I Was Struggling with Schizophrenia Symptoms Last Night
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- čas přidán 28. 11. 2021
- I just wanted to share a bit about what it's like when I am feeling more symptomatic. I was experiencing hallucinations, delusions, and paranoia last night, and in this video I share a bit about what that felt like.
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I am so glad you have a husband who will help you.
I needed to see this today.
Seriously.
My son has schizophrenia, and I watch your videos often, and I NEEDED to see this, because sometimes it seems like you dont struggle w hallucinations/psychosis and it's so daunting thinking "is it my son who's just this bad?"
I APPRECIATE THIS CONTENT especially from you Lauren! Thank you!
Does your son have many psychotic and delusional episodes?
Omg! I feel that way too. It's so hard seeing him struggle and not be able to help.
@@FM-st4yn unfortunately, he struggles with acceptance of his diagnosis being so young. He tends to go off his medicine, and that's really the issue. He'll get leveled off, then stop taking his meds and yeah it becomes harder for him & hallucinations become worse.
Nicole- it's the worse thing EVER!!
@@moonshine814 I understand. My ex was the same, so many ups and downs. Unfortunately we are no longer together. I wish you strength and hope, one thing is for certain, giving love is fundamental for recovery. May you find peace and happiness.
@@FM-st4yn I appreciate that so so much!!
I suffer with schizo-affective disorder since I was 20 and now I’m 46! I understand the difficulties of functioning, but, from where I stand I think just getting up in the morning is a success, but when you speak about your life, you beat me everyday of the week. You are in a relationship and a child! It’s great that you have a husband plus a kid and still have the drive in some capacity to be present!
We all have our own battles and goals, our own individual journeys 💚 i hope you can find Lauren’s content helpful, and not disheartening 💚💚
Could I ask what your symptoms are? I'm still trying to get my head around this disorder. My therapist is saying that I she thinks I might have it but I don't feel connected to the diagnosis. Well she hasn't diagnosed me yet but that's really important towards. That and bipolar. But what is it exactly what are the core functions and features of this disorder? At least for you?
@@harperl2 Hi Steve, I think you are too forward to be experiencing shizo affective disorder. Direct questions to someone living with schizophrenia are really difficult to take. Look at Lauren's other videos for symptoms, she has heaps, but she willing makes them. Asking someone who identifies with this disorder is pretty much a no dont do it.
You are a gem. Even in the midst of significant distress you still went on to create content of great service. Thank you and hope you have time to rest and feel better. :)
I have long thought that Schizophrenia is a kind of sleep disorder where the brain is stuck between sleep/awake states. Anyway, thank you for sharing Lauren. It's important.
That's insightful and makes sense to me.
I just wish my mum was still here to watch this with me. She tried so so hard to be independent, and strong, and to not fall through but eventually, she just gave up. She didn't want to be a burden for me. How I wish all the information we have access today was available for me 10 years ago. Or maybe it was, but I didn't know how to look for it. I keep blaming myself, saying that I could have done better when it comes to supporting her. My therapist needs to tell me every time that I did the best I could with what I knew. I am not entirely convinced of that yet, but I try. What you do here is so, so important! Thank you for sharing your story
I'm very sorry lost her, I know Im a random but I hope you realize eventually it's not your fault
@@aaaa-jg4sm it's something that I am still trying to come to terms with. That it wasn't my fault. It's hard.
I don’t have schizophrenia, but I do have some thing called depersonalization derealization disorder and the derealization for me feels like what you described, but I think the difference for me is tI’m able to have more insight than somebody who was in psychosis
As a mood disorder sufferer,i know that i feel like im a burden or would be a burden in a relationship,so tend to date less..which is a shame its amazing you found someone who is so understanding and patient...its also interesting to hear how it impacts your connection with your little one...just do your best..thats all we can do right!..🙏🏻
It is possible to find somebody who will look after you and accept you warts n all , excuse the pun lol
I hope you feel better, your videos help me with my schizoaffective disorder as well so it’s nice to hear about how you are doing
Commenting for the algorithm, thanks for the work you do! ✌🏻💚
Your vulnerability in sharing so much is appreciated - hope you find yourself well as time goes on.
I really appreciate your level of openness here. I’ve never experienced psychosis, but I have bipolar disorder. This past year I experienced the worst depression of my life along with debilitating anxiety. My level of functionality felt close to zero and I was in constant, almost unendurable pain. I did 42 courses of ECT in a 6 month period, first 3 times a week, then 2, then once a week. Tried to go down to once every 2 weeks but the pain of my depression was too much to bear then, so went back to once a week. It was back in April that my psychiatrist found a medication that finally did help me and I was able to stop in the ECT in early May. Since then my mood has been improving, with starts and stops, and it’s an ongoing, gradual process and I’m not sure I’ll ever be in the promised land of full remission of depressive symptoms, but I’m feeling much more encouraged and optimistic now.
But something I’ve been talking with my psychotherapist about recently and I’ve been thinking a lot about is shame. I’ve learned I have a chronic and pervasive sense of shame. And an area in which my shame spikes the most is the expression of my own feelings. There’s something about me just being open and direct and simply stating how I feel about something that feels incredibly dangerous for me. But now that I’ve become aware of this and my mood is much better than it was, I’m trying to do this more. All of which is to say, I really appreciate how open you were in this video and I’m trying to learn how to be open as well in my own life, so thank you. I think the more I learn to share my feelings, the better off I’ll be just in general and maybe with respect to bipolar disorder as well. Anyway, I wish you health and happiness.
Peter Cohen sorry you're going through such a painful time. Glad you have a good Dr.
What a tough individual you must be- it all sounds awful, but you seem to be facing it with insight, dignity, & intelligence. Keep up the good fight!
@@tallblonde1976 yeah I’ve had to burn through a couple psychiatrists to get to the one I have now. My first psychiatrist didn’t seem up to the task of treating bipolar depression. The second was supposed to be a nation leading expert in bipolar disorder, and did prescribe things that were somewhat effective for some time although often with significant side effects. I stayed with him for 5 years after which I bailed because he didn’t seem to have any options left that I was willing to try. I also went to a psychiatrist who specialized in transcranial magnetic stimulation and ketamine, neither of which were ultimately effective for me. But now I’ve got a psychiatrist who seems smart and who I like and respect and seems pretty dynamic in his approach. He takes my concerns about various medications seriously and is willing to try things. The first few meds he put me on I was pretty doubtful would help because I’d been on similar ones in the past but then he put me on one that really had helped. I’m really very privileged that my family has good enough insurance and can pay for treatment out of pocket to be reimbursed by the insurance company later. And it’s really saddening for me to think about people like me who don’t have those tremendous advantages.
@@katiesfarmhouse please share more on how you communicate to your husband about what it is like for you at the moment you are actually going through this process of your struggles with battling to remain in reality .l need to hear how you describe it to someone else from your perspective. Just how aware are you of what is real and what is not real.
@@katiesfarmhouse Thanks. Yeah it’s easy for me to be positive and optimistic now that my mood has improved, but when my mood wasn’t so good and I looked back at the last 7-8 years of very limited functionality where I tried but failed to go to school and I tried and failed to have a job and tried and failed to get back into running (which was a big deal for me in high school) by going to physical therapy and all the while I was depressed, it was very easy for me to feel real despair and consider the real possibility that I wasn’t going to get better, that recovery was not in the cards for me. So I’m very grateful that my mental health has significantly improved and I’m aware that I’m at the mercy of forces beyond my control but I’m gonna do my best to be healthy and hopefully productive. I seem to be quite capable of writing these long CZcams comments haha which may be why I’ve been working on an autobiographical novel and after that I want to be a child psychologist. So fingers crossed, God willing, I’ll be able to do those things. But yeah right now I’m just happy to be feeling better and capable of doing things that bring me some joy. Thank you for your kind words. I hope all is well with you.
Thank you, Lauren. I too struggle with schizophrenia. Remember that sometimes our struggles are because we love too much.
I really like Canadian people!! And this honest,open, n truthful person whose videos have educated me on my own diagnosis and struggles!!! Thanks 💚
We like you too. (:
Same! Thanks!!!!
Me too! Canadians are nicer than Americans, generally speaking. Of course there are plenty of nice Americans and it is likely there are mean Canadians, but overall Canadians have Americans beat in terms of politeness and measured thinking. I attribute it to their government and to their financial system. Americans are taught to compete aggressively and to do whatever it takes to make a living. We are more ruthless and have a "dog eat dog" philosophy. Canadians seem to like their government more and they support public services that level the playing field in terms of health care, infrastructure and educational opportunities. There is a darkness in American politics. Everything is a "conspiracy" and we don't care for each other like Canadians.
@@mygirldarbyPerfectly said S. Have a great day!!
This is crazy I had a manic episode this week at night but I was so sleepy I was able to manage it but it is getting out of control I'm on abilify know God Bless You Rob And Teddy
Hello, currently I’m in the process of getting a diagnosis and my psychiatrist thinks this is the same thing I suffer from. It’s awesome being able to watch these videos and it helps me feel like a little less out of it knowing I’m not the only one who goes through these things. Thank you for sharing your experiences, these help so much.
Thanks for sharing, Lauren. Your videos are an excellent teaching tool for family members to understand that recovery doesn’t mean that you are necessarily free of all symptoms. So crucial to remember that there can be little set backs. Glad you are feeling better. 🥰
Your not alone. I know it's not as sever but the past 3 week's my asd and socal anxity, chronic pain and gad have been rough.
Thank you for sharing! And thanks Rob for supporting
I have had schizophrenia. For over twenty years now. I am in my early fifties. To me it has gotten easier. I journal one sentence every night. Just to see how my day went. It let's me see where my symptoms are. Having these symptoms for so long I am more aware of how they react.
Thank you for sharing. It is so important to share that symptoms can also be manageable. I went so long worrying about having symptoms because I felt I would be going 100% each time, but learned that sometimes they're at a good 60% and can go down with someone self compassion from myself.
I hope your day got better now. Holidays, even if you plan them, can be so stressful. The extra stimulation, although I love blasting Christmas music and the lights everywhere, can be a little overwhelming to my brain unconsciously. I try to take more do-nothing days during the holidays to help de-stimulate the mind
I'm a RMN in the UK. You are a awesome person for helping others even when symptomatic. Hoping you recover from this episode very soon. Thanks for your work, but remember, if you need to rest or de-stress, that's more important than vids.
What is an RMN?
@@marywilliams9858 registered mental health nurse i believe.
I have difficulty grounding in myself in reality sometimes, and it can be incredibly distressing. You’re so strong and amazing. I’m inspired by your words
I experience these symptoms but always thought it was disassociation. I've also had experiences with hearing whispering. A bunch of voices all at once when I was younger. Everyone told me it was depression or trauma. I really appreciate your channel and your transparency
I had a dream I couldn’t trust what my brain was perceiving was reality, and it was terrifying. Not being able to trust your senses and what is actually real or a hallucination, seems to be very frightening. My heart is with you. My son also has schizophrenia. He’s very low functioning for the most part. It’s good to see you can recognize when you know what is happening isn’t reality, so that you can reach out for help and get help. Much love to you
Thank you for this 🙏🏻
I don’t have a diagnosis but I do have mental struggles. I am happy to have found this channel-it makes me feel more valid about my own videos and speaking on my own experiences. Thank you for sharing yours.
I go through struggles with schizophrenia...I like your videos as it allows me to hear someone who knows how the struggles are...hopefully we can reach remission..thank you, much love
Thanks for keeping it real.
The worst thing for me is that it always feels permanent when it happens. Probably won't help, but BE COOL DUDETTE! You've got a lot of friends out here in the ether.
Thank u for sharing
Thank you for your post.
Thanks so much for sharing 🙏
TY for sharing
Thanks for sharing this view of your experience!
I appreciate you for this...it's so helpful and the world needs this!!! THANK YOU!!! Also hope you feel better! ❤️
Always appreciate your perspective, Lauren - through the good and the bad.
Thank you for sharing 💖
Thank you for sharing and being so open, honest and vulnerable , you are so so so strong, you've got this! Much love to you
I really appreciate your transparency. I live with mental illness and sometimes, the pressure to appear and/or act "normal" is enormous. It's exhausting and is also very harmful to me in the long run. Glad you shared this.
Thank you for sharing this, it's really helpful.
Thank you for sharing.
Your honesty helps me so much
Thank you. Great job!
Thank you for sharing your story
Thanks for being so brave to share with us today. Xo
This is sooooo sooo soooo valuable. Thank you.
Thanks for sharing, honestly.
Thank you for sharing
I'm so sorry you had to deal with that. I can't imagine the fear when this happens. Thank you for sharing your journey so that others can learn.
Thank you for your honesty Lauren.
Hope you are feeling stronger today.
Hugs to Rob as it's scary to witness.
I'm sorry that you were struggling. Thank you for sharing with us ❤️
Feel better soon. You know we’re ALL pulling and praying for ya!
Thank you so much for sharing something so personal
Lauren hope you will feel better soon. You're in my heart.
Thank you for your openness and honesty.
Sending best wishes for whatever feels most grounding, and acknowledging yr strength to care for yr even when you didn't feel grounded
Love you Lauren, you making these vids for others is really great! Wish you positive energy and great blessings and much love!
I hope you feel better. Your videos are so helpful. Keep up the good work. Thank you.
So glad you’re learning to cope better, congrats!!
Thank you so much for your vulnerability and honesty, you are a gem. I am sending my best wishes to you that you even out soon, and so happy to see you smile.
Tons of respect. Wishing you the best
Your videos are so helpful.
I suffer from Bipolar 1 disorder.
Absolute gratitude 🙏
really resonated with this symptom thanks 4 sharing
Hi Lauren. I hope you’re feeling better. I’ve really been struggling the last month or two, with the Med switch, but I’m hanging in there. Thank you so much for your continuing openness and courage in sharing.
Thank you for sharing, Lauren. I feel so inspired watching this. So much love to you and your family. I promise-you are changing lives. Hugs ❤️
Stay safe and strong in the struggle , you are amazinf
You are not alone, I have schizoaffective disorder, I am learning how to manage or understanding when I have a hallucination or delusion. I watch your videos to help me more with my illness
So sorry for your struggle. I'm glad you have a good partner for support. 💕
Thanks for sharing your experience Lauren . I’m sending you a big hug ❤️
Thank you for sharing this with us. It always help us to know we are not alone. God bless
Thanks for sharing. You are a very brave for opening up about your daily struggle. Its helpfull for being more empathetic about this topic.
Hi Lauren, praying for you for a quick recovery! I’m sorry you had to experience that last night. Thank you for sharing your experience with us and for showing us how important communication is! Love you!!! 🙏🙏💖
Thanks Lauren! I have also been outside my normal state today. For me it's lowered mood and heightened anxiety, but I had to take similar actions to manage :) Best to you, Rob and the kids too!
Thank you so much for sharing. I feel the same way at times. You are able to describe psychosis well. You videos have helped me greatly!
Watching your video from Brazil and wishing the best for you!!!
You helped reinforce my faith in my support network. I'm glad you have a good support system, I hope your symptoms have eased since posting this.
I find your videos so open and honest. Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing it. I hope you feel better now, and if not, I know that Rob will take good care of you 😊
You’re so strong for pushing through and sharing your honest thoughts and feelings during this time.. it’s so important for me to see that others struggle too and you’re appreciated for posting about it.. but I also hope that you’re doing ok and taking that extra time for self care! 💕
Thank you for sharing this, Lauren. And thank you for sharing your story in general. You're making a real and positive impact in the world by educating people. I've been watching your videos for a few years & when a dear friend recently experienced a break from reality, I felt much less afraid and more informed than I think I would have otherwise.
I'm sorry to hear you had trouble last night. Talking about it probably helps people who are going through the same thing though.
Dearest Lauren, thank you for talking with us all today, especially when you're not feeling 100%. X
I so appreciate you sharing this! I've never experienced psychotic symptoms, though I have a long mental health history with BPD and other issues. I've been having a hard time the past few months and this morning was no exception. This is just what I needed to hear/see today, thank you always! Take care
Thank you for your honesty. You are ALL of humanity.
Thank you for your honesty. I’m sure it isn’t easy being so vulnerable. I can only imagine how unsettling that feeling must be. I’m so glad you have a great support system in Rob and that you have learned how to talk yourself through it. I hope you felt better today, and if you didn’t, remember we are all here for you just like you support all of us. ❤️
Thank you for sharing, I really appreciate your insight and explanations. Hope you feel better soon, sending you my love and encouragement 💞
You are a blessing to people who are dealing with this disorder. Keep doing gods work.
I love watching this channel 💜. You're unbelievably strong! Keep on with the keeping on beautiful 💜!
You are so strong and brave. God bless you.
❤️❤️❤️Thank you for being honest and open. Wishing safety to you and all people in their being themselves.
Lauren, I am in awe of you and your ability to show up for yourself. You’re an inspiration to all of us struggling with our mental health!
Is very refreshing listening to you articulate what i have been trying to explain for years now. This feeling that the world isnt quite right. Thanks for being open and vulnerable.
You’re not alone Lauren ❤️❤️ love you so much! Give that baby big hugs for me
Im glad you were able to put the struggle into words. I still have a hard time with that.
I really appreciate you putting yourself out there, Lauren, if you get my meaning. I deal with anxiety and mood disorders and honestly, I feel like such a nutcase from time to time. When I watch your videos I realize that so many of us aren't neurotypical and it just gives me hope that we can all get through this one day at a time. Thank you!
Great content!:)
Sorry to hear that you had a hard night.
Take good care Lauren x