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- čas přidán 21. 07. 2021
- so here are my current thoughts. please leave constructive criticism, I really just need to face it. im so sorry for being so inconsistant and reliable, like I feel so embarrassed about everything. im really scared about my feelings towards my channel. I used to feel so connected and now I don't feel that. I just want you guys back and I want to stop trying to dodge all the obstacles... basically this is the crossroads.
I wish and want to try and start different things, do you want that?
Y'ALL. please please hear Marie when she says she's doing well; the best she's ever been??? there is so much going on in general, who wouldn't get a little scattered sometimes?? not being on perfect form doesn't automatically mean she's ill or she's lying. as her best friend, I can ASSURE YOU she is doing so fucking good. I'm so fucking proud of her... all she wants is some feedback on her videos here. she's not hiding anything. no mania/hypomania/etc... just trying to get back on her feet and find that connection with her channel again. things may seem a bit scattered in the video to you but ya girl is low key thriving ngl. i love u
where did i find u 😭 love love love you
i was honestly scared to watch this video because of the title. i can't tell you how much of a relief it was to hear you say how well you are doing. i completely understand what you mean when you say you're scared to upload, it can be scary when starting to switch the content you're posting but honestly marie, we are all on this channel because we love you. we are here because we want to know how you are doing and what's going on with your life whether that be around your mental health or just every aspect of your life. i love your mental health videos but i also know that any other videos you post i will click on them just as fast. honestly i think you just need to do what you think is best for you and what will make you happy. this is your life and your channel. we love you and will support you with whatever decision you make
only seen the first 10 seconds of this so far, i really hope you’re ok marie💖 sending loads of love your way, you make the world a better place
Thankyou so much for this video. I’ve never watched a video I relate to more- I’m in the same stage of my recovery as you and it IS scary and strange- I completely understand. Post what makes you the happiest, your true followers will support you no matter what
This makes me so sad genuinely. I'm not in any way at all saying this to make anyone feel guilty at all, but I've been through a lot of mental health shit and it's painful when you have a gut feeling that someone's mental health is deteriorating. I don't know exactly what's happened and I feel like it's not my place to ask what happened or anything like that. I hope you feel like you can always talk to people if you feel low. Which is kind of ironic coming from me because I really dislike opening up to people, sometimes I like talking about my emotions and other times I find it really awkward and uncomfortable to talk about my feelings. Please try not to be too hard on yourself mate🥺❤️
Just look out for yourself Marie you said you were ok but you seem all over the place. you don't owe us consistency or reliablility, take a break from CZcams, post whenever you want. Literally we are just random people that enjoy watching videos when you post them. There is NO PRESSURE from us at all just live your life have fun and post a video if you feel like it. Why do you want to be consistent? We aren't demanding that off you at all. Love you girl.
Marie if you’re not happy with what you’re doing or producing, then change it for you! It sounds like you feel like you need to hear it from someone else, though? I’m not sure what to recommend but I hope you figure out what you want for the channel and know that you’ll be supported no matter what 💕✨
I honestly wish I could say “I’m doing the best that I’ve ever done - I feel the best that I’ve ever been”. But your recovery has been so inspiring to watch Marie! Genuinely gives me so much hope that I can get past the self harm and mental illness💓💓
I really am sending you sm love
You give me so much hope. I’m in a lot of pain right now. You genuinely have helped me a lot. I will be ok.
I am only a few minutes in but honestly you saying you feel recovered from self harm and you aren't drinking a bottle of wine every night really hit home. I still go through bad patches with self harm and I still drink a bottle of wine most nights but you have given me so much hope that things can get better. You do seem visibly better and I am just super happy for you while aspiring to be where you are in recovery, what an achievement
take your time, i can say don't be embarrassed all i want but that won't change your mindset, it's all within you and you've overcome so fucking much so deep down i know you know you can overcome this too. grab life by the balls and run with it girl, you're doing amazing. have all the fun you want, do what the hell you want to do and LOVE WHAT YOU DO!! we'll always be here and no matter what we'll always support you because you've created such a wonderful loving community and i am so proud of you and thankful for you xxxx
You remind me of me and I was always worried about how I act and that I was all alone in my thoughts and actions and mind. It feels good to be around someone who makes funny noises and jumps around all the time in thoughts and jokes. It all goes fast and sometimes it doesn't make sense but I'm trying to be okay with being goofy and odd because I dont think it hurts anyone, although I do feel lonely. But ppl like you who are even a lil younger than me doing something as simple a video as this feels nice to turn on, even as background noise like a friend, sooooooo it doesn't matter what you do!!!! I like u as a person so whatever it is I'm along for the ride
Seeing you so happy about your mum being proud of you made me so jolly. She's defo right to be proud of you, you're doing amazing!
i haven’t watched u in SO long, i used to watch u all the time at my lowest cause u made my days so much brighter even when yours was dim. i think you’ll always be my favourite person honestly even if i don’t know you personally, i love you angel and i hope you’re doing okay
im so grateful for your support and love - you have such and beautiful heart 💛
Honestly, I am here for anything and I would love to see new things on your channel. Don't feel pressured or embarrassed, do what you like and if it doesn't work out it simply doesn't work out. I am genuinely so happy to see you doing better 💖💖
Healing is a hard journey, and the fact that you have been able to shake some of these unhealthy coping mechanisms is incredible. The vids I enjoy the most are those that come strongly from you, where you share your experinces and opinions, those are the best. I am not that much of a fan of Q&A vids if there are too many. Vlogs and videos with stories are the modt interesting to me, I do enjoy your GRWM vids as well!
only 10 minutes in but just wanted to say i relate highly to the fact you most probably lost out on a lot of life in your younger years and the fun that comes along with those years due to poor mental helath. It is a privilege denied to many to be able to fully experience teenage years "normally".
You have helped so many people with your CZcams channel including myself and although it would be a shame to lose you on this platform, it's not your responsibility at the end of the day, you HAVE to help yourself as well as you have helped others. If that means taking a step back for your own good, could be months could be years, then so be it. Live life, experience what you missed out on, piss about like teenagers do. We have to take back the years we lost. While others were out partying, getting up to no good, sleepovers, events, we were surrounded by debilitating darkness depriving us of a normal social life.
I could be wrong is saying all this, you know yourself better than i do in that case just do whatever it takes to be happy.
This really resonates with me too. We have to create happy memories to replace the bad.
if you want to try new things, we're all here for you. you have created such a supportive community here that no matter what content you decide to put out, we'll all be here for it. if you're happy with the content you're making, that makes it even better for us. i only found your channel at the start of this year and it's honestly helped me so much. thank you everything you've done, i know it will have helped so many others too. hope you're doing ok
Ok so here are some random thoughts...
1. I feel like you're quite a go with the flow kinda person, and are quite creative. I can imagine you doing quirky (very fun to edit!) videos that cross a variety of topics. Like short 10 min videos on any topic that makes you really think, or laugh, or feel uplifted
2. You're great with pop-culture references haha - why not do a video inspired by memes?
3. Don't be afraid of the dark humour that comes with those of us who are experienced in the field of MH haha
4. I was sad when I didn't get to see your content about astrology and law of attraction etc.
5. You can be flexible and still have structure
6. I feel like you could do some tik-tok-like skits of classic MH situations with services etc (only if you wanted to)
7. When you're struggling for motivation, try to find a theme that you're drawn to and delve into that in a video. A video about boredom, memory, sunshine, Albie, distance from loved ones, a tv show.... You're such a reflective thinker just hearing your deep thoughts on simple topics, coupled with funky editing is a really worthwhile watch imo!
8. You could do a load of personality tests, like a getting to know yourself series? (i am currently obsessed with the myers briggs on, INFJ till i die)
9. What about a funny video about adulting? or the reality of living with your family at 23?
10. What about an 'out of your comfort zone/challenge yourself' series? The Uncomfortable Zone haha
11. You don't have to get across a massive, meaningful message with every video. As a 'MH youtuber' (idk ygm) i imagine there's pressure to 'help people' directly with everything you post...time to throw that expectation away. 'Helping people' comes in many forms. Not just direct advice, but also in the form of a distraction with a completely different topic, being a familiar, comforting face, hearing you talk about your own life can be relatable, making people think about topics they might not otherwise have thought about
12. Summary: trust yourself. you've got this. whether there's motivation or not, your brain will go somewhere. try to push past the barriers and follow it. even if you make a video about why bananas are life (although i wld have to disagree lol) knowing you you could take that video in a super creative direction. go all out on the funky edit. get creative. I believe in you!
Marie, we will all be here for if you want to take your channel in different directions! We’re so proud of you and I’m so happy that you feel stable and in a really good place, and like you said this is a new chapter which is scary but it’s only scary because it’s new!! The only constructive criticism I would have (only cause I know you really want to hear it 😅) is that to not put as much pressure on yourself about doing certain things cause I’m really like you in the sense that if I put so much pressure on myself I get too scared and just quit completely lmaooo
You got this my girl! ❤️❤️❤️
EVE I LOVE YOU - no but seriously thankyou for this comment and I agree with youuuu - big hugs 💛
Hi Marie, I have so much love and respect for you for all the times your video's have helped my mental health in some way. I really hope you're ok like you say you are. I think you're doing amazing on youtube! I'm too scared to even try it myself. I wish nothing but good things for you. You're a inspiration to so many people. CZcams can take many years so try not to put pressure on yourself. Take care
The title is scaring me, I hope you’re okay🥺❤️
I’d love vlogs or literally ANYTHING you post please don’t stress
I have loved watching your content for a couple of years, but to be honest you have seemed a bit burned out in your videos lately. I am still watching because i like your character, but if you want honesty, the structure and quality of your videos have been lacking recently. It just kind of seems like you don't have enough motivation and ideas. Maybe it's just a part of your recovery that you are growing out of youtube, and that could be a good thing. Or maybe you need a new concept for your channel. But just remember that you don't owe us anything! You really don't. Love uu
I do love your videos so much you help so many
I came from your patron and I was subscribed to it from the start and it's totally okay that you've made the decision to stop it. At the end of the day, if its not making you happy anymore then that change needs to be made so you can do something that can make you happy. I was so damn lucky to be apart of that journey with you and even though you've stopped patron I'm still going to be supporting you all the way and on CZcams. I could never give you any negativity or hate because I have no reason too. In terms of content, film whatever videos your happy about filming and feel comfortable about filming, I'll watch any content you put out anyway :) If you want to change up your channel then do it, it's your channel and you can do whatever you want with it but please don't put too much pressure on yourself. If you can't get a video out don't worry, we will totally understand x I'm sending lots of love to you, and I'm so glad your doing okay, when you said "I'm doing the best I've ever been" omg that put the biggest smile on my face 💗 I'm so proud of you for everything and your doing so incredibly well xx keep up the good work marie 👏
hope, speechless. I love you so much, the support you have given me is always sosolssoso special to me. thannkyou - big hugs 💛
Marie just keep being you. We will always continue to evolve. I personally really enjoy your informal format. To me , it's charming, it's real,. Its relatable and I enjoy your self effacing, clownish humour I think you would have made a good court jester in medieval times. but the serious stuff you say is what I enjoy the most as I love deep and meaningful convos about feelings and emotions and not many people in my life enjoy talking about feelings so I enjoy that. I suspect your openness is what attracted me to your channel in the first place. So glad you are still here xo
i know you said you won’t reply and that’s okay if your reading this i want to let you know that i’m so proud of you and i’m so lucky to watch you, whatever your going through you can do it we love you thank you for the happiness you bring to me
Ok, first! I love u so much for a person I’ve never even met, I found you when you uploaded your ”a message for my future self” video. And you talked about a lot of things I will always go back to and one thing that stuck with me is ”for the first time in months I feel like Marie again.”. Do you feel like Marie and what can you do to enchance that experience? You said something told you, you need to spread the message. About purpose and becoming a psychologist and all that. I’m not saying uni is your path but... what is your soul wanting you to do? And also, it’s ok to grieve what’s been. Maybe it was all supposed to be yet, it’s sad and very serious that you felt this need to drink a lot too. I feel like your focus on what’s really important has been scattered, and that your viewers felt that, but most importantly you will attract what you truly want when you have the courage to step into your power and heal (not at all pointing at you being manic atm btw). What you describe are forms of pretty severe escapism behaviours, maybe what caused you to feel the need to escape is a wound deeper than you thought. It doesn’t feel like you’ve been true to yourself. And also look realistically on 1. Why you’re doing so well and 2. Why you can learn a lot still. It’s time to truly focus now that you’ve escaped the more external loops of escapism. And honestly putting out soulful and focused content at random times is so much better than putting out videos because it’s ’that day of the week’. Maybe such uploading schedule isn’t realistic atm. Love u.
the good thing about youtube is that everything can be at YOUR pace, faster or slower. the people who want to see you thrive and do well are going to stick around, and believe me there are SO many of us! sometimes it takes a bit of inconsistency to start off something good and enjoyable and i really feel as though this could be the beginning of something really amazing if you stick it out and create what you like. i watch your videos because it’s like i’m having a conversation with a mate, not many people on youtube have that about them. change up your content a lil bit, experiment with different things and everybody will still be here i can guarantee ❤️ sendin love to you xxx
You are a little st ✨ar thank you so much for all your support, your constant support. I see you and honestly I know you’re going to go places. Sending big hugs💛💛💛
Take a breath dear! I have felt the pressure you’ve put in yourself. And CZcams pressure on top of continuing recovery AND a pandemic - geez love.
I think it’s great to take a step back with the pressure. No patreon - great.
I just feel you were still creating inner pressure for yourself while talking in this video.
So take a breath. Live your life. Upload when it feels good. No explanations needed. Your channel. Your life.
And your life is more important than a CZcams “schedule” or whatever.
Have fun, experiment, be you - and keep working on the inner pressure. It can take a lifetime to even recognise - so you’ve recognised it, take a breath, and one day at a time.
Its your channel beautiful, do whatever you like, because doing things you enjoy will make you keep more consistent. Fuck the haters honestly, I will watch anything you upload!
Enjoy and make the most of feeling in a good place. Maybe do random vlogs or chatty grwm whenever you're in the mood but don't force yourself to stick to an upload schedule, just let things flow naturally and unforced x
Would you be able to post content with regards to the wine drinking, how you stopped and if MH services helped or held it against you? :) x
Ive been watching you for a long while now Marie and its clear that you have come such a long way which is incredible and you should be so proud of yourself. Although I’m just concerned with how erratic you have been coming across in your recent videos, especially this one, you’re switching from a really happy mood where you aren’t coherent to an anxious state then to crying. Just like myself there will be other people here too who are keeping an eye out for you and your wellbeing. This is no hate and I don’t mean to cause any offence!! I care for you Marie just like a lot of us here do so please look after yourself.
Just slow down, it’s okay, everyone who’s opinion matters wants the best for you and you should always do what’s best for you and what feels right, try to put upload schedule and views to the back of your mind and do however much and whatever content you enjoy, even if that means taking a step back, we only want the best for you 💓
Marie I LOVE your earrings in this video! Please could you share where you got them from? X
Literally couldn’t give a shit with what you post aslong as it’s makes u happy and you have fun doing it!! That’s the best content to watch. We love you for you, why would u wanna fit in? I no it could help with speeding up the CZcams process but that means becoming the same as everyone and we’re not like that round here haha. Your an incredible human being can’t wait to watch you in the next chapter n see you grow xx
i love your content and was a part of your patreon however did unsubscribe from it only because there wasn’t a lot of content on it and i felt i was getting the same from your youtube and your patreon. i still loved the content tho (on here and patreon) and just do what makes you happy 🥰
Sending love Marie I hope ur okay
Hey Marie, excited to see the new video!
First of all I just want to say that you are the only CZcamsr I religiously watch, and it’s because of your openness and honesty. I agree with the pinned comment in that I think you have, understandably, boxed yourself into the mental health youtuber videos. Of course mental illness is always a part of us, but it’s just one. I don’t do CZcams but I’m stable with my bipolar and I notice it’s something I don’t think about on a daily or totally regular basis now that it doesn’t consume me, and that’s okay, that’s great. So I absolutely think you don’t need to feel pressure to talk about mental health in videos unless that’s what YOU want to do. We all love you for you, not you and your mental illness, if that makes sense. I watch all of your videos, whether they be mh related or not. :)
The subscribers are here bcuz they are interested about YOU. You cannot please everyone, and the only thing I've seen successful youtubers always say, is that they take constructive critisism, BUT they'll always do what THEY want to do. It's your content. Try new things, get out of your comfort zone, there is nothing wrong w changing things up when they need to be changed and improved. You'll get to 100k easily, when you'll stop worrying and just do. Worrying and self-doubt only slows you down with art, taking risks is where you learn and find motivation. I love u girl 🌸
Hey Marie, glad you're doing good! You asked us for our opinion, so here it goes mine. I think you have made it passed the storm, and now it's all calm seas and nice breeze. But you spent so much time focusing on surviving, you don't know what to do or where to go now that it is ok. That's totally normal, is how life happens for pretty much everyone, but you have made a commitment here on youtube before you had figured out your life. So now you're lost, and it shows on your videos. It's not bad, it's part of life, but I think it would be best if you looked at youtube as just a part of your life, or as a hobby, and found other stuff you're interested in, another job or something like that. You don't have to stop it here completely, but I think you're not ready to focus it all here before figuring out long term goals in your life (besides, if you go back to thinking of youtube as a hobby it will take a lot of the pressure off of you). Of course you'll lack ideas if you don't have something besides youtube to talk about or new experiences. You already shared a lot of your experiences with us, but now you're in a new fase, and you gotta go create new ones, live your life in whatever wounderful way you know you can, discover and work on new things. It is time for new challenges! With a healthy mind you'll be able to do soooo much more! Of course it will be difficult, but everything that is worth it and rewarding in life is challenging. And it will be so fulfilling to find your new path. Then come back here and tell us all about it!!! I'll love to hear it.
I think it’s easier to say duck off and know the people you love know you’re joking but they know that’s your way of saying bye and I find it helpful personally :)
Hey girl,
Not gonna lie, this vid was all over the place but I think that’s just a reflection of all the things circling in your head re Patreon/yt.
I am similar to you so if I was in your position, then I would just focus on the fun things. Post vids with friends and Dylan where you do QnAs, hauls together, challenges maybe or even just open conversations on MH. Involve others, make it fun but make sure you take time for yourself. Hope that makes sense!
You got this girl, don’t worry about us, do what makes you happy and post things that you look at and think, wow I’m proud of that and no one else can tell me otherwise. xx
Love you Marie!!!!!!
You're doing better than me on youtube! You've worked so hard and there are people out there who watch your videos and love them. However, whatever steps you take with youtube we will all support you and love you. Just take care of yourself and live you best F'cking life.
I would happily watch you stare at a blank wall honestly, just seeing you makes me happy.
I'm sending all my love marie, please put yourself first🤍
Emily🥺 thankyou so much x
Oh Marie. 🥺 I just wanna give you a big hug. I completely get how you feel. It’s hard when you are in recovery, you don’t have the same things to fall back on and it feels uncertain. You wonder if you can actually live a ‘normal’ life. I completely understand that you don’t know which way to take your Channel. But please please don’t feel embarrassed or guilty or pressured into doing anything! I’ve been watching you for 3 years and honestly you have done so much for people, you need to think about what it is you ACTUALLY want and need. And forget about us. Those of us subscribers that care for you just want you to be okay enjoying yourself so do what makes you happy. We will support whatever you choose to do, even if that means taking a break from CZcams for a while.
Sending you loads of love and know that I absolutely understand how you feel. Try not to be so hard and critical of yourself. Show yourself some compassion Marie ❤️❤️❤️
wow Sarah I am so grateful for this message I don’t know why but this messages hit me hard and in all the right places I try and be a people pleaser and I don’t think it works all the time. I’m just so scared about the rejection I think which is fine however I need to overcome that but honestly thank you so much for your support, three years!?? Thank you so much 💛💛
This video has left me feeling quite sad and emotional for some reason lol. You seem so content but scared at the same time and even tho I’m not recovered I relate to the unknown beyond the mental health issues you’ve struggled with for years, I’m scared to recover because I genuinely don’t know what my life will look like. I have no idea of who I am without these illnesses and issues in my life at this point. In terms of constructive criticism the only little bit I have is that I’d just love to see you follow through on the ideas you have more often! I don’t mean filming at the detriment of your mental health or general health but sometimes when you say you will film a video but we don’t ever see it, it can be a little bit disappointing because I was excited to see the video! I hope that doesn’t come across as rude at all, I’m not very confident in giving my opinions bc I hate rocking the boat lol. Sending lots of love to you Marie 💕
thankyou so much foe telling me this, its noted. im totally agree with you, im just so scared lol, but thankyou for taking the time to comment means so much to me Alexsian. sending big hugs xx
@@marieroseeee thank you! Thanks for being so nice and just being you! I felt super anxious after posting this comment because I was really scared of upsetting or offending you with what I was saying. You’re honestly so lovely and you’ve helped me so much, I just wanted to let you know that I’m always grateful for your content, whatever it may be and I’d always love to see more of it if you feel able to! Just don’t wear yourself down lovely, if you need a break please take one, I don’t want you to start resenting CZcams rather than having a passion for it! I really hope I haven’t offended you with what I said 💛
Just an idea for maybe a video in the future , but how about a video on managing emotions / emotional regulation stratergies for bpd sufferers. Like you could include hobbies you do etc. Xx
noted! thankyou xx
Sometime ago you started a series on the law of attraction, maybe that's a subject to get back into? I'd love to see more as I'm learning about it too :)
Possibly! and I hope everything goes well for you xxx
If you're not happy with what you're producing then that's fine, you just gotta work out what you wanna do! Its probably easier for me to say that because I've never uploaded a video on CZcams or anything like you do. But you shouldn't feel pressured to upload a video regularly, you should upload when you want to. We would understand. But its not like you dissappear of the face of the earth for a month. You're on insta (and twitter?) and you usually give mini updates and stuff which is nice! Again easier said then done and I'm a bugger for it too but, you need to be less harsh on yourself. You need to focus on you, we'll be okay if we don't have a video from you for a while until you figure things out. Maybe that's what you need? Time? Time to just think about what you could do for future videos etc. Just take a break from it, it might take the pressure off.
I'm so happy you're doing well Marie, you're doing amazing. We're all so proud of you ❤
MARIE!! I literally love and watch anything that you post lol. I know you haven’t been as consistent lately, but you’ve been out living life so don’t be so hard on yourself for that. Going forward I’m excited to see what kind of ideas you have or what content you come up with, even if it’s just vlogs and hauls - I’m here for it. Do what makes you happy and the universe will follow x
I could cry at this comment, thankyou for recognising my irl.. it can be very hard to balance :( but im soo grateful that you support me, big hugs 💛
As long as you start trying and pushing through the discomfort I think you'll be just fine, Marie. Lots of us are here for whatever you want to do. Happy you're doing well.
glad you are doing okay beauttttt x
Sending love 💚
See I was watching her old videos to her videos now,I don’t know if I believe her when she said she’s good,she’s all over the place,she struggles to speak,she always sounds choked up. Like how is no one else seeing this? She seems like she’s trying to hide that she’s not good
Marie. This is your CZcams channel. It is under your name and is associated with you. Therefore the focus is on you. What works for you is what you do, not for anybody else. Us as a community will respect your decision on what you post whether it stays the same or changes to suit you. At the end of the day you make yourself your number one priority. If there is anything us as viewers and a community can do to ease any pressure of uploading and feeling a particular way about CZcams then reach out to us
I hope your ok I'm fifty fifty on that sometimes we don't know ourselves
Fuck Marie I'm honestly so proud of you for talking about food, even hearing you fully say you had an eating disorder, god I'm really proud of you I know how hard that it
But don’t be hard on yourself … inconsistancy is a major symptom of MH. Putting too much pressure on yourself to change something you think you are “failing” at! Is just too much and can send you into the black thoughts. Please stay loose and work on whatever you want that will make you feel better, without any pressure and more guilt! GUILT is the biggest issue I have with my problems. Especially around my husband and son. I am trying so hard to do the things I used to do …. But … there is a big brick wall there between me and something stupid like …. Making dinner!! Which I really enjoyed doing! It drives me crazy. Anyway, do what’s best for you and don’t pile anything else on that is going to work against the FUN 🤩 you deserve it xxxxxxx
Marie u do you and don’t worry about us❤️ if people don’t like it they can F off or stay
hahahaha I love you x
Oi, I think people are here for you, like not shitting on what you’ve done before and the effort you’ve put in. Your past success is still banging but I think you experimenting and having fun isn’t going to be a bad thing at all. Like you doing what you want and just putting it up is kinda like an expression/ journaling/ doing art so if you find something along the way you can stick with and that makes you feel good, amazing but just I joy the moment kind of thing!
Enjoy 💁🏻♀️
Create what makes you happy lovely that's most important! 👏🙌💖
So true!💛
My constructive criticism is you act yourself on camera and I love that but then you say something and then worry about what everyone is thinking etc so that gets in the way like you worrying about everyone else and really you should just be yourself and be like unapologetic because the way you like there’s nothing wrong with you and you don’t do anything that warrants an apology if you get what I mean I think you have such a lovely bubbly personality and you’re not boring you’re really interesting and you should trust that :) also you’re not still trying on CZcams you’re succeeding you’ve been on CZcams for 8 years consistently and your main goal was to like document your journey and to help people understand mental health and in your uploads you have done that you’ve shown it’s not linear it’s hard sometimes you have breaks and that’s okay to spend time on yourself even when you weren’t doing amazing you showed people that’s what it’s like for others who have mental illness you’ve explained and answered questions and been so educational and personally a support to me to know that it’s okay and how to deal with things etc I think you don’t give yourself enough credit even in your Worse times you still uploaded or explained why you didn’t and I think that’s real courage and I can’t wait to see what you do next I don’t think it matters what content you make your followers are here to see your journey and support you and where ever that may be is up to you we just wait to see it and anyone who isn’t don’t matter if you uploaded a 2 min video but you had great fun at making it and that sparked your energy again I think everyone would love that like whatever you need to do to enjoy it etc I’m rambling I just think you’re amazing and I’m so happy to see you being and feeling better and I can’t wait to see what’s next :) ❤️❤️
i'm glad you're okay ! maybe before you do a video roughly think of what you will say because in this video you seemed a bit all over the place. remember we are random people on the internet that are interested in what you choose to post, and that care how you're doing. it's your channel, your choice what you post and we are here to watch and enjoy. i'd love to see your vlogs! start small, we are all still here and love you no matter what you do :) whether you've been on this platform 8 years or 1, you can always restart and try new things it's not always smooth sailing
Ily Marie 💜
Marie some of your older videos I could've relate to. I'm not saying go back to the past but it was easier to understand what you were saying. On some videos you drink alot, n being drunk sometimes I could hardly understand you. I'm not saying to only make videos like you did before, but maybe just pick a topic n focus on that. By the way I love watching you do your makeup. You're a very beautiful person. Don't ever let anyone make you feel otherwise. ❤
Patreon made you feel an obligation to make content . But CZcams gives you the freedom to do it at your own pace and have fun with it . Plus you can always vent to the camera and post when you feel it's right . Above all Marie I can say I'm here no matter what post once a week or year I'm always gonna be here girl. I hope you believe me when I day I'm here for you always .
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Honestly I think you just need to communicate some how a little more as you tend to just disappear! I mean you don't owe us anything but if you did want to take this further as a career or similar, consistency doesnt matter so much as long as you communicate some how if you can xx I don't mind about patreon, I'd love to see you have more collars on here like on there and maybe another project like the book club!? X ly ❤ p.s also if there are things you don't want to address such as people, events or mental health please at least address that like tell us so we don't ask kind of like what you did today for the E situation, just helps us know your boundaries! Also bless your Mum 💕
Love the deep talk vids! Pls more of them :)
To get a little bit „negativity“ in i wouldnt mind if you dont interrupt ur talkflow that often / cutting bloopers shorter haha dont get me wrong love them but my adhd doesnt hahaha
Out here giving me Jade from victorious when she says "i don't sweat"
hey babes x this is supposed to be constructive criticism like you asked for, so please don't take it the wrong way because ilysm and have been here since 2017! i have noticed a difference in your videos recently, mostly to do with the effort put in? but i completely understand that you're running out of ideas and feel disconnected. i'm being 100% truthful when i say this, we watch your videos for YOU. no matter the content, i watch it to just see you. i just love who you are, the concept of the video is just a bonus. i really don't know how to give you video ideas, just film what you feel like filming and please don't be scared to upload it. if people don't like it, they can fuck off and the real ones will stay. always. i hope this made sense. love u xxx
Emily, I love you. thankyou so much for this criticism. its really made me feel capable and wanting that feeling of 2018!! so grateful for you
marie nobody knows how to live a normal life, there is no such thing as a normal life. sending love, be patient with yourself. xx
The fact you don't "fit in" with the same usual CZcamsrs is why people love you marie. I watch because your personality makes me feel better on a bad day or any day and its doesn't matter what your talking about but the best videos are when your clearly enjoying them so you do whatever makes you happy and you enjoy and the right people will stick around, no pressure on your self you have helped so many people survive mental health and you are in recovery and those who love yah just want to see you thrive what ever it is you want to talk about or do x
Ha ha you win i’m cryin
Aww mariee, Sending all the love as always you just do what makes you happy the people that matter will be happy for you 💞
Do what you feel is right for your self no one else.. Take care my lovely xxx
thankyou so much for the support it means so much💛
......I can already tell by the first 30 sec that something is...off. Are you okay?
I think you should interview people about different mental health topics. You love editing so maybe up the camera quality and get a bit experimental. Don't feel guilty. You don't owe your audience anything. You really don't. Step back, realise your vision for the channel and all the incredible places you can take it and do that. Maybe also, if you have feelings of guilt and overwhelm, share less about your personal life. You don't owe that to us. You are intelligent, have a wealth of experience and empathy to draw from so I think you should interview people and discuss certain topics in the MH field if that appeals to you.
Just my opinion, but this is what I would suggest to a friend in your position. X
..........im 8 minute in and i have no idea what maries is talking about. I'm so confused
You are never allone marie, we all love u❤
My constructive criticism would be, I feel like you worry too much about the content you are making and having a set schedule to upload and being anxious about what you post. I feel like you do best on here when you are just being yourself, doing exactly what you want to do cause that's all most people want to see. It doesn't matter what you make videos on, I think a lot of us would just like to see you doing whatever you want to do, whenever you want to upload it. Take as many breaks as you need whenever you want, life is too short to do things you don't wanna do. If you don't wanna film, don't film, if you don't feel like editing, do it when you are in a better mindset to do it, if you never wanna upload again, you don't have to and if you wanna make completely different videos to anything you have made before, do it if that's what will satisfy you and you will be surprised by what you gain from doing that
What happened between Marie and Ella? If I may ask xx
Hi Marie! I know you want to do really well on CZcams but honestly it shows that you’re forcing yourself to film and that’s not how it should be! Create the content that makes you feel good - you’ve made this kind of video a few times before and it seems like you’re relying on us too much. We’ll be here no matter what babes you’ve helped so many people and suffered through so much - just create what makes you feel good and don’t worry about views and how it’ll be received and then I think it’ll come naturally after a while xx love you
im crying - this made me so emotional.. you're so right - im not happy making the videos, your right.. its noticeable - so grateful for you, thankyou for the support 💛
@@marieroseeee awww i just want to give you the biggest hug 🫂 grateful for YOU
Just me or was her hair bright red is some spots ? I can’t tell if it’s dyed or just the lighting lol
I don’t think it’s red or just looks like a little bit of her natural hair color peeking through in the baby hairs
stop doing videos in your bedroom for a start. do vlogs, go into towns, go to london, talk about topics your interested in maybe mysteries, spirituality, creativity, self development, talk about plans for the future, activism, do thrift shops hauls, talk about moving out, just get away from the sitting in your room talking about mental health doing makeup. move into a more adult, cultured youtube style
Use the channel for mental health advocacy now that you are recovered. 💙
Hope you are doing ok. You seem a bit hypomanic Marie and I only say this frankly out of care for you. But as always - you’re beautiful and we love you. Take some time for you and we will always be here whenever you show up in the way you want to.
Hiya Marie, I've been watching for like 3 years now! I started watching you because it felt like you were the only person in my life who would understand. I think it might work for you to be true to whatever you are struggling with, because people want to relate to you. For instance in this video where you talked about sitting on a rocking chair and about eating, i felt seen! I would love to see you introducing more editting, like zoom ins and words on screen - which i believe u used to do. Id love to see you do some makeup challenges, like try following a drag queens tutorial with a friend - maybe even drunk (if u feel comfortable drinking). Also dont worry about the weekly thing, just try workin on yt a bit each day - u dont even have to finish editing one before u start filming another, as long as each day u do a little bit each day. day by day is the best way to go. I COMPLETELY RELATE the fear you feel about being mentally well.
I think u need need need to let yourself fail
maybe even try to aha
also dont worry about the 8 years because they have been a super tough 8 years, dont compare yourself!!!
I literally cannot get over this, thank you so much Lucy 💛 like so so so so so much, I just feel seen the same as you. I really love the feeling that you have given me not just of motivation but of abundance. That might sound drastic but you’re so right I just want to have a little bit of fun and thank you thank you thank you thank you for all the support🥺 I can tell just by the message you’re such a beautiful soul, please never change xxxx
Hey, I hope you aren't overhwleming yourself here. I can tell how confused you are and honestly after watching that video the whole way through I'm a bit concerned. I know you said you are okay and I believe you its just it doesn't seem like you are staying true to yourself. I feel like you need to take some time to yourself to really think about this. Its okay to want constructive criticism sometimes and want other peoples opinions but at the same time you need to remember your opinion on what you want to do for your channel is what is most important here. Just looking out for you love, sending lots of hugs 🤗🤗
Thank you so much Kayla, and I’m really grateful for your support and concern. That sounds weird but it shows that you care?? Regardless, you’re right I think I need to just know where I’m going because that’s the hard part. Sending so much love your way 💛💛
@@marieroseeee what sounds weird?😅
Do youtube only if it brings you joy. Try to find inspiring topics and write them up, if you find any. Let yourself relax and calm down, because I would rather have a few vids where it's clear you enjoy doing them, than a lot of vids where you're not. If you love doing Q&A vids it's alright, I just personally think it might be the reason things get dull cuz there is not that many things ppl know what to ask about without repeating themselves everytime.
I wish I was doing as well as you
I think she is struggling as well...
im sure you’ll get there love. ♡
Stunning make up by the way have you thought about going into beauty
sadly no! but thankyou
I think take a break from everything and figure out what you want to do you seem not ok if I'm honest
Hey lovely Marie,
It hurt me seeing how hard you’re being on yourself, and I think 19:17 was proof of that ☹️
First of all, thank you for sharing this with us, honestly is the most beautiful thing. I know you said that you don’t have drinking or your eating disorder to fall back on, but those things are just a false sense of stability. You think they give you control when in reality, they control you.
I truly think your honesty and your ability to self-reflect with yourself is what will and has kept you stable. Let honestly be the thing you fall back on ❤️
You’ve already identified the problem, it’s not you because we love you and will be here regardless. The problem is your perspective. And it’s hard because that is completely in your hands, but that’s also the most liberating thing to realize.
My advice to you is to start small and take it step by step. It’s overwhelming to think about all your 8 years in CZcams and what your future is going to be like. So, instead, begin with structure. Upload one video weekly and divide the editing as a few hours throughout the week. You can begin with the vlogs you already filmed. Start small, go up.
Because if you think of the overwhelming changes you want to make, you’ll never be able to get motivated enough to start because of the pressure.
So, you need to pinpoint specific factors your struggling with. Write them down, tackle them one by one. Then start small. Accomplish the small things first. Whatever follows, trust that you’ll deal with it later, when its time comes.
I apologize this has been long, and I don’t know if it helps, but you’ve honestly inspired me so much, I just want to reach out in any way 💕
I’ll leave you with my favorite quote at the moment: “You are entirely up to you.” ♥️
Take care lovely xx