The DARK meaning behind Cal's broken lightsaber | Rethinking Jedi: Fallen Order
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- čas přidán 15. 03. 2024
- This video took me almost half a decade to get done, but I think it was worth the wait. Let's go on a journey together in Jedi: Fallen Order's story of brokenness and see what we can learn together about what a lightsaber truly means.
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jokes aside thanks for this episode, you put your soul out to help others. It helps me. Thank you, lets all be better.
It's not fear, it's understanding.
Im terified
Can I play the game anyways and still give it a thumbs up? Great video as always Austin. Thank you for everything.
Stuff like this is why I've followed you for years. It's not just content. It's personal. It's exciting, it's gutteral, it's emotional, it's REAL. One can see your life's path through the videos. And it's a story I have always deeply connected to.
Couldn't have said it better myself - thank you for your comment :)
came to say this❤
I also came here to say this. Thank you, Austin. ❤
This video really captures the beauty of not just a game's story, but the suffering and overcoming of human experience. I've cried listening to this video.
Thr fact that Cal has psychometry, and thus an incredibly strong connection to memories of not only himself but others, AND on Bracca he was constantly scrapping Clone Wars era equipment, I imagine he was having trauma filled flashbacks every day
Honestly that's probably what led to his insensitivity to the force by the time the game starts; survival.
In conjunction with consciously suppressing his abilities, they were also subconsciously suppressed as well.
consistently having force-induced trauma flashes would, reasonably, cause a severing in his ability, albeit small, to allow him to survive.
Nooo, this hurt my heart. Poor Cal
I bet that's why in the beginning of Fallen Order he's listening to music. Like most who has trauma tend to listen to music to forget. I do the same especially with my depression.
@@xrickardoxgamer3282same! Must have music, must have sound. Can’t let the brain get too board at, say, work and thought-stumble into trauma and have to explain to my coworkers why I’m suddenly sobbing.
Austin we love u. Please don't ever stop. I know it can be hard. Battling with depression and anxiety is hard. I just hope messages like this help you feel better. Maybe even put a smile on your face. When u left game theory I was so pissed because I felt like u were always the most real. Thank you for shoddy cast. Thank you for being you. I know you probably won't read this but you got this.
Somebody did.
Not gonna lie. This hit a lot closer to home for me than I realized. Thank you Sir. We appreciate your contribution and honesty.
It didn't just hit close to home, it made a direct hit
@@jaykemerling7553 I stand corrected
@@jaykemerling7553A direct critical hit IMO.
I love the color grading of the game footage. The crushing of the blacks and whites while simple somehow makes it seem more beautiful. It also, seemingly thematically, breaks up and contrasts the parts of the image. The characters themselves are broken and divided, which means the darkness shows through. But, that means the light is more powerful when it shines through as well. Fallen Order has been and always will be one of my favorite games. Thank you for making this analysis, its exactly what i needed right now
Hey, we happened to orbit in some of the same social circles in Chicago for a few years, and we never had the pleasure of meeting, but the way peoples' eyes lit up when they talked about you spoke volumes. You are really valued and loved and make an impact, and I'm really excited to see you continuing to create.
In a way, I believe every single person on this planet want/wish/hope for that kind of "legacy" I wish that you all could hear them, see them light up, their joy and love resonating through their memories and experiences with you, their whole being wanting to share *you* with someone else.
That is one of the nicest things you could say about a person, and it's something a lot of people with depression and anxiety REALLY need to hear
Fallen Order is special to me.
The gameplay might not be the best, but the story hits a specific part of my psyche.
I played Fallen Order shortly after I almost lost my life to a car accident. I was in the same place Cal was. Broken, hurt, pretending that I could go back to how I was before it happened.
Cal's journey was my journey. It helped me accept what happened and move forward. Helped me find peace with myself.
I nearly cried reading your comment, thank you for sharing. I'm glad to hear this game helped you through it!
Hi! It's me! Someone that's really excited to watch this video!
This is getting out of hand. Now there are two of us.
There is 3 of us!!!!
GOD F*** D***** Now there's at least 4.
I count 4... oh no.
Make that 5
1:57 - I've often said that it is the flaws that make the man. Being perfect is boring, it is the flaws that give character, that make someone stand out from the sea of bland faces and give them their own unique identity. Conquering your flaws is hard, sometimes it takes your entire life to do, and sometimes you never manage to do it, and that's *ok*. After all, your flaws are just as much a part of you as everything else, and that makes you YOU.
Don't ever stop being yourself, Austin. We all love you.
I fully agree. Some of my dearest friends are deely flawed individuals, and a few of my favourite channels are from very afflicted people as well (like AsukkaTV). Accepting qnd working on that is very important
Wow, I turned on the reminder for this video and am subscribed with notifications, yet still CZcams only showed me this video 30 minutes after it was released, and only in the recommendations. CZcams really has done you a great injustice today
Yeah no notification but at least it was on my splash page. Be nice if youtube would show the channels you watch frequently first before showing recommendations.
Use your subscription box...?
@karlhnedkovsky5214 for me thats always full of videos I've already seen in the past week.
@@enzovulkoor Yeah, but the moment a video comes out, it's there! There's nothing for it, for you to just check, right?
@@enzovulkoor I watch my subscriptions almost exclusively through it!
i know this was hard to make, but thank you for making it. it means so much.
This is gonna hit hard, I can already tell... Thanks Austin. You give me hope that some day... I'll be able to conquer my issues...
I never thought there could be so much thought and story put into a Star Wars game from 2019, of all things. I haven't played J:FO, but the relatability and strange sense of kinship Austin found in just a lightsaber is kind of infectious.
This is definitely one of Austin's better videos (yes, the lion animation error looks natural), and it was worth getting up earlier to watch the premiere. Austin seems to be finding his own road to mental redemption by analyzing and rethinking video games, and I'm here for every second of it. Hope to see more videos soon, but remember to have fun making them ;)
I am 2 mins into this video and have decided to put this on the backlog before spoilers kick in. You've rekindled my desire to play Fallen Order and I will return to happily absorb this video with the knowledge of the game in me. See you soon!
Let me know how it hits when its fresh, please.
@@MultiverseMediaSpace I played for 5 hours, got tired of it and deleted it. So uh, now that i'm starting over I think I might take like 30 hours to get back to this vid. But okay, I guess I can.
This may be your most beautiful video and immediately hits me as one of the most impressively impactful and authentic works in not only this niche but on CZcams. Thank you for opening yourself up to make this.
This, this is why I follow you my friend. Your rants are amazing but your humanity, empathy and the darkness you have overcome.. and acknowledge is why I love your content. Amazing job
Thank you. Sincerely. This isn’t an easy topic, but it’s a meaningful one so thank you for giving it the care and attention it deserved, and putting into words a lot of things that needed to be said.
with all my heart, i hope everyone who needs to see this, does
amazing work austin, thank you for sharing this with us
I feel this is some of your best work Austin. Thank you.
This is such a good video! It made me cry (in a good way) while reflecting on my own trauma.
My husband and I on our separate accounts will continue to be subscribed and watch your videos as you release them. As people with our own mental health illnesses, we will wait you out as long as you need. I am sure many of us will. We may not be sick the same way, but we understand on some level. Keep going forward at your pace, we will continue to cheer you on.
Thank you for not giving up even when you really want to. Thank you so much.
I truly don't know that ANY other content creator puts MORE effort into their videos than you and I think that's a big part of why I get SO excited whenever I see you upload anything at all.
Feel your feelings as long as at the end of the day you know that you're exceptional and worth the time your viewers collectively give to your videos.
Wow, thank you for making this. You hit the nail on the head, this is precisely what made Fallen Order stand out and special. Glad to see it getting the attention it deserves.
Austin, this video hit me more in the feels then I was expecting it to. You are awesome at these analysis videos. Keep up my Man. You are not alone in this journey
As a victim of childhood abuse I can say that your message here is one that each of us struggling with, well a lot of things, needs to here. As always shody you make me think and reassess the worlds around me. Thank you
This was a ride
And I am glad I have been here for it
Thank you Austin
Very good video, thank you for this.
Man this episode was the therapy I needed at the moment. We may break at points but it is how you put yourself back together that matters and most importantly that we keep trying!!
This video is awesome, makes me appreciate Fallen Order's story even more than i already did.
Looking forward to your take on one of my favorite pieces of star wars media since the first two KOTOR games!
Fully agreed, those games were something special--and so is J:FO
Really well wrighten Austin , thanks.
happy to see another new post power to you man
1:55 In my own progress to accept myself and be more at ease, I definitely agree with the sentiment that we could all bear to be a bit more flawed.
I don’t even like Star Wars, but the way you commentated in this video had me HOOKED
I love you, Austin.
Just knowing that you're well and still here, it means so much to me.
I love You. I will always be excited to hear your voice and views.
I still go back thru the Old vids, just to hear You when I feel like I need an anchor.
Keep safe.
I never played the game, never experienced what you have, always felt minorly broken, always functional. This video is probably the best I have seen in years. Thank you.
aw man, I think part of be broke while watching this video. I was straight up moved to tears because I recognized myself in Cal... what a great vid
I'm glad you're back! Watching the start of your video, a powerful message. I hope you do well.
This is at 3 am for me so I’ll miss the live but will be eagerly awaiting the chance to watch it after
Well how was it
Worth the wait, sad for Austin’s that he’s dealing with the scars but happy for him that he can adopt the analogy of the sabre being broken but fixable.
I feel for him, I’ve been watching for a long time and I really relate sometimes with him when he talks about his struggle.
Really loved this video, thank you for sharing that!
Thank you for giving me what I feel to be the most important parasocial relationship I have. It's videos like these that make me feel connected and understood, even if we've never spoken a word to each other's face. I am an extremely traumatised person, myself, and I gave up long ago trying to find a "normal" or a way for things to "go back to the way they were". My life has been forever changed by trauma, and as someone who's ability to choose flight has been completely destroyed, I think the perceived "power" of living IN trauma is the fact that when scared, angry, and manic, you ARE capable of doing pretty amazing things... but it's not sustainable to stay hypervigilant 24/7 for the rest of your life. It's taxing both emotionally and mentally.
I appreciate when creators are open with their audience about their struggles, especially as I live almost a hermit-like life. I've cut off my family (extremely toxic, we'll leave it at that for now), and have very few friends. I don't share my living space with others (except my rescued roosters), I don't go to social events like movies, bars, etc., and I spend very, very little time with the few friends I have. Considering this, it's very easy for me to fall into a world of, "everything that's not associated with me is perfect, functional, and everyone's happy". It's nice to hear that sometimes, the world beyond myself struggles just as much as I do. It's nice to hear people becoming more comfortable as talking about struggles becomes more normalised. In the end, I like to think that I'm witnessing a world not just become more connected, but more compassionate as well.
Thanks for the hope, Austin, and you're absolutely right in that it's okay to seek a new normal when shit hits the fan, and it's okay to be a broken person. My roosters remind me multiple times a day that they don't care how "broken" I am, they just love me for existing. Buddy has even come to my door several times while writing this just to ask for me to reach out to him and give him some scritches (which I've obliged), and it makes me smile to think that in his eyes, he not only loves and trusts me, but WANTS contact with me. He gets hugs every day, and any other boys I own get hugs, scritches, and cuddles depending on their individual comfort levels.
Thank you for sharing Austin. I'm glad to watch your videos
This was beautifully written. I love it so much. Thank you for sharing this!
Your sharing during the intro is very relatable for me. My life was also very rough, thanks to my parents; this channel oddly is one thing that not only distracts me but gives me a bit of hope
Such a beautiful video Austin. Thank you for sharing this to the world.
Man, I don’t usually comment on videos but this one… this hits. Thanks for this. Great video. Keep it up.
Everything you said about your family life in the opening minutes hit really close to home. I have been isolating a lot trying to deal with my own struggles, and the final segment directed towards Trilla was something I really needed to hear from someone today.. Synchronicity at its finest. Thank you for all you do for us Austin. Stay strong.
This was beautiful and had me in tears. Wonderful video, thank you.
Nice to hear feom you!
I’ve loved your videos for as long as you’ve been making them, thank you
Hey Austin, I'm someone who's currently facing their own brokenness, and I just wanted to thank you for making this video. Fallen Order is one of my favourite games, and its' story always resonated a lot with me, but I never really understood why, until now. You beautifully exposed what my mind hadn't been able to put into words for so long, and made me realise what was behind my crippling self-doubt, fear of failure, and my desperate clinging to my old self. I still am not sure what exactly broke me, but thanks to you I now know that acceptance and adaptation is the path forward. Once again, thank you
Excellent video. Thank-you for sharing it with us. Your videos are excellent, and this, in my opinion, is one of the finest.
Probably one of my favorite videos you've made. Thank you for making this not only for yourself but for me, and everyone else. Never heard of this game but now I want to play it.
Thank you for making this video and for sharing it. I'm struggling to find the words, but it truly means so much to me.
Thank you.
Thank you for always being open with your own personal experiences.
I hope that for you, it is also a way to address what has happened and come to terms with it in a way that benefits you for the better.
Thanks Austin, I needed this video. Keep on the great work.
Woah. This game sounds awesome as far as storytelling goes!
Thank you for making this. I really needed to hear these words and I will be sharing this with others I think will enjoy hearing them as well.
All i have to say is thank you
You're videos always make me feel like I need to deal with my trauma and I think I need these reminders from any source. I don't hear them every time and it helps when comes from unexpected places. Thanks.
Your openness about why this film was so late resonates with myself. Part of the reason i subscribed years ago.
Deep reflection like this is why I keep coming back. Thank you Austin.
Thank you for eventually releasing this video.
It is actually really good. I’m happy it didn’t get killed.
The importance to you really showed in the deeper background and production.
And that, I think, makes it such a profound video.
Thank you.
Thank you for the vulnerability presented.
The four years was worth it Austin. This is a really heartfelt message that is good for people experiencing or recovering from trauma. I expected to learn about lightsabers but I learned to love myself.
Dude! You're making videos! Thank you 🎉
Great vod bro! Keep on fighting the good fight. Thanks.
Beautiful video, Austin. Thanks for your vulnerability and honesty.
I didn't thought I needed to hear this words but I did and they healed me a bit. Thank you Austin. Thank you for your video!
Such a strong story with such a deep and heartfelt message behind it. Thank you for the video, it makes me realize I need to be more open.
Thank you so much for this video. I really needed to hear this and I’m better for having watched it. It means more to me than I can put into words, so I won’t even try. But trust me when I say this was important and I really appreciate it. Thank you for everything you do.
This video was amazing.
Thank you for posting it.
I can't express how moved I am.
I am happy I am here to listen to this analysis, to this story and to your take on the whole thing.
Damn it, Austin, nobody on CZcams can bring me so close to tears as you. Thank you for finally sharing this special video.
Love your work. Your rants are an absolute joy to listen to and I wish you and your vocal chords a long and healthy life.
Beautiful video. I'm glad you went back to it.
Excellent video, well done. Some of your best work for sure.
Very excited for this on so many levels
One of the best video essays I have seen in a while, Fantastic work! Saw a lot of myself in your words
This is an incredibly made video. Well done Austin! Been a huge fan of video games, math and you for A LONG TIME! This video though....speaks in layers and volume! Thank you for this WORK of art!
You know I really like this format of video. I would love to see more of this.
@ShoddyCast Thank you so much for this video Austin. This really explained in a way I have not been able to put into words why I really love this game and its sequel so much. The connection to loss and feeling broken was not something I could really connect as why I love it and you really brought that right up front and honestly knowing that someone else got this that they felt this while playing through it makes it make more sense. Thank you.
Dude, I can't believe how this video smashed me in so many ways. Thank you, and I wish the best for you in your journeys. Please hang in there.
i'm really happy you finished and uploaded this video
Howdy, super excited to see this one
Damn this hit hard. I can see why this lived rent free in your head for so long, beautiful video
This brought me to tears. Thank you Austin.
It was a beautiful video, I'm glad you made it Austin.
Amazing episode! I thank you for sharing it.
I will agree, good sir this hits home in a way I could not express my self. The way you have summed Cal's lightsaber is beyond beautiful. I fail to have the vocabulary to express but it's flawless. You have no idea how many life's and hearts this will affect. Thank you for sharing not only your pain, fears but kindness and wisdom. You sir are a gentleman and a scholar. Thank you for the good work
Well done, sir. God bless you. I hope this message helps a lot of people.
what an amazing message, and reminder of why I loved that
As always thanks for the video, it really open up new perspective for me
This was a beautiful video that left me in tears nearly the entire time
This was amazing and beautiful!
Thank you so much for youre efforts and im happy to know that you trusted us enough to tell us about youre life
I'm so glad you finally got this video out. It's a masterpiece. Totally worth the heart and soul and pain you put into it. This is why we all love you and your work Austin. Keep being beautiful. I'm gonna go cry now.
There's always a new perspective to these games that others are able to put together and it makes the art just that much better. Thank you for this
Thank you for uploading this. I think I needed it.
I hope you're doing better Austin.
This is beautiful and so brave of you. I feel as though there is so much more than this that you wanted to say and so happy to see that have made what you wanted. I'm glad that there is someone with as beautiful of a soul as you do. Good luck Austin, we are all so proud of you and I bet that you're proud of yourself.