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''This Is Eternity. And All I promised you.''
19 October 2017. The day I had to let my best friend go. She saved me in so many ways I can’t even explain. I couldn't imagine my life without her. Even though I knew that this day would come I was never prepared for what this felt like. It was the worst thing I’ve ever experienced in my life. But the beautiful memories I shared with her. I could never have missed this. It has made me the person I am today. I am infinitely grateful, for all these irreplaceable, beautiful and unforgettable years with Felicia.
I know she is always with me in my heart.
It has also been 1 year ago that I uploaded my last video on CZcams. Even though times have changed. I still get a lot of support from my videos and your beautiful words. I am so grateful for that. I heard this audio and thought I should make a video on this. So meaningful. Oh and if you are curious how me and the horses are doing. I am active on my instagram Deeem100.
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What will be your Legacy? - Story of Nala
zhlédnutí 4,3KPřed 5 lety
This one is about Nala. Because every horse deserves a bright future. Where do I begin? How difficult this was sometimes. And no matter how often I have thought this isn't possible anymore, I continued because I knew she deserved more. I had a dream and I was going to achieve that together with her. We had to work for this every day. Day in, day out. But I knew that this hard work was rewarded ...
1 Year without you. -19.10.17
zhlédnutí 8KPřed 5 lety
1 Year since I had to let her go. Ive been through hell and back with this horse. She showed me even when you think you can't do it anymore, you can. She showed me what real strength is. She never gave up on me, and I never gived up on her. When I think back at everything what happened to us, she really opened my eyes. She was my mirror. The one I could always count on. This video is about her ...
Till death do us part - Goodbye my love
zhlédnutí 146KPřed 6 lety
Already six months without her. The day I had to let her go. I will never forget what I saw when I turned my head and had to walk away. It breaks my heart everytime. When I look back to these times together, I see how truly lucky I was. Now nothing is the same anymore. But despite everything, how bad it feels, I know you know that I'm strong enough. I know you are still with me. Even though I c...
Rest in peace Felicia. My miracle, given everything
zhlédnutí 86KPřed 6 lety
19.10.2017. Even if you know you had to let her go one day, you can never prepare yourself for how it feels. My worst nightmare had to become reality. After I uploaded my last video, felicia had a colic attack again.The vet returned, given painkillers again, wondering how she would come through the night. This time I had faith in it, this time i thought stay positive, for her. But this time jus...
One more miracle for me, dont be dead
zhlédnutí 20KPřed 6 lety
As you all know Felicia had to endure a lot lately. She has already had many colic attacks through the years. 1 so heavy she needed a surgery, where we do not even sure she would survive. But she did. Everything have completely gotten better, until 1 month ago. She had another colic attack. I really thought that I was going to lose her, again. The vet has done what he could do, but right after,...
Some memories, never fade.
zhlédnutí 13KPřed 7 lety
We cherish every moment together, and that's what this video is about. Life has showed us on a hard way that it can be unexpectedly the last day. It did change me. In the way I see things now.It was really an eye opener for so many reasons. After all, I think we grow more and more every day. Especially our band is getting stronger. Which makes it difficult too because I know there comes a momen...
What is it that Motivates us?
zhlédnutí 8KPřed 7 lety
I already know that I'm going to regret this upload, it's not as I would have liked but I hope you do. This video is a bit more about our 3 haflingers. Let's start with nala, you know her maybe from my other videos for example this one: czcams.com/video/98L_cMlkih0/video.html - Nala has never been easy. she was very difficult to ride. She attacked you if she wanted to. As you can see, it was re...
Nothing Lasts Forever.
zhlédnutí 28KPřed 7 lety
I think the video says it all, it goes well with felicia and I hope with all my heart that it continues that way this winter. It's a bit more difficult for her because of the cold weather and her muscles need to warm up more. We had a couple of weeks ago our first competition since 2 years. I thought it never would be possible again after her surgery but she's such a strong horse. It meant ever...
Once upon a time. 10 Years with Felicia
zhlédnutí 14KPřed 7 lety
Read please. Words can not explain how much this horse has changed me. I've been with her ever since I can remember. I was one of those lucky girls who had some kind of own horse. you may know, I've always had an idealized image of how it should be. A girl with her horse, like in the movies. I had so many people who were my inspiration. And because of that we have had so many miscommunications ...
''When you see the good in someone, you don't give up on them.''
zhlédnutí 22KPřed 8 lety
How I wish that time could freeze so everything could remain like this. A month ago we have been on vacation to the veluwe with the horses and we've made beautiful outdoor rides. Felicia has enjoyed it so much, she was feeling like she was 8 years old again. Makes me so happy to see her like that!! Sometimes I think about how much my life has changed since I met her. All my little child dreams ...
Find the strength to achieve it. Her recovery [2400]
zhlédnutí 4,8KPřed 8 lety
I don't know where i should begin to tell how proud i am. My dear little horse, we've been through a lot together.I can say that you are my strength every day again to continue. You have made me who I am today and I have made you to what you are now. When I was a little girl I really didn't know what I was doing. Things went wrong because I had no patience to learn you something and if it faile...
''Even miracles take a little time.''
zhlédnutí 16KPřed 8 lety
All horses deserve at least once in their lives to be loved by a little girl. This video is very meaningfull to me. As you can see at the beginning time has changed us a lot. We are growing every day more towards each other. I wish I could explain to you how much she means to me but if you know and follow our journey good enough you'll know. In november felicia had to endure a lot. She had to s...
''A Life So Changed.''
zhlédnutí 15KPřed 8 lety
I learned that you really should enjoy every moment together. Life can change in one eye blink and there is nothing you can do about it. I know I've promised you forever but there is no forever.. I know there will come a day when you have to go and I should enjoy the time I can spend with you now because everyday can be your last day. Just know that in my heart you will always be with me no mat...
''You almost died today.'' Everything can change in the blink of an eye.
zhlédnutí 37KPřed 8 lety
Please watch the whole video and read this whole description. I know it's a lot but otherwise you will not understand what we have and still are going through. 11-11-15, A phone call from the owner of felicia. She had colic the whole morning and the vet was already there but he couldnt help her. She had to go to a Veterinary Clinic in Utrecht. It was so upsetting when I found her in the stable,...
I will fear no Evil
zhlédnutí 9KPřed 8 lety
I will fear no Evil
''Thank you for being someone I was always proud to be with.''
zhlédnutí 29KPřed 8 lety
''Thank you for being someone I was always proud to be with.''
''You opened up my heart in a way I didn't even know was possible. ''
zhlédnutí 12KPřed 9 lety
''You opened up my heart in a way I didn't even know was possible. ''
"Love eventually grows if you allow time to play its part." 1700.
zhlédnutí 5KPřed 9 lety
"Love eventually grows if you allow time to play its part." 1700.
The Legacy Of Achievement // Nala
zhlédnutí 9KPřed 9 lety
The Legacy Of Achievement // Nala
''Your need for acceptance can make you invisible in this world.'' [ 1600 ] +
zhlédnutí 6KPřed 9 lety
''Your need for acceptance can make you invisible in this world.'' [ 1600 ]
''Who can say if your love grows, as your heart chose.''
zhlédnutí 5KPřed 9 lety
''Who can say if your love grows, as your heart chose.''
‘’This is what I believe and I am willing to die for it.’’
zhlédnutí 3,9KPřed 9 lety
‘’This is what I believe and I am willing to die for it.’’
''Could you hold your head high when no one knows your name.''
zhlédnutí 6KPřed 9 lety
''Could you hold your head high when no one knows your name.''
''I will never stop choosing you'' // 8 years with felicia.
zhlédnutí 11KPřed 9 lety
''I will never stop choosing you'' // 8 years with felicia.
Never give up on something that seems impossible. // progress of nala.
zhlédnutí 46KPřed 9 lety
Never give up on something that seems impossible. // progress of nala.
And you just feel that the moment will last forever.. [1200]
zhlédnutí 9KPřed 10 lety
And you just feel that the moment will last forever.. [1200]
" they're not here to fight our battles.." [1100]
zhlédnutí 3,4KPřed 10 lety
" they're not here to fight our battles.." [1100]
:: our story [ 7 years with felicia ] ::
zhlédnutí 2,4KPřed 10 lety
:: our story [ 7 years with felicia ] ::
:: you first learned to breath ::
zhlédnutí 3,1KPřed 10 lety
:: you first learned to breath ::

Komentáře

  • @user-ek1oy2rl6v
    @user-ek1oy2rl6v Před 2 měsíci

    I'm so sorry for your loss

  • @ToriShrum
    @ToriShrum Před 2 měsíci

    This made me cry because it reminded me of my horse that passed away 12/26/23

  • @ToriShrum
    @ToriShrum Před 3 měsíci

    The day right after Christmas I had to put my horse Newt down it was the toughest day for me that I ever had to go through, and after hearing this I cried so hard and couldn’t stop because I miss him so much.

  • @kateenaclemens
    @kateenaclemens Před 3 měsíci

    My horse 🐴 died today idk if I can keep living he was my world and know he gone

  • @seanrochon9240
    @seanrochon9240 Před 6 měsíci

    I am going 💕💕 uuuuuuuuuuuu

  • @blessedfire365xgf
    @blessedfire365xgf Před 6 měsíci

    Thank you so much

  • @amy_horse_love
    @amy_horse_love Před 7 měsíci

    What happend

  • @ludwigvan24601
    @ludwigvan24601 Před 8 měsíci

    A real nice Haflinger Soul I once had a Shire Horse who was gone very sad but and thats the point in my arms... I promised and we gone the last way together I love Justus so much.

  • @horse_gamer1212
    @horse_gamer1212 Před 9 měsíci

    I hope you’re doing alright ❤❤ I know how you feel

  • @fernlintner65
    @fernlintner65 Před 11 měsíci

    Thank you, we lost our 9 year old granddaughters horse today from a broken leg…. Thank you

  • @atomatic5378
    @atomatic5378 Před 11 měsíci

    That's so sad trust me I know how you iv lost mine when I was ten and eight

  • @Raceboy354
    @Raceboy354 Před rokem

    I just found this video but I am so sorry I don't have my own horse but I do ride but I have a really strong connection with this horse I ride his name is pinpin and if anything happened to him my whole world would just fall apart

  • @KAbarrelracer17
    @KAbarrelracer17 Před rokem

    How did she pass

  • @momalot10
    @momalot10 Před rokem

  • @kenleighchapman
    @kenleighchapman Před rokem

    I feel just like this when horse past away on Christmas Day 4 years ago

  • @rezwanmahmudpathan5365

    We all have scars,, we all have pain,, we all have suffered ,,,,, but if you have not earned a horses trust you will never understand the true meaning of friendship,,, never,,, If you have ,, there is always a story,,,

  • @NoeMika_09
    @NoeMika_09 Před rokem

    I'm so sorry, my Penny left me too🥺❤

  • @sarahgoldman3455
    @sarahgoldman3455 Před rokem

    I went to horse camp and met this haflinger horse as well her name is willow but after the camp was over the owner of the camp went to a retirement home so I can never see willow again and every time I think of her I cry.i know that I won't be seeing her again for a very long time I dream of her every night I'm in a wild flower meadow and willow is just there with me but I know it's not real I miss her so much.😭

  • @bridgetsmith6341
    @bridgetsmith6341 Před rokem

    When i saw this video my hear dropped..... It made me think of one of the best horses at my barn the barn is called North Country Horses In gansvoort and it made me think of this horse named spicey and i started to sob

  • @emelysantos5198
    @emelysantos5198 Před rokem

    🐴🐎

  • @melindaengstrom9102

    Lost my horse in 2017 and it still breaks me.

  • @horse2074
    @horse2074 Před rokem

    you made me cry because my bff is leaving school

  • @mattfisher8330
    @mattfisher8330 Před rokem

    I am so so so so so so so so so sorry about that ❤💜❤💜❤💜❤💜❤💜❤💜❤💜❤💜❤💜

  • @ursazidar2093
    @ursazidar2093 Před 2 lety

    I lost my 5 years horse Luna today too.. She was sooo wild, so steong and beautiful.. She passed away.. Forever in my heart😭😭❤️❤️ #foreverfree

  • @lifeonthesaddle3031
    @lifeonthesaddle3031 Před 2 lety

    Horses have been with me since I was 5 thus are always there for me my dream is to have and sage horses from slaughter

  • @bellaequestrian5161
    @bellaequestrian5161 Před 2 lety

    I’m so sorry 🕊

  • @paytonmoore909
    @paytonmoore909 Před 2 lety

    My horse looked like this and he died 4 days till my birth day😭😭😭😭🥺🥺

  • @kashmaddieroadto6003
    @kashmaddieroadto6003 Před 2 lety

    A horse is not a pet it is a best friend to bad a best friend does not last forever I am so sorry .

  • @jaysfarm9342
    @jaysfarm9342 Před 2 lety

    I just found this video and I can’t watch it without weeping. I just lost my baby and I feel this pain. The reminders in this video to keep going are so helpful. I wish the best for your baby and I hope she’s flying high. Maybe yours and mine are galloping across the fields together. I like to think they are happier in the sky but it hard to think that because of the emptiness we feel down here on earth. Fly high sweet angels and I wish everyone going through this the best luck❤️❤️❤️

  • @lifeonthesaddle3031
    @lifeonthesaddle3031 Před 2 lety

    I’m crying I miss minty so so so much now 😭😭

  • @simonlarsson5328
    @simonlarsson5328 Před 2 lety

    =)

  • @kirikahi8047
    @kirikahi8047 Před 2 lety

    Aww she,s pretty so sad .I had a 17 year old thoroughbred Mowgli that died three years ago from brain cancer and an broken shoulder

  • @itsurgirlash471
    @itsurgirlash471 Před 2 lety

    ): Sorry for your loss! :(

  • @B0redLik3Always
    @B0redLik3Always Před 2 lety

    Pretty horse sorry for your lost I am super sad I got some news a few hours ago and at my nannys field there was a emergency and she rushed her horse to the vet holly and her horse holly passed away in the back of the horse box I was crying alot and I am super sad my nanny is also super sad I miss u holly wolly your my favorite girl horse forever and ever u are always heart

  • @ronnyxmessieditz
    @ronnyxmessieditz Před 2 lety

    I can understand how hard it is when your best friend is gone its too hard for me too watch my heart would break if my horse would pass away I know how hard it is for you

  • @sudhasudha652
    @sudhasudha652 Před 2 lety

    I don believe,thavudyala vitratha,I'm not willing to b with u,keep her till end poda

  • @breyersnhorses2321
    @breyersnhorses2321 Před 2 lety

    My heart stoped when I noticed it passed away I feel bad

  • @madisonkleen7706
    @madisonkleen7706 Před 2 lety

    i lost my horse to :(

  • @Funkelchen97
    @Funkelchen97 Před 2 lety

    This breaks my heart and makes me cry.. I feel with you. I lost my soul horse a week ago..

  • @dakotajohanson167
    @dakotajohanson167 Před 2 lety

    When I fell off a x race horse I didn’t wanna ride kaz again I was too scared I gave up on myself and my horse kaz and I’m really sorry

  • @lifeonthesaddle3031
    @lifeonthesaddle3031 Před 2 lety

    There was a Horse at a nearby stable I sometimes go to and that was a pony named minty she was my love my heart my soul my home my family my words my breath my everything she was very old and she got retired I love her to pieces the second I looked into her eyes smile is not love me but I love her I just wish I could be with her now I love her so much why did you have to grow up so fast I love you so much and I might seem silly but I’m crying right now and you are my love and I will never forget you phone the moment I looked into your eyes when I went to the stable next time and I heard that she was retired I was crying in my heart my heart was black I couldn’t see properly I felt sick without her now whenever I go to the stable I feel empty hottest without her God bless him and he for ever

  • @paigewyllis1281
    @paigewyllis1281 Před 2 lety

    I knew this horse called Bruce, he hasn't died yet but because of Covid I haven't been able to see him and because i haven't seen him for so long i absolutely miss him . i remember that he always hated people and he always loved his personal space but i don't know how we made a very deep connection when i first set eyes on him and i think that a very deep and strong bond has grown between each other. but everyday i miss my best friend, but i know one day i will be able to see him again but for now i still miss him and it hurts so much when i think of him.

  • @megv.7088
    @megv.7088 Před 2 lety

    i understand this feeling completely. when my horse died my world ended. i’m still trying to figure out how to go on but this video really helped ❤️❤️

  • @lihihieke546
    @lihihieke546 Před 2 lety

    ❤️😢

  • @jessieratcliff3824
    @jessieratcliff3824 Před 2 lety

    She is waiting for you to come up to heaven so you and her will be together ❤ my vet wanted me to put my mare down cause she was a 1 she was a rescue I refused and she is still here cause I wouldn't give up stay strong even after all this time

  • @emotionalequestrian23

    This brought tears to my eyes!

  • @gamer_wolfgirl3875
    @gamer_wolfgirl3875 Před 2 lety

    she was a good horse and she will always be with you 😥🥺

  • @lesliehall5965
    @lesliehall5965 Před 2 lety

    I keep crying at your videos.. I know how much horses mean to you..

  • @chloeequestrian1600
    @chloeequestrian1600 Před 3 lety

    I’m so sorry but you gave him/her a great life and he/she is in a great place now 💗

  • @lihihieke546
    @lihihieke546 Před 3 lety

    ❤️😢