura keylontic science

  • @sierramcalister4094
    @sierramcalister4094 Před 2 lety +22

    This is my sisters ex!!! His family has been looking for him for months!

  • @kristamehr7211
    @kristamehr7211 Před 2 lety +129

    I think I’ve watched every episode and out of all of the interviews I believe Colin has the highest probability of turning things around. Smart, articulate and capable. Good luck Colin. You can be great.

    • @cookiecarpenter7795
      @cookiecarpenter7795 Před 2 lety +10

      Colin is currently a missing person. This is the first we have seen of him in MONTHS. We all in Louisiana are praying this was taking recently and he truly is alive.

    • @joefelice5062
      @joefelice5062 Před 2 lety +1

      Based on the comments, it sounds like he has a huge support system ready to help. That is one of the best predictors of success in recovery - hopefully he is fighting and letting those people help him.

    • @bey976
      @bey976 Před 2 lety +1

      @@cookiecarpenter7795 hey - did the family ever find him. It's been on my mind, I had to come back to then video

  • @pickleforknwiggles634
    @pickleforknwiggles634 Před 2 lety +70

    I hope Colin reads these comments and sees how much humanity and hope there is left in this world. Good luck buddy.

  • @SHARIFHAMZASTUDIO
    @SHARIFHAMZASTUDIO Před 2 lety +106

    Holy crap, this has been the one interview on this channel that totally got me deep... I went through similar struggles with my kids, now they live with me and I'm so blessed. Colin, you need to get well for your son. Even if you won't see him for another 10 years. When he shows up, you need to be ready.

    • @tinawindham6958
      @tinawindham6958 Před 2 lety +10

      You are so right. I was thinking he needs pictures and face chats or letters from his son. Huge motivation. Esp a teenager and young adult that would be awesome.when his son is 13,14,15 he can see his dad, IF he is clean🙏✌️

    • @gunsmokegaloreyt6840
      @gunsmokegaloreyt6840 Před rokem

      Uuvvvvvuvvvuvvvvvvvvv vc

  • @marcymorales8214
    @marcymorales8214 Před 2 lety +99

    This man is so genuine. Imagine the man he could be in this world living a sober life! Some people will never learn/change or even want it but, some just need to be rescued and shown there is purpose! Not that he’s better than any other, I feel for this man 😔

    • @carter_1
      @carter_1 Před 2 lety +5

      Some end up being the best counselors for the next generation struggling.

    • @sunsetstormx
      @sunsetstormx Před 2 lety +1

      @@johnm3907 Huh??

  • @embott1
    @embott1 Před 2 lety +57

    Oh you sweet boy. I lost a friend a couple months ago…to fentanyl specifically. I just wanna…hug him

  • @graciechris1104
    @graciechris1104 Před 2 lety +108

    It's not too late! You could turn your whole life around and when your son is grown and finds you for himself he'll be the proudest man ever that you achieved it. Please don't give up 🙏

  • @jennifermccain6062
    @jennifermccain6062 Před rokem +21

    I wish we could get an update on Colin. It is so wonderful that his family found him and he has support. I hope they surround him with love so his soul can heal. He seems like a really nice guy that just made some mistakes. I wish him the best. Keep your head up Colin!

    • @katelynwhyte750
      @katelynwhyte750 Před rokem +5

      I searched him on Facebook and it appears active. He looks like he’s doing well! The change in his appearance is also significant.

    • @NothinLikeBatonRouge
      @NothinLikeBatonRouge Před 10 měsíci +3

      COLIN IS DOING GREAT!

    • @killyourego1983
      @killyourego1983 Před 10 měsíci

      @@NothinLikeBatonRouge tell hi and lot of love from random guy on interentt !!!wish him all the best

  • @kaycollins7684
    @kaycollins7684 Před 2 lety +40

    This guy is so intelligent and so sweet he deserves so much more then he has gotten out of this life, I wish him all the best! Love yourself Colin.

  • @emilywynstra
    @emilywynstra Před 2 lety +35

    He has shown SO much resiliency and character throughout his immense troubles. I admire his strength and honesty. Praying he will get blessings and a new life with his son that he deserves 💕

  • @AmadRaven
    @AmadRaven Před 2 lety +136

    You're very self-aware, Colin. Not many people are. Throughout childhood, a lack of nurturing and abandonment is awful, but when you're a child, you just live through it, not knowing any better. You have a good inherent nature, strength, and humility. I pray that you will find the adequate resources to support you. I know lots of people will be praying for you.

    • @charlottewillis9582
      @charlottewillis9582 Před 2 lety +14

      I enjoyed your uplifting comment✌️

    • @msamazinggrace1918
      @msamazinggrace1918 Před 2 lety +3

      Me too! 💯 👍❤ 🙌.

    • @threeminuteshate
      @threeminuteshate Před rokem

      There’s a phrase in the AA handbook that both Colin and I both know: “self-awareness will not save us.” It’s wild. My best friend was an alcoholic/addict. I saw him struggling hard. You think that would be enough to make me say keep on the straight and narrow, but unfortunately it’s not.
      Colin, as long as you’re alive there is hope.

  • @francescaebba
    @francescaebba Před 2 lety +25

    This channel is really doing big things...important things.
    My hoodie came in today and I can't wait for someone to ask about it. I hope to turn many people onto here. More than happy to support all this channel has to offer.
    Thanks for your dedication Mark!

  • @albertagrown
    @albertagrown Před 2 lety +10

    I can't believe the number of people in the comments that are his friends/ family that have commented! I've NEVER seen this on any other video. He is so loved and missed! Seeing the pinned comment, letting us know that he's home is awesome!! 💞

  • @cookiecarpenter7795
    @cookiecarpenter7795 Před 2 lety +154

    Colin is currently a missing person. This is the first we have seen of him in MONTHS. We all in Louisiana are praying this was taking recently and he truly is alive.
    COLIN!!! You are missed so very much. Let us know you’re okay. 😭

    • @sunsetstormx
      @sunsetstormx Před 2 lety +13

      LORD please reunite this family!

    • @janicejacome
      @janicejacome Před 2 lety +6

      He is a genuine man in agony. 🙏🏼Wish us all peace.

    • @augustwest5487
      @augustwest5487 Před 2 lety +6

      Well he did say in the video where he is staying.

    • @cocochels4795
      @cocochels4795 Před 2 lety +4

      @@augustwest5487 literarily lol the exact location

    • @bourdeaux35
      @bourdeaux35 Před 2 lety +3

      Fix the reason why he ran away or he’ll run away again.

  • @kimk8890
    @kimk8890 Před 2 lety +45

    Colin, your heart is incredible huge for your son! Never give up, he needs you as you need him. Don't beat yourself up for lost time. Give yourself the gift of getting clean. You will be a better you for you, and him! Blessings from Colorado!

  • @jessd7281
    @jessd7281 Před 2 lety +36

    First, I just want to thank Mark, for helping share people’s stories who otherwise might not have a voice. I do think it’s great therapy for those addicted or struggle with mental health to talk through their life and get to tell their story. I have watched many interviews, and while I wish all could get the help they need, I especially wish it for Colin. I feel that he doesn’t understand his own worth, and he (like all) is capable of turning his life around. What I have found also knowing an addict, is they really, really need to want to change. No one else can stop what they put into their body, stop how they spend their money, stop how they live their life. After a while, I’m sure it gets comfortable having a routine, even on Skid Row.
    Colin- you deserve so much better than this. If you want to make the change, I believe in you, I know you can do it. The world doesn’t own you, you can come out on top. Lots of love ❤️

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +1

      ♥️♥️♥️

    • @boddaboom77
      @boddaboom77 Před 2 lety +4

      I'm part of a college football message board and Colin's brother posted back in September about him being missing and asking for other posters to be on the lookout. Well, another poster happened to see this video and now Colin is on his way back to Louisiana to a rehab facility and has accepted the help offered to him by his brother. Hopefully Colin makes the most of this second opportunity at life. It's been a wild ride to follow the story over there.

  • @crazydee1955
    @crazydee1955 Před 2 lety +30

    That is so sad. He seems so sweet. I hate to see him suffer like that.

  • @becky3410
    @becky3410 Před 2 lety +24

    Colin really touched my heart! He is one of the men who want to me part of his sons life and would do anything to be there, but he was pushed away! I can’t stand it when parents act so selfish and don’t care about the children and their feelings, or how it might scar them! It breaks my heart! I hope Colin can get some help, thank goodness for Mark! Colin is hurting and he needs help. I wish you the best Colin ♥️

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +4

      It's abuse to keep children from their parents. Unless, it's in the best interest of the child's well-being. It's also abuse to speak negatively of the absent parent as that parent is Half of who they are = whatever negative words are said about the parent, the child accepts as half of their identity.

    • @Noah-sr1hc
      @Noah-sr1hc Před 2 lety

      Your a real ass person Becky !

  • @noahkaufmann8903
    @noahkaufmann8903 Před 2 lety +9

    I used to be addicted to Xanax coke and percs I've now been sober since 2018/2019 I'm 24 the road to recovery is in your hands 💯💯🖤

  • @NothinLikeBatonRouge
    @NothinLikeBatonRouge Před 10 měsíci +10

    YOU SAVED MY BOYS LIFE, MARK! THANK YOU SO MUCH!

  • @vinnie302
    @vinnie302 Před 2 lety +17

    My brother was shooting H and robbing people by gun point 7 years ago. He spent time in prison. He’s now 5 years clean and has a family. It can be done. I type this with the same quasi death wish you have. I’m an alcoholic.

  • @nikbartnik
    @nikbartnik Před 2 lety +52

    Such a charismatic, honest, humble, and sweet guy. Despite all the suffering he has went through he still looks healthy and young for his age. Seems very sharp and intelligent, too. I sincerely hope that he decides to get help. Again, listening to his autobiography, it becomes apparent that it's not the substances which are solely responsible for the situation of most addicts. It's rather their upbringing, traumatic expierences, and mental health. Unfortunately, this is passed down from generation to generation until someone breaks the cycle. Our society as a whole and politicians in particular tend to argue that it's only the substances that are responsible for the suffering of so many. It's not. It's just easier to explain in such a simple manner, it works great for an election campagain. All over the world - look at Duterte, for example. I wish in the future we will shift our focus and stop stigmatizing people who suffer from addiction of any kind. Nonetheless, I hope you can break the cycle, Colin! Wishing you all the best!

    • @megan807
      @megan807 Před 2 lety +2

      It always breaks my heart. I remember learning in nursing school about childhood trauma and it being passed down for generations and cycles needing to be broken, etc., and even saw some very rough things while working as a nurse. But I truly didn’t realize how closely addiction and trauma were correlated. These videos are so eye opening and heartbreaking. It makes me look at everyone in a child-like state and just cry for the horrible things these people have had to endure. It’s just unthinkable and I know I’m just beyond blessed for the way I grew up. Sorry to take over your comment, but yours just stuck out to me and I just agree so much with you. So much could be different in this world if we didn’t have people birthing kids and putting them through hell, and then them not knowing any differently and repeating the cycle over and over. I hate it SO much. 😪

    • @megan807
      @megan807 Před 2 lety +1

      And yes, I hate to hear people high up blame a million other things on drug addiction besides the main issues causing it. You never hear them talk about trauma or helping with mental health. Never! The percentage of people who truly getting on IV drugs because of becoming addicted after getting a legitimate prescription from a physician is very low. And pain patients are being punished so badly right now and not able to get proper treatment because the government thinks all the fentanyl on the streets is from pills from the dr. I seriously can’t even. 🤦🏼‍♀️

    • @Fefe559
      @Fefe559 Před 2 lety +1

      What kind of help do u suggest

    • @Fefe559
      @Fefe559 Před 2 lety +1

      @@megan807 not true my husband died 100% his addiction was prescribed by Dr - all medically prescribed- he would have had a better chance if he using heroine in my opinion

  • @pitsmittengurrl5249
    @pitsmittengurrl5249 Před rokem +5

    I've watched a lot of mark's interviews and browsed through the comments. Not one single video has had the number of people thankful that their family member is back home as this one. Very cool. I hope you are reunited with your son. I'm glad you went home. Hope you're doing well 💗.

  • @mwlera4765
    @mwlera4765 Před rokem +4

    “ My dad WAS the pulpit.” I felt that. I know what that sentence meant.

  • @karenmilward3682
    @karenmilward3682 Před 2 lety +21

    I feel so bad for this guy. Breaks my heart . Really nice guy, some times we don’t know how lucky we are. God bless you, really hope you find happiness and reunite with your son.🇬🇧

  • @johnnahyde634
    @johnnahyde634 Před 2 lety +7

    Colin, We love you and are so grateful to see you. -Aunt J

  • @dogmomofive7011
    @dogmomofive7011 Před 2 lety +20

    Child abuse is the problem that leads to pretty much every other problem in society. If we could eliminate it things would be totally different.

    • @megan807
      @megan807 Před 2 lety +2

      Yes! It’s pretty much never fails when mark asks about their childhood. It’s always terrible and unfathomable. It makes me so mad and so sad at the same time. I mean Of course these people are trying to numb the pain of life.

  • @HellaGabriella187
    @HellaGabriella187 Před 2 lety +21

    This one hit me hard, coming from an alcohol and drug induced abusive childhood myself. I hope he finds his way, he doesn't realize he has potential. My heart goes out to him...

    • @charlottewillis9582
      @charlottewillis9582 Před 2 lety +2

      👍

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +3

      Yes. He seems to have had things happen out of his control all his life. I pray he'll see this and accept and act on what he has control of.🙏❤️

  • @semiramismunoz8948
    @semiramismunoz8948 Před 10 měsíci +1

    Wow, I'm 68 years old, I learnt today with this boy. Thank you

  • @broerie
    @broerie Před 2 lety +65

    This man has given up on life. Heartbreaking.

  • @diewilde13
    @diewilde13 Před 2 lety +7

    Freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose…

  • @BuddhatheRockstar
    @BuddhatheRockstar Před 2 lety +6

    I heard a great quote today and it immediately made me think of Mark . " Don't be judgemental, be curious" Colin I hope you can make some changes to get closer to your son. He will be an adult and need you in his life.

  • @lostfound8112
    @lostfound8112 Před 2 lety +36

    I really like this guy. I'd be proud to have him as a friend. He's had some spectacular bad things happen to him yet you can STILL see the potential when he talks. Colin if you read this you CAN get clean and sort your life out. I am clean 1 year now...not chasing next high is gone...sooooo freeing. Do it man

  • @Lizabethmoore-ow6mw
    @Lizabethmoore-ow6mw Před 11 měsíci +3

    Imagine how handsome this guy will be when he's sober. And bright.

  • @Ariel-ck9he
    @Ariel-ck9he Před 2 lety +9

    Do it for your son, Colin!! It will mean so much to him to know he was your inspiration to survive.

  • @BroMark1611
    @BroMark1611 Před 2 lety +30

    Similar first ten years with first son. Had to let him go out of my heart a bit so I could stay alive without him being the reason. Drugs and alcohol continued, but I never allowed a reason for doing them. Went another five plus years before cleaning up to sobriety and my life took off like a rocket. Still lost wives and children, but I was fully aware of every moment and that counts for not having stuff in your head creeping up on you. Being straight is the underlying fact to facing life and dealing with it. I was 40 when I got clean. Colin doesn't have to wait till then.

    • @bryan123483
      @bryan123483 Před 2 lety +5

      Assuming he gets to 40. Most heroin or fentanyl addicts don't sadly. That's why this problem is such an urgent one.

    • @BroMark1611
      @BroMark1611 Před 2 lety +4

      @@bryan123483 I was 40 when I got clean. Colin doesn't have to wait till then.

    • @bryan123483
      @bryan123483 Před 2 lety +5

      @@BroMark1611 Oh I totally agree. I think as long you're breathing you have an opportunity to get clean. I was just pointing out that a lot of addicts aren't going to have that chance. With every shot of heroin or fentanyl there is a big risk that it will be their last.
      My little brother accidentally overdosed and died when he was 33. It's urgent that these people get help as quickly as possible. It's not always going to happen that way but every day that goes by is a day closer to their last.

    • @BroMark1611
      @BroMark1611 Před 2 lety +4

      @@bryan123483 So sorry for the loss of your little brother. We are losing far too many every day. God bless.

    • @bryan123483
      @bryan123483 Před 2 lety +4

      @@BroMark1611 Thank you so much. I think often times it's just as hard or harder emotionally for the family of addicts. I've been on both sides and honestly both are just so hard.
      We definitely are losing fat too many people.

  • @annakorovchenko4524
    @annakorovchenko4524 Před 2 lety +3

    what a beautiful boy, i've been watching a lot of the fentanyl user videos and it breaks my heart every time; it's horrible what addiction does to people. this is the only time i cried watching an interview by sbu, it just rlly hit. he really has so much potential and the purest heart. i pray he makes it out alive

  • @diannh2894
    @diannh2894 Před 2 lety +13

    Colin, our stories are similar. I use to love the freedom of being homeless and doing whatever tf I literally wanted. Sleep eat get money get high, etc. I loved the freedom of getting out of the rat race. I was an addict for eleven years. I lived on the streets, never thought I'd make it, quit school, and definitely didn't have plans for the future besides dying somewhere in an alley. But one day I just quit everything. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. But it is fucking worth it dude. I promise you it's worth it. If you ever need anything, comment and I'll give you my email and I'll send my number. You can do it, I promise you, you're worth it.

  • @amygrove9635
    @amygrove9635 Před rokem +4

    I'm so glad he is home and hope he is doing well. This was heartbreaking.

  • @Highlander1432
    @Highlander1432 Před 2 lety +15

    Single dads out there can relate to this abusive deranged treatment we have received from our baby mommas and their mothers.
    I was older and more settled than this young man so I was able to afford the $15k of retainer fees to obtain access to my son.
    Prayers go out to this young man and all the young men like him.

    • @pestlund
      @pestlund Před rokem +1

      I have experienced this as well. False battery charges, jail, more

  • @JessieLGordon
    @JessieLGordon Před 2 lety +4

    I’ve watched so many of these and this one really got to me. My heart breaks for this man.

  • @Danielle80826
    @Danielle80826 Před 2 lety +6

    Love this one Mark! Love how articulate he is and self aware of his own actions. God I wish him strength to pull out of this addiction

  • @dylanalleman
    @dylanalleman Před 2 lety +6

    As a Baton Rouge guy, i have a lot of respect for this guy. Keep pushin homie.

  • @brittanyleblanc910
    @brittanyleblanc910 Před 2 lety +24

    Colin, my heart is breaking for you. You have had a long, hard road. I’m so very sorry. You can get out of this, meeting Mark is a blessing for some ppl and you seem smart enough to realize the blessing this could be for you. I’m sending you love and light and strength.

  • @yoyoglock4
    @yoyoglock4 Před 2 lety +14

    I hope this man can get his life back on track. There are veterans groups that can help him get clean and back on track. He may even be young enough to re-enlist if he gets clean again (and he left the Coast Guard on good terms). Wishing you the best Colin. You can do this! Be the man that your son deserves as a father. He will be 18 in a few years and out from under his mother's thumb. Get ready to be there for him. 😎

  • @EliGerris
    @EliGerris Před 10 měsíci +3

    Such a gentle soul. I wish I could hug him. I wish all the best for you, Colin ❤

  • @hardknockfitness1336
    @hardknockfitness1336 Před 2 lety +4

    When he said that he was stealing out of anger.. I remember being on the streets and doing the same thing, God I’m so grateful to live a completely different and happy life. Seeing this man truly saddens me but at the same time makes me grateful to not be in his shoes, may God bless him and his family.

  • @ithinkso5751
    @ithinkso5751 Před 2 lety +3

    Colin has been clean now since January 2022 💙

  • @skyking228
    @skyking228 Před 2 lety +35

    I'd like to learn more about the parents of the abusive parents and try to see where all this gets started in a family. My guess is that the abusive behaviour goes back several generations and will no doubt continue indefinitely. Always interesting, thanks!

    • @carlforpresidentanthony4574
      @carlforpresidentanthony4574 Před 2 lety +6

      Piss rolls down hill fam, abuse Sadly has more legacy than the Rockefellers 🤒🤕 its passed down

    • @megan807
      @megan807 Před 2 lety

      It usually just goes from generation to generation and that’s all they ever see and know. Sometimes, it’s broken and a new generation comes about, but most of the time, that is not the case. It’s awful.

    • @Fefe559
      @Fefe559 Před 2 lety +3

      Exactly !!! The damage they do!! Especially sexual abuse. Soul destroying soul murder

  • @taylormccloskey1847
    @taylormccloskey1847 Před 2 lety +2

    I love this channel so much it brings insight on addiction, and not only that but insight on how broken homes affect people. I feel so deeply for Colin... I want him to succeed in his life and get sober!

  • @ETN_123
    @ETN_123 Před 2 lety +8

    I've noticed most of these people share the same thing in common. Lack of strong family dynamic. Family is so important. Even with both parents family dynamic can suffer.

  • @jacquelynlinn1505
    @jacquelynlinn1505 Před 2 lety +14

    I’m speechless. Bless him.

  • @fiona9912
    @fiona9912 Před 2 lety +5

    If there ever was a person that could be brought back it’s Colin. I wish nothing but positivity for Colin so he can break the chain and be with his son.

  • @simplysyndilou6768
    @simplysyndilou6768 Před 2 lety +6

    Just get it done young man.
    Make your Son Proud....leave the hurt behind and find peace.
    Hugs from Toronto Ontario xo

  • @chloedelatorre2519
    @chloedelatorre2519 Před 2 lety +3

    This guy is so nice to listen to.. his heart is so big. He's way more than what he looks like. He's even handsome. I hope the best for him. I hope his family finds him. 🙏

  • @micalah8282
    @micalah8282 Před 2 lety +3

    What a beautiful man. I pray that he heals and feels whole.

  • @Drake23x23
    @Drake23x23 Před 2 lety +4

    This breaks my heart man, I can relate with him all too well. I pray he gets his son back and life back together.

  • @ahad800
    @ahad800 Před 2 lety +3

    Mark I admire your videos, Always enjoying my time watching them and reading the comments 💙 . Now I’m studying so I’ll save this in my playlist for the time I take a break . Keep it Up Mark .

  • @kyla6538
    @kyla6538 Před 2 lety +10

    Colin you are clearly so intelligent and still think straight. You can get out of this life, stop telling yourself you're ok with this, stop convincing yourself that this life is freeing. You know you are telling yourself that so you can cope. You are only 33 you can still clean up find a nice lady and have a life you want. Colin come on man you clearly could do anything you want, your life is worth it. There is someone out there who deserves your love and partnership. God it kills me seeing such a bright young man piss his life away. You're too smart for this life. When you are ready get yourself into a rehab and get yourself right. I pray this moment happens soon.

  • @tristarperfecta1061
    @tristarperfecta1061 Před 2 lety +17

    I totally understand his fear of being stabbed. It was my biggest fear when I lived like him until it actually happened. It is extremely painful to recover from. The stabbing itself isn't the worst part.

  • @benjaminredacted4472
    @benjaminredacted4472 Před 2 lety +4

    Good to hear hear he is with family! Colin has a good heart, you could feel its radiance all throughout his interview. I don't personally know Colin...but I'm pulling for ya bro

  • @KJVkatie77
    @KJVkatie77 Před 2 lety +7

    I work in mental health and what I find truly fascinating, is how people get so angry at the abusive parents who "caused" an addicts problems, but they also think that person should be involved in their own child's life...? It just confuses me. How can we be so hypocritical with our judgement. How do we know that the parents of the addict didn't have an awful life too...? Aren't they a victim in their own right? We don't know their story. I just think we should be more aware of that fact.

    • @monicabroussard840
      @monicabroussard840 Před 2 lety +2

      Yes its a cycle and i hope its a cycle he can break for his sake and the sake of his son

  • @drebiz2344
    @drebiz2344 Před 2 lety +12

    If there is one person that has been interviewed on this site that I wanna help….. it’s this dude. Just wanna clean him up and give him a job.

  • @FreeAgentsMarketing
    @FreeAgentsMarketing Před 2 lety +10

    Colin!! Dude we love you. Come home. I haven’t watch this video yet but I just saw you on it.

    • @magahnstanga1866
      @magahnstanga1866 Před 2 lety +2

      He talks about your family being his family ❤️

    • @FreeAgentsMarketing
      @FreeAgentsMarketing Před 2 lety +2

      @@magahnstanga1866 yeah I’ve watched it since I’ve found it. We’re still doing what we can to get him back since he went missing. This was a hell of a boon honestly

    • @TiffanyMaryJean
      @TiffanyMaryJean Před 2 lety

      Have you been able to get in contact with him? He’s so intelligent and seems so self aware.

  • @goffredoify
    @goffredoify Před 2 lety +31

    Mark you already do more than anyone else. You pay for the interview, you give them a safe place where they can share and release some of their pain. I know for a fact that when you see potential you'll be the first one to invest in them. It seems mental health and struggle it's the desease of 21st Century. He's a sweet kid like so many alike. Either we r gonna provide them with free drugs, so they can focus on their life, or they are gonna struggle, if lucky they'll eventually get clean.
    I was one of these lost souls, it took me 35 yrs to get clean. Obviously my heart goes to these people.

    • @vinnie302
      @vinnie302 Před 2 lety

      Jesus told us to confess our sins to one another, Mark listened.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety

      @@vinnie302 ♥️♥️♥️

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +1

      Well done on your sobriety and continuing to be compassionate.❤️👏

    • @goffredoify
      @goffredoify Před 2 lety +1

      @@marylougeorge9890 thank you, I appreciated your comment. I've been watching all sorts of channels from those places where people are struggling the most. Such as AML films from Kensington, "602 Lost in Phoenix" ; "Tales from the streets" also from Phoenix; of course Mark here, etc. There is a generation of young kids wich is in the process of been wiped out in front of our own very eyes; it's happening "live" in streaming, and not much it's been done.....very sad 😔... so much potential out there waisted. Having been there myself I know exactly how they're feeling and what's a day out there for them. Something needs to be done.. politicians and legislators, can't just keep ignoring this issue. Covid was just the cherry on the cake.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety

      @@goffredoify If it's not happening in their yards, politicians and legislators don't care. That's true with all of society's problems. That's why we have to share what we've learned and help the needy.

  • @masterofsnatch1645
    @masterofsnatch1645 Před 2 lety +10

    Merry Christmas, Colin I truly hope you get well and feel better. There's always hope of a better future stay strong. And I truly wish you a speedy recovery God bless

  • @rpcdude
    @rpcdude Před 2 lety +12

    He’s an addict. More than likely his kid’s mother didn’t want her son around him because he’s unpredictable. I feel bad for him, but he needs to get clean if he wants his kid.

  • @DetroitFettyghost
    @DetroitFettyghost Před 2 lety +65

    Seems like a great person. Been thru alot alot, seems to be one who punished himself do to his traumatic past (instead of acting out and taking it out on others) I'm the exact same way. And hr From Baton Rouge, always wanted to go down to see New Orleans and Baton Rouge, get some real Cajun cooking ❤️ Please take brother. It really hurt when you choked up about your kid. It's okay dude, you can cry.

    • @Gram72534
      @Gram72534 Před 2 lety +1

      good morning brother!!!!!!!

    • @amaliadonastorg4173
      @amaliadonastorg4173 Před 2 lety

      Hi, how are you doing up in Detroit at this time of year? Staying warm? Prayers brother 🙏

    • @mariaa.5829
      @mariaa.5829 Před 2 lety

      What do you mean "please take brother." Well, T of/from Detroit, do travel to New Orleans for delicious cuisine.

    • @monicabroussard840
      @monicabroussard840 Před 2 lety

      I am from Lafayette Louisiana. We havr Excellent food. I encourage you to visit ! Happy holidays

    • @megan807
      @megan807 Před 2 lety +1

      @@mariaa.5829 I think they probably meant to say “please take care brother” or something along those lines.

  • @connorcrosby3025
    @connorcrosby3025 Před 2 lety +3

    Hope he's found and has a peace of mind. I can hear how much he wants to succeed in his voice. Never give up bro.

  • @KAITLYN100390
    @KAITLYN100390 Před 2 lety +2

    I have so much hope for this man. I pray he pulls through these tough times and makes it out on top. Nothing is impossible ❤️

  • @briannasilva8071
    @briannasilva8071 Před 2 lety +23

    His parents failed him. Point blank. He’s given up. I hope he sees that reason again. 🧡

  • @xXlaurXx
    @xXlaurXx Před 2 lety +16

    Just remember that there's another side to this story. Why did his son's mother decide to distance herself? She must've had a good reason.

    • @vonderloo3184
      @vonderloo3184 Před 2 lety +3

      I was just thinking that. He mustve been an addict for a very long time. Said he didnt shoot heroin, then he did. I feel he keeps relapsing and she has had it.
      I think his therapist was wrong saying that she has all the power. It is him & his addiction. He lays blame on her & that therapist just fucked him up. It is his screwing around with addiction and losing all responsibility.
      I walked away from a meth addict 30 yrs ago with a 19 month old toddler. He still does meth.

    • @baddoopey
      @baddoopey Před 2 lety +3

      Would you want a guy like this in your kids life?

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety

      My ex sister-in-law was a nut. We didn't want to deal with her because she would have caused our nieces hell on earth and not allowed us to see them.

    • @philinn4788
      @philinn4788 Před 2 lety +5

      why doesnt anyone say this when its time to hear the father side of the story

    • @reganterry9758
      @reganterry9758 Před 2 lety +1

      He wasn’t like that when she took his son away…. Her family is wealthy, they didn’t want to associate with him because he was from the wrong side of the tracks… he fought in court to prove his paternity and she blocked him every way she could, her family pressured her to distance herself and she did, he was NOT on drugs when he lost his son initially

  • @fukemnukem1525
    @fukemnukem1525 Před 2 lety +5

    This man's channel is absolutely amazing. So much therapeutic value in getting lost in his work and seeing what life "could be like".....and what to be grateful for when you think things are bad in your life.

  • @808stateofmind2
    @808stateofmind2 Před 2 lety +1

    Big love to the community and people not giving up on Colin and keeping love and acceptance and open arms. True support, you guys are fucking awesome

  • @maureent8653
    @maureent8653 Před 2 lety +10

    Such a shame. Colin has such potential and still knows right from wrong.

  • @marinamarazzo5889
    @marinamarazzo5889 Před 2 lety +7

    so much love to you, colin. I hope you cave. in addiction we're so removed from how close we are to death that we truly believe "my tolerance is so high I can't even overdose on fentanyl". I hear you man, I felt the same. it took me a long time of being clean to really accept how much I flirted with death. the darkness keeps you from seeing. hope you make it towards the light. you're a smart, young guy. your son is going to come looking for you, you could have the rest of your life together.

  • @MEL2theJ
    @MEL2theJ Před rokem +1

    Thank you for the interview Colin and SWU

  • @BeeKay4444
    @BeeKay4444 Před 11 měsíci +1

    It would be great to see an update on this young man. I hope he went to court and filed for his parental rights! His baby momma should be giving him the opportunity to see his son if he is sober and wants a relationship. Children need both parents. He seems to want to be a father and he should get that chance.

  • @marisoldiaz2832
    @marisoldiaz2832 Před 2 lety +10

    Good Morning Mark!!! Thanks for bringing awareness to mental health!!!

  • @_EightySix
    @_EightySix Před 2 lety +3

    This one is super close to me, he served 6 years in the service, is intelligent and well spoken and is like he said "so close to death" or something like that. He's my same age and I just got out of the service after 12 years. I can't imagine being in his shoes but it's not hard to get there. I hope he pulls through. I was addicted to opiates but it was before my service. Once an addict, always an addict. These videos are most certainly a cautionary tale.

  • @dianaharmon4914
    @dianaharmon4914 Před 2 lety +1

    This guy…I hadn’t even heard him speak yet and my heart was aching. His eyes, you can tell he’s not lost yet. I wish I could save you all. Come to Vermont Colin!!

  • @anchovy9405
    @anchovy9405 Před 2 lety +1

    💔💔💔❤️heartbreaking … I hope somehow things can change for the better. Thank you for sharing your story❤️

  • @kamilleturner556
    @kamilleturner556 Před 2 lety +7

    Good luck to you Colin, don't give up on yourself, you have a lot of potential and a lot to live for.

  • @wormsnake1
    @wormsnake1 Před 2 lety +6

    Colin if by any remote miracle you read this message please hang in there man. You are intelligent, articulate, sensitive and handsome. You got so much going for you that a lot of people will
    never have. I know it must be difficult but you can’t let your family background destroy the rest of your life. My thoughts go out to your childhood situation because you had no choice but even now, although at a low ebb you “still do”. I have real hope for you and I mean that genuinely pal.
    You express yourself so well. One day I could easily see you making a great counsellor or an advocate to young people, so that they avoid the pitfalls and taking a similar path to yours. There is a way out and it’s waiting for you when “you’re ready”’.
    Thank you for your honesty and sharing the truth of your life. The bravery of your vulnerability is admirable. It’s a painful story but like I said. “I believe it’s not the end of your story”. You matter and you got so much to give and to still offer life. Don’t let the numbness and the daily grind win the day…DON’T!!
    Inside your heart you know what you need to do. You know where you need to go. It’s written in your heart and conscience. If that’s going to rehab, speaking to someone, forgiving your past, then DO IT!!….I know you can do it.
    I too am a father and I had to fight for my son. It’s not been easy. I can relate to you, I can see in your eyes and hear in your voice how much you love your boy. I know that’s the case. Nothing works out as we planned or indeed hoped at times but your son will one day come looking for you. I believe this. You will always be “your son’s father”. Never forget that because no one can take that away from you.
    Theres still something to “aim for. That love you still clearly have for him is “never lost or wasted”…never. I can see that from over 6,000 miles away. I don’t want this video to be your final epitaph okay. To one day be clean and in contact with your son in “some way”’ is still a possibility. It might not be perfect but it would change yours and your son’s life. In your beating heart and inner soul you know you can “never give up on that”…NEVER!!
    Lots of love, be brave and remember your not alone in the struggle.
    Wishing you well from Liverpool England.
    ❤️🙏.x

  • @D-Rizzle653
    @D-Rizzle653 Před 2 lety +2

    This guy seems like a cool dude and a smart guy as well..he’s got a good heart..he would be someone I would like to chill with when I was in that same situation..

  • @mediname1000
    @mediname1000 Před rokem +2

    Wow, my heart hurts for Colin. Praying you made it back home. Would love to hear and update.

  • @Kylieserna
    @Kylieserna Před 2 lety +20

    I’m sorry Colin. Your son deserves a Daddy with all this love to give. He’s so lucky to have you! You’ll be connected with him again ❤️ prayers

    • @charlottewillis9582
      @charlottewillis9582 Před 2 lety +1

      👍

    • @baddoopey
      @baddoopey Před 2 lety +1

      Lucky? How?

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +1

      @@baddoopey Because Colin Cares about his son and Wants to be in his life. Colin has proven that.

    • @baddoopey
      @baddoopey Před 2 lety

      @@marylougeorge9890 how did he proof it? By getting stoned?

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 Před 2 lety +1

      @@baddoopey By the time he did spend with his son.

  • @genwhite1175
    @genwhite1175 Před 2 lety +19

    Colin, I'm in New Zealand and I watched this video last night, our time. It touched me deeply, and I even woke up a couple of times in the night thinking about you. You've had such pain and cruelty handed out to you and yet I see a man with such love, decency, work ethic and morals. When your father made you kneel on dry rice, I wonder what part of "Do unto others as you would have done unto you" he didn't understand? Your mum embarrassing you with her behaviour and your ex withholding your own son from you -- far out, makes me wonder what planet these people are from, yet I guess they are sick, ignorant, and/or narrow-minded with their own burdens to try and work out.
    Listen, you are still young. Life is not over. You have a great heart and soul, as well as courage and strength and the other qualities I mentioned above. You need professional help to get off the drugs. Do that, and your life will transform. In not too many years from now, your son will be a legal adult and you will be able to have a relationship with him. I'm surprised the Court didn't give you access to him, but I don't know how things work over there. Seems pretty messed up from where I see it.
    Look to the future, a future of living, not just existing, a future with a good father-son relationship, a future where you can feel good about yourself. If I was your son and met you when I was 18, and learned what you had been through and how you had fought your way back to health and well-being, and still loved me after all that, man I would be so proud of you and love you so much. Do it!!!! Make this a reality. I'll be thinking of you from Down Under. As we say in New Zealand, "Kia kaha!!" Be strong. You can do this. You have the heart and the brains to do it.

    • @Nicole-cf5jt
      @Nicole-cf5jt Před 2 lety +5

      Wonderful comment, I hope Colin reads this!

    • @bevanstacykearse9099
      @bevanstacykearse9099 Před 2 lety +2

      well said my fellow kiwi this epidemic is even in our beautifull country

    • @gisselmontero2304
      @gisselmontero2304 Před 2 lety

      Wow so inspiring 👏 🙌 God bless you 🙏 ❤

    • @froggy9191
      @froggy9191 Před 2 lety

      So well said, from an Aussie just across the water ❤️

  • @sox666nitro6
    @sox666nitro6 Před 2 lety

    So glad to hear the latest update on Colin !! Sometimes alcohol & drugs numb pain within, maybe why I feel the way I feel sometimes by abusing alcohol, 🥲 & try to forget & hide emotions….. But hey another great story from SOFT WHITE UNDERBELLY

  • @livingintheforest3963
    @livingintheforest3963 Před 2 lety +2

    This is such a great guy I really hope he makes it out of this what an intelligent person with such honest and pure conversation. I really hope he makes it!

  • @jackiehiaring7805
    @jackiehiaring7805 Před 2 lety +4

    I've been following this channel for over a year now it breaks my heart; with what people have gone through. I know that they are paid for their interviews but sometimes it concerns me that they are dredging up all the pain again. Then find their drug of choice to Medicate all over again. I realize it's so beneficial they just people just want to talk t their story out. Just heartbreaking
    Personally I've had a difficult life but of course nothing is severe as most of these . I have had a lot of therapy throughout my life and it was always so difficult to face everything that happened. I hope you can get they more help it the want to accept it.
    Colin please get well. keep a few minutes of hope, faith, or joy everyday. You deserve more. You are not a lost cause!❤️