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I was 2 months clean, but I recently r3l@psed, and now I’m only 3 days clean..

personaly ive been strugling with mental health and sh for like 3 years, been in mental hospitals and stuff had suicide atempts and now after everything passed the only thing i have to say is that mental health help is not widely available in my country you cant rlly get help unles its an emergency aka suicide atempt or wait in line for a psychologist/ therapist for months and or talk online with voulunteers from 2pm to 10 pm which is quite stupid since everyone having a mid life crisist after 10pm is screwed and that lack of help lead to my atempts but atleast from every time ive been to a amental hospital i got my diagnosis (dyslexia and skitsoaffective)

Marie you support me so much, so alike me...

The thing is I "only" do cat scratches so I won't get any scars

Can’t wait to be able to experience that!

This footage is so precious. Gut wrenching too </3 you were such a light marie xxxxxx

I just recently started watching your band really like them

Idk if anyone cares but I’m 2 days clean

I’m so sad she’s gone. But also. It makes me feel I can be gone too. It’s possible.

I'm new here may I ask how she passed? ❤❤❤

Rip angel ♥

been thinking about you recently, angel, hope you finally found peace🕊️

I know people say that if you have scars then you should expect to not always get a positive or empathetic reaction if someone sees that you have scars, but honestly even if i had never struggled with SH/didnt have scars, i still wouldnt think to judge someone who did have them if that makes sense. Personally, i struggle with PMDD and when ive been in the midst of an anxiety attack/when ive been crying my eyes out because of how low i feel, in the moment sh felt like my only release, it feels difficult to feel like someone would potentially judge me for something which i never actually "wanted" to do to myself, PMDD is fucking awful

I'm 13 and I don't know what to do

I don't care if this is 3 years old, but I feel like someone should know. I grew up/am(it's not bad anymore) in a neglective household. My mother has suffered through clinical depression most of my life and it takes a lot from her to raise me and my siblings. When my little sister was born her depression got especially bad. She would give my little sister all the attention and care, as you should with a newborn child. But, as this is happening my father is out, uh, cheating on my mother. (We don't find out about that but for the next 5 years). So for that bit of my childhood, I was 5 when my little sister was born, I wasn't really given the attention and care I needed. Because of this, I realized I had to grow up. To fend for myself. For reference, when I was in 1st grade (6 years old) I would wake up, get completely ready for school, and hop on the bus, all before my family would wake up. I don't remember what I'd do after school, but I can say that during the time before my little sister was born I'd like my mom to snuggle with me before bed. At 6, I stopped. I just got ready on my own. Then when I was 7 I had a bit more than my fair share of trauma. This is when my mental health started being crappy. I didn't know at the time, but I was experiencing the classic symptoms of anxiety and PTSD. Here's the sad part. I was 7. A fricking 7-year-end. And I felt like there was something wrong with me. I started self harming. I would scratch myself. Sometimes my mother would even see me doing it sometimes. She did nothing to stop me. I didn't even know it was self harm. All that went through my brain was "when you feel bad, pain feels good". I thought I was so smart for coming up with a coping mechanism. This continues through all the crap I went through up until 4th grade (9 years old). I was finally with friends and a living community. I thought I was happy. I wasn't. I'm a very empathetic person, I was just feeling their happiness. I thought things had gotten better. I stopped. Until 6th grade. F*cking 6th grade. (11 years old). I went through more trauma and crap than a kid should ever had. It got to the point where I didn't want to continue living. But I wasn't self harming. But more recently, 8th grade (13 years old), I've started doing it again. I've attempted for the first times. And things have gotten a lot worse. I wouldnt say the self harm is bad. Most of the time it doesn't draw blood. My problem is I'm a swimmer so I can't really hide it. (I use sharpie and "draw" on my arm). And yeah :)

What if I don’t need help healing them but I just need help with my mental health

There’s so much stuff going on that I cannot find the words to describe. But, my mother refuses to get me a depression and anxiety diagnosis, and I’m left to myself seriously debating if I’m actually unwell. It feels like it but I feel like I’ve been manipulated to think I can just be happy, but I just can’t snap out of this. 15 suicide attempts, most recent one last week, self harm as well. I’m not ok.

r.i.p

Guys u lose all ur freedom if ur forced into therapy/mental health institution. It's not worth it unless ur really suffering and u really can't help urself.

If I stopped with a ravor is really deep bitting worse or better Edit: btw no matter what you say I won't stop I was just wondering this is so stupid

I really need to let this out because it's driving me crazy. I strongly believe I had a psychotic episode from July to October of last year. I received phone calls from people I quietly left back in 2022 to move on in life and I received them at a time where I was already experiencing a lot of stressors. I think the phone calls were the final straw for me because suddenly, I just lost it. I verbally harassed people I knew of, none of who had anything to do with the phone calls, by messaging them with inappropriate and disrespectful messages. I attacked so many past friends, also none of who had anything to do with the phone calls, on social media, publicly, at that. I believed that I was only right and that everyone else was trying to attack me back verbally. I don't know; back then, it was all real to me and I believed everything I did was for the better and right. But, looking back as a rational person, away from that crazy mindset, it embarrasses me and I feel so much guilt and shame. I lost so many friends and people for absolutely no reason, all because of my episode alone. I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder, recurrent, severe with psychotic symptoms, and it's only now making sense to me that what I was experiencing and doing during those four months was indeed, a psychotic episode. I really hate myself for all the things I did and said. I apologized to a lot of them, both through letters and on social media. But, in a way, learning that what had happened was a psychotic episode makes me feel a lot better because now, I know and can say what actually happened. It just saddens and shocks me about what I did because everything I did was too much, doesn't make any sense, was way out of proportion, and was simply, crazy. But, I guess that's why it's called a psychotic episode, right? It's not supposed to make sense what I did because I lost touch with reality and had so many delusions, had so many beliefs I believed were true, but I can now look back on and see how untrue they all were. It feels good to let this out. I hope I made sense and don't seem completely crazy. But, I know what I had was a psychotic episode. I'm healing and doing a lot better. I'm more reserved and quiet now. I feel like a completely new person, which I don't know is a good thing. But, I stopped all of those crazy and concerning habits I did back then, which, also looking back on myself, scares me because I can't believe I actually did all of those things. Okay, that's it

I got yelled at, and threatened to get put in a mental hospital and my granddad said "if your going to cut i'll do it for you" and that sucks.

6:01 so heartbreaking now😭😭😭😭

Miss you sm

i miss you❤

I only just recently found your content and it's really helped, but to find out you're gone... I haven't cried this hard in a while. I'd forgotten how much a death can hurt someone. Thank you for everything you've done, I hope you are finally at peace

I self-harm so much everyday xx

I’m 2 days clean after a 29 day streak. ❤❤

Back on February I admitted myself to hospital for self harm. And I'm 38 and am doing much better.

i miss you

Rest in peace Marie I love you so much I always think about you

OMG THE TV TALKING THING HAPPENED TO ME TOOO. It was Steve Carell in a show I was watching talking to me asking me if I would save the people?? lol it was literally so wild. Then I'm like was that real does he know me?

If only you could read the comments Marie. I know you knew how loved you were and I’m sorry the world made you feel so bad. You’re in my thoughts everyday❤ I can safely say without you the world is a less comforting place

Yeah...so..my ex best friend is bullying me...I'm 13 years old...and...already struggling with depression and self harming...if...yall wanna know the story...please comment...and i'll tell you...cus I realy don't wanna annoy you all...😮‍💨

11:54 we miss you marie, more then you'll ever know

311 days clean

wow 6:03 and 10:32 really scary now

I miss you 😢

wow, 30:29 to 30:36 so scary!!!

I showed my gp my self-harm xx

2:48 to 2:59 so scary!!!!

I’m not sure how I found this video but I read the terrible news about Marie in the comments below. I’m 49 and have been struggling a lot with depression for a long time. I haven’t been myself since December and was in hospital for 3 weeks on feb on a psychiatric ward. Mental health problems are horrific. Im desperate to find some peace of mind in my life

I just "relapsed" (2 days ago).

You may be an angel now but you're still making a difference ❤ I'm so grateful these videos are still up!

That woman dcreaming was awful and upsetting

You helped me so much... Miss you Marie

Is so sad she’s gone. Wish I knew what happened

It’s been a couple days for me

I recently went to the hospital for self harm, and it’s was a couple weeks ago it’s weird this popped up on my fyp

She is definitely proud of you all, sending love. Thinking of you ❤