Its crazy how smart you are and how confident you seem to be. I think just having scrizofrenia and presenting You self as you are doing, i really respect that and i think you really help people doing this man. Keep doing what u do!
This is some creepy shit, I was just thinking about what I would say to myself from about 3 years ago, then I go to CZcams to check my notifications and this was uploaded 45 minutes ago lmfao Also, I just got a piano recently (for my birthday, in april) too but don't play hahaha
When I was younger I was also bullied alot by kids but I was also tormented by my eldest brother who made homelife an equal hell for me. I don't have schizophrenia (my mental malady is bipolar) but I had been around two schizophrenics when I was younger. Matter of fact, one of them I tried to date. My eldest brother (if you would call such an asshole a brother) had been the cause of my problems to the point it was actually legally considered child abuse. I never said anything about that. But when it came to that little schizophrenic girl that I tried to date, he ran her off by intercepting all the phonecalls she made that weekend to me. She never came back to school and from what I have found out recently, she has really done nothing with her life. This happened back in 1989. I cannot forgive myself because in a sense, I was paralyzed by the meds, they lived up to the nickname of "chemical straight jackets" Plus, when I was hit with certain emotions I froze like a deer with headlights in its eyes. This poor girl never had a life at all. I feel so guilty of it. I think people with mental illness suffer from the I am no jesus and I don't have Alzheimer syndrome when it comes to certain things, especially ourselves. That is one of the un talked about it would seem aspect to mental illness. BiPolar or Schizophrenia, we all seem to have it to a greater or lesser degree. :-/ Go get your GED if you don't have it and then take up a trade skill. Don't be me, I took a major degree (have an MBA) with a shit ton of debt and no prospects of a better job. I am 44 years old now, FYI.
I think the biggest thing you can learn about your education is don't give up on it, people down it after high school but a lot of people have their own different purposes for it and it takes time to find a degree plan that suits you, but once you do you won't be so worried about heavy topics like mental health anymore if that's what your studying, that will actually be my final degree but with criminal law and psychology I will be able to have more careers possibly open up to me and actually finally be able to make a living doing something other then retail stores. Just be patient though, your still young, you have enough time to were you can still go back to college later in your mid 20's or even 30' like I did but you don't have to either if your just fed up with it, there's lot of ways to become successful without an education if you know the right people that will hire you.
Hey, I really like your personality and watching your videos. Thanks for making me smile.💛 I think you should still try to do some of those things cause it's not too late to do them.
I was bullied all through school-first at kindergarten and 1st grade. Upon moving, all the kids from 2nd grade to graduation bullied me. I hated going to school, dreading how much I'd be bullied, getting through the day, and hoping I could just be left alone. I close my eyes and can flashback to everything including all the laughter. It still affects me deeply. I really want to disown myself as a child. I'm so sad that school got so bad you had to drop out. I wish that, we as kids and adults knew we can hurt others so deeply with words or perhaps one particular, cruel action.
Also, Jacob, when I compare your videos from 4 and 3 years ago with your current videos, I think that I can notice that you lost a whole ton of weight. Do you eat well? Please take care of yourself.
Lol he's fine. I totally understand where you're coming from, I tell him the same thing over and over and I ask him to eat well. He just sleeps a ton (medication)... so he has less time awake, therefore less time to have meals. But when he is awake, he does eat quite well. I keep an eye out and his parents do too, don't worry haha. He will definetely not die of starvation,he's aware. xx
I'd also add: those kids who were bullying you probably could tell that you were smarter and better looking and better at sports than they were! Which is really sad, that this would make you a target :( BUT, the good part is that now *they're* still mediocre, but you still have all of your talents. So, you've done well in spite of those small-minded people.
yo dude we have alot in common, everything youve said ive dealt with, we are not alone man, ppl struggle on different levels, when your brain is so stuck on something its so hard to come unglued and ppl notice u look vulnerable. ive been diagnosed schizophrenia, aspergers (autism), extreme anxiety n depression, bipolar, ADHD, insomnia n alot of mood disorders. ontop of all this have been a madly addicted drug user for 10 yrs. I experienced so much shit its unreal, so much shit flying at you you just wanna leave reality but knowing suicide aint the answer been there multiple times, so just bang drugs dude thats the only relief, i see absolutely no light at the end of the tunnel..
p1gY fellow schizoaffective here. I was bullied all through school. My schizophrenia is getting worse. The lithium is preventing me from sleeping. I’m afraid. IDK what to do.
How old are you? How tall? Cause you could totally model...esp in print. You should AT LEAST hook up with a big Insta influencer and build a brand on there...u could live off being an Instagram model honey. Oh the potential is endless.
21 years old and 5'11 (1,80 m), but he wouldn't do that for a job. You have to be persistent and driven to make a livinig out of that, have a good camera and make professional modelling photos at different locations... not his thing. But I get why you'd think that ;)
I need some advice I guess. I’ve been hearing voices for the past few months and I’ve been really paranoid. I feel like I can’t trust anyone and I feel like everyone is after me and I always feel like someone is following me. I can’t focus and I keep having these thoughts that I know aren’t logical but I can’t convince myself they’re not real. I’ve been on anxiety meds for a few years and they’re not working anymore and I’m really worried about what is going on. I get hallucinations and hear voices constantly. Could it be schizophrenia?
This is confusing.. You say something along the lines "don't let anyone tell you what to do", wouldn't you liked it if someone told you those things that you mentioned several years ago? Life is like a dream, you wake up when you die.
Its crazy how smart you are and how confident you seem to be. I think just having scrizofrenia and presenting You self as you are doing, i really respect that and i think you really help people doing this man. Keep doing what u do!
I love your channel. It makes me feel less alone
This is some creepy shit, I was just thinking about what I would say to myself from about 3 years ago, then I go to CZcams to check my notifications and this was uploaded 45 minutes ago lmfao
Also, I just got a piano recently (for my birthday, in april) too but don't play hahaha
I got a keyboard back in 1987 took a few lessons and lost interest in it due to negative symptoms of psychosis creeping in.
"Little Jacob!" ahgh, I die. So cute.
When I was younger I was also bullied alot by kids but I was also tormented by my eldest brother who made homelife an equal hell for me. I don't have schizophrenia (my mental malady is bipolar) but I had been around two schizophrenics when I was younger. Matter of fact, one of them I tried to date. My eldest brother (if you would call such an asshole a brother) had been the cause of my problems to the point it was actually legally considered child abuse. I never said anything about that. But when it came to that little schizophrenic girl that I tried to date, he ran her off by intercepting all the phonecalls she made that weekend to me. She never came back to school and from what I have found out recently, she has really done nothing with her life. This happened back in 1989. I cannot forgive myself because in a sense, I was paralyzed by the meds, they lived up to the nickname of "chemical straight jackets" Plus, when I was hit with certain emotions I froze like a deer with headlights in its eyes. This poor girl never had a life at all. I feel so guilty of it. I think people with mental illness suffer from the I am no jesus and I don't have Alzheimer syndrome when it comes to certain things, especially ourselves. That is one of the un talked about it would seem aspect to mental illness. BiPolar or Schizophrenia, we all seem to have it to a greater or lesser degree. :-/
Go get your GED if you don't have it and then take up a trade skill. Don't be me, I took a major degree (have an MBA) with a shit ton of debt and no prospects of a better job. I am 44 years old now, FYI.
I think the biggest thing you can learn about your education is don't give up on it, people down it after high school but a lot of people have their own different purposes for it and it takes time to find a degree plan that suits you, but once you do you won't be so worried about heavy topics like mental health anymore if that's what your studying, that will actually be my final degree but with criminal law and psychology I will be able to have more careers possibly open up to me and actually finally be able to make a living doing something other then retail stores.
Just be patient though, your still young, you have enough time to were you can still go back to college later in your mid 20's or even 30' like I did but you don't have to either if your just fed up with it, there's lot of ways to become successful without an education if you know the right people that will hire you.
Man thats some heavy stuff! Good that you can talk about it like this
Hey, I really like your personality and watching your videos. Thanks for making me smile.💛 I think you should still try to do some of those things cause it's not too late to do them.
I think accepting oneself the way one is would be an advice I would give to my past self or anyone else.
I was bullied all through school-first at kindergarten and 1st grade. Upon moving, all the kids from 2nd grade to graduation bullied me. I hated going to school, dreading how much I'd be bullied, getting through the day, and hoping I could just be left alone. I close my eyes and can flashback to everything including all the laughter. It still affects me deeply. I really want to disown myself as a child. I'm so sad that school got so bad you had to drop out. I wish that, we as kids and adults knew we can hurt others so deeply with words or perhaps one particular, cruel action.
If it is not an acoustic piano, I hope it will have weighted keys. They invite more natural feel and expression.
Also, Jacob, when I compare your videos from 4 and 3 years ago with your current videos, I think that I can notice that you lost a whole ton of weight. Do you eat well? Please take care of yourself.
Lol he's fine. I totally understand where you're coming from, I tell him the same thing over and over and I ask him to eat well. He just sleeps a ton (medication)... so he has less time awake, therefore less time to have meals. But when he is awake, he does eat quite well. I keep an eye out and his parents do too, don't worry haha. He will definetely not die of starvation,he's aware. xx
Rosanne Bekker sorry not rude but do you know him irl? Friend or family or something?
I'd also add: those kids who were bullying you probably could tell that you were smarter and better looking and better at sports than they were! Which is really sad, that this would make you a target :( BUT, the good part is that now *they're* still mediocre, but you still have all of your talents. So, you've done well in spite of those small-minded people.
yo dude we have alot in common, everything youve said ive dealt with, we are not alone man, ppl struggle on different levels, when your brain is so stuck on something its so hard to come unglued and ppl notice u look vulnerable. ive been diagnosed schizophrenia, aspergers (autism), extreme anxiety n depression, bipolar, ADHD, insomnia n alot of mood disorders. ontop of all this have been a madly addicted drug user for 10 yrs. I experienced so much shit its unreal, so much shit flying at you you just wanna leave reality but knowing suicide aint the answer been there multiple times, so just bang drugs dude thats the only relief, i see absolutely no light at the end of the tunnel..
p1gY fellow schizoaffective here. I was bullied all through school.
My schizophrenia is getting worse. The lithium is preventing me from sleeping. I’m afraid. IDK what to do.
Bullying is the worst part of being a teenager or a kid it really sucks and it can for sure mentally mess your head up
I wish I was your friend in real life, we would have many memorable moments. ♥
I would tell myself basically to have more fun as a teen.
I agree with you on what you said about the school system.
I dropped out because I didn't want to learn what they where trying to teach me.
Hi Jacob. Do you ever feel lonely?
good question i would also like to know because he is so extremely introverted
I'm on disability for schizophrenia try invega it's the best for this illness
Invega changed my life
That lamp in the background makes me nervous.
We love you Jacob! 😍
Great story. Keep up the great work
Bro...I know your feelings...Coz I have Schizophrenia.😔
Its so exciting youre getting a piano!
How old are you? How tall? Cause you could totally model...esp in print. You should AT LEAST hook up with a big Insta influencer and build a brand on there...u could live off being an Instagram model honey. Oh the potential is endless.
Tbh hes really handsome i can see him become a model ofc if hes comfy
as a straight guy i wholeheartedly agree. he has the model face (high cheekbones with definition and sharp facial features)
21 years old and 5'11 (1,80 m), but he wouldn't do that for a job. You have to be persistent and driven to make a livinig out of that, have a good camera and make professional modelling photos at different locations... not his thing. But I get why you'd think that ;)
Gabber Why don't you fucking piss off. What is your age, like 14?
You were high :-D
I need some advice I guess. I’ve been hearing voices for the past few months and I’ve been really paranoid. I feel like I can’t trust anyone and I feel like everyone is after me and I always feel like someone is following me. I can’t focus and I keep having these thoughts that I know aren’t logical but I can’t convince myself they’re not real. I’ve been on anxiety meds for a few years and they’re not working anymore and I’m really worried about what is going on. I get hallucinations and hear voices constantly. Could it be schizophrenia?
Hello crazy good looking 555
This is confusing..
You say something along the lines "don't let anyone tell you what to do", wouldn't you liked it if someone told you those things that you mentioned several years ago?
Life is like a dream, you wake up when you die.
Arn ree ?
Arr yeh
IhaveSchizophrenia. JESUS CHRIST is the Answer brother, our True Living God. Who came here to redeem us and lead us back 2 him. God Bless you Jacob