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You actually haven't been gone. You are on tiktok all the time.
I know Iâm confused sheâs on TikTok daily for hours and hoursâŠ
Sheâs talking about CZcams. Duh!
â@@MissJudySunshineThe reason why she isn't making CZcams videos is because she devotes so much time to TikTok, duh. It has nothing to do with grandma.
Shes a chronic liar
@@maryjaneshoe-fm4yr I didnât say anything about her grandma, nor am I suggesting a reason why sheâs not on CZcams as much. Boo!
I relapsed on drugs when my mom died. I spent all my money and almost ended up homeless. I didnât care and wanted to die. Then I realized my mom would be SO mad. She gave everything to raise me and make me the person I am. She wouldnât have wanted me overdosing and dying. Your grandma would want you to live and live healthy and happy. As someone who has struggled with not wanting to admit I need help, please please listen to everyone saying to get help. I sat beside my mother and held her hand while she took her last breath. That will never leave me. You do not want your loved ones to live through that. I donât know if you will even read this with the amount of comments you get but, I hope at least one of these comments breaks through to you.
Good on you for sharing, and for your story! Youâre so strong đȘđŒ
Aww bless I was besides my mum when she passed away I literally felt her soul leave her body I went crazy I didn't want to leave the house or speak to anyone but my sister kept pushing me telling Me how proud mum was so I shouldn't give up what I'm doing- for you to have held your mum's hand is special god chose you to be the last person by her side â€ïž its hard I know but these past 5 months I learned yes after my dad passed 26 years ago my mummy literally carried us all 6 kids 23 grandkids and 2 great grandkids now we must continue the legacy â€ïž đ and you do this for your lovely beautiful mum too â€ïž
big hugs, thanks for sharing đ©·
as someone whoâs had pretty bad anorexia for around 7 years and as someone whoâs⊠very worried about you right about now i just want to pour my heart out really quick.
i know. i promise you, i swear on my life i know what itâs like. i know what itâs like to have a restrictive eating disorder completely consume every corner of your mind and every little detail of your life. i know what itâs like to be so deep into it you canât see light from any angle you turn. i know what itâs like to genuinely, whole heartedly believe you will NEVER not have an eating disorder. i know what itâs like to feel like recovery is genuinely impossible for you. i know what itâs like to have a fear of food itself because youâve trained your brain to think itâs evil. i know what itâs like to feel your stomach sink and your heart start beating fast when you have to walk through the isles of a grocery store. i know what itâs like to be absolutely petrified of the thought of gaining weight. i know the toxic euphoria that can come when you see the number go down or you stay under your calorie limit or you get a compliment on how thin you are. i know the fear of putting anything in your mouth cause you think youâll gain 90 pounds from it. i could go on. i know i know i know.
YOU. ARE NOT. ALONE.
i KNOW youâre trying. and i know how scary it is and how physically and mentally hard it is to try. and i know you feel trapped behind bars. and i know this isnât your fault.
i want YOU to know that recovery is possible. i wish i could help you through it in person. i wish i could hold your hand through it all. let you fail and get back up. help you re-wire your mind like i had to re-wire mine. because recovery is possible. it IS possible for you to not have to live like this anymore i promise. i swear. i do think youâd have to get offline and stay offline though. because i know the fears of people who know you seeing a weight gain in you all too well. i had to literally stay out of sight from almost everyone i knew for a while when i was first recovering because i couldnât have them see me after iâd gained weight or it wouldâve triggered me.
so please, if you need to, if you want to, get offline. runaway from all of this and find yourself without your eating disorder. because you ARE more than your eating disorder and it is possible for you to recover. so please, go for it, recover. you CAN do it i promise. we want you to. weâve been here all these years and weâre still here now. you. can. do. this.
youâll have ups and downs and relapses but you have to keep pushing even when you fail, even when you donât think you want to.
i love you. even though i donât know you in real life, i love you. youâre a person. youâre a good person, with a heart and beautiful smile and lovely personality. and you deserve to live freely and happily. like anyone else does. and i have love for you. i hope for the absolute best for you.
-Love, Precious âĄ
This is so beautifully written out and seriously explains the struggle exactly. From another person who struggled with anorexia for about 3 years until my mom caught on and got me help, I just want to say that this genuinely left tears in my eyes. Cause what you wrote was exactly my reality. I remember relapsing and making up a plan on how Iâd relapse as soon as I got out of the hospital because I thought they wouldnât still keep track on me, which they obviously did. And Iâm glad for it. Over time of being forced to eat and anti depressants helping I got better, I got friends and life just became brighter in a way it had never been before. When I felt genuine happiness in what was literal years it felt so great. And so strange, like I was actually happy, and that feeling motivated me so much to continue fighting, even though I relapsed sometimes because thatâs part of recovery. And Iâm just so happy how my life has turned out now. It feels amazing. Also sorry, I know this is extremely random coming from a person whoâs completely unknown so I hope I wonât bother you, but I donât know, what you wrote was just so touching and Iâm sorry if this inconveniences you
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Itâs a lovely sentiment, and I appreciate your effort, but evidently she has done too much damage and is past the point of return. Her body has probably already started eating her heart, and if she were to start gradually eating now, it would probably make her more sick.
Unfortunately at this point, itâs just a waiting game
Honestly hearing your tone of voice throughout this video without the high-pitched moments, hearing your genuine voice. . . Your actual conversational voice. . . The real you. . . It's been missed. . . We miss you Eugenia. . . A lot. . . We love hearing about how you're doing, what you're going through. . . And in a more normal seriousish kinda way. . . Where it's you actually trying to talk to us rather than at us. . . Idk how to explain it without it probably being taken the wrong way. . . Anyways. . . I love you Eugenia. . . I am beyond sorry about your grandma. . . I lost my dad and my aunt in April and then my uncle in August. . . I know the pain and the hurt. . . Talk about it and never be afraid to talk about it. No one. . . NO ONE decides your grief or how long you grieve or talk about it. . . Don't let anyone tell you they 'already heard'. . . đ you have absolutely every right to talk about her. . . Especially because a lot of times talking helps the process. . . I would love for you to have a storytime video telling us old stories about her and old memories. . . I think it would be beautiful đ„čđ
She's too far gone in her head Hun. She can't hear you. She's in wonderland in her child bubble. This was a nice comment though.
It's so wild to me that I started watching Eugenia when I was maybe 14. Since then, I've grown up and started a family and own a home, but Eugenia is exactly the same.
*Edit*
I think people are taking my comment the wrong way. I wasn't trying to say I'm more "successful" than Eugenia, she certainly has more wealth than me. I was simply marveling at how much my life has changed in these years and how she hasn't changed a bit.
There's no expectation of where someone should be at a certain age since everyone's journey is different. But yeah I've been watching her since I was 24 years old and now I'm 32. Feel like I've grown up with her in a weird way. Seriously doubt she could survive on her own regardless.
@@lucylastic666 Not at all, she's too mentally regressed.
@@lucylastic666and her seeing comments like this have done nothing for her over the years
good on you baby GOOD ON YOU and thats normal, thats life
Shes stuck developmentally , she presents as you get than she did seven years ago. The teddies, the bunches, the weightloss so she stays as small as possible. Theres a lot if trauma for Eugenia
All the experts have said that Eugenia would be the the ultimate success story if she recovered. Imagine all of the lives she could save. Imagine how much of a hero she could be.
Widderwally just imagine it guyzzâŠ
And what experts?
â@@MrsTessWrenLook it up
Its tragic she never will
LMAO "hero" give me a break. Stop being so cheesy. And what 'experts'? What is your source for that? đ Eugenia is too far gone and clearly doesn't want to help herself. She knows exactly what she's doing. Her condition brings in the traffic and she must be raking it in đ°đ°đ° why would she want to stop?
Is she "recovered" than people would lose interest in her đ it's a simple gimmick. She knows the shock factor draws in the viewers
I'm sorry for all of the things I've said in anger and frustration towards you. I hope you're okay Eugenia.
Sheâs not okay! Sheâs knocking on deathâs door and doesnât give a crap that sheâs dying!
â@RubiCol-sd5bp your comment isn't going to help her
â@@RubiCol-sd5bpdid that comment make you feel better?
@@RubiCol-sd5bp you donât know what she does or doesnât give a crap about.
@@RubiCol-sd5bpthat maybe so but honestly your comment doesnât help
Have you ever thought that she does what she does because something bad has happened to her
My friend had an eating disorder she has worked her way through but it was due to abuse in the family she had a mother who was controlling and abusive
You wouldnât have thought it to meet the mom she seem sweet and a perfect mother but when my friend was alone with her she was hell
The father abused her in other ways and my friend who had no control in her life developed an eating disorder
Has anyone thought that this woman has been through something traumatic and is block it out by doing what she does?
My friend also would act very young for her age she is 24 like me but acts like 15/16
Losing someone is really hard. Iâm sorry about your grandma. Whatever anyone says about how you âshouldâ act while mourning donât listen everyone deals with it differently. Itâs beautiful to see you being authentically you despite the pressure that some people put on you to be constantly positive. Life is not always positive and itâs okay to not feel perfect all the time.
I owe you an apology Eugenia. Iâm sorry Iâve been unkind to you. I thought I was giving you tough love and I hoped that would help you. But I went too far and vented my fear and frustration at you. Iâm so sorry. Sending you loads of love.â€
of herbs and altars gang
@@danaxo8097i came from that vid too!
@@danaxo8097 just came from there too
More of this please!! It can only hurt Eugenia if you are unkind, it wont change anything. No I'm wrong, hating causes harm - to the person it's directed too. @loz6702 I commend you.
dont care i make superior better contentt than Eugenia Cooney
All these clickbait titles and itâs really just her doing her makeup for more viewsâŠâŠ..
Sheâs an influencer⊠that is literally her job..
I came here from herbs and alters... as someone who has had to "choose" to live, I want to say that life is fucking hard and ultimately it's your choice to continue. You've been through so much for someone so young and I wish you love and peace whether that be in this life or the next. You deserve peace my lovely â€
Saying itâs her choice to life isnât helpful for mentally ill people because it fuels on their negative thoughts. Itâs like someone shows suicidal thoughts then you say itâs their choice to continue. A person in a dark place would choose the âeasyâ way out, or at least feel encouraged by those words.
@@angel_animefriends7320 I hear what you're saying but I have severe suicidal ideation due to a number of reasons and you do have to choose to live. It's hard when the darkness takes over and I'm extremely lucky in a way as I have a beautiful daughter and she is my sole reason I fight as hard as I do to remain here but if not for her I wouldn't want to be here. So yes I hear what you're saying and maybe I've put things in an over simplified manner but she does have a choice whether she realises that or not is a different thing. Saying that she is rapidly approaching the point at which that choice is being taken from her. Sending love â€
Sadly, all of you are just giving her the attention that she is looking for down in this comments section and with the views. You want her to get better? Then stop commenting and watching..... The money she makes living on CZcams in this fantasy world allows her to not face reality. I check in every once in a blue moon to see if she is still doing this or getting any better. She isn't, and she won't because you all keep giving her what she wants, and a reason to keep doing it. Unfortunately, this disease often develops in girls seeking attention, good or bad. You keep giving it to her and you keep giving her the money to keep living like this.
That one looks like lesbian Dracula..
She's not really that young, though. I remember 4chan posting about her in like 2011 lmao
They were super weird about it. Glad I left and never came back.
I have been in similar shoes just different feet. Confined to the bedroom, no person filling the jigsaw puzzle, words falling not on deaf ears but muffled ones, feeling in a crowded room, tight and alone. Iâve been in your shoes, just different feet, not a single thing people said spoke to how I feel, wanting control of anything because I truly felt I had control of nothing, and when you find you have no control you will make a table where you do, even if it hurts you. The silver jagged, the table uneven and moving; but at least it was mine and I had control. I have been in your shoes, but different feet. Iâve been locked away praying for the escape, only thinking of scenarios with this freedom, how much it would feel so good, only to repeat history except now Iâm afraid of locked doors instead of open ones. Sure, theyâd let me in and maybe itâd even help for a while. But to be stuck in a facility is scarier sometimes then stuck in pain, because at least the pain is expected, being hospitalized always ends different. New problems emerge and I find more ways I donât have control all over again. I have been in your shoes, but different feet. And I finally bought new shoes. I may not drive, but I have friends now who give me rides, and they openly tell me they donât get it but god will they listen. My new shoes have nice installs, Iâm more comfortable now and I can walk to work with a smile, because now I get control over money. I donât go online anymore in these shoes, and if I do I donât really care what people think. I do it for me. These new shoes are so strong I havenât been locked up in a while, I have a therapist who checks out the old ones only to show me what was wrong, and to compare to my new ones. Our eyes pop out because we donât get how my feet werenât torn to shreds. I am in crowds sometimes still, but I never feel alone anymore, and not bc Iâve bonded with the people in the crowd, but because I can finally see as long as Iâm with myself Iâm not alone. I donât hate myself anymore to the point Iâd do anything to hurt me & control me & control the world around me. I got rid of those shoes, and esp the people who let me wear them so long. I got rid of anyone who tried to take the shine out of my new shoes. And I finally feel capable.
All Iâm saying is, itâs possible to change. Time isnât always on our side. Sometimes the only way to get control is to admit out loud you never had it begin with. I sit at tables with friends now. I threw out everything I knew. You are worth saving. You are worth a new pair of shoes. Shoes isnât shoes though. Itâs life. Youâre worthy of a new life. And itâs scary, so scary. But time isnât promised always. But you can always begin to put on a brand new pair of shoes.
Beautifully spoken. Thank you for your inspiration.
Hi Eugenia, I came here from OfHerbsandAltersâ video about you and I wanted to let you know you are loved. I hope youâre able to find peace whether thatâs online or offline.
Iâm so sorry for your loss and I hope youâre able to heal with time. I really hope you do something that makes you happy at least once a day. Itâs ok to be âselfishâ and put yourself first. Youâre incredibly talented and I can tell doing your makeup soothes you in some way.
Anyways, all love đ€
Me too, love ofherbsandalters â€
Same. Hope Eugenia watches her video and knows people care.
dont care i make superior better contentt than Eugenia Cooney
@@ville__not a single person cares đđ»
@@myeruexcept for the comment you are looking at rn but ok sure weirdo đ
You donât have to apologize for talking about your grandma, talk about her as much as you feel â€
She talked more about jeffree star then her grandma
She's going to be dead soon and it's people like you who encouraged it who are the problem. What are you gonna say when her lack of eating kills her? You gonna feign surprise and act like you didn't see it coming all the while people like you reinforce this mental illness.
"YASS GURL! U DO U" đ€Ą
â@@LailaQwhy you come her and bully her? She cant talk whatever she wants. Go get a life.
@@LailaQ Is she supposed to info dump about someone close to heer that recently passed away? Are you fucking dense or what?
@@LailaQit doesnât mean she doesnât care about her grandma. Sometimes it hurts to talk about them.
I am a mother, and I feel like I want to hold you in my arms, tell you everything is gonna be ok.. sweet soul đ
I also just have to point out how incredible it is that after all the hate you get, all the negative videos people have made about you, you have never once gone after a single person in any kind of mean or negative way. Never. That is insane. Even the nicest of people would have lost it at some point and attacked the attacker. That genuinely speaks to how kind a person you really are with such a great heart.†That speaks volumes about the kind of person you really are.
Muchđ
Please do some research. She is far from kind.
She clickbaits with video titles which make it look like she is going to address her eating disorder but doesn't.
She trolls with posts as if it's all a joke.
She creates controversy for attention.
She edits her photographs to appear even more emaciated in order to gain views.
She shares public body checks when she knows that her audience consists primarily of young impressionable people inluding many with eating disorders who are harmed by her behaviour.
She accuses her only true friends of committing a crime against her when they were trying to save her life.
She supports abusers because they enable her and create more views.
She promotes racists because they send her free items.
She excuses admiration for Hilter.
She told someone she would assault them with a sex toy.
She gets paid to perform for men who fetishise her.
She flashes intentionally and repeatedly in front of an audience she knows contains children.
She makes sexually suggestive content while wearing clothes emblazoned with children's cartoon characters in a room filled with toys and other objects appealing to kids.
She defended multiple convicted sexual predators and paedophiles because they were working for her, and instead of protecting her fans she dismissed them and victim blamed.
She acts as if all the concern for her welfare is an attack on her.
She deflects and gaslights and refuses to acknowledge her actions and accept accountability.
She only addresses what she has done when the consequences affect her.
She is manipulative and passive aggressive.
She plays the victim, acts innocent and tries to fool everyone into seeing her as a poor little girl when she is a grown woman who knows exactly what she is doing.
The hate isn't aimed AT her, it's coming FROM her.
She is too busy not eating to pay attention to any hate
Sheâs gone after me before and multiple other people
The thing is the haters aren't haters. Their people who are so concerned that they use insults to try and get her to wake up. Speaking of experience.
There is no time limit on grief... My mom passed in 2007 and i still grieve... my step son passed in 2017 and we still grieve... Don't ever let someone tell YOU how to grieve.
ur mom passed before i was born
Well said.
My dad died 20 years ago. At the time it was harsh but I grieved and then put it behind me. I had a new sense of grief a couple of years ago now, because you see life go by and you can truly miss the person they would have been to you as you go through your life without them. There is no shoulder to lean on, so to speak.
@@juliaskagfjord6207 there isnt a right or wrong way to grieve either... i dont cry about my mom or Lucas anymore, but i definitely get that ache in my chest and wonder how different things would be...
i believe we will see them again one day though đ«
True.. there are different ways to grieve especially if we want to cope to survive everyday
People really care about you , Eugenia. No matter what, there are people who understand without judgement. I hope you remember this â€ïž
Sadly, all of you are just giving her the attention that she is looking for down in this comments section and with the views. You want her to get better? Then stop commenting and watching..... The money she makes living on CZcams in this fantasy world allows her to not face reality. I check in every once in a blue moon to see if she is still doing this or getting any better. She isn't, and she won't because you all keep giving her what she wants, and a reason to keep doing it. Unfortunately, this disease often develops in girls seeking attention, good or bad. You keep giving it to her and you keep giving her the money to keep living like this.
Sorry to hear about the loss of your grandma, I'm still sad about losing mine years ago, because she was such am amazing presence in my life. Take your time grieving, it's different for everyone and your feelings are natural.
The problem is you have a massive influence on the younger generations being an social media influencer. And by acting like nothing is wrong. Its a dangerous thing.
People are only responsible for themselves. If this is what she chooses to do, that is HER business. Hopefully she gets the help she needs, but the reality is sheâs doing what she feels is best for her. So she doesnât see anything wrong. Thatâs why itâs a disorder. She feels sheâs fine. Saying this type of stuff DOESNT help and sheâs not RESPONSIBLE for younger generations. Younger generations are going to do what they WANT to do. Everybody in life isnât perfect. That is the thing generations understand. Iâm sure you were a child once and saw some things that just wasnât right. If you had no desire to do so, you didnât do it. . Cut this younger generation stuff out. People only say that as a cover up for their prejudices and biases.
@@demetria4339 that's all I think đđ»đđ»đđ»
I weighed barely 40kg at my lowest. I was miserable, isolated, frail, sick, weak. I havenât weighed myself in years because I donât care to anymore. I went up a few clothes sizes, but I am full of energy and my skin glows again. Recovery is so much more rewarding than giving up â€ïž
Thatâs great! Congratulations. Iâm happy for you đ„ł đ
I'm so happy for you †I'm glad you feeling better now. Congrats on not giving up, that must have been difficult at first but you made it đ
Congrats âŁïžđđ»
Me too, 40kg at my lowest and after recovering my skin is glowing and I look so much younger and more energetic, overall so much happier, I smile 24/7 and Iâm so grateful to be alive!! â€ïž Recovery is possible! If anyone whoâs struggling is reading this, just know that you can do this! Baby steps is all it takes. Itâll be hard in the beginning and youâll want to give up and go back to the âana comfortâ but donât give in! Keep pushing and I promise at some point it wonât be so hard and one day youâll look back and realize how bad things truly were. I believe in youâ€ïž
Yâall are scaring me, I weight 40kg too but Iâm healthy I mean Iâve never thought something was wrong with me Iâm kind of scared now
You can grieve however you feel †you donât have to apologize for how you grieve. From talking about her to being sad and even doing things that make you happy :) Iâm sure your grandma would be happy to see you doing things that make you happy rather than sitting around and getting sad. I donât think youâre just trying to get attention, youâre just explaining yourself :) Take care and youâre so talented!
I'm truly sorry to hear of the passing of your grandmother. Losing someone so close to you is a difficult thing. Sending healing vibes to you & your family.
Hi Eugenia! I just wanted to send love your way. Grief is never an easy thing to go through and I appreciate and respect the time you put in to make these videos even when you're going through something that hard. I remember when my Grandma passed a few years ago and it hit me so hard I still can't really put it into words. We're here to support you - take as much time as you need! We love you đ
Sadly, all of you are just giving her the attention that she is looking for down in this comments section and with the views. You want her to get better? Then stop commenting and watching..... The money she makes living on CZcams in this fantasy world allows her to not face reality. I check in every once in a blue moon to see if she is still doing this or getting any better. She isn't, and she won't because you all keep giving her what she wants, and a reason to keep doing it. Unfortunately, this disease often develops in girls seeking attention, good or bad. You keep giving it to her and you keep giving her the money to keep living like this.
â@@fionavictoria88one day we all will reap what we sow.... We will be judged as we have judged others. I hope that you realize this. Sick people are sick. I pray that you find it in you to have some compassion in your heart because you could face illness or misfortune too. Would you rather have compassion shown towards you or judgement????
Honey, people are rooting for you. People understand what you're going through - what you've dealt with. Not the people in the comments demonizing you, fetishizing you.
I think you are amazing, I think you are so resilient. You are still here, and I'm so proud of you. Eugenia, you are worth it. It is worth it to stick around. I wish I could hug you, tell you everything will be okay.
I hope you spend some time doing the things you love, that have no fear involved.
If she knew she was worth it, she wouldn't do this to herself and others. No amounts of comments will change anything.
Sadly, all of you are just giving her the attention that she is looking for down in this comments section and with the views. You want her to get better? Then stop commenting and watching..... The money she makes living on CZcams in this fantasy world allows her to not face reality. I check in every once in a blue moon to see if she is still doing this or getting any better. She isn't, and she won't because you all keep giving her what she wants, and a reason to keep doing it. Unfortunately, this disease often develops in girls seeking attention, good or bad. You keep giving it to her and you keep giving her the money to keep living like this.
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She is an INFLUENCER with a lot of preteen and teenage followers. She needs to be banned from TikTok before she causes young people to do what shes doing or pushes recovering anorexics to relapse!
@@fionavictoria88 literally the first time I've checked on her in a year, and I'm a recovered anorexic...but go off...
I'm so sorry about your grandma Eugenia, I lost mine over the pandemic and grief is NOT easy. Sending you so much love.
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I am truly sorry for your loss.
Eugenia, please please please get help. You seem like such a beautiful and lively person and the world isnât ready to loose you. We want you here, healthy and happy.
Iâm sorry people have made support for you so conditional. Iâm reading comments that say, âremember when you were getting better and had support and everyone was on your side? You could have that all again if you do what we want you to do.â Thatâs what theyâre really saying. We shouldnât be withholding support from anyone, especially not someone so sweet and kind and vulnerable, someone who happens to be in great need of support, just because theyâre not getting better on our timeline. If we care about people, we have to be willing to be supportive and at the very least kind and respectful even if we think that person isnât doing what we want them to do when we want them to do it. Because first of all, we donât even know if Eugenia is taking steps to get help for her disorder guys. We donât know really know what goes on behind the scenes. She could very well be working on getting treatment or she could be in some type of treatment that we arenât aware of. But more importantly, it doesnât really matter if sheâs getting treatment behind the scenes or working on it or not when it comes to how we decide to treat her. If we think sheâs in as much danger as we think she is, why not extend kindness to her? Like itâs gotta be scary to be as sick as she is and extremely isolating to have people tearing you apart for it. We could try helping her by just being kind to her. It would make a world of a difference. No one can make anyone do something theyâre not ready to do. And eating disorders are addictions and they are diseases. And when an addict is not ready to get sober, it doesnât matter how many times you throw them in a rehab, until they want to get better they wonât stay sober. Thatâs just how diseases of this nature work. It obviously isnât doing any good to bully this poor girl and idk why anyone wouldâve ever thought that was a good idea in the first place. I guess bullies donât care if itâs a bad idea tho, because theyâre bullies. Theyâre just mean because theyâre mad about their own lives. And for those who think âtough loveâ is the way to get someone to make a change, that clearly doesnât work and why would we want to risk saying something mean or hurtful to someone who is in such fragile health. You will regret that someday even if you donât now. Stop being mean to the girl. Sheâs very sick. She really needs help and love and kind words and support. She needs people to say positive, hopeful words to her, not cruel, mean-spirited comments from people in your online community. If at the very least we take one burden off of her by getting rid of the cruelty and over-analyzing of her every move, this woman will have so much room to breathe, that she might very well choose to get herself help because she has thousands and thousands of people giving her love and kind words, reminding her of why she is worthy of seeking help. If you notice how apologetic she is constantly, well it seems to be a severe anorexic thing, but itâs also a thing that people with extremely low self esteem or self worth do, people that have been bullied or traumatized so much that they apologize for their existence. Itâs heartbreaking to watch, and I think has so much to do with all of the negativity she receives. She is constantly anticipating what someone could rip apart and have a problem with, as sheâs speaking and apologizing before she can even finish her sentence. Itâs painful to watch and we should try to make her feel more comfortable and more safe to be herself and speak more openly and not over-analyze every little thing she says and does. Sheâs internalized it so much and itâs only fueling her eating disorder. All of the negativity does that. And thatâs all it does. It fuels this womanâs illness and that is not okay. She deserves respect just as much as someone who is not struggling publicly, and I think she is strong and brave for staying online in the face of so much scrutiny about her looks and disorder. I couldnât do it. I donât think that many could. Luckily sheâs still here and we can try to change the narrative and give her an outpouring of love. It might even lead her to make the change we all want her to make and to get real help. And even if it doesnât, it will lead to her being happier and in turn, that much healthier, and that much more whole, and everyone deserves that. Itâs the least we owe her. Some peace. Sheâs so sweet to her viewers and has given us years of fun and creative content. Sheâs a cool person and has contributed so much to the CZcams community. Letâs focus on that stuff and send her good wishes guys. This is serious and we should be kind, or just not say anything at all.
The Selena video is terrifying. Please get help.
This was truly the FIRST TIME I SEEN YOU. THE REAL YOU. I LOVE YOU!!!! THE REAL YOU!!! YOU ARE ENOUGH!!! BE A HERO AND GET BETTER BABY DOLL! FOR GRANDMA!!!
PRAY FOR EUGENIA !!!
Eugenia's personality actually really comes through in this one, I love to see her just say whatever she's thinking. Whether the positivity is forced or it's real optimism, she shines bright either way!
Praying for Eugenia, because we need bright, beautiful people like her
Yeah she even talks more grown up.
A hero?!?! đđđđđđ
@@kittykixbootieThat's what I said. Yes. A Hero. If she got better and recovered she could and WOULD save many lives.
Your grandma would hate to see you go down this ED path that you've been on. Don't let her down. It's pathetic to be SO stuck on being this skinny when there's so much more to life. You're an adult, move out - get new hobbies and find genuine friends. You're worth more than anorexia - you're beautiful, why waste your life? Seriously, Eugenia. Don't let your grandma down - don't let yourself down.
Dorian from Herbs and Alters did a video about Eugenia that all the hater trolls ahould watch. Kindness and compassion is what Eugenia needs. â€
Hi Eugenia,
I hope this reaches you. I just wanted you to know that you have a beautiful heart and a beautiful soul. Iâll admit, I first started watching your content out of curiosity. Your name has generated a lot of buzz through the years. But, I stayed around because of who you are as a person. I love how excited you get, even if itâs something as simple as an oil diffuser. You have a way of making things seem more magical. Itâs refreshing to see things as you see them. Youâre kind. Youâre so, so kind. This world can be dark. I know youâve experienced cruelty. But, youâve never spread that darkness. You donât push it on to other people. Youâre a light, Eugenia. Youâre a light that I, sincerely, hope continues to shine. Although, I understand if this world is too much. As Dorian from Of Herbs and Altars stated today, I hope you can put down the camera, travel, and see the places you always wanted to visit. Thereâs a whole world out there waiting to meet you, Eugenia - and Iâm not talking about the people. Take care of yourself (as best you can). Be gentle and kind to yourself, Eugenia. You do this for everyone else. Donât forget to do it for yourself. Go on an adventure! Much love to you, Eugenia. There are so many out here rooting for you! đ©·đžâš
I love this comment! You are stating the truth. She is absolutely so precious and people suck and are hateful. Who in their right mind would talk to people the way they do on her comments? What is WRONG with people? How can they be so heartless towards anyone, not only her? If they say these things to Eugenia, how do you think they talk to people near them? They are the bullies that I enjoyed slapping as hard as I could in high school. My hand burning so bad for minutes afterward. I just can't believe how cruel many people are.
Please do some research. She is far from kind.
She clickbaits with video titles which make it look like she is going to address her eating disorder but doesn't.
She trolls with posts as if it's all a joke.
She creates controversy for attention.
She edits her photographs to appear even more emaciated in order to gain views.
She shares public body checks when she knows that her audience consists primarily of young impressionable people inluding many with eating disorders who are harmed by her behaviour.
She accuses her only true friends of committing a crime against her when they were trying to save her life.
She supports abusers because they enable her and create more views.
She promotes racists because they send her free items.
She excuses admiration for Hilter.
She told someone she would assault them with a sex toy.
She gets paid to perform for men who fetishise her.
She flashes intentionally and repeatedly in front of an audience she knows contains children.
She makes sexually suggestive content while wearing clothes emblazoned with children's cartoon characters in a room filled with toys and other objects appealing to kids.
She defended multiple convicted sexual predators and paedophiles because they were working for her, and instead of protecting her fans she dismissed them and victim blamed.
She acts as if all the concern for her welfare is an attack on her.
She deflects and gaslights and refuses to acknowledge her actions and accept accountability.
She only addresses what she has done when the consequences affect her.
She is manipulative and passive aggressive.
She plays the victim, acts innocent and tries to fool everyone into seeing her as a poor little girl when she is a grown woman who knows exactly what she is doing.
The hate isn't aimed AT her, it's coming FROM her.
â@@faith4390 honestly it's sad but the majority of empathic people including myself attract a lot of narcissists in life they just hate happy people because they're always miserable constantly like id find little things exciting and they find them stupid because it is not going to give them attention or validation like a rolls Royce or a g wagon and they see Eugenia getting this attention and they start to bully her
This is just not genuine, and not it... if your family and yourself really need time to grieve, why are you also plugging your tiktok in this video and streaming there every day... This is just... weird. Odd. Not right. You actually have no shame anymore.
We care about you Eugenia†Iâm sorry for your loss and I hope talking about it helped you. Youâve been so kind on the internet for years and youâre such a sweet soul. Sending you lots of love and light â€â€
YOU DIDNT ADDRESS HER MENTAL&HEALTH ISSUE
Wow thatâs such an incredibly sweet and wonderful gift that your family was able to give your grandma by laying her to rest at her home with the love of her life â„ïž and on their 70th anniversary too. Thatâs amazing â„ïž sending you and your family lots of love. Canât imagine how hard things have been for you. Keep your head up Eugenia đ xoxoxo
youâre a beautiful soul, eugenia. countless people love you and see how kind and strong you are. you deserve a happy life
dont care i make superior better contentt than Eugenia Cooney
â@@ville__well no one cares about you
â@@ville__ ur more delusional then Eugenia cooney
@@ville__nobody is watching ur videos buddy
Everyone just watches to see if she's still alive. Her fan base enabled this and supports it rather than telling her to get the help she needs. How much longer you think she has before her body gives out?
I lost my grandma in 2020. It still hurts. I'm wearing one of her rings today. Grief isn't linear. One thing I have learned in my ED treatment and CPTSD therapy is not to "should on myself" so allow yourself to be a human. If you're feeling sad, that's normal. Try not to feel like you need to be "on" all the time. Easier said than done. Love to you.
Very glad you got help. Stay strong. đ
She will never even take a break
Glad you did get help though â€
I lost my grandma in 1994 and I am wearing her ring too đ©·
Hey Eugenia, Iâd just like to take a moment to tell you how much of a difference you made for me. Iâm going to be 20 in a few weeks and Iâve watched you every since I was little. I always loved to watch you because of how whimsical and sweet you are. Not to mention emotional intelligence and smart. You have made me think about my mental health and given me joy in life. I love your TikToks. Honestly you have saved me from a lot of pain that you have went through. Ever since I was 13 I was on the verge of developing anorexia. Yet when I saw how you struggled everyday because of your starvation I got myself help. Iâm so sorry for all that you have went through. I cannot even imagine how hard it must have all has been. You donât have to keep pushing yourself to be online. You have done so much already for everyone. I cannot ever repay you for preventing me from becoming sick. You deserve to have the rest of your life to relax and enjoy. You deserve happiness and to relax. Iâve almost died because of my mental health and been on my deathbed from depression. Itâs a horrible experience I would not wish on anyone. If youâre to mentally sick to go on and canât get help I understand and wish you well. Iâm not going to tell you what to do because I do understand your situation as I have serious chronic depression. Itâs ok. If you do want to fight there are programs to help you but not take away all your autonomy. Do what you feel is best. Just know I and many others are thankful we got to see you.
I see a lot of kind and understanding comments here. That's wonderful and just exactly what she needs. She's palliative now. Let's all be super to her.
It's time for compassion or silence.
Itâs not uncommon to have a âdelayedâ burial or memorial- someoneâs passing is personal to you because grief is personal. Others that have gone through that should understand and those who donât should get some empathy.
Take care. â€â€â€
EugeniaâŠI'm so sorry this illness has you in such a chokehold.
I'm sorry your family doesn't do more to help you get better. You deserved so much more than this life has given you. Praying for you.
You deserve love and happiness. You deserve to have people in your life that care about you. You deserve and need help. You deserve all good things in life and to EXPERIENCE IT!! We care & we are with you.
I hope you recover and I hope you can share your journey someday with us. We would love that for you. Trust me!
I don't think your comment would help her, bc actually she has the best medical help she want, and never talk to someone like her (and me) ab this, we hate this
This is about her grandmother
đđ·đ There is no rules on grieving. đą be gentle and kind to yourself.
You are an amazing makeup artist.
@hakuguichard way to make it about yourself. đđ.
â@hakuguichard No. I agree with the original poster of this comment period this is something Eugenia needs to hear no matter how hard it may be. You say she has the best medical help?⊠yet she's wasting away before everyone's eyes, and it's so bad that people are petitioning CZcams and other social media platforms to remove her Al together because she has single-handedly played a role in multiple deaths with other people who have e d's who are striving to look like her. The faCT that u r Even defending her and trying to protect her from comments that are just put out there out of love and concern.... That in and of itself is concerning. do you just want her to live in dululand until she passes? You may not like hearing the facts. But 1 day you're gonna have to face them. And you're gonna have to answer for them.
I want you to know that you've been beautiful inside and out since birth . You've never had to be anyone but you to be loved and liked by the whole world . I truly wish you all the best Eugenia and whatever you choose to do... thank you for the kindness you've shown others throughout your lifeâ€
an apology is due, Iâve been deterred from watching you because of what other people said, but this is the first full video Iâve ever watched by you. Youâre funny and sweet, and I was definitely a total sheep. Iâm sorry for your loss my grandfather passed away at that time too, and I really hope you have a wonderful life. Iâll definitely be watching closely â€ïž
No one had a problem with your grieving process until you started to pretend like you was dying on stream with Rich Lux just three days after your grandmas death. Guess weâll just pretend that didnât happen?đ€·đ»ââïž
Girl you havenât been on here cause youâve been on TikTok every damn day. Itâs really not deeper than that
I dunno about Jeffree Star being an amazing person...? But if you love his makeup im glad it makes you happy.â€
Experiencing a death of a loved one is never easy, and you are more than entitled to handle it and speak about it in any way you want. Don't listen to anyone who tells you you've been grieving too long, its absolutely no one else's business but your own.â€
Maybe having a holiday or doing something you've always wanted to do would be a great idea. Its times like this that you think about how short life really is, and the most important thing is to live a life that gives you the greatest joy. You're such a kind soul, i truly wish you the best.đ
As a jack skellington fan myself, I feel the need to inform you of some movie trivia you probably already know.
Have you seen the princess bride? It's one of my favorite movies. Anyways, the guy who plays the worst character, prince Humperdinck? Also Jack. Idk how that happened. Good range of acting I suppose. I hope you get a chance to see the princess bride!! It's got Carey Elwis, Robin Wright, Billy Crystal, Mandy Patinkin, and Andre the Giant.
Also, I'm sorry to hear about your grandma. Keep talking about her.
My grandparents died 20 plus years ago. I still miss them and love to remember them. There is no time limit on grief. Please do what you feel is right for you, always.
She purposefully did the Selena dance for shock value. She is joking around about it with some horrible man, planning on the next trolling video with a skeleton in the background. She knows exactly what she is doing
If it makes you feel less alone in your grief, my Grandma was my best friend and she passed in Dec 2022. She was cremated but we had a burial for her ashes on Sep 9, 2023. People are weird for attacking you burying your grandma later than whatâs considered âtraditionâ. Many cultures do many different things, hell I think some folks have funerals that last multiple days or even a week. Regardless, grief and the process involving after-death care are complicated. Everyone experiences it differently and thereâs no singular ârightâ way to handle it, donât listen to the people criticizing your expression of emotion, or lack thereof, or anything regarding your grandmaâs death. These things take time and you gotta have a lot of patience with yourself because the wound will reopen at least once after you think youâve healed. Give yourself grace and be gentle with your heart during this time, Iâm sending all of my love and as many hugs as I can virtually give đ
Have been following you silently for so many years now i canât keep count. You are incredibly kind, funny, and intelligent in the way you navigate your life on and offline. Watching this video of you doing your makeup, the only thing going through my mind (genuinely) was how pretty you are.
You arenât stupid , you know why all of these kind comments are coming through out of nowhere. Do not think that they are suddenly out of pity or a last ditch effort for people to feel better about themselves. I know for myself and many others, this is what I have always thought, but never allotted time to say.
You never know how much time you have left with ANYONE. Your mental struggles have unfortunately been exploited by everyone. You have been treated horribly by the world and it is clear you are tired. However you choose to live the rest of your life is up to you, just as your life up to now has been. The internet had no place to tell you any different. I hope you are doing whatever you love, and i believe that you ARE through CZcams , meeting people on TikTok, and fashion.
Eugenia, the world needs more people like you. You are kind and honest and have never let people stop you from living in the world in the only way that you could. I will always hope for someone like you in my corner, and as long as you are around in the world and in the public eye, i will always hope for your happiness as well.
I know this comment was for Eugenia but thank you for sharing it. It helped me a lot. đ Take care. Be good to yourself. đ
@@BrightElk i am so glad it resonated with you. Same to you. Your words also mean a lot đ«¶đ»
Everyone grieves in their own way. The coming to terms of losing someone you love, takes time. This needs to be done at your own pace. Not something to be rushed. Egenia, your Grandmother was lovely, may you fill the space she left behind with happy memories.
Eugenia grieved by simulating blow jobs on Tiktok, faking a seizure, and playing dead. She did all of these things a week after her grandma's funeral.
I agree!
*We need to loose weight and become like Eugenia Cooney ourselves !*
Guys, we're self-indulging in freak show by watching her videos. If we stopped watching, she would stop posting. Stop acting so self-righteous by pretending that you're watching her videos because you care about her. If you truly care about her, ignore her totally.
She's nothing but a freak show to us. We, humans, love a good freak show...
Please, eugenia ,if you see my comment, don't read it, PLEASEđđđđ. It's for any other people.
I suffered from anorexia during my life. Talking about beaty, even in a good way, like " you're sooo beatiful" or ''i'm so ugly'' is the WORST thing to do. PLEASE DON'T do that.
You donât have to apologise for how you feel or behave as you grieve. Itâs devastating to lose those we love the most and we all handle that differently. As others have said, itâs okay to be selfish. Your talent with makeup is incredible. I hope you can heal with time. Lots of love and support â€
Burying your grandma with her husband on their anniversary was the most beautiful thing! I am so sorry for your and your families loss. Sending love! Especially to your mom! No matter your age itâs always hard to lose a parent! đ€đ€
I agree I cried hearing the story of what they choose to do, and on their anniversary â€ïž just beautiful â€ïž
Itâs ok to be sad about your grandma. She was a big part of your life xx
Sending you hugs and kisses xx
Yea if she keeps up her Ed she will see gma soon
â@@whitelight6621 you're evil for that bruh
@@mr.mclibtard5015yeah, this is a world of delusion not facts đĄ
@@whitelight6621â ïžâ ïž
â@@whitelight6621shut up pls it's not gona help
Eugenia, you are one of the most kindest people that I've came across the internet. I'm also one that came from the "OfHerbsAndAltars" video. You're make up skills are amazing and I love your sense of style. I'm sorry for the loss of your grandma... I've lost both of mine and it's really hard to grieve. I hope you can feel that you can take time to grieve and you don't need to apologize about the ways you need to help you feel better. We all love you, Eugenia. You're an inspiration, not only with your amazing personality but as well as your spirit. Please take your time and I hope you take your time whether its online or offline. You deserve amazing things. :) You're a sweet girl. â„
I'm sorry your grandmother passed away. I hope the happy memories you and your grandmother made together helps you through this difficult time. â€
Sponsored by Jeffrey StarâŠ.
Lmao right, so bizarre
" I miss Grandma but this Jeff Starr eye palette makes me feel better"!
I'm truly sorry about your loss. I wish you could see how sad everyone would be if they lost you. Please take care of your body at least as much as your skin.
dont care i make superior better contentt than Eugenia Cooney
Grief does not have a stop date. It takes time. Different for us all.
@@susieturk1 Never said anything about the grieving process. Only self care.
it's really lovely to hear you talk about your grandma passing actually. I know it's sad and hard to talk about but it's nice to know more about you and your life. it feels nice to connect with you in a sense haha. my nan passed about two years ago now and I love her so much. it still upsets me that she's gone. I still think about her a lot. I miss her so much but I'm glad she's no longer in pain. It's okay to get emotional and to grieve, allow yourself to relax and process this. I didn't allow myself to cry until the funeral of my nan and I was a MESS. I blocked the emotions out and then at the funeral the emotions all came up. i was sobbing. I still cry sometimes because I wish i had more time with her. love you nan
It's never easy to lose someone you love. I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma. Everyone grieves in different ways, there is no wrong way to go about it or a time limit to how long it takes to recover. I am glad you took some time off, and I hope you are remembering to be gentle to yourself and prioritize your happiness now that you're ready to be back. Sending some love your way â€ïž
I wonât even bother with your clickbait titles. You need to leave social media and go save yourself.
You didnt address what your extended family said to you at the burial. Im sure they were disturbed by your appearance.
Wait what did they say
Prolly thought a mummy was walking around
I pop in to see how you are doing periodically. My heart goes out to you and I pray that you will be able to heal. No judgement from me, just a genuine desire to see you getting better. Seeing your struggle breaks my heart and I really hope you are able to get the love and professional support you need to get better.
Iâm just gonna say this now if this girl passes away all yâall in these comments being horrible saying nasty things about her are gonna have to wear that guilt on ur neck for the rest of ur life so please just try to be kind sheâs obviously struggling and her grandma just died be gentle with this person please
You left to play on TikTok.
Like so many others, I came from Of Herbs and Altars' video and I wanted to share my thoughts with you. When I was younger I tried to tough love someone out of suicide, and while by strategy had worked, my words to them destroyed our friendship. I was a child and stupid, and since I've learned that tough love and harsh words don't snap people out of their dark place, it pushes them into a different place, but not for the better.
You are a talented individual, a kind soul and you deserve to beat the demons of your past away and live a life of happiness and love and light. I have no right to plead for you to get better, I have no right to tell you what to do, but I will be here silently hoping for the best. To see you be that brilliant dark star that you are and surpass everyone's expectations - to shock us and amaze as as you pull through. As you are right now, it looks impossible in my eyes. But I believe in miracles, I believe in destiny and fate, and I believe your story still has many pages left to tell...
May happiness find you, no matter what happens đ
beautifully said
Yes â€â€â€â€ to all of this â€â€â€â€
She won't change anything about herself and she's only giving her young audience eating disorders. Stay in your fandom and stop acting like this is ok.
If she recovers now it would be a monumental and historical marvel of human tenacity. Her story would stay for decades as a recovery story to help those suffering see how hard it is for someone to know they're good enough to get help and to fight for life, health and happiness
@@MellowJelly she won't
Grieving comes in waves you take as long as you need! I cried a year after my grandmother passed on Christmas cus I got some of her things and all the memories came flooding back. đ
Just came from Of Herbs and Alters channel and if you havent i implore you to watch her video. Both you Eugenia and her fans and haters. Its a video of deep empathy and i think it touches the heart of this situation. I wish you the best Eugenia and hope you make the most of your time left on earth however long it may be. I would implore you to take the advice herbs and alters offered and get offline and just do whatever is left on your bucket list. I hate to be morbid but this is just the reality things. Take care Eugenia â€
With Eugeniaâs channel recently being showcased on news networks because of the large amount of people calling for her channel to be taken down due to her parading/ glamorizing her ED, in my opinion this video is 100% deflection. She is changing the subject and at the same time eliciting sympathy. And.. she knows how her Selena short started the recent back lash.. so it was interesting when she called it âone of her best videosâ
Rich Lux told her that bad publicity and controversy equals success. He said you know you're successful when you have haters. He's a warped idiot trying to make a fool out of her. It's too bad she trusts people like him and thinks he's a friend. That TikTok was all his idea. Yes, she had a choice not to but she trusts too easily sometimes and people like Rich take advantage of that.
This!
Does she have no manager? What about her attorney that was in the video with Shane Dawson or Shane Dawson himself? Or Jeffree Star?
It breaks my heart that there is NO ONE around her that loves her enough to say, you've got to get help. It appears that everybody around her is just "loving her to death."
It is nice to see her do some content about things of substance. And actually hearing her talk as a normal person.. especially without being completely distracted by her clothing. This video actually has depth to it.
Itâs absolutely a deflection, shocking to see how many people are actually falling for this nonsense
I didn't see her channel being showcased on the news. Where was that? I'm glad it's getting the attention it needs. Her channel on all the platforms need to have age restriction IMHO.
You didn't leave though? I mean, you took a very quick hiatus right after your grandma died, but that was months ago. You've been posting non-stop on social media since then.
She's lying and manipulating.
For some reason, the CZcams algorithm popped up with OfHerbsAndAltars video. Iâve heard of you, and seen your videos before. Iâm much older than you: I just turned 40. I never thought Iâd make it here. Iâve hadâŠlord, maybe 6 or 7 attempts to âopt outâ of life? I started with disorder eating when I was 10, and SI around the same time, and was severely anorexic by the time I was in my mid 20âs. I was adopted into a severely abusive family, but my grandma? (My fatherâs stepmother) She was the only person I was close to. I loved her so much.
My point? Grieve. Take time and mourn. And remember that she loved you as much as you love her, Iâm sure. Value your future. You are so, so young. I spent my life saying I wouldnât make it to ____ year, ____ age, but holy shit, I did. I have. I still struggle with mental illness, and a couple of genetic chronic autoimmune illnesses, and WOW is my life H A R D, butâŠ.and I never thought Iâd say this, butâŠEugenia, itâs worth it. It truly is. Life is a struggle. Life is hard. Life is full of bullshit, but itâs also full of these random spots of magic that will bring you to fucking tears and make you realize all the other shit was worth slugging through. Iâm proud youâve made it this far. Youâve accomplished so much. You can accomplish so much more, and you have a lot of people that do care, âparasocialâ be damned, and fuck all the haters. People do have compassion and DO genuinely have empathy.
Be you. Do you. Find all the things that bring you joy and embrace them. Find health. I promise you the future is worth it, even if you canât see it now. I used to be just like you, and Iâm so glad I struggled to turn off the voice. Itâs still there, itâs still a struggle, and it always be, but that beautiful heart and soul I see inside you is way worth it. Hugs and light to you. Iâm so sorry for the loss of your Grandma. By the way, I lost mine ten years ago, a couple of weeks before my oldest daughter was stillborn, and still cry over her, so never apologize for your grief. Grief comes in waves, and thatâs okay.
My Grandma finished raising me after my mom died when I was sixteen. Then my Grandma passed right after I turned 18. It was hard then. Itâs hard now. But itâs also healthy to talk about it. Donât internalize what other people say to you. You are NOT the things people say about you. Youâre a whole az person. You owe literally no one an explanation about how you grieve. Hope you find all the happiness in the world, sweet sister. Sending you so much love.
Every single person who comes here should be reporting her videos for promoting harmful behavior
Heey Geenie :) I don't know if you're gonna read this, but let me try... I just wanted to say, that you have so many people supporting you and caring about you. About you as a genuinly kind and good person. So many people are rooting for you, are thinking about you, sending you strength and love.
Sometimes our brains can make us believe, we are alone or not worthy, or other bad things.
But just let me tell you, If your brain is telling you that right now, your Brain is lying to you. I promise.
You are worthy, your are loved, you are important, you are brave and the world is a better place with you in it.
With all my love, sending you strength and positivity, Leena
We had a Grama in the house growing up. I was in my 20âs when she passed. I feel your pain. Iâm old now and it still hurts just as much. As for delaying burials⊠thatâs normal now. So many reasons. I love the reason and the date you guys picked for your Grama. I really loved seeing you interact with her on your videos.
My Mom and Dad passed within 8 months of each other and we had to delay each of their burials for reasons too. It re-opened the wounds. So I get it. Take as long as you need to grieve. You donât have to explain that to anyone. It never gets easier. It gets less intense. đđđ
Hugs from Buffalo NY đŠŹ
I lost my grandma last november, we were really close and it really affected my mental health, which is why the best advice I can give you is to just focus on your mental and physical health. Don't listen to rude people on the internet. You're so beautiful and so sweet, you deserve to live happy and healthy.
You've not been gone. You've been on Tik Tok. Praying for you to take control. Good luck.
She's always lying and manipulating people.
Literally. Iâm shocked at all these enablers. She really needs to take a real break, it might do her some good.
@@lucylastic666seriously! Iâve been skimming down the comments like tf am I reading hereâŠ. Noticing lots of people playing many sides. Calling out her BS and telling her to get off SM, now all the same telling her you go ahead and grieve, donât let anyone tell you how to grieve, poor little angel?
Thatâs the problem. She has too much control. She needs to let the control she has over this go
yall are acting like she didn't say that in the video
đ It's nice to see you being open and honest Eugenia.
One of the reasons I as a fan get frustrated with your content is that it seems like you put up this mask of "oh look how happy and perfect everything is" when you used to be a little sarcastic and sassy. Like when you got out of rehab you seemed more open and honest. I get there are things you don't want to talk abt but when you say things like "I don't know what you think you're seeing" or "sorry you feel that way" it really is a put off. Instead just be honest and say "this is something I don't want to talk abt". And please don't ever feel like you have to apologise for existing. Which is something you do a lot. It's OK to take up space. You don't have to constantly minimize yourself just to make everyone happy b/c even if you're the juiciest peach in the patch there will always be someone who doesn't like peaches. I hope one day you can be radically open a honest with your audience and tell us all how you really feel, why you turned to Ana for comfort to begin with and why you felt the need to put up a constant mask of "everything is fine" đ
Interesting username. ?
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thanks :)
I used to do beauty and makeup reviews and chose my username after joking with some friends on how long it takes to go though a bottle of nail polish. I keep it cos I usually post in the beauty community.
She doesn't give a crap how her viewers feel.
@@kellyfrancis1873Because she doesnât like actually know you.
This is a wonderful comment and I hope she sees this
I hope you can find a way to get through everything going on, its seriously tough stuff when it's family, just remember her and know that she loves you. The people who are kind are also wise, because we all go through these things at some point and all process things differently, some people don't even get sad feelings about a death for years and then feel guilty. We should just support each other,
You should know that if you ever wanted to just run away from everything, you pretty much have thousands of viewers who would take you in without a word and keep the world out just for you to have somewhere to feel better. I know that it would be too risky for you to take up anyone's offer like that so I hope you can just absorb some of that support through the screen and find a few people in your life to trust.
You have always seemed really open and generous, you're a total cute patootie, real Bubbles vibes †and so skilled with your eye makeup, oof. Always remember you are a person even at your worst and lowest moments, and you deserve to be here and be who you are just as much as anyone else â€
What your family did for the burial sounds lovely - it's really sweet that you're family followed her wishes. She will be missed â€.
I lost my grandma a couple of years ago and it was pretty hard on me. But I was able to compile a bunch of her pictures and memories and make a nice tribute to her and that seemed to help me.
She looks so old now.
Posts video about her dead granny, thumbnail is her pouting and posing...
my grandma left 21 years ago and I still cry. im sorry you feel like you can't express that hurt. love you
Eugenia, if you're there. I just want to say you're such a vibrant personality and you're very talented with your makeup. I genuinely wish you the best and brightest future.
Girl honestly. It's not the end of the world weighing 120 pounds. You have energy, you feel better, your hair looks better, you think clearer and are in a better mood. You need to stop thinking this is your only choice between being overweight
stop making her think this is ok
@@_something.in.the.way_153 I didnt
Even if she gained fifty pounds she would be nowhere near overweight. Itâs not even about her being scared to be overweight sheâs trying to be as skinny as physically possible no matter how close to death it brings her. She is afraid of ANY weightNo matter how much the quality of her life decreases.
@@rlemona4256 are you inside her head? Didn't think so
Wow, you're an enabler
People not wanting you online has nothing to do with your grandmother passing away. And everything to do with the fact that you are killing yourself. Youâre almost 30. Donât you want more for yourself and your life?
The best thing that you can do to honor your Grandma, is fight to stay alive. You can not keep going like this. You are such a beautiful young lady inside and out. Please stay alive đ„°
i beg you to seek help, i used to look like you eugenia around my lowest weight, when i looked like you my heart stopped, i was dead for just under a minute. thankfully i was already admitted to the hospital when i this happened. but i could have died, i would have if i'd not been there. i see so much of my old self in you and it hurts cus i know how hard it is. i still struggle, i will always struggle, but i refuse to let this kill me, i plead for you to get some help, im not fully recovered, you don't HAVE to fully recover before you're ready, but please just try to not die. i did die when i was around the same bmi. i was fortunate enough to be resuscitated, most aren't so. please. at least get a little bit out of the danger zone. please
Your grandma would've wanted you to recover
She's been on tik tok almost daily live taking "donations"/"gifts" tho.
Bingo
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I see you sometimes do video inspired by cartoons. Have you ever done a "Bluey" themed video? There's a big Bluey fanbase of adults who love the moral values and sweetness of the show. Maybe it could be fun to see you do some looks inspired by some of the characters? It might be a challenge since the characters are dogs but you are really creative and I bet you find a color scheme or inspiration in certain ones. Could be fun. It's a very uplifting and positive show with tons of good vibes.
Also, I just wish I could hug you Eugenia. I know you must be in a lot of pain right now. Iâm really terrified of losing my grandmother and I really empathize with how painful this must be. Iâm also so sorry youâve received so much toxic, over-analytical, mean-spirited, cruel bullshit and have been so heavily scrutinized and judged about your struggle while literally going through that struggle so intimately for so many years. I have so much respect for you for staying online in the face of so much negativity. I went through a severe eating disorder for 15 years and never thought Iâd get better. But somehow I am. Itâs pretty mind blowing for me to really think about but somehow I got completely better. And I promise itâs been a good thing! I promise that your body doesnât change as much as you think it will. I mean, it will at first. No one else will notice it but you will because the eating disorder and body dysmorphia are going to fight the introduction of nutrition to your body. The disorder will feel threatened and try ti fight back by making those distortions bigger and thoughts louder. But remember that only lasts for a little while. Your brain will start to heal when you start getting consistent nutrition and after a while you start to be more okay in this new body because you will feel better. You consistently follow your meal plan and donât engage in behaviors, which by this point will be something youâve learned to do and will be able to handle, it wonât be as terrifying as it is now. It wont be second nature yet but it will be like muscle memory and will be more routine and much less overwhelming. It wonât always be easy and more freedom will spur those thoughts of wondering how much you can get away with, but you will ultimately realize that you can get away with whatever you want with your disease but it will all only hurt you and keep you trapped. So you keep doing what you need to do. You follow the meal plan and you see your nutritionist and remain accountable and see your therapist and do your weigh ins with no weight manipulation and youâre honest about where your heads at and how youâre feeling and you are honest and tell on yourself if you used a behavior and you fight for yourself. And then one day you realize youâre not fighting so hard anymore because itâs become second nature and youâre feeling happy and you realize you eat what you want intuitively and you feel pretty good in your body. You realize you have this full life and you have friends and you get to do fun things you couldnât do before and you realize how grateful you are that you did this for yourself. That you fought so hard. Because you made it to the other side and have seen how good life can be when youâre letting yourself live it and youâre so proud of yourself for fighting to get yourself here. You fucking did it. And I believe you will reach that point. And since Iâve had that moment myself, Iâve definitely had some times where Iâve felt more uncomfortable with my body but the desire and compulsion to starve myself as a result has gone away. And I will say for the most part I feel good about my body. Once youâre healthy you can do fun things like swim and rollerblade and play soccer, things that keep you fit but are also fun and good ways to hang out with other people and keep you active and engaged. Which is just to say that when youâre healthy you actually have more control over how you take care of your body and how you nourish it, how you keep your body healthy, fit, strong. Right now, I know you probably donât even feel like you have control over your disease anymore bc it does look like you could be at that point. Idk that for sure tho. I just want u to know there are other ways out there to true control in your life. Ways that will enhance your life greatly and wonât harm you like this disorder has. You deserve to live a full life Eugenia. You deserve to be your age and go out with friends and have some drinks and get some food and have your own apartment in the city or have your best friend be your roommate. You can afford to do that, and it would make you so much happier. You donât have to stay at home and take care of your mother. Itâs ok to take care of yourself for a change. You donât have to financially support your family. And if you can afford to do both, great. Iâm sure you can not that Iâd recommend that u support them bc that doesnât seem fair. But thatâs up to you. I just don t think that should stop you from moving out and living your own life and building a new life for yourself. You can do that and stay on CZcams. No one is going to be angry or support u less if u get better and if there if some psycho out there who does we will go get him bc thatâs insane. I just really want u ti be happy and I want u to get to live the life you truly want. You deserve that and donât have to stay stuck or let this current life take u down. You can change the story. You can do whatever you want. The world is at your fingertips and all you have to do is decide that you want to give yourself the life you want and deserve, whatever that looks like to you, whether that means moving to Paris or New York or Berlin and become a raver and fall in love and get a really cute European apartment with your love and do ex-pay CZcams. You can do anything! I really hope you choose to live and to live fully. I promise life can be pretty magical and you can have that too. I wish you all the best Eugenia and send you all my love â€
Nope no weighing at all. Throw the sucker in to trash. Its not freedom to do the same things for a seemingly different reason. Nope. How can someone heal with using same tools that are used to do the contrary? Weight isn't important now. Its about being happy and able to do things. If anything in life consumes a person at a length that it takes joy and freedom and self away it is worth getting help for. Because life isn't supposed to be chaining people rather being free and helping others who were in the same situation to be set free. And enjoying life.
Why do you put your hair in pigtails....EVERY SINGLE DAY?????
To hide that she wears extension ls because she has no hair
Losing someone is one of the HARDEST things to go through-hell, even trying to process it is beyond tough. I donât think thereâs any right or wrong way to handle it. Itâs been four years since I lost my dad and Iâm still struggling to sort through everything before I can even hope to get any type of closure. So take your own timeâŠ.youâre allowed to feel sad, angry, happy, lonely, whatever you feel. You donât ever have to apologize. Grief is so complicated.
Why are you apologizing for not wearing makeup??? You are beautifully and wonderfully made by God, you don't need make-up to be beautiful
This video starts out being about Grandma but turned into a commercial about Jeffree Starr cosmetics.
but of course⊠tf else could we expect from this one?