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I felt the same way for the last couple of years. The mental illness is bad the medication is bad, and it feels like such a lose lose situation. It takes a lot to keep going. I have schizoaffective though, and so far this year, I think it’s gone into remission. Hoping the best for you
Been watching for ages. Do you have access to a support worker? They might be able to help you get out and about a bit more. Going to the pet store is good!! Workouts are good! We're all rooting for you!
I had a similar EKG at age 37. Said "consider old anterior infarct." I went to a cardiologist. He looked at the EKG and said, "so you walked up some stairs - you pushed your heart a little." Not concerned at all.
I find colouring really helps my brain to relax. I also do voluntary stuff to help the mental health cause such as helping Samaritans (mental health charity here in England) review their campaigns etc. as someone with lived experience of a mental illness. They might have something similar in the US. I just review what they send me via email and can do as many or as little as I like. Helping others has really helped me.
Maybe volunteer at an animal shelter. If you can and are interested. I did it with one of my friends in college. We would just take the dogs on walk and play with them. If you wanted to you could take them home for a night too. Think you might like it
Hi Jacob! I'm one of the people in the discord server and I have Schizophrenia as well (although mines got milder somehow cause I did something really stupid back in 2020 like not taking my meds for the whole 6 months). Just be the best you can Jacob, you are already exciting in giving hope to thousands of people with mental illness. My suggestion, at least for me, on how I got better is art and photography therapy. I used Instagram as a form of therapy, with a Jesus quote in it. I also changed my diet to pecto-vegetarian with bunch of vegetables and ran most of the days as a form of exercise. Sometimes I feel like I just got lucky on how I got better. I don't know if it works with anyone with Schizophrenia cause I do admit that I have a milder form of the illness. However please don't lose hope you are already doing a lot from your videos and discord.
i recognize your symptoms, what helps me a lot and i do every week is being creative, paint draw etc. maybe you can enjoy it too and also get satisfaction from it
Big respect for speaking about mental health bro the mental health team are trying to put me on antipsychotics for my anxiety and depression and heart palpitations I’m gonna give it a miss because of what I’ve read up about them I feel for you bro having to take them keep doing your thing on CZcams mental health is so shitty and people like you should be proud for even having the balls to speak about it
I literally do nothing. I enjoy it. I lost all motivation. I used to be motivated. Now I sit and lay in my bed waiting to eat, sh t, or sleep. I hate that I'm schizophrenic. I have pretty much accepted the fact that I'm a lost cause. I love your videos.
I also have schizofrenia and im struggleing with the hopelessness. But im a lucky bastard. I got to work in my parents store and i have a dog and i go to the gym and i met my man on tinder 3 years Ago. But still its a struggle
No one that doesn’t have schizophrenia can’t understand us with schizophrenia and how fear can be invalidating to our lives. As someone with schizophrenia I did manage to finish college but I have work disability because of my illness but I still work in handmade business. Not big money but doing stuff with your hands, I make stuffed toys, can be therapeutic. I also try to work out tho I’m bit overweight because of meds probably. I talk to people online. I hang out with my friend and go for walks with him and talk about everything, it’s nice. But I often feel hopeless and depressed. Like what is going to happen to me when my parents die. I get anxious around people too much. I can’t be around people for long. I don’t have hallucinations or some big delusions but it’s still hard. I love watching your videos.
I’m 31 years old and I’m still living with my mom. I have paranoid schizophrenia. But I don’t know what I’m going to do after she dies. I took a few computer classes but I got to go over it again. I mentally block things out because I don’t want to feed the voices. But I’m on medication and the sleeping pills suck!!! I don’t have a lot of friends. I hang in there though.
Thanks for uploading. I love your CZcams channel. I also have schizophrenia and my life sucks. I made a lot of terrible choices like lighting myself on fire. Lost a lot of friends. I'm a writer but I'm not motivated to publish. I love cigarettes, but my parents won't let me smoke. I hate this disease.
I sleep, I sleep way too much. I have an operation coming up, and I'm trying to fix my sleeping schedule. So I've been awake. But I can sleep, a ridiculous amount. But I can't. I have to wake up.
I can relate totally to your ‘Anxiety, and ‘Long naps.’ Do you feel bad after the long hours of sleep? I’m Autistic and I really related as well to Your ‘Terrified of Communication’ video to a T. It’s so painful living with a Mental Disorder no matter which one You have. Please be well, Bless You
I AM HERE FOR THIS MOCARELLA CHEESE STICKS CONTENT! Thank you for sharing your daily routine. I spend all day inside with my two cats so can relate. Its cool that you manage to workout and go to a museum from time to time.
I live a similar lifestyle to you most of the time. Sit in my apartment all day, listening to music, watching youtube, talking on discord. I feel like that's my comfort zone, when I'm most zen. I do a few things beyond what you're currently doing, I'm working towards getting my car license and I go to a low threshold workplace three times a week. Really, if you look at it from a completely different perspective you should be overjoyed. You have complete freedom to do anything you want. With choice comes responsibility, and if you have too many options you spend so much time trying to figure out what is the correct course of action. What we enjoy about our acute psychosis is the sense of urgency, there's always some really important thing we need to be attending to. Once that dissapears we are left wondering what's the point. I think there's something to be said for fully comitting to what you are doing in the present moment. The fun thing about having experienced acute psychosis is you can kind of tap into that sense of urgency. Like, your boredom and lack of motivation, you can make that the really urgent thing you need to be attending to. There's so much work you can do to feel good. Remmebering, introspection, rational analysis, taking action, dealing with heavy emotions, dealig with boredom... There's so many aspects you can finesse. I hope this gives you at least some idea of what you are supposed to be doing. I feel the same as you, and I try not to dwell on it. I really think there's a lot I can learn from you. You're very stagnant, which is something that has charm. I could be as stagnant as you without needing to slow down my forward momentum, but it might slow down the fast pace. Cheers and good luck!
You are using the words "fun" and "enjoy" to describe your psychosis experiences. That means to me and everyone else with real experience that you don't know wtf you are talking about. Psychosis is the farthest thing from "fun". I think you are misdiagnosed, you probably just had some intense mania. Get off the antipsychotics and stop pretending to have an illness you don't.
Man, I always appreciate your videos. I spend so much time in my room and I have similar thoughts as you. I dont know that I have schizophrenia but my suspicion of the possibility grows. I want to see a therapist and doctor again here eventually because I do have anxiety and depression for sure. Already diagnosed. But even antipsychotics helped me with those as well.
I have schizoaffective disorder and i can totally relate with the loss of energy and just loss of interest with daily life .. it sucks so much i hope you can find a light at the end of the tunnel my man stay safe
Thank you for making this video. I do look forward to seeing more. It would be nice to learn more about your tarantulas, and learn more about you and whatever else you want to talk about. I'm happy for you to be able to enjoy the museum, it sounds like you had a good time there!
Hi Jacob! Been watching your channel for awhile, im working in the mental health field with other people of simlar ages and symtoms. Don't give up on yourself. Find your ideal routine that revolves around your values not your dignosis. You could totally go to college if you wanted to. Especially since a lot of classes are taught online with covid and you can get accommodations ahead of time. Also what do you think about the idea of getting a service dog?
I really connect with how you are feeling, keep strong. I have psychosis and believe the medical cause of it is schizophrenia. Still waiting for diagnosis. We can make it, just keep going and keep challenging yourself .
I have bipolar and I can relate to a point with your experiences. When I'm super low on energy, I just watch movies, sleep and stay in silence; nothing can really be helpful, just waiting for the brain to reset itself. When I feel a little improvement in my mood, I take a walk or I read&write, cook some delicious food for me and my husband - this gives me a sense of usefulness. But each time I'm depressed, I know that nothing really can take away my mood; medication is good, but is not always working (all of us who are cronically ill know this). You are not alone in this journey! 💚(Sorry for my english, I'm a beginner).
I found you a few years ago after my best friend passed away. Then my younger brother had mental break and has not recovered. I was often told about my Papaw's and Uncle's schizophrenic episodes.. still all the warning signs floated right past me. It was so different for each of them. I honestly feel like it could have been me. I probably have a predisposition, I was in a dark place and I traumatized myself smoking weed for the first time at 24. For so many years I had crippling OCD Intrusive thoughts that I somehow flipped the Schizo switch...That lasted for years until the day my friend jumped. I thought oh... I guess my brain isn't that after all. Thankfully my people kept me grounded. I sincerely hope you have enough people you feel like you can go to when things get really bad. Right now at 37 I finally am starting to wake up from a lifelong weird dark hibernation. My Uncle who has schizophrenia passed away last month. He also has Crohn's disease which is what I inherited. A major part of that is chronic fatigue and feeling like your life source is drained. I'm always weaslin out of work every chance I get. Even tho work I from home I just can't muster the strength. Just talking to people drains my soul. The biggest thing that helped me was going outside. Not far... just in my yard, feeding the birds, trying to ID every flower/weed/ bird / mushroom I came across. I'm sure you could find something cooler to do lol. You said you never finish anything you start. So, who cars? Neither a lot of us really 🤣 Remind yourself I what your have accomplished and learned and go to the next thing until suddenly you find something you don't want to stop. Figure out a daily routine and plan your coke alternatives and non crappy foods the day before! It really was a long road of mind over matter and working things out in my brain. Figuring out what thoughts are mine and not a chemical imbalance. I feel like making up corny mind exercises for ny personal issues really helped. Not trying to push those intrusive thoughts down. I let it come up even it is disturbing and just roll with it acknowledge it, joke to myself about it. I have so many conversations with myself now. Sometimes I do feel like I'm going crazy or manic still, I just bust out my notepad app and just write my stream of conscious crazy thoughts down. That's probably why I'm prattling on forever now thinking of my friend, what would I tell her... have I seen processed those emotions yet? I think I buried them and thing are starting to bubble up and I write this. It's probably not right to compare .. but, you are SO much more well adjusted than I was at your age and leaps and bounds more healthy and productive than the ones I've known with a similar illness. Cute yourself some slack! You are a good person and you. Deserve happiness. Once you work things out and can keep yourself grounded, your brain can inspire you not kill you. I know you will do great meaningful things. Get a really good multivitamin and maybe B12. Some of that chronic fatigue you might be able to overcome with cutting sugar and getting more nourishment. I can literally feel the inflammation leave my body when I'm not eating sugar for a few days. It doesn't have to be a whole ass stressful diet ... Just ~balance~. Maybe you could try working on a cool magestic terrarium for them nasty Lil tarantula babies like they do for hamsters. IDK if that's a thing. Simple things can be magical.Despite your limitations you have the potential to be happy, you can get through your mental hurdles and have a fulfilling life. I understand among other things the lack of energy and the apathy can be crippling. There's gotta be something your Drs can do for that. I'm finally seeing the light at the end of my freaking dark crazy tunnel. I know you will. You don't have to end up like my friend who was afraid to admit she was sick and never asked for help. Every day just do a little bit more. Once you get moving and focusing on other things, hopefully you won't be trapped your stressful thoughts. Sometimes the must healing thing is looking outside of yourself so you can be distracted and inspired. 3 years ago I was throwing up blood, last year I could barely walk or use my hands but despite that I became a gardener, I found my random passion and did it all myself and it truly is magical and what keeps me going and ensure that I make good healthy choices so I'm not laying in bed dying instead of watching things grow. It just took me almost 40 years to find it. Omg I really am am old prattling Gramma busting in talking about all my RIPd people and ailments . I'm sorry I hope I was able to pass along even one little helpful thing... But sorry if you read all that 😬 but as an internet rando I do care and it's just crazy how life works out so unexpectedly and I can't stress enough how much it's pointless to worry about what your brain MIGHT to do you. Things never turn out how you expect or plan. So just start living Lil Buddy.
Hey! I've also oftentimes felt highly unmotivated and tired. A thing that always helps me is talking to people and making friends. There are some pretty cool programs out there where you can connect with people from different countries and teach each other your native languages. That might be fun for you!
Sounds like you need more social contact and I mean real social contact. Also, a little bit of fitness as much as you can handle of course, could be beneficial. Are there any self help groups for schizophrenics, where you can meet up with people who understand your struggles?
this guy was literally my childhood, been watching him for ages and was subbed on my old account. just happy he's still around, not many people in this world with mental differences make it this far :( best friend just passed away from suic*de few weeks ago after a struggle with depression that lasted all of high school :(
My 18 yr old son has schizophrenia and everytime I step out of the door to go to work I feel like I am not doing enough. I am wanting to help him get his life started and I feel like I am not supporting him enough. I have an image of what I think a man is suppose to be and what they are suppose to do.I know he is sick but to think of the things he may not be able to do or be told he will not makes me very angry. There is no support around here at all the Nami here is volunteer so by the time I get home from work volunteers are gone. I don't. Know keep up the good work Jacob at least you are insightful enough to speak about your feelings and experiences.
Hey there! This may sound dumb but have you heard of subliminals. they're basically affirmations on a high frequency wich humans cant hear but our subconcius can. And there are also ones for mental illnesses. I mean i dont know if they could help but I heard a lot of good things and experienced alot of good things from subliminals so maybe this might be an option... yeah idk just a idea love from germany!
I have Schizotypal and I’ve been living the way you have been, it’s really frustrating. The constant paranoia and no desire to do anything. I fear leaving my own room a lot because I keep feeling like someone is watching me from the windows. I have a hard time eating, my sleep fluctuates between sleeping too much or too little. I don’t leave my house unless I’m getting some snacks, but even going out I just don’t feel like I’m supposed to be there. I talk to and play games with my friends on Discord, I’ll hangout with them sometimes but I don’t think anything could really stop my brain from always giving me something to be scared of. I’m moving back with my parents next month, and I’m hoping that helps put my brain at ease, even if only temporary.
I’m totally getting worse. I work retail 40 hours a week….somehow, cos I have to, survival. . I’m very deluded and paranoid. Propanalol didn’t help my anxiety at all. SSRIs keep making me sick. Clonazepam is the only substance (other than alcohol) that has helped at all. I got into watching anime and reading manga, but mostly I just sit and stare at the wall. I have very little desire to do anything, especially after work.
Hey man, u wanted suggestions and I really think you should try walking or light jogging. It is my therapy, and once u get into a routine of it you will love it. If u are scared to go outside and do it then maybe get a cheap used treadmill. It’s surprisingly better than weights in terms of muscle soreness and it’s better for the mind
I advise you to "self-medicate" with art. Writing down your disturbing thoughts, painting/drawing pictures or creating your own music could make you feel much better. Also taking a walk in the woods or doing some kind of exercise may "cleanse" your head. On bad days you might as well watch movies on netflix, play computer games or take long milk bath and order special food for yourself. :):
Yea I fill your pain Jacob my life is some what boring to but fu$$k it it is what it is I be listening to doja cat too that's funny u said that but life gets better trust I know
All of us if we sit on our own thinking we become aware of all sorts of weird mental conditions in ourselves which seem absolutely real and very important and problematic, but just one afternoon with friends can dispel all those worries or at least make them appear trivial and inconsequential. You CANNOT hope to sort yourself out by thinking on your own. Solutions to mental problems only arise due to communication with other helpful people, and they always occur in unexpected and unpredictable ways. We are all very small and insecure and can't hope to understand ourselves or life on our own. We need other people, preferably good and trusted friends, to learn, grow, deal with real or imagined problems, and achieve wisdom and contentment.
Be really careful with those medications, they can be contributing a lot to your heart issues. I had major heart issues and prolonged qt readings on seroquel and some of those other anti psychotics. So it isn’t just stress. I hope you can find relief and more interest and higher being in your life and can find most of all peace.
Have you asked your doctor about Fluoxetine (morning medication) and Latuda (evening medication)? They both helped me tremendously compared to how I was at the beginning. I'm not hyper with my thoughts as much. I really encourage you to ask your doctor about those meds, because my mom says it's like a "miracle" drug.
Maybe a fun thing to do is to write your own story on paper. Write about your life as someone who has Schizophrenia and share it like you do on youtube. Or try out a new concept for a video like paint something what you see and record it, do some awesome chanllenges, show off your outfit for the day, there is so much more! I hope I gave some good ideas, nice video as always ☺
My kids have some things in common with you! I am familiar with Discord but they end up turning it off! My son has schizophrenic as well since 15! He can’t sit still he always has to be doing something or somewhere! My son is now 18 and he goes to library, young single adult church social ! He has some strong emotions and is empathetic and so he’s senses others energy right off I help him what helped me on behavior therapy! My other son is 16 and likes to be on computer too and recently he can’t handle being at high school is he is starting online class! He has characteristics of autism! Very introvert! I know my son lives the gym and that’s how he get the good feeling and lots of positive friends around him! It was hard for him the first year after being diagnosed he was not there and loss some talent like drawing and math but he is gaining muscles! We take life one moment at a time and process problems and let some go and confront those we can!
i've ADD and games being boring and not fun was a side effect of my condition, I assume you probably know that it can be the same for you, from what I know prescribing any stimulant for someone with schizophrenia is a big no, maybe ask your psychiatrist if there is something that could work with your medication that could help your dopamine receptors ? idk if this would exacerbate your symptoms
I too have schizophrenia. Check out andrew huberman podcast main playlist. Start from the beginning intresting science stuff on the brain and protocols you can implement. I get up every morning quite early and go on a walk I do this every morning while taking my dog on the walk by having my curtains drawn. Learning to program. It's really helped I am 39. I know your struggles dude.
Have you tried invega? I just started taking the highest dose its actually helping its like i wake uo everyday thinking will it work today i hope so and then it does :D v cool stuff to wake up to
Hey, what if as a shizophrenic you're very sensitive for visual stimulants and having animals like snakes, venomous spiders couses subconscious trauma resulting in anxietys. I based my thought on my experience, becouse im somwhat of that kind of sensitive person and when im interacting with some things that couse fear i just fell really bad, like i never completed a pure Serivival Horror game in my life, becouse when i always try to play that kind of a game it caouses somewhat of a panic fear inside me, or very weird emotional fluactuations. Now i always try to find things that are nice, funny or somewhat cute to interact and it somewhat works. Also try to avoid things that cause aggravation. or if you must, then always try to find a nice feeling inside you by returning mentally, to things that makes you fell cuttly and warm.
it really sounds kinda like you should be on different medicine? if its making you sleep that much and is affecting your heart, it doesnt sound right :( but i'm not a psychiatrist so i dont know whats best for you. thats just my thoughts.
You seem to me like an ENFJ, you need an INFP friend in that case because they have the opposite set of cognitive functions but in the same order or hierarchy… I’m enfj too, ;)
Of course your life is boring. You never do anything. Get out and meet people. Sorry to sound harsh, but it's true. Don't worry about difficulties with communication, the danger of "freaking out" etc. Nothing bad is going to happen. Good luck.
@@maniebrahimi7217 I know it's hellishly difficult, but what else is there? Do nothing and rot and die? Well maybe if that's what you decide, but if you want more than that then you've got to at least try to change things. Horrible if you're struggling with paranoia, hallucinations and delusions I know, but tragically in default of better options (which will probably become available in the future, but don't exist now) that's all there is. And the brain is endlessly flexible and able to rewire itself, so with lots of practice the seemingly impossible can become possible and mental problems can be minimised or even totally overcome?
stay strong man been watching for a couple years now
Same. He is so relatable on so many levels because some of what he says applies to depression and anxiety as well. Helps a lot of people.
"I just woke up from a 30 hour nap"
Same man, I do that shit too much
Hang in there Jacob, you're not alone.
I felt the same way for the last couple of years. The mental illness is bad the medication is bad, and it feels like such a lose lose situation. It takes a lot to keep going. I have schizoaffective though, and so far this year, I think it’s gone into remission. Hoping the best for you
I been denying my mental illness for a long time.
Been watching for ages. Do you have access to a support worker? They might be able to help you get out and about a bit more. Going to the pet store is good!! Workouts are good! We're all rooting for you!
I had a similar EKG at age 37. Said "consider old anterior infarct." I went to a cardiologist. He looked at the EKG and said, "so you walked up some stairs - you pushed your heart a little." Not concerned at all.
I find colouring really helps my brain to relax. I also do voluntary stuff to help the mental health cause such as helping Samaritans (mental health charity here in England) review their campaigns etc. as someone with lived experience of a mental illness. They might have something similar in the US. I just review what they send me via email and can do as many or as little as I like. Helping others has really helped me.
Maybe volunteer at an animal shelter. If you can and are interested. I did it with one of my friends in college. We would just take the dogs on walk and play with them. If you wanted to you could take them home for a night too. Think you might like it
Hi Jacob! I'm one of the people in the discord server and I have Schizophrenia as well (although mines got milder somehow cause I did something really stupid back in 2020 like not taking my meds for the whole 6 months). Just be the best you can Jacob, you are already exciting in giving hope to thousands of people with mental illness. My suggestion, at least for me, on how I got better is art and photography therapy. I used Instagram as a form of therapy, with a Jesus quote in it. I also changed my diet to pecto-vegetarian with bunch of vegetables and ran most of the days as a form of exercise. Sometimes I feel like I just got lucky on how I got better. I don't know if it works with anyone with Schizophrenia cause I do admit that I have a milder form of the illness. However please don't lose hope you are already doing a lot from your videos and discord.
Jesus is Lord. Jesus is Savior. Jesus is remedy. Christian first, schizophrenic second. Schizophrenia doesn't define me, Jesus does.
Schizophrenia is a horrible mental illness. I hate having schizophrenia
i recognize your symptoms, what helps me a lot and i do every week is being creative, paint draw etc. maybe you can enjoy it too and also get satisfaction from it
Big respect for speaking about mental health bro the mental health team are trying to put me on antipsychotics for my anxiety and depression and heart palpitations I’m gonna give it a miss because of what I’ve read up about them I feel for you bro having to take them keep doing your thing on CZcams mental health is so shitty and people like you should be proud for even having the balls to speak about it
You didn't mention singing, you have a great voice 😍
I literally do nothing. I enjoy it. I lost all motivation. I used to be motivated. Now I sit and lay in my bed waiting to eat, sh t, or sleep. I hate that I'm schizophrenic. I have pretty much accepted the fact that I'm a lost cause. I love your videos.
@@JessicaB1982 Thank you Jessica for your kind words.
I also have schizofrenia and im struggleing with the hopelessness. But im a lucky bastard. I got to work in my parents store and i have a dog and i go to the gym and i met my man on tinder 3 years Ago. But still its a struggle
Sending love
I wish I had a store lol
No one that doesn’t have schizophrenia can’t understand us with schizophrenia and how fear can be invalidating to our lives. As someone with schizophrenia I did manage to finish college but I have work disability because of my illness but I still work in handmade business. Not big money but doing stuff with your hands, I make stuffed toys, can be therapeutic. I also try to work out tho I’m bit overweight because of meds probably. I talk to people online. I hang out with my friend and go for walks with him and talk about everything, it’s nice. But I often feel hopeless and depressed. Like what is going to happen to me when my parents die. I get anxious around people too much. I can’t be around people for long. I don’t have hallucinations or some big delusions but it’s still hard. I love watching your videos.
I’m 31 years old and I’m still living with my mom. I have paranoid schizophrenia. But I don’t know what I’m going to do after she dies. I took a few computer classes but I got to go over it again. I mentally block things out because I don’t want to feed the voices. But I’m on medication and the sleeping pills suck!!! I don’t have a lot of friends. I hang in there though.
@@rachelfoley7168 stay strong
also, i think you described a lot of most ppls days. not exactly, but i think far more than you realize. i wish i could communicate it properly. -JC
Thanks for uploading. I love your CZcams channel. I also have schizophrenia and my life sucks. I made a lot of terrible choices like lighting myself on fire. Lost a lot of friends. I'm a writer but I'm not motivated to publish. I love cigarettes, but my parents won't let me smoke. I hate this disease.
SUPER CRAZY LIFE, INSANE WHAT MY DAILY ROUTINE IS. I DO 300000 THINGS PER DAY WILD.
i do 1929298383838388383 thing
I sleep, I sleep way too much. I have an operation coming up, and I'm trying to fix my sleeping schedule. So I've been awake. But I can sleep, a ridiculous amount. But I can't. I have to wake up.
lol
I can relate totally to your ‘Anxiety, and ‘Long naps.’ Do you feel bad after the long hours of sleep? I’m Autistic and I really related as well to Your ‘Terrified of Communication’ video to a T. It’s so painful living with a Mental Disorder no matter which one You have. Please be well, Bless You
I hope your videos were a lot longer , i find reconciliation in your videos , they calm me
Stay strong 🌹
I AM HERE FOR THIS MOCARELLA CHEESE STICKS CONTENT! Thank you for sharing your daily routine. I spend all day inside with my two cats so can relate.
Its cool that you manage to workout and go to a museum from time to time.
Mozzarella, love.
I live a similar lifestyle to you most of the time. Sit in my apartment all day, listening to music, watching youtube, talking on discord. I feel like that's my comfort zone, when I'm most zen.
I do a few things beyond what you're currently doing, I'm working towards getting my car license and I go to a low threshold workplace three times a week.
Really, if you look at it from a completely different perspective you should be overjoyed. You have complete freedom to do anything you want. With choice comes responsibility, and if you have too many options you spend so much time trying to figure out what is the correct course of action.
What we enjoy about our acute psychosis is the sense of urgency, there's always some really important thing we need to be attending to. Once that dissapears we are left wondering what's the point. I think there's something to be said for fully comitting to what you are doing in the present moment.
The fun thing about having experienced acute psychosis is you can kind of tap into that sense of urgency. Like, your boredom and lack of motivation, you can make that the really urgent thing you need to be attending to.
There's so much work you can do to feel good. Remmebering, introspection, rational analysis, taking action, dealing with heavy emotions, dealig with boredom... There's so many aspects you can finesse. I hope this gives you at least some idea of what you are supposed to be doing. I feel the same as you, and I try not to dwell on it.
I really think there's a lot I can learn from you. You're very stagnant, which is something that has charm. I could be as stagnant as you without needing to slow down my forward momentum, but it might slow down the fast pace.
Cheers and good luck!
You are using the words "fun" and "enjoy" to describe your psychosis experiences. That means to me and everyone else with real experience that you don't know wtf you are talking about. Psychosis is the farthest thing from "fun". I think you are misdiagnosed, you probably just had some intense mania. Get off the antipsychotics and stop pretending to have an illness you don't.
What do You do for work? I need ideas Plz if U don’t mind
@@mariestrawberryswirl2171 hey im NEET... work life is very difficult for me. to many demands.
Stay strong Jacob you’re awesome 😊
Man, I always appreciate your videos. I spend so much time in my room and I have similar thoughts as you. I dont know that I have schizophrenia but my suspicion of the possibility grows. I want to see a therapist and doctor again here eventually because I do have anxiety and depression for sure. Already diagnosed. But even antipsychotics helped me with those as well.
I know how you feel I'm so bored with my life it really sucks. But what I do to help keep busy is art and writing short stories.
We have alot in common bro, I understand everything you say. Hope you have the best day that's possible for people like us!
I have schizoaffective disorder and i can totally relate with the loss of energy and just loss of interest with daily life .. it sucks so much i hope you can find a light at the end of the tunnel my man stay safe
Thank you for making this video. I do look forward to seeing more. It would be nice to learn more about your tarantulas, and learn more about you and whatever else you want to talk about. I'm happy for you to be able to enjoy the museum, it sounds like you had a good time there!
Hi Jacob! Been watching your channel for awhile, im working in the mental health field with other people of simlar ages and symtoms. Don't give up on yourself. Find your ideal routine that revolves around your values not your dignosis. You could totally go to college if you wanted to. Especially since a lot of classes are taught online with covid and you can get accommodations ahead of time.
Also what do you think about the idea of getting a service dog?
I really connect with how you are feeling, keep strong. I have psychosis and believe the medical cause of it is schizophrenia. Still waiting for diagnosis. We can make it, just keep going and keep challenging yourself .
I have bipolar and I can relate to a point with your experiences. When I'm super low on energy, I just watch movies, sleep and stay in silence; nothing can really be helpful, just waiting for the brain to reset itself. When I feel a little improvement in my mood, I take a walk or I read&write, cook some delicious food for me and my husband - this gives me a sense of usefulness. But each time I'm depressed, I know that nothing really can take away my mood; medication is good, but is not always working (all of us who are cronically ill know this). You are not alone in this journey! 💚(Sorry for my english, I'm a beginner).
I found you a few years ago after my best friend passed away. Then my younger brother had mental break and has not recovered. I was often told about my Papaw's and Uncle's schizophrenic episodes.. still all the warning signs floated right past me. It was so different for each of them. I honestly feel like it could have been me. I probably have a predisposition, I was in a dark place and I traumatized myself smoking weed for the first time at 24. For so many years I had crippling OCD Intrusive thoughts that I somehow flipped the Schizo switch...That lasted for years until the day my friend jumped. I thought oh... I guess my brain isn't that after all.
Thankfully my people kept me grounded. I sincerely hope you have enough people you feel like you can go to when things get really bad. Right now at 37 I finally am starting to wake up from a lifelong weird dark hibernation.
My Uncle who has schizophrenia passed away last month. He also has Crohn's disease which is what I inherited.
A major part of that is chronic fatigue and feeling like your life source is drained. I'm always weaslin out of work every chance I get. Even tho work I from home I just can't muster the strength. Just talking to people drains my soul.
The biggest thing that helped me was going outside. Not far... just in my yard, feeding the birds, trying to ID every flower/weed/ bird / mushroom I came across. I'm sure you could find something cooler to do lol.
You said you never finish anything you start. So, who cars? Neither a lot of us really 🤣 Remind yourself I what your have accomplished and learned and go to the next thing until suddenly you find something you don't want to stop.
Figure out a daily routine and plan your coke alternatives and non crappy foods the day before!
It really was a long road of mind over matter and working things out in my brain. Figuring out what thoughts are mine and not a chemical imbalance.
I feel like making up corny mind exercises for ny personal issues really helped. Not trying to push those intrusive thoughts down. I let it come up even it is disturbing and just roll with it acknowledge it, joke to myself about it.
I have so many conversations with myself now. Sometimes I do feel like I'm going crazy or manic still, I just bust out my notepad app and just write my stream of conscious crazy thoughts down. That's probably why I'm prattling on forever now thinking of my friend, what would I tell her... have I seen processed those emotions yet? I think I buried them and thing are starting to bubble up and I write this.
It's probably not right to compare .. but, you are SO much more well adjusted than I was at your age and leaps and bounds more healthy and productive than the ones I've known with a similar illness. Cute yourself some slack! You are a good person and you. Deserve happiness. Once you work things out and can keep yourself grounded, your brain can inspire you not kill you. I know you will do great meaningful things.
Get a really good multivitamin and maybe B12. Some of that chronic fatigue you might be able to overcome with cutting sugar and getting more nourishment. I can literally feel the inflammation leave my body when I'm not eating sugar for a few days. It doesn't have to be a whole ass stressful diet ... Just ~balance~. Maybe you could try working on a cool magestic terrarium for them nasty Lil tarantula babies like they do for hamsters. IDK if that's a thing. Simple things can be magical.Despite your limitations you have the potential to be happy, you can get through your mental hurdles and have a fulfilling life. I understand among other things the lack of energy and the apathy can be crippling. There's gotta be something your Drs can do for that.
I'm finally seeing the light at the end of my freaking dark crazy tunnel. I know you will. You don't have to end up like my friend who was afraid to admit she was sick and never asked for help. Every day just do a little bit more.
Once you get moving and focusing on other things, hopefully you won't be trapped your stressful thoughts. Sometimes the must healing thing is looking outside of yourself so you can be distracted and inspired.
3 years ago I was throwing up blood, last year I could barely walk or use my hands but despite that I became a gardener, I found my random passion and did it all myself and it truly is magical and what keeps me going and ensure that I make good healthy choices so I'm not laying in bed dying instead of watching things grow. It just took me almost 40 years to find it. Omg I really am am old prattling Gramma busting in talking about all my RIPd people and ailments . I'm sorry I hope I was able to pass along even one little helpful thing... But sorry if you read all that 😬 but as an internet rando I do care and it's just crazy how life works out so unexpectedly and I can't stress enough how much it's pointless to worry about what your brain MIGHT to do you. Things never turn out how you expect or plan. So just start living Lil Buddy.
Hey! I've also oftentimes felt highly unmotivated and tired. A thing that always helps me is talking to people and making friends. There are some pretty cool programs out there where you can connect with people from different countries and teach each other your native languages. That might be fun for you!
Sounds like you need more social contact and I mean real social contact. Also, a little bit of fitness as much as you can handle of course, could be beneficial. Are there any self help groups for schizophrenics, where you can meet up with people who understand your struggles?
this guy was literally my childhood, been watching him for ages and was subbed on my old account. just happy he's still around, not many people in this world with mental differences make it this far :( best friend just passed away from suic*de few weeks ago after a struggle with depression that lasted all of high school :(
That's bad. Sorry about that.
Some days I question Shit and why I am even here, it is Soo Rough
My 18 yr old son has schizophrenia and everytime I step out of the door to go to work I feel like I am not doing enough. I am wanting to help him get his life started and I feel like I am not supporting him enough. I have an image of what I think a man is suppose to be and what they are suppose to do.I know he is sick but to think of the things he may not be able to do or be told he will not makes me very angry. There is no support around here at all the Nami here is volunteer so by the time I get home from work volunteers are gone. I don't. Know keep up the good work Jacob at least you are insightful enough to speak about your feelings and experiences.
I love watching your videos 😊💜❤️
Those pinktoes are one of the few spiders I thought looked pretty cool.
Hey there! This may sound dumb but have you heard of subliminals. they're basically affirmations on a high frequency wich humans cant hear but our subconcius can. And there are also ones for mental illnesses. I mean i dont know if they could help but I heard a lot of good things and experienced alot of good things from subliminals so maybe this might be an option... yeah idk just a idea love from germany!
I understand you .
My life is not better.....
I felt what I believed was death cause something was energetically attacking me
I have Schizotypal and I’ve been living the way you have been, it’s really frustrating. The constant paranoia and no desire to do anything. I fear leaving my own room a lot because I keep feeling like someone is watching me from the windows. I have a hard time eating, my sleep fluctuates between sleeping too much or too little. I don’t leave my house unless I’m getting some snacks, but even going out I just don’t feel like I’m supposed to be there. I talk to and play games with my friends on Discord, I’ll hangout with them sometimes but I don’t think anything could really stop my brain from always giving me something to be scared of. I’m moving back with my parents next month, and I’m hoping that helps put my brain at ease, even if only temporary.
I’m totally getting worse. I work retail 40 hours a week….somehow, cos I have to, survival. . I’m very deluded and paranoid. Propanalol didn’t help my anxiety at all. SSRIs keep making me sick. Clonazepam is the only substance (other than alcohol) that has helped at all.
I got into watching anime and reading manga, but mostly I just sit and stare at the wall. I have very little desire to do anything, especially after work.
great video bestie
love the babies
Hey man, u wanted suggestions and I really think you should try walking or light jogging. It is my therapy, and once u get into a routine of it you will love it. If u are scared to go outside and do it then maybe get a cheap used treadmill. It’s surprisingly better than weights in terms of muscle soreness and it’s better for the mind
We missed u man ,hope u are doing ok!
I advise you to "self-medicate" with art. Writing down your disturbing thoughts, painting/drawing pictures or creating your own music could make you feel much better. Also taking a walk in the woods or doing some kind of exercise may "cleanse" your head. On bad days you might as well watch movies on netflix, play computer games or take long milk bath and order special food for yourself. :):
Yes. Look at My Odd Experiences. He records his hallucinations on paper and produces beautiful art.
Yea I fill your pain Jacob my life is some what boring to but fu$$k it it is what it is I be listening to doja cat too that's funny u said that but life gets better trust I know
All of us if we sit on our own thinking we become aware of all sorts of weird mental conditions in ourselves which seem absolutely real and very important and problematic, but just one afternoon with friends can dispel all those worries or at least make them appear trivial and inconsequential. You CANNOT hope to sort yourself out by thinking on your own. Solutions to mental problems only arise due to communication with other helpful people, and they always occur in unexpected and unpredictable ways. We are all very small and insecure and can't hope to understand ourselves or life on our own. We need other people, preferably good and trusted friends, to learn, grow, deal with real or imagined problems, and achieve wisdom and contentment.
Be really careful with those medications, they can be contributing a lot to your heart issues. I had major heart issues and prolonged qt readings on seroquel and some of those other anti psychotics. So it isn’t just stress. I hope you can find relief and more interest and higher being in your life and can find most of all peace.
Have you asked your doctor about Fluoxetine (morning medication) and Latuda (evening medication)? They both helped me tremendously compared to how I was at the beginning. I'm not hyper with my thoughts as much. I really encourage you to ask your doctor about those meds, because my mom says it's like a "miracle" drug.
Maybe a fun thing to do is to write your own story on paper. Write about your life as someone who has Schizophrenia and share it like you do on youtube. Or try out a new concept for a video like paint something what you see and record it, do some awesome chanllenges, show off your outfit for the day, there is so much more! I hope I gave some good ideas, nice video as always ☺
feeding bids is pretty fun thats what i do and ave a conversation with them.it is neat when they talk back.
Hi have mental illness I’m 55 I work but I have suffered alit in life. I’m so very lonely I love you
My kids have some things in common with you! I am familiar with Discord but they end up turning it off! My son has schizophrenic as well since 15! He can’t sit still he always has to be doing something or somewhere! My son is now 18 and he goes to library, young single adult church social ! He has some strong emotions and is empathetic and so he’s senses others energy right off I help him what helped me on behavior therapy! My other son is 16 and likes to be on computer too and recently he can’t handle being at high school is he is starting online class! He has characteristics of autism! Very introvert! I know my son lives the gym and that’s how he get the good feeling and lots of positive friends around him! It was hard for him the first year after being diagnosed he was not there and loss some talent like drawing and math but he is gaining muscles! We take life one moment at a time and process problems and let some go and confront those we can!
i've ADD and games being boring and not fun was a side effect of my condition, I assume you probably know that it can be the same for you, from what I know prescribing any stimulant for someone with schizophrenia is a big no, maybe ask your psychiatrist if there is something that could work with your medication that could help your dopamine receptors ? idk if this would exacerbate your symptoms
I am paranoid around other people at my job too
I too have schizophrenia. Check out andrew huberman podcast main playlist. Start from the beginning intresting science stuff on the brain and protocols you can implement. I get up every morning quite early and go on a walk I do this every morning while taking my dog on the walk by having my curtains drawn. Learning to program. It's really helped I am 39. I know your struggles dude.
Have you tried invega? I just started taking the highest dose its actually helping its like i wake uo everyday thinking will it work today i hope so and then it does :D v cool stuff to wake up to
The invega injection stopped working for me
Been here so long :)
well you should Vlog going to the pet store 🧡🧡
Hi Jacob is this from today?
i find recording things helps. & bc why not. you can always stop. -JC
You should charge medication if you really sleep that much. Spiders are creepy in my opinion 😆 get a dog so you have to go up in the mornings
I take 25mg Seroquel at night before sleep and I feel fine. Taking 400mg at night is what makes you sleep long periods of time.
Hey, what if as a shizophrenic you're very sensitive for visual stimulants and having animals like snakes, venomous spiders couses subconscious trauma resulting in anxietys. I based my thought on my experience, becouse im somwhat of that kind of sensitive person and when im interacting with some things that couse fear i just fell really bad, like i never completed a pure Serivival Horror game in my life, becouse when i always try to play that kind of a game it caouses somewhat of a panic fear inside me, or very weird emotional fluactuations. Now i always try to find things that are nice, funny or somewhat cute to interact and it somewhat works. Also try to avoid things that cause aggravation. or if you must, then always try to find a nice feeling inside you by returning mentally, to things that makes you fell cuttly and warm.
My cat passed away last year too jacob❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
My daily routine as a schizoid is basically like yours.
Are you still a smoker ?
Stay strong 💪🏻 !
Lol.. Yeah, you're not the only one ..believe me
What games do you play ?
Try some ginger beer 2L
Biking or going to an adoption center to see and pet dogs or cats could be a fun thing to do and ease the stress and pressure of daily tasks (:
I am also addicted to cola, in my case it's cola zero...
it really sounds kinda like you should be on different medicine? if its making you sleep that much and is affecting your heart, it doesnt sound right :( but i'm not a psychiatrist so i dont know whats best for you. thats just my thoughts.
It might be the only meds that work for him. It can cause problems to try and switch so many doctors are hesitant to prescribe a different med
Do you play ark?
Have you thought about taking online classes???
Uh staying distracted with something has helped me this may help you also.
Hello Jacob
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I pace where I'm impatient and start cleaning things when I am bored but can't stand the crap I hear.
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You could get a pair of dumbells
Happy internet friends day :)
try working out daily. your body gets used to it and i feels good.
Something you enjoy maybe......❤
If someone had schizophrenia they probably have no schedule so no wonder.......
You're only 25. You can start with taking one class at school and take it slow
Do some drawing,drawing helps me 😊
Maybe go on walks? You can bring pepper spray if you think it'll make you anxious
You seem to me like an ENFJ, you need an INFP friend in that case because they have the opposite set of cognitive functions but in the same order or hierarchy…
I’m enfj too, ;)
And maybe think about new content to do
Is your heart thing a somatic delusion?
Bruh start working out
Of course your life is boring. You never do anything. Get out and meet people. Sorry to sound harsh, but it's true. Don't worry about difficulties with communication, the danger of "freaking out" etc. Nothing bad is going to happen. Good luck.
“oh yeah buddy, if you’re unmotivated and can’t get yourself to do anything bc of anxiety and paranoia, just get motivated! easy peasy”
@@maniebrahimi7217 I know it's hellishly difficult, but what else is there? Do nothing and rot and die? Well maybe if that's what you decide, but if you want more than that then you've got to at least try to change things. Horrible if you're struggling with paranoia, hallucinations and delusions I know, but tragically in default of better options (which will probably become available in the future, but don't exist now) that's all there is. And the brain is endlessly flexible and able to rewire itself, so with lots of practice the seemingly impossible can become possible and mental problems can be minimised or even totally overcome?
Start playing guitar