Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor-Angelina

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  • čas přidán 3. 09. 2023
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Angelina, a survivor of childhood sexual abuse in New Jersey.
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  • @kristinethomas8480
    @kristinethomas8480 Před 8 měsíci +1337

    For all the insulting comments , she is my 2nd cousin . Her father is my 1st cousin and she 100% is being honest . She is 21 and so new to her trauma and this was a life moment filled with fear and anxiety for her ! This is a new journey for her where she learned and still is learning how to process this . Thank you to everyone who has and is being kind to her ! This was such a safe space for her ! Thanks so much Mark and the community !

    • @carolseven3802
      @carolseven3802 Před 8 měsíci +70

      There will always be trolls no matter the subject or content.
      I pray that by telling her story, she will experience a deeper level of healing.
      Some of the trolls are abusers Some of the trolls are confused victims and some just like to see what kind of chaos they can cause.

    • @faith_9677
      @faith_9677 Před 8 měsíci +19

      ​@@carolseven3802the latter being narcissistic with a sadistic core.

    • @susanriddle9408
      @susanriddle9408 Před 8 měsíci +10

      Thank you for speaking up

    • @deniseblackburn33
      @deniseblackburn33 Před 8 měsíci +4

      I'm so sorry 😢

    • @faith_9677
      @faith_9677 Před 8 měsíci +2

      @@susanriddle9408 Yes, thank you! Btw....I live in South New Jersey as well.

  • @bewg
    @bewg Před 8 měsíci +588

    'You can't heal in the environment that hurt you.' That is wise insight.

  • @laraoneal7284
    @laraoneal7284 Před 8 měsíci +438

    As a childhood trauma survivor I’m beginning to think this sick behavior is a national pastime in most families. It’s an atrocity. Way too common sadly and tragically. I’m lifting her up in prayer.

    • @thatguymatt5816
      @thatguymatt5816 Před 8 měsíci +17

      Sorry to hear you went through something like that, but you can’t let that color how you look at life in general. I know it’s way easier said than done, but not all families are like that.

    • @SLITHERIS
      @SLITHERIS Před 8 měsíci +22

      Happened to me too but it wasn’t a family member, it definitely seems to be way more common than most people think.

    • @Chelletryingtosmile
      @Chelletryingtosmile Před 8 měsíci +21

      Same happened to me. A very sick twisted past-time. Plain nasty these perpetrators. No excuse.

    • @ow3wells
      @ow3wells Před 8 měsíci +25

      You’re right, it seems more and more people are revealing stories of sexual abuse that I didn’t think existed.

    • @LOGICAL-JAY
      @LOGICAL-JAY Před 8 měsíci +2

      ​@@thatguymatt5816exactly 💯

  • @miguelolivayaly1985
    @miguelolivayaly1985 Před 8 měsíci +305

    The importance of sexual education is immeasurable. She couldn’t even name the trauma of what she was dealing with at the time. This woman is a truly warrior.

    • @southphillylilly
      @southphillylilly Před 8 měsíci +18

      Sex ed is very important, but she was eight years old when it began. A seven-year-old doesn't need to be taught about sex
      I remember being taught that my body was private and nobody was allowed to touch me but, I did not know what sex was and I wouldn't want my own children to know anything about sex before the age of eight or even the age of 13

    • @miguelolivayaly1985
      @miguelolivayaly1985 Před 8 měsíci +14

      @@southphillylilly I understand what you’re saying. I am not saying children should know about sexual content at 8 or so, I was just saying is important to know, even at this age, that people shouldn’t touch your body. That’s what I meant. And we can’t assume parents will always teach this kinda of stuff, sometimes they are the abusers. The idea is protect the little ones, to make sure they indentify abuses and call for help. If the name “sex education” is the problem, call it whatever you want so, but is meant to protect those who doesn’t know better yet.

    • @tres311
      @tres311 Před 8 měsíci

      Predators & grooming agent education and detection. Problem solved. We keep SEX education out of the hands of weirdo lunch lady loons, and define what it is to a child, that if anyone touches you, we throw em off a bridge! Clear? Now go play with your legos and Barbie’s

    • @miguelolivayaly1985
      @miguelolivayaly1985 Před 8 měsíci

      @@katiekane5247 I agree with you! But there is a thing: abusers will try to abuse children with a lot of aproaches other than touchs in genitals or so. Forcing they watch porn, roleplaying , feet fetish (like that ICarly director) and so. That’s why we need to get deeper and teach children more than anatomy, we need to make them understand that there is a lot of situations that adults (and even other children/teens!) can abuse them and they must seek help if they are passing by any of it. But still, I agree 100% on what you you’ve pointed about body knowledge, this even helps at the body positivity matter!

    • @betsybabf748
      @betsybabf748 Před 8 měsíci +10

      What is most important is using the correct terms for their body parts, not cutesy words because you don't want to say labia or vagina. Parents not giving the child the correct terms is responsible for many child rapists not being convicted. Yes, sexual education should begin before 8. It should start in preschool with body parts and safety and gradually increase with age-appropriateness. When a parent just does a big awkward sex talk too late, children and teens won't feel comfortable ever coming to you. There needs to be a foundation of open conversation on related topics built their whole life.

  • @a.w.3772
    @a.w.3772 Před 8 měsíci +57

    I never understand how mothers 1) aren't aware of their husbands sexually abusing their kids and/or 2) know about and CHOOSE to do nothing to protect their kids !!!!

    • @user-lr4ht1uw1z
      @user-lr4ht1uw1z Před 2 měsíci

      Mom is probably doing the abusing also. It's not just men who assault their children.

    • @LeahDyson-kq4bd
      @LeahDyson-kq4bd Před 25 dny

      Psychology gives some insight but yeah it is still pretty mind boggling

    • @rubadub15
      @rubadub15 Před 21 dnem +1

      Drugs.

    • @pjmendoza8871
      @pjmendoza8871 Před 17 dny +3

      Some women allow it because they have no were to go with 5 kids.

  • @Shardana74
    @Shardana74 Před 8 měsíci +39

    it is a miracle she is not fallen in the same pattern of her mum's life. I hope she continues on her path of discovery and lead a normal life.

  • @melicat6652
    @melicat6652 Před 8 měsíci +189

    As someone who went through this exact experience, starting at the same age, with an "uncle", I can tell you how absolutely real and genuine this is. The words just don't come out...they are in your head but they just don't want to come out. You have images in your mind but they don't have the right context to make sense. I'm 60 and those images from 50 years ago are still in my head but I remember them through 8, 9, 10 year old eyes. At the time, you know it's something you don't want to do, but you have no idea why. When you get older and you realize what the images mean, the sense of shame that there was something wrong with you that made it happen is indescribable. It's not even a conscious thought....more like you became something you didn't want to be before you even had a chance to become who you were meant to be. I've often wondered how my life would have been different had I been "normal". The truth is I'll never know because that choice was taken away from me without my consent. Although you'd look at me today and see me as "normal", I'm not and never will be. After burning my way through years and years of promiscuity, I finally met the man I've been married to for 30 years. I did everything in my power to push him away, but he stuck it out. I don't know why he did, but I can tell you that my husband is the only thing that ever made me believe there could be any good in the world. Being sexually abused as a young child changes you in ways that never ever go away.

    • @angelinat_
      @angelinat_ Před 8 měsíci +16

      this this thisssss. I remember a lot of things feeling wrong but I didn’t know why. thank you so much for taking the time to listen to my story 🤍 I am so so sorry you had to go through this as well… I hope you have an amazing day

    • @melicat6652
      @melicat6652 Před 8 měsíci +16

      @@angelinat_ What a sweet and strong girl you are. I'm afraid to say anything to anyone except with the blessing of anonymity. I am a Philly girl.... so I come from your neck of the woods and you remind me of myself years ago. I am so pleased that you responded to me. Your words were riveting...I kept watching you trying to get the words out and it kind of just took my breath away....oh my God, that's what I do when I try to talk about it! She's just like me! A kindred soul. It's like I could tell what was going on in your head! Just know there is someone out here who believes you, understands you, validates you. You are so worth so much more than what was done to you. ❤

    • @sarahetchells3765
      @sarahetchells3765 Před 8 měsíci +3

      May god continue to bless you. Sorry that you went through that

    • @TruthArrows
      @TruthArrows Před 8 měsíci

    • @mariedelinois3569
      @mariedelinois3569 Před 7 měsíci +1

      Thank you for sharing some very important things that those of us who’ve never gone through this could NEVER wrap our minds around it! EVER!!

  • @MK7x77
    @MK7x77 Před 8 měsíci +41

    Trauma Therapist here.. I'm navigating these stories daily. You are a great historian for the most pivotal moments Things causing some of your deepest core wounds. I'd do anything to walk you through this. Every time you speak it through it, you disempower its grip. Telling your own story brings revelation and the grace to rewrite the pain of any shame or guilt! You will never be this animal's victim, you're a VICTOR! Look at the power in recovering out LOUD! you're helping others ❤ Msg if you need therapeutic support

    • @MabelRD08
      @MabelRD08 Před měsícem

      👆💯💯💯💯💯💯😭😭😭😭😩😩😩😩🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺THIS

    • @donnahoffman1622
      @donnahoffman1622 Před 7 dny

      As a trauma therapist, do you think that some of us who were molested that we show ADHD type symptoms.

  • @garybrunet6346
    @garybrunet6346 Před 8 měsíci +111

    My late mother was sexually abused by her father from the age of 5 to 17 years old. Her mother was “mentally ill” and was not aware of what was going on. It affected my mother by her becoming an alcoholic and she was very promiscuous. My parents divorced when I was 7 years old. My aunt explained to me what happened to them, growing up. My father had custody of us, thank goodness. I’m 68 years old. My mom was admitted into a nursing home when she was 60 years old. I took care of her needs until she passed at 78 years old. I know she loved me but was not able to express herself in nurturing way.

    • @Toonces666
      @Toonces666 Před 8 měsíci +5

      Sounds like you were a good son, Gary. God bless you.

    • @anabonn3044
      @anabonn3044 Před 8 měsíci

      I am so, so sorry for you and your mom, and for everyone affected by those horrible acts

    • @miaristau317
      @miaristau317 Před 7 měsíci

    • @kingiam9271
      @kingiam9271 Před 6 dny

      Yo mama was a freak

  • @gracemurrayart
    @gracemurrayart Před 8 měsíci +193

    It took a lot for her to talk about this, you can see. She has such a gentle, strong energy and will no doubt go on to help others and break the cycle 🙏 PS. CPTSD from living in a consistently traumatising household can mimic ADHD symptoms.

    • @sarahainsworth5682
      @sarahainsworth5682 Před 8 měsíci +5

      So true, i struggled with the same

    • @NilesNeuStone
      @NilesNeuStone Před 8 měsíci +1

      indeed...group homes are the pits

    • @user-yy6hx9gy7q
      @user-yy6hx9gy7q Před 8 měsíci +3

      I agree. Never realized it too much.

    • @donnahoffman1622
      @donnahoffman1622 Před 7 dny +1

      This comment thread for some reason is the only thing I have ever seen that made me open my eyes about this ……I just want to thank every single person who has pointed this out I’m 35 and I mean I seriously had no idea…..

    • @gracemurrayart
      @gracemurrayart Před 7 dny +1

      @@donnahoffman1622 Tim Fletcher has some good talks about how CPTSD mimics ADHD

  • @chattsignal
    @chattsignal Před 8 měsíci +317

    Angelina seems so gentle and kind. I hope she’ll find a helpful therapist can help her sort out all the crap her parents dumped on her and her siblings. She is very brave and strong to share her story… I feel like we’ve heard the tip of the iceberg. ❤☮️

  • @TheMrdhyde
    @TheMrdhyde Před 8 měsíci +23

    Thank god I raised my kids. I know for a fact they may not have had the greatest dad but they were NEVER abused.

  • @baublesanddolls
    @baublesanddolls Před 8 měsíci +95

    I’ve watched Mark’s channel for three years and can usually point out bull💩 when I see and hear it. There’s absolutely no doubt this beautiful, young woman is telling the truth. I believe every word and you can tell how difficult it was for her to get everything out. I’m sure there’s much more she’d love to tell. I noticed a lot of self soothing, rubbing the tops of her arms, grabbing and twisting her t-shirt sleeves, etc. Liars don’t do this. Body language speaks volumes and it’s obvious she’s telling the truth. I haven’t read all the comments, but I sure hope there’s no negative ones.
    Angelina was so brave to come forward and expose her dad. She should be proud of herself and so should her family. I hope her father ends up where he belongs!!
    Good luck, Angelina. I hope you saved your younger sister and many others from something like this happening to them. You’re very brave! 💖💕❤️

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před 8 měsíci

      @thematriarchy2075 Like I said, I can definitely see through a bullshitter and I don’t mind calling them out! Did my comment say anything about me never doing that??!!!

    • @drooshmaroosh8261
      @drooshmaroosh8261 Před 8 měsíci

      @@thematriarchy2075 Yes, I agree. baublesanddolls is a bad egg.

    • @Susiietav3
      @Susiietav3 Před 8 měsíci

      I agree the ummmm ummm ummm

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před 8 měsíci +4

      ??? I’m pretty sure the “um” is nerves. I believe every word she said.

    • @pierrea3094
      @pierrea3094 Před 7 měsíci

      Body language is at best a pseudo-science usually benefiting whatever prior bias was present. It’s not be any measure a science. It can be somewhat accurate under very specific circumstances but mostly it’s true crime nonsense made for middle aged women. This way they feel clever while they mindlessly consume nonsense. It’s very effective as you can see this dullard thinks she’s an expert.

  • @stephanielogana8893
    @stephanielogana8893 Před 8 měsíci +12

    Angelina please come back and see Mark when you are a little older and give us an update on your life and your healing journey. I’m rooting for you!

  • @MarianneSteele
    @MarianneSteele Před 8 měsíci +73

    Dear Angelina, you are a survivor of horrible abuse. It will take some time to unwrap the effects of the abuse on your life. I wish for you to find a therapist that is right for you and who'll guide and support you through your healing process. You are quick thinking and intelligent along with being compassionate and kind. I'm glad you are taking action now to get the right specialised help. Thank you for being so open and sharing your story. Your doing so will help other survivors of sexual abuse know they are not alone and help is out there.

  • @celestialcircledance
    @celestialcircledance Před 8 měsíci +81

    She was right to hesitate about calling 911 since foster situations that kids are thrown into can also be abusive and tear up families. Sometimes there is no perfect solution to a dilemma but I'm glad she was able to give her a little sister the support that she couldn't have in the end. I'm also glad that her stepmom decided to side with her and be the adult that her biological parents weren't .

    • @transitionsnc
      @transitionsnc Před 8 měsíci +8

      Great comment. I agree. Unfortunately, foster situations can be even worse.

    • @singable192
      @singable192 Před 8 měsíci +6

      So sad that this is the truth. 😢

  • @tleigh8794
    @tleigh8794 Před 8 měsíci +14

    *THIS*..... This is what trauma looks like 😢💔..... It's imperfect (for the insults people callously post).... It's difficult to communicate.... Or remember...... Kudos to this young, gentle soul.. And her bravery ❤🙏👏... Also Kudos to Mark... For the Love and patience ❤🙏

  • @blueskiesmom1323
    @blueskiesmom1323 Před 8 měsíci +8

    I am so proud of you Angelina. Don't you ever stop fighting for justice and recovery. NONE of this was your fault. I am also from south jersey and my own daughter is a licensed therapist with her masters degree. She is a youth victim counselor. Please try to get services again from Camden County. You have been through alot and have turned out remarkably strong. Never give up and never turn to alcohol or drugs. You are beautiful 😢😢

  • @greenie75
    @greenie75 Před 8 měsíci +103

    What a well-spoken and mature young woman. She is so grounded despite the things she witnessed and experienced in her childhood. I can relate so much to her story.

    • @dewilew2137
      @dewilew2137 Před 8 měsíci +1

      New Jersey public schools are excellent. All those taxes do get put to good use. 🙂

  • @grinchlette
    @grinchlette Před 8 měsíci +47

    Such a beautiful young woman. So courageous to walk all this out then, and now. Prayers to you and your sister for healing and peace.

    • @GenDobry
      @GenDobry Před 8 měsíci +1

      Beautifully said

  • @gretchenbrandon3631
    @gretchenbrandon3631 Před 8 měsíci +28

    Amazed by you.
    After everything you’ve endured, you still have such a beautiful soul. You should be proud of yourself. Thank you Mark for giving this woman a voice.

  • @SM-kk4rx
    @SM-kk4rx Před 8 měsíci +14

    As a victim of childhood sexual abuse I’m so glad she exposed her father….. At 21 years old it takes courage to come forward to law enforcement and tell your story about your own father! …Angelina I will definitely make that drive to New Jersey to support your tattoo business… ❤

  • @Courtnabees
    @Courtnabees Před 2 měsíci +6

    Angelina's strength and courage to speak out and help her siblings is so admirable. What a truly brave warrior. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️ wishing you all the good in the future ❤

  • @laraoneal7284
    @laraoneal7284 Před 8 měsíci +44

    I’m glad she has a place to reveal her abuse . God bless her. I hope she’s getting help ongoing.

    • @Linda-in9ns
      @Linda-in9ns Před 8 měsíci +4

      That so called Dad should be locked up!!!! 😠⛓️

    • @Melinda8162
      @Melinda8162 Před 8 měsíci +2

      @@Linda-in9ns No kidding. He is chronic abuser and definitely they should turn him in!

  • @MC-vd5kp
    @MC-vd5kp Před 4 měsíci +5

    He told you he loved you out of guilt only. Brave good girl for reporting your Dad.

  • @petiadavis5122
    @petiadavis5122 Před 7 měsíci +6

    This girl is so so sweet. I do pray she finds good people to love her and support her.

  • @Jazzy.girl.Sarah2023
    @Jazzy.girl.Sarah2023 Před 2 měsíci +4

    Poor dear woman. You've been through so much.
    Thank you for your bravery in sharing this trauma with us.
    Wishing you all the best.

  • @maryreynolds5310
    @maryreynolds5310 Před 8 měsíci +21

    Bless her heart..❤ I totally understand her, I was also abused but by my stepdad. Started when I was 6 yrs old and it went on into my early 20’s. At that point I blamed myself, but I was so traumatized, it was like when he saw me when older, my mind shut down I just blanked out so he did what he did. My mind protected me, thank goodness! I blocked out so much but I remember a lot too. My mom knew he was doing this because my best friend told her during a sleep over. She just blurted it out and said Jack was hurting Mary, she told her what he was doing..she refused to believe me and still to this day she refuses to believe it. I’m 60 now. The fear, the pain, the hurt and the trauma never really goes away. Jack passed years back, and the evening of his passing I told him I forgive him. I had to for myself.
    I might add…I too have adhd, ocd, I will just say it’s been a lot! But today, I’m ok..but this is something you can never forget. I wish her the best, and her sister too. ❤

    • @LauretSektruth-tf5qn
      @LauretSektruth-tf5qn Před 8 měsíci +1

      Hi Lord have mercy on us all. Many positive blessings be bestowed upon you

  • @KatherineMargaret
    @KatherineMargaret Před 8 měsíci +56

    I don’t know what I would do without this channel, thank you mark. ❤

    • @aquilinaciamacco2410
      @aquilinaciamacco2410 Před 8 měsíci +5

      YES! Thank you Mark for making this a better world for everyone ❤ allowing for so much healing ❤

  • @baublesanddolls
    @baublesanddolls Před 8 měsíci +92

    We didn’t choose to take on our trauma, but it’s our responsibility to overcome it.
    Angelina, those are wise words to live by. You’re a beautiful person and so brave for everything you’ve done. Thanks so very much for sharing your story and telling the world what a monster your father is. I totally understood when you said that he has a way with people. I was married to a man who was living a double, more like triple, life. No one knew what went on under our roof except me and the police because he was such a caring, likeable, intelligent, great guy around everyone else. Everyone loves him and believes his lies, even lawyers and judges. Those type are master manipulators. It’s frustrating, sickening, and sad all at the same time because it’s like they’re two people, and it’s hard to separate them. I’m divorced now, but still miss the man I thought he was.

    • @norahsmith3320
      @norahsmith3320 Před 8 měsíci +2

      Trauma is not what happens to you it's what happens inside you

    • @LeahDyson-kq4bd
      @LeahDyson-kq4bd Před 25 dny

      ​@@norahsmith3320you mean like your brain fragmenting or splitting then yeah

  • @diegoshepherd3464
    @diegoshepherd3464 Před měsícem +4

    She seems like a really beautiful person. Articulate, wise, respectful, very insightful. I wish her all the best. I think therapy would really really help her to deal with and understand her past and help her in her future. Stay strong, Angelina. Setting your mind free from the trauma and learning through therapy will make you a warrior. I would love to see a follow up with her, especially after therapy.

  • @vonderloo3184
    @vonderloo3184 Před 8 měsíci +32

    She should testify at the divorce hearing for the step mother to have full custody with supervised visitation for the pedo. Tell the judge. Look him in the eye. That can save your little sis.

  • @transitionsnc
    @transitionsnc Před 8 měsíci +41

    This is a phenomenal interview. I wish Angelina all the best. She's a very strong person.

  • @bumetyanuba4231
    @bumetyanuba4231 Před 8 měsíci +30

    Imagine the one who was meant to protect you was the one who was abusing you.

  • @bobwalton4879
    @bobwalton4879 Před 8 měsíci +34

    I watched this video 2 times, normally for my education I only watch once. But I noticed that when Angelina was discussing normal things, of her confidence with good things she has determined in her life, if normal can be reached for her yet. At every point she speaks of her father her legs cross, sometimes tightly, She was so relaxed to talk to you at the beginning, then once she discussed very trying points of her memory, there went the leg crossing. As if she was protecting herself. If she speaks to you again, as you always do greatly, seek to bring up more about her hobbies, and how these things bring her soul back to the good in life. God bless ya, What ever power you still believe is God.

  • @madsheila4169
    @madsheila4169 Před 8 měsíci +49

    The incredible courage people like her have to come on this platform and do this humbles me. And I believe every word she said. I know too many people this has happened to and they aren't protected. To say it infuriates me is beyond an understatement

  • @917mary
    @917mary Před 8 měsíci +8

    What an amazing young lady. The sweetness in her voice, she comes across so innocent and kindhearted. ❤🙏🏽

  • @amylilleydesign
    @amylilleydesign Před 8 měsíci +20

    You did a great job! This is the perfect platform for you to speak freely and share your story, what ever that might look like. I hope in time, you come back with an update! I applaud your courage. I have to say, I have watched/listened to many stories from this channel (God Bless You), and I am absolutely floored by some of the comments which show no empathy or compassion, very unusual here😩

  • @mikedelgado8460
    @mikedelgado8460 Před 8 měsíci +6

    20:03
    "You can't heal in that environment that hurts you.".
    This, hits on so many levels.

  • @jessicabranson1488
    @jessicabranson1488 Před měsícem +3

    She’s going places! Very wise. I’ve been in similar trauma and this is the first stage of healing

  • @SD-up2nl
    @SD-up2nl Před 8 měsíci +6

    I rarely comment tbh but the strength and courage of this young lady is absolutely breathtaking. I'm never gonna complain about my life again after listening to her!!!

  • @lucylescaut1628
    @lucylescaut1628 Před 8 měsíci +7

    I’m crying for you and your sisters. That pain is burning my insides. I wish I could protect all children from this kind of abuse. Inflicting this level of harm on children is the most horrific disgusting evil that walks on this earth. I’m amazed how strong you are. Keep your head up and live your life to the fullest. Take everything that was taken from you back with your positive attitude.

  • @metroop
    @metroop Před 8 měsíci +8

    Angelina - you seem to have your head on your shoulders and dealing with these traumas the best way possible. You have an incredibly bright future ahead of you, just keep it pushing.

  • @Probitas_Imperium
    @Probitas_Imperium Před 8 měsíci +8

    Angelina, thank you so much for this! You just don’t know how important and special this was to me! Thank you!

  • @gabrielaf5411
    @gabrielaf5411 Před 8 měsíci +28

    Thank you Mark . Watching all those interviews is like journey to my own " soul " .

  • @princesstakaloo
    @princesstakaloo Před 8 měsíci +11

    Poor darling, I feel your pain in your soul explaining this, people don't realise how hard it is to deta this in words to people you know let alone an entire world of strangers. Keep strong and beautiful as you are just by speaking you are helping everyone in your situation now or in their past to not feel alone much love to you... May the angels bless your life x

  • @Etrielle
    @Etrielle Před 8 měsíci +28

    I can relate so much to her. She's 100% real and authentic

  • @917hazel
    @917hazel Před 8 měsíci +3

    Angelina, You are a gentle soul with great strength. Thank you for telling your history, you will inspire many.

  • @fionaarchibald502
    @fionaarchibald502 Před 8 měsíci +7

    Very brave of this young woman, she has come far already in her healing work. This generation is light years ahead in overcoming stigma. All the best, stay strong ❤

  • @Emzzz78
    @Emzzz78 Před 8 měsíci +18

    This is a nice break from the skid row people that won’t help themselves. This young lady is gorgeous and courageous! I think she will do well in life. Self awareness is a gift and a strength. Praying for Angelina ❤

    • @ermfine2
      @ermfine2 Před 8 měsíci +1

      How about you say, there but for the grace of God go I instead of that short- sighted judgment??! 😒

  • @meganthomas8408
    @meganthomas8408 Před 8 měsíci +1

    Angelina, you are such a beautiful, kind and gentle young woman. Thank you for sharing your story. I can’t even begin to imagine… but your story WILL help others.

  • @savanna4127
    @savanna4127 Před 8 měsíci +13

    Angela- Thank you for being so brave and daring to share your story. I am so sorry for everything you & your sister went through. It sounds like it was scary, heartbreaking, and really hard. You seem so wise and genuine. I heard you say that you have a large support system. That is great! May you receive all the support you need. You are so strong & courageous. Your story really made me feel so much compassion. Parts of your story reminded me of my childhood and how i grew up. Therapy has been one of the best things that has happened to me.

  • @sarahbastiaanssen4468
    @sarahbastiaanssen4468 Před 7 měsíci +3

    What a sweet & courageous young lady. I’m happy she had her stepmother in her corner!! Praying she gets all the love and support she needs to succeed in life, you will do amazing things Angelina!! Xoxox

  • @wholesomegirl2889
    @wholesomegirl2889 Před 8 měsíci +7

    My heart goes out to her. ❤️❤️❤️I’m an empath and I can only listen to a few of these stories, as they are too painful even to listen to. Thank you Mark for shining light on these peoples life. What did I personally learn from every one of these stories, is being absolutely non judgmental and compassion on a whole new level. Love, and blessings to you all and the whole world. ❤️🌏🇺🇦🌈🕊💗☮️🙏🏻🌎💕

    • @pierrea3094
      @pierrea3094 Před 7 měsíci

      If you were actually an empath you’d be able to transcribe this whole interview 🎉

  • @maryreynolds5310
    @maryreynolds5310 Před 8 měsíci +9

    The best advice I can give her is…NONE of this is your fault, none of it! Repair yourself from the inside out, write your feelings down..all of them! Writing and telling your story is the beginning of your healing journey. Peace and love darlin’

  • @mariaes623
    @mariaes623 Před 8 měsíci +8

    You're doing the right thing by exposing your father. If you could save even one more little girl from abuse at his hands, it's all worth it. I pray for your healing, dear. 🙏🏼

  • @AubreyWhite-jd5ft
    @AubreyWhite-jd5ft Před 8 měsíci +10

    The saddest part is you can tell she still loved her dad

    • @Losang8
      @Losang8 Před 7 měsíci

      It would be sad if she’d lose her love.

  • @eliasrz4749
    @eliasrz4749 Před 8 měsíci +21

    It's crazy how your brain makes it's best to make your forget your traumatic memories, one day you wake up ready to go to college or work and you remember everything that happened word for word, scene by scene. I can't even imagine what went through your head when you were reassuring your little sister the night you saw her being assaulted. The abuse you suffered does not defines you as a person, we are all deserving of respect, compassion and dignity. We are all way more worthy than our minds make us believe. It's okay to cry, and I hope you will get the psychiatrist help you need to be able to live your life, it's not always gonna be easy, no matter how long and how hard the struggle is don't ever forget that it makes it makes each moment more liveable and enjoyable, one day at a time. Commenting because I completely saw myself in what you said, abuse, adhd, terrible relationships etc etc. I wish you the best !!

  • @Jkollman111
    @Jkollman111 Před 4 měsíci +4

    Your soul is so pure, it radiates from you and anyone can see it. You're going to heal and help so many people. ❤

  • @helen.k
    @helen.k Před 8 měsíci +5

    Thank you for fighting for your justice and trying to prevent what happened to you happening again. You are brave.

  • @user-uu5ch5pj9y
    @user-uu5ch5pj9y Před 8 měsíci +3

    What a sweet heart.I hope you all the best Princess and fly high special girl ❤ And thank you Mark, you are a special human ❤.A friend's son recommended this channel and have been so moved by the people you interview and your gentle spiritual respect. God bless.

  • @ThePortalTheory
    @ThePortalTheory Před 8 měsíci +8

    What a smart and beautiful young lady. I truly hope she can get the help she needs and deserves to live a happy life. ❤

  • @Mariposa77755
    @Mariposa77755 Před 17 dny +1

    You are so brave! I am a survivor too and I cry very often. Thank you for telling us your story and for carrying on. When you keep going, you keep going for all of us. Thank you for being brave.

  • @veronicaBolanos-mc4fc
    @veronicaBolanos-mc4fc Před 8 měsíci +8

    She's absolutely adorable. So sorry she had to go thru that 😢. She's very brave

  • @lisamarie9918
    @lisamarie9918 Před 8 měsíci +19

    When she said she just remembers bits here and there but some is blank, I can relate to that. I’m in my early 60’s and never got help for a molester my aunt was married to. At times I’ve tried to remember details, thinking I could put it behind me but the brain just won’t go there. Interesting to hear someone else say it. Ugh! These cowards are too damn comfortable preying on innocent children.🤬

    • @angelinat_
      @angelinat_ Před 8 měsíci +4

      Lisa I am so sorry that you can relate. look into EMDR therapy, it’s supposed to help bring repressed memories to the surface. I am looking into it as well hoping to be able to remember more. I try to tell my brain that we are safe to remember it all now, but for some reason it is still hard to go back to that place. I hope you find healing and thank you so much for watching and listening to my story 🤍 have an amazing day :)

  • @free_Julian_Assange
    @free_Julian_Assange Před 8 měsíci +3

    Keep up the great work Angelina and keep getting the help that you need. you are remarkable and brave. You did a great job sharing your story. stay strong.

  • @nibsmcgibbins
    @nibsmcgibbins Před 8 měsíci +9

    “If I know there’s something I can do I’m going to try and do it.” GIRL SAME. ❤

  • @singable192
    @singable192 Před 8 měsíci +4

    Thank you for sharing your story Angelina. What you had to endure is absolutely wrong and should have never happened. I hope he is made to feel the full weight of the law for what he did to you and your sister. Justice is important. He deserves it and you and your sister deserve it too.

  • @maureenguzman942
    @maureenguzman942 Před 8 měsíci +3

    cant believe a father can harm that much to his own blood, hope you can heal all your pain , and that this never happens to you or your family anymore. send my love

  • @williamturner01
    @williamturner01 Před 8 měsíci +6

    Childhood survivor here. Don't be afraid to do the work, the hard part is finding the right therapist and group. But once you do that's when the magic happens. Be well and cry all you need to and one day all your questions will be answered.

  • @jenniferdover1652
    @jenniferdover1652 Před měsícem +1

    I am so sorry all this happened to you. You are so brave. This was not an easy interview for you. I wish you love on your healing journey. ❤

  • @sbmenard7374
    @sbmenard7374 Před 6 měsíci +1

    Thank you for sharing your story with such honesty. You are a beautiful soul. Take good care of yourself and continue on the path of healing.

  • @paulabarnett3465
    @paulabarnett3465 Před 8 měsíci +3

    God Bless her for being so brave and caring for her little sister and trying to keep her safe.

  • @Lady_Angela1
    @Lady_Angela1 Před 8 měsíci +4

    Thank you for sharing your story young lady. You are definitely not alone.

  • @SANDRAESCALANTE
    @SANDRAESCALANTE Před 8 měsíci +1

    U ask why u had to suffer, U have a gift of speaking and u would be a great advocate for others that have suffered the same abuse. Turn that pain into a purpose. U are a survivor- Keep healing , u r such a beautiful young lady.

  • @crustinagohard9049
    @crustinagohard9049 Před 8 měsíci +2

    Angelina- I just now got to the party where you speak about your step mother and how much of a gift she is to you. You're absolutely right. A good way to think of things to bring peace is that your dad HAD to leave your mom for you to be blessed with her. God luck on your journey

  • @faith_9677
    @faith_9677 Před 8 měsíci +3

    I think you're doing fantastically. It's great you appreciate your stepmom, and that she believes in you. It's s been awesome and brave for you to have protected your sister. This country doesn't do anywhere near enough for the life-giver...the girls and women! Not even close. And their system sucks..straight up! It's awesome that you've been doing all you can. I wish you all the very best.☮️❤️

  • @Jais328
    @Jais328 Před 8 měsíci +4

    What an amazingly beautiful soul!!! 💓💓💓💓 She radiates off of this screen. I want to give her a huge hug and all the support she can take. One thing I HAVE to mention, as it sounds like she may start looking into therapy again elsewhere, FIND A THERAPIST THAT YOU CONNECT WITH!!! The others that you do not connect with, will not be able to help you completely. STAY STRONG!!!!

  • @rosaw.4107
    @rosaw.4107 Před 7 měsíci +2

    Angelina thank you for sharing your story. You might have not have ADHD, I experienced trauma and since then I feel like you too: forgetful, worried, unable to focus, memory is gone, overwhelmed. That’s all ptsd and side effects from being traumatized.
    I am so sorry you had to go through that. I hope your biological father gets what he deserves and you find healing and learn how to cope with this new you.
    Sending you love

  • @jennifercrandall7648
    @jennifercrandall7648 Před 7 měsíci +2

    Thank you for you're courageous story. You are amazing. You could be helping other people who have gone through similar incidents. Thanks mark❤

    • @jennifercrandall7648
      @jennifercrandall7648 Před 7 měsíci

      I was a virgin until I was 18 and with my husband. All b/c of my fear of men due to similar circumstances with my uncle. We've been together 26yrs. We didn't even kiss until we'd been seeing each other for about 2mo. Took us a year to do the deed😢

  • @madddsss6326
    @madddsss6326 Před 8 měsíci +3

    This girl is strong and solid. She has so much potential. I hope the best for her, maintain the solidness. Wishing for joy in her life.

    • @angelinat_
      @angelinat_ Před 8 měsíci

      thank you so much what a nice comment 🤍 I hope you have an amazing week :)

  • @nancyhickok-robertson3748
    @nancyhickok-robertson3748 Před 8 měsíci +3

    Such a mature young women. She’s gone through so much but by her sharing this she helping others and gives her an awareness of her own situation and in time she will get more answers. Just remember one day at a time. Prayers help let go and let God.

  • @user-gh3sh1ce7f
    @user-gh3sh1ce7f Před měsícem +1

    Emotional intelligence is a super power, how you've gained this at such young age is inspiration. Thankyou for sharing your story.

  • @juliefennell3343
    @juliefennell3343 Před 18 dny +1

    You are intelligent and articulate, wise beyond your years. You are not responsible for any of the horrific trauma you have endured. You are so, so beautiful and you have the strongest heart. Only you get to decide what your boundaries are and what your justice means. I am so proud of you for continuing to advocate for yourself. You are extraordinary. God bless you and bring you peace and healing. ❤

  • @Treepress
    @Treepress Před 8 měsíci +36

    I’m very excited for her to go through all the healing - get therapy and put things with her father to rest but especially for her to get her license as a tattoo artist . She’s gonna be major !

    • @angelinat_
      @angelinat_ Před 8 měsíci +5

      this means a lot thank you so much for listening ❤️ I hope you have an amazing day wherever you are.

  • @Jacquena
    @Jacquena Před 8 měsíci +3

    Your are the most adorable young lady on this platform yet. I wish you all the best!❤

  • @Cadsanon441
    @Cadsanon441 Před 8 měsíci +1

    You can see just how hard it is for her to talk about 😢 girl I pray you heal 🩷 I’ve been through it and I’ve never healed x

  • @MabelRD08
    @MabelRD08 Před měsícem +2

    In the moment you know/can sense something is off and you can easily freeze...Years later you put a name to it and can finally understand you were not wrong and you are a warrior.
    💜❤️💜❤️💜

  • @dariostanziola9542
    @dariostanziola9542 Před 8 měsíci +11

    What an incredibly smart, strong woman. No matter what life throws at her she will persevere. Wish there was some pro bono therapists available to help her.

  • @roxanawilson9855
    @roxanawilson9855 Před 8 měsíci +5

    Angelina, you were right in reporting your dad. I wish you the best. You seem to be responsible and caring. Continue with your goals.

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před 8 měsíci

      I sure hope that pervert is put in prison where he’ll be given the treatment he deserves. The creep needs a wake up call.

  • @jrobbins8058
    @jrobbins8058 Před 8 dny +1

    What an incredible strong young lady.The courage she has is amazing.

  • @faithf5846
    @faithf5846 Před 8 měsíci +2

    You didnr’t deserve being mistreated and abused ever. . My hope for you is too flourish without bad people, protect yourself from all drug and alcohol. Your articulate and a wise gentle strong young woman.. May God bless your many many good positive days ahead. 🙏❤️

  • @grumpybob
    @grumpybob Před 8 měsíci +15

    It is amazing how commonplace this sort of abuse is - and always has been. Right across the board - not just in the families of drug and alcohol abusers. The human race is still such a long way from being truly civilised.

  • @alisonmarie9188
    @alisonmarie9188 Před 8 měsíci +10

    Childhood sexual abuse of any kind is abhorrent and any perpetrators should be prosecuted in the same way they go after murderers. They will always reoffend again. BUT there is a special place in hell for the parents that do this to their children. There is no greater violation of trust. Any survivor of this trauma that breaks the cycle is a goddamn rockstar. You are literally saving countless souls by not perpetuating the pain and unleashing it on those most vulnerable. Beautiful girl, you will change lives ❤ ANGELina, may you be the blessing for those who have yet to find their voice 🙏 😇 💕

  • @lindaalvarez9898
    @lindaalvarez9898 Před 8 měsíci +1

    Thank you Mark.
    You did a great job Angelina. Thank you for sharing🫶may God continue to bless you♥️

  • @abunchahooey
    @abunchahooey Před 5 měsíci +1

    Angelina, you are smart, articulate, beautiful and special. You have been through so much and you chose to thrive. Please get support and help and keep going, Sis. I’m very proud of you, your future is bright. 😊

  • @007who
    @007who Před 8 měsíci +40

    You go girl, Report and let him know it was not okay and what you think of him that is healing. Just don't expect him to acknowledge the abuse or apologize, it is for your strength. Don't let insurance stop you from taking care of you, I did not have insurance but paid for years of good therapy out of pocket sometimes having to make payments, It's important and you are worth it. I'm 69 now and would not be in a good place at all without the help of therapists and survivor groups. You are so thoughtful, smart and savvy. Keep searching for the right person to help you. After therapy I went back and got my GED, and a bachelor's degree. Started several businesses, Do not give him the power to ruin your life. You take your power back from him just like your doing. Good On Ya!!

  • @daniellekauno5373
    @daniellekauno5373 Před 7 měsíci +4

    I know this has only been out for a month but please do a follow up with her! I hope she can overcome her trauma

  • @karliebee5309
    @karliebee5309 Před 8 měsíci +2

    Thank you for sharing your story. I hope very much that you're able to heal and lead a beautiful life. ❤❤