Crack Addict interview-Red

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  • čas přidán 19. 02. 2023
  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Red, a crack addict on Skid Row.
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Komentáře • 592

  • @brandenwallin1463
    @brandenwallin1463 Před rokem +205

    This is my 1st time watching soft white under belly. I started the video with my mom sitting next to me in the truck. My mom noticed that she recognized red's voice And when red mentioned the NA24 in Austin she remembered that's where she met her. I own a landscape design business in Austin and would be honored to give red a job and a place to live if she would like to get away from the drugs and start a new chapter with a place to live at no cost and immediate employment. Please reply.

    • @heypaul7646
      @heypaul7646 Před rokem +1

      Lol, what are you talking about

    • @brandenwallin1463
      @brandenwallin1463 Před rokem +19

      @Really Mad Max I need to get incontact with red. I want to help her

    • @Armelleee
      @Armelleee Před rokem +26

      ​@@heypaul7646Can you not read?! They know Red.

    • @burgers6957
      @burgers6957 Před 9 měsíci +5

      @@brandenwallin1463 u be soundin like u wanna take advantage of her

    • @susanwalton7168
      @susanwalton7168 Před 9 měsíci

      I'm her Mother...you don't want anything to do with her. She abandoned her kids to get out of the state of TX coz she has 5 extradition warrants for drugs...

  • @kyrahirsch4367
    @kyrahirsch4367 Před rokem +93

    1:02:40 “there is no amount of love in the world that could ever make an addict quit until they’re ready” she’s exactly right.

  • @debbieschultz8582
    @debbieschultz8582 Před rokem +53

    When she says she had looks of a model… She still does. She is absolutely beautiful. That hair is to die for.

  • @scotthart7307
    @scotthart7307 Před rokem +330

    Mark, are you practicing self-care? Listening to this much pain has got to weigh you down. Love your work. Take care of yourself!

  • @hopemarie3054
    @hopemarie3054 Před rokem +46

    These are the type of interview that made me fall in love with SWU
    Raw, no questions, just story telling ❤

  • @natashavandekamp145
    @natashavandekamp145 Před rokem +85

    This woman broke my heart. I hope she knows despite everything she’s been through she still is a good human and a good soul inside she’s just hurting. ❤️

  • @wolfumz
    @wolfumz Před rokem +70

    I think Red is going to make it. She's already come a long way and made a lot of progress. She has great insight.

    • @ayejay4028
      @ayejay4028 Před rokem

      She’s actively smoking crack…

    • @wolfumz
      @wolfumz Před rokem +1

      @@azzyb7738 aren't you just charming

  • @natasha6769
    @natasha6769 Před rokem +43

    Props to Mr. Carter, for being an amazing human being to a person in need. May his soul rest in peace.

  • @shandracrews8238
    @shandracrews8238 Před rokem +50

    I AM SO PROUD OF YOU FOR JUST TELLING THE TRUTH. I LOVE THE WAY YOU DIDN'T HOLD BACK. IM SO SORRY THAT YOUR PARENTS DIDN'T TAKE CARE OF YOU BY WATCHING OUT FOR YOU AS THEIR CHILD YOU DESERVED SO MUCH BETTER.

    • @susanwalton7168
      @susanwalton7168 Před 9 měsíci +2

      I am her parent and everything she said about us is not true. She is a narcissist and it's always everyone else's fault. I was always there for her she just wanted to do what she wanted and to hell with her family and her children.

    • @lesliewhite7329
      @lesliewhite7329 Před 9 měsíci

      Except she didn’t tell the truth! She’s a liar and manipulator always has been! Only thinks about herself and to hell with anyone!

    • @bulldogmom16
      @bulldogmom16 Před 9 měsíci +1

      Take everything kristi says with a grain of salt..I have known her and her mother, and her mothers family my whole life and they are good people..

  • @pianoprincess6255
    @pianoprincess6255 Před 7 měsíci +8

    The pain in this woman is heartbreaking. Prayers for you sweetie.

  • @heatherhollis5048
    @heatherhollis5048 Před rokem +42

    No human should have to go through this much suffering. I’m sorry, Red. I understand addiction. You are still here for a reason. Maybe it’s those 22 people you saved. And all of the rest of the people you could help through your healing. Your heart is good and I can clearly see that. Keep going, sister.

  • @carlyrobertson4755
    @carlyrobertson4755 Před 8 měsíci +7

    I get so wrapped up in some of these interviews where I don’t want the interview to end. They just speech so well and you just truly feel their emotions through their words and it’s so, just so I don’t even have the right words, just wow. She, her storye, is one of those interviews man. I want good for her so bad and I don’t even know her but I want to cheer her on and see her get better. I think it’s her time, she deserves to get better and just have better. Some don’t agree with NA but I do believe she could and her story could help so many lost souls in the NA rooms. Young lives she could save just by her story. Maybe be that “mom” or just older guidance to these kids nowadays that she unfortunately didn’t have herself cause maybe if she had someone like herself in her younger years, it could have truly saved her. I believe she has so much potential. She could do such amazing things and I full heartedly believe that with my soul and that’s only listening to her speak for an hour. I know I’m a nobody, words on a CZcams video can only go so far ya know but even still. I hope she reads these comments and I am not a praying type like at all but on special occasions I make exceptions. And she is one I’m truly praying for and I know I’m sorry does nothing to someone’s severe trauma but I am so sorry you were failed as a child. Many people failed you and I’m so freakin sorry for that so much so that I wish it could help in some way. I want good for her like no other. Would love an update on her.
    💙

    • @carlyrobertson4755
      @carlyrobertson4755 Před 8 měsíci

      The pain in her eyes, especially at the end. That blank stare of all that pin and hurt in her eyes, ugh man I felt her pain even tho I’ve never experienced it. I could just see it in her eyes.

    • @scottrawlins8165
      @scottrawlins8165 Před 6 měsíci

      And then it sticks there..lodged in your soul..and it hurts the next day first thing in the morniing

  • @prayerwarrior1278
    @prayerwarrior1278 Před rokem +86

    Praying she overcomes her addiction and get the peace she needs. Love and light. 🙏❤️

    • @canadianbuttpunchgoddess3058
      @canadianbuttpunchgoddess3058 Před rokem +2

      Prayer does nothing.

    • @luzaguirre2830
      @luzaguirre2830 Před 7 měsíci

      God keeps reaching out to her, on a personal level & through people she just needs to respond & stay with it once & for all, we only get so many chances

  • @luciddreamwalking4203
    @luciddreamwalking4203 Před 7 měsíci +9

    A major point I picked up from her life story... Daddies... be good to your daughters. She's a beautiful lady inside and out. Her strength is admirable. Addiction is sneaky, it comes like a thief in the night. It take beautiful people and steals the best parts of them. Its one of the hardest things to overcome. Believe me, I know... She has lots of unresolved trauma she needs to work through. Praying for you Red... Find your way out honey. Fight, never give up. Never look back!

  • @opalivy739
    @opalivy739 Před rokem +162

    Red has been through the ringer in life at such a an early age. There is hope for Red. She is a beautiful woman and has survived so much tragedy and sufferings. Her drug addiction is part of her coping mechanism from the years of trauma and sexual assaults. If you don't understand why people are drug addicts and alcoholics. Let them talk and share their horrific stories of what happened to them in life. For Red to be composed enough to do this interview with Mark. Shows that she is meant to be here to tell her story. God please save and help rescue Red from herself. Help her put her life back together so she can live a normal and peaceful life. 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

    • @lesliecinmongrl2001
      @lesliecinmongrl2001 Před rokem +3

      🙏🙏🙏

    • @urbankidtv1747
      @urbankidtv1747 Před rokem +2

      Peace. Ik we don’t know each other but will you pray this prayer for someone I knew as well? she not a addict but the circumstances/environment aren’t pleasant. Mentally more so.

    • @urbankidtv1747
      @urbankidtv1747 Před rokem +1

      It’s someone I love dearly dow. only reason I’m askin. it’s day I ain’t strong enough to do it

    • @urbankidtv1747
      @urbankidtv1747 Před rokem +1

      She’s been through hella physical things as well.

    • @shandracrews8238
      @shandracrews8238 Před rokem +1

      YOU SAID THAT SO BEAUTIFULLY. SHE DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER, SHE'S A BEAUTIFUL SMART PERSON, I HOPE AND PRAY SHE GETS TO HAVE THE LIFE SHE SO DESERVES. 💕💕

  • @lisakuntzman7017
    @lisakuntzman7017 Před rokem +25

    we HAVE to believe our children. Protect your babies. This world is getting to be scarier and scarier.

  • @UrbanCraftTv
    @UrbanCraftTv Před rokem +9

    My heart melts since I discovered this channel. As an African, I thought poverty was the worst.

  • @WendyP1965
    @WendyP1965 Před 7 měsíci +8

    This poor tormented soul has been so harmed by lowlifes!
    I wish her all the best and I hope she begins to heal.

  • @suzipoop
    @suzipoop Před rokem +17

    She is a STRONG woman. If she gets her mind set, she can do whatever she needs to do. I feel so compelled by her stories and her resilience. Amazing woman.

  • @lonispacer1338
    @lonispacer1338 Před rokem +48

    i always feel impressed that some people are able to keep a good posture after these kinds of events...

  • @fourfurrypotatoes
    @fourfurrypotatoes Před rokem +17

    Oh my God this poor woman. I really hope her life gets better because she deserves better.

  • @laurakelly2918
    @laurakelly2918 Před rokem +42

    She is so real and raw with her emotions…God bless this soul! One of the best interviews I’ve seen!

    • @marielleo4715
      @marielleo4715 Před rokem +2

      I disagree I think she was liening a lot!

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls Před rokem +1

      ​@@marielleo4715I don't believe a word she says. One of Mark's most pathetic interviewees. 🙄

    • @fadedrose9
      @fadedrose9 Před rokem +1

      ​​@@marielleo4715 WTF does "liening" mean???

    • @marielleo4715
      @marielleo4715 Před rokem

      @@fadedrose9 sorry I mean... lies

    • @marielleo4715
      @marielleo4715 Před rokem +1

      I don't think so!

  • @grimberlynies
    @grimberlynies Před rokem +51

    Shes a survivor she'll be okay.. Look what she went through shes a strong individual .. peace love and blessings for this womans future

    • @a_grayce
      @a_grayce Před rokem

      She literally admitted to robbing and choking an elderly man to feed her crack addition while her abusive mother cares for her children...

  • @juliemackenzie1978
    @juliemackenzie1978 Před rokem +40

    Sounds like her Mom was never a stable person. Being married 5 times...those poor kids. She raised her siblings. Molested by her grandfather...my goodness..people are just evil. It's no wonder why their adult lives are so messed up. 😳💔😕 They don't even have a fair start. Always tragic & sad. So much childhood trauma. The common thread with all these people.

    • @kathykolcun6791
      @kathykolcun6791 Před rokem +1

      Lol idk about people being "just evil"
      The molester/rapist yes but everyone else (including this woman who blames everyone but herself) are just selfish, miserable and make horrible decisions.
      Doesn't make a person evil or good....just human

    • @juliemackenzie1978
      @juliemackenzie1978 Před rokem +4

      @@kathykolcun6791 You are entitled to your opinion...as I am entitled to mine. No arguments here.

    • @kathykolcun6791
      @kathykolcun6791 Před rokem +3

      @@juliemackenzie1978 lol You're a class act🙏.
      I do agree that children are very sensitive and the trauma is real but u gotta man/woman up and take care of your children (this chicks kids are going to grow up and talk about how terrible she was)
      2) Notice how the only constant in this womans story is being surrounded by people (she claims) mistreated her? She's always victim of circumstance 🤦

    • @_RobBanks
      @_RobBanks Před rokem +2

      and he was a sheriff of the town.

    • @rlord7053
      @rlord7053 Před rokem +4

      @Kathy Kolcun sometimes that's the way it goes though, right? I have witnessed people get screwed over and used, and only to be pulled back down when they try to get out of a horrible situation. You could always take someone's side at face value and just listen, no judgment - just kindness. It costs you nothing.

  • @Masela_Medias
    @Masela_Medias Před rokem +13

    Watching from South Africa. S/O to you Mark.

  • @zj2850
    @zj2850 Před rokem +12

    I loved your life story, and I am praying that the second half of that story will better suit you ❤️ much love

  • @NoemiWilliams27
    @NoemiWilliams27 Před rokem +11

    Mark, thank you for bringing such difficult topics to the light. What has happened to Red has happened to many. I have always believed that drug addiction, alcoholism and even homelessness are brought by traumatic events such as this. My heart breaks for Red, but God is good, and there is hope.

  • @CasaDeJoker
    @CasaDeJoker Před rokem +28

    Ibtruly feel for her but she cared more about her relationships with men instead of her children. Thats horrible and selfish and self destructive and she was seemingly stuck in a loop of horrific behavior. I hope she gets better because I know too many people like this.

  • @neva3504
    @neva3504 Před rokem +8

    Red, it sounds like your ready for the next chapter in your life. I'm thinking you will get clean and you will help thousands more. Thinking you will become a writer, speaker and more. Good Luck! We're all looking forward to seeing you again on SWU.

  • @MEL2theJ
    @MEL2theJ Před rokem +1

    Thank you for the interview Red & SWU 🙏

  • @josephhopeless829
    @josephhopeless829 Před rokem +5

    Love you mark u shed light on ppl who wanna just be heard mostly by SOMEONE. Ur really doing gods work mark I’d love to meet u some day ur a definite hero.

  • @karinaramirez-rattan4140
    @karinaramirez-rattan4140 Před rokem +32

    Mark, she's very photogenic!!! Gorgeous!! I pray her healing starts today!!! You have people who are praying for you right now!!! ❤❤❤

    • @spyder_33
      @spyder_33 Před rokem +5

      Cringe

    • @karinaramirez-rattan4140
      @karinaramirez-rattan4140 Před rokem +1

      @@mihe6212 I don't understand why you think I'm a needy Person?

    • @karinaramirez-rattan4140
      @karinaramirez-rattan4140 Před rokem +3

      @@spyder_33 How is what I said "Cringe"?

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 Před rokem +5

      @@mihe6212 Henning!
      You come here and project yourself every. Single. Day, Hennnn!

    • @spyder_33
      @spyder_33 Před rokem +2

      @Karina Ramirez-Rattan I just feel like your comments on her looks are a bit of a stretch, I mean she looks like she could beautiful but as of now the drugs have her looking extremely strung out

  • @lisavelasquez1476
    @lisavelasquez1476 Před rokem +13

    Riveting interview. I love her honesty. She owns her shit. Such a beautiful soul. She deserves so much more 🫶🏽💜

    • @marsd6139
      @marsd6139 Před rokem

      Yeah I felt the same way, about owning her own stuff

  • @deebknyc0985
    @deebknyc0985 Před rokem +10

    A parent should always protect their child no matter what. Parents need to take full responsibility for their kids.

  • @frenchtoast7742
    @frenchtoast7742 Před rokem +10

    God Bless her . I hope she reaches a level of clarity, peace and happiness in her life ❤
    Always praying for these beautiful souls on this channel.
    Everyone is beautiful on here in their own special way . I wish someone told them that earlier in life so they wouldn’t get to this place 🙏❤️

  • @WE-ci8cq
    @WE-ci8cq Před rokem +8

    I really like her. She doesn’t talk about any real steps, Or real work on herself to change her life. It’s always her will. I think Community service, or reaching out and trying to help others, anything out reaching, would really help her. She’s smart enough to help others, and that would help her heal.

  • @jennyloohoo
    @jennyloohoo Před rokem +4

    God Bless you, Kristy. I pray healing on you and your family.

  • @jordanhuskins8299
    @jordanhuskins8299 Před rokem +7

    Part of recovery is acceptance of ur own choices. U can always tell when u hear these stories who is still an addict and who’s still blaming others for where their at until u accept u chose to be where u are and ur ready to change and accept you’ve accept responsibility and choose to make a change you’ll stay using and blaming everyone around u for where u atr

  • @crystalserrano3785
    @crystalserrano3785 Před rokem +15

    Bless her lil heart. I feel her pain.She still God's child. I just want to give her a big hug.

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 Před rokem +5

      @@mihe6212
      ..the only one here that needs a friend is you, Hennnnn!🥴🙄

    • @ddz1375
      @ddz1375 Před rokem

      @@mihe6212 hey there chicken little. Thank you very much for the Hannah Montana song.

    • @martinmummert5614
      @martinmummert5614 Před rokem

      Actually, she's only God's child if she has humbled herself, and called on Jesus Christ for the free gift of eternal salvation. If she hasn't been adopted into God's family through the process of genuine spiritual rebirth, then she, like all lost folks, is a child of the Devil. This is pure, King James Bible truth, and a hard pill to swallow for most people.

  • @originalpolo
    @originalpolo Před rokem +22

    I love the people who come to these comments to shit on these people. You are exactly the people I make it a point to avoid at gatherings/events. I'm left to wonder if these same people only come here because their own privileged lives are pure crap and hearing these stories give them something to feel good about 🤔

    • @edie4321
      @edie4321 Před rokem +5

      Those type of comments must have been censored, as all I see are kind, neutral, or blowing smoke.

    • @sherryd.3425
      @sherryd.3425 Před rokem +1

      I believe they just come to feel...something meaningful.

    • @Sammysmys
      @Sammysmys Před rokem

      @@sherryd.3425well said

  • @sharonvega8623
    @sharonvega8623 Před rokem +9

    The only way I’ve ever been able to find love, was through loving myself first. You have to love yourself enough to go through whatever it is you need to go through, to get away from everything hurting you.

  • @mishkipie
    @mishkipie Před rokem +3

    Wishing you peace, recovery and healing ❤️‍🩹

  • @atolliver91
    @atolliver91 Před rokem +13

    The answer is not in men or drugs….

  • @heatherh.197
    @heatherh.197 Před rokem +9

    Anywhere you go,there you are. God bless everyone here

  • @AM-sk1tv
    @AM-sk1tv Před rokem +18

    She said her addiction was hers and separate from her children.. and that she has an amazing relationship with her kids... but none of that is true. The children suffered just the same as her.

    • @Deelifull
      @Deelifull Před rokem +5

      I peeped that too. Her mother raised her boys, while an aunt or sister raised her daughter off an on. I just can't. Accountability is needed desperately.

    • @lesliewhite7329
      @lesliewhite7329 Před 9 měsíci +2

      Most of what she said is bullshit! My mom and myself raised her kids!!! Thanks to me they no longer had to see the parade of men in and out of her (paid for house by our father). She chose this life and continues to choose it! she had everything handed to her and she pissed it away because she would do drugs then take care of her kids!

  • @jamievackicev4905
    @jamievackicev4905 Před rokem

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am crying. All good things ; I hope for you! You and yours! Understand wanting to be there for everyone no matter what.

  • @ladyv890
    @ladyv890 Před rokem +4

    This is incredibly sad but at the same time I feel like her story could be a movie. I could hear the "El Paso" in her voice as I lived here for years. I am so sorry this happened to you. Sometimes I wish I could just take all the children who are currently experiencing abuse right now and give him a better life but that is impossible please take care of your children and don't have them if you cannot provide a better life for them they're fragile and absorb their surroundings.

  • @Evolved332
    @Evolved332 Před rokem +10

    EVERYTHING that happens to children , in the beginning of our lives, makes us who we are. As mothers and fathers now when you stare at your phone when your kids are looking for guidance, love , acceptance, it’s so sad. I just can’t imagine what world we are creating. Kids are straight potential! They have the ability to be the greatest or the worst and something that seems so easy IS SO HARD why?? Look what we are creating???

    • @edie4321
      @edie4321 Před rokem +2

      Which is why you'd think she'd be hypervigilant about her own children. I'd like to now hear their story. We need to be there for the children of these addicts.

    • @sherryd.3425
      @sherryd.3425 Před rokem +2

      We are always tasked to make and create love out of nothing at all. And we can and do...again and again...and that is why I believe in humanity, and Mark, and God. Love to all who try!

    • @susanwalton7168
      @susanwalton7168 Před 9 měsíci +2

      I'm her Mother...everything she has said is a lie...she came from a very loving family. She pushed us all away...no matter how hard we tried to help her

  • @tammymccord7224
    @tammymccord7224 Před rokem +5

    Wow , wow and wow. I think I’m lost for words…. I do hope that she finds the peace and the will to drop all drugs and alcohol and moves onto the second part of her life living healthy. She deserves that and so does her children

  • @goymedhundDogtrainingBehavior

    She looks Native A. / part native.- very beautiful woman.. I feel so bad for her.. How can anyone treat a girl like that.. Soccergame where the whole family cover ups a rape.. INSANE!! I hope she get's where she needs to be to find peace ..

    • @susanwalton7168
      @susanwalton7168 Před 9 měsíci +1

      I'm her Mother...she was never abused when she was young. She a very good liar. She made you believe it.

    • @goymedhundDogtrainingBehavior
      @goymedhundDogtrainingBehavior Před 9 měsíci

      @@susanwalton7168 Really ? If that is the case it is just awful ..

  • @fadedrose9
    @fadedrose9 Před rokem

    I'm looking forward to a possible future interview & like some of the others, I'm praying that she will be recovered.

  • @DorothyBarbour
    @DorothyBarbour Před 9 měsíci +3

    This broke my heart love. I was also molested by my grandparents n when I told my parents they didn’t believe me and so I ran away from home and endured being gang raped and raped 5 times in a year. Just like you I got pregnant by the grace of god i had a miscarriage at 7mo. So turned to drugs and got high just to run from the pain and I’m still running went from Xanax to crack and now fentanyl. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to be sober the trauma is just intolerable. I just wish someone loved me enough to show me the right way to heal and maybe I could’ve had a chance at a good life 💔💯

  • @cz3468
    @cz3468 Před rokem +2

    Prayers to you Red, your last statement is so true, that others are second in the lives of addicts, you been though a lot, hope nothing but the best for you.

  • @jammy999
    @jammy999 Před rokem +3

    she's so beautiful and you can tell she has a pure soul 🖤 it's so sad how some parents refuse to protect and believe their children, hoping she gets all the healing and love that she deserves, nobody deserves to go through such trauma

    • @susanwalton7168
      @susanwalton7168 Před 9 měsíci +1

      And it's all lies too....We were always there for her. She left us, we didn't leave her. And she's always been a liar.

    • @jammy999
      @jammy999 Před 9 měsíci +1

      @@susanwalton7168 maybe so, but to love someone is to be there despite what they may be going through or if they push you away, yes it's difficult but who knows why she did whatever she did, maybe in her mind she felt like nobody was there for her, hopefully you all can make amends at some point because healing is a hard thing to go through due to it looking different for everyone

  • @lisakuntzman7017
    @lisakuntzman7017 Před rokem +3

    Red,please don't let these horrible things bring you down I pray that you find yourself Angel. I am sending good vibes to you ✨. Things DO get better if you let them. I wouldn't lie to anyone about that. At least you won't have to worry about kicking off the crap too bad. You are so pretty. There is a solution

  • @chaelynn6209
    @chaelynn6209 Před rokem +2

    its gotta take a lot to get up here and speak truthfully. i commend her on her ablility to hold herself accountable. god bless u Red. your strength is inspiring

  • @marcymorales8214
    @marcymorales8214 Před rokem +11

    It’s so very sad to hear all of the unfortunate stories and the horrible lives they’ve had to endure. But, I feel like alot of people although they’ve been dealt a bad hand have learned how to blame they’re situation and that “bad hand” dealt. At some point people have to understand that their choices is all the difference between a good and bad life. But it’s been a while that I’ve heard someone actually take accountability. Her life wasn’t great and she continues to struggle but, she also knows that it’s up to her and only her to get her life back on track. To all the people that struggle with addiction, I know first hand how hard it is and how people don’t understand it. It is only up to “us” to reclaim our lives. I wish every one of these people the best ❤

  • @charlottesometimes4820
    @charlottesometimes4820 Před rokem +14

    Nice deflection when asked if she raised her kids.
    Nothing will change until we can except the truth.
    Sending you love and strength. 💙

  • @1notstressed
    @1notstressed Před rokem +7

    Wow, Christy. Did you hear what she said, y’all? She slapped her hands and responded to Mark “ITS NOT LA, ITS ME.” It doesn’t matter your exterior locality, it’s clearly about your internal locality. Sobriety is something you choose from your heart.

  • @rochelle_johnston2703
    @rochelle_johnston2703 Před rokem +5

    Hiya Red,
    I too had to lie about when I lost my virginity due to being raped!!! I was 15 and 10 days old.
    It must have been bitter/sweet having the miscarriage under the circumstances, sorry you had to go through that because you would have to grieve that loss while barely hanging in there!?
    Thank you for having the courage of vulnerability with awesomeness sharing such dark painful events that you suffered in your life with us via 'Soft White Underbelly'. I've stopped at 16:16 as my "Shae" my beautiful Kelpie needs to go outside, (Can't wait to hear the rest).
    Warmest hugs with love,
    Rochelle.

  • @valleychick2509
    @valleychick2509 Před rokem +2

    When she said it’s not LA it’s me 😢 I just wanted to give her the biggest hug 🥺❤️

  • @mariekauhi9034
    @mariekauhi9034 Před rokem +7

    Red has such an eloquent, poetic way of telling her story. She is enlightened and very intelligent. Beautiful, sweet, and sad at the same time. What a tragic childhood, and how horrible to have all those things happening to her and no one will believe or hear you. You are a strong survivor Red, hang in there beautiful.

  • @mamarobyn
    @mamarobyn Před rokem +2

    Shout out to all my sagittarius sisters!! We really do have a free spirit.. I never thought that I did and then looking back at my life I realized I pretty much done everything that I wanted to do never got married had children...Did things my way.. not always the "right way" very hard to hold me down...

  • @ItsFreshItsAnne
    @ItsFreshItsAnne Před rokem +2

    I've seen so much of this..This is one truth I know....Many addicts you see are carrying enormous trauma and you have no idea how much that literally prunes a child's mind that ends up requiring big help and if its not addressed, it becomes painful to live without a buffer. It takes a strong mothereffer to pick up a big time substance, lose everything...I promise you that..The strength gets robbed and used on the wrong way out..Show love any chance you get, because hate is like drinking poison and hoping it kills someone else. ♥️

  • @jensmitty1152
    @jensmitty1152 Před rokem +3

    Love this women ❤ ❤️ I really hope she gets clean she’s been through some shit and she’s strong

  • @user-nj6tq6zx8c
    @user-nj6tq6zx8c Před 9 měsíci +3

    This is my Niece. 90% of what she is saying is so not true! She did this all to herself….time to take responsibility for your own bad choices!! She has never had cancer.!!! She is a thief and a liar. I am still paying for a car she stole from me and sold for drugs…..I hope you all
    Can see through the bull….she is enjoying the attention. This is the easy way out of life! Give all to someone else and just live on the edge…..skid row is full of people who just don’t want to work at life…..

    • @user-wc4sf8dq8v
      @user-wc4sf8dq8v Před 8 měsíci +2

      I’ve met her … she definitely left a mark on past despite looking different I knew her voice right away. Thief and liar are at the top of my mind for sure when it comes to her. I’m sorry to be one to comment as well

  • @anastasiamarch6197
    @anastasiamarch6197 Před rokem +1

    I was captivated by her ability to keep it 💯 she knows what she needs to do to get it together and live right .. but I wish she would not be so dependent on a man .. I wish she would of gave her children that energy. Praying for ya Red 🙏🏾

  • @reneegiordano3937
    @reneegiordano3937 Před 19 dny

    Very profound interview! This woman has been through so much hurt yet there is such strength in her eyes. I hope she’s doing well. Take a break from men and relationships for a while.

  • @milanlucas28
    @milanlucas28 Před rokem +6

    I knew she had to be a Sagittarius, she’s so strong and still has her spirit. I’m rooting for her and hopeful. Sending love

  • @lucillewright5153
    @lucillewright5153 Před rokem +2

    YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL RED!! Your stronger than you know baby girl GOD BLESS 🙌 💖

  • @delainemoore3637
    @delainemoore3637 Před 7 měsíci

    Damn this is an amazing interview! This hit different ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @Thebiggest1isme
    @Thebiggest1isme Před 11 měsíci +1

    This was hard to even listen too, I pray she gets help and give the support needed to overcome her addiction ❤

  • @kellybritting827
    @kellybritting827 Před rokem

    I’m sorry you had to go through all this may God keep guiding you don’t lose your faith I pray healing over you and I pray you fight to get out of this addiction ❤

  • @yootoob1001001
    @yootoob1001001 Před rokem +5

    Red, I know what it's like for your family to disregard your feelings, what you tell them, and do nothing to protect you even when they know or suspect something is wrong. I see you and send you love.

    • @elizabethlenker-tw3xb
      @elizabethlenker-tw3xb Před 9 měsíci +2

      Don't believe that her family doesn't care. We all care. We always have. She cares more about drugs than us. This life is of her own making.

  • @kateellis9325
    @kateellis9325 Před rokem +13

    So well spoken. Good luck!

  • @DaGypsyInme
    @DaGypsyInme Před rokem +1

    So sorry for everything you've been through. My heart is broken. I want to somehow turn back time and save that lil girl. I wish i cld hv protected her. I'm sorry for all the pain you've carried throughout your life. God bless u

  • @hala9175
    @hala9175 Před rokem

    Thank you Red for sharing. ❤

  • @peacelily64
    @peacelily64 Před rokem

    Thank you Red for sharing your story now that you see that your parents let you down I hope you can take a step to help yourself ❤️✌🏻🙂

  • @bethcramer1232
    @bethcramer1232 Před 8 měsíci

    I know where you are from, I’m from Del Rio, been to Alpine , it’s a beautiful city. Good luck, have faith and stay strong!

  • @rainrabbit9209
    @rainrabbit9209 Před rokem +2

    Red, the Spirit will show up and show out! Our path is our own and it is miraculous. #Compassion Much peace to you dear sister in love and light.

  • @lyricaanderson6205
    @lyricaanderson6205 Před rokem

    I don’t know if you’ll ever see this, but when I tell you, you are so beautiful I couldn’t even imagine what you would look like off of drugs. You really need to thank God because you do not look like what you’ve been through. May God continue to bless you And I’m rooting for you

  • @sikgurl918
    @sikgurl918 Před rokem

    What do you say after hearing this man's testimony!!!! I can't describe what I feel after hearing this, but I can tell you this, it's definitely left some kind of an impact on me.....thank you

  • @masonc2649
    @masonc2649 Před rokem +1

    Thank you Red and thanks again Mark.

  • @Cuteasarosa
    @Cuteasarosa Před rokem

    She’s so beautiful wow. All I see is her spirit. She’s had such a rough human experience. Bless her. ASE’

  • @roemello3ify
    @roemello3ify Před rokem

    Odessa Texas , wow.. My hometown.. God bless you Queen

  • @9roselove9
    @9roselove9 Před rokem +7

    It always gets me when addicts truly think that their addiction hasn’t harmed their kids just bc they never smiled crack in front of them…ma’am. They saw you coming home wrecked they hear you cry at night they see your mental state is fucked up and they notice when you were gone…come on now. It’s hard admitting you were a bad mom but you were a bad mom sis. Do better and apologize and move on. Pretending won’t get you anywhere

    • @livesofluxuries
      @livesofluxuries Před rokem

      Did you even watch the entire thing. Her kids were taken care of by her sister when she goes back into active addition. They checked on her daily. And sure she wasn’t present during those times. But this woman has owned up to every single fault in this video. Who the hell are you to judge. Her addiction is her own. And it is for her kids to decide if it has harmed them or not. Not by some keyboard warrior on CZcams. Grab a chair sit the f*** down

    • @susanwalton7168
      @susanwalton7168 Před 9 měsíci +1

      Her children have been affected. I'm her Mother. Her sister and I have taken care of those children. They are all over 18 now and if she thinks her actions haven't affected them then she's living in a fantasy world. I love her, she is my 1st born but after trying for years to help her and getting blamed for everything that has happened to her you have to realize you can't help her, she has to help herself. All of what she said in the beginning of this video is a lie.

    • @heidimichellemoenkhaus3569
      @heidimichellemoenkhaus3569 Před 2 měsíci

      So you don't believe she was molested? ​@@susanwalton7168

  • @barbarabell8674
    @barbarabell8674 Před 8 měsíci

    You’re beautiful Red, and I’m so sorry what you’ve been through ❤️

  • @alicassidy8913
    @alicassidy8913 Před rokem +2

    Being a teenaged girl is extremely difficult, especially if you don't have a family to help you. What's absent parents must not understand is you've ruined her for life, or a good part of her life. Bad choices, drugs, the wrong men all seem to find their way in and they're older and still in trouble.
    80% of women will be molested in their lives, usually by a family member. These are true statics. If they didn't finish school, they're not equipped to take care of themselves and definitely have self esteem issues.
    Don't have children if you don't want to raise them. You're influence and the time you spend with them molds them for life.
    Much love Red ❣️

  • @definingdebra7933
    @definingdebra7933 Před 8 měsíci +1

    Red I apologize for the lack of parental care that you received and all the pain and heartache that came from that. I am not sure you even realize this but you are a striking beautiful woman even with everything that has happened to you. I truly believe even now if you are in the right environment with love and care you would be able to see the beauty within and outside of yourself. Good luck

  • @jcast8756
    @jcast8756 Před rokem +1

    Your mother is not strong, YOU are Red. You deserve a life better than what you think you deserve. You can overcome this pain. I hope you find the peace you so long for.

  • @thegeezerrr2042
    @thegeezerrr2042 Před rokem +1

    I love this girl.. What a brave and interesting person she is, I could sit for hours listening to her.. Now it sounds terrible to say " coloured" but surely it's the intent with which it's said that has a lot to do with it, she knew her grandfather loved her and didn't mean any harm.. I grew up in the 70s here in England and we were told that no one was any different because they were a different colour and to say someone was coloured was said respectfully.. I had a best friend at school who was Jamaican and in the early 80s being called back and not coloured was just changing in society but my friend wanted to be called coloured, I remember a boy coming up and saying that my friend was being called black by some guy in another class, he went and found him and beat him up telling him that he was coloured and not black.. The wording now and probably then has to be correct for the time, I woukd love to know what authority makes up these words and decides what applies... Peace and love to Gigi and everyone, that's what matters... James.. England

  • @notforeverhere
    @notforeverhere Před rokem +2

    Red, regresa a tu Padre Celestial... El te ama y nunca te ha dejado, no dejes que el enemigo te arrebate la vida de esta manera tan triste... Elige la vida y no la muerte, yo se que puedes.
    Animo voy a estar orando por ti🙏 you can do it, cry out to God while there is time He will show you his goodness in the land of the living, bless you dear thank you for telling your story

  • @maricalane2242
    @maricalane2242 Před rokem +2

    “ It’s not LA, it’s me “
    Statement of the century 😢

  • @judysteadman799
    @judysteadman799 Před 7 měsíci +1

    Very heartbreaking story. He'll is what you live on earth. Very sad. 🙏 🙏 🙏

  • @MrThirstysuperior
    @MrThirstysuperior Před rokem +4

    God bless you

  • @dymesgalore
    @dymesgalore Před rokem +2

    With all of the darkness that she has been submerged in... there is still a light in her that is so pure and sweet, that it can only be something Divinely given. Hope she finds a way to forgive herself.

  • @elisabethsalmon4107
    @elisabethsalmon4107 Před rokem +2

    Another heartbreaking story

  • @nancykaufman1632
    @nancykaufman1632 Před rokem +4

    Red your a beautiful lady inside and outside!🙏🏼❤️

  • @starlight2702
    @starlight2702 Před rokem +19

    The way she tells her life story keeps you so intrigued and interested. She should write a book about her life

  • @mskinetik
    @mskinetik Před rokem +18

    She's mad at her parents for raising her wrong, and she didn't even raise her own kids. 🙄 She was out hooking and doing drugs instead of being a Mom. When Mark asked if she raised her kids, she was like "uhhh, uhh, yeah". A few years doesn't count. It's a good thing her kids were mostly raised by other people though because that is no life for kids to be around. That being said, I hope she CHOOSES to get clean, sober, get counseling and try to stabilize. Bad choices have led her down these bad bad paths. She needs to take RESPONSIBILITY for herself and her choice to do drugs in the present, regardless of painful events. I'm sorry she has been assaulted repeatedly. No one deserves that. However, she needs to get therapy instead of running from things. As long as she continues to play the victim she will always be one. Get clean, get, help, reinvent your life and be accountable for your choices. Truly wishing her the best💖 Mark please give an update on her in one year.

    • @lesliewhite7329
      @lesliewhite7329 Před 9 měsíci

      THANK YOU!!!! I AM HER SISTER I RASIED HER KIDS!!!!!!! THIS IS A COMPLETE SHIT SHOW!!! IN HER OWN WORDS IT'S ALL BEEN THE KRISTI SHOW!!!

    • @luciddreamwalking4203
      @luciddreamwalking4203 Před 7 měsíci +1

      She absolutely needs therapy. I couldn't agree more. Sobriety is almost always a failure without it. Especially with the trauma that she is carrying. I hope too that she seems that out for herself.

    • @crystalnam-rangel
      @crystalnam-rangel Před 7 měsíci +1

      Exactly