Discovering My Ectopic Pregnancy - It's Been a Rollercoaster | Let's Talk IBD
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- This is the most emotional video I think I've ever posted. If you are sensitive to pregnancy loss, please skip this video. In it, I share the rollercoaster of increasingly darker pregnancy tests and increasing HCG levels after my intrauterine insemination. I also share the frequent monitoring that allowed us to discover the ectopic pregnancy early. My heart broke when we discovered it.
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Hi, I'm Maggie and I have Crohn's disease. I am thrilled to be here sharing my personal experiences with Inflammatory Bowel Disease as well as living with an ostomy. I'm proud to share a little bit from a clinical experience as well, having worked as a GI pediatric nurse and ostomy telehealth nurse. I am so glad you are here. ♥ #ibd #crohnsdisease #ostomy
PLEASE READ BEFORE COMMENTING: Many know this ectopic pregnancy ruptured and I had emergency surgery. I still want to share the process of what happened. I appreciate your support.
So very sorry. Prayers and hugs
My heart hurts for you. Sending you a hug and will keep you in my thoughts
I am so sorry for your loss. It's heartbreaking but there is literally nothing you could have done differently sweetie. Sending you healing hugs.
I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart & prayers go out to you & Zac 🙏
I am so sorry for your loss. You deserve the world! I thought the methotrexate was supposed to prevent a tubal rupture. I just want to hug you guys.
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby. So many people don't realize how heartbreaking ectopic pregnancies are. The loss of a much wanted baby is so, so hard.
You became a mother as soon as you saw that line the first time, I’m so sorry for your loss, sending love and solidarity
Dear Maggie,
I've cried so hard with you.
All I wanted to do was jump through the screen and give you a big hug and comfort you. So you were not alone on that horrible day.
I keep you in my prayers.
Sending you so much love and hugs 🫂 all the way from the Netherlands. ❤️
Thank you so much for this kind message!! This means so much to me 🩷
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Ectopic pregnancy is not that anybody can predict. It can happen to literally anybody who has the slightest chance to get pregnant. Please be kind and patient to yourself. It's not your fault. It's not about anybody's fault.
Dear Maggie
Just now saw your video
First of all I am sorry for your loss.
Please read what I am going to write.
I am a Gynecologist with 37 years of experience in a very busy hospital. I have follow up of hundreds of ectopic pregnancies.
Be positive.
You are right that once ectopic occurs ,the chances increase many times in next pregnancies. But look at these statistics in a different way. There is 85% chance that you will have a normal pregnancy next time.
The ectopic occurence depends upon many factors. IBD surgery is also one of them. But don't worry. Be positive. I have so many pts who have had ectopic in their first pregnancy and have many children after that. So get back to normal life once this episode is over. I found better results where I was able to use MTX ( Methotrexate )
By the way one thing is common between us. I have had Total colectomy for Adenocarcinoma of sigmoid colon ( I had UC). I have an ileostomy for past 7 months
I have seen all your videos.
Best wishes
Oh Maggie. I know this happened a bit ago but I am so sorry this ectopic happened to you and Zach. There is nothing any of us can say to make it all better. I think I speak for a lot of us that we will keep you in our prayers.
You are a Mother now. And waiting for your earthside baby. You have a angel baby watching over you. And when you meet them someday, they will know you are their Mom. I will continue to pray for you and think of you. You are amazing Maggie. Love, hugs, and prayers sent your way ❤️
This is so sweet. ❤️ Made me tear up. 😢
My mom had 4 babies, 2 angel babies and my brother and me. Almost 2 years ago she met her angel babies (she died from cancer)
God bless and heal you love@@ShyAnn291
@@ShyAnn291 Sorry for your loss of your Mom. They will all be waiting for you in Heaven.
@@dianee.7271 thank you so much!!
I never went through fertility treatments, but we went through a lot to have our family. I lost two babies in the 1st trimester, having an ectopic rupture and also having a regular miscarriage. We also lost a son to stillbirth at 30 weeks, to a very rare situation, which was complete hell. One pregnancy took almost 4 years to conceive. I've severely hemorrhaged twice, and I needed emergency intestinal surgery while 8 months pregnant with another son. Everything was so hard, but one thing I realized earlier in our journey was my perspective played a big part. When we are trying, we are trying for a dream because we don't know our children yet. Really though, we are doing all this for the children we will one day know and adore, who will be the most important people in the world to us. If someone asked me what I would do for any of my children, the answer would be anything, including laying down my life. Once I looked at it through that lens, thinking of them like that before I even met them, I knew I could get through anything and had an easier time, even when things went wrong or got scary. I now have 5 very healthy living children, plus we fostered 2 more. Our last birth shocked us with surprise twins. My good friend recently reminded me I told her this same thing when she went through 12 years of surgeries and fertility treatments, and it changed her perspective, which helped her when things were rough. She is now the mom of 2 beautiful girls, one adopted and one biological, who are the closest sisters ever, lifelong bffs. As with any advice, take what helps, and ignore and toss out what doesn't help, but that is how I got through our journey. You will have your family, and someday you will share your story with the best human being you've ever met, and they will know and appreciate all you and Zac went through, with so much love, to have them in your life and your family. ❤❤
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So very sorry. My heart breaks for you! You are so brave to do these videos!
I've had two miscarriages and firstly please don't punish yourself - none of this is your fault. I know I blamed myself and also had to hear from others all the things i should or shouldn't have done. Just know it is Not. Your. Fault. When you said you'd remember this day forever, man did that bring back memories. It's true. It is something you never forget and hearing someone else's story brings it all to the front of your mind again. It's hard. It will continue to be hard, but eventually the wound becomes a scar and you learn to cope. At first it will feel like you can't breathe. You're drowning in grief. Grieving what was and what could have been. But after a while there will be those around you who help hold you up so you're not drowning... and eventually you learn to swim again. It gets better. It just takes a lot of time.
This is so horrible, Maggie. I’m sending you lots of love and good energy. Life is an unfair shit show. You’ve been through enough, you deserve a break.
Agreed. ❤️
You have so much love for people. The way you’ve been uploaded these videos to share your IUI experience so that others won’t feel alone, just shows us how much you don’t want anyone else to feel alone. Thank you for doing this. Please don’t feel pressured in uploading. But a huge thank you is needed.
I hope youre doing ok maggie. I cant imagine... Please take any time you need to
I’m so sorry for your loss of your sweet angle. I have not have an ectopic but I did lose my baby last year at 12 weeks. I was devastated and broken. Your baby is so precious and so special no matter how long you carried them. Praying for you guys.
Sorry for your loss. I had a 9 weeks loss last year.
Hi Maggie.. my mom had an ectopic pregnancy with one of my siblings, a miscarriage with another, and a stillborn with another. My mom never forgot the children of her womb as long as she lived. She always would say, "I have 3 babies in heaven." She passed of a brain aneurysm last year, and now she is with her other 3. The wait seems long, but the years go fast. It brought her comfort to know she would be reunited with them again someday. I hope that hope will bring you a measure of comfort as well in your pain. 💔🙏
So many women go through this pain, and it sadly rarely gets talked about. It's so very brave to put those videos up. I'm sure it will help many.
Sending many healing hugs from Germany❤
Dear sweet sweet girl. I am so sorry. I remembered when you first told us that it was an ectopic pregnancy, my heart breaks for you. I know you have had to have surgery. However, I pray that you are slowly getting better and the pain is getting less. I know it will be a good while for you to heal from this traumatic outcome.. But know there are many people here praying and sending love to you. Sending so much light and love. ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss.
I feel every of your emotions… I went through a ruptured ectopic pregnancy (my tube was removed) in May 2021 and a PUL (pregnancy of unknown location) in September 2021. All the sadness, fear, anger…
I cried less of joy but more of relief when I found out my 3rd pregnancy was in the right spot. I hope it can give you a little bit of hope: my daughter was born August 2022. ❤
Ok wait. Nursing student here. You passed in 76 questions?!?! Thats amazing!
Thank you for sharing this journey. Sending love and comfort to you both ❤
You can't think it is your fault. You didn't do anything to cause this. I can understand worrying about what your prior surgeries did; I think about what mine did to me as well.
You did nothing wrong. I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong
I’m so sorry 😔❤ As I’ve said in other videos, I’ve had a ruptured ectopic too. Our babies are little angel babies, bring looked after in heaven, until it’s our time to be with them again. Your baby existed. You are a Mother ♥️ I hope you manage to become a momma, here on earth, before your time to be reunited with your much wanted and loved baby ♥️🙏 Sending gentle hugs 🤗
You are so brave to document this heart breaking experience to share with us, and to honour the little life you carried. I'm very sorry for your loss. When you look back at this, you can see that your instincts were so on point. You were pregnant with your first baby, and he was so wanted and loved. You've been through so much-please take time to grieve and heal. Sending you a hug...I hope you know how much we care.
17:36 please don’t be hard on yourself for hoping for a positive test and a full term pregnancy. I remember being so hopeful but I never even saw a positive pregnancy test! It’s perfectly normal to think and hope for positive answers. You deserve so much good luck and good health and I hope you do have more in the future.
Ugh I am so sorry- thank you for sharing. I had an ectopic last year and you are right it is such a roller coaster of emotions. I remember feeling so stupid and angry for allowing myself to feel hope when there were red flags that the pregnancy was not progressing like normal... But I have learned that even if you try to squash any/all hope, it doesn't make the pain less. You are not alone
Love and Hugs Maggie, I miscarried my first pregnancy and I felt this video so hard. I am so very sorry for your loss and I know that as comforting as all the support for you is, it doesn’t take away the pain. We all love you Maggie and wish you only the best! ❤
I am so sorry, I hope making this video and reading all the nice comments will bring a little peace to your heart. You are very brave to show this difficult and vulnerable process and you have my respect
It really does - people have been so kind and putting these videos together has helped me process and move forward!
I’m so very sorry, Maggie. My heart hurts for you. I haven’t had an ectopic but I have had a missed miscarriage and needed surgery for it. Please know that you aren’t alone. There’s a whole army of women who are supporting you and holding your hand. Sending love from England ❤
ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!!!!!! Pre-motherhood is hard and stressful .. Pregnancy is a job .. giving birth is job .. but it’s all worth it in the end ….You’ll get there ❤Bless You In Your Journey
Aw bless u both. Oh my lovely i feel your pain. I had severe endometriosis adhesions and had over 30 surgeries. I only had 4% of a functional ovary. I was due to start fertility treatment and got pregnant theweek before. Please please please dont give up. My son is 26 now we only one but he is enough. Love one another be patient and proud that you got through this dreadful time. You will get there im sure of it. All my love hope and prayers for your continued courage. The love you have for each other will get you through.🦋🌻🐝🌈🇬🇧🥰
Angel Girl, my heart breaks to see you go through this. You have an army of ladies standing shoulder to shoulder with you. You are not alone. We love you and are here for you!
Hi! 👋🏼 (I’m new to your channel) but this video really hit home for me. I want you to know that on my third round of IUI, I found out I was pregnant in November of 2023 and was in shock that it worked…
Days later I found out that my numbers were fluctuating which confirmed my suspicion about an ectopic pregnancy. I never had a rupture and the methotrexate injections did work for me, but the heartbreak from finding a positive pregnancy test to the nurse telling me there was nothing in my uterus was absolutely soul crushing. I also had months of going in every two days for blood draws to check my HCG was dropping appropriately! Ectopics are so incredibly hard it’s unreal. Hard physically AND mentally/emotionally. The fear of the unknown, unanswered questions, mixed emotions of hope mixed with sadness and the dreaded “wait two more days to come in for another ultrasound/bloodtest” fills you with nothing but defeat and hopelessness. Nobody really knows quite how hard they are unless they have been through them (which I don’t wish upon anyone). I want you to know I know what you’re going through and your feelings of any kind are valid. You will totally get through this- just give it some time. Prayers for you and your journey girlie. ❤❤
You are one strong lady. That doesn’t help in the slightest though although I hope you draw comfort from this community you’ve created in your corner of CZcams. I had miscarriages and a late term miscarriage. I didn’t find out for years that I can get pregnant but a genetic disorder means I can’t carry to term. The only funny thing I could find was when my doctor told me the name of the genetic disorder: MTHFR.
I looked at my doctor and said “Are you telling me that it’s called MotherFu@&er?!?”
I’m so, so sorry for your loss. My best prayers and hopes for you both 💕
This is very personal and very, very painful to go through. Thank you for sharing this because many people do not talk about pregnancy loss and IBD and all the important things you share out of the kindness of your heart. You are a hero to me, seriously.
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IUI was the hardest, scariest roller coaster I’ve ever ridden. I’m so sorry this happened. Wishing you both the best for the future.
Aw Maggie. The belly shot part kinda destroyed me 🫠
Hoping your recovery goes well. Wish there was something I could do to help. Take care of yourself, mate.
I'm so sorry for your loss. This reminds me so much of what I went through last year. It was hell. Physical recovery was a lot quicker than mentally recovering from the whole thing.
So sorry for your loss Maggie 🙏🏻
I’m so sorry for your loss. Wishing you healing in all ways.
So much love ❤❤❤
Hugs to you Maggie! ❤
Much love Maggie x
I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you love
I’m sorry Maggie! You’ve been through so much- good and bad. Please take as much time as you need for yourself but keep going. Praying for you! ❤
Virtual hugs for you and Zac ❤
Sending you hugs, Maggie. ❤
My heart breaks for you Maggie! Sending healing prayers and prayers for peace!
I'm so sorry you're going through this ❤My heart breaks for you. Sending thoughts and prayers to you and Zach
I am so very sorry. It’s heartbreaking hearing and seeing your pain.
Very sorry for your loss.😢
This breaks my heart. Thank You for sharing your stories. I hope things get better. Keep your chin up and stay positive🩷
I'm crying with you for all your heartache and sadness. I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending big hugs your way and lots of prayers.
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I’m so sorry 😔I’m crying with you. Sending you many hugs and a lot of strength🙏🏼. You will get your miracle child. Praying for you 🫶🏻
Bless your heart, praying for you.
I am so so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing with us all. Sending so much love to you both ❤
Sending you lots of love and healing energy 💕💖💕
I've never had dreams during anesthesia. This past time. I woke up quickly in PACU and it was like nothing happened. Went home and had pizza for lunch and stayed up until midnight. I wasn't drowsy or anything. The previous time with the same surgeon and anesthesiologist they had to yell at me in the PACU to wake me up then I slept 4 hours after getting home.
I hope your recovery is going well for you. Sending hugs. I'm so sorry. Pregnancy loss is so difficult. 😢
I’m so sorry Maggie. I hope you feel the support and love from all of those who care around you ❤
Oh maggie, there’s no words… I’m so sorry. Please know I’m sending all the love and hugs from Texas that I can.
Praying 🙏 for you and Zach. XOXO
Bless your sweet heart ♥️ I’m crying with you. I know what that loss feels like 😢
So sorry for your loss ❤️
I'm sending you guys lots of prayers to you guys
My heart breaks for you u are very strong and I’ll be keeping you in my prayers
My heart goes out to you and Zak ❤️
Fwiw, I had three miscarriages and was so afraid I would never be able to carry a baby.
I have four wonderful young adults now.
oh Maggie I'm so sorry this happened to you. It's heartbreaking. I wish I could give you a hug. Sending love! ❤❤❤
Maggie, I'm so sorry for your loss 💔
Many hugs for you Maggie ❤️ Watching you struggle makes My heart Hurt. You'll get there eventualy. Hoping for the Best
Healing Hugs Maggie❤
Sending love and prayers to you and Zac for healing and continued comfort. Thank you for sharing, I am confident that you are also helping someone else.
Sending prayers your way.
My love, hugs, prayers and positive vibes and energy are with you, I have faith you will have your baby that you so want and deserve, you’re going to be an amazing momma🥰🙏🏼🕊️✝️♥️☮️❣️❣️
My heart breaks for you Maggie. I am praying for you 🩷thank you for sharing.
Oh Maggie, I am so so sorry and hope you are recovering well. This has been such a roller coaster for you and you are allowed to feel your emotions. I know this has to be so hard for you but you are so strong and so brave ❤ this will be difficult but you have an army of support and love behind you.
Sending as much love and all the support I can. ❤❤❤
Thank you for sharing this vulnerable moment with us. You are helping so many who may need advice if they are going through something similar. This is brave of you. I’m so sorry you experienced this. I wishing you happy healthy pregnancy in the near future.
Sending Love and Big hugs Sweet Maggie and Zach
Prayers to you and Zak 🙏
Oh Maggie & Zach my heart breaks for you both ❤ 😢
My heart breaks for you. I'm so sorry about the loss of your precious baby.
Maggie, you are full of grace. Please know there’s so many people rooting for you and Zach.❤❤❤❤
Stay Strong 💪🏼
I am chronically and I have been watching your channel since the beginning. You have inspired me to live through the pain. I can only imagine how devastating this. I hope you know you have a huge community behind you that loves and supports you!!! Thank you for sharing your honest experience ❤ you truly are an inspiration. Strong beautiful 🫶🌻
Words can not express my feelings. I have cried with you and continue to keep you in my thoughts. 💚
I soooo sorry. I be praying for you .
I cried all the way through this with you, I’ve been there. No words can make it better, but if it works out I will be cheering over here for you. Thank you for sharing the rawness of fertility and not glamourising it as other creators do. So much love.
I'm so sorry, im crying for you and will pray for healing. What an awful few weeks, a nightmare. Be easy on yourself ❤
I am so sorry for your roller-coaster. I hope all will work out for you and yours. ❤
My heart goes out to you, Maggie. I'm crying along with you. My daughter had a similar situation, that I wouldn't wish on anyone. I'll be keeping you in my prayers. ❤🫂🙏
I am sorry for your loss
You poor girl. I want to send you many big hugs. 💕💕💕💕💕
Hugs 🤗 and much love 💗 so sorry 😢
My heart breaks for you and I am crying, too. Prayers to you and Zak as you go through this journey. 💜🙏
I’m so sorry for your loss. You have been through so much over the years. Praying that one day you will have your dreams come true.
I am so sorry you've had such a terrible time
I am so incredibly sorry. This is so heartbreaking. Thank you for sharing, I did not realize an ectopic pregnancy where like this.
Maggie I am so sorry for your and Zachary loss sending much love and healing ❤️
😢 I am so very sorry 😔 for your loss. I cannot even imagine the anguish and pain, however I do believe that this season as hard as it is, is preparing you for the abundance of blessings and hardships that you will be faced with. Life is a journey with ups, valleys and lows that always wind up getting us to different and more heightened plateaus. You are becoming stronger, wiser and more resilient throughout every single tear shed, and while we always would want things to work out a certain way, there's always an unexplained reason for why things end up playing out the way they do. You are opening up your pain for others that can too find refuge, strength, courage and support, and while going through this pain may feel senseless, it does have a place of healing and it does have a sense of life for others.
You are strong, you are resilient and there is a purpose for all of it.
My prayers 🙏🏻 are with you and your family in this uncertain time.
This is the first time I have ever seen your channel. I'm so sorry I had to find you in this way but I'm really happy to become a new member to your channel. Sending lots of prayers for you and your family 🙏🙏❤️.
I am so sorry for your loss honey. It just breaks my heart. 😢
Sending all my love to you and Zach ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤