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I really hate having this disorder, along with depression and anxiety. I go from "normal" , to extremely sad, to sad, to normal , to angry, to anxious, to fearful,to hopeless, to suicidal ... all in the same day. Few hours apart. It's hell for me.
I've known my share of people with BPD and ive seen both lower functioning (typically coping via drug addiction), and I've seen higher functioning. And My bff has BPD and is high functioning, shes put in the work, shes done DBT and CBT and she works hard to self regulate, but it also takes someone who is patient and not quick to anger or react when those quick rage episodes or anxiety episodes come on. I can typically tell by how fast shes talks, how loud her voice is or if its text how quick her texts come in, that she's been "triggered" and if someone doesn't know about BPD its very easy to say the wrong invalidating thing and add fuel to the fire. I also know if I give her some time, she will calm, return to baseline, and her rational thinking comes back and we can talk about what happened bc its important to know almost all of these intense feelings in some way shape or form come from a place of pain. And if she can put in the work in therapy and self regulation I can def put in the work to be more understanding and patient. If someone feels like their relationships are all chaos, and you can't keep a job, ur having dark thoughts, feel alone, feel misunderstood, etc PLEASE try dbt or even talk therapy. It takes practice and coping skills to work through it, but i promise if you put in the work, its worth it, and people will invest in you when they see you invest in yourself.
Your hair is different in every single video, I love it! Always looks cute, and seems to display your mood. I think the way BPD's regulate themselves through their appearance is quite critical for us as we use it to express our current feelings etc more so than others. I personally have noticed that I cannot commit to a consistant style, and I like to mix it up and reflect my day to day changes.
yes...exactly what you say here! To us, these reactions feel... 'natural' and I think the way it developed (at least with me) is that the 'model' of other humans that I have developed in my brain, is a little distorted. As in, when somebody makes a certain comment, I associate that with aggression towards me. This comes from the past, where this was quite often the case. So obviously, nobody deserves to deal with aggression right? So how does somebody react when they are being violently attacked... they react with the same magnitude of power. Unfortunately, more often than not, the intention behind it was not so 'evil' at all... that's just my distorted model of humanity and the people around me are like... 'hey what's wrong with you?' etc... really so sad.... but I am happy that you kind of confirm this feeling, that for 'us' it is not strange at all..and that to us it feels like a natural reaction.
Really related with what you said about anger and depression being the hardest emotions to overcome and happiness being more submissive, I guess. PS, loving the hair!
Another great video Michi! To me, mood swings are definitely one of the hardest things to deal with having BPD & can be so exhausting & just draining. So many people do not understand this about us & the intensity we feel with each emotion. Thanks again for sharing another educational Video Michi 😚
I swear your video timing is perfect👌🏼 I have had so many moods today🤔🙄😕😓😭😌😔🤓🤗😂 I feel like you're talking to me personally it's scary. But I love it 💙
This video is honestly so relatable! Oh and your hair is so beautiful I'm shook I love it! This video just boosted my mood (ironically cuz you were talking about mood swings lmao) thank you. I'm really grateful for having the chance to watch your videos, they really help me when I'm at my worst. I can't wait for your next video God knows that my anxiety need Jesus. Love you! Have a good day sweetie ❤️❤️
OMG!!! This is me!!! Ive never heard someone explain what I go through so well...im so relieved that someone else understand! I'm still in the crazy scrambling stage of finding the right help for my BPD. I also have dissociative seizures and they are so stressful! Thank you soo much for posting this video, it helps me not feel so alone.
I love your videos they have been so helpful. I went undiagnosed for 22 years. I'm not 23 and went to therapy for some months until I couldn't pay anymore but it has helped me become so much more aware of myself and my emotions. Effexor has been so helpful as well. We're all in this together it's a struggle but it won't be hard forever. Being aware instead of just plain reacting is making things a lot better. And these videos are helping me be more aware so thank you(:
The first step to work through this is self educating yourself. That’s what I’ve been doing this past couple of weeks. Also just bringing light to it, and accepting it also helps. And telling those who you know about it and hoping they’ll have a understanding and calm approach helps too. To know you’re not alone and that you can be understood, by yourself and by others. Have no shame or fear! You’re, bpd bpd isn’t you!!
Hey Michi, first of all thank you for the video and bring people togheter to talk about it! Mood swings can be such a deal breaker people reacting on me like wtf . And they dont understand the fact i switch from rage to just happy and normal. Wich pushes people away. I wish u and all of you reading this the strenght to reconize the emotion so u can controle it abit or atleast reconize it .. its hard but not undoable. Keep up the great work michi much love.
I love the way you describe it in this video, it's so accurate. Your videos are awesome! Thank you for making videos like this. Oh and your hair is rad, love the colors you do.
Mishi. You're amazing. I just want to thank you for your video's. You're the female version of how I feel everyday. I'm rubbish at explaining my emotions and how it feels in words. Through you I can show people your video's and help them understand how my brain works. :-) much love.
Hi. Thank you for this video. A year back I was diagnosed with BPD. One thing that is gripping me currently is fear of failure/rejection in a job interview. U could even say fear of 'under performance' in the interview that is holding me back from attending any interview. I procastinate a the time. But, I am in a situation in my life where going out there and getting a job for myself is a must due to my financial circumstances. Could you give your inputs? Thank you.
Damm you hit the nail on the head, I have bpd and I have those exact symptoms. Using my coping skills helps some but I'm working on getting my medication restarted. I haven't really heard anyone put it to words like that. Also I love the different hair colors ,they really fit you. Great videos keep on making them.
Another Amazing video hun.its Emma..wow u are seriously explaining how it feels so clearly and with such clarity..this is how it feels. Love u so much girl keep making these videos darling xxx
My freinds call me sweet and sour. I can go from being happy to sad very quickly. My freinds accept its just me. My mrs just turns me off in her head lol. Im lucky to have people around me that understand and support me.
Good video. Try wearing healing crystals. Has really helped me. More and more I am thinking that BPD is high connection to the frequencies which change constantly so we change constantly and crystals help to block this making us more in control without having to try. xx
Also idk if you need an idea for your next video but I've always wondered if my borderline relates to me hating being touched. I absolutely hate when people touch me I need my personal space constantly. When I'm drunk that's different but other than that I hate it.
Same I hate it when people touch me I tolerate hugs from people like mother and my brothers because for whatever reason they seem to experience something from it but touch just uncomfortable to me it and I just distance myself from it if I canI probably do experience summer from hugs but it's just too confusing to fucking actually conclude what it is maybe awkwardness who knows
You should do a video about cutting and bpd. I think alot of people misunderstand why we do it. I know that not everyone does it but it's still prevalent in people with bpd. If you have done one already I apologize in advance. Hair is awesome 👍, but you look good in any color. 😉 Thanks again for another great vid. Much love 'S' 😁
This is funny to me because yesterday I burst out crying at kick ass 2, what a weird film to cry at! My mood swings are terrible and they're always just so intense, I'm terrible at expressing so I really internalise everything which is obviously not great but hopefully I will start DBT soon :)
Thanks for the great video. Can't fault your descriptions. Oh, and I love your blue hair. Reminds me of Halsey. Do you know of her? Apparently she's been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but her lyrics and everything has always struck me as verrry BPD
I know I.keep commenting on your things lol but I've noticed when you talk about it you get worked up and your eyes begin to water like you're gonna cry and you can hear it in your voice. Its only certain parts tho I love your videos thank you for making these. 🖤
Can you please help me. My dr started me on a new med and it has me so depressed I’m border lining on suicide. This is not me. I’ve been stable for 2 years. Idk what to do. Please help.
Sometimes I literally fly! Emotionally I go off the handle. Then I feel bad. Can I ask u something please stupid question? Occasionally I say the F... word :( is swearing a symptom of bpd please
A lot of doctors think they’re just the same thing due to trauma and overlapping symptoms however BPD has been around longer... a lot of people with complex PTSD just have BPD but doctors are reluctant to diagnose it. Some say it’s just a synonym.
are you on meds? i take quetiapine (seroquel) xr for mood swings but i still get mood swings and self harm although my therapist told me that quetiapine will make mood swings and therefore self harm urges go away but they're still very much present ...i can relate to everything you said about rage and depression and mania ...i love your hair and make up
Morticia Addams have you told your therapist? Some meds take time to start working fully and there are different kinds of mood stabilizers so maybe you need a change in meds. I hope everything's sorted out til now, tho
I really hate having this disorder, along with depression and anxiety. I go from "normal" , to extremely sad, to sad, to normal , to angry, to anxious, to fearful,to hopeless, to suicidal ... all in the same day. Few hours apart. It's hell for me.
a video on BPD and paranoia and delusions would be cool! love the hair
Draco Malfoy That would be amazing. I suffer both far too easily.
Why does DBT not deal with Delusions paranoia hallucinations etc..
I've known my share of people with BPD and ive seen both lower functioning (typically coping via drug addiction), and I've seen higher functioning. And My bff has BPD and is high functioning, shes put in the work, shes done DBT and CBT and she works hard to self regulate, but it also takes someone who is patient and not quick to anger or react when those quick rage episodes or anxiety episodes come on. I can typically tell by how fast shes talks, how loud her voice is or if its text how quick her texts come in, that she's been "triggered" and if someone doesn't know about BPD its very easy to say the wrong invalidating thing and add fuel to the fire. I also know if I give her some time, she will calm, return to baseline, and her rational thinking comes back and we can talk about what happened bc its important to know almost all of these intense feelings in some way shape or form come from a place of pain. And if she can put in the work in therapy and self regulation I can def put in the work to be more understanding and patient. If someone feels like their relationships are all chaos, and you can't keep a job, ur having dark thoughts, feel alone, feel misunderstood, etc PLEASE try dbt or even talk therapy. It takes practice and coping skills to work through it, but i promise if you put in the work, its worth it, and people will invest in you when they see you invest in yourself.
Thankyou for being awesome
Your hair is different in every single video, I love it! Always looks cute, and seems to display your mood. I think the way BPD's regulate themselves through their appearance is quite critical for us as we use it to express our current feelings etc more so than others. I personally have noticed that I cannot commit to a consistant style, and I like to mix it up and reflect my day to day changes.
You should talk about quiet borderlines! (:
mandah0395 I’m in between. More quiet though. I tend to pull my feelings inward
yes...exactly what you say here! To us, these reactions feel... 'natural' and I think the way it developed (at least with me) is that the 'model' of other humans that I have developed in my brain, is a little distorted. As in, when somebody makes a certain comment, I associate that with aggression towards me. This comes from the past, where this was quite often the case.
So obviously, nobody deserves to deal with aggression right? So how does somebody react when they are being violently attacked... they react with the same magnitude of power.
Unfortunately, more often than not, the intention behind it was not so 'evil' at all... that's just my distorted model of humanity and the people around me are like... 'hey what's wrong with you?' etc...
really so sad.... but I am happy that you kind of confirm this feeling, that for 'us' it is not strange at all..and that to us it feels like a natural reaction.
Really related with what you said about anger and depression being the hardest emotions to overcome and happiness being more submissive, I guess. PS, loving the hair!
As a person with BPD, I must say that you are very well informed, and did a great job explaining the confusing issue of BPD mood swings.
Another great video Michi! To me, mood swings are definitely one of the hardest things to deal with having BPD & can be so exhausting & just draining. So many people do not understand this about us & the intensity we feel with each emotion. Thanks again for sharing another educational Video Michi 😚
Very articulate! U explained it perfectly!
I swear your video timing is perfect👌🏼 I have had so many moods today🤔🙄😕😓😭😌😔🤓🤗😂
I feel like you're talking to me personally it's scary. But I love it 💙
P.S. you are a beautiful person & blue looks amazing on you 🌊🦋💎💙
SWF allert lol.
This video is honestly so relatable! Oh and your hair is so beautiful I'm shook I love it! This video just boosted my mood (ironically cuz you were talking about mood swings lmao) thank you. I'm really grateful for having the chance to watch your videos, they really help me when I'm at my worst. I can't wait for your next video God knows that my anxiety need Jesus. Love you! Have a good day sweetie ❤️❤️
OMG!!! This is me!!! Ive never heard someone explain what I go through so well...im so relieved that someone else understand! I'm still in the crazy scrambling stage of finding the right help for my BPD. I also have dissociative seizures and they are so stressful! Thank you soo much for posting this video, it helps me not feel so alone.
I love your videos they have been so helpful. I went undiagnosed for 22 years. I'm not 23 and went to therapy for some months until I couldn't pay anymore but it has helped me become so much more aware of myself and my emotions. Effexor has been so helpful as well. We're all in this together it's a struggle but it won't be hard forever. Being aware instead of just plain reacting is making things a lot better. And these videos are helping me be more aware so thank you(:
The first step to work through this is self educating yourself. That’s what I’ve been doing this past couple of weeks. Also just bringing light to it, and accepting it also helps. And telling those who you know about it and hoping they’ll have a understanding and calm approach helps too. To know you’re not alone and that you can be understood, by yourself and by others. Have no shame or fear! You’re, bpd bpd isn’t you!!
Hey Michi, first of all thank you for the video and bring people togheter to talk about it!
Mood swings can be such a deal breaker people reacting on me like wtf . And they dont understand the fact i switch from rage to just happy and normal. Wich pushes people away.
I wish u and all of you reading this the strenght to reconize the emotion so u can controle it abit or atleast reconize it .. its hard but not undoable. Keep up the great work michi much love.
I love the way you describe it in this video, it's so accurate. Your videos are awesome! Thank you for making videos like this. Oh and your hair is rad, love the colors you do.
Mishi. You're amazing. I just want to thank you for your video's. You're the female version of how I feel everyday. I'm rubbish at explaining my emotions and how it feels in words. Through you I can show people your video's and help them understand how my brain works. :-) much love.
Hi. Thank you for this video. A year back I was diagnosed with BPD. One thing that is gripping me currently is fear of failure/rejection in a job interview. U could even say fear of 'under performance' in the interview that is holding me back from attending any interview. I procastinate a the time. But, I am in a situation in my life where going out there and getting a job for myself is a must due to my financial circumstances. Could you give your inputs? Thank you.
Damm you hit the nail on the head, I have bpd and I have those exact symptoms. Using my coping skills helps some but I'm working on getting my medication restarted. I haven't really heard anyone put it to words like that. Also I love the different hair colors ,they really fit you. Great videos keep on making them.
Great share as always, thanks for sharing Michi, sending you lots of love and light and big hugs 💓😊
Another Amazing video hun.its Emma..wow u are seriously explaining how it feels so clearly and with such clarity..this is how it feels. Love u so much girl keep making these videos darling xxx
My freinds call me sweet and sour. I can go from being happy to sad very quickly. My freinds accept its just me. My mrs just turns me off in her head lol. Im lucky to have people around me that understand and support me.
Good video. Try wearing healing crystals. Has really helped me. More and more I am thinking that BPD is high connection to the frequencies which change constantly so we change constantly and crystals help to block this making us more in control without having to try. xx
All of this is so true.
Also idk if you need an idea for your next video but I've always wondered if my borderline relates to me hating being touched. I absolutely hate when people touch me I need my personal space constantly. When I'm drunk that's different but other than that I hate it.
Same I hate it when people touch me I tolerate hugs from people like mother and my brothers because for whatever reason they seem to experience something from it but touch just uncomfortable to me it and I just distance myself from it if I canI probably do experience summer from hugs but it's just too confusing to fucking actually conclude what it is maybe awkwardness who knows
love you so much girl keep strong x
Holey Shyt! You are me! I thought maybe I was BPD but now I know I am. You’re the first person I’ve ever understood.
I'm everything you describe
Me too. Wish I weren't and this weren't true, but it is. Sucks sometimes and frustrating.
love your hair I take mood stabilizers so my moods way better.but they still switch with the meds
ur videos are so nice and comforting to watch and very informative!! ily!!!
Lillian THANK YOU :)
You should do a video about cutting and bpd. I think alot of people misunderstand why we do it. I know that not everyone does it but it's still prevalent in people with bpd. If you have done one already I apologize in advance. Hair is awesome 👍, but you look good in any color. 😉 Thanks again for another great vid. Much love 'S' 😁
Thank you Michi Mavros.
This is funny to me because yesterday I burst out crying at kick ass 2, what a weird film to cry at! My mood swings are terrible and they're always just so intense, I'm terrible at expressing so I really internalise everything which is obviously not great but hopefully I will start DBT soon :)
amazing video! you are like the best tutor
I throughly liked this video
So it's like I'm too much for people who don't have BPD and I end up clashing when Im with someone else with it. Ugh
very good job - that´s just how it looks from the outside - thanks for mentioning dbt
i relate!! but i'm the quiet type
Thank you for the new video! P.S. I love the BLUE! :)
Thanks for the great video. Can't fault your descriptions. Oh, and I love your blue hair. Reminds me of Halsey. Do you know of her? Apparently she's been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, but her lyrics and everything has always struck me as verrry BPD
I know I.keep commenting on your things lol but I've noticed when you talk about it you get worked up and your eyes begin to water like you're gonna cry and you can hear it in your voice. Its only certain parts tho I love your videos thank you for making these. 🖤
I get angry if people don't listen probably.
When I don't sleep for days I fall apart
This sounds like me. Especialywge. I develop close relationships
Can you please help me. My dr started me on a new med and it has me so depressed I’m border lining on suicide. This is not me. I’ve been stable for 2 years. Idk what to do. Please help.
Step brothers good movie👍 so is Pineapple express 😆
Sometimes I literally fly! Emotionally I go off the handle. Then I feel bad.
Can I ask u something please stupid question? Occasionally I say the F... word :( is swearing a symptom of bpd please
Sounds like complex ptsd......
They are often comorbid
A lot of doctors think they’re just the same thing due to trauma and overlapping symptoms however BPD has been around longer... a lot of people with complex PTSD just have BPD but doctors are reluctant to diagnose it. Some say it’s just a synonym.
are you on meds? i take quetiapine (seroquel) xr for mood swings but i still get mood swings and self harm although my therapist told me that quetiapine will make mood swings and therefore self harm urges go away but they're still very much present ...i can relate to everything you said about rage and depression and mania ...i love your hair and make up
Morticia Addams have you told your therapist? Some meds take time to start working fully and there are different kinds of mood stabilizers so maybe you need a change in meds. I hope everything's sorted out til now, tho
I cried when I finished Portal
Pussy
This video is so interesting and you are so beautiful❤️
Are you on any medication? I have bpd and I’ve been out on anti psychotic meds but I don’t want to be on them
You're very beautiful!
Within your channel you've changed your hair like 5 x Haha me too by the way.. that's emotions for ya ;p ... Or borderline..