A Day in My Life as a Psych Ward Hospital Patient | VLOG
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- čas přidán 12. 06. 2023
- I'm currently an inpatient in a psych ward of the hospital and I decided to document a day in my life while here.
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are you in a proper psych ward?
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@@LEGIOUSIAM8888 concidering religon killed jesus, the roman did their part. they were strong armed by rabis. are they guilty? sure. the rabis are con men who use religion to get what they want in life. nothing more nothing less. are they guilty? you bet. the mindless drones gave power to these rabis to kill jesus, people like you. she doesnt need to pray this away.
Please look into the work of Jerry Marzinski here on CZcams. He was a state prison psychologist and has ground breaking work on schizophrenia and many have been cured as a result. I highly recommend!
TY
I was in psych lock down 2 weeks ago: no phone or computer, no fresh air, no sunshine, no therapy offered, I felt like I came out worse than I went in, and I was suicidal. Things MUST change. Our society is failing us.
YES YES YES
Yes I was wondering how she had a phone. When I was in one you couldn't have a cell and the phones on the wall were like a privilege. They almost killed me in there. They refused to give me my prescriptions and put me on theirs. I have 3 heart conditions and a list of other health issues and I got really sick and my pulse shot up to almost 300 a doc was called just on the phone and he told the lady to give me ginger ale and I'd be fine. My husband had to fight to get me released.
I was in one in 2012 and it’s absolutely heartbreaking that your experience from a few weeks ago and what I’m seeing in this video is still the standard. You and Lauren and everyone deserves better ❤ I’m so sorry.
I feel such solidarity with so many people responding to this. It is SO DAMNED LONELY!
A nice nurse gave me a Game of Thrones book, some dude was hogging up the public t.v.
It is shocking how different psych wards around the world are. I'm in Germany and here you are not supposed to be all alone in your room. You get a routine to follow. And this routine contains the gym, group therapy, single therapy, arts, meditation and other activities. There is a lot of talking between patients and the staff. Its like a controlled holiday.
yes everyone wants to get out of the USA for this reason
In Mars We do group dance
In the US they are more like prisons. This one in the video she is at seems on the nice end.
Don’t get me wrong things have improved a lot over the past century but we have a longggg way to go.
And unlike the other commenter I do not want to leave the US! I love this country and there are so many unique things here that you will find no where else in the world.
Instead of leaving I want to embrace its faults, like its mental health care, and reform it into something better. We need to work to renew our country not abandon it.
That is amazing, the US needs to follow suite
So is it fun over there
I’ve had a mental breakdown and have PTSD, severe depression and anxiety. I went through a stay at a psych ward. I am a recluse I feel safe in my home. Praying for us who suffer from mental illness and pray for people to understand us. God Bless all.
As someone who deals with these same things, and how I've only had to visit a family member in a ward. My heart goes out to you, we all deserve better support.
You take care as much as one can with a mental illness... it is a cunt of an illness sorry for the description ... takes away every single pleasure life has for you to enjoy. Ok when hypomanic but then the depression when you crash is terrible . I am hoping medical science can manage an injection to regulate the emotions and fluctuations we have to experience.. I pray every day that I can be normal..... love leanne
Change your diet and you will see the healing take place.. try carnivore. We were not mean to live this way, there is hope.
God bless you too. Much love.
God bless you.❤
She's so full of life and very articulate. Schizophrenia is such a cruel disease. I wish her nothing but the best.😊
To Rob…I remember first hand the feeling of visiting my wife in the psych ward and then going home to two young kids. In a couple of weeks, we celebrate 48 years. Hang tough, man. She’s an impressive lady.
🎉 you are an amazing woman and I have so much respect for you. Rob is great and I love the understanding between you. I hope you get to feeling better and go home as soon as possible.🎉
@@smiller6925 completely weird reply to comment ....
@@J-_-SWell it takes one to know one I guess?
@@KatieM786 Random comment
@@rcp2212. This right here! My husband did the same for me. We are nearly 40 years married. He’s made my life unbelievabley safe, secure and loving. I always knew there were more men in this world like my Ronnie and today I have just met another one, you! Walk tall, you deserve to. ❤
I've been in a psych ward over ten times during my 39 years of life. I'm haven't been in a psych ward since April of 2007. Which is awesome and I'm so proud of myself for that.
you should be, well done!
Should be proud*, not should be in a psych ward lol whoops
Good job sis.😀
Glad sis
Excellent! Congratulations. Prayers for continued wellness! 😊😊🙏🙏
I voluntarily went to the ward after an attempt and it was miserable. I went in to the ER at 1 or 2 am, was in a bed in the middle of the floor with 2 nurses on either side of the bed at all times, sat there for 4-5 hours until a bed was ready for me in the psychiatric ward. Didn’t get breakfast because my transition was right at breakfast time. So I get to the ward and settled in the room at 7 am, right when the first group call was. So I had to go out and sit in a cold room wearing a gown and listen to this group therapy. Afterwards I asked for a nap because I hadn’t slept at this point for 30+ hours. They just told me it was important for me to participate and I would get to go to sleep tonight.
At that point I wanted to “do” it for a completely different reason and contemplated going in the bathroom and doing a swan dive off of the toilet. We weren’t allowed any regular clothes, only grippy socks, no towels, couldn’t shut the door to the bathroom, our rooms were monitored 24/7 by a team of nurses on the cameras in the middle of the floor.
I understand the purpose and intent, but after experiencing that living hell for 4 days, I would never go back there. Meaning, if I felt I was in danger, I’d rather let whatever was going to happen, happen.
When I was having meetings with the doctors regarding my discharge, I started saying all the “right” things just so I could get out of there, even though I knew I didn’t feel much different. On the bright side, once I left I felt a sense of freedom and relief that boosted my mood for a day or so…
I am in a CZcams rabbit hole right now. I do not experience anything remotely like what you are living with. I admire the hell out of how you have chosen to beautify and help our world. You are a strong and courageous woman.
Thank you.
How difficult and painful it is to live with mental disorders. Those who do not have them will never understand what hell it is.
Yes.
Not just mental, it's mostly trauma related
I have schizoaffective disorder as well as PTSD I am here for you
@@josephcole6367 Stick it!
I know how sad it's to have mental health. 😕
Thank you Rob for being supportive, selfless, understanding and caring with Lauren
when i was in a ward i couldn’t have nothing
@@kellsliving3220 my brothers was diagnosed with chronic paranoid schizophrenia, he was always in a lockdown unit, was always very sad and depressing place to visit. I understand that everyone is different but couldn’t they have a bit of paint color on the walls, or have books or just something for other to occupy the day.
@@Rae-lh7ex i believe for the most part they don’t want it to be an overly stimulating environment because they are trying to evoke calmness and certain bright colours etc can do the opposite of that. I know it’s a bit depressing, but it’s usually the better alternative than being overstimulated and feeling overwhelmed so I think that’s why things are kept fairly bland.
Also the staff has a lot of responsibilities in keeping patients alive and not kill themselves or hurt others in the ward. The staff could get into serious trouble if a patient were to have certain things then used them to hurt/kill themselves or other people. The way I look at it, it’s also about preventing worse case scenarios (death, severe injury leading to serious physical disability possibly). I wish people would stop and try to look at things from the staff perspective sometimes. They have a really tough, often traumatic and frustrating job. (This doesn’t excuse staff being rude or overzealous with restrictions etc)
From my experience in life and through many stories, it's a lot easier for females to find a partner especially having a more atypical illness than men. I may get some blowback, but women want to feel secure and men want to secure. If a woman is more vulnerable it's easier for men to want to be with them and support them. Not so much the other way around
As a teen I was placed in an involuntary hold, there was some effed up things that I personally recall and witnessed that I was too young to morally realize. It was a traumatic experience in itself but actually ended up having some very real and genuine conversations with some of the other patients. Hope they’re all doing well today.
I've been in a number of psyche hospital units. I learned to actually enjoy the other patients because they talked straight talk about their problems and lives, not defenses, no walls, open vulnerable honesty.
That is fictional and used to lie about what some human slaves are forced to do.
You act and/or are tortured into appearing/sounding like youre acting like thats untrue?
I was involuntarily committed twice in my teens as well. Your comment resonated with me deeply. It’s been over 12 years now and I still remember the names and faces of some of them. The trauma I experienced at both facilities was pushed down until I finally started to process it. It truly affects your whole life. I hope you are in a better place these days. ❤️
I remember several years ago heroin addiction destroyed my life, I suffered from severe depression and a mental disorder until I was recommended to psilocybin mushroom treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly I'm 8 years clean now. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
To be honest, mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on the planet and it is natural, they serve in many ways not only for mental related issues.
Can you help me with a reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. It is very hard to get a reliable source here in New Zealand. Really need!
Yes, Sporeville. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD, and addiction... Mushrooms definitely made a huge difference to why I'm clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He's 59 & has many mental health issues plus probably CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD knows if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on Instagram?
Last week I went to the ER and someone was having a some sort of psychiatric break. She was clearly terrified and screaming. Seeing the way staff treated her was heartbreaking. I kept hearing her screaming “get off of me” and hearing the nurses giggling about “the pipes on that chick” and “it’s so and sos favorite patient”. It was very disheartening.
Oh gosh, that's so awful 😔 That poor poor woman. I'm in the UK, and I think a little better here (I could be wrong) but still a long way to go.
The medical staff who deal with psych patients day in and day out become numb to the constant barrage of issues that are presented to them. Humor, such as the vocal pipes on the lady, is a coping mechanism. It's the same throughout many many professions. That's how they survive.
I worked in this setting over a decade. You've no idea how much this goes on !!
I hate ER. Psych wards. They traumatized me so badly.
@@paladin1544 if this is their coping mechanism they shouldnt work in that field at all disheartening patiens cause you cant cope normal with a job YOU chose🤦🏾
In Germany, usually psychiatric treatment is not aaaas boring. Our patients have more more appointments, such as occupational therapy, sports and outdoor activities, arts and crafts, psychoeducation groups, individual psychotherapy, music therapy, accupuncture, pmr or autogenic training. Not every patient necessarily has every treatment, though. it depends, eg, on the state the patient is in.
same in France
also in the USA
Sounds great! Ours are nothing like that! Hopefully they will improve
Wow sounds like a great service❤
@@wanyatelborn oh please American psychological hospital are horrific, they are like jails or worst.
Oh, your husband seems so supportive, that is so great and so helpful for you. You're going to be ok. You are here in this life for a very specific reason. Keep shining your light
@@TemporaryAway why do you say that?
You are very articulate. Intelligent. And caring person. I wish you well. In this journey we call life.
When I’m in psychosis I’m very sensitive to sounds like slamming doors, people talking around me, people laughing and being happy. I get irritable and suspicious. I tend to revolt against my husband and put all of my ire on him, blame him, and become suspicious of him. It’s nice to see you with Rob and being able to smile and talk about what’s happening. You are very self-aware and seem to understand your illness well, which is more than most of us can say. I hope you can get out soon. We are all rooting for you!
Sounds just like me. I get very jumpy and notice every single sound. The loud sounds can be agonizing and quite unnerving.
In general people are damn anoying. Im not mentally ill, atleast not yet unless my patience runs out and someone bones start breaking left and right
I had trouble with even the sounds of my roomba and told my bf to turn it off
@@J-_-S When you’re in psychosis you are very acutely aware of everything going on around you. It feels like everyone is staring at you, or talking about you, laughing at you, or doing things intentionally to trigger you. Being in a crowded space is like sensory overload. I used to go to brunch every Sunday with my husband, and one time I was in the early throes of psychosis, we sat down to eat and I had to get up and walk out because I couldn’t stand the sounds of chatter all around me and clinking utensils on plates and noise coming from the kitchen. I had to walk out into the parking lot for a few minutes where there were no people and it was quiet. It’s one of the early signs that I’m slipping into psychosis
@@janiegetyourgunthat’s how I noticed I recently slipped back into psychosis. I was in a restaurant too and the noise was deafening. I’m so sorry, but please know you are not alone.
Watching Rob walk away back to normal life outside was so sad, but honest.
@@TechWest200use relativity
Right
I felt like my heart broke for both of them, having been on both sides of that glass 💔
Unfortunately, sometimes, what is saddest, is when the person who has been in these places walks back outside and into normal life. ♡
Sad when I saw she had kids :(
Im really surprised they let you film or have any type of eletronic, the ones thats ive stayed at didnt allow that.
I could remember several years ago when I lost my husband. I was actually attempting a suicide. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here. and mushrooms are one of the most amazing things on this planet i wish people would all realize. they could solve a lot of problems, more than just mental treatments, environmental clean up; the possibilities are endless with fungus.
I have heard alot of good about this mushrooms and psychedelics. Really want to try them for Anxiety. Just very hard to get a reliable source here in Germany. Really need!
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I hate that psilocybin gets grouped with drugs like cocaine and heroin. Mushrooms are a remedy, not a vice! I went on a microdose treatment for a couple of months and within the first week, every sight of a cigarette got me questioning why I was doing all that to myself. It really works.
How do i reach out to him? Is he on Instagram
It always shocks me how different psych wards can be in different places. I was admitted to a psychiatric institution involuntarily and was there for 2 weeks. I had a roommate, we weren't allowed outside of our room from 9pm-7am and weren't allowed back in our room from 7am-7pm. Eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner was mandatory and we all had to be present in the cafeteria, no one was allowed to stay back. We had to attend group sessions to talk about battling mental illness and coping mechanisms. It wasn't very effective. We had a TV in the common area, but they wouldn't turn it on unless it was to watch a movie. I spent all of my free time reading and coloring. We weren't allowed to go outside and only had one window in the whole ward. It literally felt like prison.
This sounds a lot like the hospital I went to, here in upstate NY.
This sounds like the one I went to in tx but I have to add all of our toiletries could not be kept in our room we had to check them in and out
sounds like the one i went to in AZ. though, the hospital had skylights and windows in each room, the nurses were chill and let us go outside when it was storming one time. now that i realize it, i feel very lucky to have gone to one that was a lot more open and free compared to other wards.
Crazy, exactly like the one I went to here in MS. This is a problem all over the country apparently.
This literally sounds exactly like mine, except they would let us out in the blistering heat on a concrete patio to do nothing but sit in the sun. No way to play games, no balls or anything, just the heat and bugs. Absolutely sucked. 11 days felt like a year. It was so traumatic, i don’t even remember much about it. I’ve blocked it out. Felt even more suicidal than before
Sleep is so important for any patient. We've known that forever. Sadly, hospitals in the U.S. haven't figured that out. You are very articulate. Unfortunately, from what I have heard, there is far from enough activities for psychiatric patients. Patients sitting around is typical for psychiatric patients. .
Unfortunately you are correct. Lauren, in a previous video, stated that being distracted by activities or having friends around helps her through psychotic episodes. Things like going for a walk, or engaging in activities that require concentration or focus can help get through these episodes.
In uk it’s NOW slightly changed. The rooms are proper bedrooms ( as much as they can be) STILL like you I had a bad experience yrs ago and stay as far away from psych’s as I can . Bless you . ATIVAN SENT ME LOOPY, can’t remember a yr of my life xx Hope you’re well soon xxxxx ❤
YES YES YES
Except from the first time I was admitted (in Denmark, not Canada - i have no experience with the Canadian healthcare services) i always felt like I was contained rather than treated. I get that it might be more than what some patients can deal with but some of us need more stimulation than just being left to our devices. It made me really lonely and sometimes worse. I really think mental health services need to entertain the thought of using occupational therapists and creativity more in stationery treatment.
@@saramathilde76 Precisely. Here in Scotland you are left to your own devices for the majority of the time. I was only allowed out for 15 minutes a day in a walled courtyard. It was torture for someone that is used to doing at least 10,000 steps a day
Rob makes you smile. Your smile is so beautiful! He's good! Wishing you all the best!😊
Rob is an absolute legend.
I’m astounded they let you bring a camera on the ward but I LOVE you are vlogging this. ❤
This was both hard to watch and incredible to watch. My extreme admiration goes out to you for documenting something so difficult. People casually talk of "mental health" as this amorphous concept. Your bravery in putting yourself out there and attaching a face to a facet of it is extraordinary. There are so many different struggles people go through. It's painful seeing someone having to live like that on a daily basis. I hope you realize just how much of a good you're doing by showing everyone that you can put one foot in front of the other, and that there is no stigma, only a struggle that people have to face down regularly, which takes a lot of strength. Thank you so much for what you show us all.
Couldn’t have said things better myself ❤
Really? That was hard to read since it is full of something else.
I wonder : #1 How did she get permission to film this??
I applaud both Lauren and Rob for the incredible work they do in creating awareness, dispelling myths, and offering such valuable insights as they allow us to walk a bit with them on their journey together. I can only imagine the documentation must feel burdensome at times. Thank you for taking the time, putting in the effort and having willingness to share! I know I am not alone in this. The positive impact of your work cannot be measured. I am so thankful. ❤ You are such beautiful humans
@@junemoonchild69, Maybe she gave herself permission because the positive impact of this video is immeasurable. There was no breach in privacy to anyone. The work she and Rob are doing is fearless, groundbreaking and deserves only praise.
Mental Health is so misunderstood. Know that you aren't alone. I have several family members that struggle with mental health and my heart goes out to all of you. My Dad is a Nurse is in the Psychiatric Ward and truly does his very best to help those that are struggling.
I think the artwork left by the past patient is fantastic!!. I'd pay good money for that. Catch me trying to sneak it out in my luggage lol
I have been hospitalized roughly 30 times. Somewhere between 6-9 months as an inpatient. I hope your road to recovery is not so tough. Blessings.
shit, man
sounds like a hell of a journey. i’m so glad you’re still here with us!! sending you blessings as well. ❤️
Wow may you have strength
@@mialove7445 yeah, a lot of my cpu power is dedicated to self destruction. Even now, more than 20 years after my first suicide attempt, I am struggling to find med cocktails that help and I’m almost there; I just need to tone down the suicidal ideation and depression. ECT is what we’ll try if after 4-6 weeks a new drug for me that I’ve heard a lot about, there is not enough improvement. I do things that are probably unhealthy but one constant in my life last two decades is the presence of medication. May y’all’s journey be graceful.
😊❤
As a schizotypal person, I find this video instructive. I have similar delusions to Lauren, but somewhat differently. Lauren is on the cutting edge of mental health for us neurodivergent folks. I applaud her bravery!
How is this brave?
@@Faithlove-dk6vf I'm grateful you managed to come out on top!
@@Faithlove-dk6vf good for you ❤
@@prapanthebachelorette6803 💓🤍💓
@@Faithlove-dk6vf ❤
this is really interesting to me. in my experience being hospitalized you aren’t allowed any belongings besides your clothes, and visitors come for one hour a day and can only be in the lobby. you even have to request and return the toiletries you brought to the desk in the lobby. this seems like a pretty lax ward, but by no means does it make it easy
you are so brave... I applaud you for opening up and sharing. good luck moving forward and always know you're loved!
I was in the psych ward a few years ago. All I can say is that the patients helped and supported me way more than the drs.
Yes it is absolutely boring, Especially when you're in lock down as you're at risk of self harm.
But sometimes our minds need that quiet and stillness also, even if it feels forced.
I do agree however that we need to improve on mental health treatment 100%.
I think the only actual therapy they do for you is by accident… the staff are so hateful, you’re forced to band together with the other inmates, I mean patients, and build social bonds.
@felixoupopote I'm sorry that this has been your experience with staff. 😔 I was lucky I guess that the staff were friendly and respectful ect but they just seemed indifferent to me.
I just connected with the other patients more because of their life experiences. We were all just trying to put meaning to our individual suffering. Needless to say it was bitter-sweet knowing that I wasn't alone in this. We had eachothers backs.
@@felixoupopotethe therapy they accidentally gave me made me realize how much i missed and loved my family, and how much they loved me too
The quiet still needs to have a purpose though. And like I have ringing in my ears, I need stimulation because that alone can drive me nuts. I would bring way more activities with me if I went in again.
i've worked in inpatient psych for about 3 years n i just want to validate that i 100% can see why you don't want to do the puzzles and coloring sheets in the milieu. it makes sense to me that you'd rather keep to yourself even if its lonely. anywyay, sending lots of love and admiration. thank you for sharing with us.
If you did you would realize that the videos fake because you're not allowed to bring your phone in a psych ward nor especially not a camera
Thank you for sharing your mental health journey with us all. I admire your transparency and positive outlook. Wish you and your family all the best.
I love how you are giving this your all and getting so educated about your condition. You are a brave soldier and it will be a great time when you are feeling better…you have so much support from so many loved ones
My mom was in psych wards multiple times. The last time, I warned the nurses that she was lying and just putting on a face of someone that was “fine” and was there for no reason. I told them to not listen to anything she was saying and the nurses said that they would tell the doctors. She was out and back home two day later.. Exactly ONE week later, she committed suicide!
My mom was always the person that everyone wanted to be around. She was beautiful, kind, intelligent, and the life of the party. NO ONE expected her to do what she did EXCEPT her kids. My brothers and I seen this side of her every day. It was very hard listening to the side that everyone else got because she had been saying for five years that this was what she was going to do😢
Miss you mom❤
Didn’t mean to put *was there for no reason..
She obviously WAS there for a reason! What I was telling them was to NOT just let her out again, because that’s all they did was let her out because she was playing them trying to act like she was fine when she was far from it..😢
Im so sorry for you. Id like to say loads but who knows who is reading this. I pray for u and your mum ❤
That is horrible 😢 i am so sorry
I am so sorry. ♥️
So sry to hear u loss your mom sad
I teach high school psychology to grade 12 students and your clips have been such a revelation because you humanize the whole experience. Prior to seeing your channel, students had a very dry PowerPoint from me with old clips from patients. I was concerned how stereotypical the images in the PPT were, creating a terrible understanding for them. You have REALLY made an impact and I am grateful for you humility and grace. Please recognize that you are making a difference! There are 30 students who will walk away from the course with a different appreciation because of what you are doing.
Are there any other youtube channels you recommend which have similar types of content with other topics/themes? Or just educational content in general for anyone who is curious/trying to learn about different topics?
I cannot overstate how much you're videos/channel help me feel like I'm not alone. Thank you so much for documenting your experience.
It is so amazing that you have Rob to support you!
I totally felt for you when Rob was like “she’s CHOOSING not to do anything.” Sometimes you don’t want to chat or color. There aren’t that many choices. I mean I can understand he might have frustrations too. But I get where you were coming from.
The whole coloring thing. I mean these are adults like what kind of activity is that?
Rob is the typical weirdo that doesn’t normally interact with girls. I don’t know how he got her. He has a big nose and just looks weird.
@@kidsofyesterday17 go on Google and look up studies on art therapy, because I have a feeling youre not going to be believe anyone on youtube
I had same thought..reading? Trying new things? Exercise MORE!? Crochet, yoga, dance, writing, drawing. Yes, it's real and yes, it's harder. You still have choices.
@@kidsofyesterday17 Adult colouring books are a thing yenno lmao!
Colouring can actually be incredibly relaxing and therapeutic for people of all ages
Can I say that seeing how her partner supports her during this challenging time is more comforting than anything else? As a person who is severely mentally ill, seeing that there is still hope in finding a life-long partner that will accept me for who I am is more impactful than anything I could ever find on the internet.
Thank you, Lauren, for sharing your authentic self online. It really helps those who are struggling to feel seen and understood.
Your kidding me. Rob is no good.
Her partner is being supportive because he found an attractive mental patient that is way out of his league. If she didn't have these issues she wouldn't give him the time of day.
@@coolo39919totally agreed! She probably has borderline
@@coolo39919Women take way too much pride in their "problems".
@@coolo39919what a terrible thing to say when you don’t even personally know him. It says a huge thing about his character that he’s willing to visit her and be there for her.
Congratulations on taking the step to get yourself well. I’ll be praying everything works out for you and they can stabilize your medicine to the point you are well enough to leave! ❤
Love you a lot. Thanks for sharing with us. You’re terrific. Hope you’re suffering softens a lot. Positive vibes floating your way.
One good thing is that the Psych ward allows you to be able to make CZcams videos of your experiences, thoughts and feelings, sort of like having a video diary so you can get your thoughts and feelings out instead of all bottled up inside. You have a good supportive husband. I am glad that you recognize that he is important part of your recovery and that you thank him for being there for you even if you just had a fight off camera. Best of luck to you.
People in psych wards aren't allowed cellphones actually she is a joke . & all those pills are chemicals known to kill people !
I’m a bit alarmed by it,I have not watched this vid,it popped up in my suggested vids…how can we trust strangers to to offer good words to this lady?
@@leadbelly1495 This is not about what OTHER people think or feel.. this is about what SHE HERSELF doing the vlog feels! You can start off by WATCHING the video and then see. In that matter, watch not only this video from her but some of the OTHER videos she has documented from her own experiences as a person living with Schizophrenia.
This is actually concerning. Phones are taken for a reason, being able to vlog like this is a double edged sword. Sure, you can vent thoughts and emotions, you could also be in a terrible state and make videos you really shouldn't, and it raises real privacy concerns for other patients. Also, the window used a chain pull, very dangerous for a potentially suicidal or self harming patient, visitors can come in your room privately God knows what could be brought in or could happen with an unstable patient, and the sudden testing as she approaches the one week mark is concerning that reeks of gouging a patient for money in an effort to make them stay longer. She said that she didn't come in for self harm, that is irrelevant. In psychosis, at any time you can shift very quickly, and oh yeah, patients can't be trusted amongst each other that's an undeniable fact even wanting to be as trusting and humane as possible. They should know better than to actually hold religious service as well, even though it is a religious hospital, plenty of people would find that triggering (including myself) and may suddenly become more unstable. A lot about this hospital really bothers me, but at least she's doing well.
These same questions ran through my mind. Video documentation while in a secure psychiatric facility would seem to violate HIPAA laws. Oh well, she said that phones were permitted, and that she wasn't admitted for suicidal ideation or being a risk. It still seems rather unusual?!
I have been admitted 3 times to a phych ward some of the nicest most supportive people i ever met were patients
Bravo strong girl! I am sooo sure you helped someone! The struggle is real for everyone. It manifests differently and keeps us apart. TY. Yay u! We shall overcome
You my friend will be in my prayers! I will be watching all your content!
Hang in there Lauren, I'm thinking of you and sending out intention for your full recovery 💞
Wow, such a nice thing of you! ❤
Thank you for your support!
Never seen this done on CZcams you're a great person💯
@@LivingWellwithSchizophrenia - got tons of other support but you only thank the one who gave you money.
@@LivingWellwithSchizophreniayou are freaking weird
You sound pretty calm and coherent . You seem to be doing pretty well under the circumstances, way better than I do in those conditions. But I'm wishing you get well soon and get back to your life and normalcy.
I've been around schizophrenia my entire life. Family and friends and have been a caregiver. And never, not ever, have I seen someone so stable as her who is claiming she is in a psychosis. And her store that sells merchandise is odd. She's turned this into a cottage industry.
@@jameslatta6813 "Who is claiming she is in psychosis" are you serious? You think the people psychologists, therapists etc., many of whom have been in the profession for decades, wouldn't know when someone is faking? You're an asshole and you should just get out of here. Schizophrenia can differ so immensely between people that the mere idea that it has to look the same in everyone is grotesque.
@@johnblackberry305what the hell is wrong with you
I love your perfect view of the dying trees really makes you feel that warm fuzzy feeling inside
God bless you for your kindness in sharing your experiences with others.
Worked in psych hospital for many years. Never seen cellphones allowed. I hope you feel better soon ❤
1. Even when you are not feeling articulate you are pretty articulate
2. What are the goals before you get out. Do you help to set your own goals?
3. Do you think staying a bit longer will decrease the chances you’ll have to come back
4. Are there groups to attend? Is there therapy?
I stumbled upon your channel quite accidentally, but I find your willingness to share your story & experiences w/ the world incredibly compelling. As a "normie", my only (very limited) understanding of how psych wards and loss of liberty work has come from movies & innacurate cliches.
Coming to grips w/ the loss of liberty must be goddamned terrifying. I cant imagine its easy working on mental health when your very freedom of choice is usurped.
I wish you the very best in your endeavors & goals in life. Thanks again. Subbed, too - youve certainly earned it.
Seeking help is always the answer. Mental health issues should never cause shame. Thank you so much for sharing.
Until you've been in hospital for a length of time, you can't imagine how vital visitors are to healing! ❤️🙏💞
Yea, especialy during the COVID years.........i was in Hospitals for over 4 months straight, only had visitors
maybe five days out of that time. I was in Lock Down COVID Ward for 21 days, lots 40 lbs there. thats a whole
other story. Anyway YEA i get it not having visitors is bad, you end up Having to make freinds with the nurses
and orderlies, and other patients, or you go nuts.
@@cliffords2315 Wow, so glad you've made it out the other side! And I've had with health issues that I've learned to interact with them as fellow members on the same team with the same goal! They try to lighten my load, and I, theirs, as there is only one of me but they could have 20 people there juggling and are only human, too. The one bright spot in going back to physical rehab several years after the last time was how many remembered me fondly, made such a difference, most are neat people in different ways! Keep healing, friend. 🙏
In my case it wasnt very helpful. I was pretty pissed at the person who visited me, because they were the one that got me sent there. They did it out of genuine concern... but even so. Still, they did come every day and in a way I appreciated it.
That really depends on the person. If your family triggers your issues then having them visit is not helpful.
The fact that you have the will and energy to go for a run is amazing.
Get well soon girly ❤ i dont even have schizoprenia but youre mental health strugggle is so relatable. To so many people. We love you!!!
I’ve been in the mental hospital and also love the fact at the start of the video which is already recording and you make it out you just woke up.
I think this video is amazing. Lots of youtubers record hospital stays, and a stay at a mental hospital should be no different! Thank you for normalizing this.
It’s more of a privacy issue. I see that she tried to not get anyone’s faces in the video or identifying info.
I worked in a mental health hospital for a period of time. I’m so glad they let you keep your phone. So many of the patients I worked with felt incredibly isolated without it. Thank you for sharing this extremely vulnerable experience with the world. I have no doubt it will help others.
I work in mental health hospital and some patients is better to not have a phone.One patient called 37 times the emergency number,another called and harrased verbally his ex wife,another one called to some tv live show and acted if he was kidnapped.So yeah the doctors guess can select who is able to have a phone and who is not.
There wasn't even a clock in the one i was in. You had to ask a nurse what time it was. And you could only ask twice a day.
i feel like having access to a recording device while in a mental hospital would be a huge HIPPA Violation, aside from it being bad for patients' mental health...
I'm a guard at a mental hospital, and they can't have phones at all.
The one I was in had a phone in the day room with a clock on it. Guess I was lucky.
You seem so in control and together I didn’t realise you were the patient at first good luck to you and keep talking your meds ❤
Bless you, I hope you find the help you need to navigate something I cant begin to imagine how difficult it must be. Sending strength and hope to you, thanks for sharing.
I went into a psych ward may 2020. What a time to go in but i went in voluntarily and as soon as i walked in, i felt relieved. I felt like someone was actually going to take care of me for a change. Zero group therapy because of the pandemic. Had the beds been more comfortable i would have stayed longer. Luckily i had an incredible nurse who let me listen to mediation videos and read self help books and gave me a journal. It was the start of the rest of my life. I was saved from that moment forward. I sought professional help when i got out and I'm happy to report today I'm free of mental illness. God bless you. Keep the faith.
I've been hospitalized 3 times and I can tell you the weekends are the worst. There's very little to do, I didn't like talking to anyone because they would want to talk about their problems and I had my own problems do deal with and it was overwhelming. Please, do yourself and those around you a favor. Never stop taking your medications no matter how good or bad you feel. I have a friend with schizophrenia and she stops taking her medication and goes absolutely haywire.
I can't stand when people trauma dump I never been in a psychs ward but I have worked with the general public and it wore me down hearing so many sob stories I'm like I'm not your therapist please give me your credit card and get out my face.
Good advice there sis. Good luck to u!
@@aubreywhite8008so caring and understanding you are
@@bxstar5276so caring and understandable are the people who just wont stop trauma dumping on someone who's already so mentally broken down when there are tons of specialists surrounding them and mentally available to talk to them.
@aubreywhite8008 what a heartless thing to say
You are in my thoughts my friend. I am so sorry for the struggles you go through. Take care!
Lauren, I have just discovered your channel and I am soooo grateful for your transperancy and courage. Your forthright means of sharing your experience is almost certainly helping more people than you might even have hoped for, to understand better, what it means to take care of their mental health and "yes" you have done a wonderful job of "humanizing" it... My best wishes for you and your family.
Nothing brave about this
Wow, it’s very different from being held for suicidal ideation or self injury. So completely different from my experiences.
Big FACTS
You're so sweet take care of yourself and I'm happy you have Rob's support.
God bless you hunny. I sincerely hope you are doing well. Thank you for making this!!! Very courageous
I appreciate you putting this out on CZcams for other people to see and experience a little bit how it is for mental health patients. In the state I live in they have changed many many rules from the first time I was ever admitted. However years ago we did not have many privileges that you have this time. However I am glad that you have a little bit more freedom and able to have friends and family come to you and be with you in your room which is a safe place. I wish you all the best, prayers and thoughts to you during your future adventures and family life!
Rob is so wonderful. His love for you runs deep. I hope you find yourself home soon!
He's attracted to her. Don't underestimate that when it comes to men. If she were 60 things wouldn't be l8ke this most likely. I've lived this with physical illness. My husband acted just like Rob until I got older, then he didn't care.
They're a great couple. I'm glad she has a good support team.
@@mygirldarby That is horrible ! I am 56 and my husband still seems to love me.
Was Rob kidding about the puzzles and foozball?
It’s not about Rob!
5:23 the lack of structure in the ward was such a shock to me when I went. I had family bring me library books and an origami kit. I also got stuck there through 2 holidays and those long weekends were brutal. We'd speak up to the staff about those long weekend concerns and they did not care. Amazing though you have a lot of privileges and less supervision (assumingly). especially running for a whole hour outside near some nature!
Bless you and your healing. ❤
I work security in a hospital which has 2 mental health wards totalling 50 beds. It’s quite interesting to see the same story from another’s perspective. It really troubled me when I first started and I was somewhat conflicted by the idea of restraining patients against their will while they were administered drugs. Now after working in the hospital a little longer and seeing the progress that the patients make after being “forced” to stay for treatment it has allowed me to be at ease a little more about the role I as security play in the treatment and recovery of patients. I thank you for sharing your story as it certainly will help many including new patients, struggling patients, family and friends, clinical staff, support staff and the wider community understand the journey you and many others are undertaking.
I wish you all the best in your ongoing treatment.
It just struck me that I am watching these pretty much 20 years to the day since my own experience inside a psych ward. I REALLY appreciate seeing your experiences, even though it all sounds really tough. Thank you for sharing them!
It’s been 15 for me.
You're a good man Rob!
No he is simply doing as he should. He is not a "good" man for supporting his partner. Thzt should be considered a normal man. You wouldnt say Lauren is a good woman if she visited Rob in the hospital.
@@mygirldarby technically you're right, but the point is that men consistently do the exact opposite of what Rob is doing here and usually leave their female partners when she gets sick. it's worth pointing Rob's behavior out precisely because we never see it.
@@mygirldarby yes I would. This is not a good time to troll. Focus on how brave this couple is.
@@mygirldarby honestly he's not even doing the bare basics of what a husband should. He fought with her while she's in a mental facility and is gaslighting her.
@@davidelliot8898 What she said isn't trolling, it's the goddamn truth
I know what it's like and it is a process,stay strong and you will get through it!! I stayed on a forensic psychiatric unit over 11months!! you are beautiful Lauren, don't ever give up
You really do turn the stereotype on its head. You seem so good. Your husband (I think) seems so perfect for you. I know it’s just a short video but goodness, you wear it well. I’m so privileged to see this side of your life and I sincerely thank you. I’m really sorry about your marathon though. Here’s to your future🥂🍾🎁🎂
I am so glad that you are documenting this. You are helping so many people!
I find it difficult to believe anyone being allowed to film themselves in a psychiatric ward...the intent behind this video/filming does not seem right, at all. ♡
I worked at a long term care psych facility. One thing that always bothered me was the lack of activities. I know for us, it was lack of resources and staff. I would bring in adult coloring books so the residents wouldn't have to color mickey mouse 🙄 it's def tough being high functioning in a psych unit. Thank you for being so open and honest ❤ I hope this does encourage others to seek help but also bring light that these facilities need more funding 🙏🏼
Instead of giving them more funding, they are shutting them down! This puts a lot of them on the streets as the homeless or in jail or in nursing homes, which are not qualified to properly care for them. Originally, the closings were to refer patients to outpatient facilities, but then they began closing those as well. Example: Eastern State Hospital in Oklahoma and their Muskogee outpatient clinic......both gone as well as more.
@@jeanbaker2087 oh I know. In Illinois, the facility I worked at was one of only a couple long term care facilities in the state. The state funded a program to get the patients back out into the community and learn the skills to live on their own. Which sounds great in theory, but they were taking people who could NOT live on their own. Many relapsed and had to come back to the facility. Shortly before I left, the state was trying to transition the facility into a short term rehab center. Rumor was they wanted to shut down all long term care facilities..... WHY!?
I had to leave, 1. Due to burn out 2. The facility and laws made it extremely difficult to care for these patients. It's truly horrible
I agree, we need to fight for an increase in resources
Amen! High functioning is the key word here. Don’t treat everyone like they are vegetable brains.
Do not forget that it's tough being low functioning as well. Just because you aren't able to communicate it doesn't mean you're happy to be there.
❤you are very blessed to have people in your life that understand or try to understand your issues. ❤
There was a waterfall near us, such a lovely thin streak of water, like a thread but white and moving. It fell from a great height, but it looked quite low, and it was half a mile away, though it did not seem fifty paces. I loved to listen to it at night, but it was then that I became so restless. Sometimes I went and climbed the mountain and stood there in the midst of the tall pines, all alone in the terrible silence, with our little village in the distance, and the sky so blue, and the sun so bright, and an old ruined castle on the mountain-side, far away. I used to watch the line where earth and sky met, and longed to go and seek there the key of all mysteries, thinking that I might find there a new life, perhaps some great city where life should be grander and richer--and then it struck me that life may be grand enough even in a psychward.
Thank you for doing this, help destigmatize inpatient psychiatric care.
We’re hoping you both stay strong. I know these things can be so difficult.
Thanks for sharing this experience. I had a similar room during my last stay. It's good to not feel alone in feeling the isolation especially on the weekends in the ward.
You are an amazing person thank you for helping everyone else ❤
I have spent a lot of time visiting my mum in psychiatric units since I was 15 years old. It often felt like a scary place for me to go to but it’s so good to see normal people that I can relate to who are in similar positions that my mum was in
Wow, me too.
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Same
My mother was a schizophrenic so I understand what you are talking about. Mentally ill people are very self centered so I know it was difficult for you as a child. I pretty much raised myself and I turned out to be ok and pretty successful. I had zero support from my mom and I spent a lot of time in psych wards too. She passed away and is with the Lord now. It gives me great comfort knowing she is in paradise now and is not suffering anymore.
Just got out of the psychiatric hospital yesterday. It’s crazy to see how much privacy you were able to get. Looks like you have your own room, your phone, a watch and a window with a view. I had none of those things. I mean the place I was at here in Bakersfield CA was the best place to go in town. But man I would have killed to have those things. Especially a watch. There were no clocks in there. I hope you were able to get some good after care. God bless!
She’s Canadian (and in Ontario) as am I. I have been involuntarily admitted multiple times and those accommodations in the video are pretty standard. One of the ones I was in four about five months had an indoor pool, complete gym, hot tub, spa (steam room), bowling alley, squash court, and three billiards. It also had an exceptional garden in which you could walk the paths for about 30-45 minutes. There might have been some other amenities that are coming to mind, I only really used the pool, gym, and hot tub. Oh, it had a cinema in which they’d show movies on the weekend for people that weren’t allowed to leave.
Though, I do not live in Toronto, I live in a very rural area. That means I tend to get sent to… uh… facilities meant for rich people. They have to take so many spaces OHIP/public insurance. I actually have private insurance, so I always opt to upgrade everything anyway (well, my mother requests that). Though it’s usually just going from a two bed room to a single bed room. Sometimes I’ll get a private tv, which I never use as who watches tv anymore.
We had a common room with a TV always on the channel that relentlessly plays 1950's TV shows. I didn't want to watch TV anyway...
Your resilience is an inspiration
I am so grateful for your sharing this. Thank you!
Also, I’m so glad they let you have your phone some, I’ve never ever had that privilege in psych lockdown but it gives ppl insight so I’m glad! Thanx for sharing too. I see myself in you so much it’s crazy…literally 😂 lol gotta make a joke here and there to keep from crying. I know all too well what you are going through. So sry sis
Thank you for filming and sharing your vulnerable experience. I am in school to become a certified occupational therapy assistant and it was so cool to see OT involved in your mental health process because here in the states, especially in my state OT is just not present in mental health facilities.
Thank you for posting these videos! I live with schizotypal and it’s hard for me to normalize myself in the world with mental illness but this video made me feel hopeful of my future seeing how strong you’re navigating yours :) thank you!!!!!!
I hope you get better ❤️🩹
Thank u 4 sharing ur "inside story". I hope u found a medication treatment that works 4 u & u stay on it & continue counseling. I have worked at a mental health institution & also had a friend with schizophrenia; the struggles r real.
Bless u on ur journey of healing.
Rob is such a pure soul. You're extremely lucky to have so much support and love ❤
He's also lucky to have her ❤
Youre joking rob is stupid as hell, making her even more insane.
Rob deserves a C6 Corvette and the open road; nothing but possibilities in front of him.
What? Rob is a creepy ugly guy that found an attractive mental patient to manipulate into being with him. If she is normal she doesn't even give him the time of day.
I went into a psych ward voluntarily and I was not aloud to have anything personal. No phone, no clothes, no watch, or rings. There were paper bags in the rooms and I did have a very annoying roommate. I definitely was not aloud to leave the floor, and visitation was only one hour at a set time 4-5pm everyday and you had to be in a common area no privacy. There was also a phone that you can use but during a certain time period. I had to go to “group”, and if you didn’t join in than it took longer to get discharged, you had to voluntarily be apart of it. They talk about things to cope and to share why your there so you can get through it faster, at least that’s the idea. There were movies, worksheets, crosswords, coloring pages to work on. Books to check out to read. I was only in the hospital for 5 days, but it was difficult. That seems like such a nice hospital that makes it so much easier to be away from family and routines. I have schizoaffective disorder as well. I went in the hospital because figuring out the right medications was not working well at home, I needed to be closer monitored with medications changes and consistently taking them.
Sounds exactly where I went. Green oaks, they're ok but definitely need more activities
That was my experience in 3 different hospitals. It was never intended to be rest place. The insurances company's make sure you know this is limited time to learn how you can live well. Fight on for a better life.
@@juliherron8991 That was the problem though. There were no activities just sitting at a seat all day watching TV. I don't think that prepares you for a healthy life outside or makes your mental illness any better. Sometimes you feel worse when they let you out for that reason.
Where do you live? Very similar to my experience although you were allowed to bring things in and they had laundry. No WAY were they providing us all with clothes lol socks were scarce. And for them to make group voluntary they'd actually have to have anything structured which they didn't lol. They just pushed us out as soon as possible. But I got my medication and diagnosis and I will never go back. I'd just unalive myself I think. It was terrible and I never seem to get treated right in these spaces. It makes me want to angry cry thinking about it. In my town they really cater to drugs though because they did it to us, they know it. Opioids were given out like fkn candy and now our town is trash forever.
i struggle with 3 psych disorders and haven't ever been to the hospital for it.. lately i've been considering more and more if i should check myself in for a visit but i'm terrified i would never be able to leave. it's good to know there's not a lot to do so going into it to bring things to keep myself busy. even with all my psych stuff i am definitely still high functioning. i struggle with chronic migraines so i imagine if i do eventually go in the uncontrolled loud noises/lights is going to be hell
your partner is wonderful and i am so thankful to see someone being supported and loved and visited while in ward. your love wall brought me to tears honestly, knowing that you have a life outside waiting for you i imagine is so empowering and can help drive recovery forward. I hope you're doing well and i'm proud of you for the self-recognition of when to check yourself in because it's very very difficult to recognize when it's needed (until it's too late)