it hurts, but I still decided to become the main character of my own life

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  • čas přidán 9. 10. 2021
  • The past few weeks have been very intense for me, a lot of decision making and big life changes occurring... I've been tuning in into myself and reframing absolutely EVERYTHING, everything that is shaping my current life.
    I've had a hard time admitting how much I live by my ego. But today, I'm finally ready. To listen to my soul.
    Life is not about the people in your life, it is about YOUR-true-SELF ♡
    Sending light and love to all of you on this beautiful journey of the soul.
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Komentáře • 317

  • @VerdantVanille
    @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +61

    Hi sweet souls ♡
    I hope this week’s video will maybe guide you…To listen a bit more to your very powerful inner self, and to dare being your higher beautiful self.
    Sending you all lots of love and light ♡

    • @rajdeepsinghrajdeepsingh5804
    • @markmcdaniel304
      @markmcdaniel304 Před 2 lety +1

      Much love back! I'm off grid in Florida. But not nearly as much as you. You are so beautiful!😃

    • @garydodd3542
      @garydodd3542 Před 2 lety +1

      Hello there!!
      Not off grid
      Bout would like to be
      Prepared if the grid goes
      For a spell
      Anyway!! Love your honesty
      That your are yourself
      Best advise ever BE YOURSELF !
      I will continue to watch, like and support!
      God Bless!!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      @@markmcdaniel304 ohh!! Thank you so much Mark ♥️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      @@garydodd3542 thank you so much for your support Gary, it means so much ♥️

  • @she_wizzdom4410
    @she_wizzdom4410 Před 2 lety +46

    Yes, yes it hurts alot! The pain makes it difficult to appreciate anything else. Right now I'm in the middle of that pain, the gut wrenching pain of being abandoned by every single person you have ever trusted. I am beginning to see that you are only allowed to love people but never depend on them.

  • @billlincolnmd9159
    @billlincolnmd9159 Před 2 lety +50

    You have a gift as a filmmaker--to project a message. Keep going
    forward. On the path less travelled.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +7

      I thank you with all my heart Bill, this means a lot to me. The path less travelled, I’ll keep that anchor in my mind.

  • @rifleman1873
    @rifleman1873 Před 2 lety +23

    The whole world could stand to listen to you, but few will.

    • @TJ-kk5zf
      @TJ-kk5zf Před rokem +1

      Depends on how many times she takes her shirt off.

    • @garyburchgb
      @garyburchgb Před rokem

      LOL. That's deep honesty.

    • @deadreckoning6288
      @deadreckoning6288 Před rokem

      @@TJ-kk5zf Stupid comment. It adds nothing positive. You have some growing up to do.

    • @TJ-kk5zf
      @TJ-kk5zf Před rokem +1

      @deadreckoning6288 you utterly lack a sense of humor. grow up and quit being such a stick up the ass prig. she clearly wants to gets attention by tit teasing. I was humously pointing that out.

  • @kseniyasbooknook4172
    @kseniyasbooknook4172 Před 2 lety +22

    Such a raw and honest video!! It takes tremendous energy to reject the societal programming and to become conscious of it in the first place. As children, we need the people around us to approve us or we feel unsafe, since we might be left without food or shelter. Undoing that programming and choosing our critics consciously is a lifelong task! Beautiful video!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      I agree beautiful, a lifelong task! Thank you for your meaningful support Kseniya ♡

    • @jeanwagner1977
      @jeanwagner1977 Před 2 lety

      czcams.com/video/GqNYD6U20AM1/video.html/2

    • @kseniyasbooknook4172
      @kseniyasbooknook4172 Před 2 lety

      @johnnytheprick I don’t suggest rectifying them, that’s a job too big for one person. I suggest 1) becoming really aware of what society expects from us and realizing that those expectations are arbitrary and have been very different in different societies throughout human history 2) looking very courageously and honestly at yourself and find work that brings out your authentic best, whatever that is

  • @mylightofsunrise
    @mylightofsunrise Před rokem +9

    Being true to oneself is the most courageous way to live 💙💛

  • @SilkeVdS
    @SilkeVdS Před 2 lety +7

    I too struggle with wanting to be liked be everyone. Feeling like I am not enough and I need to do MORE. I need to be one way with this person and another way with that person, or they will not like me. It's gotten so bad that I don't really know who I am anymore. Thank you again for your message and video ❤

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      I so much feel, and hear you. It's hard to stay yourself when you are an empath. Because we so much want to make people feel good, and we want them to accept us, we are like chameleons. But is that really a bad thing?
      Today I tend to see it as a talent, an ability to play different roles to fill different missions. You know who YOU are deep inside, when no one is watching. And the ones who get to see that, the real you, are the lucky ones. Your precious people only get to see that. And I think this is beautiful.
      You are not alone my friend, I'm like you, and I am here for you ♡
      Stay true to your heart, because you have such a shining one.

  • @topistarkanzarwa9724
    @topistarkanzarwa9724 Před 2 lety +15

    That is kind of life. Thank you for sharing. You have made me affirm my descion to go country. I don't have to live according to other people's standards. Thank you once again. You are really human.

  • @davidcox9371
    @davidcox9371 Před 2 lety +6

    You have become the person you were meant to be...celebrate your life!!

  • @richardfrancis2860
    @richardfrancis2860 Před 2 lety +3

    Ego is a delusional form of one's own self glad you are aware of the ego it makes it easier to drop it.
    Once you drop the ego you will be less burdened.

    • @richardfrancis2860
      @richardfrancis2860 Před 2 lety +1

      Ego is all that you go on accumulating through education, manners, civilization, culture, schools, colleges, universities… You go accumulating it. It is your effort, you have made it, and you have made it so big that you have completely forgotten your real self.
      OSHO

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Those are words of truth Richard! The ego is inevitable, but we must learn to notice when it talks. ♡

  • @itsjustme9354
    @itsjustme9354 Před 2 lety +10

    You seem to have an honest loving relationship with yourself its an inspiration to me.

  • @Rabbi393
    @Rabbi393 Před 2 lety +9

    I just listened to this video the last couple days. I'm much older and I find peace this way. The ego is of the mind but not soul. The ego thrives in the lower chakras and soul is forgotten. The two are separate. We have those moments where soul is at the front of the line and we then feel joy on those days. One of my tricks is to practice being my own best friend, especially with the higher self. I have a French Daughter and I've linked your CZcams channel to her. She's on an adventure in one of the Portuguese Islands. Hiking and Photography. She's just a couple years older then you. I spoke with her today.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +4

      You teach me things James! It appears like you have explored the many corners of your soul, I am so grateful to be crossing your path, wise man.
      Thank you so much for sharing my channel to your daughter, it makes me smile and fills my heart. Take big care of your beautiful being James ♡

  • @glaight6362
    @glaight6362 Před 2 lety +2

    Don't be afraid to find yourself. When you find yourself, all that is good and bad and still learn to love yourself, only then can you truly love others

  • @dennisoverholts8396
    @dennisoverholts8396 Před 2 lety +8

    You have an amazing soul and your tenderness: willingness to searchnwithin to find the true reason we are on this planet is so amazing.

  • @brightideasjones8377
    @brightideasjones8377 Před 2 lety +4

    Love you first you cannot control what people may say or think about you.just live your life as you see it.

  • @Cr-in5cr
    @Cr-in5cr Před rokem +5

    I love your vibe so much. I resonated especially with the part where you talk about that life is for yourself.. its so true!
    All the love, from the Germany!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +3

      You have no idea how happy I am if I could inspire a kind heart like yours ♥️

  • @cmpremlap
    @cmpremlap Před 2 lety +12

    You are worthy of love. Especially for yourself.

  • @mxbadboy263
    @mxbadboy263 Před 2 lety +2

    People saying bad thinks about others strokes their ego. All the emotional pain I've felt in my life has been from other humans. Being cruel to me for no other reason than they could.

  • @joycefiodembo3931
    @joycefiodembo3931 Před rokem +2

    I'm going through a different season in my life in 2023. So happy I found you. Your messages are perfect and inspiring me to have courage during this season. Thank You!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +1

      You got this Joyce ♥️ Enjoy this season of introspection and rest!

  • @jerrylloel6331
    @jerrylloel6331 Před 2 lety +8

    The opinion from others is merely a reflection of one's self , thank you for sharing your most wonderful spirit 🥰🙏😎

  • @ca6177
    @ca6177 Před rokem +1

    I love to listen to you, I have many times felt the same way! I'm much older than you, 68 years old, wish I had had to courage to articulate my feelings as you do! Keep walking your journey as you see fit. Take care, enjoy life! You are wonderful just as you are!

  • @myfuturepuglife
    @myfuturepuglife Před rokem +2

    I've gotten really really good at not caring what others think. Caring about all of those opinions can become crippling. My self worth is not in a traditional toxic job. I'll be me and they can deal with themselves. Love your videos!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +2

      Be you honey, that's the most beautiful thing on earth. ♡

  • @mygoditsfullofstars9148

    The people we meet or encounter are a reflection of part of ourselves.
    We only meet those that are already in our subconscious.We have summoned them.

  • @JoelLessing
    @JoelLessing Před 2 lety +2

    You are such a beautiful, intelligent, and sensitive woman. Truly you are a treasure in this entire universe.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Joel! Your beautiful words are filling my heart with joy ♡ Please stay true to yourself and keep shining on the world!

  • @deadreckoning6288
    @deadreckoning6288 Před rokem +1

    I love what you said at the end there.....lets make it magical. I hear you sister. This world is filled with magic though few can see it and the powers that be continually seek to destroy it. We are blessed on this planet and I have been fortunate to live with magic in my life at times. Never take it for granted as it can disappear from ones life as quickly as it appears. Your videos are beautiful and inspiring. Blessings ☯

  • @snakeeyesjoe
    @snakeeyesjoe Před 2 lety +6

    Thanks for sharing your life girl and just do it do what makes you happy if you can make it don't listen to what other people say. Stay healthy love you girl long live the my Queen 😘

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +2

      Your words are reminding me to live for myself and not for others. Thank you, dear one. For your wisdom. ♡

  • @jerrypruitt7432
    @jerrypruitt7432 Před 2 lety +4

    live for yourself an not anyone else. you can never please all people. only one life live it for u. GOD bless.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +2

      I cannot tell you how much your reminder feels good right now. Being true to ourselves is such a powerful thing 🤍

  • @xoannguyen246
    @xoannguyen246 Před rokem

    the most honest and vulnerable slow living youtuber I've known, most of the times I find other lifestyle youtubers pretentious :)

  • @christinabingham1477
    @christinabingham1477 Před 2 lety +4

    I love the honesty and beauty of this.

  • @lilliewinter3140
    @lilliewinter3140 Před rokem +2

    My soul yearns to be in a peaceful state. Thank You for your videos it gives me hope and peace until that time arrives.

  • @marco1324661
    @marco1324661 Před 2 lety +3

    You are such an amazing person, thank you so much for sharing with us your beautiful soul and thoughts. I love to see that there are people like you in this world, who are deep and have "substance" in their soul I do not know a better way to explain it... People like you make me feel more normal about myself , my interests and values and who I am, I can see so much of me in your videos and thoughts. Thank you I feel healed (a bit) ;)

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Oh! Your words are touching me dearly Marco! Thank you so much for taking the time to write them, it means a lot.
      It is my greatest honour to inspire a kind soul such as yours, you are not alone, we are connected.
      Light to your heart ♡

    • @marco1324661
      @marco1324661 Před 2 lety +1

      ​@@VerdantVanille Thank you too :) I just discovered by chance your channel and was astonished by how much I could relate to your thoughts and values and everything you said, its like I am seeing myself, but you are kinder than me ;) I really admire you and I wish you all the best.

  • @christinabingham1477
    @christinabingham1477 Před 2 lety +4

    I think you are so incredibly talented in so many areas!

  • @GuillaumeFeelgood
    @GuillaumeFeelgood Před 2 lety +11

    Love this video! Woh, what a production again!
    Thank you for your words, it always make me think about my habits and my own thoughts... Love and light ❤

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +3

      I couldn’t be more grateful reading your words.
      It’s about the journey right?!
      Thank you so much for the eternal support, love and light 🤍

    • @tinydancer2951
      @tinydancer2951 Před 2 lety +1

      Yes it is beautifuly done. Who films you?

  • @bluedolphin4366
    @bluedolphin4366 Před rokem

    this is me .and it was nice hearing this from someone else , I have just learned last year why life has effected me so much over the years , finding I have c.p.t.s.d , from a counselling . now I am trying to heal my inner wounds slowly , I wish you luck on your'e healing has one with nature , 🐬

  • @joanae8189
    @joanae8189 Před rokem +1

    I am so happy I found your channel this year 2023. I am so excited to follow your content.

  • @spirit_1111
    @spirit_1111 Před 10 měsíci +1

    If you only really knew how others see you. I found one of your videos tonight and i am literally watching them all. You are perfect. In every aspect.

  • @leavemebee
    @leavemebee Před 2 lety +4

    Thank you for allowing us to heal as you heal 🙏 💛

  • @skiphamblin2185
    @skiphamblin2185 Před rokem

    Yes, it always hurts, and does so every day. But there are a lot of us who do this.

  • @jess9038
    @jess9038 Před 2 lety +2

    You are such a shining light in a dark world ❤ your vidoes are so beautifully filmed. Thank you for your vision. I know the more people put their authentic hearts out for the world to see, the more others will be drawn to emulate that purity and love too. Your message is one of many and I'm so glad more people are expressing love for this wonderful planet and themselves. We all deserve to live in a world made of compassion and joy. Keep traveling down this path you're creating, it's obviously the right one. We see you, we support you, we believe in you, for we are all on the same journey together 💕🙏🥀🌠🌘

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +2

      " the more people put their authentic hearts out for the world to see, the more others will be drawn to emulate that purity and love too. "
      You speak words of love and wisdom Jess, and beautifully. I am touched by them. And I am sending so much light onto your path ♡

    • @jess9038
      @jess9038 Před 2 lety +1

      @@VerdantVanille 💗💗💗💗

  • @edwardt4283
    @edwardt4283 Před 3 měsíci

    The other day, you came back into my newsreel.
    I realized, today, I experienced some type of ego death recently.
    It wasn't pleasant.
    ...but totally worth it. ;)

  • @gabrielahidalgo9595
    @gabrielahidalgo9595 Před rokem +1

    So very grateful for you and your words they truly speak to my soul. The amount of self awareness and time that you have taken to get to know yourself shows. . Many people fear vulnerability and honesty because for so long they numb away their emotions and are afraid to face their true self which is why they feel threatened and will find the need to judge. Keep doing what you are doing you inspire me and so many. Wishing you nothing but growth and success in all areas of your life ❤️

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +1

      I am so deeply touched. Gabriela, please know that you are very special.

  • @GalactusRhodes
    @GalactusRhodes Před 2 lety +3

    This video alongside your thoughts and how you became master of yourself and your own feelings no longer seeking validation from others was the advice I wish I've heard when I was younger. I'm glad you became comfortable with yourself and what you wanna do and where you wanna go. This is very beautiful both in production and value. I'm very glad I'd stumble upon you randomly. I'll be definitely be watching more of your videos and spreading the around to those who need to hear such words of encouragement. ❤️ Thank you for this and keep up the good work!!!!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +2

      I do not know your name but I truly wish I could hold you in my arms right now. Your words have touched my heart and I am deeply grateful to benefit from your kindness. You're such a good soul, keep shining your light ♡

    • @GalactusRhodes
      @GalactusRhodes Před 2 lety +1

      @@VerdantVanille Thank you I deeply appreciate the response. I don't know if you had any other social media I would definitely support all your work for your videos reminds me of how little time we have and how we should make everyday count. Your widsom is eye opening and I find myself more and more thinking about what I need to do for self setting realistic boundaries and wanting discover more of myself. As stated before I'm subscribed to your channel so any new video you post I will immediately watch and mediate on it before writing a response because I want the response to be not only positive but meaningful. And if you have any other social media platforms where you show and your creativity and work I will follow thank you for this heartfelt response a big virtual hug back to you. Thank you for spreading your light to the world as well.

  • @YahuconanBell5344
    @YahuconanBell5344 Před 2 lety +2

    You have a good sense of explanation of your heart. I do love your passion for the more mindful things. Grace be upon you to find that Shalom place.

  • @juliav.3673
    @juliav.3673 Před 2 lety +1

    Thanks a lot for this video❤️

  • @user-bf8df7ud7z
    @user-bf8df7ud7z Před 2 lety +4

    I hope you get everything you want from life. Much love.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      That's beyond adorable, thank you so much for your kindness ♡

  • @lynneflma670
    @lynneflma670 Před rokem

    What a beautiful soul you are. Authentic to your core.. I am so very happy that you listened to your soul 🌹 You have attained this wisdom at a young age. That in itself is a beautiful gift. I know how you feel. It just took me many decades. You are only truly living and truly free when you you live your authentic self. The beauty that surrounds you is magnificent. Thank you for sharing your beautiful gifts. May you be beyond blessed always. ❤️

  • @emmaboltos1108
    @emmaboltos1108 Před 2 lety +1

    You inspire me! Thank you!

  • @MrZeissOne
    @MrZeissOne Před 2 lety +1

    The ego is an exquisite instrument. Enjoy it! Use it! Just don't get lost in it. Ram Dass

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      Ohhhh!!! This one feels very good to read. It brings light into my mind. Thank you!! ♡

  • @lumikarhu
    @lumikarhu Před 2 lety +2

    didn't think i'd enjoy this at first. Great natural acting talent even if it's only a vlog. I'm staying.

  • @jacoblewis419
    @jacoblewis419 Před 2 lety

    I'm really glad i saw your videos

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      And I'm glad to be crossing your path dear Jacob ♡

  • @briand1670
    @briand1670 Před rokem

    Much love and compassion to you!

  • @julessearena
    @julessearena Před 10 měsíci

    You are a magical brilliant beautiful being. Thank you for the endless art that you are

  • @lantcalen
    @lantcalen Před 2 lety +1

    Thank you for your words. They make me feel expansive and confident.

  • @dmortelli1
    @dmortelli1 Před rokem

    I think you are magical so keep being yourself. You have a beautiful soul 🌞🌙⭐️

  • @AlThor
    @AlThor Před 2 lety +5

    Beautiful words and soothing video.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Thank you so much for your comment, it really means a lot. I’m beyond glad you enjoyed this video, sending you lots of light and inspiration 🤍

  • @qigongwest
    @qigongwest Před 2 lety +2

    Your videos are very honest and you vocalise what many of us feel. Food cooking looks great

  • @glaight6362
    @glaight6362 Před 2 lety +1

    Thank you for sharing your spiritual enlightenment

  • @sherelynwhite4130
    @sherelynwhite4130 Před 2 lety +2

    I am quite taken by how conscious you are for such a young lady! To be aware of and witness your own thoughts and consequent feelings and actions is a huge step in the right direction. If you are this aware now you will only continue to grow in leaps and bounds throughout the rest of your life! You are so right to ignore the naysayers and the judgemental people. The only person that has to approve of you is you! You are so wise! Stay with your knowing and continue to be true to yourself... which is the essence of being whole.💚🌺 And I couldn't agree more... we all have a finite amount of time on this precious Earth, so let's celebrate life, let's make it magical!💫 💖

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Sherelyn, I have no other words but a sincere and loving THANK YOU. Your comment resonates within my heart, and gives me so much peace. You are a very wise woman and I feel honored to read you. ♡

  • @-Atmos1
    @-Atmos1 Před 2 lety +1

    Higher Self is the main aim of Life . Beautiful .

  • @juleedas3276
    @juleedas3276 Před rokem

    I appreciate your bravery. You are great at such an age.

  • @cristinatobosaru6117
    @cristinatobosaru6117 Před rokem

    Multumesc mult numai bine va doresc felicitări pentru tot

  • @speakno8547
    @speakno8547 Před rokem

    Very insightful🙄
    Keep growing!☺

  • @JimJones-kh2lp
    @JimJones-kh2lp Před rokem

    Everytime I need someone real advice I watch your videos. Thank you ❤️💛💚

  • @jonathanholland5240
    @jonathanholland5240 Před rokem

    You are you and your and a worthy person with an honest and kind heart
    Im not in a good place myself

  • @martinsimko5308
    @martinsimko5308 Před 2 lety +2

    You are so beautiful...and talented...
    Thank you for sharing your depth...it touched me so deeply...many blessings your way...

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Your words are filling my heart with light, thank you Martin ♡

  • @nohandlerequired3607
    @nohandlerequired3607 Před 2 lety

    The greatest freedom is here. Recognizing the inner bondage we create in our own minds and hearts, worry, stress, trying to please others. Reacting to other's hate, prejudice, judgments, even violence. Reacting means we're somehow prisoners of those peoples opinions of us... True freedom lays within. Sometimes it takes a lifetime to overcome those prisons that lay within our minds and hearts. You're good enough. More than. I find it interesting some of the longest prisoners of war survived and they did this by finding freedom within. We can't always control what happens to whats around us like war etc but we can control our inner experience. Bravo!

  • @rezlivley
    @rezlivley Před 2 lety +1

    Beautifully honest! I love what you said about judgments by others and of our own life. I came across a saying before an internationl journey to very different cultural foreign lands I took years ago. It was " Traveling is for understanding, not judging". That saying can be applied to so much of our own journey. Thanks! I am happy your post appeared on my CZcams suggestions. I look forward to viewing more.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      That's a beautiful reminder Rez, thank you so much for sharing it with us. Your support really means a lot to me ♡

  • @fairynotewalks7132
    @fairynotewalks7132 Před rokem

    Yes!!! Let's Make It Magical!! Indeed!!

  • @glaight6362
    @glaight6362 Před 2 lety

    Love your garden! I have some great ideas to save time and grow healthier crops.

  • @skaraborgcraft
    @skaraborgcraft Před 2 lety +1

    I would dare say it takes time to notice the difference between what your ego wants and what will nourish your soul, but we all learn at different rates and with age it becomes ever clearer. It would be easy to say that your super ego is what makes good video production, but it is balanced with wise words. In life, there is always some balance. It is a journey, enjoy the road and do not rush to find the end.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      Your words are bringing light to my mind. Thank you for sharing your wise thoughts ♡

  • @acerhigh09
    @acerhigh09 Před 2 lety +3

    Thanks for sharing your inner thoughts, I think your feelings of want to do and live like this is right (probably due to inbalance in previous part of life) but also important when you get more balanced also see, as you do now, that one might also go too far on the other extreme. I think you need to share all this with a man, family and "tribe". We are all dependent on human interactions and help from others to keep the "ego" in check and also get more true meaning and happiness with and through others.
    You are a wonderful human being, so much to offer others!

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      You are hitting a point here Mattias. This video is not that old, yet I grew so much and realised the importance of connection with people. It still is my biggest weakness, but I find more balance in my social life as the days pass. You have a lot of wise things to share my friend, thank you for doing it. ♡

  • @TheDevonblacksmith
    @TheDevonblacksmith Před 2 lety

    You are doing so well. You have figured out many things that can take a life time to come to. And many never do. I worked out the same things. Some years ago. And now know what is important to me. You can apply these learnings to the rest of your life. One thing I found is that many people chase the dream of happiness but that is an emotion a disturbance to piece. I have found acceptance to bring contentment is a far better goal as its a state of mind that can stay as long as the ego does not shout to loud of for to long. Lovely to see you have found peace in being

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +1

      Your words speak to my heart Devon, they really do.
      Keep blooming, wise man ♡

  • @allen8iluminada
    @allen8iluminada Před 2 lety +1

    Yes... we have limited TIME on this beautiful planet.... we are mortals.... so, try to fulfill this TIME we have with the most important tasks as humans... which are: knowing our Creator, knowing ourselves, knowing others, and create the best LIFE we can!

  • @rickknight7780
    @rickknight7780 Před 2 lety

    The qualities that I most admire in others are also the qualities that I most admire in myself. The qualities that I dislike most in others are also the qualities that I dislike most in myself. These possibilities are in all of us. Only I can choose who or how I will be. You seem to have come to this realization earlier in life than I. Be happy with the person that you choose to become. The most wonderful relationship any of us can have is the one with have with ourselves. Know that you are worthy of your being loved by your perfect self.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem

      It reminds me of what matters most at the end of the day. Thank you Rick, deeply. ♡

  • @johnroddy8756
    @johnroddy8756 Před 2 lety

    It's important to have goals and projects ,Failure is stepping stones to Success,we learn or better still from others mistakes.You are unique being and owe no one a explanation to how you live your life.TV has a lot to answer happy smiley people .I think when we die,most of us will be more or less forgotten with in the week.So Live your life on your Terms and avoid negative people .

  • @tierrabear10
    @tierrabear10 Před rokem

    You are an empath and a starseed. That is why you find this world so confusing and draining. You are beautiful! Stay true!! 💖

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +1

      You make my heart so warm right now ♥️

    • @tierrabear10
      @tierrabear10 Před rokem

      @@VerdantVanille Lovely!!! 💖💖
      If you care to, I might suggest Steve Nobel channel. I don't know him but have listened to his meditations and transmissions here on CZcams and they have helped me immensely to understand myself and the world better. 🙏🙏

  • @kavanobrien6547
    @kavanobrien6547 Před 2 lety +1

    Song comes to mind = (Never Gonna Give Up = Rick Ashley ) hope it helps sweet soul.

  • @niennasaralonde7471
    @niennasaralonde7471 Před rokem

    Thank you very much for showing up on this planet. You bring very much stardust and hope for us all by your example. Stay on your inner path and don't worry about the roads not taken. Love.

  • @OnTheBrightSide123
    @OnTheBrightSide123 Před 7 měsíci

    Ego needs indeed but that is the bad wolf and a major temptation. The never-ending tug of war between higher and lower energies. If you can find love your blessed as I surely don't like being used. That Swiss Nun from Bhakti Marga in Germany told me she never been in a monogamous relationship even when married. It got weird but had a nice time at the Ashram and would be a great place for a retreat. Becoming one with unconditional love in my heart and soul. What I seek is seeking me. Up to us to remove the barriers to love we set up says one poet and another said love would not possess nor be possessed. Real happiness is in serving others for the upliftment of all life. There is a higher state of being that is truly Golden and where I want to be and reach those higher heavenly states within.

  • @FindPlace
    @FindPlace Před 2 lety

    And love the hang drums

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      I so want to learn playing hang drums, it is so magical!

  • @francisfoster5043
    @francisfoster5043 Před 2 lety

    Spent 4 years in the bush fighting my Ego before figuring it out ! We create the world we live in, no one to blame but Yourself !

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      Exactly Francis!

    • @francisfoster5043
      @francisfoster5043 Před rokem

      @@VerdantVanille Its truly a struggle against the Ego to Build a Better Future ! Been alone is the hardest, living in your own head, change is slow !

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před rokem +1

      @@francisfoster5043 change is slow but change is movement ♥️

    • @francisfoster5043
      @francisfoster5043 Před rokem

      @@VerdantVanille Yes, you can see the positive, I am learning that ! Have lived in a very negative place for most of my life, "positive" used to be a swear word in my vocabulary ! Thank You for replying !

  • @catherinethackray538
    @catherinethackray538 Před 2 lety

    Beautiful words ❤ yes we are so much more than what we look like loving fellow people for who thay are much love from Catherine in Devon

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      So much more Catherine ♡ Thank you for your support, with all my heart.

  • @ketutputrining2612
    @ketutputrining2612 Před rokem

    I like your video so much💚, and i can learn about english language too, thankyou

  • @YahuconanBell5344
    @YahuconanBell5344 Před rokem

    My Queen 👑 you are so normal it is almost frightening. In The book of Life we are challenged to examine ourselves and see whether the ways that we are true and faithful to others as well as ourselves. A narcissist doesn't allows anyone to challenge himself or herself and a narcissist doesn't challenge their selves simply because they are right, this is not you you are perfectly imperfection, wrap yourself up I'll take you and drive you across America before we lose it.

    • @YahuconanBell5344
      @YahuconanBell5344 Před rokem

      May Abba YAH BARUCH you and keep you, may He raise His continents upon you may he always be with you and give you SHALOM ❣️

  • @tonytee7845
    @tonytee7845 Před 2 lety

    Freedom is choices to be to do to go , your choices , ,well done

  • @bluewaters2829
    @bluewaters2829 Před 2 lety

    Such deep philosophical questions. What prompts you to ask yourself these questions at this stage of your life? When so many others walk around in perpetual darkness? Awakening, your soul has awakened to the fact that you are not the universe. You are part of it and you are trying to understand how you fit in. That's why it's so important to surround ourselves in nature and to never think we are outside of it. Our ego, needs validation, it needs to see it's self as important. But, this is one step on our journey of maturity, enlightenment and growth. We must move beyond the phase of ego fulfillment only and awaken our souls to that which is greater than ourselves. Such a profoundly beautiful video.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      You have said - it - all, dear one. ♡
      I'm honoured to inspire your beautiful soul.

  • @MrLynch-ei4dc
    @MrLynch-ei4dc Před 2 lety

    My ideal of living. No crappy humans around.

  • @athollmcnicoll1028
    @athollmcnicoll1028 Před 2 lety +3

    Question : If you know it is happening day after day and you cannot break the rhythm - then why not see yourself in a different perspective, like for instance on an island alone and in survival mode, where everything you do has a consequence on the next days productivity?
    See what I mean Verdant?

  • @tiogoala7654
    @tiogoala7654 Před 2 lety +1

    ego is dangerous. It is beautiful and strong, too strong. Ego must be kept in check, but beauty is not the same. There is so much good in beauty! You have so much to offer and give to others

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Oh, Tio! Thank you, sincerely, for your beautiful words ♡

  • @evabickerton3856
    @evabickerton3856 Před 2 lety

    It is so much easier to follow where others go, follow a path well lit, it takes a special person, takes courage, strength, couriousity, faith, so much more- to step aside, to lead and make new path for others to walk on later!!!!" You are not just the light, you the light house for all the boats", a "way shower" , may all the power of universe fills you surrounds you with love and light! Thank you for being you!

  • @Thhhgg838
    @Thhhgg838 Před 2 lety +2

    New to your channel, can appreciate the production…

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      I'm very happy to read this, thank you, truly. ♡

  • @shannoneckelbarger5566
    @shannoneckelbarger5566 Před 2 lety +1

    I can so relate to you.

  • @shehanisewwandika2598
    @shehanisewwandika2598 Před 2 lety +2

    There's something to take from ur each and every word🥺❤️
    .Much Love Akki 🥺(akki is a word we use to express our love to our loved sisters in Srilanka 🙂😚)

  • @kseniyasbooknook4172
    @kseniyasbooknook4172 Před 2 lety +2

    To add on my other comment, two books that changed my self worth are Braving the Wilderness by Brene Brown and The Six Pillars of Self Esteem by Nathaniel Branden. They’re life affirming and transformative

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      Thank you so much for your share, I'm taking good note of those two! I love Brene Brown! ♡

  • @shannoneckelbarger5566

    So true we are so judgmental. Sorry for that

  • @ambassadorlight3146
    @ambassadorlight3146 Před 2 lety +1

    Now I can explain how you can not only experience real love that never will leave nor forsake you. Ask if your soul needs to know.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      I'm all ears :)

    • @ambassadorlight3146
      @ambassadorlight3146 Před 2 lety

      @@VerdantVanille I saw your ?videos and you ears are in proportion on your face. In fact, they are beautiful ears. And not "all ears"😃 I will answer your request soon. Either later this evening or tomorrow. Ps I watched another video of yours and enjoyed the twirling and dancing in the snow!

    • @ambassadorlight3146
      @ambassadorlight3146 Před 2 lety +1

      I have been working on my reply for 3 hours and then my computer locked up but I'm still keeping my promise to reply by today. But almost late.
      Ms Verdant Vanille,
      I am humbled that you trust me to give you my best understanding. I do this because I care about you.
      All of my wisdom comes from God's Word. You are searching for truth and peace, hope, love, and purpose. This only comes from God. And it is fulfilling.
      We have all fallen short of the glory of God. Disobedient.
      We are paid the wage of death for our sin.
      But God so loved us that He came to earth in the image of man to die in our place so that we could be restored to Him and be sealed with His Holy Spirit. His Spirit convicts us about our sin. The Spirit corrects our thinking and renews our mind so that we fight against sin. He teaches us. He refines us to be like His Son.
      There is so much more to learn. If you would be patience with me.
      In Love, Bill

  • @kennethtomlinson9617
    @kennethtomlinson9617 Před 2 lety

    You are a beautful young lady with a beautiful heart an soul. People are selfish an petty. Who cares what those people think. Your doing great.

  • @C.Scholl
    @C.Scholl Před 2 lety

    Hi. I have the feeling I know you for years but in reality I found your Chanel a few days ago. Please do not live to please others, be kind to yourself and respect others opinion but do not cater to them . You are worth enjoying life without bothering about how long it lasts, life is just starting for you and it will be magical! Do not worry about people that talk bad things about you they do not matter. You are beautiful inside and out, keep remembering your perfect tomorrow as you will live it like you remembered in your visualisations. Stay awesome, stay safe , and stay you! 🙏

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety +1

      Your wise words brought tears to my eyes Christian. After reading so many mean comments tonight, yours feels like a warm beam of light piercing through the clouds. You have understood more than what most people ever will. I feel deeply grateful to be crossing the path of such a kind man.
      I'm sending so much love and qi onto your path ♡

    • @C.Scholl
      @C.Scholl Před 2 lety

      @@VerdantVanille Thanks, I myself feel the same deep gratitude to have the pleasure of connecting with you. I am glad my words could bring some enlightenment/comfort. Life is not always easy and like they say “ if life gives you lemons, make lemonade “ you deserve only the best! Sending you all the best wishes from my heart.
      P.s. Awesome video editing/storytelling!

  • @Timber81
    @Timber81 Před 2 lety

    Just beautiful! A soul awakening to the miracle of life. I really resenate with your Creativity's. Finding delicious wild foods and just Being is so inviting. I too live alone off grid and enjoy all these things. Thank you for sharing! I would love a chance to share our thoughts, without judgement. Without the internet. Just the tree's, rocks and water as witnesses. Being really alone in the forest creates spaces for new perspectives and ideas. Knowing someone else who has experienced Aloness is magical. Both persons bringing the gift of unique knowledge and a refined Ego to our wilderness meeting. What fun and stimulation! Imagine?

  • @ilzitek2419
    @ilzitek2419 Před 2 lety

    Ego is the separate self that thinks that there is no God. It explores this realm of time and space and creates and overcomes all kinds of obstacles to learn to shed all illusions of separation.

    • @VerdantVanille
      @VerdantVanille  Před 2 lety

      Wow, here it is, my favorite definition of the Ego! Thank you for sharing your wise insights ♡