What Psychosis is really like
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- čas přidán 10. 05. 2024
- What psychosis is like based on my personal experiences.
If you want to understand more about psychosis, please take a look at my other videos. I live with lifelong Bipolar Type 1, so I’ve had manic episodes.
To join the waiting list for my book, visit: mikemcdonnell.co.uk
as someone who struggles with being open about mental health struggles i really appreciate you being so open and public about what you’ve gone through
Thank you so much for your comment! 💚 I promise to keep them coming to spread awareness and make life just a little easier for all of us who struggle. Please feel free to drop me a message at any time, either suggesting videos to post or if you just need someone to talk to and support you.
The way you put it: gradual elevation of energy that (like highly caffeinated and cocaine) overstimulated; heightened awareness; confidence... These are textbook "mania" signs too! Add in talking fast, not sleeping, and shaking like a crackhead chihuahua.
It's so bizarre to hear somebody describe something I experience SO thoroughly and with the perfect words. The way it sneaks and builds is like smoke; it trickles in unnoticed at first, and by the time it's noticed, it's usually by a consequence and not the issue itself - with smoke, one smells smoke before they see it, and by then it's already filling a room and a fire is raging; and then psychosis is noticed when the behavior is so odd that it impacts others, but the real issue is what's causing the psychosis.
Sorry I'm rambling!
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Thank you for your comment! I’ve just filmed a video on what I think caused my psychosis, looking forward to posting that one 😀
OMG MY PSYCHOSIS STORIES ARE SO HILARIOUS 🤣 I’m literally doing journaling to process all the stupidity.
😆😆 I’d love to hear more! I wish I’d have journalled, I did take some pictures which will remind me of some of the funny things I was doing 😆
Thank you for making this video. My partner is currently experiencing the same thing, and I’m trying to understand psychosis in any way I can so I can support him. Would love to hear about your recovery journey and what you do now to take care of yourself.
You’re very welcome and thank you for your feedback. I wish you and him the best in his recovery 💚 Stay calm and by him always and everything will be okay. Those videos are on their way, I do a whole load of things now so there’s a lot to pass on to you. All the best, Mike
kudos to you for sharing and being so open. there's still such a stigma, so you being willing to help normalise these experiences but just as importantly, simply be honest, is so powerful.
Thank you so much!!! 🙌
Thanks for sharing the experience. Way more brave than some of us who've had similar experiences. This gives me some confidence and encouragement to do the same.
You’re very welcome 😀 that’s my aim! The more we can all open up and talk, the better and more accurate the care will be which we receive. I think there’s a lot more out there who suffer than we’re aware of. All the best,
Mike
Thanks for sharing your story, and keeping it short and to the point!
Very welcome Chris! Glad you enjoyed 😀
So grateful you have decided to do this, also very positive wider population is ready to hear it.
You're very welcome Evelyn! I'm just in the process of uploading my next video now on Bipolar
my manic episode last year was very very similar to this.
Isn't it crazy how many of us seem to have similar experiences? I'd love to know more about your day-to-day thoughts and others who've been through episodes like this.
it’s very comforting to know im not alone in such an experience although i would say that episode of mania was very enlightening to me personally and mainly very euphoric. i suffer from cptsd on top of bipolar and i personally suspect i have borderline as well and recently have been struggling with a pretty intense bout of derealization. ive experience dp/dr for over a decade but the past week has been particularly scary and bordering on delusion (at moments im thoroughly convinced that no one and nothing around me is real and im completely alone). makes it very hard to feel true connection with people. i appreciate you opening up and being vulnerable with this video. hearing others describe things very very similar to what ive been through does serve as a really big comfort that maybe im not alone after all. thank you for sharing your experiences with us and letting me open up here!!
@@arabellarain5186 That’s amazing of you to have the courage to share what you’re currently going through.
I wish you the best in your journey and health. I’m always here via comments when you need to talk and can find more contact details on my website. I don’t know about you, but I think there’s a real shortage of lived experience ambassadors online. Would you agree?
I’m thinking about creating an online community/channel which brings us all together to support each other. Do you think that’s a good or bad idea?
Thanks again for your comments 💚
@@itsmikemcdonnell thank you, its really been weighing on me and its such a relief to just get it out there.
i think thats a wonderful idea and id personally love to be a part of that!!! there is a real lack of community with mental health issues like this and it would be so cathartic for many people i believe to have a place where they can be vulnerable and open up about mental health and such.
thank you again, i really appreciate ur kindness and support
@@arabellarain5186 Don't worry; I'll make this my mission to create. Sorry for the questions, but do you think I should make it specifically for those who have experienced mania or open it up to anyone with mental health difficulties? I'm just conscious of it being too loose. My initial thoughts are a low-cost slack, say $5-$10 monthly. The small membership fee to negate spammers and re-invest in our community. I'm open to any suggestions you have!
Love the honesty 💛
Thank you wifey ❤️
Great video, very well spoken. Thank you for sharing.
My pleasure! Glad you enjoyed it 😀
People thought I was delusional conspiracy theorist, then Epsine happened. I wish I was delusional conspiracy theorist and that stuff was fake. 😨
Yeah… Things like this don’t help do they? 😆🤣
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No, no they do not.
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Just because you're paranoid, doesn't mean nobody's after you.
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Nice try FBI!
Not today CIA!
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It's all paranoid conspiracy theory psychoses skizo posting... r... right?
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I'm gonna go have a nice relaxing smoke on the back patio.
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Cannabis helps calm my crazies down.
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YMMV though.
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lmao, I thought I was Jesus too bro, it happens to the best of us
😆😆! + Cheers for commenting bro
Very interesting, thanks for sharing this with us, such videos really help to create better understanding of such things, from your description of that agitated, awaken feeling I can really understand, how that can affect the brain in such a way that people start believing these things.
You’re very welcome! Thank you for your comment, I’m glad you found it helpful 😀
Great video
Thank you Ben and thanks for joining the waiting list too 😀
Very much appreciated, please do more like this. I have lost my mind shortly while on mushrooms and the striking part is that it also makes you question every thought you ever had. Like it sounds convincing all of a sudden that every thought you ever had before was made under completely false presumptions. As I am probably not predisposed I snapped out of it within minutes but I always wondered if now that I kind of know how a psychosis of sorts feels, if I would be able to recognize it again and at least control my actions even if I cant control my thoughts. But since it was a terribly frightening experience, I never tried again. So I would love to know if you had, shortly before your relapse, a sense that it is happening again? I can imagine one would not be able to notice as this is affecting how you perceive things. It is mighty scary to think you dont really control, but are instead lead on for better or worse, by... yourself.
Thank you so much for your comment! I promise to make more content like this; I'm just in the process of uploading another video on Bipolar type 1 and how it feels. I hope you enjoy it. I completely get what you mean, I too had similar mushroom trips, I quit any form of drugs, drink, smoking etc during my recovery. So, I'm now proudly around 450 days sober, and it will stay that way now. To answer your question, I think so, yes; from what I remember, I could feel my thoughts wandering almost like a dream state and thinking, oh god... I have this long-term, this is me now, and it's uncontrollable. But, then I temporarily snapped out of it - maybe a few days? Then, the relapse occurred. Hope that helps!
You are soo handsome. Thank you for sharing your experience.
Interesting video, thank you for making it. I haven't had a psychosis or I am not borderline, I am at the other end: chronically depressed and on antidepressants for several years now, in and out of therapy.
So when you said you felt this heightened energy and you couldn't stay still, I was like 'damn, I could use that some days.' 🤣
Jokes aside, I am happy you feel better now and that you are doing great. I'm interested in the book as well.
You’re very welcome. Thank you for your comment and I’m glad you enjoyed it! 😀
Is psychosis permanent? Do u understand what u have done. Thanks
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I relate fully
Thanks so much for your comment! Crazy and amazing to know you experienced similar thoughts and feelings to me. We’ve seen another side 😮
Thank you for sharing. Have you experienced any feelings of shame when coming out of psychosis about strange things you did? Its 4 years since my last episode and I still struggle with embarrassment and shame
You are very welcome mate! Oh absolutely. I went live on Instagram stories 5-10 times each day during psychosis, doing some very embarrassing things, which included smoking and eating the remainder of a cigarette butt. As you do... 😆I tend to laugh about it now amongst friends and family. If you don't laugh, you'll cry, as they say! At the end of the day, we can't control what we were going through, so it's safe to say it wasn't you and wasn't your fault. You can only control the present, which shapes your future self. You've got this, my bro.
@@itsmikemcdonnell I did some strange things on social media too! I think it's where most of my shame lies because without it probably only close friends and family would know I was ill, but with it it's up there for everyone to see. Thank you for sharing your experiences so openly, it makes a lot of us feel a lot less alone! Best of luck for the future 😊
Thank you for sharing your story i experienced similar symptoms to you thinking I was god lol
I also thought I was Thomas Jefferson
I don't quite undestand it. How did you end up in the hospital? I had gone through a massive psychosis episode that lasted for more than 4 months 10 years ago, I wasn't not able to sleep in my bed, had completely lost any sense of self identity not to mention the fact that at that time my brain got hyper functional to a point my body couldn't make sense of its own functionality, I was functioning on a mental hyper drive 24/7 for months in a row!
I've had a few minor reoccurring episodes since then, but I am not the same man anymore. I didn't seek help from professionals, although one night I was thinking of calling 911 because there was an invisible monster staying in my house inflicting horrible images in my head..I wasn't afraid to die, I got scared because that thingy wanted my soul, didn't know how to respond.
I thought I was immortal 😂
Me too, it sounds like it's very common!!! I genuinely pulled a whole fire door off the hinges of my room in the hospital, that can't be easy to do hahah
@@itsmikemcdonnell holy shit hahah
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Are your thoughts and feelings was „positive“ or „pleasant“? Or just neutral for you?
Fantastic question, I should have included this. For me, all very positive. I didn’t feel negative at all during the episode. However, once I’d come out of the ward and was sedated on heavy medication I had depression and once or twice suicidal thoughts. That was a tough time, but we managed to get that specific medication changed and those depressive thoughts started to fade.
@@itsmikemcdonnell thank you for answer. I heard from Doctor that “mental illness” thoughts are always kinda positive and we feel it like part of ourselves. And there are no doubts that it can be “unhealthy” or “wrong”. I have this sometimes, just like u described in video, feeling that u have a lot of energy and all is going “right”. But sometimes I also have except this feeling something strange, that “tell” me “hey man u need to stop and think maybe or have a rest”(that’s how I interpreted this).
Ur cute
I don’t think this describes psychosis at all and I’ve had one
Would love to know your experience if you wouldn’t mind sharing 🙏
Did you believe in God prior to your psychosis?
To be honest, no and I never have. Strange one really… But I believe we know what “good” is and we all have that inside us!
7:11 that’s the truth and it’s nothing psychotic
Well, you could argue that’s the consequence of too much consumerism. That’s just marketing for you. Anyone can be a marketer… But, we can develop an awareness and with consumer choice, bring those business down.
I don't think there was anything wrong with you. You didn't need pathologising or institutionalizing. You needed a shaman to breakdown what you were going through
Somethings were out of my control unfortunately
What diagnosis did you receive in the end? Is it bipolar disorder?
Yes! Exactly, Bipolar Type 1. 😀
@@itsmikemcdonnell At what age was the onset? And does it run in your family? If you don’t mind me asking questions. Kind regards from South Wales 👋
@@itsmikemcdonnell Mike have you read about fecal transplant for bipolar disorder treatment? Please, read Jane Dudley’s story (it has been published in a medical journal).
@@jenborisov782 I don’t mind at all! I was 22 and there is no history of it running in my family, no. Feel free to ask as many questions as you like 😀
@itsmikemcdonnell were you taking an antidepressant during or before you started to experience this? Or take any illicit drugs? Mine was set off by an antidepressant.