I am literally shocked that an ED treatment centre would have such a disordered meal plan! Like dry bagels and toast for dinner screams eating disorder. I've been to a few different treatment centres and that would never be allowed, even on the lowest meal plan. I'm sorry that you were given such a bizarre plan!
@@kristimichelle Of course everyone has different needs but across all the treatment centres I've been to a normal maintenance plan has looked something like this (Not for weight gain) Breakfast would be something like cereal with milk, a banana and egg, lunch would be a wrap or sandwich with either a dessert (square or cake) or a drink and a large yogurt, afternoon snack would be something like a chocolate bar or a fruit and granola bar, dinner would be an entree, like spaghetti and meat/veg balls and a salad with small dessert, like a fruit or yogurt, and then night snack would be something like PB on toast with milk. Hope this helps kind of give you an idea of what other places meal plans are like.
I've been allowed dry toast or bagels on days when my stomach/reflux was worse. I'm fortunate to have a therapist and dietician who individualize... it's been 50+ years with eating disorders for me, and my system isn't doing this very quickly. I've just recently begun feeling actual hunger after years of never experiencing it. Scares me .
I'm here bc I ALMOST got hospitalized a few days ago. I actually really wanted it but realized that in Poland the hospitals give you way more trauma and mental health problems than before you went there. So I decided to fight by myself and for myself at home. I know it's not gonna be easy but I also know that the hospital will not help me at all. I will try to challenge myself as much as I can.
If anything, I think this video was a wake up call like you said regarding your recovery and how far you have to go. That was definitely not a lot of food like you said, and the fact that you were stressing out about it shows that you still have a long way to go. This isn't a negative comment, i too thought I was more recovered than I really was until I was forced to stop exercise and break a lot of old habits like eating as soon as i woke and before sleep. People with a healthy relationship with food don't even consider timing or movement in relation to food. That where I hope to get to; for both of us! Ps. a piece of pb toast for dinner?! That's not even enough for one of my snacks...
Thank you for this well thought out and articulated comment. You are absolutely right. It's caused me to do a lot of thinking and I'm working on making some adjustments. Thank you for the well wishes. I'm certainly wishing all the best to you as well ❤
I get very emotional about when, what and how much to eat too. I get very confused, then I feel ashamed. Its a never ending cycle. thank you for sharing, it reminds me Im not alone.
Everyone's has different needs. And to be fair, my meal plan probably would've increased some had I stayed longer. I left against medical advice because of a number of reasons which I discuss in another video.
Bravo to you for revisiting your old meal plan, as what sounds like a check in. Is that what motivated you to do so? You did great! Even though it seemed like feelings were coming up, you kept eating. Wonderful. It would be nice to know how you're doing now. I will subscribe. Thank you for posting. It made me really happy that you showed up your plan and that you were eating on camera: especially courageous, and supportive for others, so thank you.
I just found your channel and I love it! It has been so helpful. However, this video confused and disappointed me. This was by NO MEANS your fault, you were simply following the prescription meal plan from the center. If I may, I would like to offer some feedback/observations. I have been through multiple residential and inpatient programs, and one of the standing rules in all of them is that dry bread/bagels/etc. is not allowed; we must use some sort of condiment (dry toast is super disordered, believe me-this is a huge challenge for me!!). Also, the chips from snack would have more appropriately been a side with lunch, then your “dinner” of toast and applesauce would be your afternoon snack. Thus, you were missing an entire meal. Again, I want to emphasize that this is not your fault at all!! It just makes me very sad that there are treatment programs out there that are literally prescribing eating disorder behaviors. I am so proud of you for choosing recovery, even though the center you went to was clearly very problemed. Much love to you!!
I am trying to figure out how to write this comment because im not trying to be mean...but man if this is hard for you I dont know how you would have survived the eating disorder treatment center I was at. I dont know how I survived it, especially watching this video I realize how different what they were doing to us was. I was so uncomfortably and painfully full all the time. The snacks were like literal meals, the meals were massive, and i got put on desserts several times a week as well. It was so incredibly difficult. The amount of food we had to eat was unreal
I wish they gave me a meal plan bc I’m lost and the voice is always counting cals and ik it’s not good but I can’t stop.. I feel like a meal plan could help ..
I also want to say that I know you said that you would put applesauce on peanut butter toast growing up but I have to say that it seems like combining stuff together like that seems somewhat disordered because it falsely looks like you're eating less (you are tricking your mind...I used to do it too, a lot of us did in treatment I noticed). I have been in recovery for a while but i sometimes think i could benefit going back to treatment, but these comments and behaviors in this video are somewhat triggering to me even, even though I've been doing well for a while. That's saying a lot because that stuff doesn't really bother me any more. But I realize if I went to treatment I'd probably do worse and be really annoyed with hearing that kind of talk about a piece of toast being a dinner, someone thinking that's a lot of food. I'd probably do worse in treatment because I'd be surrounded by it. My biggest struggle right now is my weight because I gained and am heavier than I've been in a while and can't seem to lose any, even when I don't eat as much. It's like I don't even have the capacity to think and do the same things I did when I was in my eating disorder, which I guess is a good thing but the part of my brain that still struggles is mad about that. I hope this makes sense. I guess I just have poor body image is my main thing.
what is the reason to do this video though? no hate to you, but surely it would trigger disordered thoughts again having to go back to eating so little (which at the time obviously would of been a lot as you were inpatient). it just goes to show that you cant let your eating disorder go, and that more help is needed. theres no need to take 2 steps back and look at older meal plans or calorie counts and stuff, and keep focusing on the present and how far you've come. its like an alcoholic doing a "what i drank in a day before i got admitted" oh but its all ok because im recovered now, like whaaat. you're just unintentionally triggering yourself
I am literally shocked that an ED treatment centre would have such a disordered meal plan! Like dry bagels and toast for dinner screams eating disorder. I've been to a few different treatment centres and that would never be allowed, even on the lowest meal plan. I'm sorry that you were given such a bizarre plan!
Thanks for this comment. Makes me reconsider what a good meal plan would look like
@@kristimichelle Of course everyone has different needs but across all the treatment centres I've been to a normal maintenance plan has looked something like this (Not for weight gain) Breakfast would be something like cereal with milk, a banana and egg, lunch would be a wrap or sandwich with either a dessert (square or cake) or a drink and a large yogurt, afternoon snack would be something like a chocolate bar or a fruit and granola bar, dinner would be an entree, like spaghetti and meat/veg balls and a salad with small dessert, like a fruit or yogurt, and then night snack would be something like PB on toast with milk.
Hope this helps kind of give you an idea of what other places meal plans are like.
Totally agree!!! Dry bagel?!? Never.
I'm inpatient right now, and my dietitian would be horrified at the idea of a plain bagel. It would definitely NOT be considered normal
I've been allowed dry toast or bagels on days when my stomach/reflux was worse. I'm fortunate to have a therapist and dietician who individualize... it's been 50+ years with eating disorders for me, and my system isn't doing this very quickly. I've just recently begun feeling actual hunger after years of never experiencing it. Scares me .
I'm here bc I ALMOST got hospitalized a few days ago. I actually really wanted it but realized that in Poland the hospitals give you way more trauma and mental health problems than before you went there. So I decided to fight by myself and for myself at home. I know it's not gonna be easy but I also know that the hospital will not help me at all. I will try to challenge myself as much as I can.
If anything, I think this video was a wake up call like you said regarding your recovery and how far you have to go. That was definitely not a lot of food like you said, and the fact that you were stressing out about it shows that you still have a long way to go. This isn't a negative comment, i too thought I was more recovered than I really was until I was forced to stop exercise and break a lot of old habits like eating as soon as i woke and before sleep. People with a healthy relationship with food don't even consider timing or movement in relation to food. That where I hope to get to; for both of us!
Ps. a piece of pb toast for dinner?! That's not even enough for one of my snacks...
Thank you for this well thought out and articulated comment. You are absolutely right. It's caused me to do a lot of thinking and I'm working on making some adjustments. Thank you for the well wishes. I'm certainly wishing all the best to you as well ❤
I get very emotional about when, what and how much to eat too. I get very confused, then I feel ashamed. Its a never ending cycle. thank you for sharing, it reminds me Im not alone.
You are definitely not alone. I'm wishing you all the best in your journey ❤
It's so interesting to see these videos! They help me remember that other people have gone through what I go through ❤ you are so strong!
1 side of toast and applesauce for dinner is WILD. If this seems like too much food you need to seriously considered your daily food intake…..
that is a VERY small meal plan for inpatient treatment---- I was on about 5000 cal per day
Everyone's has different needs. And to be fair, my meal plan probably would've increased some had I stayed longer. I left against medical advice because of a number of reasons which I discuss in another video.
I recognized that meal plan sheet right away, hope you are going well!
Bravo to you for revisiting your old meal plan, as what sounds like a check in. Is that what motivated you to do so? You did great! Even though it seemed like feelings were coming up, you kept eating. Wonderful. It would be nice to know how you're doing now. I will subscribe. Thank you for posting. It made me really happy that you showed up your plan and that you were eating on camera: especially courageous, and supportive for others, so thank you.
I just found your channel and I love it! It has been so helpful. However, this video confused and disappointed me. This was by NO MEANS your fault, you were simply following the prescription meal plan from the center. If I may, I would like to offer some feedback/observations. I have been through multiple residential and inpatient programs, and one of the standing rules in all of them is that dry bread/bagels/etc. is not allowed; we must use some sort of condiment (dry toast is super disordered, believe me-this is a huge challenge for me!!). Also, the chips from snack would have more appropriately been a side with lunch, then your “dinner” of toast and applesauce would be your afternoon snack. Thus, you were missing an entire meal. Again, I want to emphasize that this is not your fault at all!! It just makes me very sad that there are treatment programs out there that are literally prescribing eating disorder behaviors. I am so proud of you for choosing recovery, even though the center you went to was clearly very problemed. Much love to you!!
Agree with you!!
Thank you for this insightful comment! I've gotten similar feedback and maybe need to reconsider what is the right amount of food for me
I am trying to figure out how to write this comment because im not trying to be mean...but man if this is hard for you I dont know how you would have survived the eating disorder treatment center I was at. I dont know how I survived it, especially watching this video I realize how different what they were doing to us was. I was so uncomfortably and painfully full all the time. The snacks were like literal meals, the meals were massive, and i got put on desserts several times a week as well. It was so incredibly difficult. The amount of food we had to eat was unreal
I wish they gave me a meal plan bc I’m lost and the voice is always counting cals and ik it’s not good but I can’t stop.. I feel like a meal plan could help ..
A slice of toast isn't a meal!!!!!
I also want to say that I know you said that you would put applesauce on peanut butter toast growing up but I have to say that it seems like combining stuff together like that seems somewhat disordered because it falsely looks like you're eating less (you are tricking your mind...I used to do it too, a lot of us did in treatment I noticed). I have been in recovery for a while but i sometimes think i could benefit going back to treatment, but these comments and behaviors in this video are somewhat triggering to me even, even though I've been doing well for a while. That's saying a lot because that stuff doesn't really bother me any more. But I realize if I went to treatment I'd probably do worse and be really annoyed with hearing that kind of talk about a piece of toast being a dinner, someone thinking that's a lot of food. I'd probably do worse in treatment because I'd be surrounded by it. My biggest struggle right now is my weight because I gained and am heavier than I've been in a while and can't seem to lose any, even when I don't eat as much. It's like I don't even have the capacity to think and do the same things I did when I was in my eating disorder, which I guess is a good thing but the part of my brain that still struggles is mad about that. I hope this makes sense. I guess I just have poor body image is my main thing.
what is the reason to do this video though? no hate to you, but surely it would trigger disordered thoughts again having to go back to eating so little (which at the time obviously would of been a lot as you were inpatient). it just goes to show that you cant let your eating disorder go, and that more help is needed. theres no need to take 2 steps back and look at older meal plans or calorie counts and stuff, and keep focusing on the present and how far you've come. its like an alcoholic doing a "what i drank in a day before i got admitted" oh but its all ok because im recovered now, like whaaat. you're just unintentionally triggering yourself
Once I start, I can't stop eating.
Hey it could be that you're experiencing extreme hunger if your body has been deprived for too long? I'm wishing you the best of luck ❤
So little portions. 😢
Can I ask which program you were at Inpatient?
Super helpful thanks x
So glad!
Ive been through the same thing i understand
Hi. How come you didn't eat dinner?
Hey! I did :) Dinner was the bread with peanut butter and applesauce
You don’t have to have a 1/2 cup esp if ur not hungry. Why not 1/4 cup? Why not 3 tablespoons? Your still eating and fueling ur metabolism