Crystal Meth Addict interview-Flakha
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- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Flakha, a crystal meth addict living on Skid Row.
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I’m 21 I was on heroin since I was 12, I’ll have 2 years clean in 3 days...praise god.
Update: woah!! thank you for all the encouragement, kind words and likes!
Wow
You are amazing
Chloe Mashburn God is so good 🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️
Keep your head up sus, God got you 🙏🏽🙏🏽
Yaaaaaasssssssss !!!!!
Good lady
I was a meth addict for close to 10 years. I’ve been off it for over 6 months now.
Congratulations!!! That's very commendable and something to be very proud of!!!! 💖💜
You can do it
That’s awesome, congratulations and keep up the good work!
AMEN ❤️🙏💯
Excellent job. Keep going!
I’m a mother to 3... recovering addict since 10/2015, 32 years old...It’s possible my love! You’re on the right path.
What was your addiction?
@Zert Teyyy you a fool
Good for you may the Lord continue to Bless you 🙏🏽🙌
All the best to you and your kids .. I appreciate you
Thats right girl. Im a momma too and have 8 months now. Im on subs. But they are keeping me clean!
I was raped repeatedly from 3 years old to 12 years old by various men in the family. I had my baby at 15 and that’s when I decided that my life was now not my own. I was to focus on my kid. Not easy, but we did it. That was 45 years ago. Get your life together and make things right for your kids. You can do it girl. God works miracles when you ask for salvation. God is stronger than drugs. I’m not even talking about church stuff.
"God is stronger than drugs." ...... 🤦♂️
These replies are idiots and assholes. I’m so sorry people are responding to your hardships like this. I’m so sorry that you had to grow up like that. I’m sorry, I hope God gives you the faith to continue living on.
@@n1abae
I said Nothing about her Hardships. just about this "God" she believes in. 🤨
I'm so sorry you had to go through that but your struggles make you a bigger person and I hope she realizes that too. Im proud of you even though you don't know me 🙏👏
Thank you
This woman's candor is astounding. She's insightful, articulate and extraordinarily honest. She tells a story that could save other people's lives. Have faith that you can get clean, maintain your sobriety and counsel others to overcome their addictions too. I hope you will break the cycle. 🙏🏽
Absolutely....The honesty of these people...it will help someone.
Exactly!!
I could listen to her tell a story all day.
@@aimeem9867 same one of my favorite interviews on this channel!!!
Lol
I grew up with both parents. I wasn’t abused. I had everything a child should need to succeed. I have struggled with drugs, abusive behaviors, depression and chronic pain for most of my adult life. flakah and people like her are amazing to me. The hidden strength masked by what we all perceive as weakness is almost inspirational to me. I struggle daily just to be happy, yet I have every resource and ability to help myself. We are all inches from insanity. Life is painful and not fair. We should all try to respect each other and see the strength in each of us and focus less on our flaws. It’s taken me nearly 30 years to identify the source of my pain. I’m addressing it day by day. The mind-body connection is real. My internal rage, fear, and repressed emotions crippled me. I hope everyone can some day identify their hidden source of suffering.
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How'd you overcome
@@ashleydouglas7861 Dr. Sarno’s TMS theory, I recommend reading his books, they are short to the point and so powerful. Meditation and Wim Hof breathing exercises daily. I’m learning to cry, to morn, to forgive, sympathy and empathy. Things I was directly and indirectly taught to stifle. On the flip side, I admitted to myself and my family what I was really mad about, rational or otherwise, and I forgave them and myself for any and all transgressions. True forgiveness is hard to pull off, but it is liberating.
Buck Nunley thanks. You described was me I want to get bettet
Thanks this show has helped me so much
At least she has raw honesty. Not everyone has that, money or not.
Bro shes tweaking, she just can't shut up
Facts !
The fact is that wise people who know what is wrong and what is better are asleep tonight with their heads pressed into piss corners.
Want real depravity in every aspect of your life: smoke dope, drop acid, absorb heroin however you want, rub cocaine where you should not put it, and you will find yourself in the arms of lowest life.
"I never said nothing" and "Nothing" and "You know what, fuck you" and "I never done nothing" are statements I have heard a thousand times by drug addicts and drunks.
She’s so close to understanding herself and then runs away. She’s intelligent. I have hope for you. Keep trying. ❤️🙏❤️
Well said.
🙏🙏🙏
I agree. She is intelligent.
@@staceybennett4190 May you be held to the same standard you are holding her to.
Stacey Bennett you're useless
Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow.
- T Real
Wake up. Grow up. Put your children first. Break the cycle.
❤️❤️ I love this
@@ldm673 I love/hate it.
sadly it applies (and I feel the need to share it).... to almost every video uploaded here.
We need more firefighters.
Pass it on. 🔥
ItsThe EconomicModel so true it's like a dominoes effect
So true...I did it...cycle broken😉
Such a smart and beautiful statement. If we could just realize this!!!
It really makes me sad to see how many people in this comment section can't empathize with Flakha.
The statistics are stacked against you when you grow up poor to abusive addicted
parents. It's hard not to end up making the same mistakes as your
parents, not to say that none are strong enough to break the cycle, but
those are the outliers. It's too easy to judge other people, especially
people who grew up without any privilege. You can't just expect people
to spontaniously become responsible adults, maturity is something that's
cultivated. I live in Denmark and we hardly have any kids that have to
go through what this girl, her kids and probably her parents and their
parents had to go through, and I refuse to believe that it's because
danish people are inherently better people. We have a social safety net
that for the most part doesn't leave people behind, and we have free
healthcare and free education. When people's needs are met, most people
turn out good. When people's needs aren't met they turn out bad. So yes,
I do feel sorry for her and I feel sorry for her children, and if I
knew her parents story I'm sure I would feel sorry for them too. If I
knew the story behind your lack of empathy I know I'd feel sorry for you too.
I understand what you’re saying. (Living in Norway.)
Well said sir.
Thank you for what you said
Thank you for humanizing this pain filled woman. Love and kindness is what is going to save her life
Brilliant response. And thanks for providing some insight and perspective from where you're from...
She’s very self aware which is a start.
Thats the meth talking.
Is it really? Does it make you introspective and more open? I’m genuinely asking. Lots of what I have read online about recognizing it in a family member mention stereotypical things but I’m interested in more realistic signs if you want to share.
@@jarritos257 Meth can definitely make you more introspective and open while on it. Meth heads tell all their personal business when they're high lol
@@cujo8212 Yes!
No one talks about how hard it is to leave that life alone once you become sober, there’s a part of you that longs for the excitement and adrenaline rush that you get from being in some of those situations. It’s hard.
One thing people don't understand, the *lifestyle* is addictive. You can take away the substance but then they need to learn how to live differently...
Yup. That’s 100% true.
Preach. Im 3 years sober now and still get the urge to do drugs and run the streets but I always remember my priorities family and wife. Its hard but it can be done god vibes to everyone and love !
My ex boyfriend was on the streets 10 years from alcoholism..8 months in county jail for assault was what it took to get sober. 20 years sober and he still goes to skidrow to visit with his old drinking buddies. Preferred to go eat free at the community free meal program center... when we had food at home. It was where he was most comfortable.
@@edmarceja1 Congratulations and continued success. I wish you nothing but the best!
I wish Mark would track down the "parents" and just ask them... "so what happened"
Respect her honesty admitting she was a neglectful mother, everyone else on here blames someone or something else for their fuck ups but she’s owned it
Yaaass💯💯💯it takes courage to OWN IT and she does!
Right usually the addict mothers or fathers be blaming anything and everything else except themselves respect to her
At least she seems more honest than the usual drug addict. That's surprising, given her admission about abusing her children. It's unfortunate these drugs don't contain a contraceptive so children's lives aren't ruined.
eugenics?
@@fghfghsrtsrthsrthsrt5968 why not
Uhhhh yeahhhhh that’s eugenics
I agree
@@robwaters2948 And? There are innumerable social engineering theories that are geared toward the minimizing or elimination of extreme social ills. ALL of them can be applied in abusive or inhumane ways--as eugenics was used by the Nazis. However, that does NOT negate its useful application when those who seek to implement it do so to improve the human condition. Anyone who'd argue that drug addicts have a right to produce children who will add to the innumerable emotionally, psychologically, and physically people who burden this country is delusional at best. Being a mother is a PRIVILEGE and a RESPONSIBILITY, NOT a right and definitely NOT an entitlement. We cannot stoop to being animals who breed randomly with whoever, squat in a nearby field, drop a kid, and move on. We are morally and spiritually obligated to consider the consequences of creating life without conscience. Until we are willing to tell that uncomfortable truth, we'll never be able to dig out of the cesspool this country is becoming.
Mark, your channel is so raw. It's my favourite. What a gift you have. Thank you.
@The heart hugger I just did. I kept meaning to and then forgetting. Just put some onto the go fund me. Thanks for reminding me. God bless 😘
Thankyou always for showing me real life.
So many of these people talk about their lives being so bad when they were young, at the same time they are doing those same things to their own children.
Vicious cycle aye - very sad 😔
The saddest part is they believe they are doing so much better than their own parents, makes it hard for them to acknowledge their children's trauma and apologize
If you don’t get it, you don’t get it.
If you were not born into poverty and drug addicts abusive parents you don't get it
So right
I was also abused as a child. These stories break my heart. I was fortunate to have a mom that believed me. It's crazy to think that this could have been me telling this story without the right support.
Right! These stories could literally be any of us who suffered some type of trauma and had no support or healing. It takes YEARS sometimes to regain yourself even when you do have help and support
Im glad you made it through! I hate that so many of us have similar stories.
I’m glad you had someone that believed you and supported you 💛🤍 everyone deserves that.
Flakah is way to smart to keep going on the path that she’s on; she lacks confidence in herself to succeed in life if it’s to much hassle to keep up you don’t need it in your life she has the power to change long term a very intelligent lady
She obviously has some common sense and street smarts and is a can do person if she wanted to be
@@rebeccapotter1115 she still thinks shes a gangster at 33, and shes on skid row. How is that smart?
I agree. Her IQ is off the charts.
@Dave Z lmao
Dave Z that’s rude to criticize someone you have no idea who they are everyone is untitled to their opinions and I’m merely seeing the positive side that if she wanted to turn her life around she could now it’s not about being an Imbasecile or and idiot it’s a generalization of her possible potential no she doesn’t have her shit together but she could if she chose to I have not insulted your opinions about this video have some respect for mine
"Over protective of my daughters" Odd thing to say when she doesn't have them. Must be the drugs talking.
Great point, in her mind and in her heart she thinks she’s doing well for them. But in other instances she does point out that she treated them worse than her own parents did her/
I think she's still in party mode. It seems like she also enjoys having her mom be there for her now because she wasnt before.. hope she can get her life together
If I could clone my grandmother so every one of these children could have her and be raised feeling her love and protection . That would be my wish !
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awweeee ѕнe мυѕт нave вeen ѕweeeeт 🍬 ...
I love your grandma ❤
These folks REALLY need to stop having children. I mean destroy your life if you want to, but seriously, STOP having children. It's not fair to the children and the rest of society.
That's why humankind it's rotten
@@clandestina6382 thats so true. This people shouldn't be parents
If you are watching why not try to get some insight instead of judging “THESE PEOPLE”!!
Aside from jail time or CPS removing children , these adults should be forced to put in a 10 year birth control or be sterilized forever
it's not like people can predict their Futures a lot of times when they are having these Children. it's called Life and things don't always go the way you wanted them to....🙄
She's so self-aware and well spoken. I pray she goes far in life!
Don’t feel bad for because she choose to party and not work
You must be joking! She wants to use people party and lie!
One day She will hit 50 and won't be this young person who thinks she is a cool drug addict sad! Person
Her lack of self worth is directly related being abused as a child by the one person she needed most, her mother.💔
So powerful
Flakha seems self aware and critical of herself and her choices rather than sugar coating and justifying everything. It’s refreshing. It’s also sad. When she admits that she was a ‘mean mother’ I wanted to cry. Anyone who doubts the existence of the cycle of abuse is insane. I truly hope she finds her way to sobriety and happiness.
I'm so damn lucky. I'm Mexican, grew up with both parents, and two great brothers. No physical or emotional abuse; and no addiction gene passed on to me or my siblings by my parents. My maternal and paternal grandparents were together forever and raised their children. I don't have children because I never had the desire to, but I do have a niece and she is the apple of my eye. It really is a roll of the dice . . . you can't choose the family you're born into. I'm blessed to have my family.
You’re so blessed. Many people would die for a family like yours. Bless y’all 💖
@@strawberry10261026 lmao .
Same girl the older I get the more i realize how amazing my family is and how blessed I am. Thank you God 🙏🏼
@@strawberry10261026 you are so bitter, you must live under your moms basement playing video games all day.. judging by the cat picture 😅😂
Wow, what a dipshit. This has nothing to do with your normal, and great life. SMD
You can tell she's again at the start of her amphetamine use after being in rehab. The first week is always ultimate clarity, intelligence and understanding but it's all DOWNHILL from there.
Plenty people get off it, I've heard of loads on CZcams.
It is downhill BUT being a recovered addiction of over 15, anyone can do it! She has so much trauma and it makes you numb after initial useage...I wish her the best
I got off of it 3 years ago, that's why I understand it.
Methamphetamine. They are different compounds.
@@bethanyrash4118 Methamphetamine is just a TYPE of Amphetamine.
Her insight is astounding. Some times the addiction is no longer the drug, it’s the lifestyle which I think she so eloquently touched on. She is another one that WILL do GREAT work for people once she’s no longer afraid of the “unknown”! Love this lady. Beautiful, she IS!!
I'll tell ya this is true I just relapsed and have recovered from a meth bender and right away I was thrown into the chaos of being an addict in two days, people getting mad and yelling at each other for like little to no reason. People being paranoid and me knowing they are paranoid but countied hitting the pookie cuz as long as it didn't get physical I don't give a duck as long as im.getting tweaked out which I was whole a whole fight broke out around me. The chaos I was hanging out with call girls and pimps and crackheads we had three different rooms we would leave when John's would come over all that shit. Literally the chaos came right back. The life came right back. Meth feels great and it makes you become a person you never thought you would be
Unless you’ve been addicted to alcohol or drugs you can’t comment on someone’s choice, their addiction comes first that’s hard for people to comprehend but they would not make those choices sober, it absorbs you, your goals and makes your choices for you.
I hope you are strong enough to get sober follow your dreams and reconnect with your children.
Percocets and coke with alcahol right here it’s a never ending cycle that’s all I have in life no fmsily they was all abusive in every form anyway failed school my ex left for another guy I slept in cars while my mother ran off..... I don’t think I’ll ever get off this shit
@@DopamjneRush You hv to do it for you. I was an addict too yrs ago,but no matter if u hv the family or not there comes a point where you hv to decide - do YOU want this to be ur life forever OR do you want the "good" life that you see others enjoying (&taking for granted sometimes). You can do it you just have to put as much effort into chasing it as your do chasing drugs&alcohol. I wish you luck, God bless.
I can't believe she was willing to lose her kids and go to jail in order to save a dude she was with and a family member...
She had already lost them at least twice by that time.....
Perhaps she disconnected.
soso117 no more children for these irresponsible women plllleeeeeeeeeease 😩
She's a prime example of why involuntary sterilization should be legal.
yeah I think you guys might have missed a crucial part in all of this. it's called DRUUUUUUUGSS!!!!! 🤦♂️
Meth: It allows the user to see their Sins clearly but it won't allow it's users to turn away from them.
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Truth
Dam. That's profound
The blood of Christ is stronger.
Moni amen
Does she really deserve custody of those kids? She said she did worse to them and her mom did to her and her kids were taken from her. Sounds like serious child abuse. She needs a lot of help. I pray she gets help. She's a smart woman and has a lot of potential.
No, she does not deserve custody of those kids. Those poor kids.
She also chooses guys over her kids. So sad. Not the way to end the cycle.
She is so articulate, I can see her being a motivational speaker, hopefully she gets through this dark period in her life because she can definitely help others get out.
I understand. My mom was never on drugs.. but I was raped by a family member, kept it to myself bcus I was scared, when I finally decided to tell her- she just lashed out on me. Ever since that day, it changed my outlook on her. I love her but cannot simply respect her for not protecting me, especially at such a young age. Instead, I know to believe my kids, if I ever have some of my own. Protect your children. They need it. God Bless you Flakah 💕
Oh @Ashley J your comment strikes me just as hard as Flakha's story. It's not just the actual sinful act that occurred to you as an innocent child and from someone who you had come to love and naturally feel protected from but allll those rippled effects that had to have come along with that horrific action against you had to have brought you some extremely challenging emotional hurdles no doubt. I understand your comment is not asking for my pity, not what I hear nor what I'm say, just empathizing. More so what I hear is how forgiving of a person you are as you can forgive your mom even though the pain is unthinkable. Christians will endure pain regularly from those we love not because we are weak but because His word demands it if we are to be forgiven as we know we too are sinners. So Ashley J I commend you for choosing to forgive your mother for her lack of guidance you needed from her at that time. You may never see this since the comment is dated but in the tiny chance you do maybe it'll just be nice to hear. God bless you Flakha & Ashley J... you both are strong amazing women!
too bad she cant be as loyal to her kids as she is to her gang involved family members / friends
It's all she knows really it's what her mother did
sportsman daily exactly
I thought the same. I was raised a certain way too: the children always come first. They get 💯 and they should!!!
She said she's overprotective of her kids and yet her kid was in foster care and ran away from home...am I missing something?
She’s very self aware but she holds herself back. She’s going to be her own worst energy
Lost: She is definitely her own worst enemy! Bless her heart Bc she is very much aware of what she needs to do and how to do it. As she said in this interview, she’s been back and forth.... even managed to live a seemingly normal/good life. Tbh, I just don’t think she wants it just yet. Addicted to the lifestyle, more than likely. But that’s just my opinion, I could be completely wrong. Have a great weekend🤙🏽✨
Virgo_LoVe 82 also maybe, people’s environment, if it’s filled with drugs and violence, if someone has a history with those things, sadly they might go back to that way
Meech The 1st I respect your insight😊, that’s exactly why I stated that I could be completely wrong. I find this channel very helpful in many ways. Especially if we (the viewers/commenters) can have adult conversations without being rude and nasty to one another! Thanks again for your input, that gives me another perspective!💗
Aren't we all...I often feel we're our own worst enemy and biggest hero at the same time...
Girl you would make such an awesome drug and alcohol counselor. I feel like you're almost there too, you can go all the way girl. I pray that you do, you deserve such a better life than what you're giving yourself and your children.
She would be an excellent counselor!
As a person with a mom like this, you have a different outlook. Constantly choosing not only drugs but men over your child is a horrible feeling, stop feeling sorry for everyone who’s guilty and feel sorry for the innocent people like the children.
I’ve been binge watching this channel ! Other than the abuse & neglect the biggest common denominator I see in these individuals story’s is the dysfunction in their home life. I feel for everyone who has shared their story. Makes me thankful for the people and things I take for granted. Wishing each and everyone of them prayers and healing!
Same here!!
It stops when YOU say so sweetheart!!! Once you’ve had enough, and you’re sick of living this way.... you’ll know & you will do whatever is necessary to make a better life for your children and yourself. I pray that you have the strength and determination to make that decision before the streets make it for you🙏🏽♥️‼️ Remember, those streets don’t have love for ANYONE! I wish you all the best Flakha. Happy Birthday 🎂🎈🎁
LEW TUBE GROW UP JACKASS!
LEW TUBE 🙄🙄
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I knew a woman addicted to meth & heroin who lost her kids and she said "If I wanted my kids back don't you think I would have done it by now?" She's about the same age as her. Prayers for them both
At this point I believe she has an invisible beard 🧐🥴
Exactly what I said to myself! Lmao
I wonder if she has a zit there 🧐
Her hand on and off her chin over and over again . 😳
😂😂😂u ain't lying
Drove me crazy
Tweaker shit
dumb dumbs.. 🙄
Its the meth
Flakha is such a pretty women, smart, soo much potential and its heart breaking to see how the cycle is repeating itself. Prayers to her and her kids. I really hope she gets back on her feet.
The whole hinkty posturing and movement in addicts really sickens me, I have seen it so much. Rehab to rehab to rehab, can't be responsible, emphasize "can't." Lost souls require too much of people who are not addicts and don't know "the lifestyle." When one loves an addict or drunk, the disgust level gets too deep to continue picking up their shit.
What makes me sick is she says that she is over protective of her children and she ain't there
people be lying to them selves
Even if she's not around, a mother doesn't lose the love for her child, or her maternal instinct.
All the white people in the comments upset about her name 😂 it’s flaca, it means skinny in Spanish and is often used as a nickname. And no it has absolutely nothing to do with drugs a lot of skinny boys are called flaco and skinny girls flaca I was called it as a child and so were a lot of other girls I knew my mom knows absolutely nothing about drugs. It’s a cute term of endearment like “oh whatever skinny!” 🤦🏻♀️🙄
Wish someone called me "flaca"..ive always been called "gorda"☹
You sound mad ignorant talking about a specific race like that.
@ CJR I checked out the comment section and didn’t see anyone making fun of her name. And why u assuming they all white when they could be other ethnicities? And some whites like me actually speak Spanish and know what flaca means. Get ur mind straight son!
Thank you for your insight. People don't understand that the language barrier is real, especially when it comes to slang terms and nicknames. Translation of a term from one language to another can be alarming for one culture/country and completely innocent for another country/culture.
Yeah, I wish I was called that! I was always called Puto 🤪
When you’re pregnant and decide to keep the baby your life is protecting that lil life. No more “partying” for you!
This is a given. I had my son and his father left before birth so I raised him myself. NEVER had a “boyfriend” nor “roommate to come between us ( not had sex for 27 yrs) throughout my sons life and my son was safe. Now at 67 I’m still single BUT my son is in my life, he was NEVER traumatized! He Leeds a successful life w his girlfriend, he’s 27 yrs old now and I don’t regret my decision to NEVER have a “roommate” or “ boyfriend”! I an secure in knowing I DID MY SON A GREAT SERVICE and he’s a respectful citizen
You were 40 when you had him? Just curious as to how your situation was at that age, it's different when some girls are teen mom's. That's all I've ever known where I'm from... I've always wondered what motherhood looks like with an actual matured woman.
Jessica Cartas ... I had met my son’s father at 39yrs. When I got preg he wanted an abortion, I didn’t want to do that so instead he left the state. I was alittle embarrassed to be preg at that age but I swallowed my pride and just went with it. As it turned out my son was a high blessing. We were so very close and still are today. God knows what He’s doing. I am so happy I kept my son and it’s scary to think if I’d chosen abortion how lonely I’d be right now, he’s the only family i have now.
We really need more moms like you. Thanks for telling your shory story :)
Builderleopardz ... thank you
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Your Mom pays your cell phone so she can call you and know you're still alive. To know you're ok even if you're in the steets. To hear your voice. To make you feel better knowing she cares and shes there for you. To lend an ear of all your struggles. It also gives her peace and thats more than enough.
Beautifully said AnnaBella510!
An addict MOTHER going to jail for a DUDE and an illegal criminal (family or NOT) is not glamorous street cred, it's more strikes on the record and more lost memories with your children.
Another level - 😟
She's caught up in lifestyle and can't see it in that perspective.
Give me my time and take my kids silly bitch thinks shes a gangster
U can tell she’s spent a lot of time going thru or trying to go thru therapy, that’s for sure. I pray she’s able to actually use all that knowledge to better herself for the sake of her kids & herself...before it’s too late...before her kids follow the same path.
Probably one of the most honest interviews i have heard here .
She’s has so much potential, she has the ability to do better and I prays she conquer this.
Her reasons seem so shallow compared to others on this channel. She doesn't seem confused, just impulsive and thrill seeking.
It's Clearly A Trauma Response......
@@hf1493 not necessarily .
Shes going to beat this one day and she will be successful. She is so smart and can do amazing things 🙏🏻♥️
The only way she'll "beat this" is via death.
Im sure too, one Day Will Be The Day when she sais fuck this and Will get shit together ❤️ im rooting For her !! And Mark please do follow up If you meet her again!!!
@Donivan Lopez yes 🙌🏽
The insight and self awareness. I can only imagine how successful she would be with out her pain and addiction. Wishing her much healing.
It’s so sad how toxic households scars you up 💔 fighting demons daily, I really hope to hear her success story ❤️
She is so Insighful and smart. Holy smokes! What a cool lady. I hope she makes it out and can vision a new life, a new self view, and detach from that trauma to some extent.
one of the best interviews so far. shes an amazing person
Its a vicious cycle that must stop. Meth has ruined so many chicano families that I know. My friends had Heroin addicted parents and they turned into hard core tweakers and the cycle continued.
@kevin p wait..what?
@kevin p 🤣😂🤣
She needs to stop chillin w dudes
I'm so impressed with your depth of understanding. I see a person growing in the right direction. You can be the person who inspires. You are grounded in a world of craziness. But you haven't let the craziness define who you are. You have the strength to move on. You deserve calm.
She said "I'm very protective over my kids" She's not even raising her kids.
I think she is more protective of her drugs than her own children. So sad. She is so young.
@@vampbld13 Not that "young." She's pushing middle age.
@@dhap8240 Yikes my bad. Truly sad though. Such an ugly cycle.
I thought the same thing!
right on time . love listening to these while i clean, haven’t went to sleep yet . insomnia but now i want to make a coffee and binge watch . love this channel very much . i have cried so many times .
@Robert Britton haha, you're a fiesty one😄
same!
Robert Britton no, crying from their stories . im an empath but okay ! must not have a heart or compassion .
Amelie Mae thank you love !
Feathered Friends thanks for the suggestion ! my schedule is so off .
She can switch it up for the better, she’s honest & has a great deal of potential. Blessings to you Queen.
Being aware & not making excuses is mos def a new beginning... It will take time... But I feel in my heart this Queen will get it together 💗... she'll educate & heal others!!!
FYI Flaca means skinny in Spanish. It's just spelled differently here.
LEW TUBE too funny 😄
@@OpenYourMindPodcast Cállate!!
@@OpenYourMindPodcast very stupid! Pendejo
I instantly thought about ATL rapper Waka Flocka Flame! Bouw bouw bouw bouw brick squad! Lol
Flaka! You stand out! You have such realness, and common sense. You can GO PLACES girl. I see it in you. Get help, stick with it, fight the addiction and the demons! The world has so much more in store for you.🙏 Bless
thank for being such a positive human being 💓
I wish her the best, my sons dad is a meth addict and this is hard to watch. Reminds of the way he looks at life
@Zert Teyyy you think I chose to have a kid with a meth addict? Your wrong he wasn’t doing that at the time it came after so congrats for being a judgmental pile of shit
@@lexeyd7264 i can relate... blessings to you and your family
Praying for you Flakha🙏🏼 my heart goes out to you❤️ I really believe God dose have a plan for you, your very smart and the streets have not swallowed you up yet, and I don’t think it ever will, because you’re a fighter and been through so much, I’ve been through so much in life, I backslid so many times, but I always picked myself up over and over again, until I finally got tired and got clean, my life was a living hell, a chaotic roller coaster. I got clean and moved away from California, and now live a beautiful, content, peaceful sober life, but I’m still learning to face my 2 year old baby’s death, that’s what took me to my addiction, now I’m just leaning on God to keep me sane, because the mental emotions I deal with lately is hard, but I’m learning to get through them, and live with all the hurt and guilt and flashbacks, when my son was killed, God is helping me through this being sober going on 13years, it’s been a hell of a ride, but I’m still hear and now I’m living a normal life, and not dead inside anymore. If I can do it , so can you🙏🏼 no matter how many times you fall, pick yourself back up, and keep on keeping on, Gods plans for you is to get sober, because he has a beautiful life waiting for you❤️ trust in God.
I just want to say that this one is deep to me, she's a very smart woman, regardless of her mistakes she has a good mind. She could still do a lot of good and change her situation, I know it can be hard, I will keep her in my prayers and hope the best for her. Wish her nothing but blessing come her way
My favorite addict ever. So many guys would take your loyalty and treat you like a queen. Please try to back to the rehab...
If you see this comment don’t beat yourself up. You deserve to be clean and live the best life you deserve. Helping someone like you that has been where you been is the gift of sobriety.
I love when she says
" i don't care how stupid you are; you always know right from wrong " that is priceless !!! I like this person, i hope the best for her...
She was really insightful. Prayers and best wishes to her. I think she has a lot of potential. Hopefully she gets help and we see an update on her please !
She's already so self aware, YOU are NOT weak Flakha, you're so brave for knowing why you are the way you are, and it's so valid, but you can do amazing things with your life. You deserve the absolute best, you just need to believe it. Take your time, but don't take forever. WE ARE ROOTING FOR U BEAUTIFUL!
We needed this conversation!
She's a beautiful and smart woman. I hope she's in a better place. Please keep us posted. Blessings for her!
your childhood almost always defines what will happen in your future and a lot of these stories are horribly sad and painful ☹️😢 she seems so sad 💔.... lots of love and hugs from Switzerland 🇨🇭 thanks Mark 🙏🏼👌🏼😘
I've been watching interviews like these and doing research on drug addiction for a few years now to have a better understanding on the effects of addiction, how to deal with someone with addiction and the eternal struggles they face.
I grew up in foster care in my teens, due to my mom's meth addiction. Mom still suffers from addiction and though I still have love for her, it's now from a distance.
My, now ex, wife has been using around the time we split up 4 years ago. I didn't know at the time, but I've put it all together over time.
I now have full custody of our two kids and although she has nothing left to lose, she adamantly denies using/ever using.
It really breaks my heart and I've felt guilty for the first few years. I tried everything to help her. Showing compassion, showing tough love. I now know that you can't do anything to help an addict. They simply just have to make that decision on their own and support them when they finally make that decision.
In my teens I used to research all the time why I was a druggie because I hated that life. I knew it could NOT be from the childhood trauma .. Is what I told myself. I been clean and have kids now and I have tried to help others get clean but failed at it. So maybe there is no single answer because I still wake up and ask myself how did I do it? It was so so so hard getting to where I am and it still is but Maybe there is a God but then so many others tell me there isn't ..
“ It’s about where it takes you in your addiction” ... I felt that .
I’m glad she got to talk about everything she’s been holding it.
Crazy how the some of our life experiences , we can pass on to our children, even if it’s not their fault. I hope she gets herself together, for herself and kids. She is beautiful and smart.
"sins of our fathers". Generational curses are real and its up to us to break them.
Thank you Flaka for sharing your story and your honesty. Keep your head up girl.
You Got this flakah i believe in you !!!!👊🏾👊🏾sending you lots of love and prayers!!🙏🏽👊🏾
I have a feeling that she can do better !
I'd really be interested to see her in an intensive rehab center. She has the words and the knowledge she just needs more guidance to put that into action
I like how self aware she is.
Amphetamines will do that.
Not self aware enough to make changes
@@DMRJ53
Chemical Addiction has something to do with that.
NATURAL LAW yes of course
NATURAL LAW you know if you are addicted to drugs and tell yourself to just not touch them and put them in your hands it goes away if you truly want to quit you will I hate this toxic thinking that it is a chemical situation
Dam, even though it makes me sad as a mother to see her in this situation. I give her so much respect for being brutally honest. She’s very intelligent despite her poor choices, she could be the best version of herself and an amazing mother to her children!
Don’t give up!!!!! You can make it stop, be strong .. I believe in you!!
She's made her choice. I feel so sorry for the 4 lives that she's basically ruined.
everyone has there lessons to learn ..everyone's different.. definitely believe we choose our path and I totally believe our creator loves us unconditionally thats why we can make our own choices. some people just want to be listened too.No judgementGod bless everyone.
Girl... get your self together. Alot of us have had a bad past/childhood, but when we mature it is time to walk away from it. Get help if needed, counseling, prayer etc and try to do your best. When kids are involved they pick up on the same activity, or they flourish toward the positive side of life. God bless all of these people.
it's called Addiction...
Yeah, like praying is really going to take the addiction away...
I love these people with all the damned answers.
@@aunangst1115 obviously nothing else is working, gotta turn to god for help. people continue to not help themselves then cry wolf.. there are tons of options to get help, these people just love the lifestyle and trashy men. they cant get away because they dont want to enough
I love the fact she is taking responsibility for her own actions and choices I have extreme faith she will overcome this
Wow! Honest woman. Praying she finds the light. Thank you Mark!! ❤️🙏🏽
There’s such beauty and wisdom in her. Such a strong and insightful young lady. I have nothing but hope that she will recover. May God be with her. ❤️🙏🏽
I'd like to see an extended version of her!
Wow, her level of awareness and understanding of what is her addiction and her problems is amazing. She could really go far and have an amazing future if she could only find the courage to get clean. With a little bit of schooling,She could do anything.
This woman really opened my eyes. Not proud of what she's done and been through but she still honest and open and recognizes her wrongs 🙌 that's strength💪 I hope she is doing OK to this day
You must live a sheltered life good for you
She is just your typical proud drug addict who loves drugs! And risky life style 😎 🤪
There’s no such thing as a functioning addict. Anything you put before yourself, and kids, that’s actively addicted. I thought I was a functioning addict but in rehab I learned wrong