I live with endometriosis - dealing with daily pain
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- It took me a very long time before I finally dared, to talk about what is my biggest battle today.
It's been nearly 3 years since I'm dealing with pain, every day.
I'm just another suffering woman, among hundreds of thousands other people coping with physical pain. It took more than 2 years before I got a proper diagnosis for my chronic condition... I went to see countless doctors, therapists and healers: all in vain. I was feeling really powerless and lost.
I didn't know what was wrong with me, I thought I will never find the real ROOT cause for my daily physical suffering.
Until a few months ago. When an MRI clearly pointed out what the problem was: I have a deep endometriosis.
This video does not talk about this particular disease, but rather about how I try to make my way out of pain and negative feelings.
Although there really isn’t any miraculous healing solution, I can assure you there is one thing that is really working: your inner power. And your ability to heal your body. Because we all are able to impact our biology, to change our own cells, to make them heal.
Let's give time to time, and let's heal patiently. One day at a time. One step at a time.♡
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I can tell my story with endo too. Maybe it can help someone to understand why sometimes it happens. Me and my husband had a child. Short after that our relationship started to break down. I have learned that he was not ready for a child, that it was too much of everything, that he thought he was a child free actually and so on. His behaviors changed towards me. He was rejecting the baby. As a new mom with a new born I was traumatized and heartbroken to accept all his truths. It was the beginning of him mentally and psychologically abandoning me and the baby. Many times I've heard from him things like "no more kids", " If you get pregnant again, I can't take it and we might divorce". What to say? Three years later I started to develop endo symptoms. Some of them were quite specific and I googled to find an answer. To make it more dramatic I have to add that my husband is O&G doctor. When I shared with him that I think I have endo, he assured me it's hard to diagnose without the surgery and my symptoms are quite common in women. Well, 2 more years later I didn't need surgery to be sure, as ultrasound showed I had a endo cyst in my left ovary that was growing slowly and steadily. And that day I saw a subtle change on my husband's face. It was a sign of relief. I have realized he was not concerned that it's hard to manage, it affects my life, I might need a surgery. No, he was relieved it's harder for me to get pregnant. It was very painful to swallow. I know for sure I had no signs of endo through my teen or early twenties, I got pregnant easily with my baby. I don't know, maybe it is genetical in my case. But what I am completely sure about is developing endo was my body's way to adjust to my husband's preferences of not having children anymore. My mother's nature was completely rejected by him. And my body was just trying to adjust. To be fair, he never told me those things before marriage or before the baby was born. The child was planned, he asked for it, I was not sure as I was young. He talked about having 2 kids. His respond and attitude was a complete shock to me. Now we have already divorced for other reasons but deep inside it's been always my biggest pain. I believe some betrayal like this can hurt more than any kind of cheating. I think, we, women, should choose partners very carefully. There are so many ways our feminine self can get wounded in this harsh world. We must come first for ourselves. We must learn to hear our inner voice. We must heal and restore the harmony within ourselves.
Sending hugs and love to all the beautiful sisters out there! ❤♀️💐🌈💖
men and women should choose partners carefully
@@Hellodumbbitchs yes, definitely! It takes a looong time to know someone.
My heart hurts reading your story, I can't imagine how hard it must have been for you. I hope you will be loved by another man as deeply and beautifully as you deserve.
I am so very sorry to hear of the harshness of that extremely difficult experience...I am sure by now you may have concluded by now, that you may have been married to a covert personality disorder of some kind....I pass on this book with care from my heart...the Author is the Devine Louis Hays...The title is: You Can Heal Your Life...I wish you kindness, wellness and peace in body and mind Sister...🌸🫂
You're such a very beautiful soul. I was motionless almost paralyzed when I first saw and heard you. You're voice got into my soul. I wanna love you in the distance because I'll freeze in your presence. I cry every time I watch you. Take care always.
My heart throbbed as I read you. I'm speechless in front of such gentleness, and beauty.
I thank you, deeply. I'm sending you abundant love and light.
Take great care of your soul ♡
Please use birch oil for your pain. It is super healing. It protects your dna, increases circulation, kills microbes, refreshes all your organs, a real gift from our amazing God. Use on the skin or a drop or two or 3 in water. It is a warming oil, so perfect for cold weather. It warms your whole system easily, healing everything! Hope you can get some and always have it!
"Finding peace within your suffering", a brilliant thought. Sharing your simple life teaches that simplicity is the secret to alleviating life's difficulties.
Ohh!! Thank you ♡ You pointed something very true!
I am flabber-ghasted by all the creative, clever and wise means and methods you are using to help yourself feel and become better. What a strong woman you are. Awe-inspiring.
Everything strives to be recognised. When meditating, don't concentrate on the absence of your pain but instead recognize it and give it thanks for doing what it was meant to do. Let it know you are aware and have received it. Then bid it thanks and release it from its bond to you. In my Travels this is what I have learned. There is no Good or Bad; There is only Purpose. Anything that can be; Will be and our mission is to experience it. Once you give recognition to something it will no longer pester you.
" There is no Good or Bad; There is only Purpose. " that's very powerful. ♡
@@VerdantVanille Many of the things you have said are very Powerful as well. We have never met (There are Oceans between us), but while listening to your words; I feel like I have known you and I felt compelled to say something that I have learned that I felt was important in my growth.
I dont know why but something about this comment really resonated with me and im in tears now.. ive been dealing with undiagnosed chrinic pain for years now and it's been so difficult to accept it, but it's here for a reason and i need to accept it..
I love this yes yes yes 🙌 ❤️
I too battled endometriosis disease and had hysterectomy at 28. I had severe pain. I now have daily full body pain. It has been 10 years since diagnosed fibromyalgia, Lupus, and IH. I can feel trapped in a prison of flesh. I have tried to numb the pain ....
Yes, one step one day at a time.
My hope is in YAHuah Elohim... creator of LIGHT power of prayer has helped me !. I Appreciate you video! Very beautiful and soothing. I enjoy the garden, cooking, nature, and the water. I need to stretch and exercise more. It is most difficult but must be achieved! Bless you and your journey!
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I'm sorry to hear about your pain beautiful. But nothing is fatal and you will see your pain go away, I am sure. Until there, I'm sending you all my love and strength to keep learning what your pain has to teach you. ♡
Have you checked to see if caused by EPSTEIN BARR virus? If so, there is natural treatment for it, or can also be B1 deficiency. Take 100mg 3 times a day for at least 3 months, the pain greatly will be reduced, also take maguinesium together 600mg citrate. Soon you discovere freedom from pain.
@@VerdantVanille thank you❣️
@@notadocf538 Thank you for responding. I am taking both as you have suggested. It has been a few years of the Vitamin B and Magnesium Citrate. They have reduced the headaches. I am on 400 mg and will boost to 600 mg to see if that will help with the body pain/fatigue. Going to look up Epstein Barr . Most grateful for your advice. God Bless !!!
Praying u will be alright hugs🙏🏻❤️🌹
There is only so much good thinking can do for disease. Tell yourself what helps you, but it is very important to accept your pain and your illness. Not to lose hope, not to think negatively, not to fail to cope, not to neglect to do what will help you find beauty in yourself and the world. I mean you must accept you are in pain because of an illness and that this is not a function of your failure to alter your genes by the force of your will. That way lies madness. You must retain hope and forgive your physical and psychological weakness while working to improve.
I have a rare disease that has kept me in daily, unending visceral pain since 1991. Since roughly 2000, that pain has been dramatically worse. What I experience in my best moments, physically, would send anyone to look for emergency help. I know very well what you’re trying to process and to find a way through. There is no easy answer, and the few tools medicine and personal-care experts can offer often amount to little but the temporary reinforcement of your own strength and positivity. Even then, some of the best medical tools we have to mitigate are decried irrationally as “poison” for people too weak to handle their suffering - because of a lack of compassion and a misunderstanding of why people choose to abuse drugs and many other things in life.
What people with illnesses - painful or otherwise - need from their fellow humans is a bit of compassion and a broadly mutual sense of generosity. Somehow this seems more difficult for us to offer when the illness or injury involves pain. Especially pain with no visible signs, and this worsens when there is no ready cure or healing regime. Maybe it is the way people in pain can be hard to watch or to hear. Maybe people have the sense or suspicion they are being duped and that the person in pain seeks special treatment for something no one understands well enough just to fix it. Whatever it is, being in pain brings a particular kind of loneliness as friends and physicians grow distant and disappear, and depression and despair naturally wait close by for difficult moments to make life much, much worse.
Find emotional support where you can and greet it with deep gratitude. You already find support in nature and exercise and you have begun the process of calming your mind and body to minimize the damage stress brings as a result of pain. These are enormously important both to hope and thus survival. The problem is that pain in short episodes is one thing and we confuse that with long-term pain. The latter is vastly more difficult to live with and to survive. The body chemistry involved overlaps with short-term pain, but the longer pain lasts, the more the whole metabolism and nervous system becomes part of the issue. Yet the medical world prioritizes short-term pain in understanding the mechanisms of pain and in offering suggestions for how to live with pain and how to treat it.
All of which underlines the burden on the person living with a painful illness. For us, so much rides on self-care and maintaining our own psychophysical equilibrium through stress management, hope, gratitude, and appreciation of what we can do. The longer illness goes on, the more loss accumulates. We cannot dwell in that loss, nor can we set ourselves up for new loss by giving future possibility too much weight - while yet maintaining hope and positivity. It is a nearly impossible balance to strike, especially if the pain is severe - as it is in my case.
For ourselves and our loved ones, we must nonetheless try to find that precarious balance.
Happily, the world is beautiful and we are fortunate to live in it - even if our fellow beings and their machinations sometimes prove to be quite ugly - with the help of the group of people who choose not to flee from us in our compromised states. Just as we came into our illnesses and pain, one day we may leave it. If not, we need to find ways to make this life in pain, in its own, tightly framed way, somehow beautiful and worth living.
Maybe at some point the compassion of our fellow humans will improve. That would make things much easier.
For now, we find the light and beauty where and as we can.
My wife has it too. She, unfortunately, got hooked on various painkillers. She had many laparoscopic surgeries, and this was back when most people didn't know about it and I think the thing that hurt almost more than the symptoms were the people who didn't believe her. I have seen pictures of it from the surgeon. I know it's real. You can have a laparoscopic surgery where they can laser it out. It can grow back, but taking estrogen can help. Apparently, it grows during the ups and downs of the normal estrogen cycle. Taking estrogen can keep your levels more even so it keeps it from growing. Also, my wife has had the pain lessen over time and that was after getting off of the heavy painkillers. Keep your chin up. It can get better and there are ways to deal with it.
Thank you for sharing the story of your wife with me, I really appreciate you taking the time to do this. She must have suffered so much. Removal surgeries are not a good idea to me. The body shows symptoms to send us messages, to tell us we have something in our past, in our present life, that needs to be addressed at the emotional level. Endometriosis, either has to do with the sense of home, of feeling truly good and secure in your "nest" (home). Or it has to do with our relation to desire a child or not. I hope this can be of a help maybe... I'm sending a lot of love to you and your wife ♡
You are not alone my friend. I lived with endometriosis too. I have endometrioma bilateral 8 cm on the right and 7 cm on the left. In July 2022 I suffered a lot of pain with my endometriosis and my uterus was enlarged too. One day , I wake up with a swollen abdomen. I can feel the lump on my left and right ovary and it was tough. I was like a pregnant. It was like a ball inside. In July 2022 I started fasting 20 hour a day till January 15 , 2023 and started drinking Sante Barley every 3 hours when I fast. In January 2023 I wake up with a soft stomach and I can't feel the lump on my abdomen and no pain at all. My cyst was became small on the left from 7cm to 3 cm but on the right still 8 cm but I have no pain already. I still believe that on my next ultrasound my cyts will gone away without surgery. When I was fasting I always talked to God that I would be healed. And my faith was healed my swollen thick abdomen. Praying and fasting are the best way to lessen endo pain. Have faith in God my friend surely He will heal you soon. I hope and pray that one day you will wake up with no pain. I love you my friend. Sending lots of love from Philippines | ❣
I have endometriosis also. Ever since I was 16 years old. The pain was so bad I would almost pass out from it or throw up. I have had 2 surgeries to clean it out, but it always grows back. It's like a mold that just keeps growing. I read a blog that said non- sulpher black molasses helps with cysts, etc. I started taking it, at least 2T. a night and it has helped with the pain on my left fibroid and my hip pain. I also took Endovan, which is specifically for Endo, it helps, but is expensive. I am 52 years old now and in menopause, but I still have pain from the Endo. Thank you for sharing with us. Hugs!
Have you ever watched Alba Weinman? She is an introspective Hypnosis practicioner who has a youtube channel that shows some of the things she is able to do with her practice. I thank you for being real, honest and helping us all think and feel what we individually need to feel. The light shines brightly in you. Thank you for this co-creation.
Many of us suffer this chronic pain/chronic fatigue. I am sorry you have it all such a young age. I have tried so many things and realized that we just do the best we can with what we have. You are doing beautifully.
" we just do the best we can with what we have. " That resonates Shannon. You are such a beautiful person, I feel blessed to be crossing your path. ♡
I've suffered from chronic pain n depression aswel my whole life, I tried to numb it it with alcohol n drugs n it didn't do me any good, it made things 100 times worse, iam nw living my life sober n I'm learning to exercise n simple yoga, I've changed my diet n my mindset, I still have a long way to go, people say I look better for it, I feel better in myself also,we learn all the way through our lives whether from our mistakes or just silly choices we made!, I wish you well ,love n respect!😄💜✌
You so much deserve to feel better and balanced in your life Jamie ♡
@@VerdantVanille We all do!! , I hope you are doing OK with your pains both physically n spirituality!, take care!😄💜✌
"The answer to the pain,
is in the pain."
“Reclaim your power to change yourself”. Very true statement & should apply to everyone
Thank you dear Angie ♡
I have endometriosis too. I try to trick my mind too, telling my body that it's strong and able to reecover. My biggest wish is too be painfree, get stronger. I have a 1 year old son, I want to able to go on adventures with him. I'm fighting really hard for it, but it is veery difficult. I wish you all the best. Stay strong, we will get there one day
Your words are moving me Karin. I know how hard it gets with the pain some days. Today is one of those days and reading your hopeful message is bringing me much light ♥️
You’re exceptionally very smart on how to deal with pain, visualization & how to manifest what you want. Otherwise you might go into depression.
Yes, I do sometimes. But this is part of the process. Thank you dear Angie ♡
I'm so sorry... I'm on my period rn, my pain from cramps is very string, I just cant imagine what it's like to live with it everyday.. I'm so sorry... I'll pray for you my friend, I'll pray for Jesus to cure you...
Vanille a few years ago I was an adamant bicyclist. For two years plus I refused to own a car and use my body to get where I needed to go. Of course I utilize trains and buses that allow my bike only. One morning getting off the ferry I made my way to work and stopped for a bite to eat beforehand. I continued to my workplace downtown Seattle. That morning was wet and I was moving to fast and I went down into the trolley tracks that's below street level. My tire got caught in the track I went into the Matrix. Slow motion I put out my right arm to embrace the fall backwards as not to slide under a parked car. I wasn't sure if I was hurt because of adrenaline rush. I literally tore my shoulder muscles and tendons away from the the ligaments and joint area. I haven't had time to get it repaired. Day, all day and night I feel your pain. I pray for relief for us both. ❤️🔥❤️💯💯💯. Pain runs up and down nowadays, maybe I will stop soon to repair myself. I'm only 62 years 🌱🌱 Young.
Wow! What a brave human you are! Your light always brings peace to my heart. May we both walk to a painfree life ♡
Nothing but love My Queen of hearts 💝💝
What are you thinking, we want to know. Hopefully you are doing well under the pressing situation over there across the pond. I've been there before in 1979 on my way to Costa brava Loretta del Mar. Spain where my people were before the Inquisition in which we move to Scotland.
God bless you sister stay strong 🙏🏼
Much courage to you, I'm quite sure you're on the right path.
What you just wrote truly makes my heart warmer, it gives me even more strength. Thank you SO much, it means a lot. 🤍
Wild woman, you're work is wonderful and inspiring. How you process your pain is inspiring. I've lived for some years with someone who experienced the pain that you do. After a time we discovered that CDB helped reduce her pain significantly. There's some suggestion that it may reduce the inflammation and even shrink/reduce the tumours. As a therapeutic treatment, it takes high dosages of full-spectrum CBD oil, which means with at least 0.5% THC, which in some yet-to-be-studied way helps to activate the CBD. If you can find such a product, then you may find a solution after dosing upwards of 100 mg of CBD (a type of phytocannabinoid) per day, or even more, and over an extended period as it takes time to build up in the system. The short of the story is that there is an endocannabinoid system throughout the body, and phytocannabinoids from plants can play a roll in supplementing that system. Plants like indica sativa, hemp, and maybe even St. John's wort. Though there are other more bioavailable forms. A Candian medical doctor and avid alternative-medicine researcher named Dr. Dani Gordon, based in the UK, has treated many patients with CBD and done a lot of research into the subject, having written "The CBD Bible: Cannabis and the Wellness Revolution That Will Change Your Life." According to Dr. Gordon, the most bioavailable form of CBD is a subdermal patch direct into the bloodstream. Aside from this, smoking or vaping it works well. Thirdly, CBD and THC are apparently fat-soluble, so it can be ingested in oil or baked or cooked with fat, though ingesting is supposedly somewhat significantly less bioavailable than when inhaled. Perhaps it could even be used somehow as a suppository or topically. That said, CBD tends to be expensive, so I suggest you consider planting some strain of high-CBD-content cannabis in your garden, or-if that's maybe illegal where you live for some crazy reason-you might experiment with some St. John's wort/hypericum perforatum, which grows wild around Europe. Apparently, these plants share some CBD properties. For more info, search google for the following, including the quotes: "A mixture of St. John's wort and sea buckthorn oils regresses endometriotic implants". It's not very well studied yet but perhaps endometriosis and the endocannabinoid system are related insomuch as inflammation and general homeostasis. Light, peace and love.
Thank you so much for this VERY detailed advice!! ♡ I appreciate you taking the time to help me, take great care of your heart.
I wish you all the best in dealing with the pain. I live with pain in my spine every day and I know how it makes me deal with my days. There are cures and treatments for you no days. I have a relative that had it years ago, she suffered each day with the pain, but she went thru the treatments which took months and now she is cured, pain free and happy. I hope you too can receive this and be pain free. Best wishes to you.
Your supportive words feel good to read Brian. I truly hope you will find the underlying cause of your spine pain. Seek in your past, as a child especially. Your emotions are talking to you and showing you the way. The way to a pain free life. We will get there my friend, I’m sure. ♥️ I’m sending you so much love and healing light.
I'll genuinely be praying for your healing. Your soul is beautiful. Keep fighting the good fight.
You are touching my heart sweet Michelle. THANK YOU ♡
I did knew this, but I feel your pain and thnx that you shared this. You are more strong then I already th👍
Blessings of healing and joy I wish upon you. I understand the chronic pain of endometriosis.
Take great care of yourself!
You are a beautiful Soul.
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Thank you so much for your kindness, your words are going straight into my heart. Sending you lots of love and light to your wise soul 🤍
Truly an inspirational soul with such emotional beauty.
Reading your message makes my heart dance tonight ♥️
Hope you feel better girl, I hope what you want life finds you and makes you happy, I know all about pain, it definitely can wear a person down
It can, it did. It does and it will. But I'm learning so much along the way. I grow stronger each day. I thank you with all my heart for your support, and am sending you a lot of love. ♡
beautiful video and beautiful You. Thank you for sharing so much with us all here. I resonate with you very much regarding living with chronic pain and the way you describe the path to more healing and the way to think and choose to think, is to me very true and real. Blessings from Spain.💖
Listening to your body and trying to find the root cause behind symptoms is the path asking for most Courage. II makes me happy to watch you walk this same path ♥️
Everything is about energy. Down to the roots of how we are created, atoms is all about energy.
Positive thoughts, affirmation and hope heals us. And most of all love. That creates positive energy.
You are on the right track.
Your words highly resonates in me. You said it, it all comes down to one thing: love.
♡
Beautiful being…. You are so special.
Thank you Evan ♡
Beautiful video. Your content is so real and relatable. I'm can actually be with you as I listen to your story. I can imagine your pain and I can see how that can be anyone of us as humans. There are so many theories being presented on healing. What's most important is that you allow your innate Divine Guidance to show you your specific directions for your healing. You're surrounded by such beauty that's nature. That in itself is one of the greatest healers. I wish you continued healing as your move through your journey. Love from the Caribbean 😘❤️
It always is such a warming moment to read your words, Lionne.
You inspire such peace, and faith. Don't ever let people lower your powerful vibe ♡
Thank you for being here, for supporting me on this journey, you are helping me more than you think.
Such a well made/presentation of your video. You are a very strong woman. By all the activities you keep yourself busy with is a testament of this. Glad to see you are working on yourself in a positive way. You are so correct that your beliefs can heal yourself.
Thank you for sharing this with us, from Henrico County Virginia. Stay safe, secure and happy 😊.
I really feel lucky to count you among this tribe Norm. You are precious. Thank you. ♡
I can relate, having lived with chronic pain since 2012 and no real answers in conventional medicine yet, i relate with everything you said. Thanks for sharing, it encouraged me
Don't thank me dear one, I thank YOU, for having such a kind heart ♡ I'm sending so much light onto your path.
Have you tried a warm cedar bath followed by stretching? Meditate in your cedar bath, giving thanks for its healing and nurturing properties allowing it to soak into you healing and comforting you. Stay in for 33 minutes, get out and slowly stretch.
@@VerdantVanille 🙂
@@garrettsmith8286 what is a cedar bath?
Vanille, you are so loved. You are loved more than you will ever know. You are not alone. ❤️
Thank you Steven. Thank you. ♥️
a beauty with a beautiful mind
You are amazing and brave.. I suffer fibromyalgia so I understand those times of hopelessness
Thank you ♡ Fibromyalgia is to my opinion, often caused by repressed emotions and emotional exhaustion. Take very good care of your heart, I'm sending you love, you're not alone ♡
Do know so well what you are experiencing....robs one's life of vitality....keep courage!
Your internal strength, perseverance and integrity are so awe inspiring... I wish you all the health and happiness that you so richly deserve and your videos are so beautiful! Peace, B
You make my heart smile Brent ♥️
I wish you all the best in your healing path. As you said, concentrate on healing. Bonne chance!!!
Merci mille fois Santiago ♡
I am so touched by your words and authenticity you dont sound dramatic at all you are fully honest. I had to cry a lot while watching your video and listen to your words. I had this feeling for many many years and i exactly did it like you went to sleep and hoped that the pain is gone in the following day. You do so right to look after yourself, talk about the pain, your feelings and your willingness to go further and over it ist so impressive and will lead you hopefully to a painfree life or at least to accept it like it is. I manage it to live for 20 years now with endometriosis and daily pain i just want to thank you to speak open hearted about this topic and your way it will help many woman and it helped me a lot. I really do hope you are doing better meanwhile? I would be very happy about a response from you. Thank you for sharing this videos and i am so glad i found your channel. You do strong healing work with this channel and i wish you that you get great benefit from it. At least i can send you my love and my gratitude. I feel very connected to you and thank you so much. You are a very strong and brave soul. All the best for your way!!! May you always be blessed and feel loved.
Your message is touching my heart to the deepest Melli. I am so certain you will soon find your way back to your heart and health. I send you so much love, and all my light onto your path ♡
Again, I love you❤️
Ohhh!!!! ♡♡
I admire you so much! You are so beautiful and also a positive person ! You WILL get healed , eating healthy and living a simple and stress free life
Thank you so much, kind human ♥️
It breaks my heart to hear your beautiful soul is caged in a body that hurts. I can just imagine how difficult must be to carry on with all the responsabilities and demands of daily life in that kind of environment and setting and still have the courage to step into the awakening process you've chosen, Wow!! it looks so laborious and draining for a woman but you are still managing and keeping you mission to also inspire others through your videos. Thank you dear for sharing your big game. I also had to go through severe pain for about 20 years from an "incurable"neurological health condition called Dystonia, it's a movement disorder which tightens the muscles of any part of the body, in my case was in my neck, so my neck rotated to the left involuntarily. It's a very disabling health condition, I wanted to die for years!. To make a long history short I was diagnosed with Dystonia in 1997, got all the treatments available, including invasive surgery and only made the problem more severe and more chronic, until I "took the bull by his horns" so to speak, and after much studying of all aspects of body, mind and spirit I ended up finding a "way" that reversed my pain from dystonia and any other pain I got along the years after. I helped some selected people and still do using my simple method, it has never failed, 100% effective. I share this because I am interested in teaching this to those who are ready to learn how to immerse themselves in their own energy field because in my many years of helping others, everybody only wants to be healed without questioning what happened, how the pain or discomfort disapered! and I don't want to play healer, thats not what is all about, I only facilitate the process so people learn to do it on their own, we have too many health issues draining our lives now to depend on others, my method is easy and fast but very profound, it can take just minutes once IT is learnt. I'd be happy to provide more details on request.
You touch me so deeply, just watched some of your videos and this one is now ahead of me. As i also suffer from endometriosis and daily pain i am very interested in this video and can understand you so very well. I am curious to get some new wisdom of your video as I experienced to feel deeply touched of your words in previous videos. I am so thankful you share your journey and wonderful beeing here with us. I embrace you!
Dear Melli, thank you for having such a kind heart, the world needs your light ♡
Thank you very much Verdant Vanille. For your videos, for sharing your passions, your vulnerability, your inspiration, your struggles, your creativity, your life, and your liveliness. Thank you. I feel touched by your story, experiences, energy and gifts. Keep this light of yours, I will try to keep feeding mine as well, hoping to shine purer, brighter. Thank you. My best wishes to you. Merci beaucoup.
Wow, you've hit my heart with your light Mar. Thank YOU! ♡
i feel for you. keep up the great work. healthy eating (cultured foods will replenish the good bacteria and microorganisms inside you that outcompete the bad, them ferments are easy to make to), meditation or living in the moment and appreciating every second (power of thought changes the molecular structure of water therefore everything), letting go, giving in, processing everything as it seems you are doing is where its at. our bodies make millions of new cells everyday and we can transform ourselves physically and mentally into different dimensions. your videos inspire me for sure
Ahh... Your reminders are feeling so good today ♡
Thanks for inspiring people to stay positive and making the best of every situation. The way you are busy with positive energy and trust in yourself and time to heal is admirable! Only tip I can give you is to “remember tomorrow “ sounds weird but wanting to say visualisation is like memory’s of the past. Visualising your healed body like it were a vivid memory (of tomorrow) try your best to see yourself moving freely,feel how it felt, feel the sun feel the breeze of fresh air surrounding you.let that breeze of air remove the pain from your body and take it away for ever. God bless you ❤️ I pray for your healing! Stay safe!
Your words feel like a fresh breeze of air Christian! I'm so grateful to be crossing of path of Wisdom. I will remember tomorrow, visualisation has shown me many times its power and effectiveness! Your message was very good to remind me of it! Sending so much love to your heart ♡
@@VerdantVanille Your welcome , take care of yourself! I will keep including you in my prayers in the hope you will soon find perfect health, piece and happiness. God bless you!
I'm so sorry you are dealing with pain. take care of yourself as you always do.
Pain is the most precious teacher I’ve ever learnt from. Thank you so much for your warm thoughts ♥️
There is a peaceful, quietness a gentle deliberateness in the way you bake, talk, arrange your next creative project. Your being is healing, inspiring. Peace be with you. Thank you for the peace you have created in these videos. Would be interesting to hear if your dietary changes mentioned in a later video have helped with the endo. I hope so. You are being, awareness, bliss and I hope the pain and discomfort dwindle and that the recognition of bliss becomes your constant experience.
You are such a talented writer, dear one.
I feel blessed to read your beautiful words, and to receive your eternally meaningful support. I'm looking forward to read you again, please let me know your name in your next comment (I cannot really see the replies to my own comments, the system is not very well thought for that...).
Until there, much peace and love to your heart. Merci encore, ça signifie tellement pour moi. ♡
Hello, beautiful soul! I found you here on youtube. You are inspiring to me. I am 30 years old, have no idea where I am going, barely surviving my soul-sucking job but staying for the money as I am terrified of being left in the wilderness so to say..just generally stuck in my life, with chronic pain and anxiety. I still don't have courage to do what you are doing. You are so brave to put yourself out there like this. You are beautiful and full of strength and energy. You are creating your reality. I hope I will find this strength in myself too. Thank you for sharing 🥰
The power Maria, you have it. It is already there, within you. Maybe your tank is empty and you need both time and REST to replenish it.
You have understood much more than most people ever will in their lifetime. Be kind to yourself Maria, be patient because I can tell you for sure, you walk one the right path. Just remember, one step at a time. Forward, always. ♡
You are awesome
I don't know how I stumbled upon your videos but I'm glad I did. You are such a sweet soul. Humble, open, kind, curious, and joyful. A beautiful flower in the garden, creating beauty from your simple lifestyle. In me you bring up feelings of wistfulness, a longing to be young again and make better choices than the ones that have made it difficult for me to be here. You are fortunate to live in such a beautiful place. Nature heals and I wish you well on your healing journey. Blessings ☯
Your words mean so much to me ♡
I have spoke to my Father and we have taken this pain from you. I bless you child. Your blessings have arrived just like you have prayed for.
Ive always had this and after mono twice spinal meningitis people still dont believe the agony i live. They think im just dramatic. Theres something not right with me but i cant expect others to understand.Im lucky to not be homeless and my bus driving job was taken away. Am i just too sofy well maybe but i have had stomach pains too and theres never enough bathrooms. Not sure whats wrong but sympathy was never given from my mother. My father couldnt understand why somedays he said i was the best kid on my sports teams and then some day couldnt tie my shoes. Trust me Verdant theres many mnen that would feel like the luckiest man in the world to have a woman that feel the pain your feeling and to have someone that understood them. Youre a very beautiful amazing woman.
I hate to read how much you suffer. You do not deserve any of this. I’d recommend you to go and see an energy healer, a good one.
That will change your condition at the very least.
You are on a blessed path of self-discovery. Going through darkness and pain is one of the most important periods in our lives. Don't be discouraged, you're on the right track, warrior. Much blessings. Be safe!!! Sending love
Your kind words make my heart hopeful, thank you, deeply. ♡
@@VerdantVanille We need each other in these crucial times 💜
I just found yoir videos tgis morning. Thank you for showing up and I have dealt with pain too. I am healing right now after 6 yes and a horrible xar accident . I pray your pain is gone. What's been working for me is what you said about visualize myself healed and try so hard the days my pain so bad I don't feel I want to live another second and all I can do is lay there and breathe in and breathe out. I am a massage therapist too not practicing right now. Hope to be able to soon. Please keep making videos they touched my heart. And know that all your needs will be taken care of. One thing I've learned is we have to use law of attraction and also being the frequency of what we want and know it will happen in divine time. All your desires are already met and judt enjoy the journey. Sending much love to yoir ❤️ heart..
You speak words that resonate with me, dear one. Thank you so much for your meaningful support, it means SO MUCH to me. Sending you all my sincere love ♡
I live with pain as well ♡ a calm life is my only hope
Bonsoir Vanille,
What a beautiful video.
I'm sorry to hear of your journey through pain. I resonate with your experience. I went through 3 years of pain around my sternum. The doctors were helpless. I knew it was emotional and I had to make changes. Like you, I listened to my body. I sat in silence with the pain for hours and days until I could hear its story. And gradually, I started to make decisions.
I reached out. I let go. I took my chances and said my goodbyes. In the end, I had to leave everything behind and build a new home in the heart.
Life can be understood backwards but it must be lived forwards. The answers will come. You are on the right path. Take care, -R.
Dear Roji,
Your message is touching me, at the deepest level. It comforts my heart to know you have healed through listening to yours.
" Life can be understood backwards but it must be lived forwards. The answers will come. " This, resonates.
You speak powerful and authentic words my friend, I feel fortunate to learn from your wise soul.
Much love and light on your trails ♡
Oh, Verdant , all blessings.
I recommend what
I do several times a day. I sip warm water by holding my head up as I drink it than lowering my head way down and then swallow.
Sure you visit the rest room more but you purify your blood stream.
This has been known in Countries of India, China, in Japan they drink Oolong and Green Tea, also Cloves in a tea ball in boiling
Water for 5 min.
I went thru a lot I had elephantitis my calf was as large as my thigh. My walkin was 3x as slow.
I found a program with specially trained Lymph Edema Therapists who trained at an extention of UCSD one hr north of San Diego Calif.
Any way I took the 6 week courss and my calves are normal size now.
I need to wear compression socks and leggings to keep the L. E. From coming back. Its ok far better than elephantitis .
Then I had the C. VIRUS, THEN a bad
Bronchitis with a terrible lingering
Cough, I kept drinking warm water always swallowing with my jead down near my chin
I just kept telling myself ,> Just Keep Going, Keep Going
Vera, The Truth, Thank You Vera, Good th Hear ftom You, Mountain, Natute Girl,
You.make my day, You make my Life
Happier, Blessings,
Keep Going ,Yes, Pretty Soon It will.make more sense, it will change, things are getting better, we're going thru a phase transition and pretty soon we'll be in a good place with good people with good friends we only need to help our friends and to help nature who is the Creator of You and Me and this Universe and Everything, that is our karma. We dont mind the selfish, greedy. Unfair fools they have their karma. We have a very very good karma this is our final test and we will pass it and get into a new age a pure natural one of all good everywhere only good friends no greedy war loving materialistic fools only good just pure Sattwa, Sat Chit Ananda, Absolute Pure Consciousness,
Brahm, Wholeness. Totality,
Very good to hear
from You, Vera
Nature Girl
I wish you all the best with your health.
You are very kind Terry, thank you! ♡
Super Motivational ❤️
Thank you beautiful ♡
Your such a beautiful soul so beautifully written and spoken. Keep inspiring others your a inspiration ❤
I'm so happy my content is inspiring you, thank you for your support, it means so much to me ♡
Amazing video! I'm sure you will heal yourself and be pain free soon 😘 You're doing an amazing job ❤️
Thank you is not strong enough to tell you how grateful I am to have your support 🤍
Please note that in order to take these videos she is NOT alone here, nor anywhere she goes to. This is not a solitary trip.
Libra
Vanishef
Feels stiff USA FLAG
I'm sorry to learn about your chronic pain. It's hard, I know. I've had chronic pain for 17 years now through fibromyalgia. Mine condition is an auto immune disorder. I go through regular daily pain with more intense flare ups from time to time. I don't know much about endometriosis, but I do understand how dealing with constant pain wears on your mind, body and soul. For me, I had to realize I'd be dealing with it for the rest of my life (so I could stop fighting against it so hard) and mourn the life I thought I was going to have. That took quite a few years. But I've now settled into a mindset of acceptance and a slower rhythm of life that allows me time to stop and deal with it properly when a flare up happens. And my physical body has gotten used to having some degree of pain all the time. So I'm doing a lot better. But for you, there may be options to rid yourself of the issue. I hope you're seeing a doctor to help you with it. I just wanted to tell you that I understand and wish you all the best in dealing with it.
Hi darling, I am on a similar journey. Five years of stomach pain, I want to say all the pain I sat with was in layers. I surrender and realise my body is creating pain as a protective mechanism from feeling painful past emotions. After lots of deep meditation and presence, I can feel the healing progress working over time & believe it is only a small matter of time before you will be healed. You’re doing so well. send love to your journey xx
Only a matter of time and intention, thank you so much for your precious and so encouraging words Amy ♡
Praying u will be fine🙏🏻❤️🌹
Thank you so much for your kindness ♥️
I very much relate, I have had chronic pain for a number of years now. It makes life very challenging. Thanks for sharing your process.
We will heal, as long as we accept to listen to the messages behind the pain and symptoms. We will be pain free ♡
@@VerdantVanille beautifully said, thank you for the reminder
Beautiful scenery. I hope you are healed, if not read on. I have recently discovered (experienced decade of endometriosis pain) that it’s often caused by an ecoli bacteria. Mine was shiga-ecoli toxin. There’s recent studies on this although few doctors aware. An informed naturopath or herbalist will be able to advise. A good probiotic to rebalance is highly beneficial! I take thyme tincture and ashwagandha tincture, (oregano also helpful) to tackle the ecoli (intolerant to antibiotics). It takes time but pain has lessened. Other studies mention camomile tea but that seems more to calm than eradicate. Bless you. x
Thank you 😊
Thank YOU!
Hey sweetheart! I’ve just binged your videos and I can’t tell you how much they’ve inspired me. I’ve always been wanting to live a secluded and peaceful live close to nature but never really got the courage and confidence to do it. Though I haven’t got the skills to live in the wild like you’re doing, I aspire you. Can you please tell me where this place is, the location with mountains and lake where you did your yoga? I’m not sure whether it’s Norway or Sweden. Sending you loads of love ❤️
Thank you so much Lasya ♡ This place is in France, south west. In the Pyrénées.
Alright... Ive learned something by watching your videos... Life can be beautiful!!!! Regardless of the subject, you make it beautiful.
I knew that and i also live with back pain but these brief moments watching your videos recharge and inspire me.
Thank you
Ps. Im starting my own woodworking
Business. I know if i don't try then i truly fail. A new journey begins.
Woooow!!! That's absolutley fantastic! Please let me know how this new journey evolves, there's so much to learn ♡
My best friend finally had a hysterectomy after dealing with it for years. Praying for you.
I’m sorry your body is in pain! You have such a beautiful, strong body that looks so healthy externally!
Im sure you will learn much on your journey of healing, and I’m sure you will heal with natural and spiritual remedies!
You have no idea how much your words are touching me Miranda.
I'm trying hard to let my higher self heal my physical body. It will come, I know it too. You're such a kind, pure and beautiful spirit ♡
Gosh, so stunning. Not dramatic for even the slightest moment but so full of love & wonder.. Perhaps, on a small side-note, you would consider making a beautiful book of your recipes. I have recently put a real emphasis on the water and food that I consume, I want to learn more, make more food myself. And you're so inspiring for all of this and more. With Love always, Mikaela
Hello there, Vanille (green vanilla?!)! (I used to have a blog called Fru Gurkmeja, which means Mrs. Turmeric!). I'm so glad your channel showed up in my CZcams feed last night. Very new subsciber. I've watched some of your videos and I really enjoy them. You have a gift.
Like another person who commented below on this video, I also immediately thought of Christina Kjaer, who since about half a year runs a Women's Circle. Christine also has a YT channel. She is a Danish young women who lives in a cabin in the north of Sweden (together with CZcamsr Kalle Flodin). Christine is an educated hormone therapist. One of Christine's expert areas is endometriosis.
When I was 36 years old I got diagnosed with endometriosis. Then when I was 51 yrs in 2011 I was diagnosed with a disease of the connective tissue (tissu conjonctif), Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. I can handle the daily pain, but I really detest the fatigue.
I see you practice yoga. I did Satyananda yoga for many years, and also worked as a yoga teacher (one of the symptoms of EDS is hypermobility). I'm really looking forward to watching your other videos.
Kind regards from Ditte in the south of Sweden
I'm very happy you enjoy my content and it's my greatest pleasure if you you could identify to my endometriosis story. What a journey you have been on! Thank you very much for the advice, I'll go check out that channel. I'm sending you much love and light ♡
I have been living with chronic back and Pelvic pain when I fell pregnant.with my daughter 16 years ago.
16 years of constant pain, 24 hours a day, and I can tell you that I'm struggling but I an still here.
I've been contemplating suicide for a while so the fact I am.still here so I guess that's something.
I understand EVERYTHING you said. It is so hard to explain to someone how desperate to feel.no pain for a week, a day, or even an hour. I am clinging onto hope that some day medical advances will cure my problem but I am facing the fact it will never be healed. But talking about it with people who know and u understand you is incredibly helpful. Knowing you are not alone.
One piece of advice I have, is try hard not to give up and try to remain as active as possible. Because I couldnt do everything I used to, including running and swimming, I started to gain weight after being skinny my entire life. And the problems I have had since my weight gain have made my situation a lot worse.
I know it hurts and I know it's hard but try to stay active 🥰
Do not ever say you will never be healed Dawn. You WILL heal and be pain free one day. For that, you need to believe in it first. I don't know what is the REAL root cause of your chronic pain. I would recommend you to seek in your past, in the traumatic events of your life. Your relationship with your parents and family.I know it hurts but don't look any further than that. That's only my opinion but it is the very and only one I am so certain about. Don't lose hope, because light is on its way to you, if you dare to listen. Listen to what hurts you, still to this day. In the heart, in the mind.
I'm sending much light onto your path and hope you will soon be pain free ♡
I'm verry like your video😊, verry good for me when i feel not good feeling
I have had endometriosis since I was 15, now 44... Painful debilitating condition and it represents itself in many ways. It's not a gynecological condition but an all over body inflammation. I was vegan for 6 years, it nearly killed me. I am now transitioning to a low carb, gluten free, high animal fat carnivorous diet. It has helped tremendously!!! Removing most fiber and high sugar fruits no longer makes me bloated and I don't look like I am pregnant from bloating. Highly recommend considering in addition to mind, gratitude etc.btw it's hard not to be overtaken by pain when you are in pain, don't be hard on yourself!!!
Ur videos r like movies
Thank u for being in our lifetime
My beloved V
And I really wish u to find ur health and whatever u search for
You are so kind sweet Jenny, thank you so much ♡
Im sorry ❤❤❤
Thanks!
Oh Rojo… You’re such such a beautiful kind hearted man. I feel so grateful to be crossing your light. THANK YOU 🤍
I’m so sorry for the pain that you’ve been feeling. Remember, we love you and care for you, is there a cure? I will do some research on my on too
Thank you so much for your kind thoughts ♡
As someone who has lived with terrible physical and emotional pain for decades, I understand your pain. I have had surgeries, therapy, pain killers, different natural treatments and more. That has helped enough to make life bearable. I have not had any relief with meditation or trying to embrace the pain or trying to fight the pain.
All the mind work or body work in the world will not make serious illness go away that I am aware of.
Pain is the bodies way of telling us something is broken inside and it’s up to us to listen and to lessen the possibility of it getting worse.
Some must leave an abusive situation, some must have therapy or even medical intervention. Some are healed by God.
Pain changes us, it can rob us from joy and our dreams, don’t let it. I hope you will seek the help available to rid yourself of your pain, it’s probably not going to go away on its own without some sort of treatment.
I encourage you precious one to seek out what you need and no longer suffer, to once again be happy and sound. ❤
Your words are soothing dear one. I send you my love so it can hopefully alleviate a bit of your pain ♥️
Also I strongly recommend Dr D'Adamo 's book, Change Your Genetic Destiny is a genius book on finding out your healing superfoods and your avoid foods that cause inflammation. This has transformed our lives! Enjoy a new life!
Living with daily pain is so difficult. Having hope, makes a difference in attitude.
I pray the pain will leave your body. 🌺
I'm doing my best to attract healing, thank you so much Helana ♡
Hi sister, it's been 7 years i have been living with endo. I was 26 when i was diagnosed. One day i was taken to emergency and doctors said that i have a grapefruit size of cycst and they will remove all my ovaries including my womb. They were trying to convince me to the surgery room as i was refusing by saying that i wanna experience motherhood, they bitterly laughed at me telling that it is impossible. I boiled with their attitude and i said with my innervoice 'challenge accepted.' Voila, i gave birth to my baby with those grapefruits. I should say it is whole of a journey of awareness and enlightnening and healing. I feel this thing in me is a bad ass teacher. If it wasnt existed would i ever wonder what a womb and study on it or what and how herbs are healing, what do i lack, where is this thing coming from, what is my body telling me with all these frustration, pain and growth of something so sticky and of a colour of the dark chocolate. It pushed me to the way of healing. And i have been still working on it always with hope and i feel when i truely understand why it is there and what is the key to get it disappear it will disappear. In the meanwhile i tried many ways of healing, not quite persistent in any of it, yet i did many. I made affirmations,too, that i am healthy and so on but i guess what i need is the knowledge why it is there rather than sending it away without the knowledge. Somehow i can suggest 'bioresonance' definitely works for pain and growth, and the very dear sacred herb 'vitex-agnus' to help balance hormones and get clarification of the mind. I heard some people went for onion cure * (i can tell it in detail if you ask me) and their cycst disappear (up to the size). I am a wind type of person with a lacking of responsibility and self discipline,which i have been working on it. Also i have been working on my roots as this case has a lot to do with it. Breathng in your abdominals, contracting the muscles and then releasing is a good method for the pain ( increasing the blood circulation), as well. This case is mostly caused by stagnant blood flow and damp. I wish you and all women including me the healing we need we receive it. Greetings
Your story is very inspiring Soru ♡ I believe your wound is your gift. Just like mine! Sending my love to you and your baby!
I know this is super late, but I just came across your page (hopefully you’ll see this at some point) I have chronic pain in my back from a back injury. I also had endometriosis for months but I was in pain 3 weeks out of 4 weeks a month. I had the surgery in March 2021 and omg was it the best thing I ever did, that stomach pain is gone, of course the surgery comes with sacrifice if you eventually want a baby then ofc you can’t do the surgery cuz they take ur uterus and Fallopian tubes, I already have my daughter and don’t want no more so I did it and it has been fantastic. My back pain is enuf pain for me I couldn’t take no more.
I'm happy you finally are out of pain my dear ♡ You so much deserve to be pain free!
Still, I will never have anything removed from my body. I cherish it too much and I deeply believe this endometriosis is just a symptom of a deeper root, an emotional state that needs to be addressed. I believe my body is simply sending me signals so I can fix things and move forward ;)
Nice production 🐸
Thank you Jozef ♡
I empathize. I recommend berries..goji..This can also be helped by using a lunar calendar till your days of menopause. There are few physicians who understand the daily needs of such patients.
You are lovely inside and out.
Merci beaucoup Michael ♡
He is also the Great Healer!
Verdant thanks for the video...the above information said this was taken 5 months ago...how are you feeling now? Please let me know....
40 Hz healing frequency next to your sleeping place at night is worth to try out.
I'm in pain everyday for last 3 years... And I still don't have a diagnosis, but I start to fear that it is endometriosis. Some doctors said I have IBS, but i don't feel better with any IBS medication or diet (foodmap).
But there is a new development in Japan! They are working on new treatment for endometriosis! It's monthly antibody injections, human studies are starting and let's hope it will come soon 🤞
I am an eccentric person and love good natured humour.These features help me to deal with pain of many kinds.There are times where there is little choice except to bear it.It may even strike me down.Yes.Make me fall.Yet,I make sure to rise again.I may fall once more.No.No.I won't give up.I will get up.Really slowly but surely.Let them laugh at me.Make fun of me.Or even pity me.This only makes.me delve deeper into myself to discover what is it that makes me special.Unique even.
When I see you walk through the woods confidently,you remind me very much of Artemis.
Your words speak to my soul ♡
Artemis is always here to inspire and guide me while meditating! I'm smiling to read you mentioning her! Take big care dear one.
I'm watching you prepare vegetables and in my mind I'm hoping "please don't slip and cut fingers". It's a chef thing, we are always conscious of how other people use knives.
Otherwise keep being your beautiful self and soul.
I am glad your video came up as suggestion. I am sorry to hear you are suffereng so much, I am too. I just found one book in the library by Wendy K. Laidlaw 'How I ended my endometriosis naturally' and I found it to be useful, Im trying for myself her suggestions. Hope you can find it useful too. God bless you, stay strong and positive 🤗❤️
I will have a look to this book lovely, thank you so much for sharing! Let me know how your symptoms go in the future, I really hope you will soon be in a pain free body. Sending you so much love, and pure healing light ♡
Dear soul, there a great tea if taken for 10 on 10 days off it will heal endometriosis, another cause of it could well be Iodine deficiency. The tea name is Uxim yellow and gats clown, you take one in the morning and the other at night one cup. This tea is also great for women having difficult getting pregnant it can take from 10 to one month to conceive...for those trying to. Love your videos! Dont worry, you'll be free from endometriosis soon .All is well.
Thank you very much for your thoughtful and kind advice, it means a lot to me ♡