Crystal Meth Addict interview-Adriana
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- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Adriana, a crystal meth addict living on Skid Row in Los Angeles.
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Why does she need another baby to be a mom when her daughter is still alive?! I really hope she doesn’t try to get pregnant again she really needs to focus on herself and her current baby.
She’s on meth bitch the fact that you think she can make good conscious decisions is astounding.
Lol
She needs to focus on herself before she can think of taking care of someone else.
She really should not be procreating, in my opinion. Due to her addiction to meth, her brains already slow (non reversal), if she ever does quit, God willing she most definitely can, she might suffer from mood swings, anxiety, depression, paranoia, anger, etc. Babies need good nervous systems when developing, peace and love.She should consider another way of caring for “something “ like a pet as they give so much in return. May God bless her.
@@trvpgame7710 why the name calling though?
Damn. I'm a recovering meth addict, a mother of 3 children and married.
What stood out the most with this particular interview that I'm not seeing many people say in the comments and surprisingly mark didnt press the point at all but maybe he just didnt catch it or want to push it too much but I'm wondering if she even realizes that she said that she cant deal with her alcoholic mother and step dad who are very abusive but her daughter is now being raised by them! That poor babygirl. I had my daughter when I was 16 and started using meth when I was 18, I got my daughter taken away and given to my mother so I'm absolutely not judging because I've been there! However, my mom was not a good mother to me and she also is an addict and that's what got me sober because I'll be damned if my mother was going to put my child through what I went through. I've been sober ever since and my daughter is almost 12 years old. I'm no way saying that I'm better then she is but I wish someone would make that point to her because it's so sad that her parents can possibly be raising another drug addict and even worse, that little girls mother isn't around so that doubles the chances. It's so sad. I'm praying that something clicks and she gets clean and gets her daughter back instead of getting pregnant again to "have another shot at it" because that will never work. My sister has been on the streets of Seattle Washington for 16 years and has had and lost 5 kids who were all born with heroin withdrawal. I pray for her daughter and I pray for all the addicts out there who are still suffering. Such a terrible, disgusting, heart wrenching and tough tough tough disease.
Clean and sober 9 years.
I hear you, yeah she has zero concept of the pattern repeating itself on her daughter, and also no motherly qualities at all. It's very sad.
You guys quick to believe what you hear?! Her mom and stepdad might surprise you if you heard their side,because the baby daddy fought the child adoption only to abandon the child and she gave the child to the same ppl she bashing and can't stand!? It always baffles me that we really take their side like it's the only one,one girl said her dad was raping her repeatedly, only to hear from him it's the furthest thing from the truth,he is trying so hard with a broken heart to help his daughter, doctors and all, am sorry ajs, don't cuss me out ok,😕
@@Peaceandlove13 this is not about taking sides..these ppl need help, and help is there if they are willing to help themselves. Its also important to hear their stories, if some of them are lying there is not much we can do about it. Its important to listen n offer understanding, not judgement. Lets understand why did she felt the need to lie, is it a common, is it couping mechanisms, etc. Is it "junkie talk" or something deeper
You really believe her when she says her parents were abusive to her even though they’ve got her child
@@Jaay2o watch couple of more videos, just cuz somebody got custody doesnt mean they are good Samaritan. Foster child abuse is rampant. Lack of love can be child abuse, shouting, rigid punishments, lack of interest, too much interest etc.. I mean we all do proces life differently.
“I pray that I have another baby.”
I’m not religious but here I am praying that she doesn’t
Same
Same
Also same
😂🙏🤟
Yeah no disrespect to here but people like her have no business procreating
Battling meth user here, and I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy. Peace and love to everyone who reads this.🙏🏻
Same to you. ❤️ Been struggling with addiction, poly addiction for half my life and I'm 23. My 2 kids are the only thing keeping me on my feet
U can be ok. Not ez. But I know. I hope ur ok
Just stop using......... It's all in your head
I’m one too.
You can change your life around. It’s never too late.
Adriana, you were saved from death to take care of your little girl. You have the strength and deserve to overcome your addiction. I hope you receive the support you need and courage to clean up your life.
Broken homes create broken people. My heart goes out
That is cliche in my opinion. There are many examples of homes where parents stayed married and did all the right things and yet the child/young adult makes piss poor decisions. Oftentimes, peer pressure and many times it’s simply that individuals mindset and outlook on life.
@@ellobo1326 You ought to look into the neuroscience of how abuse hinders development, and greatly increases the risk of problems in adulthood.
It's a cliche for a reason
@@Punishment_for_Decadence It’s mostly because they enjoy getting high because it FEELS GOOD.
Always blame some other person for an individuals decision instead of holding that person to any personal responsibility.
@@ellobo1326 You've obviously never heard of Rat Park have you?
@@ellobo1326 faxx
People fail to realize that she never was shown how to be a mother so the cycle continues lot of love all the way from Canada for you
If you are isolated. Sometimes you are not able to get out. Heart's.
That’s such bullshit. My mom was horrible and abusive and never cared for me and my sister. She left us alone to go party all the time. When we were teenagers (13 and 14) she ditched us altogether. Now my sister is the best mom I’ve ever seen. We’re both loving parents. Don’t give these junkies excuses because it shits on the rest of us who fought through the hard times and didn’t just roll over and let life beat us up. It’s easy to take drugs and make excuses.
The only way to break the cycle is to do it. It's not easy breaking the cycle but is most certainly attainable. Making conscious decisions as an adult and sorting out your traumas is necessary and up to each individual....that's how we change as a society, as parents.. as fellow humans...by individuals taking individual responsibility. Literally being the change. As a recovering addict 12 years sober my experience is at the end of the day I got sober because I chose to. I used because I chose to. Using is the easy way out. Blaming my parents for how my childhood was....how they lacked as parents only contributed to my addiction.... it gave me an excuse for my bad behavior.
@@Bbknuckles I love how none of you realize that NOT EVERYONE IS THE SAME. People handle life and trauma differently. You're a real piece of work calling her a junkie and acting like she isn't a troubled human.
@@KN-yk9lp well is she not a junkie?
She looks 12 and 38 at the same time.
that is so true.
You called it perfectly. She's actually physically 38 and mentally 12...
Yes, a 12 year old on meth.
Right?🤣
@@taq1238 sounds hot
Sweetheart having babies is not like buying a new toy once the other one is broken...
You have a child already ... Do good by her!!!
Quitting drugs would be a great start!
Sending you good vibes!
Yeah those good vibes will definitely set her straight
👏🙌🏽
Good advice
Great point spot on thanksm
Who are you to judge, maybe another baby will help her get clean
i know her daughter, she’s in really good hands and a really sweet girl. prayers adriana will get better
I felt what Mark was feeling when he made that big, final sigh before he said; 'I wish you the best of luck, I hope you put down that crystal meth.' I felt the emotion in his voice. This video was difficult, and I've watched just about every one of these videos! Thank you Mark, for giving these people a voice and a platform.
Yes that sigh
There may be some mild intellectual disability going on with her. She needs someone to guide her when she’s ready to stop using drugs. God bless her and I hope she sees it’s never too late to be in her daughter’s life and break the cycle her and her mother have
She's only disabled by meth. Ive seen this alot. The drug and the lack of sleep/ nutritional deficiencies slowly destroys their brain / teeth and other organs
@@A_R411 yep, if she got clean she wouldn't sound like she has any disabilities (other than mental health conditions of course)
It’s meth. That’s what it does to your brain. You’d be surprised. I know I was... it turned me into a literal basket case. I couldn’t even speak at some points. I could not form sentences. Thank goodness I’m in recovery now. It was horrible, and what saved me was losing myself. I knew I had to try to get that back and never lose myself or my mind ever again like that.
She probably has "meth mouth". Talking kinda with a lisp because of missing teeth
It may be something from the car accident plus the drugs.
Omg 27 yrs old? She looks like a baby! What a sweet girl. I wish her all the best. Be strong little one, you can do it! Love from Indiana
❤
@DIALINGLUNAR /_\ lol no
@DIALINGLUNAR /_\ idiot.
Never judge until you've walked in the shoes of another , this channel has shown me that the common denometer that I detect is broken and abusive parents it makes me so sad that some people have such a tragic start to their lives
@@dishawnharris8571 no offence meant to you im aiming my comment at myself and most people , you are correct she is childlike in many ways
The more I watch these videos it's getting horribly clear the problem is mental illness from past trauma and everyone even the addict believes it's the drug abuse. People need help because it's a vicious circle and no one is taught how to cope. These people have so much potential and they don't even realize it, I hope she does figure it out because she's here for a purpose.
It doesn’t even have to be mental illness. People in these videos usually aren’t having PTSD, but the traumatic stress effect, which is when you’re still experiencing unrelenting trauma, and your response to current stressors IS that of a “reasonable person.” Of course, many have other mental illnesses resulting from the trauma. I’m not gonna argue that point.
yup, thanks a lot Ronald Regan for us having no place to help the mentally ill....
They used to help mentally ill people. They used to have places to go and stay and get help for mental issues, BUT the left bitched and whinned so much that they CLOSED all the mental hospitals and now they just dump people with mental health problems on skid row. FACTS.
It's not necessarily having a place to go. Which in some cases it is but teaching young adults or teenagers how to cope with stress and mental illness or trauma so they don't have to always turn to drugs for relief. Drug problems will always be a problem if we don't fix the reasons people use them. And yeah I know all to well since being a alcoholic and drug addict. I never had a problem with drugs, I had a problem with me. If that makes sense. What I mean is once I was able to focus on my mental health and not run away from my problems I didn't need alcohol or drugs.
I am starting to think it's the society we "live" in.
Man, I sit and watch your interviews and am overcome with emotions everytime. These are real people with real struggles - and their lives are much more difficult than mine. These videos are an opportunity for the viewer to be reminded of their own humanity. This series is a necessary evil that everyone should be aware of.
It should also be a wake-up call, for all the women out there who get a divorce just because they got bored. Their children are being sacrificed in the process
Her eyes look so dull it breaks my heart.
@ we certainly have a way with words shall we say.
@ beautiful? That saying is everywhere, even here in Australia. It's saying she's an idiot, ie. no brains. Hardly beautiful!
@ Calm down? I'm very calm, thank you. I was just surprised someone had never heard that saying before! Mi culpa, amigo. No te retuerzas la ropa interior, hombre!
Lo siento, Tulip. Quise decir senora 🤭😊
@@AdamGoldswain That's a universal saying. Everyone knows it
My heart goes out to her. I rarely comment on YT vids, but her story hits home. I placed my son for an open adoption 5 years ago so he wouldn't be raised by my fam. I was 10 when my dad overdosed on heroin and my mom is an active crack addict. I hope Adriana gets better. Love from Philly.
"i died for a minute nd woke up with another chance" ..... mark: "and you woke up back in hell" lmafooooooo that shit was dark humor
Yah, but she didn't get it.
@@marylougeorge9890 it went right over her head
Did he lie though
I was like “nooooooo he didn’t 😂”
That shit sent me
Im a recovered crystal meth addict, it is possible to turn your life completely around. You just need to try and not give in..
I’m proud of you!!
@@sarahsmith-xc8db thank you so much ❤️❤️ it hasn't been easy but it's been worth it
@@thecreightonfamily I know (second-hand) how hard it is to get clean. My mom is a meth user of 18 years now, and she still can’t seem to shake it. Anytime I see anyone say they’ve gotten clean from meth I feel this insane deep pride because it’s probably one of the hardest mental challenges to overcome.
Me TOO I’m so glad that life is on the rear view
@Smokey Robinson oh I agree I mean tbh the only reason I stopped really was because I found out my husband and myself were expecting a baby and I didn't want to ruin a life. I know it's much deeper than just giving in but it's possible
her not wanting to be with her child bc of her parents makes me really sad, especially because her daughter has to deal with that
The step dad is the FATHER???
@@phyllysanantonio he is?? I thought it was a bf
@@ial1056 well she said at the last minute the father claimed parental right and then BOOM!!! Step dad has the kid. Unless she is just a liar
@@phyllysanantonio She didn't really make it clear how it went from the baby's dad getting custody to her being raised by her mom & stepdad.🤔
Adriana does seem to love her daughter because mentioning her was the only time I recall her semi smiling.
I'm 28 and struggle with mental illness. I've never been able to hold down a steady job. There is too much pressure for anyone not "normal" to function "properly" in this society the way it functions.
You're telling the truth.👍
I felt this .
Agreed, I left 3 jobs because of my eating disorder.
@@valiummarbles317 sorry to hear you are struggling. My fiance also struggles with ED. God bless you both.
How are u now Brian?
Moral of the story. Dont do meth
LOL
Unfortunately I saw this message too late 🤣
@@coweenuhm9662 I've been clean since birth. 💪💪💪💪
@@renegaderebel2223 i have six years so 🤷♀️ at least i ended up quitting lol
@@coweenuhm9662 beat 19 years then I'll be impressed.
Classic NDE experience. You came back for a reason...probably to look after your daughter. Good luck sweetheart.
"Who wants to be around that?"
Your daughter is around that right now, you've doomed her to your own childhood.
That's how the cycle can keep on going for generations. It's sad that they don't realize, or don't want to realize, that they're replaying their own childhood from the side of the parent until it is too late.
Was looking for this comment . How can she not connect the two !?
Hearing about her near-death experience is so interesting. I hope she's able to get the help to turn her life around.
I thought so too, I was glued to her during that part.
Alcoholism is the "gift" that keeps on giving.
"Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow." - T Real
If you're an adult child of a dysfunctional family system....Find the ACoA program. If you don't do anything to address your childhood traumas... Your romantic relationships will.
Be a firefighter. Break the cycle. 🔥
I do support breaking the cycle.
I don't think it's required to be inhuman to do so.
Sometimes the cycle of abuse is so deep that it takes many generations to break.
It can be a gradual generational shift with each one getting better. It might take a really brave hard working black sheep to push the family upwards.
Let's just hope the next generation doesn't ruin it all with the fire of selfish narcissism.
I know a woman who took all her mother's love and hard work for granted. She took it all back down and ended up with the worst most abusive part of the family. She chose to walk with child molesters and emotionally vicious family. She sucker punched her mother and ran off wailing her coddled and culled version. Blaming the one person who was there for her and took the brunt off it all.
This mother was not flawless by any means but she really pulled together a full and diverse childhood with plenty of opportunities for her daughters. She survived a horrifically abusive background and did the work to elevate her family a great deal. Her daughter had only a fraction of the effort to bring up further. She chose blame, anger, and subversive low character moves instead. She is now part of her kinda clan. Complete with child abusers, wife beaters, and the most 🔥 🔥 🔥 delusional hypocrites of them all.
She is no hero standing against the flames. She is a coward that threw her gifts away.
It's easy to be an ingrate and blame everyone else for your own selfish choices.
It's easy to throw up your guilt and shame over your own poor choices on the people who have helped you the most.
It's easy to stalk people on the Internet instead of having the spine to actually communicate in a healthy healing way.
Eventually when the party stops and you have to pay your own way , it becomes someone else's fault or you realize what life actually requires.
Its easy to make a fool's analogy and not know the whole story.
One sided stories are never accurate.
@@Tejah I get the feeling you're projecting your experience into what I've written here as a general message to the readers.
Some people are just not strong enough to be Firefighters.
Too damaged.
Too disordered.
Too dysfunctional.
Lost souls. They are lost for their own reasons.
In ACoA we learn that the generational cycle continues even after the alcoholism or qualifier stops.
And yes...It takes multiple generations to break the cycle.
We learn to manage our own feelings, perceptions and environment and allow others to manage...or not manage...theirs. we cannot change others but we can change ourselves.
Most situations are subjective to our own perceptions and experiences and that forms our opinions.
Most rational people realize that there's usually 3 sides of a personal story.... Not judging or degrading this person doesn't make me naive to that fact.
Yes... She abandoned her child and she is not a firefighter... But that's not for me to decide or mention because she is still breathing and it's possible for people to change and become enlightened to try and chase those flames. It's possible she start to recover and repair the damage she has done to her child.
I can only hope her child will be the Firefighter. 🔥
@@lilaworley8935 I'm happy you feel your message is the lone flame of truth. Void any personal biases.
It's great that you have found a group to help you. I wish you well.
Your right, I was speaking directly to your most obvious and personal comments not the interview.
Some work overtime so their children have the luxury to choose whimsy theatrical lifestyles. Free to work on themselves. Then become responsible or a blaming narcissistic flame thrower.
The brave cut the fireline alone in the unbearably hot treacherous environment while the chauvinistic pigs fell back in exhaustion.
They are the true firefighters. 🔥 🔥
I guess they felt...
Too threatened
Too soft and spoiled by entitlement
Too lazy
Too soul sucking
Stuck on the desire for center stage.
It can be hard for an insecure person to see someone carry their own weight and then come pick up their load when they falter.
That is by a real firefighter. 🔥🔥 🔥
Not some pie.
It's easier to act like you are the better. Your just one of the gang if you can only attack from behind.
Personally I always thought the pincer attack worked best. Be careful though one slip and you will go up in flames too. No room error there.
Let's not pretend who and what is behind the message.
Lol but your talk is so poetic.
I do agree in the case of the interview, she has currently abandoned her children for the meth. It's sad. I hope she finds her way.
This is why I’m not ever having kids. I know the way my adopted parents treated me was wrong and they taught me how NOT to raise a child and know I would do my best for a kid but I also know things can slip through subconsciously and I’m so afraid to fuck them up the way I’m fucked up... Fuckin heroin junkie
An THIS right here is why I got sober. I’m the first and only one in my family but I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy and I will do anything to stop it from effecting my Daughter. ❤️
Mark’s deep sigh at the end said it all😔😔😔
Whether she's lying about things or not, she's lost in addiction. People are quick to judge just because their sin and struggles are different then hers. Its easy to judge others worse off then you so you can feel better about yourself. I pray I never lose compassion for others
I have never judged anyone and it's because I haven't experienced being in anybody shoes.
These peaple will use and abuse your kindness.....lived among them for awhile on the streets..,
Me too. I "pray" that more and more people become compassionate and have empathy, because i think the larger part of "Humanity" is missing both.
The World needs more people who think like you "VeVe". 💜
Miss Adriana has this seemingly warm, Soft spoken, Gentle disposition although there's alot of pain in her eyes her energy is so sweet and kind, 😔 I hope she will be just fine , wishing her well as always with Kind Regards -YJonTiia💌
i haven't done meth in almost 3 years and i still think about it everyday, it never goes away.
Hello boof
Anybody else notice the lack of maternal instinct? She didn't understand that last question...her near death experience didn't affect her enough to stop doing whats she's doing. Well, at least she's aware she's going nowhere fast, and that time flies, at least there's that!
I've heard that meth can cause you to lose emotions such as love and empathy.. In a documentary on it one mother had been clean for over a year and still admitted she didn't love her kids again yet.. Scary.
@@newkingdom6750 what’s the documentary called
Her: my mom is an alcoholic who abused me
Also her: My mom is taking care of my daughter
How is she supposed to know how to parent if she was never parented? It must have been the best option she could think of at the time, or maybe she didn’t have options, if she tested positive during pregnancy. People do the best they know how.
unbelievable..this young woman should not have any more children until she's clean ..it makes me cross to think that she's considering making another human being who will have to cope with an unfit, chaotic mother and probably no father
You want to see your kid and be a part of their life, you have limited options...and people change, her mom might be a good mother now.
I was confused because I thought her babydaddy had got custody. So he (her daughter's father) fought the adoption all to NOT be in his daughter's life. 🤦♀️
Her parents take great care of her daughter !!!! She is a beautiful smart little girl with everything she could ask for!!!
I love her story about dying and seeing the little girl with the beautiful wings& her grandad, the detail she put into that story made it so real, to her it is real and that tells me she has hope. I really hope she can turn her life around, there is still time for her do this. She has such a beautiful soul.
Heaven is real not just to her
I went to middle school with her. Her and her baby daddy were both in the special needs class. I hope she gets the help she needs 🙏
You in her business
Uh, why did you feel the need to say she was in a special needs class? That is just rude. Were you also in the special needs class?
Im only stating a fact with no intent of being rude. Its just an insight into mental health and/or disabilities. You never know. Its a horrible reality. I was the new kid at a middle school in a new city. No i wasnt in the special needs class but i personally befriended them and they were actually my first acquaintances of middle school. Its very sad that she has ended up here.
I havent seen her in 13 years. How am i in her business? Lmao
I didnt mean any disrespect but the FACT that she WAS in special needs may explain a lot.
This is one of the most beautiful interviews I’ve seen so far.. She is so honest and genuine. I love how simple yet realistic she was telling about her near death experience after the crash. I hope she finds her way away from the drugs. 🙌
She never got a chance to grow up. Abuse, pregnant at 18. “Went back to my grandparents cause my mom didn’t want anything to do with me”. Then drugs.
Brutal. It isn’t fair. I feel like I’m listening to a little kid that grew up too fast. Wonder when the last time was she slept 8hrs straight
Yeah, that phrase touched me also. How the hell can a mother say that? I cannot even imagine how does it feel when your mother, who carried you inside, abandons you in such that way. Terrible
@Jimmy Strudel man what is wrong with you jimmy addicts are products of there environment there lives are hell [
@@MariaLopez-xc3zt The truth of the matter is probably her mother had a ridiculous start to life also ,its a never ending circle I wish we could help break
@Jimmy Strudel 🖕 prick
@@scotthawkins5347 yeah,totally! Sometimes (most of the time) I am ashamed of the human beings. How could we reach this point? It is sad, because I also think that we can do nothing. This corrupted system is bigger than we are and it goes on and on. As you said,it is a cycle...
I was on meth daily for 9 months. By the end of it I could barely function. I was a straight A student in school and my brain turned to mush. You overthink even your natural movements. I knew that I wasn’t behaving normally and I was filled with overwhelming anxiety trying to appear normal while doing everyday tasks. I lost a lot of my control of my motor skills and that was terrifying. My brain was totally fried. Thank God I got clean and I’m back to normal. Some people never get back to normal.
Wishing you the very best 💕
Happy to hear that love
We do not go to hell when we die, we come to hell when we are born. Kindness to you all.
Hell is much much worse if you could actually see it. On earth there is both bad and good things. But hell is only bad and heaven is only good.
. We can make our own hell right here on earth .
Oh there is a hades and this Earth is just a door to it!!!!
@@Kylemathews1 Skid Row is mostly Hell? She's a fallen angel?
That’s a bit dramatic. And hell is nothing like this lol
This young woman really moved me. She looks so fragile, even after all she's been through. There is a candor about her. She lived a near-death experience for a reason, which is to seek help, get clean from drugs, and take care of her little girl
Your portraits are amazing! Always capturing their beauty.
Her mom ditched her and was a drunk, so she ditched her daughter with her mom.
As she said herself, "Who wants to be around that?"
she didn't ditch her kid she did what's best,she's a homeless meth addict and they have a home so yeah it's better for the kid
@@Aaron-zu3xn By definition she ditched her kid. And ditching the kid with drunk grandma is not 'what's best.' Taking responsibility by not having kids you can't care for OR changing and taking responsibility for the innocent child you created is what's best.
@@a.wanderer5006 your logic makes no sense at that point you're claiming she can time travel,once the kid is already on the way and the choice is live on skid row with the kid or have the kid in a home the home is always a better choice
@@Aaron-zu3xn are you one of these weirdos who believes humans are merely victims of destiny with no free will?
She could have prevented pregnancy in the first place or chosen adoption, RU486, abortion or gotten clean for the sake of her kid.
Putting your own offspring in the same circumstances that beleaguered you is life's number one fail.
So she didn’t think for one minute while saying that, about her daughter being around that? So sad.
No more teeth. 😢 Poor girl.
I know I woke up early when I'm up 5 minutes after Mark posts a new SWU. Goodmorning!
Amen brother 🙏
Annica you took the words right out my mouth
Mom ppppp
@ it was 6 am where I am when I wrote that 😊
@@AdamGoldswain 🍼😂😂😂👍
Thank you for the interview Adriana and SWU
thank you mark for talking to these men and women
I noticed often the victims of addiction have many things in common; bad childhood, abuse., war trauma, no father figure/role model. Combine this with the US complete lack support of mental and physical help and a system that is very unforgiven once you get behind makes for a recipe for disaster. I'm lucky I grew up in Europe and got to spend years living in Connecticut and Arizona to experience even in rich neighbourhoods how poorly the US treats it's people and how so many become victims of a system that favours the rich. I genuinely feel sorry for these people who were never given a fair chance in life and who were completely abandoned by their own people. For contrast in my US high school year 4 kids have lost their lives to drug addictions in my European I had bigger classes and everyone who ended up addicted got help and is still alive.
Always blame “the rich” for piss poor decisions by individuals with their own brains. People get hooked on drugs because they start out by wanting to GET HIGH. They aren’t satisfied with the consciousness that nature gave them and want to enhance it. It’s all about chasing that dopamine. Endless information available as to how drug use ALWAYS turns out, but people still want the feeling that drugs give. Same with food. It gives a dopamine reward also. I’m fat cause I like donuts and ice cream. Totally on me ! Not some rich persons fault.
@@ellobo1326 she’s not blaming the rich for her problems. I believe she was saying if you’re not rich it’s much harder to get good help.
@@ellobo1326 It’s not a the fault of rich people it’s the fault of a country that favors the rich and does not care for the poor. I’m often in San Francisco and it’s mind boggling as an European how rich US citizens are fine living in a city filled with homeless drug addicts roaming their streets day and night. It’s something that’s considered “normal” in the US but something very frowned upon by foreign visitors who are not used to seeing these high levels of poverty and mental health issue on public display in some of the US’s richest areas. I’m glad I pay high taxes but know that my country looks after it’s people and I for one would not want to live in a place where you have to be confronted with extreme poverty on my own doorstep on a daily base. What I learned from living in the US is how blessed I am to have grown up in Europe and how flawed US politics are, and I am well off myself, the US can’t even take care of their OWN VETERANS, it’s truly pathetic.
@@nunuknowstheway6710 I agree with a lot of what you say. But nobody in our country puts a gun to someone’s head and makes them take that first toke, first hit of crack, or first needle of heroine. They do it to get high and all think they are gonna be that magic person that won’t get addicted and destroy their life and their community. Everyone in America is learning to play the victim role and never take responsibility and consequences for their own choices and actions. I’ve had plenty kicks in the nuts in my life and didn’t go drown my sorrows in a bottle or a needle. So I will never feel sorry for drug addicts. The drug dealers and peddlers should get swift death penalty for poisoning society but they are mollycoddled also.
Yes
Wish her the best. I'm envious of your determination to make sure to upload these perspectives and stories these people have. Hell on earth (one of them), thank you for sharing.
I am so sorry for telling this but when she said that her mother and stepfather are still drunks and who would want to be around that, not her, but she knows that her daughter lives with them. My sober thinking does not understand this. I hope a miracle happens and she finds motivation to get sober and save her daughter's future. Even Mark commented a lot in this interview, even at the very end. I thank God that i can see clearly the priorities that matter in life and i hope she will be able to get on with her life without dugs and the excuses, the depression and pretty much the mind prison that comes with them.
She can't decide to make the right decisions, she has a lot of trauma issues. She can't realy take care of herself, don't you see that?
@@mariebernier3076 yes of course and i hope somehow she will manage to get through it and i strongly believe that getting sober will be a step to the right direction. But this is with my way of thinking, without trauma or drugs, that's why i say i can't relate. She struggles in ways that i never have and i can't even imagine. I really hope she somehow finds peace, love and happiness.
@@franzzzzeska Got you, thanks for your explanation.
@@mariebernier3076 Yes, a lot more than she's ready to face. Seems in a lot of pain.
"I never thought I'd be a drug addict" says every drug addict
I like the way you let them tell there storys, so much. You never give them a bad feeling. Sooooo good. Thank you, for let them tell there lifes.😍
Agree. Mark wants the best for them.
Couldn’t agree with you more.
Nah, he can be a jerk sometimes but it is what it is, no one's perfect.
I know this young ladies mom. She is by far one of the most loving, caring and compassionate human beings. This young lady is not in her moms house for the safety of her OWN daughter. It’s amazing how an addict can twist things around... and not feel anything. I feel for both of them... for her mom not knowing how else to help her and for her being a prisoner to her own body. SAD.
Are you certain her mom is a good person? Not everyone knows what goes on behind closed doors, my mom is not a good person and neither is her husband. After leaving/being kicked out at 18 my mom told everyone I’m the problem & everyone believes her...Your comments make victims not want to speak out.
@@jesseniamarin4711 yes I can tell u forsure her daughter is fine and in great hands she speaks to her uncles and father everyday she is a very very happy little girl who does hella shit kids her age has never done like jujitsu and multiple cruises with the “grandparents that are alcoholics”
And I’m saying this cuz I’m one of her Uncles
@@jesseniamarin4711 I don’t know her mom but she changed her story so many times in this interview , so I would take what she says with a grain of salt.
@@jesseniamarin4711 Meth is a crazy drug. Childhood buddy got hooked onto meth at like 18. He would call me from jail while I was in college. He would get out, get arrested, serve a couple months to a year, rinse-wash-repeat. He operated in a constant state of delusion and paranoia. When out of jail, he was posting on social media about people stalking him, family abandoning him, etc.
This went on for 7-8 years. He had got out of jail and was clean and working. Then he relapsed and was found asleep outside during a particularly cold night without any shoes or appropriate clothing and had several toes and fingers amputated as a result. His daughter was born shortly after this happened and he has stayed clean from my understanding.
I have lupus I’ve been at death 💀 door twice second time I was in a coma for 23 days all I can tell you DEATH is cold dark and yet you feel comfortable at the same time and you see people that are dead but at the time you DONT know it until you wake up with a tube down your throat that’s my experience I don’t want to die but death ☠️ comes for us you don’t know who what when where and how make good choices in life peoples‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️💯💯💯💯💯💯💯
Interesting
Watching from Australia. So much transcends location. Such interesting content
@The Casino Eat meat! All day, every day.
@The Casino BAHAHAHAHAHAHA What a fool
Outstraight plants are actually alive aswell if you weren't taught that in school so fuck off with your vegan bollox trying to make everyone feel bad for eating meat go back to where you came from and try not to piss anyone off while your at it
@The Casino Like meat is murder stick your head back in the dirt/Your food
@The Casino it's just vegans like you saying we hate all vegans then say use hate meat eaters and disrespect them are you for real ye dafty keep you hypocritical comments to yourself ye pleb
Just looked at all your comments from other videos ye fuckin tick
Hope her daughter is okay and finds a better path in life. 😔
27 years old and no teeth. Dang that is awful.
She says she can't deal with that shit!! But she leaves her daughter with her Mom and Stepdad, not even realizing shes repeating the cycle of what her mother did. I pray to god that Mark isn't interviewing her daughter in ten years. Shes a beautiful young lady I hope she can get it figured out.
My thoughts exactly. I hope much better for the little girl
We have to understand that a lot of times when people are addicted to drugs they make the dumbest mistakes. She needs help and I wouldn't know how because I've never been in that situation.
@@jr.rangeeel7624 That’s so true. I used to be considered the exemplary mother of the year by my family and friends. I was also a pain patient and my life devolved into being in the streets to get money to get through the next few hours, or even minutes, and that was as far as I could think. Now I can’t believe the things I missed doing for my teenage kids. One had to live with my mother, who is very domineering, and I thought I was keeping peace by staying away, or she and I were at it 24/7 about my son. The other was in college but, I now know, felt lonely and confused. I love them both incredibly much. I used to homeschool and pay for and drive them to pursue their extracurricular interests 20-30+ hours a week, sometimes. But once I was in an addictive pattern, it’s like I shut my eyes and wasn’t able to wake up for 7 years. It truly reroutes your brain pathways so much that you can’t think clearly or show insight until you stop & give your brain some time to heal. Of course, I regret allowing that to happen more than anything in life. I guess I thought it wouldn’t happen to me because I was so disciplined and had such great priorities for so long. Drugs do NOT discriminate, though. They do everyone the same once they get their hooks in, and you don’t see it coming. They will literally reroute your brain pathways right past everything that used to be important
to you, because they tell your brain they’re more important to your survival than food and sleep. People who don’t sleep can’t reason, and the cycle goes on. They say it takes stimulant addicts at least three years for their brains to go back to normal. A lot of opiate addicts never feel normal. People who are using drugs definitely have a process similar to a disease taking over. That’s why I’m always so scared for people I see on here because I remember when I was at that stage where I was just not lucid at all and I was lucky (I guess) to get Quarry Road to a treatment and then finally find a decent treatment by word of mouth and beg my PO to let me go to it. And then I happen to have the right PO for that. It’s like a miracle when people get out of that cycle. I still don’t think they should criminalize people for possessing a small amount of drugs, though. Considering possession a crime prevents a lot of people from getting treatment options before their employment and housing options are taken away even when they do rehabilitate.
Drug addiction not only messes up your day to day life, it also screws with your judgement and your ability to make decisions that are in lign with ethical values. They cloud your conscience and allow you to do things (like giving your daughter to abusive grandparents) that would’ve been unthinkable before addiction.
@Jordan Hughes Mark should interview some people in 5 points!
Thanks Mark, great interview. Adriana, make that decision to be a Mom to your daughter. It's the most rewarding and important thing you can do in life. For anyone.
“Who wants to be around that” then leave her child there smh
Can you imagine how cute she was as a child. Poor fucking girl. How could you let this happen. Blame the parents. I hope you get a chance and you get your lucky streak young lady x I so wish you all the best. Take some of my luck lol. I never have much but I'd happily pass it on if I could.
All the better to attract predators
They weren't really 'parents'. Just breeders
None of "us " were there. Stop with the blame game . She, is an addict. Until, she gets clean.( Which I hope she does.) Nothing will change.
And who do you think her child should blame ?
"How was death?" 😂 smh priceless 🤣 that should have started the interview.
Poor girl, that was so mean.
Hey mark, I recently watched a documentary on a maximum security prison in Indiana. It was heartbreaking because while there were many inmates that deserved to be there because they were clearly still clinging to crime life. There was one inmate in particular that was named Stanford, who got to the prison when he was 15 years old for double homicide. He's serving 170 years and it's been 25. His demeanor and perspective is so positive and strong. It really hurt to watch him hold back tears when talking about all the things he never got to do as a kid, and will likely never get to do. If you could land an interview. I don't think anyone like him deserves 170 years. That kind of sentence is for prison system profit. Not anything to do with his crime.
I saw this too and remember him. Agree that it was heartbreaking stuff.
Me too. It is from sir Trevor McDonald and he has some great documentaries! But if he would interview this person again I would love to see him so also the other inmates with similar problems or kind of similar...the prison system in the US is just mest up and some do deserve to be there and also the jail after...because I don't believe there is a good system in place to help those who where in jail and just get thrown back in society... that's just asking for 'steal-jail-getout-repeat'
That documentary was heartbreaking. It was filmed awhile ago, I believe. (5 years ago?)
was it the black man talking about philosophy?
@Meow🐈 i would agree but from what i remember it wasn’t as simple as that. i think it was on the grounds of association and he was very young. not everyone has the capacity to learn from their mistakes but it’s obvious that he had. he also hasn’t complaining. he had come to terms and seemed very mature even for his age
She has a great memory still. Just proof that shes not too far gone to try to kick the drugs and move on.
This young lady needs a good friend, a hug ...love and spiritual healing. 🌹🙏🏾
These stories I find are always so similar to mine except luckily I went the right way. I hope she learns her worth and turns her life around before it's to late. I was lucky to get at least one caring family member that steered me clear of these things in life. After watching these videos I see how easy it is to make wrong choices if no one tells you how dangerous they are. It's really sad some people don't get even that in life. They all still deserve a happy life as much as anyone else. Praying for your strength to fight for better days dear. 💜
She didn’t really have a fighting chance against the warmth hug of drugs
Cold grip of drugs!
She is literally so beautiful. May god bless her, i hope she will stay strong.
Oh wow! What an AMAZING GIRL and LIFE STORY! And obviously Adriana’s purpose is to stop the destructive family cycle of addiction and HEAL! And in doing so pave a better life path for herself and her daughter.
It's amazing how some people can get so tweaked out yet remain cognizant. Comedian/podcaster Jessa Reed is a great example. You can quit like Jessa did, Adriana!
I know I stayed up way to late when I see Mark’s morning upload. But I stay up just a little longer to watch.
I'm doing the same thing right now lol. It's 3:25 am.
the stare is so chilling 😭
The blank expression, the lack of comprehension, and self awareness in her eyes is astonishing
I appreciate these videos so much
Thank you Adriana from Hungary. You fixed my soundsystem. Much love.
Her eyes are begging us for help. It’s heartbreaking.
@Gain Train I think that's what a lot of people see... you know, people who have empathy.
@Gain Train That's pretty cold. I don't think you have the faintest idea about this poor person, one way or the other.
@Gain Train I never claimed to know anything about the person in the video though. You did, then you implied anyone who could possibly feel sorry for them is 'foolish' and added a load of weird projections and baseless insults. Are you alright?
She is so gentle. God bless her.🧚♂️☘🇮🇪
she is, God love her.
@@sarahsu4863 Yes Sarah, she is vulnerable. Her mam is getting the second chance at motherhood there.
I died too, and it was like she says. Only, for me, it wasn't like a dream. It was like waking up from a dream.
Good morning/night to everyone watching this video. Hope y'all have an amazing day/night. Thank you Mark for sharing these type of interviews. For taking the time to listen to each person's story that is called life. Everyone is different and everyone experiences different situations in life.
All the best to YOU too, Hailey.
Thankyou. 💜
She’s stronger than she knows.
Near death experiences are pretty fascinating. I've never experienced it myself, but I really do believe in another side.
great interview
Mark, really is trying to give a ray of hope. Giving light to thoughts of healing. Love Mark for his interviews.
Breaks my heart when an interviewee spins in that chair, there innocence on display
or the need to move because of overstimulation.
Idk why it bugs me that everyone comes here to say they recovered/recovering ect ect blah blah. I guess I get the intent, gratitude or the validation for yourself but I think it’s important to know a lot of these people are different than you. A lot of these people have very severe mental conditions-disabilities and will absolutely never recover. The comparison of them and you is just not the same. I feel like that is really important to know- and important for us as a society to figure out different methods of caring for our homeless. This isn’t specifically about this woman- so sorry if this seems out of place but I watch a shit ton of these and guess I had to vent it out lol.
It’s crazy what meth does to your speech. When I was on that shit , I hated talking to people. I was never able to speak clearly and get what I had to say out. I was talking like a adult with a 2nd grade speech. Fuxking insane. I’m so glad I’m off that shit. I hope she finds a way out of this life.
she’s so beautiful and so lost 😞 i hope she finds the light♥️
"Put me back in the car." Meth is a hell of a drug.
Tbh it was probably mostly shock from the car accident. People who have been in car accidents completely sober have reported being extremely disoriented right after the accident
yea
Heroin is a hell of a drug.
Yeah I think it was heroin that caused them to both fall asleep
^ it’s called not sleeping for a long time on meth. Then you have to sit still for a whole minute and pass out. Happens in the car a lot when you’re using meth. I’d know. I’ve been in recovery for almost 2 years now. Meth was my main drug of choice.
Her poor daughter doesn’t stand any more of a chance than she had. Does she not comprehend that she left her daughter in the exact place that she can’t live in. Too bad she didn’t go through with the adoption. 😢
Lol have you watched this channel long? Put the baby in adoption to get raped? That's all it is. A whole Lotta rape.
The baby daddy didn’t want the adoption... not her
@@JohnGalt916 no not adoption honey that's foster care those are two very different things because one adoption consists of a family who has sought out that child by an agency to have them in their life and make a commitment and Foster Care is a government-run system that takes in kids who has nowhere else to go and usually consists of group homes where there are many children there from similar backgrounds such as abuse and traumatic situations and they're run by paid government officials who are not obliged to have any emotional connection with these children other than being paid to care for them.. a lot of these times those children will be abused because they have no one who is connected to them looking after them and therefore they're basically thrown to the dogs and the dogs being sometimes Foster families who are getting paid to take those kids in and paid professionals as I mentioned who will pray on those children because they know there is no other adult that will speak up for them as well as being abused by other foster children who know there is no one else for those kids to go to to seek help.. very different situations between foster care and adoption.
@@MaxxHarleenMurrder but they do, sadly they do. Keep watching these videos, some of them were adopted and abused, sexually, physically, emotionally by their “adopted parents”
@@alexisbuchanan8394 true, but don't forget about the families that are honest, and genuinely want to help a child... I have a very close friend that went through the process and it took YEARS they are giving that girl the best life I've seen out of any child I know. I truly wish the woman in the video's child had the same chance. It almost seems as though its just based on luck. Too bad there isn't a test to detect pedophilic abusive humans so no child has to be placed in a home like that.
Adriana you are beautiful.. don't give up.you can do it. Your daughter needs you. I sending you peace and love ❤️
I hope this little girl gets the help she needs to get better she seem so sweet .
Mark, I'd love to see a series of interviews of death experiences. I've never understood them...but they do make me curious.
search for Randy Kay on CZcams. His channel is mostly all interviews of people who died and telling their stories. Randy himself died and has a death story so he is very supportive of people who have had this experience
This one got me for some reason 💔
Hope she gets better and gets the help that she needs.
i loved this interview. thanks for sharing.
wow after watching her speak and rock for so long and then her portrait popped up, i was totally floored! Not that i was surprised that she was as beautiful as she is because clearly shes an attractive woman and easy to tell throughout but her portrait instantly threw me into i guess confusion is the word ill settle on because i cant describe it. The portrait looks like a COMPLETELY different person than her first half interview and it states the difference very loudly. Maybe its just me idk, Adirana you are a very gorgeous young lady and no one is too broken to deserve love and respect so keep that in mind, get your shit together (as you say), and start moving forward and not back or s tand still. One step forward is INFINITELY further than zero. a million trillion times more than zero! Good luck and remind yourself more often how stunning you are and also develop a plan on paper and then repeat that plan OUT LOUD every single day, and you will certainly bring it into reality
Start taking responsibility for the addiction. Be 100% and things will start to get better.
I'm thinking there's a whole lot more to her story than we can imagine.
I heard that SIGH Mark, my feelings exactly!!
The sigh said it all.
@@annettecooper1024 It sure did
I said the same thing !
@@jackierosado1777 What time is (the sigh) I can't watch the whole vid as this moment lol.
@@CC.F95 lol, its at the very end 😂😂😂
Girl you absolutely can change you life! I hope you have. You have so much potential. You are here for a reason. You came back for a reason. Life is a vapor.....use it with purpose and determination... Best wishes
The sigh at the end from mark sums the interview up wish this young girl all the best for the future 👍
Really liked this one! It’s true we get younger when we pass on ..
I heard that we go back to the happiest time of our life.
It's also true that we'll know things we normally wouldn't. I believe we'll communicate at a higher level, without speech, mind to mind.
She is blessed beyond measure 🤧💯. I truly pray she can turn her life around. She seems smart, intuitive, and aware of herself. If she uses those tools to get to recovery she will flourish ✨🦋.
I’d agree if she didn’t leave her daughter with her mother.
@@tallyho101 she does need help. She only has 1 child so she pretty much needs to LEARN how to be a mother. Let’s pray that’s a part of her recovery process 💯🤞🏾.
@@indiganoir Amen.❤
There is a side of me that is attracted by this type of life, i dont know exactly why. But seeing all these addicts on this channel reminds me to steer clear ! Thanks for sharing.
What a beautiful person who hasn’t had a fair chance in life. I want to hug her. I wish her all the best , she deserves so much more