@ Tina Bubnic We are the same age. I remember when Tori came out, I liked her. I couldnt appreciate the depth of despair And Humanity she emoted until maybe my 40s. 😊
I'm a native Russian speaker and English is my second language, so I prefer more Russian lyrics than texts in other languages, but this song has such touching and sensitive lyrics, so I couldn't share my opinion about this song. I like the words about the cage, and the girl is a metaphor, where the cage is our body, the bird is our soul. And if we kill our bird, we will be locked in this cage forever with no hope of further life.
thank you so much for sharing I found out recently i was born in the ukraine and my parents has hidden my entire geneology from me and did not legally adopt me but, rather, forge documents i would love to return to where I was born as I am not even considered human here as i am not legal
Oh Jesus, I need you to save me from my thought-life too; how can I stop thinking about the pain? Put the evil away now, and keep us in a compassionate heart ❤
In my time with Jesus this song came to my mind... as I often beat myself up.. but there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. We have a savior He died for every sin we would ever commit Past present and future Help us Lord to receive your love. Anyone who may read this... Jesus love never fails It is a love that meets us where we’re at and loves us enough to turn the tables over in our life and call us to face the truth. He reveals the truth of the conditions of our heart that yes.. keeps us in chains My heart is sick of being in chains of not forgiving myself for where I fall short. Only Jesus is perfect Only he can love us perfectly His prefect kindness His perfect truth His patience His Joy He is my peace. His words transform and Renew the mind. Only Jesus can set us free and deliver us from the chains of sin and death. I was going to journal this.. but I thought I would share here.. in case someone needs to hear this. Jesus reveals and convicts the heart There is so much freedom in repentance. I got relief from pain I was in the other day.. and more relief just now... as I’m reading In Matthew right now.. when Jesus was delivered up and accused.. he said nothing to his accusers. When was the last time you were accused... or did you accuse someone else? We’re you able to stay quite in the face of your accusers? Jesus stayed quiet. Why? How often do we crucify ourselves by accusing each other? Do we respond like Jesus did? The world teaches us the louder we speak... the more we stomp our feet... that makes us tougher and stronger... Jesus demonstrates something very different. And while there is a time and a place for all things... knowing the difference can make a world a difference. When you have Jesus you have Heaven on earth... Heaven doesn’t accuse... Heaven brings the truth to earth..... there are no liars or accusers in Heaven. My prayer is we get out of our own way... stop protecting our hearts... our shame our pain.. allow Jesus to break every chain. His words are life. Read believe and receive. Jesus is the light of the world.
Kourtney Towner hang in there, sister. Love yourself. (& try to have empathy & compassion for ur mother-tho, u prob do.) Stay strong 💪💜❤️. Things will change.
I moved across a country to get away from my family. I spent a month practically homeless living out of motels and now have a place but it is still a struggle out here 7 months later. I won't admit defeat and this is better than going back to being controlled. I am 34 myself with children of my own and you would think I was 14 by how I was treated.
The love of my life has walked out on me so I was looking for good song lyrics to get it inked and this song popped up herd once and now I cant stop playing this song lol this is so sad but its says what I cant say to you babeakinza I love you now and for ever until where together again ill always keep you in my heart
Lyrics: "Every finger in the room is pointing at me I wanna spit in their faces, then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in Just what God needs, one more victim Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day? I crucify myself and nothing I do is good enough for you I crucify myself, every day I crucify myself My heart is sick of being I said my heart is sick of being in chains, oh oh oh Chains, oh oh oh Got a kick for a dog, begging for love I gotta have myself a ring so that I can have my cross I know a cat named Easter, he says "will you ever learn" You're just an empty cage, girl, if you kill the bird I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in Got enough guilt to start my own religion Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day? I crucify myself and nothing I do is good enough for you I crucify myself, oh every day I crucify myself My heart is sick of being I said my heart is sick of being in chains, oh oh oh Chains, oh oh oh Please be Save me I cry Uh-huh, uh-huh Looking for a savior in these dirty streets Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in Where are those angels, when you need them? Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day? I crucify myself and nothing I do is good enough for you I crucify myself, oh every day I crucify myself And my heart is sick of being I said my heart is sick of being in chains, oh oh oh Chains, why do we Chains Crucify ourselves Every day Ah-ah, ah, ah, ah Oh, chains Oh, yeah Yeah, chains Ah-ah, ah, ah, ah Never going back again, oh Crucify myself again, you know Never going back again to crucify myself, every day" Love is the Only Engine of Survival
@@DarkMadamX83 hey, better late than never. Now we're down to 10 minutes! I also completely forgot about this video and will watch it again. Keep the algorithm alive!
I'm trying to remember what I said here.. it's gone and that pisses me off.. I'll just say thank you, 6 years later. CZcams is just a ridiculous dwarf of what it once was.
River Canyon dont killyourself. Stay in this life your life is worthful okay. Your family and friends will miss you if you do it and you will miss them but no its not selfish to commit suicide. Stay strong and call your countries suicide hotline and please seek proffesional help from a therapist or psycologist stay strong
You should think this was the best thing Clea Mykonos, Daughter of Sharra McDougal lent the winds of fortune before the disaster of her execution. Where for art thou be what surviveth thy dam Luverly McDougalls. Blessed to escape for all you generations the callow dirctives of the Imperium! Pauvre Tara. RIP.
+Du Garcia I know you quoted Tori from the piece ''God'', so I answered Tori and you just with my humble opinion. It would be really interesting a dialogue:Tori, you and me :)
She's saying it sarcastically (as far as I'm concerned/is what I always thought) As in-- yeah, just what God needs(meaning He doesn't) That's how I always took it anyway.
I Remember Back In Tha 90's I Seen Tori Amos and Was Aware That She Was Talented , But For Some Reason I Didn't Go Any Further Into Her Musical Library , Some T(Y)me Has Passed and Here I Am As If I Have Visited A 90's Kid's Gravestone , It Seems To Me She Is Angry At Tha Creator Of Thus Expanding Universe , and Spitting Into The Face Of God As If It Was His Fault His Onli Child Got Murdered , You See Jesus Is A Gift , A Gift To Humanity Forever OR As Long As It Can Survive , As She Sings "chains" With "crucify ourselves" It Is Dark As Fuck , A Dirty Bed That I DO NOT Want To Visit , I Think I Will PERHAPS Look Around Her Metaphysical Cemetary , Possibly In Tha Future , But For Now Lest Jus Shaye , Thaz Enough Venom and Rage For One Nite ...
sleepoptimistic OK , So I Lissened Again During The Flaming Vivid Sun Rize , It's STILL Dark , N E Hoo , This Song Is Violent As Fuck , I Wondered To Myself As She Says " CRUCIFY OURSELVES " , I Wondered Why I Don't Get Out More , and I Say Something As If and Such As , FUCK THIS PLACE ITS STUPID AS FUCK , But and Yet Who Is To Blame (???) , So If One Does Such As , As She Whispers , Doing To Ones Self , Such As Where Blood Pours , and It Is Drank As Such , The Angels Are Here Already and Fucking Crying In Tha Nite , So WHY Such Would Ask Violently , I Honestly Sorta PERHAPS Don't Understand , We Are Surrounded By What We Create For Ourselves , UNLESS As e(Y)e Walk Outside I Am Afraid Of The Chaos , But So Close To Rendering A Blade As A Grimth Reaps , Sorta Perhaps , I Dunno Thus SonggG Is Intense As Fuck , and I Have Realized That Even When I Fill Myself Greedily With Soft Sung Songs , I Fynde That I Am No More At Ease OR Without Spiritual Violence As The Robotic Slaves , Continue To Tripwire As They Laugh For No Fucking Reason , and We Them Us We Do It Because We Think It Helps , But As What Feels Like Sometimes , Onli God Knows The Damage A Self Imposed Crucifixtion Can Do , To Ones Own Soul , If Indifference Continues After Thus Chanting Then I Am Not Sure What Could Help , But Don't Blame My Opinionated Thots , Jus As In Tha 90's On Marilyn Manson , Blame Tori Amos ... . . . . . . . (by) - (the) - (way) --------------------------------------I Do Not Want To Hurt Myself Or Anyone Else .-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ALSO Thus Is A Good Song , But I'd Rather Lissen To STABBING WESTWARDS SAVE YOURSELF . BLARGH (!!!)
sleepoptimistic, I totally get what you're saying. your opinion is valid and it matters. I find her talented and the song is good but I feel somebody with religious authority did something terrible to her, I heard her father was a Lutheran minister or something so you never know. Greetings.
Thanks Gals ... , e(Y)e Have Yet to Jump Into Her Musical Forest and Such ... , Nothing Against Her (by) Any Means ... , e(Y)e Once Seen a V(Y)D of Her and MAYNARD JAMES KEENAN ... , Where Keenan Was Sitting With Her , As She Was Singing and Playing tha Piano , and He Sung as Well ... , and After Hearing About Her Terrible Misfortunes , , , My Brayne Poked Me and Said "don't worri , if anyone can ease that pain , Maynard can " ... , N e Hoo ... , Thanks For Keeping These Comments Alive ... , Gonna Check thus Song Out Once Again and See Where e(Y)e Stand After What You Gals Shared ... , No Promises on Anything in tha Near Fyutch but e(Y)e Shall Get There ... , Promise (!!!)
another mirror 😔 "crucified" by traumas (first time r4ped maybe at 12 years by people around my age until later abused by an adult when i was 17/18) "crucified" by these evil people in this horror house, who always cause very loud noises and that aggressive dog-rat of some of them which is very loud. It has bitten my pants, fell back so it missed my leg (this time, was bitten too as i was in school) "crucified" by the diagnosis which came with the new year: Multiple Sklerosis Sadly, depression has become much more so always fail to save me from this hell called "life". The c u t s are not deep enough 😖 And even "crucified" by the ignorance of the "surroundings". They act as if i am not with an illness that still cannot be healed. Heaven never cared and never helped. Cried when i was 12, thought about mum and "papa", prayed they would stay together. They have been divorced. And i lost religion. "Hell is empty and all the devils are here" (W.Shakespeare)
IT WAS 1993 WHEN I FIRST SAW THIS LADY ON MTV.....I WAS 13.....SHE SAVED MY SANITY....
@ Tina Bubnic
We are the same age. I remember when Tori came out, I liked her. I couldnt appreciate the depth of despair And Humanity she emoted until maybe my 40s. 😊
She helped me lose mine. I could get lost in an album, feeling like I knew exactly what she was conveying, it was nothing like what life was.
I'm a native Russian speaker and English is my second language, so I prefer more Russian lyrics than texts in other languages, but this song has such touching and sensitive lyrics, so I couldn't share my opinion about this song. I like the words about the cage, and the girl is a metaphor, where the cage is our body, the bird is our soul. And if we kill our bird, we will be locked in this cage forever with no hope of further life.
thank you so much for sharing I found out recently i was born in the ukraine and my parents has hidden my entire geneology from me and did not legally adopt me but, rather, forge documents i would love to return to where I was born as I am not even considered human here as i am not legal
2020 STILL HERE
2023 revisit awwwesome genius song 🎵 ♥️
Utter masterpiece.
It actually gives me n ideas for a story
@@persephonethebookdragon9520 do it!
*whoever needs to read this: You are not alone!!! Stay encouraged!!! I love you*
💜❤🙏💜❤🙏💜🙏❤
I needed to read that and I need to say that was kind and meaningful to me...thank u for posting
@@Noname-dg3pm stay beautiful inside and out👑🙏🏾😇❤️🥰
@@manalmanal7328 always⭐️💯
2021.....Tori still kicks ass!!
Still kicking ass in 24' 👌😊
My divorce song. Still brings me to tears 20 years later.
Emotions...
Oh Jesus, I need you to save me from my thought-life too; how can I stop thinking about the pain? Put the evil away now, and keep us in a compassionate heart ❤
I’ve been listening to this song thousands of times but that part at 2:30 always (and probably always will) give me chills
This Is The Ultimate Mix.
A Music Masterpiece!
Been on a tori binge this past week. ❤ thanks for ur beautiful music.
Me too, again. U r not alone. Lol
I haven't listened to these songs in for like ever!!!! But miss them!!!!
One of her earlier hits.. I love this track..
i seek this song since 3 years now i got it
2022 still my favorite
Yesss yup uh huh. Beautiful.
In my time with Jesus this song came to my mind... as I often beat myself up.. but there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.
We have a savior
He died for every sin we would ever commit
Past present and future
Help us Lord to receive your love. Anyone who may read this... Jesus love never fails
It is a love that meets us where we’re at and loves us enough to turn the tables over in our life and call us to face the truth.
He reveals the truth of the conditions of our heart that yes.. keeps us in chains
My heart is sick of being in chains of not forgiving myself for where I fall short.
Only Jesus is perfect
Only he can love us perfectly
His prefect kindness
His perfect truth
His patience
His Joy
He is my peace.
His words transform and Renew the mind.
Only Jesus can set us free and deliver us from the chains of sin and death.
I was going to journal this.. but I thought I would share here.. in case someone needs to hear this.
Jesus reveals and convicts the heart
There is so much freedom in repentance.
I got relief from pain I was in the other day.. and more relief just now... as I’m reading In Matthew right now.. when Jesus was delivered up and accused.. he said nothing to his accusers. When was the last time you were accused... or did you accuse someone else? We’re you able to stay quite in the face of your accusers?
Jesus stayed quiet. Why? How often do we crucify ourselves by accusing each other? Do we respond like Jesus did? The world teaches us the louder we speak... the more we stomp our feet... that makes us tougher and stronger... Jesus demonstrates something very different.
And while there is a time and a place for all things... knowing the difference can make a world a difference.
When you have Jesus you have Heaven on earth... Heaven doesn’t accuse... Heaven brings the truth to earth..... there are no liars or accusers in Heaven.
My prayer is we get out of our own way... stop protecting our hearts... our shame our pain.. allow Jesus to break every chain. His words are life. Read believe and receive.
Jesus is the light of the world.
Thank u so much for sharing. It helped me.
I'm 15 years old and I'm so glad my mom taught me good music because Tori is amazing
I'm glad she did too 😃 I discovered Tori in 1997, I never looked back ✌️
Love Tori she is music 🎼
I am 32 and still under my narcissistic mother's thumb and need music to help me cope until I have my open window.
Kourtney Towner hang in there, sister. Love yourself. (& try to have empathy & compassion for ur mother-tho, u prob do.)
Stay strong 💪💜❤️. Things will change.
I moved across a country to get away from my family. I spent a month practically homeless living out of motels and now have a place but it is still a struggle out here 7 months later. I won't admit defeat and this is better than going back to being controlled. I am 34 myself with children of my own and you would think I was 14 by how I was treated.
@@CherokeeSiren Best of luck...
@@CherokeeSiren 💝
💜 i understand ur plight
Love this song never knowed who song this a great artist hats off Tori Amos
When you only need to know what you really want and what you really need and still feel empty inside and out.
This song tortures my soul of haunting loneliness
Me too
Me three
@@Noname-dg3pm still does now x
That's the first I heard that song "Crucify" was the day I was coming back from Cornwall yesterday.
2022 still here
Merci pour le travail ! bizz!!!
listening on christmas seems alil ironic. much more of an easter song...
I'm listening to this on Easter :)
The love of my life has walked out on me so I was looking for good song lyrics to get it inked and this song popped up herd once and now I cant stop playing this song lol this is so sad but its says what I cant say to you babeakinza I love you now and for ever until where together again ill always keep you in my heart
Hey, Robbie~
You posted this comment 3 yrs. ago.
I hope you have a brand new Love! Peace ; )'
Teach Only Love
Amen
Like this song. Memory (1992). Now I know that the singer is Tori Amos.
Valentine vl danced to 0:28 in her black shoes LOL
Tori = GODDESS!!! 🥰🥰🥰
♡♡♡♡♡
I could have sworn the lyric, "i've got enough guilt to start my own religion" was in here somewhere.😮
This is not the original version.
THIS IS A GOOD SONG FROM LITTLE EARTHQUAKES
Best version of this awesome song!!!
[Without that god-awful booming drum beat throughout]
👌
Lyrics:
"Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces, then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach
I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
Just what God needs, one more victim
Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day?
I crucify myself and nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself, every day
I crucify myself
My heart is sick of being
I said my heart is sick of being in chains, oh oh oh
Chains, oh oh oh
Got a kick for a dog, begging for love
I gotta have myself a ring so that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter, he says "will you ever learn"
You're just an empty cage, girl, if you kill the bird
I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
Got enough guilt to start my own religion
Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day?
I crucify myself and nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself, oh every day
I crucify myself
My heart is sick of being
I said my heart is sick of being in chains, oh oh oh
Chains, oh oh oh
Please be
Save me
I cry
Uh-huh, uh-huh
Looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands, drive another nail in
Where are those angels, when you need them?
Why do we, crucify ourselves, every day?
I crucify myself and nothing I do is good enough for you
I crucify myself, oh every day
I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being
I said my heart is sick of being in chains, oh oh oh
Chains, why do we
Chains
Crucify ourselves
Every day
Ah-ah, ah, ah, ah
Oh, chains
Oh, yeah
Yeah, chains
Ah-ah, ah, ah, ah
Never going back again, oh
Crucify myself again, you know
Never going back again to crucify myself, every day"
Love is the Only Engine of Survival
nicely done
Yes, I found You! Nice Channel, friend! ; )'
@@DarkMadamX83 ✌💎
❤️
Ashley.. another good job with the Tori Amos.
Yes, I know I'm six years late... But still, good work.
@@DarkMadamX83 hey, better late than never. Now we're down to 10 minutes! I also completely forgot about this video and will watch it again. Keep the algorithm alive!
@@DarkMadamX83 try dirk hamilton "Meet Me at The Crux"
I'm trying to remember what I said here.. it's gone and that pisses me off.. I'll just say thank you, 6 years later. CZcams is just a ridiculous dwarf of what it once was.
So the "i cry" expression came from tori.
2022
Got enough guilt to start my own religion..
Major different version from album :) Always preferred this edit - Radio edit ?
I dont have to that my self other people will do that for me first and second family
January. 03. 2022.... ❣
Dear mom:
Thanks tori u helped a lot of gay redheads to me seriously even if it was one hahaha brilliant
I have to break the BLOOD line. I'll be the savior of my souls existence.
River Canyon dont killyourself. Stay in this life your life is worthful okay. Your family and friends will miss you if you do it and you will miss them but no its not selfish to commit suicide. Stay strong and call your countries suicide hotline and please seek proffesional help from a therapist or psycologist stay strong
2023 😇✨️🎼🎶✝️🎶✨️😇
You should think this was the best thing Clea Mykonos, Daughter of Sharra McDougal lent the winds of fortune before the disaster of her execution. Where for art thou be what surviveth thy dam Luverly McDougalls. Blessed to escape for all you generations the callow dirctives of the Imperium! Pauvre Tara. RIP.
Your just an empty cage, girl, if you kill the bird
Please release. Me Amy cause I cry oh oh
Isn't it an alternate version of the song? It sounds a bit different.
Why do we crucify ourselves? ??
That's the ?💜❤💚💙💛
Algum BR?
The True GOD do not need victims. Not at all.
+Vajolet B. God sometimes just doesn't come through
+Du Garcia Sometimes it seems to us i doesn't come, but it's a human fear, too strong anxiety and we do not see their signs of help.
Haha I just quoted Tori, but god to me is bullshit as is any religion.
+Du Garcia I know you quoted Tori from the piece ''God'', so I answered Tori and you just with my humble opinion. It would be really interesting a dialogue:Tori, you and me :)
She's saying it sarcastically (as far as I'm concerned/is what I always thought) As in-- yeah, just what God needs(meaning He doesn't) That's how I always took it anyway.
I Remember Back In Tha 90's I Seen Tori Amos and Was Aware That She Was Talented ,
But For Some Reason I Didn't Go Any Further Into Her Musical Library ,
Some T(Y)me Has Passed and Here I Am As If I Have Visited A 90's Kid's Gravestone ,
It Seems To Me She Is Angry At Tha Creator Of Thus Expanding Universe ,
and Spitting Into The Face Of God As If It Was His Fault His Onli Child Got Murdered ,
You See Jesus Is A Gift ,
A Gift To Humanity Forever OR As Long As It Can Survive ,
As She Sings "chains" With "crucify ourselves" It Is Dark As Fuck ,
A Dirty Bed That I DO NOT Want To Visit ,
I Think I Will PERHAPS Look Around Her Metaphysical Cemetary ,
Possibly In Tha Future ,
But For Now Lest Jus Shaye ,
Thaz Enough Venom and Rage For One Nite ...
sleepoptimistic
OK ,
So I Lissened Again During The Flaming Vivid Sun Rize ,
It's STILL Dark ,
N E Hoo ,
This Song Is Violent As Fuck ,
I Wondered To Myself As She Says " CRUCIFY OURSELVES " ,
I Wondered Why I Don't Get Out More ,
and I Say Something As If and Such As ,
FUCK THIS PLACE ITS STUPID AS FUCK ,
But and Yet Who Is To Blame (???) ,
So If One Does Such As , As She Whispers ,
Doing To Ones Self ,
Such As Where Blood Pours ,
and It Is Drank As Such ,
The Angels Are Here Already and Fucking Crying In Tha Nite ,
So WHY Such Would Ask Violently ,
I Honestly Sorta PERHAPS Don't Understand ,
We Are Surrounded By What We Create For Ourselves ,
UNLESS As e(Y)e Walk Outside I Am Afraid Of The Chaos ,
But So Close To Rendering A Blade As A Grimth Reaps ,
Sorta Perhaps ,
I Dunno Thus SonggG Is Intense As Fuck ,
and I Have Realized That Even When I Fill Myself Greedily With Soft Sung Songs ,
I Fynde That I Am No More At Ease OR Without Spiritual Violence As The Robotic Slaves ,
Continue To Tripwire As They Laugh For No Fucking Reason ,
and We Them Us We Do It Because We Think It Helps ,
But As What Feels Like Sometimes ,
Onli God Knows The Damage A Self Imposed Crucifixtion Can Do ,
To Ones Own Soul ,
If Indifference Continues After Thus Chanting Then I Am Not Sure What Could Help ,
But Don't Blame My Opinionated Thots ,
Jus As In Tha 90's On Marilyn Manson ,
Blame Tori Amos ... . . . . . . .
(by) - (the) - (way) --------------------------------------I Do Not Want To Hurt Myself Or Anyone Else .-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ALSO Thus Is A Good Song ,
But I'd Rather Lissen To STABBING WESTWARDS SAVE YOURSELF .
BLARGH (!!!)
I'm Always Late To Tha Party ...
sleepoptimistic, I totally get what you're saying. your opinion is valid and it matters. I find her talented and the song is good but I feel somebody with religious authority did something terrible to her, I heard her father was a Lutheran minister or something so you never know. Greetings.
Thanks Gals ... , e(Y)e Have Yet to Jump Into Her Musical Forest and Such ... , Nothing Against Her (by) Any Means ... , e(Y)e Once Seen a V(Y)D of Her and MAYNARD JAMES KEENAN ... , Where Keenan Was Sitting With Her , As She Was Singing and Playing tha Piano , and He Sung as Well ... , and After Hearing About Her Terrible Misfortunes , , , My Brayne Poked Me and Said "don't worri , if anyone can ease that pain , Maynard can " ... , N e Hoo ... , Thanks For Keeping These Comments Alive ... , Gonna Check thus Song Out Once Again and See Where e(Y)e Stand After What You Gals Shared ... , No Promises on Anything in tha Near Fyutch but e(Y)e Shall Get There ... , Promise (!!!)
Please be. Save me I cry
another mirror 😔
"crucified" by traumas (first time r4ped maybe at 12 years by people around my age until later abused by an adult when i was 17/18)
"crucified" by these evil people in this horror house, who always cause very loud noises and that aggressive dog-rat of some of them which is very loud. It has bitten my pants, fell back so it missed my leg (this time, was bitten too as i was in school)
"crucified" by the diagnosis which came with the new year: Multiple Sklerosis
Sadly, depression has become much more so always fail to save me from this hell called "life". The c u t s are not deep enough 😖
And even "crucified" by the ignorance of the "surroundings". They act as if i am not with an illness that still cannot be healed.
Heaven never cared and never helped.
Cried when i was 12, thought about mum and "papa", prayed they would stay together.
They have been divorced.
And i lost religion.
"Hell is empty and all the devils are here" (W.Shakespeare)
Please forgive these sad words
And then she never goes back. Just FYI.