Addiction & Learning To Love Myself [02.27.19]
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- čas přidán 25. 02. 2019
- So, this is a pretty deep and personal vlog. And also, not suitable for the young'ns. But, I'm always open and honest with everyone, so strap in and lets go on an introspective journey into what it's taken for me to learn how to love the parts of me I hate.
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“I’m decently attractive”
*is 10000% attractive*
LaineyLuvs lol and he is awesome
You don’t even know how many people in this world would find this relatable even without cystic fibrosis and thank you so much for being so brave and sharing this about yourself. I just find it so admirable about how honest and open you are and your personality is so lovable and I just know that there’s so many more people out there in the world who would feel that way! And it literally makes me upset on how underrated you are!!
Thank you so much for all the love you've shown on my channel! I'm glad you enjoy the content! Open and honest is really all I know how to be, haha. What you see is what you get. Your channel is equally as epic! I love your covers!
Thanks again!
Binging your videos after finding you from the trailer review of five feet apart. I absolutely love your attitude! Gained a subscriber that’s for sure 😄
Same reason why I'm here
same!
Omg, same...
Megan Shinfield I am doing the same thing 😂😂😂
Me too!!
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You are 100% male model material!
Michelle Pecholt that’s what I’m saying lol
YEAH
No
Loving yourself is the hardest thing you can do.
My ex was like you in your 20's....only he did it when he was 45! Talk about a mid-life crisis! Yes, ex. All I can say is, after 16 years of marriage....LADIES, THIS FOR YOU.....DO NOT do anything you're uncomfortable with just because you love the guy, or want to keep the guy. You're worth so much more than that. A hard realization for sure. Thanks sooooo much for your honesty in your videos!
Your honesty is refreshing. You're an old soul.
It’s a wonderful thing when a person can look at their past and find something rich and meaningful from it, that’s how we grow and become a multilayered person. Thank you for sharing a part of your journey with us. 😊
Great words my friend. What you related here without hesitation is the journey of a lifetime! Thank you.
Thank you so much for your raw honesty! It’s incredibly inspirational!
You're awesome. Thanks for your honesty and sharing.
I just found your channel yesterday and I love how raw and truthful you are with your viewers. I love you already and can't wait to binge all of your vlogs/videos!! 💜🖤💜🖤
You are so honest. That is a quality that you don’t find often. Thank you for sharing!
Love your honesty and the depth you put into this, you’re so open. Sending all the positive energy your way!
So glad your channel popped up for me. You are such a beautiful soul, there is so much in this video that people can use to learn from and grow from.
Your insights on accepting all aspects of yourself and figuring out what brings you peace and happiness is something many people struggle with for decades longer (sometimes their whole lives). So glad to see that you have made the journey so far already.💗 I have only recently found your channel but am very much enjoying getting to know you via your posts. Thank you for another very insightful vlog. It mirrors so much of what I have figured out myself this past decade ( I'm taking a lot longer than you to get the point!😁) All the best from here in your neighbor state, SC.
I just sat and related to this video so hard! I have never felt any connection on CZcams like i have tonight! Thank you for expressing yourself and showing us your journey. I will for sure be looking out for more videos.
This is radical. Using the addictions to suppress those parts, totally relate. The wholeness that comes from allowing and embracing that stuff is magic. Love from a fellow CFer.
Glad you came to all these realizations. It is so difficult to break addiction and be able to talk about it on an open platform. Especially with have a chronic illness, as well. Thank for sharing everything
Clicked randomly from a list of videos and stayed for your phenomenal insight and positive mindset. We all deal with shit storms that life throws at us but it is so true what they say, its not what happens to us but how we react to it all that really matters. Thank you for this video. I love you already. Subscribed!
Morgan!! I’ve been viewing your videos for a while now and truly enjoy your content. You are so real and open. I appreciate you opening up so vulnerable to so many people. You are growing as an adult! Your perspective will change. You do you man. You are just growing emotionally. I’m sorry Brooke broke your heart, but it can make you grow more as an emotional person. You can still have your fun!! You just have a different perspective now. I don’t know you personally but I’m so proud of you. Thank you for your videos and hard work and openness! You DO make a difference, more than you know ❤️❤️
I just found your channel and this is my 5th video I've watched of yours.
There's something about you that I can't quite figure out and I think you're interesting.
I'm rooting for you & am proud of you for all that you've overcome so far.
Wow your vulnerability in sharing is for sure going to help someone. It helped me understand Men I had been with and gain some more understanding on other things as well. Thank you so much for sharing!
I admire you so much. I am tremendously proud of you for your growth. Keep it going. Much love.
You have such a beautiful soul. I hope you find your person. ❤️
That was a very beautifully heavy vlog. Thank you for your honesty.
I was Young in the 70’s and was quite sexual myself. But... the night my future husband asked me to dance 💃 I was so rattled. Then he asked if I would dance the next dance. For some STUPID reason I said only if it’s fast. I don’t dance slow with people I don’t know. ( complete and utter Lie ) why????? There was just something very different about him. He never asked me to dance again. Thankfully I mustered the courage to ask him. This October we will celebrate our 41st wedding anniversary. We just never know what will happen in our world. Peace my friend
I love how raw and open you are in this.
Wow. I’m a new subscriber as I was interested in learning more about CF because the movie Five Feet Apart really struck a cord in me. This video here I felt was speaking directly to my heart as I’ve had similar struggles in my life and I too am currently learning to love myself and grow from the mistakes I’ve made in the past. I turn 49 in July so I am also headed toward a big milestone in 2020. But I wanted to say thank you for these deep thoughts and for being real. Hearing your positive and encouraging outlook was a huge encouragement for me to keep on truckin’ and find ways to help others and leave a legacy I can be proud of. Keep doing what you are doing, brother. You are appreciated.
Your face is so beautiful! It is amazing how you turned your journey for the better. I always enjoy watching your videos and learning more about your story.
Your most definitely an empath as well. Makes sense that you keep reminding me of myself. When you said oh god I'm a crier. I feel that!
Interesting to hear your honest story, I can't personally relate to sex addiction or any addiction really. Love that you're so honest about your feelings
You have come so far and that is beautiful Morgan. Never go back. Never let fear let you crawl back to where you were.
You do what you need to be happy. I hope to do what makes me happy and you are helping me realize I live for others and not myself.
I just subscribed today and I love your videos and your energy. I can't relate to your lifestyle too much but I can relate to a lot of your emotions and outlook on things. Much love from St Louis MO!!
This is an awesome video thank you for sharing your life and experiences, insights etc. I learned a lot from this a lot of it makes sense and I’m proud of you for wanting to better yourself. The most important thing is for you to be happy
Much love ❤️
be you and live the way you feel comfortable in! loved this vlog.
Loved this talk
you speak so well I love listening to what you have to say
Seriously, thank you for sharing this.
You have such a great outlook on life & as a person who has had a long term illness from a young age I relate to you a lot. I know how hard it is to keep going when you have shitty days, weeks or months... its hard to stay positive but you are such an inspiration to so many people, even more than you realise. just remember that you are loved and you're worthy of being loved :) okay I'll stop now but I felt like I had to tell you that your videos are making a difference and actually helping people... thanks for being so honest Morgan :D
U r the coolest. 💗
Biggest inspiration ever.
Love this! I can relate so much! 👌🏼🙌🏼
Whilst I can’t relate to this directly I can in many ways. Before my health changed I was focusing on constantly “doing”. Working a job with targets where I’d live, dream and be it. My health was declining and I fought it - I worked out daily, I was constantly needing to do so many things at once. I burnt myself out completely and I wish I had just be open enough to accept these things at the time. Then again I was so determined to focus on things that didn’t matter and I was trying to show my body I was in charge. I feel I’m a better/connected person today because of everything I’ve been through. So glad I found your channel. 💙
Your personality is magnetic! It was so interesting to hear you talk and I can relate to many of your experiences
With age, comes wisdom. Happy for you❤️
I saw my therapist yesterday and this was basically the conversation. I'll be 31 in May. Thank God this is normal, it kind of freaked me out.
This is the most fucking relatable thing I've ever seen about some of my shit. It's nice to hear things explained well about some things I don't have words for or had words for. Thanks for being honest and vulnerable about your experiences. X
Good spiritual awakening story. I can relate. I get you⚡
Speak your " deep hippie stuff" colors. Rainbows, magic and love will find you there.... blessings surround your journey brother~
so amazing for us closed up people to see a wide open human share your inner guts with the world. wow. wow. all the best to you!
Just found your videos. Love how you are so open. I have been through a heartbreaking divorce so I can completely relate.
You popped up in my CZcams recommendation and now I'm bingeing your videos.
Oh man, what you say about it near the end of your vlog... It's totally true. Here I am, similar age, other side of the world. Story- total opposite, because I tend to cave in and isolate myself during dark days (I also thought I was ace for a long time so on a subject of sex it's so much different as well) and yet the internal struggle and feelings are so similar. Thank you for this vlog (that randomly showed up on suggested videos on my yt.)
Self love is hard to achieve and even harder to sustain when you struggle. Your growth as a person is mind-blowing, man. I salute everyone who can do that for themselves
Im so proud of you!
Embrace your deep, hippie, sensitive, intuitive self. It's absolutely beautiful. As you said about your wild years, you put off the party guy/self destructive vibe and you attracted those people. Rock those hippie vibes and you will attract those deep connections you need and crave. I'm 43, separated and can absolutely identify with that feeling you describe about being with and finding "your person". That relationship for me was very short lived but it made me realize, a soul connection is what I must have in any future relationships. I honestly want to meet someone who can express their soul like you did in this vlog. It was really beautiful. I see you made this 2 months ago and said you were at a really low point. I hope you're doing better now and are continuing towards a better mental space. Wishing you all the best. :)
💯 Thank you for opening up about this Morgan!!!! I have issues with how I look these days too. I am a troll in my eyes. When I was younger I was this hot little ice skater. But when I couldn’t skate anyone (accident that hit my knees really hard), my CF really started to take its toll and I started to look like a metal swamp creature. A bit backwards from you.
But I don’t have social anxiety but the man I loved most of my life did and he was also an addict and an alcoholic. And it was isolating to me to be with him because dealing with addiction and alcoholism as a wife is really hard. But I always considered it a good trade because Luke had to deal with my CF. And at the core he loved me MORE THAN LIFE. But he didn’t love himself enough. And when you don’t love yourself, you cannot love someone else. Because your partner need you to love yourself too.
Thank you again Morgan another GREAT VLOG! 💜💜💜💜💜
Basically Morgan until your ex, you were an emotional virgin even if you weren’t a physical virgin. She took your emotional cherry. 💔
I'm so proud of you buddy!
I love watching your videos. The first video I saw was the first reacting to 5 Feet Apart. And I have loved your videos since. I grew up with what I think was a "Love Addiction". And I spent way to many years thinking sex meant someone would love me... you can guess how that went. It was great to hear your story.
I live in Lincolnton, NC. Transplant from NJ.
i deeply appreciate your vulnerability and transparency
It takes a lot of courage to admit to these addictions. I admire you so much for literally everything you do. I hope you find your soul mate someday!
But look at all the thirst in your video comments lol. I dont blame them! You are handsome and something about you seems really trustworthy and approachable
I love this 🙌🏻 I’ll be 29 in May and I’m going through the same type of transition in my life. I feel like such a different person compared to a few months ago! Good luck with your journey! 😘
I feel like I have such a vanilla ass name, I've never seen it on here before. Forgot I changed my name on here so when I saw yours I thought, "I don't remember leaving that comment." Anyway, hello fellow Jessica Martin 🖐
You’re a warrior to continue this journey of developing self love and partner love. There’s a spectacular woman out there preparing herself as well. You’ll find each other when the time is right.
wow, thank you Morgan.
Thanks for ur honesty. This sheds light on my friend and his sexual addiction. He's 27.
Before I met others ones all I new was my sister and I, but now I'm learning that others cfers seem to be eccentric, adventurous, intelligent, kind, and with bigger balls than most people I've ever met in my 😊 I've grown to be proud of myself and my disease, it makes me who I am and I like who I am, I am awesome! 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹💞
I really like this video and how open you are. Made me subscribe.
Love your honesty.... ❤ any woman tht has you would truly be one lucky ass woman! Your pretty great from what I've seen in your videos
I also started watching your vlog after i saw the movie. I do not have cf but someone i am very close to does. I now have subscribed. It continues to weird me out that we have so much in common. My boyfriend has a lot of the same views as you. He is from north Carolina. We live in Montana now and i miss southern accents as i am from the south also. Sooo your accent is somewhat comforting. I really enjoy your vlog. Thank you for reaching out. You are very inspiring.
I found this video because I wanted to understand another view people have towards sex, my past has made me completely closed off towards anything sexual. Now being in my 20’s I finally feel I’m able to talk about and experience sex. I’m so happy I found this video, you mentioned so many things that I’ve struggled with and still do, but dealt with in the opposite way. I don’t know how to explain it but hearing your take and view has helped so much.
This is exactly what I needed to watch today. It’s from a year ago, so Idk why it was recommended to me. But obviously it was recommended for reason.
Since I hit my 40s I accepted n love being a misfit, outcast, oddball, n weird. Cause normal is just boring. I am who I am. I found a wonderful man in life who loves me. Cystic fibrosis is frustrating but life is unique u got to grab it n fly with it.
You are SO brave!! So much respect to you for being so open and honest. I don’t agree that you have to love yourself unconditionally/fully/completely to love someone else-(it does help a lot tho!)-I’ve come across some of the most broken, self loathing people-that love fully, deeply, absolutely, and without condition. I’m wishing you the absolute very best on your journey of self discovery!! Have you thought of meeting girls on the internet?-it may help with your (face to face) social anxiety-it forces you to communicate well and develop your relationship, even before you get to meet each other (quite often)-helps you develop and promotes a higher level of connection-because you are forced to talk-the “physical” (sexual) side of things is usually out of the realm of possibility for a while at least. Just a thought...”real” love and connection with another like you described is such a special thing-and out of this world when it happens. I hope/wish for you to find that special someone (again)! I’m still looking to find that special someone myself. Don’t loose heart or hope!!
I admire your brutal honesty
This was me when i was 20.. I finally calmed down and im still learning to handle my anxiety
Hi I commend you for your honesty. You're certainly had a difficult life. 39 is the way forward. Life will be good for you. All the best xx
You are finally thinking with the "right" head. Congratulations, your growing up. Now you can begin to see what your real and unique gifts are. That will lead you to a sense of accomplishment and you can share your value with the world. Law of attraction - you'll be hanging out with people who are open to who they are and wanting to know you. First steps on the new journey. Happy trails!
I myself, understand I have 9 Auto immune disorders and sex was and still is my outlet. I can excape the realities from all the pain and medical things and because I don't have the money so it's free. Sometimes I would feel regert because, I was full and when the sex finished, I wasn't. Chasing the high, but now I'm chasing a new high brainal which is someone who can intellectually and soulfully fulfill me in an other ways, share experiences. It's hard because I like you, see people and life in a different way. I cry. The grass the grows beneath my feet is my grounding. I just turned 30 and it's a huge hard jump. I went though extreme anxiety, before hand and was trying to fill every part of me, whole and holes. Now I have nothing together but that's ok I have this wet soggy puzzle slowly drying out and putting it together and living along the way.
I really love yr humor, spunk, charisma, will, drive, videos you put out. Being on the road as well with my girl Stephi, u both compliment each other and eat better and show being happy.
I'm glad she asked u to tag along another chapter in yr life cause I would have done the same.
On topic DONT care or think about Sex in about 6yrs much at all.
I lost my loved one due to a overdose. I live for my youngest and maybe someday 1 would love me for me, till then I don't loose sleep.. 😙🤙
I needed this video. I’m so awkward when I first meet people. I won’t shut up once I’m comfortable lol. But for a while I’m just quiet. It takes me a little to get comfortable with someone new. Sometimes words are just hard lol. And for a long time I always thought sex meant love. That if someone wanted to sleep with you it meant that they loved you etc. Meeting someone who cares about the things you talk about and who cares about your feelings is real love. Feeling comfortable and opening up to someone who understands and cares is true intimacy.
That's how I am too. I kinda keep back till you read them then open up. Virgo shit. And its makes it so much better when you know someone and vibe with them and keep it exclusive.
@@ChrisBCards Also I’ve always wondered what it would be like to love someone and care about a person so much that you wanted to spend the rest of your life with them. I’m a Libra. Almost a Scorpio. May I’m too much or not enough sometimes idk.
I feel this same way feeling closer connection with animals and a indescribable thing of being able to see peoples Ora. Like people have a kind of bubble of light or texture when near or around them that makes you feel uneasy near them or drawn toward them. I sound daft ino but hearing you say this to makes me wonder if having a life of Cf brings out this inner ability to see people from there inside before there outer self.
I understand this feeling. If you're good at it, sex can give you this weird sense of pride and accomplishment. Even empowerment. Making a man lose control made me feel powerful in a way I never felt with anything else. I also get the feeling of adding to the "resume." I went through a phase of trying new things and new people just for the sake of doing something new. It's interesting hearing someone else speak about it as no one in my real life has. But I'm 32 now and man have things changed since those days lol. I learned quickly that casual didn't work for me. The experience is better when you genuinely care for one another.
Im from North Carolina too!
Ugh I’m in love
Awesome thank you for opening up I’m a old hippie from way back if you know what that means
My favourite video from you :)
I think u may have found ur person...stephi. Happy for you. And her. Y'all are beautiful souls.
I sure hope so! :)
Just discovered you're channel! Enjoy your videos. ☺
I appreciate you opening up about how you've been feeling. I totally agree with what you are saying. I'm the same way I sometimes feel like I wish I wouldn't have done something's but at the same time I love who I am and I am who I am because of all the crazy things I have gone through in my life. Sending you so much love and positivity.
You’re an incredible human being. Keep being the wonderful strong you!
You’re an empath, aren’t ya?
Love your vulnerability throughout this video 💗
what is an empath
Marla Lopez it is somebody who feels and absorbs other peoples emotions. It’s different than empathy
You were making me emotional talking about being an empath and then you said you're a crier.... me too! Most partners never understand that part of me. Even 24 mins into it i relate so much.
We are so similar, it's insane.
Love the video I found you through Stephie Lee happy to get to see your videos and just curious about all the time frames you know it's weird here on CZcams.
Very honest video.
I feel like I just watched the male version of me. Same age, similar life experiences minus CF, almost like hearing self-talk. Thank you for this video.
you also slept around like this?
@@marlalopez5286 everyone does things they aren't proud of. So yes, when I was younger I made poor choices and that was one of them.
Zena Elam of course. not judging , just wondering ❤️
@@marlalopez5286 apologies. I have grown up in the bible belt and have a mood disorder, so I've grown to automatically be defensive. :)
Zena Elam no worries , i’m often like that too , and i do realize that “ you slept around like this “ could be taken offensively.
Turning 29 in August. Can’t believe gonna be 30 soon. Don’t feel that age lol
19:20 same Cancers unite 🙌🏻