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I had an episode of psychosis in 2019 due to epilepsy. I had been drinking, smoking and took my anti-epilepsy medication. Next thing i remember was being driven to the hospital as i was seizing and my mom telling me i’d be okay while flying down the highway. Then nothing, then waking up in the hospital when people were injecting me with a thick iv because i kept pulling out the smaller IVs. So eventually, as time passed and i recovered partial consciousness and awareness and recognized i was where i thought was a morgue/ hospital room and a shit load of people tryna take care of me when in reality it was only 5 nurses, all of whom i couldnt see their faces. I know it sounds ridiculous, but i saw their faces as blank blurs or smudges but they all had halos. I started calling em angels and was cussing like a sailor and screaming. Eventually, they sedated then i woke up again hours later, in a room with my girlfriend who I recognized fully and my mom. Everything was also incredibly bright, like staring at the sun bright, when in reality it was the middle of the night to which i, according to family, threatened my nurse with violence, stood up, ripped out my IVs and tried to run out of the room. I was then sedated again and came to again hours later in the middle of the day. The weirdest about it was when i would come to in partial consciousness, i would be in the middle of the sentence and become very very stressed as i didn’t know what had been going on for hours that had passed. Then i started hearing voices that weren’t there, which my brain assumed why my wife’s dead dad who was telling me "calm down and shut the fuck up because they’re going to send you to the psych ward." After a while, i started to finally become fully aware, specifically when i wanted to use the bathroom and nurses said im a falling risk and couldnt go by myself. So i had to poop in a portable potty they bring into the room and wipe my ass. The most mortifying moment of my life. Once i was discharged, i learned about all of this except for a few tidbits that my family informed me on, like my violent outbursts, calling everyone angels, praying to god for death and admitting to an affair i had that never actually happened. Psychosis is wild and terrifying , but it’s very comforting to hear other peoples perspectives and their experiences.

I'm currently experiencing a psychotic episode. I have moments of lucidity every now and then and it's so hard, really, I wish I didn't have them and just be completely immersed in my so-called "delusions". It is extremely difficult and confusing having moments of awareness. You're description somewhat alligns with mine. Thank you

Are you on any medications now

That would be amazing! Personally think it should be free, that would make it easier for people to join 😄

I would definitely be interested in joining a community like this!

I was watching a video showing the controversy of the CEO of Scentbird, and funny enough, this video was recommended. Thank you so much for sharing, I had psychosis back in 2020... I hope to never go back again.

You could do a video that would contain some clips of these Instagram stories. Would be interesting to see and hear you discussing them further!

Ive had psychosis 4 times. Now i have psychotic disorder, I hear voices... not sure how to un hear them. Im constantly on edge for my life.

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Thank you for sharing this. As someone who suffers from bipolar, I agree with most everything you said, though it's obvious everyone experiences psychosis differently. For instance, I never thought of myself as Jesus Christ, but something more along the lines of "someone doomed to be an example for humanity." As if I would one day be put on a mass trial (think Amber Heard, but long before the trial ever occurred or was even a thought); or that people from the future had specialized technology and can see me in real-time from 2254, and that they were judging me. It would get so bad that I didn't want to function. I take medication now and have been in therapy for years. I'm really OK, honestly, despite what my fictional CZcams character portrays. (Really, Dan Cowman is just an act.) I'd love to see you cover how the media creates exaggerations regarding these illnesses. For example, I consider Billy Chenowith from Six Feet Under to be wayyyyy over the top, though I've certainly met people like him (they're rare and need serious, serious help). Keep up the good work! I look forward to hearing more from you.

CZcams is one of the best creative ways to overcome depression. The mere fact of having people watching your videos with us engaging in the comments, makes a huge difference. Its a sense of release and contribution to the world. Well done champ and Keep going 🚀

The most important thing in any hobby is enjoying it, I think. Otherwise burnout will catch up to you sooner or later. Great to see you found a topic you both enjoy talking about and can provide valuable insight.

Respect you talking so openly about this. I've never had psychosis but have family members who do so it's very insightful to learn about. I think the part that scares me most is that when you fall into psychosis you might not even notice it or realize that it's happening. Makes me wonder how many people have it but don't even know they have it.

Love it Mike, keep pushing! You're doing amazing. I've always looked at starting a channel (...or, in my case, websites) to be like walking alone through the desert for a long time without knowing where you're going, but believing in your journey. You just have to remember that all the steps (hard work) over time will get you where you want to be as long as you keep pressing one foot in front of the next, day after day, and don't let yourself ever get discouraged by a perceived (<---keyword) lack of progress (numbers, subscribers, revenue, etc). Before you know it, you've made a ton of progress and the results and wins start flooding in.

Appreciate the video, very concise. Haha litter drives me potty too 😂

Mike all your videos are great, thank you for putting this information out there 🙌👏

I am currently dealing with my wife that had a psychotic episode. We are still in a recovery phase. It’s been rough and going on 3 weeks. Her reality is totally different from mine. She lost all her rights and was admitted to a mental hospital. It killed me knowing she was there. Luckily I was able to speak with the judge at her hearing and was able to get her back. I can say the following with absolute certainty. If you choose to help a loved one who has a psychotic episode, be prepared. It is a 24 hour operation. I was lucky enough to get disability from my job. With that being said, it’s completely devastating for me and our children. You are dealing with someone who isn’t their self. The false memories were probably the most painful. The paranoia of someone coming to take them away was bad as well. As we are going through the recovery, the anger coming from her is probably the hardest. It is so had to hold back due to the fact that it’s hard to have a loved one be so mean. The lack of sleep, the loss of their personal IQ, it’s extremely difficult. I would not have it any other way. Between me and her mom and her family, we are doing everything we can to support her. Be warned, if you decide to take a loved one through the healing process, it’s a long hard road. It’s a road I am still on and hopefully we will see the end soon.

Awesome! I wanna go to Alton Towers and Blackpool Pleasure Beach. Which is better? Did you hear Universal Studios is going to build a theme park in UK as well!

my manic episode last year was very very similar to this.

Time and again, the lowest points in our lives end up spurring the change we never knew we needed and/or could actually successfully undergo. I keep a coin on my desk, front: "the obstacle is the way." Rear: "The impediment to action advances action. What stands in the way becomes the way."

it changed my life certainly for the better. without a bottom, there is a good chance i wouldnt have changed my behaviors to lead me to change my life. i would not go to school and major in psychology. there is no way i would be as stoked about life as what i am with out such a terrible time and dealing with more pain than what i likely will ever again.

Good video to talk about the positives of psychosis. I found it hard to find anything positive for myself at first. If it wasn't for psychosis, I never would have gotten a correct diagnosis. I then would have suffered longer, so a silver lining.

Dude ✅ I Am “In”

Seek Jesus Christ man! He’s truly the answer to all of the things that you’re looking for. Purpose, fulfillment, peace, joy. I’m telling you Jesus gave me all of these things you’re looking for man. I promise you I’m not a weirdo, I’m just a person who has truly experienced the true love and grace of God through Jesus Christ!! When I was at my lowest and called on Him in faith & believed that He died for my sins and could give me all the things you listed and I put my trust in Him with my life. And from that day on I’ve had peace. “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭11‬:‭28‬ ‭ESV‬‬ Life still has its ups and downs but the peace that He gave me the day I trusted Him has always remained. “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.” ‭‭John‬ ‭14‬:‭27‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Congrats on the journey, keep it up!

People thought I was delusional conspiracy theorist, then Epsine happened. I wish I was delusional conspiracy theorist and that stuff was fake. 😨

Does it work with Dawn theme only?

I was the same with my diagnosis. I didn't fully embrace it until I did enough study to understand it. Thank you so much for making these videos! ❤

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Thanks for sharing your story, and keeping it short and to the point!

Thank you for sharing your story i experienced similar symptoms to you thinking I was god lol

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Thank you for making this video. My partner is currently experiencing the same thing, and I’m trying to understand psychosis in any way I can so I can support him. Would love to hear about your recovery journey and what you do now to take care of yourself.

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Sounds cool. How do I get myself sectioned?

56 days?! Here in the US they're in a race to kick you out. (Like waiters hurrying you through your meal to clear the table for another diner.) They don't like holding people longer than a week.

Did you believe in God prior to your psychosis?

The way you put it: gradual elevation of energy that (like highly caffeinated and cocaine) overstimulated; heightened awareness; confidence... These are textbook "mania" signs too! Add in talking fast, not sleeping, and shaking like a crackhead chihuahua. It's so bizarre to hear somebody describe something I experience SO thoroughly and with the perfect words. The way it sneaks and builds is like smoke; it trickles in unnoticed at first, and by the time it's noticed, it's usually by a consequence and not the issue itself - with smoke, one smells smoke before they see it, and by then it's already filling a room and a fire is raging; and then psychosis is noticed when the behavior is so odd that it impacts others, but the real issue is what's causing the psychosis. Sorry I'm rambling! o((>ω< ))o

kudos to you for sharing and being so open. there's still such a stigma, so you being willing to help normalise these experiences but just as importantly, simply be honest, is so powerful.

I don't think there was anything wrong with you. You didn't need pathologising or institutionalizing. You needed a shaman to breakdown what you were going through

Wow! Thank you for this! We need more raw and honest videos out there, so well done for braving it. Having struggled with my own mental health for almost 3 decades (PTSD from childhood trauma, depression and anxiety, eating disorders), I’ve seen the harsh stigma attached to it and in recent years seen it more normalised. I’m currently studying towards a psychology degree because I want to find ways to help people suffering with their mental health, where the system fails them. I would be interested in your book too! Thanks, Kaye x

This sounds like a much more theraputic experience than what I went through at a psych ward... We weren't allowed phones, games, music; nothing. We were locked out of the bedrooms from 9 in the morning till beditme (7 pm), so we had to sit around in the hallways and common rooms all day, every day. Like you said, there was a wide variety of people with different mental illnesses, but in my ward it often got violent- lots of screaming, smashing of landline phones, objects thrown, etc. We had the usual vital checkups before bedtime, but one night past 3 in the morning, I woke up to getting my blood drawn! Crazy stuff. It sounds like mental health care is much better in the UK than where I live! I'm glad that you seemed to have a generally positive experience, best wishes and keep it up!

My parents threatened to have me sectioned when i first started having severe panic attacks and i was petrified of being sent to a psychiatric hospital and having no control over anything, the scariest thing I could imagine was being alone having such bad attacks in a place where I knew no one. Even though they would have known how to care for me I'm so glad I didn't end up being sent there bc it would have been so distressing to have been there against my will. Wish videos like this had been around at the time ❤

No structure seems odd why do they do that wouldn’t that make someone go crazier

I think the staff of such hospitals want to 'help' by abusing the patient so badly that he wants to go back to his abusive family. Bc at least at home you can lock yourself in the bathroom. It's better to stay quiet and not seek help bc there's only more abuse waiting for the vaulnerable.

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Great video

It sounds like you either have bipolar disorder or schizophrenia either way I wish you the best. I have BPD myself and I resonate with you a lot